涂鸦

又久违了,我的部落格。

又失约于我的365计划,有时间会再补写。

圣诞节前夕的我,还在为考试挣扎着。

北海道之行,暂且不能实现了。

二月回国的机票,还没落实。

在热带国家的各位,记得珍惜温暖。

又一首好歌,想分享。

藤井树的字迹,不再是生活里的一点点缀那么简单

九月的雪 橙色雪
我任性地以为 那满山遍野的橙雪都是你的泪
橙色的雪 九月雪
花落满地心碎 冬天来临是为了掩饰秋天的伤悲
九月的雪 橙色雪
别再任性以为 那些不快乐的昨天都已是昨天
橙色的雪 九月的雪
寂寞开始凝结 等春天到了谁能记得橙色的九月

冬天里的我,突然想自己一个人。

quick update


stil drinkin mocha n rushing my report in starbucks. whilst i hv to rush to work in 10mins time. shit. n how come i stil hv time to blog? use ur planner wisely chew hui linggggggggggggggggggggg.


p/s : shud b hyper n happy for tmr but weirdly i m not =/

project 365 *2

fun day =)

went to shinjuku to accompany sk to buy his suit set for presentation =) n persuaded him to spend 150k yen in a day successfully woohoo. i m evil *grins* had favorite seafood don as lunch n starbucks AGAIN for high tea . so crowded everywhere. n xmas decoration everywhere too ^^ n santa claus is no longer coming to town coz madonna's coming to shibuya = = ok lame i m sorry.

anyway 2 japanese frens Kesuke n Take juz came my house n bullied my hamsters T____T
to revenge, c wat v did to Take....

v did SMOKY eyes make up on Take....lol. totally a failure though =p

scary ><

v were juz too bored :p



Project 365*2

another coldy rainy day ヽ`、ヽ`个o(・_・。)`ヽ、`ヽ、
went for dance lesson ヾ(*'д'*)ゞ♪ as usual.

bought tis starbucks tumbler on d way to uni, notice tat cute little penguin at d bottom. quite wu liao actually coz d overall size is venti but it can only b filled wif short size coffee >.< class="Apple-style-span" style=" ">(*´Д`) sigh...........しょうがないなぁ  

 


long waited (?) Project 365*2

hey peeps so sorry but i juz realize tat my life is so dull after those festivals n moving bla bla n so no pictures =( wat i do everday is classes + work + more classes + more work + more n more classes + more and more work + .....
okla at least tat's my daily routine for dec basically.

anyway ther r some pictures for laz weekends =D

Sunday :
-went to meet old frens + senpai (seniors in japanese) @ shinjuku for lunch + teatime @ starbucks
-dinner (McD + Krispy Kreme = =)@ shibuya wif asou + gai gai a while
-buffday party of huahua + yinhoong + lim.


Xmas special flavor <3

conclusion : no. of pictures taken tat day = no. of pictures for a month. swt. u can actuali juz view those photos from my facebook ---> http://www.facebook.com/februarius218

Monday :killed another poor frog for experiment. sigh.

@ 13:20

certified @ 13:25

v actuali killed them alive! wif a needle stab into their spinal cord (?) w/o using any anesthetic to bring them into celebral death (?) omg omg so cruel ><

Tues :
No picture =/ went for clz -work-home - end of the day. FML.

Wed :
ok a bit diff. Clz - Dance lesson - home -work -home. No picture stil though lol.

Thurs :
wtf my weight hit 44kg today. shit. started to hate winter coz it makes me eat ALOT! diet diet..... target : range 40-42kgOh n i worked midnite tat day. from 1200-0500. damn sian coz almoz 1 customer/hour. damn free oso coz i was d only one working in McD tat day shit manager kept staying in staff room nia.bored til death. even a pigeon shit infront of me wtf seriously i m not kidding. wanted to snatch a photo of it but i cant hv hp wif me during work T_T. So in conclusion no photo lol.

