why

I still dun understand what really happened...
Hope everything will be fine...
Everything will be better...
There will alws be someone who support u...
There will alws be me..with u...

DAMN LONG NVR POST LIAO AR~!!!

lol...im back im back~!!! wooohooo~!!!

well...holiday....been....busy...happy...sad....alot of things lar...haha....
so .....been playing maple and other games also....and found this....
stupid and interesting game...lol...enjoy playing~!!....

Can play alot of times one....DUN GIVE UP~!! lol....

OLD FRIENDS

Yo~!!! Today went out with my old friends~! lol...jus kidding..my best friend...:)

(from left to right)That roziana..we call her rozy...den its sheryl..den me~!!!



Hehe..all chio bu...hahaha...(k lar..not me lar...:p)

We went to city link to walk walk...and i mean really WALK...walk all the way to marina square first...then go to citylink....then to suntec...lol...then to marina square again...aiya...i alws anyhow walk one...walk the same place so many times until my friends abit irritated also...but they still follow..haha...then i buy some tidbits from candy empire~!! lol...and a bar of white chocolate~!! hehe...(but this doesnt mean i like chocolate ma...hehe...:)) then after that jus go coffee bean and sit and chat...haha...sheryl cant stand sitting down...so have to walk again...haha...but i prefer sitting down and talk talk...haha...oh well...its ok...so we walk walk walk...then go back lor...OH YA....i miss out one person...haha...sheryl bf...erm..wats his name again?..hmm...ah...dun care..hehe...he not my bf...hahaha....kidding...i think his name is Zendos...i duno how to spell lar...but sheryl say he gt it from a greek name...hmmm....lucky he not a freak...haha....he pretty boy face...haha...( at first tot he like gay...) haha...(kidding kidding...lol..) then they follow us walk lor...then they went to esplanade...lol...romantic place for couple leh...haha....well..then me and rozy(we call her rozy coz roziana too long..haha...) take mrt home...haha...she also wan to walk...haha...if not i take bus home...haha...oh well...today is walking day for me ba....lol...

(suddenly realise im still very lazy... :P)

Yours truly...Kai Feng aka Kfishie~!! :) have been enjoying life... :)

OMG~!! i didnt know my IQ so high~!! and its only 1 try~!!! OMG~!!!

try it~!!!

CAMP...injured...back...

Hey~! Lazy girl is back~!! :p

back from CAMP CAMP CAMP~!! lol...a very fun camp lar...lol...with alot of silly things...lol...

example....

WAH~!!! MY ARMS~!!! ITS SCARY K??? I DUNNO ITS SO SCARY...until i look at this photo....AN I LOOK DAMN SILLY IN THIS PHOTO~!! Ergh......

Oh ya...dun worry...my arms are ok...lol...im born like this...lol....weird right? hahahaha....

Its jus one of the event during camp on the 2nd night....Its called the bond night....and most of them show their own weird weird talents....lol...like these pictures below...lol...

A freshie in our club...hmm...wats his name again?...lol...i forgot...he jus put both his legs behind his head~!! lol...
Oh ya..dun forget my friend SHANE~!! lol...my batch one...lol...he also can...but he can easily lift himself up also~! lol...

THIS IS PEGGY~!!! lol...know what she is doing? sitting? NO....she can move both her legs to the front without lifting her knee~!!! cant imagine??? TRY IT~!! sit down like peggy first...if u can even sit with ur legs like that first...:P

hmmm....there are still others...like eating a chickenwing with 4 simple steps...dislocating thump and make it very flexible....omg...my club gt alot of weirdos...lol...and im one of them~! lol...

Well...before the performance...gt a little accident...lol...my freshies 'tao pok' me~! lol..know wat issit? it means all pile up on me~!..lol...can u believe? im so small..then they still pile up on me...lol....but i know they r playing lar...so its ok to have fun...i gt injured is becoz im slping on the side...then they suddenly wake me up and pile on me when im lying on the side...lol...well...im jus weak...and its the first time ppl pile on me...lol...i duno wat to do also....but....DUN TRY IT K??? i gt my shoulder injured...and i think my back also...but im recovering~!! :) oh ya..i still can dance...so dun worry~!!! :)

after the camp...there is performance from the freshies and commitee~!..i nvr perform though..:p i jus take video...dun ask me to show...coz i dun have the video..lol...

