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Saturday, April 23, 2011
Personal Best Again!
The feeling of achieving a personal best lingers on for a while. it feels so good that you have to keep looking at the official race timings and the photographs.

21st April 2011 was the JPM run with a distance of 5.6km. I was feeling jittery the night before, afraid that I couldnt meet the expectations I set for myself. Peter had wanted me to do a 30mins, and in order to do that, i had to run a constant speed of at least 11.5. I wondered, was that possible? I decided I would try for 31mins.

2 years ago, I did a 51mins 52 secs. I wasnt confident I would be able to slice 20 mins off, but regular 6km lunch runs was going to do me good. Besides, I had a competitor in mind to beat.

at 430pm, we all gathered for a group photograph and proceeded towards the race start point. Peter told me to go the start line with him, he said that if we dont do that, we will never be able to hit our PBs. and so I did.

Race started at 605pm. Pressed my Polar, and here we go.. started off too fast at speed 12.3 for 2km... at 3km, I was losing breathing control, so I had to slow down to 11.8, by almost 5km, I was down to 10.8. the last 600m, I was breathing hard but with whatever I had left, I sprinted to the end, and pressed on Polar to stop.

I didnt dare to look at my time. I walked pass all the drink stations and collected my goody bag. Saw Peter at the far end, and walked towards him.. He did a 23mins! 1 min off his PB last year.. he looked at me.. and said.. "how?"

i toggled my screens on Polar.

30mins 38secs!!!!

I was overjoyed! the lunch runs, the intervals, the hill trainings - all of those muscles that I wacked during my runs.. they were all worth it. I sliced 20 mins off my timing 2 years ago, and am ranked top 141 of all the 4953 female runners.

to top that off, I also beat that competitor I had in mind. ohhh, victory is soooo sweet.

2 days later, I'm still feeling proud of myself! :))

so, lets not get complacent, continue the trainings and am going to sign up for the standchart marathon this year. lets get going (running)

till then, claim your PBs and feel good about it. you deserve it.

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Saturday, November 06, 2010
57kg today :)

I still cannot get over the euphoria i experienced last week at the GE Run.
For some reasons, every year I will sign up for the GE Run and every year I will proceed to NOT make it for the run. The first year i sprained my ankle, the 2nd and 3rd year i fell sick.

This year however I was determined to make it happen and I'm so glad I did.

They always say we should have a good 8-10hrs sleep before a run, unfortunately, i did not have a good sleep - no idea why i keep waking up at 2hrs interval.
Woke up at 6am and hubby sent me down to race start point at suntec, there was a huge crowd. race started late, 18 mins after scheduled flagged off at 7am. i was yawning and feeling negative bout the run.

Race horn went off.
Crossed the start line.
Pressed the button on my Polar.

Here we go.

I was aware i need to keep a speed of 10 to be able to hit 1hr or below. i kept at that pace and did a fairly comfortable run. the daily 5km runs helped with half the distance but at 8km, i was feeling tired.

i was reading a book the night before. The Extra Mile by Pam Reed.
She said:

"Nothing that I have ever done in my life that has been easy has been worth it. The harder it is, the more satisfaction I get"

Believe it or not, i chanted that for the next 2km. I kept telling myself - seriously its 2km, how difficult!

At 9.5km, just before the turning into the finishing point, i caught a glimpse of the timer. From far, it looked like 58:03

0_0

Normally when im approaching the finish line, the timer would have 3 sets of numerals - hrs : mins : secs
That day, it had 2 sets.

with whatever energy i had left, i sprinted to the finishing line and that could possibly have been the fastest 500m sprint ever. as i sprinted for the last 500m, i was screaming to myself inside that I REALLY WANT THIS. i crossed the finishing line, pressed the button on my polar again.

59mins 31secs.

I DID IT! i completed my 10km race in my personal best under 1 hour! at shape run, i did 1hr 7mins. at the ahm run, i did 1hr 4mins. at nike run, i did 1hr 3mins. it was so frustrating!!

but i did it, i slashed my personal best by 3mins and 30secs and i felt like crying.  i trained hard for this - i really did.

hubby was waiting for me at finish line (the night before i asked if he thinks i can finish the race under an hour, he said, of course la!), he yelled out to me, i walked over, held his hands and said "i did it." he replied, "i told you!"

:)

one week later today, i still cannot get over it. reminiscing it makes me smile to myself. this is something nobody can take away from me.
life is good. haha. :))

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Saturday, September 11, 2010
The Running Journey and 10KGs.
when i first saw this picture taken at my birthday chalet late March this year, i was taken aback.
i thought "KNN, i how fat!"


I didnt do much about it, and thought maybe I was having water retention. But somehow I know I was putting on the extra pounds especially after CFA last December. Late night studying at MCD obviously did not help.

I will weigh myself occasionally and see the numbers slowly creep up, cry in horror, but step down from the weighing machine and forget about it. By mid April, I was weighing a whooping 69.6 kg. In about another 0.4kg, I would be 70kg!

I got seriously freaked.