Fri :
slept whole day due to tiredness of working midnite zzzzzz. so no photos too!

anyway recently m very addicted to an application of mixi (japan version of facebook). it's like some farming game n u can steal stuff from ur frens bla bla. i think facebook oso has similar game rite?! n so so so..... my hp batt oways die so faz T_____T


mixi サンシャイン牧場

异类

星期六逃了舞蹈课,逛了一天的街,聊了一天的废话,见了一堆久违的朋友,参与了一个熬夜的生日派对。

我很想融入。并没有不开心,真的。只是怪怪的。

关于我,你知道些什么。

知心的真心的了解的发觉的。

我不想成为异类。

星期天,睡了一整天。

空闲的时候,脑袋就会被塞得满满。


やっと

部屋の片づけが終わった!!!!

乾杯~~~ お疲れ =)

P/s: お誕生日おめでとう to one of the Sakura4 T_T

sorry lar v din take much photos tgt n i guess tis is one of ur 'better' shots ady =/ lol. HaPPI BASTday

Updatessss




yo peeps!
you know I had a performance in school right, last Saturday and Sunday.
Its something like yuan you hui for those ch-rians.
Sooo happy to can perform with teacher for the opening of the event.

Look! my hipu-breake trousers with a big M~~ im lovin' it
of course we had a post event celebration at izakaya and you can see those drunken faces everywheree blurppp..mine was with yuki sang so if you wanna see me drunk face, please visit her bloge

moved away from the house i lived for 2 yearsss..hmmm but glad that im free now~ freedom of loneliness. well u know everything comes with a price, so now im really on my own! but thanks to .u know who u r. for renting a van and helping me to move~ bahhh just finished tidying and cleaning up my new room~ see seee so so big wardrobe. and so spacious compare to my old room(see the empty room pic)

uggghh here comes the ugly part...i pawned a frog this evening. and u can see the stand holding a tiny red packet -- its his <3
dont be disgusted though cause we are sacrificing him for a greater deed, that is to explore new knowledge and technologies to save u foul humans! rip dear froggy. ok btw, another basket of frogs are shipping in next week and ready to surrender their lives to the Great Science!

okay please enjoy the slideshow brought to u by Photobucket
(dunno how to utilise blogger uploader)

Guest
21:46
27th Nov Fri 2009

weird

感觉奇怪了
表演结束了
家也快搬了
一切结束了

心情怪怪的
心里,有什么东西缺席了

我没有怎样
或许,我说或许
我想念那罐绿茶的温度罢了

Project 365*2

photo taken during our mid nite practice in a station. was freaking cold.

female version of mario. during rehearsal of our performance for tis weekend!
during clz. teacher was teaching infront n v were camwhoring bhind him. tat's my shawl anyway =((((
boring clz ~
somebody slept like tis sumore = = can imagine how boring tat clz was.
went 正直な食堂to had lunch. 超おいしい~~~

totali lost count of project 365*2.... but i'll jz continue wif it k =) randomize-ly lol.

sat n sun! finally! our show is on! pls visit tokyo city university 712 clz if u r free tis weekend from 1400-1700. !!!


Project 365*2

danced for another 8 hours continuously. goin to perform tis weekends woohoo after tat i'll b damn freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *fly*

亲爱的

看着你那边的窗口透着光,黑夜已伴着我在走回家的路
赤道的温暖让你换上无袖上衣,冬天的莅临让我连呼吸都吐稀烟
考试期却乐得自在的你,忙得焦头烂额的我,连午睡的份都交托给你了
接听电话时的你嘴里说着溜口的英文,这儿的我说着你只字不通的日文

