got my timetable,
and i hv class on saturday!!!!
NOOOO!!! now i hv to worry on how 2 rearrange my wushu schedule.
i don wanna give up on my sport.
and i dunno anybody in my class group. T.T
went back to TOA to see my results 2day.
i don care about the rest. my figure studies got C+!!!!!!
nvm, i've got over all the stress over my figure,
but getting C+!!! my fav subject and i got C+!!!!
it's suffocating in here...
someone pls calm me down!!!
well, also wanna announce...i finished my paper sculpture!!!
woohoo! took about 2 weeks to get it done.
let's compare.
the original idea,
supposed to be inspired by chess,
it is grubby and empty, n looks unfinished.
after what I-Ching said about it,
i wasn't satisfied,
i destroyed it!!!
and dumped it into the waste!!!
now, the new, improved one.
i created a new formula, and it is now more effective and stable.
although still looks a little unfinished,
but looks fuller in content.
look at how complicated it is!!! muahahaha!
i can't believe it's done!
Christmas is getting worse every year...T.T
i know Christmas is all about celebrating Jesus's birth, and it shouldn't be a matter if i'm happy or not...
but this year i didn receive any nice presents.
i did receive some, but chocolates?
haiz...whatever. i don care.
The Legend of Bruce Lee is over now.
this series really influenced me a lot. i can say that now Bruce Lee is someone i really look up to.
and i think, i'm destroying myself because of that.
now, everything i do aims for the best.
all of my aims are to be perfect.
i'm more serious in everything i do.
i always think that what i do is not enough.
i alwayz think i have somthing to improve on.
Bruce Lee is lucky that he onli has one thing in his life - kungfu.
sadly, i have numerous, and it is killing me.
i set up a long list of things i need to do this holiday.
-compose a song
-upload videos in youtube
-start my reading again
-improve my figure drawing
-redo my design sculpture
-practice my watercolour
-go back to my wushu
-write a new story
now, i have achieved nothing, and there's onli one week left
i'm stressing out myself, i know.
i can't help it.
every minute i'm thinking of what i should do to improve something.
i have forgotten how 2 relax.
when i relax i feel lost.
there are too many things in my life.
and i'm going crazy.
i dunno what to focus on anymore.
to all of u out there,
pls don be like me.
it's a stupid life i'm living in.
QY came to my house early this morning...
she long time din come my hse dy lo...
then we took the bus to ioi....and started SHOPPING!!!!
we exchanged christmas presents.
i bought a pair of shoes for her, she bought a skirt for me...
haha...
spent like almost 4 hours in ioi, until thr was no more shops to go to...
u know how small is ioi la...
then, we went to watch Bolt.
it was a great movie.
in terms of story, it was quite simple and predictable.
but it was the little elements and movements of the dog that made it so adorable.
a movie worth watching.
to QY, though i doubt u would ever read this blog,
thx for being my best fren for so many years.
luv ya!
paiti
i've just come back from penang...
but no mood to upload any pics yet.
i'll upload in the next post...promise=)
i started composing again 2day.
i was deciding whether i should redo my sculpture or compose, since 3 weeks holiday is such a short time T.T...
so i decided to compose, cos i really should be emo rite now, even tho i'm not as emo as i should be...hope u get it...
something happened, or rather nothing happened.
i waited and waited.
there was no reply. T.T
so, that is the theme of my song.
i even got teary as i played the intro of the song.
honestly i love the intro music a lot, my best one so far...
i'll finish it as soon as i can, and make a video of it, and then PROMOTING TIME!...haha
anywayz, it will be a piano instrumental, i think. i wont put lyrics in.
it will have lotz of different piano techniques, i hope...
getting reference from guangliang's songs and other piano songs...hehe...
look forward to it ok?
let me get back to my composing...
*getting into the feeling of the music*
dont disturb!
i am back at last.
finally come back to bloggie...
wanna announce: drums rolling........
HOLIDAY HAS STARTED!!!!
Yeah! after these few extremely exhausting days,
it's finally over...
wed and thurs i stayed up to do my sculpture and letterform.
onli sleep for 1 hour...T.T
wat 2 do...the end of sem always like that.
we had to design a storybook. did until 7am leh...
it's about a horse called The Fair Stallion who was cursed by an evil horse,
and his body was transformed into cave paintings in the cave.
since my story involves a cave, so i made a 3d cave lo...
thx 2 my dad, to think of the mechanism...if not bcos of him, i would be dead by now.
this is my cave...ahaha...for some reason it looks like a cake if u see from top or behind...lol
cave, cake, cave, cake...both hv been in the oven b4..haha
also thx to Ms. Khor for teaching me some new watercolour techniques.
thx for saving me!!!
if not i sudah mati lo...
i love the final watercolour effect...my hard work leh...
even tho the final 2 pages memang simply do..hehe...
anywayz...it's all OVER!
went to Wong Kok to celebrate...
too bad next year our major year,
i'm doing illustration, but all my frens are doing advertising...
haiz...y like this leh...
hv to start all over...make new frens again..
will miss my frens from these 2 sem...
we'd been helping each other throughout the sems...
in many many ways..
i'll never 4get the times we spent together...
here are some pics.
hmmm......i wonder what will happen 2 u guys without me...hehehehehehe
back during CHS...
my hateful height wasn't hightlighted,
because i had at least 2 frens taller than me...
we, in our gang, cliqued very well together..
no one felt left out...
not even a single one...
and i felt so belonged...
we had almost the same characteristics...
shared the same interests...
shared the same problems...
and we talked non-stop. our topics never ran out.
we talked until we never heard a word of physics lesson in class.
i had frens who understood me, and encouraged me...
we told each other everything.
we trusted each other.
and we knew each other so well, as though we have known each other for 20 years.