So I started running with a fellow colleague (Peter) - 5km runs during lunch time everyday and a 10km run during weekends, leaving Sunday for rest. Geared with my Polar watch, my heart rate belt, distance foot pod and my trusty Newtons - I had only one goal in mind - Stay fit and trim.

Peter was a patient and honest running buddy, but running with him means that while one is willing to teach, the other must be willing to learn and take criticisms.

The first few days of running, he said I was too heavy to be a runner and that I need to lose quite a bit of weight. He said my running style sucks and I was converting too much energy into the air, instead of into my legs. I need to run forward, not upwards. He said I should try fore foot running.

And i did. God blessed my calves coz I couldnt walk for a few days coz the muscles ached like I had 2 tennis balls on my calves everytime i walked. But fore foot running was alot easier for me.

Peter also introduced me to spin classes and I was appalled at how much my tshirt will be drenched in perspiration. He was an encouraging friend and whenever I felt like stopping or giving up, he would yell at me

"THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT!! THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU WANT!!" 

One month after all the lunch and weekend runs, I participated in the 10km Passion Run and clocked 1hour 26mins. It was the first time i completed a run without stopping for walk breaks but i wasnt happy with my timing.

It was not easy. Running during lunch hours means you lose interaction with your fellow colleagues and miss out on alot of good food. It means that you need to wake up early to make your salad. It means that you go under the hot sun and perspire like a horse and get uneven tan lines on your wrist (Peter - my running buddy welcomed me to the club of distorted wrists).

31st May, it was a rest day for me and Peter - we decided to head out for lunch. I was having my usual smokes after lunch when he asked me a question.

"after running and keeping fit, u still smoke, why are you still running huh?"

I smiled and when i returned to the office, I disposed 12 sticks of Marlboro Ice Blast. I just wanted to see how long I could sustain without cigarettes. I didnt think of quitting, I just wanted to see how long i can last without nicotine. Today, 11 Sept 2010 - I've officially stopped smoking for 3.5 months.

ok i digressed. 

Training went on for 3 months, and i was getting the Runner's High. I was getting fidgety when the weather was bad and I cant get out to run. It was becoming a habit for me to get out in the sun and wack the bloody muscles.

25th July Shape Run - I clocked 1hour 7mins. I officially shaved 19mins off my previous time in a matter of 3 months. Still not happy with it la, I wanna see if I can shave 7 mins off this Sunday during the Singapore Bay Run. I want to do 10km in an hour.

ok, so after all the real life stories on the running and the quit smoking. here's the best part.

as at this morning - I lost 10.7KG =)

Before - 69.6 KG
After - 58.9 KG
3.9KG more to my ideal weight. :)


Running gives you the self esteem that you will never find at the bottom of a beer glass





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Monday, June 14, 2010
Neglect
i logged into my page today and realised - the blog has been neglected for almost 3 months. 0_0

there must have been one million happenings since 3 months ago and i shall in a desperate attempt, try to recall events so i can pen it down here, afterall, its a place for my memories. long post!

Friends

friendship is still not saved and things are still awkward as ever. the surprising part, i heard, is that maybe she doesnt even know we are, or at least i am disappointed with her. the fact that i cannot even look at her in the eye and hold a proper conversation shows alot. i told shan, that i really do not have alot of girlfriends, mainly because i cannot tolerate most of their behaviours. the main bulk of my girlfriends are very much like me, we detest most girly behaviours, them being needy, them being teh, them putting their boyfriends in the priority line,etc. and sadly she has morphed into one.

to add on to that, she has also now become a selfish person. i do not know how this friendship continues. or if i can ever be friends with her again. the recent event left me in shock. why couldnt you have opened your mouth and asked if this was our event or an event with spouses? why is it that just because you ASSUMED it was non spouses event, the other person gets the blame of not telling you?

we are not the only 2 feeling that you have changed. even your best friend feels that you have been different. the only possible situation that might come out of this is that everything else remains the same or if not, just gets worst. and im not trying anymore, coz im not even in the wrong and you still think you are right. 

Bali

hubby and i went to bali in may for a short getaway trip and also needless to say, to dive. we did a 2 days diving and a 1 days R&R, which was just enough i felt to get away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore and if not more gossips and disappointments.

The highlight of the trip must have been at Manta Point where i finally finally saw the Manta rays. we did a backroll descend and the water was horrendously cold. 3mm and a rash guard was obviously insufficient. but when we descended and when the instructor hit his scuba tank with the metal rod vigorously, creating a "ting ting ting ting ting", my heart dropped and i forgot about the coldness.  right in front of me, albeit bad visibility, was 4-5 huge ass manta rays. as they flapped their "wings" and swam past me, i was in awe.

i was finally diving with the manta rays.

