wat am i suppose to do when u keep askin for apology n when i noe tt i cant do tt cuz of wat uve done to me.. even after the promises.. like i saed ive been made into the bigger fool so now im makin u feel it the wae i do only three times more cuz repercussion hits wit thrice the price.. gd luck cuz u'll nd all the luck u can get..

i hate u even more now than ever.. to tink tt u already noe the reason y i hate u so much, u didnt have to go ard askin wit ur big nosy pig throttle.. fuck sia.. u get super worked-up over a fuckin comment n u blame it on me.. fuck off.. loser sia, then again u already are.. nywyaes watever tt i have saed bout u are all hard-cold facts tt u urself cant face.. low-life loser

*grant me tis wish, make me the happiest person on earth startin from 0408

im a survivor cuz im better than tt^~

things change.. too much tt i cant bear to jux sit n stare.. im doin sumthin bout it.. the mean side of me will soon come out in full force.. showin u tt im better than u are n wat u'll ever be.. IM BETTER THAN TT!! u are jux a self-centred bitch who tinks tt jux by usin ur looks which is UGLY btw will bring u far but NNOOooo!!!

seein tt shock expression on ur face when we met up gives me the satisfaction tt ive been wantin to feel.. guess u cant get the best of both world eh..hahhk.. u tink i care.. tellin me as if it wld bother me.. god damn it.. dun tell me if im not gonna be the first one to noe.. stop saein things tt u dun mean cuz i had enuff, enuff wit all the lies.. ive been cheated, shame on you if u fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice, guess i was made the bigger fool but guess wat, im gonna make u suffer a worst fate..

im givin tt "im perfect" look, tt ive not been usin for so long, now.. its jux a defence mechanism, so if i were to offend ppl i care bout wit tis then im sorie.. but i jux have to do tis towards certain ppl.. jux so to let u noe tt i am witout a doubt more capable n more distinctively prominent in tis world..

my bdae's in two wks.. wat material stuff tt i may get from nyone wld be bonuses in life..hehz.. but wat i really wan for my bdae is jux 3 simple things..

1)sumthin from an individual
2)sumthin else from an individual
3)sumthin ese from all my greatest fwens put together

maybe tis post is rather contradictin but i guess im in the state where contradiction is apart of me so bear wit it for a lil while..

Do you know that I still think about you?
Even though I know that it's too late.
Do you know that I'm still missing you?
Especially right now you're far away.
There's no need to for you to tell me that; "I'm sorry",
There's no need for you to tell me that I'm sorry,I said I'm sorry, I said I'm sorry...

I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking of you
I've got to find a way to stop you falling into my mind
I've got to find a way to keep myself from thinking...

its not fair, nvr gonna be fair.. i wish n pray for things to be the same wae..

JUX SO U NOE, GIRLS OUT THERE, IF U HAPPEN TO BE ONE SLUT WHO JUX CANT SEEM TO KEEP UR HANDS TO URSELF, FIRSTLY, DO JUX BOUT WAT U WANNA DO BUT DUN BLAME CONSEQUENCES TT U FACED ON OTHERS CUZ IT IS U WHO BROUGHT IT UPON URSELF, NXT, IF URE NOT PREGNANT DUN TELL PPL TT U ARE JUX SO U WANT PPL TO SYMPATHIZE ON UR POOR FUCKIN LOST SOUL.. THEN, GO FUCKIN TELL URSELF TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF PPL'S LIFE SO EVERYONE ELSE CAN BE HAPPY..

doesnt it feel like sumthin's missin when there's ahuge empty space in between every single moment tt ure livin in.. all u see are jux broken pieces of ur entangled life.. u try to break free but sumthin jux holds u back

kehidupanku di dalam dunia ini tiada erti lagi, biarlah aku membunuh diri supaya aku tidak akan kecewa lagi..
apakah dosaku terhadapmu hinggakan aku disiksa begini? mestikah kau melakukan semua ini hanya untuk memusnahkan kebahagianku? kita tidak pernah bersengketa namun kau masih berupaya untuk melukakan hatiku.. mungkin rupaku ini tidak menawan hati seperti apa yg kau inginkan dari jejaka idamanmu? sanggupkah kau melihatku menghapuskan segala-galanya yg telah ku capai selama ini..?

i woke up tis mornin thinkin of u
ur arrestin eyes in its brownish hue
i missed the soft lips n the gentle kisses
in a dozen mental monochrome pictures

i slept last nite thinkin of u
the wae ur palm felt when im feelin blue
in the white flashes n the pourin rain
oh how i ached wit a lover's pain

it might sound foolish, i've yet to see u
but stilll i yearn for ur scarlet clue
and so i wait, in the monochrome tone
for u to come into my zone

still holdin on till 0408 for more truth to unfold.. i wanna get on wit my life.. i've promise myself tt i will no matter wat happens tt dae.. hopin tt it'll be filled wit pure happiness.. 2 more wks to go..

*i can make it thru the rain
i can stand up once again, on my own
n i noe, tt im strong enuff to mend
n everytime i feel afraid
i hold tighter to my faith
n i live one more dae
i can make it thru the rain..

plan everythin n dun tell me.. fuck ar.. i'll still get to noe, tot u were nice but turns out not..
so freakin obvious tt u were talkin on the phone n didnt wan me to budge in.. act as if ure sleepin, wanted to sound sleepy plus pissed but NO-NO, try harder, u fuckin sounded too pissed, tts tt huge fuckin flaw rite there, try wae harder.. u act as if u guys are only fwens but ure not.. all the hidin, the msgs.. as if i dun go ard readin stuff.. infront of ppl u pretend when ppl turn their heads ard, there u go talkin all mushy like tts silence to other's ears.. use a silencer then.. when i point out tt one true fact of ur life, u deny as if the world's gonna end.. being super defensive is one more fuckin obvious flaw.. its so true.. jux come clean, be urself.. feel it.. now u noe who u are..

bein in the hip hop scene, there's tis thing cal bitin.. meanin copyin other ppl's dancesteps witout modify or wit modifyin but it still remain clearly similar, even transitions.. come on ar, doesnt take a genius to actually realise tt tt is happenin.. so fuckin obvious.. its gd enuff tt no confrontations are bein made in the meantime cuz i have had it to my brim.. the nxt time tis happens im so gonna fuckin voice out..

gold & white, really goin a lil further to make it more of like for u.. get wat i mean..

ppl jux dun seem to understand tt replyin is done when a msg or cal is received..