don't be a stranger

I hate to think about it, but let's face it; for whatever reason, we're not as close as we used to be. I don't care whose fault it is, or what the fault is - the most important thing is whether we can and want to fix it.

I know I do. Do you?

We've gone through alot of hell, and more of heaven. That's what I'd like to think. Am I just being naive? Your call. Most of the time, I'll be willing to negotiate, to compromise, but not to shut you up so that we can resume our happy distorted lives: Don't you think it's worth it to try and save something that means so much to someone?

I admit, I didn't give you as much attention as I should have when you needed help the most. For that I don't ask to be forgiven if you cannot give it to me. But surely I don't deserve the cold shoulder? For whatever little or much I've done, surely you can grant a chance to keep our friendship alive?

Sure, I may look like the type that can take everything in stride, but in the end, I'm only human. You may protect yourself with the words you say and the actions you do, but is it worth it at the expense of hurting me?

Maybe I'm not much, but that never means I'm nothing.

Angry? Sad? Hurt? All three at once and I can only come to a conclusion: I'm confused.
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Maybe I'm thinking too much. As much of a plea it sounds, it serves me as a reminder of sorts from various people I've met in my life - my parents, my friends, my relatives, myself even. A reminder of my faults and whatever little virtues that I may possess. Humans naturally have crapass memory; we need training in that.

howtimeflies

The past few days were really all about getting closer to people close to me.

Gatherings, dinners, Christmas present shopping... it was all good fun. Meeting new people who really made me laugh till my eyes were getting watery was one of the highlights of that weekend. Eric, Weiwei, Khim & Ellen were super funny! Wonder when I will see them again, if ever at all.

Tonight was windy and cold, but beautiful. Strangely so.

Jon made some dessert which was a combination of chocolate, peanut butter & fried noodles. Crispy and sweet. All of us were skeptical about it, but it turned out pretty good.

Time passes way too quickly when the weekend comes, but that is why I put up with the drollness of the weekday. Every day doesn't pass without thinking of the weekend. It doesn't matter whether it was a weekend in the past, or the weekends to come, but I will always think of the weekend. And for that matter, my weekend always starts on Friday although I go to work on that day. Somehow, Fridays are special.

And so are you.

Sometimes, distance draws people closer. I guess to me, this means that when we are apart I appreciate you more when you're around. Every moment counts.

Sigh, now with so many people gone I'm also starting to miss home once again. But my entire house is gonna be in Sydney come this Christmas! I can't wait! I've been looking forward to this all year! With ming and korg, we are gonna be the receptionists XD

dinner

Prepared by the one and only. Ammie! =D



Fried rice with fried egg, rocket salad, chicken & onion and some tomatoes. And Japanese curry chicken (not featured in the photo) which after 2 days of gaining the 'leftover' status became pretty tender and nicer to eat, in my opinion.

Dessert was a chocolate on chocolate muffin (of which we were eating while discussing all sorts of Chinese food and kuih muih *drools* followed by an episode of a Christmas-themed cooking show hosted by Nigella Lawson *drools even more*)
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Time seems to fly by; not too long ago I was agonizing over the exams. Now I'm agonizing over the monotony of work.

More papercuts as I did more filing today for Donna (Leanne wasn't in to bear me in the right direction in regards to the project I'm supposed to be doing). In some ways, Donna reminds me of guama. Maybe since they are of similar build and just the general air/aura they carry about them is quite similar.

Papercuts hurt! It gives you a kind of chill, and then a quick searing pain. And here you think paper is probably the most harmless thing ever. Kind of goes to show how one can never underestimate anything that life presents to them.

week 2.

3 working weeks to Christmas (as Leanne was saying last week =P), I can’t wait!

I know I’ve been a lazy arse in updating my blog, but then again I *was* (sort of) busy with work~
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The field trip to Seaspray was quite fun. First off we stopped by the Gippsland Water Factory construction site in Maryvale, and we were taken on a tour of the site, explaining how the sewage treatment system works, climbing onto scaffolds, trudging through the mud – it was quite interesting. And extremely educational. Although I didn’t really see how it fit into the department I was working at, it was something to process and an experience worth noting. However, it did bring to mind some files I was uploading into TRIM and its value as well as its location. But boy was it cold; I was expecting it to be abit warmer.

Next stop was lunch @ Sale; Relish @ The Gallery.

It. Was. Good.

Had seafood risotto which was pretty yummy, and the only thing I regret not doing was trying the hot chocolate. Seeing Rachel have 2 glasses (1 before the main meal and 1 after) made me drool! It comes with a heart-shaped marshmallow and a chocolate spoon (which I thought was a stroke of genius! Chocolate on chocolate! XD)

Next stop: Seaspray.

I was sleepy after lunch, so that didn’t really help when Bill was explaining how the water treatment system works. Couldn’t stop yawning for the first 10 minutes, and I could feel my eyelids being weighed down (literally). But after we got to the site where they were installing the pumps (which was by the sea) BLOODY HELL IT WAS COLD! Not to mention that I brought only my light jacket (my ancient all-weather greyish jacket – when I say “ancient” & “all-weather” I really mean those terms literally =P)

And that was the last agenda of the day~

Conclusion: Very fun, very informative, and coupled with a good lunch = happy! Although the weather *once again* was being a total party pooper.
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Friday wasn’t all that bad either. With Ammie out with Yong, Mel & Jason for dinner, I guess it was the frist time I truly was home alone. Strange, but it was good. I mean, once in awhile I like being home alone – I have “everything” to myself.

Stayed the night at Qi’s (or rather, Sindu’s house whom she allowed Qi to use while she was away) @ Springvale after Hiro picked us up.. There were the 4 of us, one empty house, rather dusty and with a huuuge bed! XD
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I was supposed to meet Mel on Saturday but due to bad planning and timing, we just missed the chance to meet. Bugger.

Had buffet lunch at Crown, which wasn’t too bad, and the desserts were really nice to look at! Not to mention their ice-cream machine was really fun to play with~ Qi, Hiro & Lambert really ate quite abit (random observation: is it a Chinese thing to eat till they’re really stuffed or what? =P) Accompanied Qi to buy her hair straightener while Hiro went for a haircut and Lambert, well.. I dunno what he ended up doing.

After months of not going to Springvale it was nice to be back in all the pasar-like environment, a big table of people playing Chinese chess (or shougi, whichever you prefer) and all sorts of random Asian fruits (Qi was asking whether we wanted to buy some durian back! ahhahah~ I think if we did noone could safely sit in Hiro’s car without gagging…)
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Sunday could be summarized in one word: Boring!

Ammie & I really didn’t do anything useful – just stone around, sit in front of the TV, ate some rather inedible microwaved food for dinner, and probably the funnest part was baking muffins.
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Oh yes! Before I forget:

Jon & I discovered something surprising~ We were actually tuition mates in Encik Hasri’s BM tuition! In Keng Yew’s house and everything! Gosh! What a revelation (of sorts)… It’s like a reunion after what… 5 years?! And so unexpected too! Jon was saying that the night he moved in (last Sunday) he had a feeling he had seen me somewhere before. I thought the same, but I couldn’t quite remember where or when.. until that day we quizzed each other on high school tuition sessions.

“Hahaha, this is what we call fate.” – Chris, 2007

WTF man.