认识了你将近8年了。
我的成长,或许你参与了不少。
你的成长,或许我没花过心思。
甚至,我忽略了不少。

我们熟吗?我到现在还回答不来。
问我认识你多少,我没信心回答。
我连你的星座生日日期都没记起来。

有时候我想问,你怎么能够如此保持沉默。

为什么你总是会在。

曾经
放学后的冰淇淋
华乐敲击组的八卦
来历不明的噢哩哦
只有你欣赏的眼袋
初次驾车载人的迷路记
每次心情不好你的存在

只能说,我的记忆体好小

失去联络的那一段期间
竟然从来没察觉

你我
隔着一个海洋
隔着两个季节
隔着六十分钟
隔着六千多公里
隔着两种不同的语言
隔着一个网络
隔着20摄氏度的温度差
隔着昼夜
隔着没有对方的回忆
隔着不能一起庆祝生日的遗憾

我们只有
一个中学生涯的回忆
一个是时候退休的webcam
一个随时会累的internet
一个没有把握的欧洲之旅

我们连最基础的拥抱都没有。

他们说,买生日礼物的时候,最重要是站在对方的立场想对方到底需要些什么。

我真的想破头了。
越想越遗憾。
只能说,你可能不需要我●的礼物

如果‘现实’不存在,如果这个世界跟着耀仲的theory走
或许这篇东西不存在了。

不晓得能给你什么,所以我放弃了。
写了一堆很奇怪的东西,希望你先含笑收下笑纳

一个小时后
亲爱的,生日快乐

Life aint Easy


Suffering from insomnia these days..
Requires soo soo much effort to get sleep and eventually I get more tired for forcing myself to rest.

Not much lesson today cause I passed my lab test! so no need to redo (the only one in the group..xD).
Went shopping and got myself a pair of Evisu jeans and forever21 top.
okay supposed to upload it..but well .. maybe next time ;)

peace
Guest
2.58am 17th Nov

Project 365*2 #12


可愛嗎?是偶抽獎抽中的哦
你可以叫他枝豆 (mameshiba from edamame)
ok fine..你叫他豆豆也可以
他是我們傢的新成員哦
目前很調皮 每天早上醒來看到他都嚇倒我
呵呵 大大只的他真的很好抱哦
順便提一下
如果你們要寄聖誕禮物的話
請update最新的地址


213-0005 No.303, Unicorn Takatsu,
3-1-1 Kitamikata, Takatsu-ku,
Kawasaki-shi, Kanagawa, Japan.

Guest Writer
2.11pm 15th Nov

Project 365*2 for the whole week =/

a quick update for Projec 365*2 of tis week :

Monday :
v had a practical test on using machine bla bla bla (not so interesting so i'll jz skip lol). was too bored waiting outside for our turn so v exchanged our jackets! he actuali fits into my S size jacket kai wan xiao! n i look like....a working dwarf = = v found it very hard to match a jacket to the pants i m wearing in d pic! any idea anyone?
after the test, dance, yes, again.
yea, my super high sense black high tights n white sneaker lol. juz lazy to change.


Tuesday :
nth much but juz normal clz + more n more exhausting dance practise + work at nite.

results of practising too much :
even my toe was protesting!
d exhausted yuuki lol. break dance reali breaking us down =/

wednesday :
had 3 soft drinks in a row. Coca-cola in d morning, Pepsi Next Zero in d noon clz n orange from mc D after work =/ i can foresee how i died of diabetes
anyway d love puppy mark on d coke can reali wai. its written ther ' the love puppy is borned to give more happiness n love to coca cola wif its......thick n fleshy lips wtf.

Thursday :
after so many f*cking shit unlucky day, finally my good lucks come back to me *kiss kiss hug hug*
got a new scholarship which giv me an extra 250k yen tis month! but all used to pay for my moving fees + dec rental =( anyway, house comfirmed on tat day too. can move in anytime =) then won an auction of a BLUE refrigerator! very cheap sumore *hiak hiak*


my scholarship comfirmation letter woohoo!

got these wif my fren from some UFO Catcher in a Taito Game center b4 v started our dance lesson. lol. so cute. those on their necks can b used to tie hair ok! cute + useful.

then v had dance practise tat nite from 5pm - 5am in d morning. yes. 5 to 5. in some station sumore not dance studio ok. can cold die. din even sweat a titik after the 12 hours practise coz it was damn cold !