After camp...ive been slping at home like PIG~! lol...coz nothing to do...ive been slping and slping....sometimes i duno when issit...evening or morning...i jus slp through out my holiday...lol...

Oh ya..there is one performance coming up on 29 jun..but i cant perform...coz of my injury..:) but its ok...i can rest~!! lol...i am really slping like pig leh..lol..

SRY IF I DIDNT REPLY ANYONE OR CONTACT ANYONE~! been hibernating...lol.. :P

TML...sch start lor...sian...lol....CYA IN SCH...OR OUTSIDE~!! :p

NVR UPDATE??? WHO SAYS~!

Hey...who says i alws nvr update huh?? now i update liao k????

HEHE..:)

Aiya....im jus lazy to update ba..alws reach home...all i do is go online...then go bath...then watch anime until my hair dry...not much to do leh....

(OMG my life is still boring...hai...)

So...back to my stuff....wat have i been doing lately?? hmm....

Dancing...
Slacking...
Sleeping...
Thinking...
Trying...

Alot of things to do for me lar...and im doing it all at once...hmmm.....

Well...can say...now im the laziest girl u can find one earth...coz im actually doing things that only what i feel like doing....but things jus sometimes dun go the way it is...coz i still have things i mus do...jus like.....

to buck up and study....
improve on dancing...
get more slp...
stop thinking and start doing....
stop trying and jus do it properly....

so many things jus dun go the way i wan to.....

My attitute kind of suck nowadays also...not that im like that... (im not ok...)
but i dun feel like being nice lately...not saying im really doing bad things behind ppl's back...but more like being more selfish...

But still...while being "SELFISH".....i force myself to dance....not that i dun like...but kind of stress in dance alrdy... ( i think alot ppl know y...) BUT...I STILL LOVE TO DANCE~!!.....and so....there is the lyrical performance for the youth leadership thingy which i duno wat really issit...but its a big event where the minister of education is invited....hmm...and then...

i screw up alot of things...
i mess up my dance step...
i screw up on stage...
i cause my fellow dancers some stress...
and i even hurt ppl... ( well...not that i wan to hurt someone...jus abit of accident....)

den after dance...not much also...study is suddenly a priority for me...hmmm....which i dun really like it lar....kind of sucks too....but...i still have to study....and trying hard...very very hard to do all the things i have to do for studies....example....

BE IN SCHOOL FOR LESSON...
DO MY PART FOR PROJECTS...
HELP OUT IN DISCUSSION...

well...been doing that...so i think i didnt cause much trouble for my classmates....well...maybe a little complain from them for alws not around....and alws surprise them when i go for lesson...:)

AND THEN NOW....

EXAMS COMING~!! ....hmmm...shld i say...something to add on to my stress list...and to do list....well...i didnt buy my text book althought its useful....BECOZ...i wan to save money... :)

talking about money...well...can say...im alws spending...and the amount i spend...sometimes over spend....and i dun really like to take allowance from my mum or dad....AH...dun ask me y also...i jus dun like...and then...when ppl have no money...they cant do alot of things....but im trying my best....to cope with alot of things without money...coz i jus wan to have a simple life....not to stress with money....although i dun have much...but i can still be happy...:)

Hmmm...oh ya...there are gd things happened to me...even though i suck nowadays...lol...MY LAPTOP~!!! i lost it~!!! but someone return it to me~!!! i really really feel so lucky that day...and i actually almost cry out~!!...well...if only i could find the person who return my laptop and pass him the last packet of my 'hello panda chocolate'...i would feel better... :P

Well...and i been true hell in a relationship nowadays too...u dun wan to know...but ill still tell...lol....

There is quarrel...
There is misunderstanding...
There is walking away...
There is silence...
There is hurt...

BUT...we gt through...HEHE....well....my attitute still sucks la...and i know most of the time its my fault....so....can say im fortunate to find someone like him...

:):):):):):):):):):):) HEHE....

nothing much ler lar...lol...now mus concentrate on studies first...OH YA...then CAMP~!!! but before that...I WAN TO GO KBOX ~!!!!

