I JUST MET THEM, MY LOVERGIRLS!

Yes, believe your eyes.
We JUST met! Like finally.. HAHAHA.
And for a belated birthday celebration for Ngoh.
Ask me when was her birthday?!!!
Haha. 27 September la.
Sorry lor. We 3 also don't know why supppppper busy. =)
Still, true friends will stay so lovey forever, even though we don't see each other often.
Eh this year not bad leh. Met twice liao.
HAHAHA.
Normally like 3 years once la. -_-"

Anyway, since it was Ngoh's birthday, naturally she'd get her presents!
And I got her a polaroid mini 7s.
She loved it to bits! HAHA.

Exploring it.

Wow! The first photo!

What we took. I know, you can't see it clearly.

My forever love, Zhen.

My another forever love, Ngoh.
And we've been friends since 1999 leh.
10 years anniversary!!! =)

My X'mas present from Zhen.
Thanks my darling, so thoughtful of you!
Cos she wanted me to match it with my dress =)My all time fave, HEART!

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HAHAHAHAHA!
How can we look so fucking dark huh!
Ok, thanks to netball I know.
Still, how can I look so fugly?!
My teeth! My clothes! My face!
EVERYTHING!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

HAVE A GOOD LAUGH MANN~ =)

I'm afraid, of losing.

Whenever things start to go out of my control or not in my way, I think of my friends.
Because I know all they want is for me to be happy.
Thus, I have to be.
For them, for myself.

I thought of what Mel said.
"Count your blessings".
This is what I tell myself and what I do.
Be contented and don't expect anything.

I am so afraid to complain.
Because I picked this route myself.
I try not to even feedback to you.
Because I feel that I don't have the "authority" to do so.
I refuse to admit.
But I think it's all because I'm afraid of losing.

Festivals are meant to be spent with your loved ones.
Did you managed to?

Right or Wrong.

I have always been very proud of my "talent".
And that's being able to speak accurate and fluent mandarin.
But in Singapore, at times people's comments make me feel like a freak.

"Wa! Speak madarin with you very stress leh. Relax la."
"Eh, can don't speak to me like as if you are on radio not?"

These are insults, I feel.

The mandarin I speak is what we call "标准华语".
It's meant to be spoken like this in the first place.
So, why should there be a 标准 before 华语?
But if you don't, I totally understand; that's because we're in Singapore.
A country which emphasizes more on English.

For me, I'm this way today because I have interest in Mandarin.
I feel confident when speaking it.
Plus, I respect this mother tongue of mine.

On the other hand, I don't deny that your remarks affect me.
I start to speak just pure Singaporean mandarin.
In turn, my job is affected.
Because I don't really bite my words that hard on air now.
At times, I miss out the 'h' in words.
And that's definately something bad for me, for my job.

So, from this moment onwards, I'll start speaking my "标准华语".
You take it or leave it.

emo first then... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I have so much more to say in this post.
Still, I managed to keep it cool.
And here's the super edited and much deleted version:

To a couple in relationship, friends can be an aid or an obstruction.
I feel that sometimes friends pose problems to a couple, obviously.
Especially when you don't clique with your bf's friends or your bf doesn't clique with your friends.
This sucks.

For me, I make an effort to let YAYA be in most parts of my life.
This includes friends.
Because I feel that it would be great to have him around at all times.
And my lovely friends welcome that totally.

No matter what, friends should NEVER be an obstruction.
If you can't be an aid, be supportive at least.
Otherwise, leave.


Fuck it.


Because THIS'S THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS, MY FRIENDS!
May you guys be blessed with love and health.
I LOVE YOU! =)

Series of Happenings!

Last weekend, my family and I went to Malaysia- Pangkor Island and Ipoh.
It wasn't a superb trip due to the super lousy planner.
Still, I enjoyed the superrrrr long bus journeys and we managed to capture some really nice photos!
I especially love the sunset ones.
For full range of photos, check out Facebook.

And, despite the rushing trip, I bought stuff!

Happy lorr!
A Hush Puppies dress,
"Felicia" "Darren" necklaces,
Squashy swiss roll keychain,
Mini blanket (that i've always wanted!) from Watson's,
Squeeshy eggs &
Lion pencil case!

*****
Then on the just passed Tuesday, a visit to Sizzler's at Suntec.
With Yihao, Glenn, Yaya, Kaining and Fabian.
Why Sizzler?
Because my dear yaya went there on weekend with his friends and he loved it!
Sooooo, he wanna bring me there. =)

Ok, look what a combination Yihao got from the salad bar.
Tuna + peach + egg + corn = WEIRD!

Another weird.
Fabian's ice-cream.
I didn't had time to eat! =(

Look. Another one. Yihao's weird la, seriously.

*****
Next up was Shonia's birthday on Wednesday!!!
We went Wang Jiao Cafe, cos of the SUPER BIG milk tea!
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dear!
For full range of photos, check out Facebook.

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Alright. This is just random.
Because I couldn't resist the Christmas Trees.
And yaya was forced to take photos with me.

Recently...

Campus Reporter 2009 was successfully held at Heeren last Saturday.

I was a little busy, as I was in charge of the finalists.
HAHA.

On the following day, Sunday, it was my uncle's wedding.
We had a lunch buffet and a wedding dinner.

And if you think that the photos are well taken, it's because....
Our family bought a Canon Digital Ixus 120!
HAHA.
All because I said I had no camera to shoot the Campus Reporter event.
Daddy, being my NUMBER ONE fan agreed on buying one on FRIDAY night.
HAHA!
And all I paid was S$100!
=)

Anyway, I'm heading for Ipoh tomorrow morning with my family!
Will be back on Sunday.
So, I'm a little excited now.
HAHA.

It's just another emo moment.

I don't know if I will be able to do so, but I will try.
And that's to... "Expect lesser".

I wanna free myself from pain.
I wanna stop being disappointed 10 out of 10 times.
I wanna end all despair.

Instead...

I wanna treasure what I have now.
I wanna thank God for everything in my life.

I really don't know if I will be able to do it.
But I hope I will feel a teeny happier this way.
It's a tough fight. Still, I will try.
Because this is the route I chose.
And this is the only way I can treat myself better.

Sometimes, I feel lost.
Very.
But I know for a fact that I have my guardian angels with me.

Thank God. =)

Filled with activities neh!

Sometimes I really wonder if there's a defect in my brain, somewhere.
My memory is failing me, terribly.
But why?! I love broccoli lae.
And I know how stupid I am, but it's really worsening.
I guess there must be some hidden mental illness somewhere.
OH NO!

