Tuesday, May 10, 2011
9th May 2011 is the day I will never forget. It's one of the greatest moment of my life as I finally get to see my favorite singer
Avril Lavigne perform live and to see her in person. I have miss 3 of her concerts in the past so this time I told myself that I have to go. Her music has help me so much through the years. Her songs have taught me to not bother what others have to say and stand up for your beliefs. Do what you wanna do and live life to the fullest. Be strong and don't take crap from others. Learn to let go and move on in life. I definitely could relate to some of her songs especially those on fail relationships.
Well for her concert, her first opening was the song black star. The crowd when crazy haha. I almost had a heart attack when she came out. She was so beautiful in person and finally I get to hear live and all I can say is that she can definitely sing! She really look like those photo shoot photos that you see on magazine. She was an awesome performer and I love the way she rock the stage and interact with the audience. She was really cute too haha. There was a part where she came really close to my seating area and I get to see her face to face! She really have flawless skin, beautiful eyes and features too haha! Even had eye contact with her haha. I sound like some pathetic loser haha but you can't blame me as it's my first ever concert of her.
All the songs that she perform was my favorite but too bad she didn't sing my personal favorite which was innocence but doesn't matter as her concert was still a blast! This time it's more of her vocals much more strip down raw performance and getting the audience to sing along.
Overall I had an awesome time of my life. Words cant describe on how i felt that day and it's so great to see other fans rocking out to her as majority of my friends ain't a fan haha. Hopefully
Avril will continue to do what she's has been doing for the past 10 years and I definitely look forward to her future concerts:).
Photos can be found on my facebook.
Sunday, May 08, 2011
The mysteries of life and a mother’s undying love for her children…
Keegan froze at the computer as the sound of the doorbell sent shivers down his spine.
It was late…too late for anyone decent to be coming over for a visit but there it was again.
Now his wife Jennifer stuck her head into the room with a look of fear and dread on her pretty young face.
“Keegan, did you hear the doorbell?”
“Yes, I did, honey” he answered as he stood to leave the small back room of their Victorian home.
“Who could it be at this hour, Keegan?”
“I don’t know…but I’ll find out!” He said quickly as he rushed past her.
As Keegan neared the small foyer, he slowed his steps and strained to look through the white lace curtains that covered the square window on the antique oak door.
He couldn’t see anyone standing there but yet the doorbell rang out for a third time.
He didn’t turn on any lights but moved quietly in the darkness.
Reaching the door, he very carefully pulled the edge of the curtains back so that he could see out onto the large wooden porch without being seen by anyone standing on the other side of the door.
He smiled now as he hollered out to Jennifer that everything was okay.
“It’s just mom, Jen!”
“Oh, thank God!” She called back to him from the family room.
“Hi mom, come on in!”
“How are you tonight?”
The house seemed to settle in and breathe easier once again.
Church services were over for another Sunday and the young couple now sat down at the usual table to enjoy coffee and donuts with their friends Jo and Carol.
The small church family always enjoyed their time together and today would be no different.
“So, what did you guys do yesterday?” Jo asked as she sat down.
“Oh nothing much…” Jennifer answered.
“Well, my mom came over late last night”. Keegan said with a smile.
“And scared Jen and I have to death!” he added.
“Oh? How late did she come over?” Jo asked with a chuckle.
The couple turned to look at each other before answering.
“What was it, honey…about 11:00?” Keegan asked.
“Yeah, that sounds about right.” Jennifer replied with a somber look.
“Well, that is rather late, no wonder it scared you both, was everything okay with her?”
Jo asked.
“Yes, was she alright?” Carol echoed.
“No, you don’t understand…” Keegan began.
“My mom died five years ago!”
“What?” Jo gasped as she shuddered violently.
“Yeah, she died five years ago, Jo…”
“But how then do you know that it was her?” Carol asked.
“Yes, did you actually see her standing there?” Jo added.
“Well no, I didn’t see her. See, she always knocked on my bedroom door before coming in when I was a kid because she respected my privacy. Now she knocks on the front door of my house before she comes in to let me know that it’s her.”
The two ladies sat dumbfounded but believed their young friends.
“The other thing that Keegan hasn’t told you is that our doorbell runs on batteries. There isn’t one in it now and we haven’t put one in it in over a year, so there is no way for it to ring but yet it does and there’s no one on the porch…so you tell us…”
Both Jennifer and Keegan sat smiling at their friends who still sat speechless across from them.
“Well then, it must be your mom, Keegan…” Jo said with a shiver.
“She’s just watching over us from above and wants us to know it.” Keegan said in a reassuring tone.
“And” he added, “A mother’s love never dies…”
Thursday, May 05, 2011
Wow I can't believe that I've neglected this blog for 4 months now. I guess I have lost the blogging bug. But honestly, I have so much to blog about but I couldn't find the time to blog them and plus my laziness is growing even bigger haha. But here's a random short update of my life currently.