it was the time when i was mostly myself.
probably they are the only ones who know the real me.
i know that this doesnt mean anything to u.
in fact, i had repeated some things here b4...
i don care...it's what i need
i think those things written are very hard to find.
to my CHS frens, i miss u guys...
wish u all the best and God bless.
hope to see ya guys soon!
since i left high skool a year ago...
been missing my CHS frens...
i rmb last year we kept saying to each other,
that even though we only know each other for 2 years,
it's like we have already known each other for 20 years...
we share so much together...
we were so alike, in many ways...
i miss them a lot...
it's a pity onli 2 or 3 of them have blogs...
i haven't seen the others for almost a year!! T.T
i want to see them!!!
i need them so much!!!
i sent a few smses...and nobody replied me...T.T...
so sad....
i feel that my art skills are way bad bad bad...T.T...
especially my figure drawing...
i have a LONG LONG way to go...
i know, u might say, "what?! but ur portraits are okay"...
no...they are NOT. look at other ppl's work.. i am far behind...
how can i pursue illustration that way?
figure drawing is the best of my ability, and i suck at it?
there are far many more things in illustration than i ever thought.
i'm not good enough...
i have too much to learn...
TOO MUCH...
24 hours are not enough for me...
and i'm over-showering myself with other things.
how i wished i could split into a few parts: one to pursue illus, one to pursue music, one to pursue wushu, and another to pursue writing.
too bad they are all just one person...
i need CLONES!!!
getting headache, and cough is coming...
i want holidays!!!
y do i feel out of place?
yesterday i watched a movie online with my bro.
it's called "Donnie Darko", starring Jake Gyllenhaal.
and wow, it really makes u think a lot...
it's a science fiction movie.
the story is confusing, and yet makes u curious in figuring out what actually happened.
i like this kind of movies...sick of those love love love movies..*piuks*
anywayz, it's a MUST SEE...
it's available on youtube..here's a few parts of it. but go find the rest urself la..very easy onli...
oh, and i wanna introduced a funny video...
haha, promoting youtube...
check out this guy's channel: nigahiga
here is one of his vids: HOW TO BE EMO
enjoy!!
Obama is president!!!
can't u believe it?
it's the biggest news in the world!!!
america's first black president.
as i watched CNN, i cant help but remember the repeated phrase Obama said in his speach: "Yes, we can"...
it's simple, but the tone of it just gives an impact...
and i heard, other politicians copied his themes...
i know that it has nothing to do with those outside the US,
but, what the heck? how can u ignore such a huge thing?
i can't believe that there are even ppl who don know OR dont care about this issue...
i have frens who dont even know who is Obama!!!
whoever is reading this, please...
go and read some news, and get some knowledge into your head!
it is essential to know about, u know, things that are happening in the world...
these few days weather damn hot...until i damn takde mood...
BUT...hehe
2day damn happy o...haha
dunno y everytime after wushu also so happy...
i love wushu so much...always make me so happy....lol
maybe bcos i learn new things...new ways to improve...
after wushu i brought my wushu fren Wenji to dance hiphop...
hehe...
didnt expect that she actually know Natasha..haha..they were classmates b4 some more..
waliao...see, all bcos of me leh...
then at nite went 2 ioi 4 dinner...
i paksa my bro 2 buy cotton candy 4 me...lol
he dai sei...who ask him 2 simply say things...
he wanted me 2 help him hold his Wendy's cup of coke...
then he say he will buy me cotton candy if i do...
i straight away hold his cup...haha
so he unwillingly belanja me lo....
wuliao leh...
okok...still got a million things 2 do leh...
11pm dy????
ohno!!!
bb
XOXO (1st time wor, wow, this is history!)
it was totally unbearable....
thursday after cllg i went back home...
and thus began the long suffering.
headache + stomach upset + vomiting.
vomited 5 times!
whenever i lay down to rest i just felt so toturing...
i can't explain it...it's just unbearable pain.
u know that sleep can heal it, but u can't even fall asleep..
poor mum, she stayed by my side to look after me...
even my dad said i was like half dead...
i hate being sick...
what a crazy weekend!
hmm, let's start from saturday.
saturday woke up at 10.30, did some tracing for my letterform.
had lunch, then went 4 wushu at 1pm.
at 3pm, changed clothes and then straight away go for hiphop dance.
it's just something that was organized by a nice gal from ochestra.
was hoping to learn something new. while i'm still young now. hehe....
end up, all my frens fang wo fei ji.
anywayz...
imagine, i was exercising for, let me count....1pm-5pm. wow...
then i took bus home...
trace, had dinner, trace until 5am.
next morning (sunday) woke up at 11.
trace until 12.30, had lunch, then went to puchong jaya to play the keyboard 4 choir at 1pm, drove there.
choir practice was 1-2.30.
then stayed back for ochestra till 5pm.
after that, i went straight to petaling jaya for bible study.
it was quite inspirational. now i wanna memorise scriptures..haha...
arrived home at 8 sumthing.
traced again...end up i was almost the last to submit my work.
did the documents stuff until 2.30am.
phew! i didnt waste even a minute didnt i? haha...
wow..i can't believe i actually got thru it all...
coffee helped a lot. i wonder if that's considered drugs...
i guess that's how to describe me. i can't let go off things. and i keep to my promises, otherwise i would have missed the choir thing. whatever i'm involved in, i don wanna waste it. God blessed me with those opportunities, and i will appreciate them to the FULLEST.
ok, enuf of praising myself...well it's kind of a way to comfort myself, and forget any other unhappy stuff..i know i'm not that GREAT.
alright i better get back to my figure...which i would take at least 3 hours for one portrait.
makeover for my blog!! how is it? nice leh? thx to suli...
will be very brief here, cos i still hv my tracing to do...haiz...
this week i realise how WEIRD my designs are...
yeah, WEIRD...that's what he said!
thursday during design work shop Michael said my idea was WEIRD and ask me to rethink!
oh no...u can't imagine how bad i felt! i am NO DESIGNER at all!!!! i suck at design. why did i even take this course again? i can't remember...