Anyway, the moral of the story is.....
I forgot to update the photos of recent activities.
Yet, I thought I did.
Alright, don't even try to console me by using the word "BLUR",
because I believe there's definately more to it. =(

OK! PRAWNING! With Yaya, Kaining and Fabian (Kai's bf).
We tried out the one in Pungol Marina Country Club.
For the first two hours, guess how many we fished?
TWO! = S$10 / prawn (S$30/ 3 hours).
WOW right!
Then there was this group who went home and..
They gave us a big fresh bag of C. HUM! =D
Therefore final results, 24!

Next was...
Bukit Timah Hill with no sleep at all after prawning!
HAHA.
And yes, we made it!
BUT!
The journey was fucking tedious!
And I told yaya to slap me if I were to think of going there again!
And yes, Glenn's planning the next trip soon.
BB.. How?!

My everything.

Since young, out of the three children, mummy always says i'm the most independent of all. I thought so as well and believe this somehow has something to do with me being the second child. Neglected, often.

Until i had you in my life, things changed.

I no longer had to be independent and needn't had to depend on myself for everything. No matter what, I know you'll always be there and I'll have someone to fall back on. These make me feel very handicapped without you.

That day I asked you.
"Bb, do you feel like my big tree? You hold on to the responsibility of sheltering me from everthing and you're just so reliable." You said yes.
"So in this case, do you feel that you've to hang in there no matter what? Because you have me to look after." You said yes and continued joking, asking if I'll hide under you when there're lightnings striking.

What I wanna say is...
Even lifts in CMPB are given a break during weekends. Moreover humans? We get tired.

Therefore Bb, you may continue being your big strong tree. Meanwhile, I'll try to transform into a small growing tree to ease your burden. This way, we get to support each other no matter what season or weather to come.

Just like yesterday, I know how much you hated climbing the bukit timah hill. Still, you went. Throughout, you were tired too. But you persisted there for me, knowing that I need you.
I'm aware that you've been trekking behind me to ensure my safety. Even if I were to fall back, i have you, this big fat worm as cushion. Haha.

Thank you, my Bb YAYA. =)

My luckiness..

I really feel my luckiness in life and thank God for it.
Every little thing counts...

Being a mild overweight from sec 1 to
the obesity today, I seldom receive snarls from people around me. And I do know how nasty can people get at mocking at fatties. The feeling sucks.

Most importantly, my friends in my life. Be it if you're here to stay or just a passerby, I'm sure we had fun. Because I hardly had to deal with sickening politics and am sure of your genuity towards me.

Last month, the worst days of my life.
I saw how my friends stood by me.
Some told me yaya's not worth.
Some told me cracks would only continue to crack even more.
Some cried with me while listening to me talk about us.
Some were really angry with how yaya treated me and wanted me to give him up.
Some wanted me to continue the way I loved yaya, for he will be back.

No matter what it WAS, thank you my friends.
Because when you guys knew we were back together, you all did not even hesitate to support me, support us. Even those who wanted me to give yaya up so badly last month.

Whenever we talk on the phone or thru the net, all you guys wanted to know was that I'm happy with what I have now and that I'm doing great! Lastly, that you will always be here no matter what.

Thank you my friends.
I know I've said these N times.
But I sincerely appreciate and love you guys!

Another lucky thing in my life is-
To have met and have you in my life, my BB yaya.
I believe you may not be the best boyfriend in this world, but at least the best yaya that I can have. If I were to list out your good, I'm sure you'll get snatched away. So I'm not gonna do that. The most I would say is what you just copied after me yesterday. Haha. "Honesty is your best policy." I thank God for having you in my life and hope that you're here to stay for good.

Also, my dream job and course is definately the work of God and wonders if luck.

I just feel that I'm grateful for all that I have today and I'll continue to "Treasure love and Love life."

Hello Postman!

I enjoy online shopping a lot.
Things are extraordinarily cheap and good to use.
The anticipation is just so exciting!
And I simply love to receive packages in the letter box.
It's just like I pay small money for the items and yet I get big happiness in return.
Upon receiving and opening the packages makes me feel as if it's Christmas, always.
HAHA.
Oh! It's more fun when you receive everything that you order at the same time.
That means you don't know what you'll get upon opening the package!
HAHA.

Oh. My nails this time round.

Freaking cheap.
3 layers of nail polish, base+ glitter tip+ big dust.
And!
My not-so-nice sulpture.
=
S$30/- only! HAHA.

Though my bright pink sculpture doesn't suit my base, all thanks to the manicurist, still, I love my nails a lot a lot a lot...
My pretty nails just brighten up my day everytime.
HAHA.
If only yaya has time to go in JB with me frequently, I will have more pretty nails to share!
=)
But I bet he wouldn't want.
Because that means he has to wait for a 2 hours everytime while I'm enjoying the process.
All alone, slacking on the sofa until he falls asleep accidentally.
Poor boy. HAHA.

超级推荐!

I think S.H.E's book is worth buying.
Not only because I like them.
But it's interesting to know that they CAN write.


Selina's stories are less nutritious, I feel.
Very much of her. Jealousy, princessy, vain-pot, etc.
Hebe's writing is too chim for me. (WOW!)
Still, much of what she wrote make big big sense.
Ella's most touching and easily understood.
Can you believe that I cried a few times because of what she wrote?
Ok. I bet you can. Cos, I just love to cry. -_-"

The book is freaking thick. Worth it!
I've been reading bit by bit for days and.. the book just doesn't seem to end.
HAHA.

I would pick out a few points of what I think they said is SUPER true.
Then, I'll share it here.
Which means...
I've to read the book from scratch again.

Well, I'm just so free like always.

Anyway, JB today entittled me with PRETTY nails!
Which means, I'm happier because of that.
HAHA.
And... Cheap cheap buys from Watson's!
Plus cheap and good food!
I think it's only right that we earn big money in Singapore,
and spend small money in Malaysia.
=)

Bloody 195!

I don't really like my slot at 883.
1600h - 2000h.
I can't have dinner.
I can only leave at 2000h, even when my last talk break ends at 1950h.

And you know how uloo CMPB is right?
The atmosphere here is stale and scary!
Another sickening thing is...
There's only ONE bloody 195 that takes me to MRT station.
And the frequency of this bus is incredibly low!

See what I mean...

It's 31 MINUTES!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
The ONLY bus to MRT station.
Sucks.
Fuck.

Copy Cat or not?