Friday :
came back in d morning @ 6am then slept til 10? i think. went uni to submit my paper then paid for rental ran for errands n got my phone send to fix n picked d key for my new house n called my manager to cancel my work today n FINALLY had my new hair cut after 6 months! *phew*


a temporary phone to use when my phone is sent to fix. okla kno my new hair cut doesnt reali change too much but i want to had my hair perm next month ma so better leave it like tis =)

new frens of my knees after trying out too many break dance =/

Last but not least, juz sth to share =)
globalization. lol



不自在

感觉很不自在
开始讨厌facebook的存在

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叫我如何跟没教养的人打交道
说得难听一些,没家教。

我只能说,他的思维方式真的无人能敌
或是,他根本没脑,所以只好利用其它部分来进行生活

他听不懂语言看不懂文字
所以请不要试着跟他用言语或文字沟通
他会装作很懂,其实什么都搞不清

他以为他可以让一个人拥有全世界
他不是神,他给的只不过是他的一无所有
却还要装作是神

手指是最直接简洁的方式
也应该是跟他沟通的唯一管道
中指他很爱,有多少请给他多少

ooloo (_ _) ooloo

请原谅我很没教养的打了这片烂东西。

p/s : 对号入座的你,恭喜你,终于看得懂一些文字。

BuuuuuuuZZZZZZZZZ

my post has nth to do wif the topic. paise.

anyway, REALLY wanted to post for the project 365*2 but I HV NO TIME =/
my current schedule from mon - sat : clz - dance - work - sleep *repeat
i nid more time! at least to sit down n rest =/

surprisingly i've passed d audition for the opening dance woohoo. but tat means more time taken to practise separately from my own hiphop-breaking group =( sumore only 2 person r performing for the opening omfg so nervous.

so many thgs to do but so few time to use.

fffffffffffffffffffffffffff

sth seriously f*cked me up. wtf. FML

给曾经爱过的你

既然要离开
请把一切都带走

既然要当个好人
请把坏人角色留给我

既然已经不在了
请不要让回忆的味道残留

既然要做得绝对
请告诉全世界你的绝对


要离开,很容易
留下来,却很难

Project 365*2

#6

*picture in fren's camera*

  • practised dance in Setagaya Campus today
  • settled my moving stuff(?!)
  • bought a new bike
  • considering to take motorcycle license(!) but i m so afraid of motorcycle itself.
  • slept for 3 hours for nap
  • stil. tired.

Project 365*2

#4
found tis under a fren's seat today in canteen. wonder wat it is? it's juz a small purse to keep coins =/ but none of my japanese frens dare to pick it up LOR! wtf. sumore got so many coins inside $$$$$ btw v left it bhind acting tat v nvr noticed it at laz.... lol

seriously japanese face+ pride >>>>> money

#5
had dance lesson rite after clz today from 1 til 8. i was late so i was warming up in d locker room rite after changing (a bit too detailed huh) sigh legs stil so keras yet. i wanna pek yat ji maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

juz back from work anyway. EXHAUSTED. Oyasumi.

其实你并没那么在乎

Project 365*2 #3 :
昨日气温疾速下降
绵绵细雨随之落下

秋装感受冬季的冷
秋的雨仿如冬的雪

今晚的月光特别亮
是否尝试透漏温暖

被擅自剥夺的专属
也就抛弃了不要了



new house

Project 365*2 #2 :

so i m moving out from d current house mb next month or dec.... but hvn decided which to choose yet =/ so many to think n take count into to decide, sigh. i hate deciding stuff. Both r quite nice though, so very hard to choose even for someone who is so noooooooooot choosy eg. me =p

d one on d left :
rental per month : 59,000yen
size : 19.87m^2
distance to d nearest station : walking distance 11mins
type : コーポ (i dunno wat is tis in eng, but sth like 2-storey apartment?) 1st floor (very similar to which i m staying now)
toilet n bathroom r separated
sth i like bout tis : room is unique n nice =) totali look brand new.
sth i dislike bout tis : 1st floor =/ n small closet. hv to hang laundry stuff inside d room.