Hmmm...What shld i do??? What can i do???

I know im being selfish, unreasonable and demanding sometimes...but i nvr heard any complains...that makes me feel bad...and especially when i wan to do something in return...its always rejected...and when im rejected...i get angry and start to argue...i feel so bad for being like this...but i jus cant help it...coz i dun wan always to be the one who felt fortunate...i wan to share this feeling too...i jus wan to let u understand...but always end up quarreling...

Why am i always quarreling.??? What can i do??

:( :(:(:(:(:(

Hey..this is a special post for someone special...coz i have been really bad nowadays...and i tried to do something....just cant think of what to do...but when im trying....things jus didnt turn out the way i think.....

Well...can say i am really slacking off...damn slack...jus like last year...i cant bring myself to change...i thought i can...but not by myself...i want to change to a better person...along with someone special....

how it went

LOL....sry for the LONG LONG LONG LONG SUPER LONG post~!! lol...

Well...i everytime forgot to post one...so dun blame me lar...its like my diary alrdy...:P so i think of anything i jus post...lol...

if i wan to summerise also can....but dun think ppl will understand lar...lol...

ohya...i went to see one of my CCA friends blog...SUPER EASY TO READ~!!lol...u know y? coz its like this...e.g

Sch start ler..
I NVR GO TO SCH FOR THE FIRST WHOLE WEEK~!
Ended up cant catch up with the others...

When CCA start...
I alws go for lesson...
but this time...i slack...
i didnt go...
at first coz not feeling well...
but after that gt other problems also...
cant go for dance...
cant catch up...
den i emo...
but gt someone lar.. :P
so not so emo... :P

LOL...easy to understand right??
Short and sweet...easy to read...right?

gd idea ar...but then ar...i prefer long long one...hehe...so some ppl wont read so long...lol...all the minor minor details i also write one...so very long...lol...

trying not to post too long liao lar...:)

camp~!

BEFORE U START READING...JUS TO INFORM...ITS VERY LONG~!!! lol...happy reading~!!


IM FINALLY BACK HOME~!! although i only go PULAU UBIN for 2 days...but alot of things happen there that makes me wants to go home ASAP~!!!

*type type type* 30 March 2007

Went to Tenah Merah by train and take bus no2 to Changi Village....its early in the morning so no babok there...hehe...kk...so when we reach Pulau Ubin...we have to pitch out tent...and i realise the tent im staying in is only with marina and ren qi~!! only 4 girls in a 8 men tent~!!

so next start of the games...im the grp leader leh...lol..and mathew is in my grp...and there is Ren Qi...another girl with share tent with me and marina...and there is Chen Teng very dark guy and was having sore throat...Jia Jun very fair guy and stamina as bad as me..hehe...Zaimon..i think his name like tat spell...his the only malay in the camp and our grp...who has gd stamina...very gentleman also~!!hehe....thats all for my grp...GRP 3~!!! oh ya...our grp name is called MuSanThriGa ( Hindu no.3 - mu, Chi no.3 - San, Eng no.3 - Three, Malay no.3 - Tiga

so our first game is the furthest hut from the camp site...we have to walk all the way..but on the way...Chen Teng started to ask everyone to jog~!! hai..my stamina so lousy one...then alws the last one...lol....so our grp at this station is suppose to do a game called "100min NO NG" first is turn 5 rounds witha stick on the ground and head down...den hula 10 times...everyone in the grp duno how to hula except me leh~!!! then next is to blow a balloon until it burst~!! thats the one i hate the most~!! ill nvr ask anyone to do that~!!...kk...so next is eat bitter gaurd den last one is~!!!!!!!..........blow out the pinpong ball from a cut bottle with flour in it into another cut bottle...that one only 3 guys do sia..hehe...then they let us go...and then they give us some clue to a secret game station that is not shown on map...well..actually its jus near the toilet lar..lol...there we have to transfer water from a bucket into a cut bottle but the cup we use to transfer has holes in it...and one person have to lie down on a mat and hold the cut bottle on the forehead and the person pouring the water cannot bend down to pour....so the gentleman who volenteer is ZAIMON..who would be lying down..hehe...den im the one to pour..hai...my aiming is quite ok only...so only half is face is pour with water...BUT...i also help him to clean his face..coz he is one of the 3 who have blow the flour at the first game station...lol....and next game...its the "Hey Bai Pei~! Nan Shen Nu Shen Pei~!" but with body...lol...( if anyone dunowat issit ...its jus like scissors paper stone...jus add a little movement behind..) so if same movement the one tat wins in scissors paper stone will win 1 point..and they want us to win 20 points while versus each other~!! hai...and u know wat..our grp kind of coporate and end up everyone alws win at first round..hehe...then we easily gt one point..but duno which grp gets only..hehe...but in the end still have to forfeit..it is to eat bitter guard again...and this time..with WASABI~!! hai...i dun eat both leh...BUT THEN I EAT LEH~!! lol...