HAHA.
If you've ever seen Yaya dressed in this way,
have you ever thought that,
"Eh? Quite fashionable and good-looking hor?"
It's ok if you don't think so. -_-"
But I do leh.
Hehe.
Because, I'm the stylist la.

Below: "Artiste" Darren Ho
(Top & Bag from Thailand,
Necklace from Genting,
Watch from Puma,
Belt from 77th Street,
Jeans from Messy,
Sandals from Beetle Bug.)

Below:
Artiste "SS501".
(Wonder if you remember that I've mentioned my love for them before.)
Notice Kim Hyun Joong who is circled in red.

His attire familiar hor?
HAHA.

I think I'm kinda successful in copying dressing.
HAHA.
Don't you think so?
Just the sandals alone is already a success.
Plus the jeans.. WAHAHA.
Oh.
Actually the top which I bought from BKK is meant to be oversized.
Cos Kim Hyun Joong's is.
But, it turned out to be fitting lae.
What to do?
Still, I love it when yaya dresses this way.
帅！:D

Oh.
Please leave a note on tagboard to book an appointment with me la.
Charges apply. =)

My loves.

I am happy to have such good friends.
Just like my guardian angels, always there.
Call me a crybaby.
But I'm really touched.

Just one SMS, one simple action says it all.
You all love me.
So do I.
Thank you and I appreciate with my life.
=)

I often get misunderstood for many things.
Without further asking, you guys back me up like always.
Thank you.

With my guardian angels, I learnt to think on the bright side.
I laugh when I'm happy, cry when I'm down.
I do not hide.
Because I remember the fact that life is short.
I want to treasure all that I have.

Just like me, Yaya gets misunderstood.
Not often, but always.
Different from me, he keeps things all to himself.
Many times, he doesn't share.
Not even with me.
I feel for him but that's his choice.
Still, I hope there's this day when he opens up himself to all.
Because, sometimes, silence kills.

Now, I looks things from another angle and that eases me from pain.
And this is what I want.
"HAPPINESS".

Fucking idiot.

I slept at 2 this morning.
When I was sound asleep, I felt my hp vibrating.
It was 3+am then.
I answered.

"BB! Someone stole my wallet!"

I only remembered saying..
"Huh then how?"

Well.
There goes a S$615 LV.

Fuck you thief!
I seldom curse at people.
But, I'm really freaking angry and pissed.

Do you know the story behind the wallet not?
Do you know how much the wallet meant to us?
Do you know that I bought the S$615 wallet with only S$620 in my bank account?
Do you know how hard I planned for that suprise, just to commemorate our 3rd year anniversary?
Do you know how careful BB was with the wallet not?

Fuck you bastard.
FUCK YOU!

Why are there just such people on Earth?
Camp is supposed to be the second home for all NS Men.
Yet, people in there steal things from their home.
What kind of logic is that?
If you can't afford to own a LV, well, accept the fact!
Why resort to stealing?

ARGH.
An insider thing we guess.He left all BB's cards behind.

I hope you will get convicted by the law someday.
Or, your whole house gets stolen another day.
Best, your gf also get stolen.

FUCK YOU, ASSHOLE!

Some kind of realisation.

I just saw this as a friend's status on facebook.

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding onto someone who don't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak, but means that you are strong enough to let go."

It just sounds soooooo true.
But just how many people can achieve that?
A task which seems simple, yet tough.
Fcuk.
I so feel the words.

我就是我。

I think you should read this.
Please.
It's not too hard, simple Chinese.

真正“知道”陈美洁的人，就应该晓得我的个性真的很直。
我说话很少拐弯抹角，相反地，常常命中要害。
就因为我太直了，所以我从来没有想过这会为我带来什么太大的问题。
说话常常不经过思考就无心的脱口而出。
就连得罪了某些人，我也没发现。

我想了一下，觉得造成那么直的我，你们也功不可没啊。
哈哈。

在家里，一家人，我们有话就说，有屁就放。
衣服，妆，好看就是好看。
难看就换掉，抹掉。
从不用掩饰一些什么。

在工作，大家都很好玩，都开得起玩笑。
你想想，对于Krystal 还有 Calene 这两个人的性格，我们根本就没有什么“不能说”啊。
所以，造就我有话就说，有屎会到厕所去拉。

在883，我想更不用说吧？
大家靠嘴巴吃饭，各个口齿伶俐。
我根本就是小case。我说真的。
和 Mel, CY, Darryl 混久了，根本就像家人了。
我嘴巴变得更贱，和他们说话聊天也无需避讳些什么。
我们用言语攻击彼此也都毫不留情。
有话就说，有屁就放。

再来，和朋友在一起。。。
Yihao, Zhen, Shonia, Glenn, Zilei, Joanne, Yilong, CheeWee， 等等。
我完全释放，毫不保留。哈哈。
为了我好，Yihao 常常会说一些不中听以及别人不敢说的话。
“你真的很肥你知道吗?! 大腿和屁股也大到不行了! 赶快去运动!”
我们彼此就是这样子。
那么直接，那么无需客套。

就这样子啊。
我变成了今天的我。
口齿伶俐，嘴不饶人，直接。

There was once when I was working, I was chatting with this colleague.
He told me that he used to score SUPER badly when he was in Primary school.
And his dad thought he was an idiot.
Then I realised that he did not attend Nursery, K1 and instead, started off with K2 and hence he couldn't catch up I guess?
He was born in China and came back to Singapore only when he was 5.
Having pure Singaporean parents, he said his mum went there to give birth because many of his family members are in China.
After considering much factors, I asked something very very....
Brainless? Idiotic?
I don't know how to describe.

I said..
“你是领养的是吗?! 其实你是中国人的儿子，可是后来被你现在的父母领养。”
My god!
I'm just soooooooooooooooo like that.
I didn't consider the fact that he may not like what I'm saying.
Still, I feel very apologetic for having said such thing.
Haiz.

现在我知道了，说话前，最好经过我的小脑。
话，可以说。
但至少要婉转点。
比如，与其说- “我很讨厌”，我可以说- “我其实不是很喜欢”。


Anyway, if I've ever attacked you verbally, or somehow let you feel uncomfortable...
I am SINCERELY SORRY. =)
I know I must not have meant it.
It's just me.
But of course, I hope you can accept me for who I am.
Otherwise, I'm still sorry.

It's been 8 days...

I haven't been blogging for a long time.
That's because I don't know what to say, what to write.
Or worse, I don't know how to tell you about the ME now.

That day, I watched "The Sister's Keepers".
I cried throughout.
I'm happy that I didn't waste my hours watching the show for nothing.
And that's because I come to realise again that life is short.
Be it if you're happy or not, days go on.
So why not be happy?
Plus, I am basically nothing compared to those people fighting to sustain life.

