had a dance performance at meritus mandrin last sat n then did cheer routine at clementi cc jux in time.. felt so joyous at wat we've achieved together.. after tt we went to bpp n did cheer stunts together till kena screen by police cuz 12 plus already.. then sleptover at sidik's.. didnt sleep tilll bout 4 like tt.. woke up feelin dizzy.. had another performance at teck whye sumwhere.. were late.. hahahk..all sidik n fadli's fault cuz they wake up really late.. sumone had to kick mail's dick to wake him up....hahhk..furnie.. after performance ate at blk 26 then went to cck to do more stunts n lepak.. eventhough i was damn tired already.. went home at 6 plus i tink.. then ate sumore n watch tv before goin to sleep.. skipped sch the next dae.. met shawn to buy hamster cage at bukit timah..cheaper there n got a whole lot of variety.. the owner of the shop let loose their pet dog n i was so afraid of it.. shawn kena lick..hahhk.. went to eat n then played pool.. improvin tremendously.. thnx to shawn.. almost won tis one game but nvm.. went home to set up the cage n put my new hamsters into their new home.. so very the cute.. both white wit a little greyish patch.. still dunno wat to name them.. ny ideas??

onyx is so cool.. my first inside a club.. n it was a very great experience.. the place was more relaxin than ever wit really nice songs.. was rather hesitant to try redbull vodka but eventually i did.. taste nice but the after taste sux.. was chewin ice to cure my thirst.. whisky dry sux even worse.. ohh yar.. i got in for free.. hehe.. ate at 7 eleven after tt.. took a cab home.. naz sleepover my house cuz he got not enuff cash.. still mad at him though.. nywyaes.. i hate the feelin of not knowin.. y is it so hard to come clean.. fwens tell each other stuff.. still waitin for tt..

didnt realise tt i was hurtin shawn by wat i saed, actually by wat i didnt sae.. for all tis while, everythin tt i saed are the the things i mean.. i really am sorie.. believin me maybe hard considerin the fact tt im not alwaes serious, but believe me, i only sae things that i mean.. unless of cuz if i sae otherwise.. sumtimes im not clear at expressin myself but i do noe for sure wat are my emotions.. missin all my fwens real bad cuz i dun see them enuff.. i nd cuddly hugs cuz to me it projects the feel of love in a friendship.. hug me plz...

had so much fun ytd.. met ban at jrg lib.. he help do my hair n most importantly, help figure out wat looks best on me n how it will look durin performance.. boo was there too n then liyana came n arie.. really nice to see them n for them to see me perform.. hehe...felt the love or sumthin like tt.. i pushed myself to give it all for them since they came to see me..hahhk.. really totful of me.. took pics but i guess it wasnt enough..(vain me) shawn didnt bring his camera n ayu's batt died..how i wish to have a camera of my own.. nywyaes.. went to jrg ent to eat before watchin movie.. met ban, boo, liyana n arie at LJS, the vibe was so wrong.. i kinda rescued the situation..hahhkk..as if.. movie was nice.. boo's kakak sedare was "esther santos" in it.. as in the ghost but it was kinda furnie cuz certain scenes reminded me of the mad-woman wit the leher longgar at cc the other dae..hahahhk.. the best part would be when i scream at the very wrong moment- while the man wanted to pull "rosa" away from the locked gate.. kinda stupid.. but i really tot tt it was the ghost.. after the movie we went outside jrg lib n ate..sang sum songs together but alwaes abruptly spoiled by shawn.. great feelin.. hope the picnic will be carried out soon..

been quite sick since two daes back.. tryin not to give up n prac harder for upcomin performances.. last mon didnt prac cuz ppl were late n the person got other things to do.. hopefully todae will not a repetition of watever happened then.. tues the person came down n taught us the dance , i came late cuz of dance rehearsal, suprised to see only a tiny part was covered.. kinda stupid but worth the cash.. ytd had sophis prac n teachers dae at the same time n place.. CA taught us pop ur collar which is kinda hard.. still unsure of closin song.. n positions.. pressures already boilin.. sdc performin as well.. hopefully my fwens will come down.. nd alot of help from ban as usual.. gonna miss sophis prac todae.. dunno how to survive.. nywyaes.. im obviously not a freak cuz u are.. watever tt i have ever sae is the truth n u noe it so freakin shit admit it.. an attempt to turn over a new leaf will not improve ur social standing nor it will help u improve in nythin else.. who the hell existed in who's world.. it has nvr been ur world.. u noe better that ppl dun like u cuz of ur damn stupid behaviour n that braggin bout every brand u can tink of..so wat, materialistic fool.. take a hint fucker, its all ur fault.. i wasnt actin in front of u but rather findin the right moment to fuck u upside down.. n u freakin did make up stories.. things like tis will leak cuz ur fwens dun even like u to begin with..

feelin really tired todae, been practicin alot with no rest daes.. not helpin out my team members cuz i dun noe nythin n oso cuz im too tired.. later todae goin to a dance rehearsal.. dunno wat to expect but i jux hope its not one of those stupid dance thing.. meetin the rest at 6 at bugis.. dunno when it will finish though.. cant skip sch nymore cuz i did tt 26 times already.. sch break comin but seems so far away.. gotta slave myself to and fro jux to sit in class n pretend to pay attention for better grades..hyprocrisy.. ohh yar.. i finally did it.. expressed my watevers to tt creature who tried so hard to be a bitch but dun seem to be near at all.. the only thing she has is cash.. nuthin else.. dun noe y she trust her fwens cuz things alwaes get out nywyaes.. go find ppl wit ur kind of standard to make fwen then u'll get to tell them stuffs cuz rite now u tink ure wae up there which is nvr the case..

my hectic schedule is back again.. i hate tis.. though i love to perform the thing is i have to remember a lot of things cuz only 2 performances is a repetition of the other.. the other 5 is a whole diff thing.. 6 if u count openin n closin at jrg lib as 2... meanin a total of 8 performance.. cant wait to perform n cant wait for things to finish... causin too much energy consumption.. im not complainin though, jux tellin.. hahhk.. as the saying goes "i can make it thru the rain", it still lives on strong in me.. well here's the list of performances.. i forgot the other one i guess..
12nd -cheer at fullerton
13rd -dance rehearsal
21st -dance at jrg library(twice)
24th -teachers dae rehearsal
27th -cheer sumwhere
31st -teachers dae

my bdae was well-celebrated eventhough alot of ppl werent in close proximity.. was covered wit eggs at the end of cheer prac tt dae.. feels kinda sucky n fun at the same time..mainly naz's idea.. thnx shawn n shaz for the presents.. still waitin for ayu's.. hahahk.. got a kiss from harny n lots of face to face wishes n sms.. ohh yar.. before tt we went to unity bout the performance n turns out we dun nd to audition.. kays.. the nxt dae meet liyana at lot1 to eat.. first time she's actually 30min late.. but it was worth the wait.. suppose to meet her tis sat but i cant make it cuz of rehearsals..

didnt update blog cuz i got nomore internet connection n i've not been goin to sch.. i noe its my fault cuz i didnt pay the bills for like 3 mnths..hahhk.. will be payin as soon as i get nxt mnth's allowance.. nywyaes.. as u all noe my bdae is comin in like 2 daes time.. i've got no such expectation or watever they cal it but i have only one hope... n tt is to spend the dae wit my dearest fwens n have fun like last time.. so if u read tis.. plz make my one wish come true..