Anniversary

on 31st may, me and hubby celebrated our one year of marriage. we had a simple dinner at outbacks in millenia walk and for some reasons, i was exhausted so left after dinner back home. it was a year i understood my hubby more as a person, and i appreciated having our talks because i think its always good to iron out the differences there and then. speak the truth and clear the doubts. it was then also our 2543 days together (im not crazy, i utilised a day counter on internet. haha)

Running

around mid april, my friends paid for my polar running watch - r300 as a birthday gift. on 29th april, i started running with it and somehow instantly fell in love. it comes with a footpod and a heart rate monitor, so it tells you how far you have ran and if you are working hard enough! for the first 3 weeks, i was slightly frustrating coz the footpod wasnt measuring the distance accurately so when i went for the passion run and the sundown marathon, the watch was measuring a shorter distance. it was an impact to my morale coz i thought i was finishing the 10km, only to find out on the distance marker that i was still at 8.5km.

i finally figured that it was because i didnt tie the footpod tight enough on the shoe, and ever since it has been measuring the distance accurately. :)

so i have been running everyday during lunch. 5km from OGS to the flyer and back, and also watching what i eat. i guess during the cfa last year, i was eating too much junk and when i keep seeing the weighing machine numbers creep up, i knew it was time to start running. running from OGS to the flyer during lunch hour was a challenge because sometimes the weather gets sweltering hot! everytime when i reach the flyer at 2.5km, i feel like giving up. but i never gave up. i always complete my run and that sense of satisfaction when u reach the 5km mark is soooooooo satisfying. :)

lost 2kgs in a month and im going to buy that osim weighing machine that measures your weight and fat content. 5 more 10km races to go and i want to try and hit that 1hr10min mark in the standard chartered run this year. i need to slice 10mins off my PB now at 1hr20min so that will be a personal goal for now! half marathon next year!

smoking and drinking

because of the above personal goal, i have to date stopped smoking for 14 days. like i tell people around me, im not trying to quit smoking, im just trying to see how long i can last without one. (i choose the cowardice way since i might just smoke again tomorrow. haha!). so far so good, there was the occasional urge, especially after a meal or after beer, but im keeping it under control. i actually feel more determined this time.

and because almost all the time the urge comes from drinking beer, ive decided to stop/cut down on beer so then i wont have all these urges anymore! in any case, both these changes are good for me since drinking beer has so much calories that i need to probably run alot more to burn it off.

Work

in 14 days time, i would have worked at NT for a year. i have to say that if you work in an industry that requires you to commit to month ends, time pass alot faster. its alot different at NT and at SS - at NT the bosses appreciate your work and if you stay late. they dont take for granted that its normal for you to work late on month ends although it probably is. they thank you for your time, i mean literally come to your desk and say thank you. it is with this kind of boss that you will not feel disgruntled like i was at SS. it makes the working environment alot less tense and alot more enjoyable.

Going Foward

ok i cant think of anymore major events so i guess thats about all.

im looking forward to:
more runs and more weight loss.
Dayang in August (im bringing my cousin and colleagues there for OW)
7th year anniversary with hubby (our dating anniversary, i know its bimbotic, but its 7 years ok!)
the stand chart mara to hit my personal goal.

till then!

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Thursday, March 25, 2010
change
its appalling.

suddenly i have no idea who you are anymore. someone i have known for so long, overnight, the essence of friendship was tarnished completely.
it was a mess right from the beginning. all im asking for was a bit of sensitivity and if there was any bit of it left, im sure we would not be left to handle the situation and be put in a predicament.
im not so sure why certain information has to be revealed and im not so sure why the there is a need to behave in the manner they did. but to me, its just pure cruelty.

he didnt deserve this. he is not the world's most likeable person. but no, he did not deserve this.

so anyway.. sipadan was beautiful, the 1088 i spent was worth every penny. i suppose at different stages of our lives, we choose to do different things. i chose diving 2 years ago and i have no regrets. although there were numerous quarrels with hubby and i spent a huge part of my bonus package buying the equipments, the experience underwater is priceless.

years down the road, i want to be able to tell my children, that their mother went diving underwaters at sipadan island and saw that magnificient eagle ray, those giant turtles and the beautiful nudibranches. i want to tell them that i lay right beside a black tip shark and watch them breath through their vibrating gills. i want to boast about how i swam beside a school of giant barracudas and that school of jack fishes. i want to tell them that it was so peaceful underwater - only you and your breathing.

lets work towards maldives soon. :)

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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
addicted to nitrox
in a recent bid to enjoy my sipadan trip to the fullest, i went on a shopping spree.

total damage - SGD 4,057

and a happy deniz. :)





scubapro MK25/S600 with 2 in 1 gauge - 1,079



hollis m1 mask - 130




o neill wetsuit - 260


scubapro ladyhawk - 800

 
 
 

suunto d4 dive comp - 600




sipadan trip - 1188

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Saturday, January 02, 2010
goodbye 2009
i am happy to say that 2009 was a good year for me. apart from a couple of family issues, every other aspect of my life would have been worth mentioning in this annual entry.

a friend asked for a list of things i was thankful for in 2009.

  1. having brought my relationship with alwin to another level. he has been a patient man and im looking forward to the arrival of our love nest and the preparation of our customary wedding together. im a happy woman :)
  2. having found a new job, better pay, better hours. dynamics of the team is very different from those at SS, but the same weird people exist! haha.
  3. having made new friends, maintain existing ones and some of us became better friends
  4. more dive trips in 2009!!
lets hope for 2010 to be a blast. looking forward to sipadan trip in march, bali trip in may.

goodbye 2009. :)

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