Now, I'm not thinking that much anymore.
I cry when I'm sad.
I laugh when I'm happy.
I love you the same way I did.
But do you know how amazing you are?
Because you seem to have a remote control, taking charge of my emotions.

Oh!
And thanksssss to the people around me, I'm starting to exercise regularly.
Shonia and Yihao checks if I exercise everyday.
Glenn and QQ brings me to gym.
Plus the many out there who told me how pretty I'd look if I slim down.
HAHA.
I do hope that there would be such a day huh.. =)

*My whole body is aching from yesterday's body combat and power yoga.
Freaking ache I mean. HAHA.

fcuk my life.

I feel so freaking lonely.
Especially on such a rainy day.
Words not entering my mind.
Rain doesn't stop pouring.
Ok. I know there's no link.
But I just feel like fcuk.

Just when will these days come to a stop?!
I really hate it.

And I tend to worry more about you when it's raining.
Please be VERY safe my dear.

Fcuk SIAN.

Haiz.
I totally have no mood to study.
And my freaking useless brains are not helping me.
I don't seem to be able to absorb anything..
This sucks.
Because all I need now is to memorise.

Fcuk.
I seriously hate my life.
In the past, i would at least have a motivation.
And that's to meet you for some post-exam activities.
Now?
I have nothing.
I hate my life without you.
Really.

The 2 hearts- broken.

Sometimes I find some of Zilei and my conversation soooo funny.
HAHA.
She just brightens up my sad and gloomy day.
Because she is just sooooo nonsensical!

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
anyway
I wanna go genting
you wana go?

felicia- now i know. says:
genting no angmoh leh

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
i dont mind
GAMBLE

felicia- now i know. says:
dont want

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
hahahhahahahh
huhhh why everything also dont want

felicia- now i know. says:
haha
i wanna be home girl
and i no money!
haha

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
disappointing aye
i also no money
work then got money
hahah

felicia- now i know. says:
and dont ever have the thoughts of going there to win money!
because sure lose!
HAHAHAHA

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
NO
I DONT BELIEVE

felicia- now i know. says:
HAHA
this kind of attitude= sure lose!
HAHA

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
HAHAHHAHA

felicia- now i know. says:
i just went in july leh genting

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
abit boring right

felicia- now i know. says:
then my bf will be so everywhere there!
HAHA

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
AI YA
I also go genting with my EX BF
he will be EVERY WHERE ALSO

felicia- now i know. says:
SIAN hor
fcuk
i cannot take it leh

ohsokyer http://lowfat-box.livejournal.com/ says:
that time he still force me to take a roller coaster
force!!!
cause i was hanging on to a lamppost
then he dragg me

felicia- now i know. says:
since then he was already a bastard
haha!

Anyway, she mentioned that she threw away ALL her flowers from that bastard ex-bf.
To think that I still had a post, months back, saying how envious I was.
Fcuk.
I feel so ashamed, somewhat. HAHA.
Good riddance for her, I guess?

What about me?
Haiz.

I'm eating the hotdog prata now.
Your speciality.
Now, it's bought.
Because i have you no more.
Fcuk.
Life sucks.

Our cute names..

I often easily get distracted during mugging time.
Food, TV, weather and most importantly, Internet.
Now my blog is one big distraction as well.
No no no.. I guess you are the biggest distraction la.
Nothing stops me from thinking..

I was thinking of our petnames..

Before we got together officially, I called you "LaLa".
And that was because you liked to 'lalala' in your SMSes.
After we got together, I used LaLa and everyone started calling you that when talking to me about you.
Regan, Cheewee and even Bingwang used LaLa.

Then, I thought that LaLa was a little tough for me to use it for 撒娇.
So, I transformed LaLa to YaYa.. HAHA.
But, that became exclusively for me.
Only that irritating Jolene loved to say 'YaYa' to mimick after me.
And right after that, she just gets it from you. HAHA.

For you, initially you called me 'dear'.
Then somehow or rather, I started calling you 'darling'.
And you, as a fat copycat, followed after me and changed your pet name for me to 'darling'.

Following, I suddenly had this urge to call you "baby" because I thought you felt like one.
So, I started calling you "baby"..
Then, there was this day when we were opposite the Safra bus-stop, going to Simei's Pet Safari (I think) and you were joking around with me.
You said.. "我是BB Ho，你是BB Q.."
You didn't complete the Q in time, but I realised that you wanted to say 'BBQ'.
And we started laughing.
Because you didn't say that on purpose and the BB-Q thing just came to your mind.
So, for a period of time you kept on calling me BBQ.
I guess you thought that this name suits me to a tee and it portrays how fat I am right?

Then when we went for our Thailand trip, there was a SUPPPPPEEEERRRR fat pig performing Maths Q & A and it's name was... BBQ.
So, you started happily laughing and smugging away..
Probably thinking that I saw my twin huh?
HAHA.

You are just so cute la fat worm.
But thinking of your cuteness saddens me, quite a lot.

Well, back to mugging! =(

State of Mind, WIRED.

Sometimes I really think that I will just go bonkers and develop some psychological disorders (HAHA. This module's psychology la). Definately not depression and anxiety ones though.

Because you know what?
I dream of you every night.
Sometimes, just a little. The other times, whole night.
I really don't know why!
And obviously, my dreams are not within my control.
That sucks.

Every morning when I wake up, in my head there's only..
"Yaya, Yaya, Yaya, Yaya, Yaya, Yaya.."
Then, I've to embark my brand new day, with you everywhere.

And the worse thing is, at times I can't really differentiate my dreams and my life.
It's like, we talk, laugh, hug, play like what we used to do, in my dreams.
The next minute I wake up with the sweet images in my mind.
And I've to tell myself..
"Oh, you've just woken up from your DREAMS! Remember, DREAMS ar."
But everything seemed so true lae.
HAIZ.


Anyway, yesterday Steph was studying in my room.
And we started talking about the toy poodle again! HAHA.

