End of the World

Just a couple of days ago, I was thinking about what if the world will end on May 21, 2011 like some people believe it will? Being the hopeless romantic that I am,  I started imagining that I would meet you somewhere like we planned and run off together to spend the last minutes of the earth together.

I'd run off with you together and spend the last moments on earth with you. Scenes from Cloverfield started playing in my head. And I thought about what would happen if you got pierced by some wooden pole and told me, with a dying breath, to run and live till the last minute and leave you there. I imagined myself sobbing and crying and shaking my head, holding your hand as you breathed your last breath. And someone would be tugging at me to leave and run while I could. And I thought, "I'd be willing to die by your side if it means that we'll be together till the end." Mmm... I've watched too much movies it seems.

But then I started thinking that maybe you'd want to spend the last moments with your mother. With your family. So I just crushed that idea and threw it in the bin.

If the world were to end next year, we'd be halfway through our second year of university. And who knows whether we'd be friends or enemies then. So I didn't bother thinking that far.

But if the world isn't to end at all, then... well... I guess that's that.

And Oh

I forgot.

You didn't ask me the question in return yesterday.

I was hoping you would. But you didn't.

But anyway, if you're wondering what I'd refer you as in the future, I'd say:

"He was my first proper love.
He's the longest person I've been with in a relationship so far.
Through him, I was able to live life for the first time.
And through him, I came out a stronger person.
And he's someone I'd definitely never forget."

So there.

Remember

Remember the time I sent out those mass emails to my friends about the possibility of you cheating on me?

I should've seen it coming.

I should've been more alert from then on.

Because we had that little fight in October.

October.

That month ring any bells?

And you could still blame me later on that I was being too tight on you?

It's only natural that I was.

I guess I wasn't tight enough.

I caught you because you loosened your cloak for a split second.

And for that split second, I took a peek and uncovered everything.

The cloak fell, but even then, it's still pooled at your feet.

It's your feet, where all the dirt are.

Just can't be bothered to make you step out of it.

Because it's not long before I don't have to worry anymore.

Hong Kong Vacation

Day 1:
On the flight to HK, I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1. Following that, I watched a Korean movie recommended by Richard. The English title is "Finding Mr Destiny." I didn't get to finish it because my plane was landing, but it's essentially a romantic comedy :) there were definitely a couple of moments where I was about to burst out laughing haha. At the same time, there were a couple sweet and romantic scenes that made me shift in my seat because I was thinking of what sort of things THEY would have done in the cinema. I want to know, yet I don't want to know. I sort of forced myself to watch that movie, because romantic films aren't exactly my thing at the moment. But hey, I need to face my past sooner or later right? So might as well start now.
Getting into the taxi to go to the hotel, I simply fell asleep. I don't know why I was so tired, but I was. Hong Kong's weather reminds me so much of Project Week 2010. The weather and temperature is the same, except the air here is so much more polluted. And the streets are more populated. I was sick over the trip to Xiamen last time, and I'm sick here too. I intend to shop a lot while I'm here. Going to get better dresses, blouses, tops or shirts. Maybe even shoes too? Haha. We'll see! I have such a huge urge to shop it's actually starting to scare me lol.
I went to the weekly service at a HK branch of my pastor's church; STEMI. It's Mandarin translated to Cantonese, and I had a really hard time understanding anything o.o
We had dinner at some random Cantonese restaurant lol And I'll be meeting my cousin tomorrow after she ends school! :) I haven't seen her for years! Actually, about before either of us hit puberty haha.

Day 2:
Woke up at... 8.30am, but ended up getting out of bed at 10am or so. The blankets in the hotel are SO ULTRA SOFT. I just want to swim in them all day haha. It's so comfy... So inviting... I swear I can hear it calling my name now as I am typing this out this blog post draft on my iPod haha.
Came out, went to eat Dimsum with my uncle :) Then he took my mom and I to the train station and we went to Causeway Bay (Tong Lo Wan) which is a huge shopping district.
He dropped us at the Esprit and UniQlo building where my mom and I bought the BULK of our shopping. Got a pair of new heels, a couple of tops, dresses, even my first pair of proper denim shorts. There my aunt joined us, and she took us around the place to see more stuff.
We had lunch at Times Square, and had I ordered some cheap Korean beef ramen haha. It was a filling lunch so that was good :) although... We had lunch pretty late (at 3.50pm or so?) We shopped a little bit more but we just spent money on more accessories this time (necklaces and bracelets). Then my cousin joined us at this little cafe place at Sogo :D I miss her so much!! :)
In the short 4 hours we spent together, I got to know her again. Wow, things have changed so much since the last time I saw her. She's a total tomboy now, and she caught on some bad habits in the process. She told me she regrets it, which is a good thing. Hopefully she stops.
After dinner, she managed to get me and her away from our nosy mothers by sending them away to go shop for their "grown-up" stuff while we two teenagers go out ourselves and have some fun haha. We only had about half an hour but that was enough for us to talk :) She took me to this little coast where we sat and stared out into the night at the port. She took out a pack and lit a cig, then she started talking to me. Man, my aunt is one really chill mother o.o yeah she may be a little bit crazy but she's essentially a very nice and lenient mother. I just hope my cousin's relationships are Goin well... I mean, they don't even last for over a months. It's an obvious reason in my
opinion, but then... Well... I can't change who she is, and I can't change her mindset. Being a TB is who she is now, and the only way for her to turn into someone more feminine is... With time. She's got to
change herself.
I became more feminine for sure, and I'm not exactly sure how. But I just know that I am so much more feminine than I was before.
Oh well.
My mother and I spent over HK$12,000 today... We should REALLY cut down on the shopping and spending tomorrow lol. Perhaps window shopping is a better idea XD