Next hut...we have to blow a balloon and have everyone sit on the balloon...but i suggested we blow one balloon only...lol....then the 3 bigger size guy will jus touch the balloon with their backside but not really sit on it..and then the others jus sit on the legs...and we pass~!! lol...then

Next hut down the hill is the next station...and its one of the worst performance and almost get everyone demotivated game... first...we have to choose the sauces to mix together for the later part of the game...this game..we need to sit in a small circle and have to stand up is a cross leg sitting position and while doing that also lift up a hula with our index finger with our palm facing down...everyone could easily sit and stand in the position but only Chen Teng cannot...lol..but we manage it though...with the game master keep on adding our time duration...lol....but the forfeit is only drinking the sauce that we mix at the beggining of the game...we try alot of times to lift up a hula...but in the end barely manage it..then is the chopstick...its worst then the hula...then the stick from a tree....we actually did it~!! from wat i think its becoz everyone is alrdy quite disappointed and irritated by the number of times we try on jus a hula...then finally at the last time....we lift up the branch...lol....then we head all the way back down to the last station..well...we thought it was the last...but its not...then this station...they said that we r too fast playing this game...coz we only spend around 2 hours travelling and stopping at the 4 stations...den they give us a very stupid question before we can start the game....and its to guess the password of the station...and the password is...PASSWORD...-_-"....oh well...its the game that makes alot of us irritated...coz we have to stand under the sun..blind folded...and have to guess number...and not jus tat...we have to form shapes with holdin on to a loop string....well....first is square...then its diamond...then they say the last one is 2 triangles that form a square...and i really hope its the last one...but they said some other grps have a new shape then we also mus do in order for us to get more points...i can sense some of them is alrdy fedup..and especially mathew...he was in total silence when we were discussing...and then it rain when we were blind folded...then we finally completed it...the other grps also catch up to us...:( and i tot our grp is the first...oh well...finally...last station...

Last station we combining with the other grp...is was to pass the sponge soak in water over or under us to the other person behind...and the first time..alot of ppl cheated..so we start all over again...so finally...we still have to do a cheer...and so we jus do our normal cheer of "sat sat OI" den we went back to camp site....

Ok everything starts to get bad...everyone starts to get irritated...and for me...i felt that im pretty bad luck...depressed...coz...the girls tent almost collapse...and everything in the tent is totally soaked...and i mean everything...even the slping bags...so we clean up the place...and get ourself dirty by cleaning the place up and prepare for another game..which is the water bomb game...and first of all...jus to inform those ppl going to Pulau Ubin camp next time...bring as much water as u can...coz the water there cant be drink...can be use for bathing if u do not mind that the water is dirty brown and smells like rust...then we have to throw at each team's goal..which is jus the hula with a small black garbage bag...and the lossing team..which is the helpers team...and the other winning team is to pour the water onto everyone of them using buckets...well...they all bully the girls but lucky they all have a raincoat...well...a cheap one lar...but they manage to stay clean..so its ok...then the last game...ill never forget...