S: If we buy the dog right, where to put him?
F: What where to put? In the house la.
S: No, as in he can't be walking everywhere ma.
F: HUH! Why not? Of course walk everywhere la. Then?!
S: Eeeeee. Cannot! Got animal dander and the hair! Better tie up.
F: Huh. My poor dog has to be tied up?! What the hell you talking?!
S: Of course la! Dogs are always tied up what.
F: Where got?! Go out kena tied, at home also tied?! So sad...
S: HAHA. Then what?!
F: We can put play pent what. Like wanzhen's dog like that.
S: OOOOOOO. Ok ok! Good idea. Then when wanna play then take out?
F: Ya. Correct. But! Our house got no space for play pent also leh.
S: Huh. The walk in lor. Remove all the shoe racks.
F: Cannnot la. Later people see him cute, try to steal how?! Expensive leh!
S: Hmm (Thinking hard).. OH! The living room! Throw away the 2 sofas!
F: HAHAHA. Throw away?! You siao ar. Mummy will kill us!
S: Huh. Then how. The dog stay where??
F: In your room la. Anyway you not sleeping there le (*grins*)
S: No no no.. Cannot. Ok la. Living room good!
F: You really wanna buy the dog huh?! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

It was just sooooo funny talking to her.
HAHA.

Pets Day!

Last Saturday, Joyce, Steph, Ken, Alas and I went to Yanni and Wayne's houses to view their loves!
SUPERRRRRRRR cute la all.
Most importantly, they are very extremely obedient and tamed!
Not like that kuku naughty Bun boy.
And, because there were four new born, Alas went with an intention of adopting one.
Well, as long as it's not mine, the responsibility is not on me, I'm fine. =)
Anyway, they are still considering if they wanna get one.
Because mummy is SUPERRRRR against it, like always.

I went Aljunied NTUC with Steph today and she spotted a toy poodle.
MY LOVE!
And she was shockingly attracted to it as well!
HAHA.
Then I was like.. "Cute right?! I wanna buy next year.."
Then Steph decided to not adopt the rabbit anymore.. =(
Because, she finds dogs more interactive, like obviously right?
HAHA.
So yea. I must psycho her into getting the dog with me.
Best, sponser a bit. =)

I seriosuly don't know what you want and what should I do.

My boy, two.

Ah ma was changing the bed sheets and was arranging the soft toys on my bed to be out at the window for a sunbath.
And they include, my mini eeyore pooh tigger piglet, dale (you won for me at pasar malam) and cock-eyed monkey (you won for me at 2008 TP CCN day).

Knowing that I love them a lot, you liked to hide them up several times when you were here.
And when I was about to sleep, I'd realise that one of them, or a few of them had went missing. Then that's when I'll ring you up and ask for clues that leads to them.
But of course, you'd sound VERY happy and smug knowing that I can't find them still.

But BB, you're sucha copy cat.
Because I was the one who invented this game at your house, by hiding your beloved must-have-pillow in the highest cupboard.

Still, I guess I've never told you before that I loved this hide-and-find game right? HAHA.
You're just sooooo cute Yaya. =)


If only we had a chance to play such childish but entertaining games again.

What a job >.<

The employee from this company is out of love and still has to listen to...
"NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE", the song which she wanted to play on her wedding.
Not only that, she can't sound a trace of sadness and emo-ness when talking.
Professionalism means she has to sound happy, joyous, elated!
And the employee is just soooo fcuking professional that you will think that she just won a few million dollars from Singapore Pools!
WOW.
The best job in the world huh.

Anyway, Willis said Liping and him will witness my wedding, with this song playing.
SO TOUCHED!
But, I didn't have a chance to reply..
"Eh, you 2 help me sing live on my wedding la! Be it nice or not.."
HAHAHA!
Appreciate laaaaa.

And this song never fails to make me cry.

(她)非常的潇洒！

I have this gay friend..
And he's out of love recently.
So I was talking to him on FB.
And he said..

"I'm sad and frustrated, but I'm gonna move on.
Because I know I have criterias and I'm gonna find someone better.
If I keep being sad, who is going to pity me when I'm old and all alone?
No one de!
And, I changed 6 angmoh BFs (all below 30 years-old) in 2 years leh.
So, the next one will be better!"

WOW!
Super 潇洒.
But, I'm not leh.
I guess we're different from him.
Somehow, somewhat.

Am I making sense?

Being on-air all alone with the love songs never fails to make me vulnerable.
I feel so down now.
Yet again, listen to how chirpy I am.

I love to read my friends' blogs.
I'm really happy for them when they mention how in love they are, how sweet their other halves are, etc.
But I also can't help feeling FCUKING jealous.
I mean it.

And I just can't stop myself from thinking about you.
Every hour, every minute and even every second.
This feeling sucks although I'm always thinking about the happy times we had.
But at times, or always, my thoughts run wild. VERY wild in fact.
HAHA.

What if you don't come back anymore?
What if you just don't love me anymore?
What if I were to die suddenly? Will you be sad and regret?
What if I just meet a guy and be together with him?
What if I have to migrate and never come back anymore?

I never knew that I had such abilities of imagining.
But I think I am correct.
As in, I know very clearly that I lovee you and I want to be with you.
I don't wanna wait any further to have any regrets in future.
But I know that you need time yourself now.
So it's kind of a contradict thing.
HOWWWWW?!

Haiz.
I don't know la seriously.
But I think I really needa start preparing for exam already.
=(

Recently..

For this whole week, I'm doing 6 shifts.
Hence, feeling freaking shagged now.
Still, one more shift + 883 to go tomorrow.

And, I haven't been studying lehh.
SHHHHHHHHH.

I was reading Women's Weekly today.
The real life story-articles are quite interesting.
I know that it's never easy to maintain a relationship.
But I guess it's even tougher to let a marriage work.
Especially when all men cheat.
This sucks.
Still, I thought about us and I think we can do it.
Because Leos are faithful and I know what kind of a person you are.
I really wanna be with you, together, forever.

I saw a picture of a bedroom and that is the design I want ours to be.
I don't want a room by myself anymore, because I wanna snuggle with you everyday.
I don't want a 3-room flat anymore, because I want a room to be used for our clothes and also also another to be a study room.

HAIZ.
Now, these are all nothing but THOUGHTS.
Imagination.
Thinking that you are still mine.

The thought of you not coming back and forgetting me eventually hurts me like crazy.
My life sucks.

Ups AND Downs.

Work from 0745h - 1700h today.
There's this 26 years-old colleague who applied for flat with his gf.
I asked him, how long have they been together, he said he doesn't know, because they broke off for 1 or 2 years once, plus some other little breakups here and there.
It suddenly strike me that, if two are meant to be, eventually it just works out.
Perhaps Lionel is right.
I am only 21.
I am not mature enough to handle a relationship that can last all the way till marriage (Supposedly, 2016).
But it really saddens me that things turn out this way.
It hurts me, alot.

Then there's this 24 years-old guy who has been with his gf for 6 years.
He said it's not easy to walk till this stage.
They quarrelled, and still quarrel.
But, they talk things out and solve their problems.
And he has plans to marry his gf, who is his first love.

