hey.. its my first dae in sch todae..hahhk.. the sch is okay but it will get better.. the ppl are okay... better than my sem2 class last yr.. though i still wish i'd run into her..

nywyaes, there's a dance prac for teachers dae later.. tis startin early for the wols ppl if u noe wat i mean.. hehe.. but they are gd dancers.. tis yr will be alot more impactful.. hopin tt none of us 8 will pull out or nythin like tt..

i tink its cumin soon.. real soon... as in the change tts suppose to happen like 5, 6 yrs ago.. im not gonna tink of the consequences or nythin like tt cuz i nd to change, as in really do.. no turnin back..no more.. n i tink there's gonna be more changes in my appearance... maybe.. if its wat im not too afraid of.. but i must sae i have alot in mind, tt is if my allowance allows it.. hopefully i wont look like those stereotypes, u noe the type to avoid from becomin..

have u ever care bout sumone so much tt u dun seem to realise tt u caring is causin tt person to see it as not.. maybe the amount is too much or jux an irritance though tt person likes u too.. haiz..

have u ever constanly tink bout sumone every single minute of ur dae n u wonder wether tt person tinks bout u too..

i dun tink i get over things easily.. i dunno if i have gotten over the past.. its inevitably hard.. but then there's no wae u can out run pain, u gotta fight it.. so its not hard, its jux painful.. i cant talk bout certain thing in here cuz ppl may get affected but its my blog n im suppose to be able to write bout nythin.. but then again nvm..

i got tis from bubz blog.. i guess now is kinda the time where ppl are sumhow throwin their love away..when u read tis, i guess u'ld understand better how the other party feels..

TIME GOES BY
Not a day goes by that I don't need you in my life. Was it something that I did? Tell me why.

And I can't get pass the pain.To you, our love is just a memory. Gradually, you slip away. And all I can say is, stay.

Can somebody please, stop this hurt inside. Although, your love for me has changed.

After all that we've been through, I still can't get you out of my mind.No matter what you say, I can't let go.

As time goes by, will our memories fade?Tell me how can you go on after all that we've been through?

I don't wanna go on without you in my life.Because in my heart I still believe that you will come back to me.

I'm begging you please, stop this hurt inside. Although your love for me has changed.

After all that we've been through, I still can't get you out of my mind.No matter what you say, I can't let go.

As time goes by, will our memories fade?Tell me how can you go on after all that we've been through?

I don't wanna go on without you in my life. Because in my heart I still believe that you will come back to me.

Do I ever cross your mind?Did you ever stop to cry? In my heart you'll always stay, don't let us slip away.

Though I've tried, I can't let go.You're still the one for me.

We can work it out.I still believe, you are the one.

As time goes by, don't let our memories fade. Tell me how can you move on after all that we've been through?

I won't let you go on without me in your life.Because in my heart we're meant to be in love.As Time Goes By...

finally, an entry from me..hahhk..llz.. the reason why i've not been postin lately is cuz of the sch hols n the disruption of home connection due to overdue of fees.. fine, its my fault entirely..
things are never gonna be the same thnx to all those selfish life-forms who are still livin to date.. how i wish they could jux perish in the sea or sumthin..

have u ever been hurt due to sumthin external? sumthin or sumone who interferes n acts as if tt person noes everythin in the world like an encyclopedia, the worst kind.. its utterly rubbish to fall in lurve wit sumone ure not suppose to (rite ying?)cuz its u who made tt decision.. tt is another story..

well well.. ive change the orientation of my room wit loads of pics n colourful cards on my wall.. all the pics were chosen carefully n the captions depict the true meanin of their(the ppl in the pic) existence in my life.. i jux woke up one dae(it was a monday) n decided to do everythin on my own.. i cleaned n scrubbed n washed n dust.. wow, as u all noe, im not the neat-freak-anal-organised individual but sumtimes u jux have to do wat u have to..

i've done pop toss.. jux nd to work on the arc thing.. my next aim is a uca liberty.. i noe i can do it.. n maybe twist one man, twist cradle n a toss..hehe.. believe..llz..

i've been givin it all durin my dance trainin.. carefully gatherin all the words of wisdom from hamzah n applyin it in my dance moves.. the thing about the crew rite now is tt certain ppl are intimidated by certain ppl.. i've been in both situation n i noe it sux loads.. the thing bout bein intimidatin towards other gives u a lil higher self-esteem which will work to a disadvantage as there's tis thing called complacent.. n when ure indimidated by a certain sumone, u get so low in esteem tt u dun feel like dancin nymore especially when ure so used to being one of the best.. its goes to show tt how u actually take things in ur own stride causes u to have ur own perception towards it..

i realise tt i've been rather nice towards certain individuals in the squad n i must sae tt tis certain person is treatin me back like shit.. at first i didnt have nythin against him.. gradually, i tried to be nicer cuz im not really nice to new ppl.. well, tts when the shit thing started.. there were a series of events tt led to me havin decided tt tis is true.. so from now on i wont be treatin him nicely w.e.f 4pm at the unity sec bridge..hahhk..crappin.. u noe wat i mean..

hollerback was cool.. esp click five..they sounded so nice.. got to noe tt the vocalist actually when to far east plaza to shop at the shop tt jun is workin in, talk bout luck.. im so in lurve wit how mysteeq work their jeans n make-up.. they looked like the krumplers from missy's video..cool stuff

antm n o.c is on rerun everydae in the wee hours of the mornin.. watch them if u missed out last time.. who's gonna be on..

i bought my first mascara n mind u its maybelline xxL.. so proud to own one actually llz.. tts how my mascara guru will sound like everytime.. its ying btw..hahhk..

tis sat there will be a performance by sphyntrix at zcc n not forgettin sphyn'D'max feat. fi_s'funk.. n maybe after tt i wanna go over to tanglin mall for the flea market tt happens every third sat of the month n every sat on june n dec..

ohh yar, remix will be tough tis yr cuz there's alot of crews ard.. nywyaes, havin to noe tt tis certain egoistic creature is not wit nyone thrills me.. its sumthin tt will hit u when u leave n tinks its for the better but its not.. n when reality hits u, its too late to turn back time..hahhk.. serves u rite..

it gives me a sense of satisfaction when im bloggin bout someone in a not so dicreet manner n tt sumone comes up to me n ask me "are u referin to me?".. llz.. i jux sae no lor.. shawn's line: saper yg mkn pepper, dia yg rase pedas..

it pains me when i actually found out tt sumone is not bein let out of her hinges when she really wans to.. so much for followin ur dreams..

* i nd a touch, hugs n kisSes.. fulfill me wit every of my desire, accept me for who i am n wat i've become..*

my life, u tink u noe, but u have no idea..