d one on d right:
rental per month : 60,000yen
size : 24m^2
distance to d nearest station : walking distance 20mins
type : *expensive* condominium/mansion (it's written on d paper like tat k) 3rd floor
toilet+bathroom tgt
sth i like bout tis : HUGE closet =D , a personal balcony, totali safe wif auto-lock system, passcode-based postbox, n again, HUGE CLOSET =)
sth i dislike bout tis : even further than wher i m staying now, located right bsid a highway which may b a bit noisy, hv to pay one more month of rental when sign contract =/


SOOOOO, which to choose larrrrr =(((((((((((((



秋天狂想曲

一时荒唐的台风式的狂风
一时抚心的温柔系的凉风

叶子忘我的随之摇曳起舞
把与树干的一年情感忘却

眼看着树叶投入杂草怀抱
自甘堕落成为唾人弃落叶

面对周遭的狂澜舆论指责
树干无力地自叹无能为力

随着落叶无情无意的离去
它无意识地渐渐枯萎老去

狂风依然无情肆虐着树干
凉风依然怜悯抹去它的泪

五彩缤纷的夏天莫名离去
荒凉昏沉的秋天荒唐到来

掀起的狂澜
谁阻止得了

——————————————————————————————————————————

Project 365-II #1

秋天●秋装----我<3灰

不公平

朋友都问
为什么我的部落格总是蓝蓝的
为什么我的心情总是蓝蓝的

我没有特别不开心
也没有说生活中没有快乐因素
部落格对于我来说
是个发泄的地方
让我述说的地方
让我留下文字痕迹的地方

很多时候
就只是无聊没事做随意写写

有时候
想寻找一些灵感 一些感触
所以晃下晃下来到这儿
毕竟是自己的地方 比较不陌生

我真的没有心情不好
最近总在重复这句话
应该贴个标签在额头


有时候会觉得自己的文笔很滥情
好恶

我又写了一篇离题到不行的文章。如果你称这为文章。

真的就只是随意写写。

我想我Project 365可以正式宣告失败了吧?
还是继续比较好?请投票。

我好不适合当个诉说者。
还是回到自己聆听者的岗位吧。

12月应该会搬家。

把自己搞得那么忙,何必呢。

这是真的

雨下了一整夜
台风又要来了

心情没有不好
但也没有很好

沉沉的重重的
怪怪的麻麻的

我很想写些什么
但却只能写些短句
白话得不能再白的短句

只想用课业工作来麻痹自己
让脑袋休息,让思绪休息

真的,我心情没有不好

活在当下

你我都曾沉溺在过去的回忆里

该放开了,好吗?

1,2,3, 起步跑

文字

喜欢吴子云 也就是大家所熟悉的藤井树
他不是日本人 只不过他喜欢一部日本电影
与其说喜欢吴子云 倒不如说喜欢吴子云的文字
他的小说文字很简单 但却很容易贴近一个人的心
他的文字不多修饰 但是却形容得巧妙
我喜欢他思考的方式 再把思考化作文字
他的故事多从胡闹 - 开心 - 痛心 - 然后再出人意外地铿锵的一次感动
因为吴子云 对台湾充满梦想
因为吴子云 我的高中似乎多了那么些色彩
他的文字虽然调皮可稽 但文字的背后总是透漏着淡淡的忧伤
是我多疑了吗?