I feel so lonely without you.
I am trying so hard to not think.
But I can't.
I wanna call my friends up, but I know I should disturb them no more.

My bus rides are so lonely now.
Because I know I can't message you saying how cold I am anymore.
Still, I miss you telling me that you are sorry for not being to ride with me and to protect me from the cold with your hugs.
Now, all I do is to stare blank on the bus journeys, missing you.

I really really miss you a lot do you know?
I feel terrible.
I hate myself for thinking of you every little second.
And I hate myself even more for thinking that I will spot you somewhere.

This morning, I saw someone who looks like you from far.
The dressing, the Crumpler bag that you have.
My heart stopped beating for a moment, and then I told myself it can't you.
Worse, I start imagining that you will surprise me at my workplace, coming to send me home.
And if you don't, I tell myself that you are at my house downstairs.

I hate myself.
I really do.
I don't know why am I thinking of this, and of that, when I know it's not right and I should just stop it.


Fcuk.

I know I'm random,

I realised that I made sooooo many posts just for October.
But this is my space for my thoughts in the first place right?

Anyway, I was reading my archives.
And i realised so many sweet stuff about you.
I was able to write it down last time, but I didn't exactly treasure.
Or never really "realised".
I'm sorry.

Also, it's been a long long way back that actually I don't honour my promises.
It's just that I didn't realise it myself.
I say stuff like I wanna upload certain photos, but I mostly didn't.
Not because I delibrately wanted to break promises.
But because I cleanly forgotten!
Really.
Can I change my brains away?!


And I so miss you.
I so miss us.
In so many posts, I stated that we will be together forever.
Because you said so, and I thought so.
But now? ...


I am having headache.
I have numbed hands..
Why?
HAIZ.

Just thinking...

如果爱情能够被存放在保温瓶里，永不退烧，那该有多好？
但，如果有心，许多周围的事项都是可以化成保温瓶的不是吗？
都怪自己，从没那么想过。
又上了一课啦。

我很不喜欢自己每天都那么忐忑不安。
每天不自觉地就会想起你。

我真的不想把4年变成回忆，变成过去。
它不能够是进行式吗？

Heavy price in exchange for a lesson.

Recently I've been paying much attention to couples.
Not only those on the streets but also those that i know of.

A few weeks back, I told Joanne..
"Aiya! Break with your bf la. He so kuku.."
But yesterday I said..
"Before you break, better consider well. Don't end up regretting like me. And if you think you love him, just hang on to the relationship no matter what."

HAIZ.
Really learnt my lesson la.

Then today when working, this colleague who knows yaya asked me,
"So how's Darren? Is he very busy in camp?"
I stoned for 3 seconds and said..
"Yea, quite........ And anyway, we broke up already."
It shocked him and all he said was, "Sorry".
And I appreciate that. Because he knows how I feel and therefore no futher probing. =)

I asked him how long has he been together with his gf.
He said 3 years plus, almost coming 4 years.
Then I overheard another colleague saying he has a gf of 4 years 1 month.

FCUK.
HOW JEALOUS!
=P

Still, I asked them.
"How do you maintain your relationship?"
Because I wanna know and true enough, I learned something.

How important is this lesson.
And what a huge price I'm paying for in exchange of these knowledge.
If only "SORRY" is the magic word that in turn results in "FORGIVE".

OH!
I collected my iTouch.
And it totally doesn't look new to me at all.
Just wrapped up with no box or whatever.
But the girl emphasized that it is NEW.
AND AND AND..
I've to go do my skin and screen protector AGAIN.
Sian. Cost $ lehhhhhh.
Lastly, I don't know for how long must I charge it for.
And do I just plug it into the com?
I forgot to ask.
And realised that you were the one who did these stuff for me.. =(

God.....

My angelsss.

I am sorry Yihao.
I am sorry Zhen.
I am sorry Chengyao.
I am sorry Shonia.
I am sorry Melvin.

I am sorry for keep bugging you guys.
Seriously.
I call when I miss him.
I call when I'm crying.
I call when I'm not ok.
I call every now and then.

But you guys always say.. "Anything call me ar" at the end of our calls.
I am sorry.
But I am very very very thankful as well.
I know you guys have your own life.
Your own love.
And may be just superrrrr busy.

Still, you all pick up my calls without fail and I will feel superrrr a lot better after that.
You guys know just how much I need you right?

I really appreciate.
And, a big big thank you! =)

My boy...

I opened the fridge just now and saw that there's still fresh millk!
The shocking thing is..
Why is it still there after so long?! (Not expired)

Then I realised..
Because you haven't been here for a long time.
I know you loved to stealthily drink milk from my house and will plead guilty when I caught you red handed. HAHA.
Or you will just simply keep bugging me for the milk.
And when I pour you a tiny tweeny cup, you will finish it in one gulp and ask for more.
Just like a big kid.

But I guess I've never told you this before.
I lovee it when you act like a kid.
Because you looked so cute and I know you only do that do me.

I miss the kiddish you.
I miss all of you.
Howw.

Wa-Wow!

I thought that I can no longer cry.
But apparently I can!
And I'm shocked by my own crying ability..

I know I'm a cry baby.
=)

I read a few of Keshia's old posts.
It feels so me.
The life with no YOU.

I remember praying for her.
And now, she has a sweet life with HIM.
I feel happy for her.
Because I know what it feels like now.

But I don't seem to be able to write out how exactly I feel.
I only know it's-
Terrifying.
Terrible.
Pure PAIN.


What about me God?
What plans have you got for me?
I'm sure you know how I feel right?

Still trying...

Friends are sooo important to me.
I know there is just so much they can do and the rest I've to depend on myself.
Still, I'm really grateful.

Thank you Chengyao.
You know you never fail to knock sense into me.
You just tell me the most important stuff in this world.
And the best thing is you guide me along.
You tell me what must I do when I'm really freaking lost.
You're just so important you know...

Now I know.
For the next 2 weeks, my life will only constitute of 3 parts.
Work (5 shifts!) + Study (Really must start!) + Friends.

I will try my best to not think of anything else, though I know I can't.
HAHA.
I try la huh. I know I can't anyhow promise now =P

Still, a big THANK YOU to everyone of you.
I really appreciate tonnes.

I survived 12 days without you BB.

Updates..

Ever since you left me, my friends have been taking over your job.
They look after me, they date me out and they're 24 hours on standby for me.
They call me every now and then, afraid that I'm bored at home.
Even Wanzhen whose sooooo busy with her work has been planning to meet me.
I feel so touched and I really appreciate.