Its a guessing game between 2 grps...then they use 3 mats as a curtain to block each team from seeing each other...one person from each team have to stand in front of the mats and if both teams have the same person in the same mats position...have tO KISS~!!! AHH~!!! and i kissed marina~!! ahh~!!!! i cant believe..its the first time...(i think...) i kissed another girl in the lips~!! ahhh~!!! then nvm...at least gt the plastic wrap thing...oh well...last activity of the day is a night walk...but before that...we have to eat dinner...hai...AND I STILL CANT BATH~!! and actually..there cannot bath...unless u dun mind using dirty water....hai....


well....we have to come up with a cheer in order to get our dinner...that totally sucks..and everyone is alrdy stoning when we gather at one side to think of cheer...everyone suggested...and then i forget most of them...lol....if not we may all use it...lol...well..we managed it...and gt our dinner...but guess wat..we have to cook our own dinner...which is instant noodle...at this point...im almost totally out of strength...and abit giddy..coz the day before i didnt slp much...oh well...den its totally dark...i tot we would have a camp fire...but then we jus go back to our tent and rest...

then we have to prepare for night walk...this night walk have to walk in pairs...and we mus blind fold ourselves first and walk to the starting point then we can walk without the blind fold..and without torch light also...oh well..we started walking in blind fold...but then from wat i think...we have been walking in circles alot of time...then we finally stop and sit down..but there are dogs close by...5 huge dogs...and barking as one of the grps go for the walk...and IM THE LAST ONE~!! hai...well...last grp lar...coz have to walk all the way back to the camp then this time...im walking with Ibsen~!!....sweet looking guy..and very fair also...hehe....so we walk as we chat...then finally back at camp...then we went back our to take our stuff back to the Finally Dry Tent..then i wanted to go and wash up...but then..thinking of the water...hai...then some of the seniors told us that the toilet near the ferry port has clean water...so most of us went all the way to the toilet to clean up..but then its not a bath...so no soap...jus wet towel...hai...still not very clean..then finally...all went to slp...but i was busy packing my stuff...den finally..went to slp...but there are still other ppl playing outside...its quite noisy...but still gt ppl slping...then in the middle of the night...i wake up...then i hear someone snoring...and tot it was someone in our tent...but then it doesnt sound like...then nvm..i try not to think too much then i jus slp...

the next day...RAIN~!! y mus rain~!!! hai..our tent is flooding with water once again...in the morning at 6 am~!!! and we slp around 1am last night only~!! damn the rain~!!! i am really up to my limit when it rain everytime...and stops awhile...and rain again~!!! and then i call the day a damn day(damp day) hai...but then i think im talking too much during the camp...and very loudly also....

I hope i did not offend anyone during the camp...coz im jus trying to say wat i think...and im kind of duno wat im saying sometimes...coz of the damn day..as well as dirty experience at the camp~!!! oh well...its not my first camp...but its the first time im unable to wash up during a camp...therefore its the dirtest (wonder if there is this word) camp ever~!!!

but i enjoy it in some ways..:) thanks everyone~!! finally home and clean~!! take care~!!

FUNKA POST PONE LER~!!! hai...oh well...means this yr have to practice basics and techniques lor...hmm...better also..:) i will have more time to play also~! lol...not really play lar...enjoy my life ma...hehe...

oh well...been hanging around here and there....but i haven meet up with my classmates~! hmm...but going to meet up soon...coz we going to Pulau Ubin for a 2day 1night camp...hehe...i actually dun wan to go one..coz i dun wan to get biten by mosqutoes~!!! but for my classmates...I WILL GO~!! hehe...aiya...jus kidding...lol....jus wan to have fun lar..hehe....:P

oh well...didnt really have much to say...lastly....

I WANT TO WATCH TMNT~! hehe.. :P

IT show

Today went to IT Fair~!!! sry my friends~!! for those going there also...Coz i have to meet someone~!! lol...coz very long nvr meet up with this friend of mine..Lionel~!! oh ya..and Ah hock also!!! who say i cannot call u AH HOCK huh?? AH HOCK AH HOCK AH HOCK~!! :P hehe...

the IT fair was like hell...everyone squeeze here and there....if i nvr go with willie i think ill lost in the crowd liao..then they cannot find me liao...:P

TO lionel & ah hock

Thanks for accompany me again~! lol...and hor...i know my face still very bad...hai...tats one of the reason i delay meeting up with u 2 also..:P...paiseh lor...next time we go out again...and this time...AH HOCK TREAT US~! lol....