Day 3:
Woke up at 11.30am today and still feel exhausted. I want to sleep more >< anyway, went for lunch at some BBQ restaurant where I had pork, chicken and geese.
Then took the train to Pacific Plaza. Everything in there was pretty much expensive. I fell in love with a pair of pants (picture) but then I told my mother I'll find something better at Atsuki-G back in Singapore. Haha
My mother and I spent about half an hour trying to find some Internet wifi connection. Living without Internet connection is harder than I thought, especially when the bulk of my friends can only contact me through Facebook and emails. Oh dear. I tell myself that in Hong Kong, hearing anyone speak English is like music to my ears. And my heart feels so relieved. Lol. It's a challenge for me to live in a place where it's mostly Cantonese and Mandarin. And sometimes, they can only speak Cantonese. That's the worst. Urgh. Just one last day tomorrow, I can survive this!! Haha
And one more time, I got rejected from another college: Tufts University. I was losing hope in it anyway. So I got accepted into 4 schools, rejected from 4, wait-listed by 1. Whatever. Right now, I'm just going to be between University of Washington and Bryn Mawr College. Agh.
Anyway, after my mom, aunt and I finished going around Queensway Plaza and Pacific Plaza, we made our way to Tong Lo Wan again where we shopped at Sogo. I bought two more pairs of Converse sneakers! I love
that brand XD Met my cousin there again, then we headed off for dinner for some steamboat :)
After dinner we took the train to Mong Kok. I bought a spinny ring (because I lost mine last time at Great World City) and got a couple of bookmarks for a few friends. Then I went home. Pity, couldn't take neoprints with my cousin :( oh well.

Day 4:
I had an odd dream about alien lizards, and I fell in love with one of them. It was a male lizard, and they only eat male humans. They love cartilage, and they wanted to destroy the moon or something. But anyway, yeah I fell in love with the alien. He wasn't going to eat me but he was totally toying with me. It was so sexual and sensual... Turning on yet ticklish at the same time. He was looking for big tough guys to eat, and I just thought of Richard. But I didn't want him to get eaten.
Anyway, I had another dream. I dreamt that it was a Friday and I had to go to some animal shelter with animals. But then I was going to have Korean drumming and Richard was going to be teaching again.
Met my aunt for lunch. Then we just stayed around Tsin Sha Tsui to shop. Went into The One and had some Dimsum for lunch. We shopped some more and bought even more things. There are several things I want to buy, but my mom just said no firmly. Sigh... She mentioned going to U.Washington again and I really don't know how to tell her that my heart is pretty much set on Bryn Mawr College. Oh dear.
Anyway, I met up with my cousin again at The One for dinner and we had some Thai food. Then we decided to watch Beastly, my cousin and I :D We sent our mothers off and we went off to accompany my cousin for a
smoke again. Lol
The cinema here is pretty posh. Leather seats and really punctual showings haha. I'm definitely not disappointed lol The movie was good! Well, sort of exaggerated but hey, it's a modern version of Beauty and the Beast so of course it's very fictional. I came out so sappy and full of love that I was freaking my cousin out because I couldn't stop squealing haha sigh... It's a pity that love like that no longer exists in this world. Well, it does exist, but it's so rare...
Anyway, cousin had a crisis so she was smoking when we were walking back to my hotel. Who would've thought that at this age, my cousin and I would be walking down the streets of Hong Kong late at night, smoking. Haha

Day 5:
Back in Singapore! Back to the land of Singlish!! It's better than a whole load of Mandarin and Cantonese haha.
On the flight back I watched "Love and Other Drugs." It was essentially a comedy romance movie. There was definitely a LOT of sex in it. But the end really brought me to tears. It was a good movie in a sense that it depicts relationships with honesty, and at the same time it builds a really good connection between the audience and the characters in the film. I also watched the first quarter of "Tangled." Too bad flight had to cut the movie short Coz we were landing soon =.=
I guess, now that I'm back, it's time to get back to all the work that's been waiting for me.
Sigh... Curse the IB =.= I can't believe I have to go to school on Monday. Wtf.