AND, design today wasn't so good too. I-Ching actually LAUGHED at my design! and there were so many ppl around watching. i have no doubt they think it's WEIRD too...haiz...
Weirdo me...T.T
i will show to them. i can do AMAZING stuff. we'll see..i will show them my DETERMINATION.
The last person to tag you is?
Ching Yee
What relationship of you with him/her?
good fren from CHS
Your 5 impression towards him/her.
a) outspoken
b) hardworking
c) a great writer
d) friendly
e) smart
The most memorable thing that he/she had done for you.
hmmm...bring writing back into my life? i dunno..hehe
The most memorable thing that he/she has say to you.
er...dunno..haha
If he/she becomes your lover, you will.
hey, i'm against gays...
If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
ohno...i will sure lose the battle
If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
changing her gender..lol
If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is...
wont de la...we will be frens forever..rite?
The most desirable things to you to do to him/her
chat with her
The overall impression to he/her is
strong personality
How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
i dont care
The character for you for yourself is?
determined
On the contrary , the thing you hate about yourself is?
no confidence
The most ideal person you want to be is?
Peter Petrelli...lol...sry, been watching Heroes too much
For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
they have chosen the right person to care about...hahaha...thank you very much *sending flying kisses*
Ten people to tag-
1 Suli
2 Pauline
3 Simon
4 Melvin
5 Wan Teng
6 Wei Yi:p
7 Li Chin
8 Qian Ying
9 Li Yun
10 Chai Hooi
Who is no.2 having relationship with?
me..hahaha
Is no.3 a female or a male?
male
If no.7 and no.10 be together would it be a good thing?
they dont even know each other..haha...and they are not lesbians
How about no.5 and 8?
they are both dear frens to me...but, same answer as above
What is number 1 studying for?
design...
When was the last time you have chat with them?
some a few minutes ago, while some quite a long time ago..
Is number 4 a single?
er...not sure haha
Talk something about no.2.
hyperactive gal from my class who has the nickname paopao
it seems that i made some ppl comment in my last post...hahahaa...
now i know that u all still are my loyal readers..hehe...thx very much =)
2day woke up late and forgot to on my phone...
good thing 2pm i on it and wow, a bunch of sms come non stop...lol
TODAY CLASS CANCELLED.
yeah!!! but haiz...i already did d figure assgmt until so tired...
anywayz...this is a pic i copied from a book on Oct 1st. 1st time completing an artwork using goauche colours, and i'm quite satisfied. of course ma...copy de...but dunno y, in class when i draw still life, d result is far from this T.T....haiz...
i dare not put it up in Deviantart, cos copy de ma...so i post it up here..haha...
oh, and i just signed up for Deviantart, a website for all d art stuff.
go visit my channel at http://blue327.deviantart.com. feel free to comment there...^^
hey ya! nobody ever comes to my blog nowadays...good!
well actually, it's my bro's bday today...and we went to sunway pyramid to celebrate...
went for bowling, haha, i striked twice!
then had lunch, then just my brother n i went ICE SKATING...
fell down 5 times...hehe...
my language is getting worse...even my english..haiz...
with the 'english' class we hv in my course rite now, how am i ever gonna improve my english? i don think it will help in any way...
i better go back to my reading...haven't read for months, and now i'm trying to bring that habbit back...u should understand my situation...i mean, how many ppl around me actually read novels nowadays? i miss Xue Ni...
today i was praised!!! hahahahaha...
at training today a coach praised me...hehe...said i was good..
hey, i haven't been praised in a LONG LONG TIME u know!
it's been a terribly busy week.
stayed up until 4am friday to finish design...
was extremely frustrated at that time, and even said i hated design...
it's partly true, i'm not meant for designing...i really suck at that...
wanted to imitate the style of this beautiful design using watercolour (it might take a while to load),
but end up i just coloured the whole picture,
like the way that i'm used to...haiz...
gotta do more research and practice..
ohya, and, i moved back to my room!
move back as in working in my room.
and i put back my beautiful 'string and clips'...hehe
ok, beautiful is the wrong word...
let's say, artistic...
take a look
doesn't it look artistic?
and about my chatbox...er,
i deleted it because for some stupid reasons...
because it mentioned my name...
i dont wanna be arrested...lol
anywayz...pls dont mention my full name in here..
yilin is fine, but no full name pls...
i'll try to put back my chatbox soon.
chiaoz...
i wasted a big handfull of time because of my stupidity...
dont wanna talk about it la...
anywayz...when we finally got to ioi mall,
we took pics for our letterform thingy....
and i had my 'lunch'.
then we go 4 ochestra lo...
arrived there, didn do anything much...most of the time watch onli...
but it felt great to feel the ochestra feel...
a feel of togetherness...
when can i get to play properly??!!
figure drawing ahhhh!!!
yerrr....fan dao si...
absolutely no mood to do anything today.
i hv assignments waiting for me, figure la design la and the stupid research.
but dunno la...dont feel like doing anything also...
watch tv, also onli hv all those sienz programmes...aihz..
and then wanna take my own pic for the design workshop thingy..
no matter how i take also not nice...
what to do, haiz, i'm so damn ugly.
that's y i don like taking pics...spoil the photograph onli...
today is d first day i draw nudes...hahaha
first time we DRAW NUDES in figure studies class..
lolz...
and we had to finish sketching them in one minute, 30s and 15s.
it's interesting, like what ms khor told me...
it was quite fun too...
now addicted to sims 2 pets...
