im finally workin ppl!! believe it..llz.. jux dun expect me to serve u well if u were to ever come ard..hahhk.. 1st dae was quite okay actually eventhough i didnt had any idea tt puttin one's hand in the pockets show superiority.. like hello, they didnt teach tt in sch u noe, n its jux a gesture nywyaes, sumthin tt i got used to while livin all my 19++yrs of life..damn, jux explain lah..

tak faham bahase ke? bengap sak pompan.. AKU BENCI KAU, there i saed it.. n dun ever talk to me bout my face as if urs is like as smooth as baby buttocks, cuz it aint..

yes, everythin there is true, its jux me bein the super irritant tt i am once again.. i get really lost every single time, ppl noe tt im like fast in gettin things, but i am a blur at things tt i cant see myself.. i really tot gettin over tt wld make me happy, the old cheery self of mine, but it didnt.. i guess every little thing alwaes affects me hard especially if it were to come from ny of my greatest fwens, the few ppl who made so much impact in my life tt i CANT live witout them.. i nvr really specify who is actually in it cuz it gets updated in my "computer-generated" mind from time to time..

u noe the term "terbawak-bawak", yes tts wat alwaes happen, i get so caught bein the "im better than tt" person tt it gets in the wae of my lovely fwens as well.. yes, i realise it too.. i noe wat humble is, its jux tt i keep forgettin.. my actions now are wat im very used to eventhough sum of them are wrong, okay, slowly, gradually, these things will fade.. cuz i dun wanna offend the nicest ppl in world nymore, which actually means those greatest fwen of mine.. maybe u could actually point out my mistakes there n then, then i'll noe better..

it pains me to noe tt u lied to me, tinkin i wont noe.. like i alwaes saed, it alwaes goes ard to me.. first of all, at ur age, u shldnt be doin these kinda things.. its jux not right, ethically, morally, wateverlly.. come on lah, u have a whole life ahead of u, but all u wan now is to chase a temporary high tt draws back a whole lot of other consequences tt im sure ure not gonna like.. so tink before u actually do it.. i actually did fell for ur words, ur lies.. really, cal me dumb, watever.. up till i saw one tiny little thing tt confirms it all.. so no, dun blame it on nyone u let on cuz i got to noe on my own.. freakin pissed, but i didnt show it.. i shld, its jux tt i dun tink i have the power to heard.. save urself before its too late..

sumhow i miss feelin the pain in my heart.. tt pain tt sumhow feels like ur heart is bleedin..

ive finally comes to terms wit my decision.. its a tough one but i noe i have to n i wan to.. but i'll be ard when its over n new beginins arise.. well, i'll be there thru the process as well kays..

its been awhile since i did sumthin close to my heart, n im gonna prolong tis wait to my so-called fans, the wait will be worth while cuz ure gonna see the real me unfold.. *i saed i can sing^~

even when u dun actually go ard to tellin me, i'll alwaes get to noe sumhow, either sumbody wld tell me or i wld jux noe it myself.. its awfully freaky when i jux turn my head ard, look at a scene n noe everythin tts goin on.. yes, i noe u didnt appreciate my tiny bit of contribution..

initially i had wanted to blog bout u on a brighter note but sumthin i did was jux inconsiderably unforgivable.. u did wat u did, n it was wow, eventhough it was jux a phone cal.. u did it by jux saein sumthin to me, u actually broke down the wall tt i built, tt pretense thing tt i put up to shut out all forms of reality tt hurts me like hell, u made me realise tt those pains tt i will feel now, will only make me a stronger person.. thnx.. i wanna sae i love u but i jux cant cuz its feels furnie now.. but im tryin my best to stay as far away as possible from u, from both of u, cuz i keep repeatin the same mistakes, mistakes tt causes u to be in stressful situations, n tts not much of a help since ure facin a lot of pressure wit life..

for once i tot tt i meant sumthin to u, as in a fwen, a close fwen, like sharin watever we're goin thru, or help in decidin stuff.. well, u saed it urself, tt we are close, all of US.. watever happened to tt.. like one sec ure here, n the next im lookin at u from the outside, u have tt inappropriate behavioural crappy person as ur new found fwen, sumone u told me u actually hate before, i guess their everlastin presence changed ur mindset, like who am i to actually sae all tis things rite..

wat is literal again? oh, its adherin to the basic meanin of an original word witout further elaboration.. if u sae literally, it means like exactly, like no nonsense watsoever, so if u really did sae it then u actually do mean it, but why doesnt it seem tt wae, like im hesitatin whether to do sumthin for u this time ard cuz u didnt keep mine the previous time, so i guess u wont save it now.. but they sae u'll never noe so i tink i'll jux try.. okay, wat im tryin to sae here is actually tis - "how come u didnt keep mine but u kept his? arent i jux as important as he is to u".. i wonder..

i hate u so much for snatchin away my fwen(refer to paragraph 3), majority of my close ones, truth is, i hated u since the first dae i met u, u are jux not sumone to be fwens wit.. like ure an actor, a bad one nywyaes.. n now tt ure wit tis person, u changed him so much into being who u are, which is so not a cool thing.. then again u were never cool.. i jux wish tt u'd left, return to where u came from..yes, tis is bout tt inappropriate behavioural crappy person

ohh, did i mention, yes, i do noe u guys had tt so-called outin, i mean i noe its none of my business but i guess i jux tot tt i am sum wat of a lil importance to u to be invited, oh hell, im not..

*nuthin's ard to push me up^~