期待他的新作

从不曾发现自己如此害怕一个人的黑夜

曾经爱护得不像样的回忆
忽然间
想把它们全都烧毁了
烧成灰烬

或许很不应该
当初的不应该
现在的不应该
即将的不应该

我讨厌改变
变化让人晕眩一瞬间
再回到原点的那一刻
才会心痛发现失去了什么

从不曾发现自己如此害怕一个人的黑夜

不要问,不要说,一切尽在不言中。

不要问我为什么
因为我也不晓得
自己的脑海里头
在盘旋着些什么
生活习惯变得很糟糕
情绪起伏我无法掌控
我拒绝去解决,
我拒绝去面对,
我坚持自己可以。
if you think you can, you can.
不是吗?心理学都这么教。
我时间充裕得很
却在哀叹着时间的流逝
我有时候的慌乱,
只是单纯的无聊。
我有时候的无聊,
制造了内心的恐慌。



或许我真的很无聊。


台風なのに、なんで学校行かなきゃいけないの?!馬鹿じゃないの!

あああああああぁぁぁぁぁぁ

我尝试过了
我努力过了
抱歉
我想
你的幸福始终不在我这儿





只希望你的偶尔出现在我的需要

我不是你

多拨出些时间陪我好吗?
多花些心思在我身上好吗?
多让我感觉到你的存在好吗?
多关心关爱我多那一秒钟好吗?
多腾出心里的一些空间埋藏我好吗?
多用些记忆体存放我们仅剩的回忆好吗?

是否

我有多么无奈
你从来不知道
看时间的流逝
然而我学不懂
教我怎么依赖
教我怎么放开
那离开的念头
徘徊在爱上空
对于你的犹豫
增添我的恐惧
我曾经答应过
抱歉我反悔了
只有那些伤痛
掩盖得过心痛

河畔

多摩川
一条分隔着东京与神奈川的界限
一个早晨与夜晚两极化的氛围
一个有着繁闹的车笛声
同时有着潺潺的水流声的地方
一个曾经今天拥你入怀
隔天却收集了我的泪水的地方



平静了。

worst day ever

i lost my bike. 2 bikes to b exact.
i had a bento case wif d cover opened. inside my bag.
ther's certainly 2 perverts (or above) staying near my house.
underwears are gone n window opened. n i were in d room. wtf.
contacted. some mental problem which caused his disappearance.
mental prob = stress = me. fml to d max.
2nd cockroaches found. along wif a long hair catterpillar. IN d hse.





it's oways too late to apologiz.

111st post

cheers for d new start =)

漫长的八个小时

开始讨厌他手上的吐眼企鹅

开始讨厌麦当劳这份工作

开始讨厌这样的生活

开始讨厌自己的胡思乱想

我什么都讨厌!

累了啦


啦啦啦
讨厌我自己

胡说

我试着不去在乎了
反正你的不辞而别
换来了大家的关心
帮你扯了一对解释
你却始终没给一个
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开课了
几乎每一天反复地重复着上课下课打工上课下课打工

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昨晚只昏睡了那三十分钟
却还是被梦魇惊醒了。

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我到底怎么了。
怎么总是感觉不到。




我又任性了。


晚安

转载自朋友的一篇文章

你不要死
臼井儀人先生擅离职守,放下了画笔,离开了喜爱他的一大票人,开启了另一个冒险的旅程。他的存在,为小孩带来了欢笑的童年。那个封闭的90年代,小学老师告诉家长说别让孩子接触《蜡笔小新》,那是”有害读物“。在日本推出蜡笔小新系列当时臼井先生接受了日本社会不少的评判。你能想象吗?日本,自由风气盛行的国家,竟然还有那么固步自封的一块。曾经一段时间想说:那么邋遢的画风,有人买单吗?这漫画能卖吗?当我们所有人开始接受臼井先生略带孩子气的幽默画风的时候,正是这你把它纳入心坎里作永久记忆保存的时候,他挥了挥衣袖,放下画笔,不辞而别了。他只身前往群马县荒船山寻找灵感作画时,失足从120米高的悬崖掉下,粉身碎骨而亡。120米,物理计算每秒10米的重力加速度,掉下的大约12秒的短暂瞬间,对臼井先生有点太长了。那十余秒间,他回想了他遭受过的冷遇,社会的不理解,他对于作画的一番独特见解与执着,那十余秒对他来说,长得有点不人道。他为我的生命带来彩虹,然而臼井先生在追逐彩虹的当儿摔了一跤,这一跤可摔的不轻。他应该在百年归老时,躺在自家舒发上,告诉老伴说:”我该走了。“随之呼下一口气,扬长而去的呀。不是吗?