wahahaha...
i know it's the wrong time...i only started playing when the holidays were over..haha
my sim was in love wif three blondies...haha...
at last two found out he cheated and left him...
so he got married with the remaining one...hehe
what a mooncake festival!
u know why? cos nothing happened...
wanna celebrate also no one celebrate wif me...
wanna play candle but my brother don wan...
yerrrrr...how can!
previous years at least go back to my primary skool, but dunno y this year din go...
noooo, i don want mooncake festival to pass like that...
so damn sad...
anywayz, my housing area got murder case u know...
a crazy husband killed his wife and maid...
hear until very scared dy...
look how scary our world and country is becoming...
besides, three people were arrested, for ridiculous reasons...
is being anti-government a crime? there is no such thing in a democratic country!
our country is in serious trouble now...do any of u guys care?
teenagers or college goers like us may not care..all we care is how good we look, entertainment, camwhoring, assignments, shopping, pat-tohing.
why don't we care more about what's happening in our dear country???
forget the newspapers! they hide the truth all the time, since many years ago.
go on and surf the net, search for genuine news.
but do any of you know of the details of the truth on why exactly we want our government to change?
do you know that people who actually care for our country are being arrested?
and that now almost ANYONE can be arrested? even you and me...for stupid reasons
hidden histories of May 13 are being revealed...
all those cowards are too scared until they simply arrest ppl...
i'm just showing my anger towards our country 's situation today...
like what my coach said, dare to do or show...
but since i am also a coward, i will put my name to anonymous. i know its lame.
anywayz, everyone pls pray for our country.
who knows anytime there would be a riot, and our country is seriously in trouble right now.
ok, this is so far the freeest (is there such a word?????ohno, i better go back to my reading!) week in the One...
it's d 1st week...and there are assignments, yeah..
haha, but erm, i seem not to care...
ok la...i admit, i bcome lazy liao..the holiday lo...blame it blame it
didnt touch any work except the group one...blek
rest of the time ar, watching 'shanghai tan', wakakaka...my huangxiaoming!!!
i definitely MUST draw him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesterday we went to sg wang to TAKE PICS FOR OUR ASSIGNMENT...
but then, haiz...all the clothes so attractive, the price also attractive,
until the whole plan changed,
and we ended up shopping!
but pity i didnt bring extra money, onli bought 1...
and rmb that guy ar, so funny, trying to scan his LRT card!!! LOL
2day leh, class damn boring...
lecture lecture...i hate lectures...
2day is 1st day of 2nd sem...
dunno y, but lately i kinda miss my old frens..
cos i was looking at others' blogs,
and i found quite a few new ones...
i miss my high skool frens...
and also my best frens..
pity we didn get to go out and catch up during MY STUPID WRONG TIMING HOLIDAY!
don't feel enthusiastic lately...
probably it's the loneliness that accumulated during the holidays...
i dunno...i ask my fren out, they not free...and if u say it the other way round, it's sadder...
nobody ask me out, or ask me out when i'm sick (i wished i hadn't typed that out)
anywayz...enough of holidays...
ohya..let's talk about birthdays!
that's saddening too...at least for me...
when i think of birthdays, i think of my birthday...
and when i think of MY BIRTHDAY,
i feel sad because there are SO MANY THINGS that i have not achieved yet, that other's have ALREADY ACHIEVED at a much younger age...
i know i'm thinking too much...
but, haiz...nothing to do that's y think so much lo...
miss my kai mui also, she just left for UK...
yaya...promoting my video again..haha
not just my video, but my new song...
my fifth song...
just finished it yesterday.
it has no title yet, and i think it really needs lyrics...
anyone interested to add lyrics in?
just click the link below to hear my song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYHBd3DcDz0
2day went to the one to see my 1st sem results..
so happy that i didnt fail any subjects, hahahaha
dunno y hor...this year's merdeka...
like,
i didn take much notice of it...
no la...i'm very patriotic de...
and i LOVE my country man!
previous years i'm usually the reason the malaysian flag is up at the window upstairs...
this year...NO FLAG!!! AHHHHHH!
how can this happen! y is merdeka day over so fast??? no!!! sry, malaysia...
anywayz...merdeka day..hey, it's over dy..past 12 lo
but,
well, instead of 'celebrating',
i met up wif pauline and her sis to go AUDITION!!!!
hahahahahaha...
this time puchong is forming an ochestra,
what a GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY!!!
so i quickly grab it!
but too scared to go alone, lol, paiseh lo...so ajak pauline to go also lo
when we arrive there, waliao...noise pollution man!
especially the flute, that gal keep on playing and playing...
waited 4 almost 2 hours...
end up i onli play the sight reading...i simply onli la...my sight reading so cha..T.T
and then at the end we onli realise we nervous 4 nothing
actually everybody who audition can join de! wat la...
now, very excited 2 go 4 practice!!
at least now i can play 2gether wif others,
and let music be a bigger part of my life, and play not just 4 myself, but for others too...
oh, and of course i still have to promote my video la...
my new video - moonlight sonata
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TNLyBMMBko
sorry nowadays always use my blog to promote my videos...
desperate ma...
now onli got 15 subscribers onli T.T
update on my holiday...hmm
was sick during the 1st week...
then after that had cough until now..
everyday, online lo, make videos...watch movie...do some experiment on acrylic colour..lol
but failed...i really dunno how to use it la..
then paid a visit to Ms Khor, my art teacher..hehe...
long time didn see her dy lo..
and draw portraits lo...
wa, yesterday draw this one until wanna die..
colour the dark parts until hand wanna patah o...
take a look:
second sem coming soon o...quite excited about it..
cos 1st sem i know that my work is so teruk..
and then didn get to focus very well...
so second sem i gonna prove to everyone that i can do better...
and hope that i wont hv to be so stressed like the 1st sem la...
and also...
pls dont let me fail any subjects!!!!
finally i have time to do a video!!!
yeah!!!
i had many many takes b4 i came to this final one..
aiyo..those kacau noises lo..the clock sound la, the tv, my brother, the breadman outside, car alarm...until i wanna give up dy la...
at last, i had some peace and quiet, and made this video...enjoy la...
hehe, i know a lot of ppl like this song de...