FROM KaiFeng aka Kfishie

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Things

Dance is getting harder...Everything that i do is getting harder and harder...and in the future...more things is going to come...i wonder if ill survive like this...hmmm.....

Hope everyone is fine...coz i hardly go online and chat...oh well..

JUS DUN FORGET ME~!

nothing to do..so anyhow blog..:P

:)

i duno wat to do

Emo....anyone know how not to be not emo when ppl say how bad u r....when ppl compare u with someone better?...well...if anyone can not be emo..maybe they jus hack care or happy go lucky...

I jus cant i think...ill gt emo very easily...and tats wat makes alot ppl thinks im boring...well...im boring lar...i know i am....and im trying not to...its hard...or maybe im jus caring about others too much...care too much about how they think about me....how they look at me....

I jus duno wat to do...tats the only thing i could say...i tried...but the result i get...is jus knowing more ppl say i alws emo...some may not think tat way...coz sometimes im jus crazy around them...like to say things very loudly and say things out without thinking...and makes them laugh at me....sometimes i felt silly too...but then i dun really care...coz its how i am...i jus wan to be myself around my friends...and not acting...i may be silly sometimes...blur...forgetful...its jus becoz im not focusing thats all...thats y im trying to focus at things to do...i feel silly...and sometimes i jus cant stand ppl laughing at me...but then...i dun wan to spoil the mood...or make the atmosphere tense..tats y i also laugh at myself sometimes...jus not knowing how to talk back...ppl say u can jus joke around...well..i tried also...but in the end...i only make things worst...or in the end no link...well...tats the best i can do i think...

And i think...i really cant change ba....since the result i get is alws the same...im alws emo here emo there...but i can only say...im emo becoz i care...i care how ppl think about me...but then...i really duno how to change it...i only know how to get emo....but not knowing how to get rit of it...

i wonder if ill change....or im jus thinking too much again? hmm....

i wonder if i could have anyone to hug when im emo...but wat if the person who make me emo and complain tat im emo....is actually the person i wan to hug?

Dance

FINALLY...i gt to learn my funka steps...hai...its difficult and fast...hope i can managed it...

Hmm...basically...today went late for everything ar~!!!! my bad time management doesnt seems to be changing....hai....Ill try to figure it out some how....hmm....well...nothing much ba...jus wan to say SRY TO THOSE WAITED FOR ME FOR MEETING AND DANCE~!!

KF...slping soon...

nowdays....MIA

MIA MIA MIA...lol...become my habit liao...lol....nvr come online...nvr go msn...been doing my things...trying to plan my things out....but some time things jus didnt go the way i plan....

Well...after my cousin's funeral...its Chinese New Year....well...not much things during CNY...basically go relative hse lor....but this time i nvr go malaysia where my father side relative is...coz tat time im not feeling well...oh ya...before that i went to the skin centre...COZ MY FACE REALLY CANNOT MAKE IT~! hai...hope its getting better...:( coz if its not...im really going to complain...coz it gives the anti-bio will make ppl have diarrhoea one~! then its becoz of that im sick~!hai...

After that...well...celebrated my birthday with willie lor...but no cake..:( well..nvm...gt the most special gift ever from him...:P talking about gift..lionel~!! im so sry i alws no time to meet u...:( ill find one time before sch reopen...ill rmb...

And then...go out with my classmates to SAKURA buffet resturant...well...its a nice place for ppl who can eat alot...but its quite ex lar...coz one person is $24...but u can eat as long as u wan~!!! lol....its actually to celebrate someone's birthday also lar..but then its alrdy belated...oh well...mine also...lol...

oh well...then after tat gt work ler...and i gt sick again....hai....coz the work really crazy one...first time im so scared of cosmetics....imagine 3k of cosmatics keep coming...none stop....and when u slow down...everything pile up~!...then u mus spend ur break time packing those pile up before the next pile comes.....-___-"".....im really glad i quit this job sia...coz too much for me...well..have to find another one alrdy...but then think not ler...coz have dance ler~!