It's been 11 days.
Whenever someone asks.. "How you doing?"
I say.. "I'm fine." Because I really am; Fine but not great.
I think of you every second, be it if I'm at home or out party-ing.
I really miss you a lot.
I always wonder, where you are, what you doing, etc..
But I no longer cry, because I placed you in my heart and I feel you every now and then.
I tell myself that you are there. It's just that I'm not able to contact you..
And I see you and your family in my dreams every night, I wonder why...

Just how long more can I take it?
I don't know...
Haiz. Howww.

感慨。

我曾经有一段时候很羡慕那些与另一半分手的朋友；
就觉得是一种解脱。
但是，我现在更羡慕那些与另一半在一起很久的朋友。

或许。
这就是名副其实的“失去后才懂得珍惜”。

现在的我真的懂了。
可是。
那又怎样呢？

囧

ARGH.

I've really gotta bring my iPod for servicing tomorrow.
Wanted to do it yesterday but ended up at SPCA.
Wanted to do it today but couldn't wake up.
So, tomorrow is the last day!
Because after that I don't know when I will be in town besides work.
SIAN.
Why must that bloody waterbottle leak?!!

Ok.
Anyway, i can't decide where to go on Saturday.
Because, daddy & mummy can't decide if they wanna go Malaysia!
And because of that, I can't decide if I wanna go Dbl O on Friday.
And then, I don't know if I can go cycling on Saturday.
DUHHHHHH >.<

充实的一天

Yesterday Shonia was telling me that she and R thought of doing voluntary work at SPCA.
And my first reaction was..
"Have you ever been there?! Do you know how smelly it is not?!"

Then somehow or rather, I decided to check out the adoption gallery website of SPCA.
And..
I saw this..


I thought he looked cute here with the super "Please Love Me" look.
And the best thingS are..
This dog is a HE and is a mix of POODLE + Maltese.
So Shonia and I decided to go have a look.
And IF I happen to like him, I MAY CONSIDER adopting him,
at an affordable price of S$145.
Plus do you know how hard it is to spot small dogs in SPCA?

Anyway, we went there in the afternoon after my work just now.
And...
I didn't even managed to catch a glimpse of him because he was adopted EARLIER TODAY!
Like fcuk la. But i know maybe God found an ideal home for him.
So, all the best Kenji!

And and and!
Shonia decided not to be a volunteer at SPCA anymore.
I guess the cats and dogs there feel relieved now..
MUAHAHA!

Oh and I just came back from the Korean BBQ Buffet AGAIN.
I totally can't believe that I could eat. Maybe the price was the cause.
Because for the past 6 days, the calories of amount of food I consumed hardly mounts up to a bowl of rice. I suppose la.
So yeah. I'm not gonna eat tomorrow I guess?

Anyway, Glenn is my ATM!
HAHA.
Because I haven't been paying for the drinks we had at Iguana and the food today..
Thanks Glenn!
I try to let you copy more of my quiz next module ok??
But provided if Joanne let me copy hers.. HAHA.
No la.. Remind me that I owe you money..
(Though I'm broke and may pretend that I forgotten. Like what Yihao always does..)

And.
If only you "happened to" read this, I missed you so today.
But I'm happy that I managed to suppress myself.
=)

如果我变成回忆

I have always knew the existance of this song.
But, I have never knew that the lyrics were so touching.
The bf with heart disease is singing out his fears he has for his gf.
And the singer Tank has hereditary heart illness in real life.
He doesn't know when will he not wake up from a sleep anymore.
He doesn't want and don't bear to leave his gf all alone in this world.
But one day if he really do, he want his gf to forget him.

How cruel?!

Compared to such people, my pain is nothing.
Because I know that you will always be around.
But promise me that you will take care of yourself for the time being please.

Anyways, enjoy the MV.

SIAN.

I wanna start on my school work.
My application papers and to start preapring for exam on 31st.

BUT!

I have no mood!
HAHA.

HOW?!

Thank You ANGELS...

I feel so relaxed now.
Yihao is right.
God took you away from me, but HE gave me them.
It's just an ordeal that I have to go through in life to be a better person.

I really appreciate..

Yihao and Zhen-
They are 24 hours on standby, ever ready to listen to me cry, to my craps and everything.
They took over Yaya's job of taking care of me.
I just know they are always there.

Shonia-
Listening to me for hours, sharing with you what we went through for the 4 whole years.
Telling me what a good bf I had and that I didn't treaure him. HAHA.
Reassuring me that I can call you for anything..

Mel and CY-
They rushed down to meet me from home, knowing how terrible I feel.
Gave me hugs, counselling and advice that's realllllll important!
Mel took care of all our expenses (food, drinks, transportation fare) even though we are all broke!
Aww.

Calene-
Giving me advices that really had impact on me.
And telling me that I have you with me.

Koh Chee Wee-
Telling me you feel me and all the realistic stuff that literally shatters all my dreams..
HAHA.

Madeline-
Giving me advices and most importantly, stay by Yaya.

Glenn, Joyce & Zilei-
Knowing how fcuk I feel and will always be there for me.

ShuLing, Zhenxiu & Sabby-
Wanting me to take care and that I will do good. =)


I never knew that I have so many people caring for me besides Yaya.
I always say that I have no friends, but now I know I do.
I really appreciate dang a lot.
Really.
Thank you guys soooooooo much.
For Yaya, for my family and for you all, I will do fine.


I know I can, because I survived through the 4 hours of love songs..
It's like a big thing huh. HAHA.
=)

This is out of my control;
But I know you will come back for me when you are all charged.
Good night.

Conflict.

I feel so cruel to myself when I'm on air.
I feel so sad upon hearing these non-stop love songs.
What 《悲伤止步》，
what 《Always My Baby》,
what 《Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You》 that I wanted to play on my wedding,
what 《其实你不懂我的心》 and
the 《喜欢你》 that you liked so much BB.

Every single word of the lyrics is stabbing hard into my heart.
Yet I've to sound so chirpy, so happy.

I'm bleeding inside.
I feel so much like crying.
But I know I can't.
I'm trying so hard to be professional.

But it's not even been 15 minutes. How to endure?

$$$ flew away...

I feel sad for not working at Singapore Pools today, 0800h - 1430h.
It's sucha GOOD shift that I simply love cos I can continue 883 at 1600h..
But, I just gave it up!
I should've been able to wake up after just 2 hours of sleep.
I should've went.
Regret!
Because this means money flew away...
And it's the second time I gave my shift away in just 5 days..