下一个天亮 - 郭静 xia yi ge tian liang by claire guo jing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ad23VnaxESk
my previous composition, now title "The Chinese Dancer"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoMyyLkN0Lk
this is my channel - blue327
http://www.youtube.com/user/blue327
lol, this time i play trick, haha...put the url onli...like that my video will get more views lo..haha...
pls la..support my videos, subscribe me. just click the yellow button with the word "subscribe". i'm desperate here...i'm an unsigned amateur musician, so i really need ur support.
dunno why, after it is over, i suffer the aftermath...
like everyday dreaming about wushu onli..
suddenly no more training, feel very weird liao..
yesterday went to my grandpa's hse,
so excited until eat so much...
mana tahu at night got headache and indigestion...T.T
whole night suffering until cannot sleep...
my mind was so confused..all the wushu stuff attack my brain..
until wanna go crazy liao...
middle of the night wake up and vomit 3 times...
now still feel very weak...
stomach also still pain...
suffering 武术比赛后遗症...
it's finally done...
after weeks of training - one and a half month...
it's finally done...
as a conclusion, i can say that i'm satisfied.
i can't say that i put my all into training, bcos i really couldn't...
i had to focus on TWO parallel worlds - wushu + the hectic one academy...
and it's impossible to focus 100% on both, i think, well, at least for me...
really, i missed a big lot on each : i didn contribute much in the group work for history of art, and i practiced one day less for wushu...that's not all...there are many more
and for myself...i had absolutely no time AT ALL to relax...didn read newspaper for months now...
no one but my frens and family would understand this...
thx to coach who spent lotz of time organizing Putrajaya team...
he really did a great job...
ok, about my competition,
my changquan : i didn train in this event, bcos i really had to focus on the other two. but i did my best. got 6.96
my jianshu: i really really did everything i trained. honestly, i was happy when i heard the marks bcos it's my best result so far. but at the same time i wondered why my mark was less than others. which part did i lose mark? how come i can lose to some one who has onli started learning jianshu a month ago? why? i got 7.57
my qiangshu: this is my first time competing qiangshu. during the training, i learned many new things for this event. and i'm glad i did. when i went into the carpet, i made a terrble mistake - stepping out of the carpet, and i think that lost many marks. anywayz...it is done, so nothing to do about it. i got 6.57
and thx to all those who came to watch me in competition.
thx to:
my parents
jiahui and chs wushu gang
suli, pao and waiwai
uncle ooi
this is a historical moment of my life that i would never forget. i hope to remember all the good memories of it. forget the bad ones.
here are some pics:
and here are the videos:
changquan
jianshu
qiangshu
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!
one more day left!
one more day, and i gotta go cheras liao...
yerr..my frens all so shuang, sat can relax dy...
i still gotta go competition ar...
cant wait 4 monday!!!!
this week is the last week of 1st sem, so all the subjects are last class...haha
take pic wif lecturer lo...might not meet them again next sem..T.T
but all the pics not wif me...hv to go cari pics from my fren..hehe
then,
hmmm...
oh, 2day our history of art presentation...haha
stephen say our advertising is the best...wakakaka
tired of typing dy la....so...bb
ONE WEEK!!!!! JUST ONE MORE WEEK!!!
not onli my 1st sem is up, my wushu competition would be OVER!!!!!
Hooray!!!
don't get excited too fast la..the week's not even started yet...swt
anywayz, last thurs after training (and test wif kl team la) i had a big adventure...
haha...i stayed up until 6am to do pop up card...
lol...geng leh...started doing from 11pm-6am
and then my mum woke up at 6am and saw me still awake...
she was shocked..haha...
after that i really no idea how to continue, then sleep for 2 hours, then go college lo...
in college really dunno how i can go through the day...i was in a daze all day long...
then my cover page of the pop up still empty some more...no idea until wanna cry dy...
good thing last minute i simply do, at least better than nothing la...
2day training also whole body so lembik...must be accumulate from that day la..
the tiredness..
yerrr...onli one week left to train..
memang tak bersedia lagi la..
very SSSSCCCCCCCAAAAARRRRRRRRREEEEEEEDDDDDDD~
my qiangshu also so cacat...how?
must focus focus focus...
wanna go see me compete?
venue: KL Badminton Stadium, Cheras
date: 16th and 17th August
time: 8am to 6pm
tickets: no need ticket to enter...wahahahahaha
2day i'm damn emo at wushu...
my coach bu shuang me...and i know that i am the one who makes him bu shuang me...
because i'm useless...i'm STUPID...
i don't take it seriously...
i'm NOT SUITABLE FOR WUSHU!!!
that's what he said...
and it's my fault...i dont value every training...
it's the problem with me...