你能不伤心吗?臼井先生用一个比漫画还戏剧化的方法离开人间。今天刻意到书局逛了一趟,看到了《蜡笔小新》一书,实有说不出的感动。童年,爸妈都在工作。只有星期日的早上徒得浮生半日闲,一家人阖家观赏从亲戚处借来的《蜡笔小新》录影带。那段美好时光,一家人大家一起笑。反观现在,妈不在了;家人认为”反正你不会死“,在任何事情上都自我优先;朋友见到你上线永远不会摇你,你也永远没有商榷权。你少了一种”被重视“。时至今日,连臼井先生都走了,我的世界什么都没有了。

From,
Yaoyao

我只需要一个安慰
我以为把时间填满会让我忘却。


原来不行。

到不了

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了

感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒

我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒

我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫

愿你看到....

intend to

i intended to believe.
i intended to push myself forward.
i intended to put an upward curve on my face.
i intended to stuff edible thgs into my mouth.
i intended to not to think.
i intended to not to care.
i intended to forget.
i intended to act like i dun care.
i intended to feel like i m a happy-go-round girl.
i intended to blog 'bout my happy memories.
i intended to find them out.



i failed.

So it is

i m here, in japan, safe n sound...?

back to d normal moodswing, speechless, emotionless, sleepless, boringness, ........... days.

sth has changed. diff mood everytime i stepped into my room. i can c memories n flashbacks everywher, indicating somebody has left.

it's hard to stay in d room. looking at all those ... stuff. it's even harder to move them away. stuff them into a box n then how. or juz take a plastic bag stuff them in n then bring them outside to throw. or juz burn them tgt wif myself.

they r juz damn.....................i wouldnt say irritating but.

v smsed. v talked. v met. v ate. v dated. v quarreled. then v nvr speak. then now wat.

i won hope tat v nvr met. at least i've learnt a lesson. a pain one.

ther's somebody tat u'll nvr nid to wait. ther's oso somebody tat u waited but nvr appear. then ther's somebody u shud wait but u nvr wanted to wait.

pain flowing everywher. mb guilts wil overtake it someday.

blogging in KLIA

leaving in one hour plus time. damn shitty feeling now.

can i juz come home wheneva i miss home....

wat if i died.....

大氣離子暴增!日學者警告 關東恐發生規模八強震

更新日期:2009/09/08 04:09

〔國際新聞中心/綜合報導〕日本近幾個月來強震頻傳,再加上專家預測的百年強震「東海大地震」已屆週期,引發各界對於日本可能發生大地震的憂慮。長期研究大氣離子變化與地震關係的情報地質學專家弘原海清便指出,以東京為主的關東地區七月中旬的大氣離子濃度暴增兩百倍,根據以往大氣離子濃度在強震前都會急速增加的觀測紀錄研判,關東地區九月很可能發生芮氏規模八的強震,並可能造成萬人以上死亡。

兼任「大氣離子地震預測研究會e-PISCO」理事長的大阪市立大學名譽教授弘原海清解釋,震源區地殼承受壓力進而產生龜裂時,就會釋放出埋藏於地底二至三公尺處的離子,所以在強震發生前,震源周遭大氣離子濃度也會隨之升高。

類似阪神大震異常值

他在接受媒體訪問時表示,關東地區七月中旬的大氣離子濃度不斷升高,暴增至正常數值的兩百倍,而一九九五年阪神大地震時,也曾觀測到類似突然飆高的異常數值。

弘原表示,若強震早點發生,大概會是芮氏規模七左右,若持續累積能量拖到九月才發生,則可能達到芮氏規模八。報導也指出,不僅關東地區的大氣離子濃度出現變化,當地各區也陸續出現寵物行為異常、大量蚯蚓死亡或電腦電器失常等異象。