I miss my first Funka Training~!!coz of the work lor...hai...oh well...can learn on coming monday...

oh ya..today my relative from malaysia came...they all came to eat steam boat...and then 16 rounds of mahjong...lol...im playing with pro sia...loss alot..hai...but not my money..nvm..:P...then after that my relative from my mother side one came also...to "lao yu sheng" then after tat gamble abit also..then jus went home....then i finally can blog ler..coz my 3 little ciousin occupying my laptop to watch flash anime....pucca flash...interesting leh...

Interested?? go to http://www.puccaclub.com
u can change the language at top right to english...

and then my relative going to stay at my hse...2 only lar..but then i have to slp at study room...but i dun mind~! lol...coz can slp and use laptop..lol..

kidding lar...i need to slp...especially with my face still cannot make it...hai....oh well...gd night lor~!

Life is really short.....

Cherish your life.....

Stay healthy.....

All those are really things that you know but sometimes when u r busy....u wont even think about it....jus carry on doing our own stuff...

I never notice it...coz im busy with my things and studies....i felt abit selfish sometimes as i alws do my own things and did not really care about those who r around me....but now...i think i have to change....

My cousin jus passed away....it is y i start to think that life is really short....

I cried abit...felt sad....even though im not very close to this cousin of mine...coz his in malaysia...but still....i have memories of him....i know him since young as i went back to malaysia for Chinese New Year almost every year.....and there was once he took me and my sister to the beach to play and he drove us to alot of place to play....i think i was only pri sch then but i still rmb...after that i only saw him during Chinese New Year if i went back to Malaysia.....

Wat makes me feel really depressed and sad was that....he was happily married for only 1 yr plus....and the last time i saw him was his wedding...he was still healthy and normal....but after that....i heard that he gt cancer...and it was quite serious....it is said that the cancer is alrdy at the third stage..which is the last stage...he is someone who doesnt smoke...and yet...he gt cancer.... which is near his throat....and now....i jus know he jus passed away....and i cant even go for his funeral in Malaysia....maybe becoz im outside..that is y my family did not wait for me....

well....to everyone who knows about this...im fine...jus abit depressed...but its not the first time that i encounter life and death...its jus reality...well...reality is cruel...tats is all i could say...

I jus hope those that i know could stay healthy...and work hard for your dreams and goals....
coz u may not know when u will be going....

went out

Today something special happened...lol....well...sort of lar....

I went out with SZE YING!...lol...we only go bugis lar....oh ya...with my BF....lol...but he nvr talk much leh....he alws nvr talk coz he duno wat to say lar...thats wat he alws tell me...lol.....oh well...lol.....actually wanted to go SIM LIM SQUARE one....but i late~!!...hai...well....shes my IT class mate ma...so we mostly talk about IT stuff...lol...computer or sch stuff lor....shes not that romantic kind of girl lar....but she very nice one lar....hehe....she also gamer leh...lol....and she gd at studies also....hmmm.....im introducing her in this blog leh...lol...

Zying...mus intro me in ur blog also k?? lol....

Laziness

Wa!!! so so so so so so long nvr update ler..lol...

well...if wan me to say wat have i been doing...hmmm....basically...im trying to change....and im trying to manage my things properly....but i dun think im doing any better lar...hai...im still having time management problems....been late for lesson or never go for lesson...:( alws over slp....even if i slp early...i still cant wake up in the morning....HAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIII~!!!!

oh well...life have to go on right? so I need to start to planning...but i sucks at planning things since i was in pri sch...hai...should say....i have been lazy since i was in pri sch...hai...i not sure how im going to change it...but ill manage it~!!!

Oh ya...reminds me...im in dance cca ma...now im in the committee also ler....and know wat? im in the welfare...im the asst....and its quite fun leh~!hehe....i like to organise this kind of things...but im not gd at organising my things....sad right? lol....oh well...the first work i gt is to get everyone's birthday~! that one is really tiring....coz we gt over 100+ ppl in the club! and not everyone i could be able to contact~!!! but lucky i gt their details from the other committee..if not i think ill go crazy....hehe.....then the other job is to come up with the birthday celebration~!!


