Fermemberwhen. Moving.

Happy New Year!!!!!!  It's a new year with new possibilities....I truly cherish this holiday....is it a "holiday"?  Whatever it is I love it.  A time to look back at the year past and be thankful for all the the meaningful moments and it is a chance to build hope for healthy shifts in the new year.
So the shift that I will be making is to unite my blogs into one.  This blog is a beautiful reminder and record of our adoption and now that we are 1 year home and in the swing of life as a family of 5 I am ready to transition.  I realized that the areas of my life (family, art, thoughts, etc.) are well, one big life so they just need one big blog.  I will still be posting pictures and happenings of our family, as well as my art and life observations.
I sure hope you follow me over to www.Harmonysart.blogspot.com and follow along but if not, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support and encouragement over the last few years.
Happy New Year.....Happy Life!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxo-H

Fermemberwhen. It's A New Year.

I am here....
Wrapped in the cozy love of a week at a cabin with my sweet, grizzly man and my soft, squishy babies who are only babies in my eyes....forever.
Now I am here, back to my daily life, back to the ghosts of my past and future.
Let them go, stay here....but I can't...
One is my best childhood friend who took her life and some of mine with her.The ghost of her encourages me, yells at me, makes me strong, then turns me weak....much like she did during our earthly time together. Yet she is addictive, even in her ghostly state, maybe even more so.
She holds a cloud of sadness over my head, toying with the line. Chuckling as she makes it rain or pulls it back to reveal a touch of golden warmth on my upturned face. Then she releases the line just as I begin to smile at the light and returns the gray.
I am here in my sadness and guilt but as the New Year approaches, I must move on.
Time to let go.
Time to forgive.
Her.
Me.
It is time.

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Fermemberwhen. Hands of Time.

I had the strangest feeling on the way to the airport on Friday, well maybe for you parents of older kids it won't sound so strange.  Maybe you'll read this and nod your head as the familiar emotions come flooding back, but for me it was a first.  I was on the way to the airport, alone, to fly to Wisconsin to visit my parents for a few days.  As I was driving on the freeway I realized that at that same moment my son was on a school bus on a different freeway heading to a field trip and all of a sudden I felt so far away.  I felt the panic start creeping up from under my already itchy wool collar.  "Wait, wait for me," kept running through my head as I pictured us at a fork in the road taking different turns.  I could barely breathe, it was like the hands of time swooped in and stole all the air from my chest as I struggled to get a gripe.  It was in that moment that I realized that my son, well I guess all my kids, are going to have their own experiences and with these experiences there will be risks that I can't prevent and there will be joys that I won't be part of and I will have to learn to let them go and to have my own experiences.  So as I boarded the plane by myself a part of me felt so alone and kind of sad and another part of me was enjoying this time by myself and was excited for what life has in store for me as I learn to let them go.

Fermemberwhen. Favorite Friday Fotos.

Have a wonderful weekend!!!

Oh, and stop over at my new blog and follow along: A Year Of Grateful Moments

Fermemberwhen. Wordless Wednesday.

Fermemberwhen.One Year Ago.

One year ago today we held our Baby Girl for the first time.....We will never forget that moment!! Here is the video I made last year: Click Here