When can i go for this?

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Sometimes, we just need to let it out..

Talk about it..

But it's so dramatic that you wonder who would believe?


"your life seems to be spoken out of a drama script"...

-_-"

Wrong, drama was written out of my life...

Seriously?

All these sound absurd to me..

What happened years ago... is coming to haunt me?

Why is it always these past mistakes that tripped me over and over again...

The ghost of my past sins...

All i wanted to do, was to save a life...

I wonder if i was getting "too free" these days that i have the habit of bloghopping...
Simply clicking the "next" button and see what it brings me to.. Some are funny posts, some boring, some with great pictures, and of course some, encouraging.

"everyone could use a little bit of encouragement", that's what DZ said in her book generational transition. I began commenting on random strangers blog "so as to encourage them".. weird i know... it's so not me. i guess, that's how i encourage myself too?

Another thing that's not me, facebook.
I finally got my facebook acct. Best of all, wasn't started by me. nevertheless, it just got interesting. old friends and old flames started contacting me, some to catch up, some for weird reason, and some, to hook up?

sorry to disappoint but i'm still trying to move on from the previous one.

Lives around me seem to be moving at bullet pace and i kinda sat on the "pause" button on my own.

Can i just pick up where i left off? and just carry on?




Don't really expect them to understand what i do, just hoping they would accept it.


p.s. i'm becoming fat.. office for too long...
Pen & Paper, Aircon Ranger...

Of New Beginning


taking kinda long to upload just one pic..
Maybe i sound change to wordpress or something..

Heello blog..

Been a long time...

Wonder who's gonna read..
Honestly, after reading the past entries, i don't really recognize myself..
Not exactly the same as before...
I've lost quite a bit of things (and people) since i can't remember when..
I guess everything gonna start all over again..
all over again for the God-knows-how-many-times..

But one thing i must say..
All things change and fail

Jesus remains constant...


By the way, anyone reading this.. my Iphone died in a car accident.
So, till 14 Dec, no whatsapp or instagram..
like a sad..




Oh Lord,
How i want to start anew..
Restore all things lord....

"If you could sit the whole world together, and ask... anyone, who has never make a mistake, to raise up their hand. No one. Not one hand will be raised."

-Restorative Justice.

It's funny how we always think that we can do better than the guy next to you when you see an important given to anyone but you.

It's funny how when important ("spotlight") task are given to us and we wish someone else take it and we have the easier way out.

Look like i'm not going to London... Not going to the place of my dream, for now... not going to learn from the british... not going to pick up an accent... look like.. no one is going cuz the course is cancelled...

Felt sore when someone else was chosen to go London.. Felt nice when i'm reserved.... finger crossed that i get to go and that guy go on mc.. felt glad that course is cancelled and that no one is going since i dont get to go... felt weird that i'm happy...

It's definitely not healthy to feel this way.. Oh God.. i shouldn't feel this way..