January celebration.....ok lar...went well....but still not that happening lor...i jus hope the febuary one would went well...coz my birthday is also in febuary~!!! lol...oh well...january one only have one cake and some sweets for their presents....coz the budget only $40~!
hai....wanted to have a BBQ one also cannot....:(

oh well...after that most of the things i've been doing is......dance...go to sch...go out....stay out....play games...watch anime....basically all the normal stuff....coz im a very boring person ma...:P...duno wat to do everytime one...but then...lucky i still gt someone by my side....to keep me company lar....hehe...:P


Oh ya...jus in case those who have not been seeing me for the past few years, months or weeks....MY FACE IS GONE CASE LER~!! hai...go for a beautician analysis then the beautician tell me its like HAVING VIRUS ON MY FACE~!! jus that ITS NOT CONTAGIOUS~! so dun worry...;P....but having virus its like having sorethroat like that leh....so need to take in anti-biotics....SIAN LAR~!! have to go see doctor ler~!!! :( oh well...who ask me NVR SLP WELL~! NVR DRINK MORE WATER~!! so....seeing the results of me now....PLS DRINK MORE WATER AND SLP MORE~!!!

well...jus wan to tell everyone...TAKE CARE AR~!! DUN BE LIKE ME~!!

Kfishie...swimming in the sea like the other fish...:P
*nothing to write ma..anyhow one...:P*

Lost in time

OH MY GOSH~!! Wat happen to me sia~!!! so long also nvr blog things~!! i've been MIA~!! hai...busy with the wrong stuff and everything jus doesnt go according to plan for me nowadays so nvr blog.... : (

Im having bad time management~!!! can anyone help?? :( really need to change...:(

AND I MISS OUT THE CLASS OUTIING THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO~!!!

Reason : Food Poison

WAH~!! y i so suai~!! the night before outing gt food poison~!! and its FOOD COURT'S FOOD~!!Hai...duno y my cousin also eat the same food but she is fine... i weak body...hai...: (

OH ya...i haven say about my cousin....Kai Xin..a very sweet Malaysia cousin girl who alws come Singapore for holiday with me...:) and that day i brought her out to watch movie...AND I VOMIT INSIDE THEATRE~!! :( so sad for me leh~!!! T _ T....

oh well...Christmas im spending time with my family at my auntie's house and after that i have to entertain my little cousin that come for holiday ler....at first was thinking of bringing her to go cycling...but in the end i only bring her go read some comics...:P well..and u know wat??? She have her own hp~! and she is only 11~! well...im not so rich la...so when im 11 i dun even have a hp lor...pager also dun have ar....well...and wats funny is that..my cousin msg CHINESE to me...and i have to reply chinese or she wont understand me...:P her English not so gd...but her Chinese damn pro....lol...Malaysia ma...more on mother tongue one...well...hope she have fun although i cause a little commotion in the movie theatre...:P

And NEW YEAR~!...lol...celebrated with
Xing Wei
Peggy
Joe
Edwin
Willie~!! :P

Well...actually want to celebrate only with someone only...but then the more the merrier....so the others join~!! lol...partly because there was traffic jam towards town...coz alot ppl gather there to watch the fireworks..:P so in the end, end up celebrating it outside...at holland V...there is this stage beside the HDB flats and since no one is using so we all went up to cheer for NEW YEAR...lol...ending up dancing on stage again...lol....then gt ppl shout at us...telling us dun dance alrdy...go home....and edwin replied...."u all dun stay at home liao also...come dance..." well...then in the end went to someone's house and play card games~! lol...and then we even played MONOPOLY~! lol....everyone play until very high...lol...except Xing...she very tired...lol...and we played until 4.30am~! lol...well..thats basically how i celebrate new year lor dun wan to be too detailed...lol~! oh ya...i forgot..Peggy went to find her friends before we go over to someone's house to play games...so she nvr join...:( hope she would join next time...:P

Today is fri....and jus ended a performance...for charity one...its nice and quite an entertaining performance if i should say...and really enjoyed dancing~!! lol...and i also bought a new t-shirt jus for that~! :P can wear it for new year also...lol...COZ ITS RED~! :P lol...

KK...i think ill write until here....i will change my bad time managements and WILL NOT BE LATE FOR CLASS~!! well...dun wan to get debarred ma...:P

P.S Have fun~! and take care~!

Eat more healthy foods PPL~!!