規模八強震 恐上萬死

弘原推斷,關東九月底前若不幸發生強震,震央很可能會在東京、南部神奈川山區或千葉縣南部,最糟糕的情況可能導致上萬人死亡。


wtf. thinking to delay my flight =/

时间拼图

还有十天。
快乐的时间过得特别快,老土却真实得可怕。今晚我要打一篇长长的文章,我可以的。
还有十天。
又要重新找出那红色护照过关。又要去那不想去确非去不可的机场。又要回那看似缤纷却枯燥得要命的城市里。
还有十天,
又要面对了。在父母面前要假装礼貌性的打招呼。虽然不愿意得想逃跑。漫长的7个小时里,我要努力。
还有十天,
又要将我的生活节奏打乱,再一块一块的拼凑起来,直到下个出口的到来。

我努力要自己不去想,但周围的人事物时时刻刻的提醒着我。
我努力要自己避开,但是又和不舍拉扯。
我努力要自己离开,但是又会把碎得一地的拼图是起来努力拼凑回去。
我努力要自己向前走,但是我却奢望谁来扶着我一起走。
我努力要自己面对,但是我从不曾学会解决问题。
我努力要自己独立,下一秒却依偎在他人胸怀。
我努力要找寻出口,却连回头路都蒙上了迷雾。

青涩的文字不再,因为时间拼凑不回来。

我的文字,迷路了。

一个人的旅程

一年余后
又重新踏上了一个人的旅程
这趟旅途开始得很安静
还未曾来得及打包行李
就得匆匆忙忙的上路了
留下了好多
带不走的,更多
打开背囊
满满的习惯,要丢弃了
过期的感情,不该带上
撒落满地的刁蛮任性,要装好
配备要带好,武装自己
沉重的回忆,塞不下
没忘了带上自助式医疗箱
从那天开始,就要自己照顾自己

怕你无聊没东西读

被留下的那一个
只得背得满满的疑惑
从前,今天,未来
胡乱地搅成一锅脑丝
多希望能够像Dumbledore一样
将脑丝一丝一丝抽出
然后放进玻璃瓶里
拿到那年的大海去放生
我果然净写出些破烂
哈哈

一个人的时分

胡思乱想是寂寞的权利
进行自己对自己的对话
细数年长者脸上岁月的痕迹的同时
自己却挥霍着所剩无几的青春
明知道无法恒久的东西
却坚持这了那么久
还可以持续吗?
自欺欺人
如果和我对话如此疲乏
何必继续对话
明智之举
你的选择

ANNOUNCEMENT

I'm back in msia now! n dunno y my laptop cant b connected to my home's wireless network =( n hence.... i m afraid ther won b any update for almoz 2 months!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Test = super late updatesss :p

yea new record! 2 weeks nvr update ady (。⌒∇⌒)。 praise the test period! n it hasnt ended yet lo! i hv another test in 15hours time but .... totali gave up on it.

k....the same old word goes like tis .... let the pictures tel the stories =)

#61 ----> # 74

0716 --- study day in Mizonoguchi = Game center = UFO catcher = PRIZES!

0717 --- another study day at Mizonoguchi + new study dude
0718 --- crawling hamster

0719 --- ANOTHER study day in SUPER EXPENSIVE cafe + Wiven's bday celebration at Izakaya
0720 --- rainbow after rainy day =) in the center of Shibuya
0721 --- the stil-cute hamster =)

0722 --- shopped for groceries n bought tis super hard mini tamago-crab. hard but oishii though

0723 - 0724 ---> due to super tough testS i missed my photo-taking session =(

0725 --- went to the biggest HANABI DAIKAI (fireworks festival) in Asakusa,of Japan
i curled my hair tat day but it became straight right after i stepped out the house due to the muggy weather T_T
exhausted
0727 --- the formal test period started. but by tat time i ady finished 7 out of 10 of my test. 3 left, so , STUDY DAY again at McD tis time.
0728 ---the most important thg for midnite study