我明明用尽了全力打下去，为什么他却这么说？
过后我跑到厕所哭，哭个痛快，可是眼泪不肯出来。
出来以后我尽量装着没有事情发生一样，继续练。
练枪术时，我几想把枪给打到断掉，让他看看我有多么努力练习！
我好不甘愿，我为什么是唯一一个差颈的人。为什么我总是练不好？
为什么我得空的时候不是练习，而是找时间休息？
我以为自己很坚强，很勇敢去挑战。即使连睡觉时间都不够还能撑下去。
看来，我错了。我对不起每一个人。
我好想死。我不怕。可是我就是不甘愿现在死。我一事无成。我这无名人物，
死了也没人理会。
我也习惯了，大白天总是被人忽略。是我的命吧。
别可怜我。just look down on me and spit.
hv u heard of art numbness? i'm having it right now...
it's been almost 2 months since i have been committing myself to art and design...
now, i'm sien...my mind and hands are numb...
drawing too many portraits, doing too many design...
i dare to say that i am BORED...
i miss music...i miss novels..i miss writing...
that was exactly what i was afraid of when i was deciding what to study...
but now...haiz...
hope that the numbness will subside soon...
can't wait for sem break!
also, i hv a particular dislike for detergent names..
detergent names are the worst ever...
but out of nowhere, without any reasonable REASON...
i'm being called one...
and the worst thing is, i dont even know y...
that would make my good mood turn sour
2day very daring...
haha..my parents not around, so i decided to go for movie wif my chs fren wy to watch "the dark knight"...lol, no need hear my parents objection...hehe
why leh? it is a MUST SEE!!! rotten tomatoes gave it 94% leh...
so i walked out to the tesco bus stop and wy pick me up from there...
she can drive dy lo...y i still cannot?
haha..then she so bad de, lazy to pump petrol, ask me to do it..yerr i dunno de..
but good la..at least now i learn...paiseh..
arrived at mid valley, then we sneaked burger king burger into the cinema for our dinner..lol
the movie was damn long, 3 hours...but it was good la, especially the villains...
the joker was great, but i think they should've shown more of him...yerr..so sad, can't see him act as joker anymore
the two face guy doesnt make any sense de...the reason why he become two face not very clear...
anywayz...had an extremely great time 2day...
in a good mood now...=)
haiz....
y am i sighing?
nowadays my life is er...PACKED..
and i actually didn't play the piano today! for ur info, i hv a habit of playing it everyday..i can't live without a piano...
and i didnt read the newspaper..
and i sleep later than 1.30am every night. not that i want to or it's my habit..
i hv to rush things. 8 portraits and 8 drawings plus a design in one single week...that happened once..
ok, example of my day:
9.30-5pm college
5.30-6pm lie down to rest my panda eyes
6pm eat dinner, arrange assignments
7.30-10pm wushu training
11pm start assignments
2/3/4am sleep
where is the blank slot? i don't think it exists anymore..T.T
yeah!
3rd time ice skating!
this time better dy, can skate smoothly liao..haha...
finally after so long didnt see each other,
my best fren qy and i decide to meet...
we know each other for 8 years dy lo...wow
she's studying in inti, so she just take bus to pyramid,
while, i, erm, walk over, hahaaha...
it was great seeing her again,
catching up and stuff...
even tho we can't meet often,
but i know that our friendship will always remain the same...
this is her first time skating,
so i have to help her lo..but she learn quite fast, hehe...
and she fall down less than my first time, lol...
hope that soon she can come again and practice..haha
it's been a long long time since i had such a great time...
best frenz foreverthe beginning of my training...
the end of time wasting...
the end of sweet relaxing...
the start of suffering...
WAHAHA..even after just twice of training, i'm about to GO CRAZY!
damn tiring man...cos i'm not used to so tough training..
my stamina is so low..
tuesday, i came home at 5.30, sleep until 6 something, eat, then go to rakan muda puchong.
ran 5 rounds, waliao...tired dy lo..
then basics, then parts of routine, then fitness...
fitness u know we do wat anot? starjump..haha
100x2!!! and then run for 5 minutes...at the end, i already wanna drop dead...
what to do, wanna improve in one month...
2day, my stomach got problem some more, food not digested properly..
and then the starjump add another 80x3!!!
T.T...got another 4 or 5 weeks to suffer...
class finish: 1pm
arrive at bus stop: 1.25pm
2pm: BUS NOT ARRIVED
3pm: BUS NOT TO BE SEEN
hours waited: 2 1/2 hours
condition: standing with heavy bag and art block, missed lunch
what you call it: record breaking and stupid, precious time wasted
actual reason for non arrival: heavy traffic jam because of bad accident
caused bus to be stuck at IOI mall
2day my brother, cousin and i went to KL to attend a lunch..
it's organize by the residents club at that area..and my grandpa is a member..
so he register us lo, so that can get angpau for our exam results..
1A ten dolars...
but then,
when we arrived, we didnt know what to do..
they were having this meeting at the back, a guy was speaking...
behind the meeting, where we were standing, were many tables..
so we sit down and wait lo, and my cousin listen to mp3...
then hor, the auntie at our table ar..aih...
she saw my cousin listening to mp3, then say to us,"u all must be students...hv u been to this kind of function b4? at this kind of function, even tho u dont like the speech, but u still hv to listen, don't play wif ur handphone and stuff. it is not respectful. some ppl won't tell u, but they will think u have no manners..blahblahblah..."
i was like, what? the meeting has nothing to do wif us,
and we are not even part of it, it's far behind, we r not even the audience!
and u know young ppl are always playing wif the phone de la...
haiz..she's just trying to pick on us onli, think she can buli youngsters...
then lunch time we change to another table, thank goodness!
but the rest of the lunch was boring,
cos we sat at a table full of adults, and they were cantonese speaking...
haiz..get angpau must go through all these..
anywayz, great to be home at last. here's a song i enjoy very much, 萧敬腾“收藏”
very extremely frustrated and dunno what to do now..