To those who didn't know, I'm already back in Singapore since January. Adapting life back here wasn't easy for me but thankfully I'm doing alright now. My National Service is coming to an end soon & damn look how time flies. I can't believe It's my turn now & a new chapter of my life is about to begin. But sadly I'm still confuse whether to pursue my studies or start stepping into the working world. Majority are advising me to continue studying but honestly speaking, I have no idea on what to study & I'm not mentally prepared so most probably I'm gonna work first. But being the typical fickle minded me, I do not know what I wanna work as haha! I have narrowed down to 2 so far which is either to join ICA or try being an air steward. Damn I'm so screwed! I just can't make up my mind! Getting pretty worried as I'm left with 1 more month till my National Service is over. Oh well will see how it goes. Hopefully everything will turn out alright for me.
Other than wondering what to do after my National Service, my life pretty suck actually. How I wish I could just disappear from this world just for a while. Problems always appear in my life & I'm getting sick of it. Sometimes I wonder why I was brought to this world to only suffer haiz. Okay no more being emo. I am gonna be positive and put up a fight. Well I shall stop blogging now.
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Human psyche perceives controlling five vices - Pride, Lust, Anger, Attachment and Greed, as being perhaps the five most difficult things to do during our short stay on this planet. And the solution to controlling these vices lies within ourselves only.
Self-discipline comes from Self-realization. Self-realization comes from Self-introspection. Self-introspection comes with Patience and Patience comes from Practice.
When we say that we are fighting these vices, this means we are already aware of these problems, which are hampering our spiritual growth, and we are already on our way. But then this should not be said just for mere saying or for impressing upon others.
Actually, the fact of the matter is that as soon as we are confronted with a critical situation, we simply forget to practice patience with ourselves and are conveniently overtaken by any of the above-mentioned vices.
Example: As soon as somebody offends us, our 'ego' comes forward and we, conveniently, forget about practicing patience. Have we ever analyzed how long a period of time we actually remember an incident that gave us the feeling of hurt or insult, regardless of the magnitude of a dispute?
I would say... not more than 2-3 days at the most. And after that, whatever we recollect from that argument, is just a hazy picture of what had actually happened. But the hurt/insult, of whatever derogatory remark she/he said to us, always remains embedded in our mind.
Obviously, the same applies to the other person as well. Those derogatory remarks play games in our minds, for a lifetime in some cases. We hardly remember the cause for which we had argued and tend to remember only the hurt/insult thus caused. Hurt or insult is caused by our false 'ego' or 'ahamkaar' only. This is the reason we are unhappy for most of our lives.
We always say how dare she/he say these remarks to me? (We can't even recollect the remarks...). But, we do not realize that whatever she/he uttered was restricted by her/his level of thinking/intellect... We feel this hurt/insult only because we take whatever is said to us to heart & mind and that is where all the problems arise. What if we do not take the insult at all? She/he can do nothing about it.
Patience is a rare state of mind, where we are neither too happy on the happening of a favorable event nor too depressed on the happening of an unfavorable event. Our goal: the state of mind in which we are constantly in 'Anand...Eternal Joy...Bliss'.
But this state of mind needs practice; practicing restrain or patience with ourselves. Some would simply argue, "Very difficult! Very difficult!!" But: Is it really that difficult? Have we ever strived for it? I am afraid, no, never ever!
So, one derogatory remark from she/he induces another derogatory remark from us and so this vicious circle continues to a point where there can be no looking back.
And in 100% of the cases, we earn nothing from our false ego-based arguments but rather might lose the blessings of our elders or a true friend for a lifetime. By dragging his/her thinking (derogatory words) into our mind again and again, we are not only corrupting our minds but we also don't allow good thoughts to enter our mind.
If we could just practice patience and just listen to what the other person has to say, without blasting him/her out of his/her 'ego', we would solve a lot of problems. We need to practice patience with our minds.
So, whenever we feel bothered with such feelings of hurt/insult, just go to quieter places and try to empty our mind from such thoughts. By giving our mind a feed of positive thoughts or even think about the positive sides of that individual who had hurt/insulted us in the first place, maybe we could reconcile with him/her.
But again, this comes from practicing patience. Now, whenever there is a situation when we feel that one of the five vices are overtaking our thinking, just take a deep cool breath and hold back. We will certainly cool down.
You could say that the other person would brag/boast that he has proven his point, just because we have stopped responding to the negative arguments. We should remember that nobody has ever won an argument and his/her bragging could just be their 'false-ego' only.
Let him/her feel happy!! We can't be right each time and the other person can't be wrong each time. So, if we can gain something from others, we should feel grateful to him/her. We can at least give Patience a try. Patience definitely breeds peace of mind.
Come on, let us give it a try