AWWW!

The third day...

I feel much peaceful today.
I went for a photoshoot, being the superrrr unprofessional makeup artist.
View Glenn's for the products!

I know I have many people caring for me out there.
I know I will move on.

Thank you Zhen and Yihao, I know you guys know how important you are.
Thank you C, I really appreciate.

I know how worried my parents are.
So, I gave mummy a big hug when I stepped in the house just now.

I will continue to cry when I feel like it.
Because I cannot erase the fact that we were once a loving pair.
Because I cannot erase the memories we share.
But just as I promised, I will learn as I cry.

I will stop myself from pestering you and I will inform my family not too.
Because I know this is all I can do.

Still, I hold on to the believe that you will come back for me, someday.
And I will wait, patiently, because I know I lovee you.

My excruciating pain.

I think of you every second and I see you everywhere.
On my way to dad's office, I saw CDC students doing bike practical.
I see your happy fat face in my mind.
I hear you telling me about which wrong route you took and how much you wanted me to support you physically. Because you said you can do better with my presence.
Then, Uncle and ah ma asked..
"So what is your bf doing? How old is he?"

Everyone and everything is reminding me of you...

Daddy asked.
"So how are things between you and Darren?"
I kept quiet.
I scared I can't control my tears and will just break down.
But he knows. Mummy knows. Steph knows. Alas knows.
We broke up.

It's been years back since I cried on the bus.
And that was the first time we broke up.
Today, it happened again.
I feel so useless. But I just couldn't not cry.

BB.
I'm holding back myself from calling and SMSing you like what I did everyday.
Instead I divert all my messages for you to Zhen.
I wanna pester you no more.
I'm trying. Really trying very hard.

God, help me please.
I don't know how long more I can take it.
But I promised you, I'll try...
Till the day you come back for me.

I will...

I will listen to Zhen and Yihao.
I will cry; But I will learn and move on as I cry.
I will be good and I will be fine.
I will start eating today because I don't want you to worry about me.

I know you love me.
So do I.
I promise I will wait for you patiently.
I know I don't honour my promises.
But for you, I will try.
I really will.
You would believe me, right?

During this period of time,
for you,
I will try my best to become a better person.
I really will.

A temporary bye, YAYA.

How do I stop the ticker below from counting anymore?
Or how can I not stop the ticker from counting anymore?

Yesterday, I stopped myself time and again to type these.
But I feel so lost.
I cry myself to sleep.
I cry in my dreams when I see and hear you.
I cry myself awake too.
I hate it.

I do not blame you, like what you think I do.
It's all my fault.
Because I took all your hard work for granted.
I didn't know that you tried so hard for me.
I'm all to blame.

I know I'm crying so hard because I lovee you.
I realised that I want you forever.
But it's all too late.
And it's all my fault.

I wanna wake up, telling you about this dream of mine.
Telling you that I dreamt of us breaking up and how afraid I am.
And hear you asking me not to be silly because you will always be here for me, loving me forever.

I deserve it.
It's all my fault.

I feel so tired crying.
But I just can't stop myself.
I feel so sick of calling yihao and zhen,
telling them how pain I feel and crying out loud.

I wanna move on like I promised you.
I really want.
But I don't know where to move from and I can't.

My only motivation now is to hear from you after sometime,
as you promised.
In my heart, I'm praying for a positive reply.
But if you don't, I know that God has other plans for me.

I know we lovee each another.
You just need time to recharge and find your lost self.
I will wait.

Till then, I will take care of myself and try my best to live life.

It's been, FOUR years~

Yes! We've been together for FOUR years!
I know it's not a small number but not a large number as well.
But, we've been through lots of rain and shine.
If not for LaLa's persistance, I guess we won't be here now.
At times I feel like I can just face life alone without him.
But we BOTH know how bad we would feel if that ever happens.
So, I promise I would really try harder next time.

He's bitterly in camp now, and so we don't have any celebration like last year.
His birthday cum anniversary present would be a ZERO surprise iPhone.
And mine would be the S$200 which he sponsored for my Thailand trip.
But till now, he hadn't told me-"HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY BABY!"
So, we shall see huh.. =)

I WANNA BLOG!

Yes, I WANNA BLOG!
But due to staying-home for the past (almost) one month,
I don't have anything to say!
I don't have any photographs to blog!
ARGH.

Anyway,

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO...
KENG KAI NING CALENE!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...
My dearest LOW HUI NGOH
&
YEO HUI YING DENISE!

May ALLLLLLL dreams come true and let's HUAT together! =)

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THANK YOU!

I AM FREAKING HAPPY NOW!

Because of 'this' listener (Michelle) and Cheng Yao.

I received this at 19:20-
'锧�@ up de gd work! I'll be listening till u off duty! Jia you!'

Due to the mess in codes, I replied-
"Thanks for tuning in! You are..."
Thinking that this person is my personal friend.

At 19:30-
'HAHA nvr read my sms properly huh...im michelle! Dun wori jus kiddin, u must be concentrating @work. Anyway,u r reali good,trust me as i always listen 2 tis segment. Other DJs made lots of silly mistakes like repeating song titles or talk wrongly but u nvr!'

Having received sucha an informal reply, I continue to think she is my friend.
I replied-
"Thank you! But, do I know you personally or you are our listener?"

Then, I couldn't wait any longer and called her.
HAHA!
She hung my phone twice and picked up on my third try.
Michelle said that she's a loyal listener of 88.3 and thought that I did a good job.
We chatted for a while and she kept giving me positive comments and compliments.

Like PLEASE!
The probability of having a listener compliment you is 0.00001%.
Probably lower than tio-ing 4D la!
So, I'm touched and happy.
Now, I think that the world is sucha beautiful place, because of such beautiful and sweeeeet people around!
HAHA! I know I change face very fast la..
Still, there are hideous people out there!

Finally, I thanked her for her support and all..

At 19:46-
'TKS 4 calling. Trust me, i jus a listener, not ur fren lah! I always listen wif my heart so im very sure u did much better than others...sincerely! Take care!'

HAHA!
Isn't the world today just so beautiful?!
And Chengyao, thank you for all the encouragement too!
I superrrrrrrrrr appreciate!
You did a dang good job previously as well.
Let's jiayou together and I shall see you in the studio after 2 years!

To all the people who think I'm doing good, THANK YOU!
Be it if you say it out, THANK YOU!
Really appreciate..

Another gathering...

Yesterday, the 6/8-s had another successful gathering!
Same old people, yet 3 new faces after 10 years!
Full of laughters and crap.