2day my wushu coach smsed, and said that i'm selected for junior competition...
it's supposed to be great news, cos it is really very rare chance...
and after so long, 3 years of training,
now at last can have chance to join this competition...
but leh,
training is 4 times a week.
mon, tues, thurs, fri
7.30pm-10.30pm...
u say die or not?
no need to sleep liao lo...
i come back fr college already 6pm...
how to go training like tat????
and not onli that ar...
where got time to do assignments?!
help me!!!
i want but don want to go,
to go or not to go?
somebody give me encouragement pls...
this is a very good chance, maybe THE onli chance,
cos after i turn 20, probably cannot liao lo..
so, help!!! if u r my fren, u will comment...
this is a list of things that must be taken note b4 going for wushu training..lol...this is true, trust me...after learning wushu 4 3 years, these things are very important..
1. eat one hour b4
2. NEVER eat spicy food, not even black pepper, lol, all else during prac ur stomach burn to death
3. after eating, don't drink water...even packet drink or fruit juice also cannot...not even a cup of liquid
4. don't eat too full, if not cannot use strength de
5. don't eat too little, all else u bcome hungry n no strength
6. don't eat cheese, then bcome very zai
7. go to toilet
8. walk around after eating
lol...clear?? i know it is 0% useful...cos, it works onli for me..haha
felt a little grumpy and desperate in cllge this morning..
my cartoon was the onli one incomplete..
and i couldn't understand what my frens explain...
so, end up, pass up the tracing onli...the most cacated one in the class
haiz...if got time wanna practice colouring the Yugi oh..
2day i missed the 4pm bus la...T.T
just late a few minutes onli...haiz..
and then i walked all the way to sunway pyramid to wait for it,
after that then walk all the way back to toa to listen to my frens' discussion, then walk all the way back to sunway pyramid bus stop...
not tiring la, just sounds silly...
and then hor, sit in the bus for one hour, cos somebody request to go back to toa there, so the bus driver turn back..argh...i heard somebody curse the F word.
but walking home that time quite shuang la, cos after rain the weather so cool!!
wished i had more time for music..sob sob..
i know i like art, yes, and that is why i go to toa..
but going to toa to study art means i give up something else..
i give up time for music as well as writing..haiz..
it's a big sacrifice u know...
very fan now....
need to find pic of a singer that is extra large..
but how to find ar?
so hard to find man! search for almost two hours liao...haiz..
actually i already have in mind who i wanna find, but the prob is cannot find their pic..
and then, the damned adobe illustrator ar...argh!!!
dunno how to trace and colour it la...yerrr
so, i gave up. tmr let liwen scold la..
2day i went ice skating 2nd time...hehe..
with pauline and cao mei bu ding...
but, unfortunately, haiz...still not good at skating la..
fell down 3 times..
yeah!!! i know 林宇中's 靠岸 is not a new song, but i'm glad i can at last play it well on the piano!!!
when the song first came out i tried to play it, but sounded so cacat..
but now, after practicing those "decorating skills" Ms Chong taught me, i improved in playing by ear!!! and i'm satisfied with the song.
next time will try to upload a video of it..hehe...
speaking about 林宇中，his new album coming out soon o! gonna rush to the stores to get it...not that i am so rich, wanna buy ori, i'm very poor de...some more buy materials already pokai liao..but even tho i must starve, i will also buy his cd de...he is a great songwriter that i really admire, and his voice is absolutely unique.
2nite i watched “kungfu panda"!!! haha...we went to watch at 10pm, come back 12am dy lo...crazy hor? the movie was funny, and clever. whatever that ppl expect, the directors just make it the opposite, and that's what makes it so hilarious..the animation was great..imagine hor, i spent almost a week tracing the cartoon alone, but those animators can create such realistic images that are 3d....waliao...i cannot imagine dy...
assignments are piling, but leh...
heheh...yesterday, pauline and i went ice-skating o! haha...
we quickly rush our design assignment, then afternoon go jolly lo..
even tho i'm local, and some more from puchong,
i've NEVER tried ice-skating b4!!!
last time got fren ask me to go de, but dunno y, d plan always cancelled de..hehe
now, at last, can hv experience lo! thx to pauline!
ice skating ar...not as easy as u think.
even my skooter or bicycle skills cannot help...T.T
dunno how 2 balance leh...cos i never played roller skates b4, and i'm a slow learner...
pk dunno how many times, i'm d one who pk d most leh...
each time i let go the wall, i pk..lol
pauline so geng, so fast can master it dy, now expert dy lo...huiyoh...
but it was a good experience...next time prac more!!! anyways, just next door my cllg, haha! jealous??
my knee got blue black liao...next time must wear protection!!
from left, Adib, xx, Pauline
two weeks didn go wushu dy, 退步了啦！
我的stamina退了好多哦。。。非常喘哦。。。
压腿的时候真的好硬也。。我觉得上星期练的枪术也忘光了啦
但是幸好没有练那个，不然教练肯定杀了我。
今天练拳术，累得要命！
教练还说这个月有选拔赛要参加。。哎，压力来咯。。
加上，现在我又开课了，越来越忙，
又加上要练习去比赛，我会死的啊！
怎么办？所以，现在要加油哦！
哈哈，真好笑，叫自己加油。。
现在也正在忙着做功课，最讨厌的那个design...
想idea想到头暴啦！
我妈也会的！哈哈！jkjk...
这是中国的武术选手表演。我几时才能跟他们一样利害呢?
应该是不可能的事吧。。
last nite i dai sei...lol...yala...sleep at 2am..
because of assignments ar? not 100% true la...hehe
u know what? last nite assignments is got de, but leh...
erm, i addicted to tv lo...一面做一面看
so, u say, i dai sei anot?
see la...these are the pics i draw last nite...take whole night to draw eh...
these pics are not normal pics that u draw..
have to use patterns, dots and lines de leh...
haiz..my design so poor, my creativity also very limited de..
that's y damn 辛苦when doing this la..
hv to crack my head...
disliking design more n more...
and then 2day hor, i malang la..
my brad pitt (sorry, brad pitt, i destroy ur face) artwork got spotted by lecturer la...
and then she say how come so lousy de..
the paper also crumble liao..show 2 whole class eh..T.T
is nothing la...but haiz..shows how teruk i am as a designer...
see how teruk i am...
the other students, waliao, damn nice eh..
so talented la, they all...
i'm not worthy in their presence..hehe...said by david archuleta b4
deng, after submit work 2day, lec add another one...
aiyo...never ending de...
haiz...
long time didn go wushu ler...
getting fat..haha..
i heard now my frens going sukma for competition...
lotz of sarawakians got medals o...
r u one of them ar? pauline? hehe..
waliao eh...now i still busy also can find time to write blog? i qixin de hor??? xiao eh!
but, i'm multitasking..hehe...two weeks of college onli, and assignments are pilling up leh...got eight subjects to chase...now i'm a bit confused liao...haiz....seldom multitask..this one need to do, then halfway do another thing...
anywayz, somemore yesterday i went to a wedding leh...lol...cos long time never go wedding dy ma..and then the bride groom is my uncle michael leh...40 something dy but still so lengzai..haha...at night 12am onli come back.
yer..less and less time to relax!!! good thing AI is over, can lighten my burden. let's see...i still watch "lu ding ji", prison break, ugly betty, gossip girl, chuck, so you think u can dance, kan-cheong kitchen (lol)...wahseh..geng leh? damn busy also can still watch all these programmes ar...well, no matter how busy i am, i cannot survive without entertainment de..so, like my fren xue ni say, we make entertainment our priority..hahahahaha...
here is a tribute to my favourite american idol - david archuleta. with his song, "in this moment". wish him a great career in the future. enjoy...
it really is shocking. he is the CHOSEN ONE. he is the singing prodigy. he should've won!! but who cares if david cook won? i hope david A will be even more successful than him. i hope david A will become a legend and be remembered even after 100 or 1000 years later.
seriously, David A has influenced me much. his smooth voice soothes me. and his humble personality really sets a good example to everyone. his passion for music is SO inspiring...that he made me confused on what i want to choose for education. really, he actually made me think of pursueing MUSIC...
Some ppl say American Idol isnt worth watching anymore, some prefer other shows that has lotza drama...I personally LOVE AI because, well, I LOVE music. music is one of my passion and i really really look up to those talented singers cum musicians. like jason castro, i can see his passion for music even tho he is still inexperienced. so u think it's easy for ppl to just go on stage and perform? NO WAY! u all hv no idea how much work they need to put into preparing for their performance! and the songwriters...those who composed the winning songs..i have gone through songwriting...i know how hard it is to compose just a song, even tho i'm just a beginner. and yet, the songs they composed are so melodious and catchy...i just wonder how they do it!
well, AI is finally over. it's like a LONG LONG journey, not onli for the contestants, but also for viewers. every week i was looking forward to their performances, and seriously, this season i find that i like more idols than i did in past seasons. i liked Brooke White, Jason Castro, David Archuleta. and now, it's suddenly over. something is missing. i feel weird.
anywayz, let's look forward to January!
it's my 1st day! was a little lost at the beginning...dunno anybody from my class. then slowly warm up lo..and i met my fren from the orientation, so feel better dy, not so strange la, and then in class got to know a few more frens...THANK U GOD! I LOVE U !!!
first class - design! sounds like fun! haha..and it was! we were told to draw the person opposite's face, without looking at the paper, AND without letting the pen off the paper...continuosly...lol..we had a great time..and gosh our pics were horrible! hehe, the person i draw is actually a lenglui, so kesian i draw until like that! lol ...and then halfway the class, the lecturer ask us to go outside and draw anything we see...it was so cool. i drew a tree.
in the afternoon, language class, er..nothing much.
so, let me share some pics here, even though they're quite erm..UGLY..hehe..but hey, it's ART! look what i've been doing in class...terperanjat kah? i'm really enjoying this! no need to look at textbooks and study liao lo...so shiok man! but is it too early to say?
Tagged
8 things I am passionate about:
1) music
2) art
3) wushu
4) movies
5) david archuleta
6) songwriting
7) jason castro
8) tv
8 things I say too often:
1) dunno
2) hey
3) what la
4-8) can't think of anymore
8 books I’ve read recently:
1) Children of Hurin by J.R.R. Tolkien
2) Artemis Fowl - Eoin Colfer
3) Artemis Fowl and the Arctic Incident
4) Artemis Fowl and the Eternity Code (still reading)
5) The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
6) 鲁迅 - only a few short stories, his writing is weird man!
7) 昆仑（武侠小说）- gave up half way, very cha la...金庸still the best
8) Jeffry Archer - compilation of short stories (not all, just some, hehe...)
8 songs I could listen to over and over again:
1) Apologize - One Republic
2) In the shadows - the rasmus
3) Because you live - jesse maccartney
4) 靠岸- 林宇中
5) angin malam - daniel lee
6) heaven knows - daniel lee
7) passion - se7en
8) low - flo-rida
8 things I learned last year:
1) true friends are hard to find
2) good teamwork is very effective
3) wushu performance is fun
4) don't be over confident even though u are good at it
5) friends bring happiness
6) bgr love is not everything
7) it's better to be difficult first, than onli easy, rather than easy first diff later (spm is good example)
8) it's important to do what you love
8 people to tag:
1) Yasmin
2) Ching Yee
3) Rachel
4) Wan Teng
5) Weiyi
6) Jay Chou
7) Tun Dr. Mahathir
8) Simon Cowell
been uploading as much as i can...this is the first classical song i upload, chopin's "valse op.64-2"...played by jay chou before o...
finally started drawing again...i'd been avoiding anything about art and drawing for a long time now..reason is because i want to do other things when i have the time, cos when i go to college i would be doing everything art, and no time to do other things. hope u get what i mean.
