The Balance within the world is simply too wide.

A lil pic spam for today.
After being forced to eat crappy food for 1 whole month along with the torment of papers, I decided to destress by a lil food spree at waraku.


Here's what I ate.


Part of my Ajisai set, probably the best part. 6 gunkan sushi.


My bowl of hot soba in dashi stock soup.


Mentaiko Yaki (Burnt Cod Roe)


Next, we went to Takashimaya. What you can see above is my pack of Gyokuro, also known as Jade Dew. I have been trying to buy this for ages. Aint cheap though since it is in loose leaves. Costed me $50 since they were having a promo instead of the usual $60.
We played a lame game of trying out samples from the stalls there. In total, we got 8 types of samples. note: macarones are kinda in season now.

Finally, we travelled to Far East Plaza. When Neil went up to the moon, it was one big step for mankind. For us, we took one big step for mankind up to mars and finally tried fried mars bar. Hell of a goodness... Although one would expect the fried bars to be seethingly hot, strangely, they were at perfect temperature to pop into your mouth. No pic though, we ate in a hurry.

That's all for now. At least I have my gourmet's luck with me today. I wonder how do I spend the rest of my remaining few short days of hols before ITP starts.

Boring day at home...
Well, there is indeed a rainbow after the rain.
zx sent me a pic of a rainbow at her workplace, which thus made me aware of the rainbow that was outside my window.


Thanks to her, I managed to capture this scene. Luckily my camera's with me.

ps: u can see the school too

A loyal friend, D is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. He is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. He tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Neat and orderly, others usually see D as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. D likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

A very creative person, D is often willing to seek out new solutions to problems. He is self motivated and will often work at a fast pace to accomplish his goals. D likes new challenges and he is usually able to make decisions easily, even under pressure.

D prefers a rational and moderate approach when first entering new situations and tries to avoid extremes. He likes the company of others, but D is equally comfortable spending a quiet evening alone. He is a realist who will always weigh his options before he makes a decision to move ahead.

Lol, I am often amused by these type of tests.

If I ever made it rich one day in my youth, I would go to japan with a hired translator and train in some of the purest lineage of martial arts available.
In Singapore, most dojos are rubbish, either too commercialised or not up to my expectations. What happened to tradition?
Sigh, its so hard to find a gd dojo to learn anything. Perhaps, I am too picky on my choices.

Is there anywhere where I truly belong or fit in afterall?
Haha... Guess the blues must be catching up in me after viewing some pics in fb and thinking too much.

I am in a really moody mode right now. Life's probably in a wreck. I cant go for my trainings for karate and aikido. Thanks to exams and itp soon. What's gonna happen to my dream of participating in pesta sukan? Some people may also not know what they say may actually hurt me within. Not gonna elaborate on that. I am possibly losing control of my life. Club-wise, I dunno how long more can I keep it up. I am really afraid that it may crumble. I also need to push up my gpa after seeing the nasty cut off points for uni.
Worst of all, my stupid printer died on me after printing the 10th page of my 58 page report. I am really feeling frustrated within now. Its not a gd feeling, but I really feel like hitting stuff.
Well, I am resigned to this wreckage of a life now. I am just too tired to believe in a change or miracle now.

Sometimes, its a terrible feeling whereby you feel that you need to talk, but there is no one suitable to talk to. Or either... Those whom you can confide in are never there for you.

Surprisingly, I had been surviving on veggies for the past few days. My throat aint itchy, but rather, its extremely dry and irritated.
I think I need to see a doc. This time, not one who gives me pills for my sickness.
But rather, a doc to cure my mayo frenzy.
I went crazy and squeezed too much mayo onto my food.

Went to see the doc today after enduring that scratchy throat and congested nose.
Appears I got a common cold.
At the same time, I took the opportunity to ask him about my condition whereby my vision would get blurry , subside, following with a splitting headache. Turns out to be a form of migraine that can be triggered by exercise or bright lights. If it ever happens in future, i will have to isolate myself in a darkroom and take panadol. It can't be cured. I just have to learn how to live with it. I would have to see a neurologist during the next hols to get some certification about my condition.
Well, looks like I will be pes C or whichever they call it in the army instantly, with a history of asthma and hernia.
I wonder how long this body of mine can last.
I always chose to believe that through training, i can actually strengthen my body.
I wonder if I am wrong afterall. I hate the fate of what most of the descendants of the Tan family of my generation suffers,no one is physically fit, no one is exactly strong. I hate going with the flow, I want to be unique and appreciated.
Till then, I will have to endure this cold and cough as I study for two tests tml.
Heck, law is one lengthy subject.

When I created that club, I was influenced by the idea that the comm is somewhat a form of family. I didn't wanted to rule it in a manner whereby its a relationship between a superior and subordinates. Perhaps I needed that lil warmth in the harsh and cold world in school. I really hate classroom politics where its a dog eat dog world. Well, I straightened outt my thoughts. Everyone in the comm is someone important to me, they are like family, of which I would like to extend myself to help and defend them in whichever methods possible.
For example, when you have troops or subordinates, would you like to slave drive them to complete tasks for you? I don't wish to force, I want them to help complete it willingly. We are all in this as a single entity, rather than for their personal interests. I am really disappoint by some people who did not turned up today without telling me beforehand. To make matters worst, they ignored my calls and messages. I am extremely shocked to actually believe that those two are actually people whom I considered comm. Even if studies and projects are important, don't you feel that bdays are too? Bdays come by once a year. For me, I took time off to help celebrate for them, under the guise of a overbearing dictator who insists on holding a meeting during a bday juz in order to surprise them. I was willing to sacrifice a bit of my time to make some1's day. In fact, I spent quite some time, including slping hours to work on my assignments after which. I just dun get the point... If I can do so, why can't those two? Life is not just about studying and striving to get good grades. It aint much of life if you actually slog all your guts out just to get a smile after you see a few pieces of paper. Those paper are meant to be tools which help improve the quality of your life. I dun understand why humans are under the claws of their own system, suffering under it, where the true ultimate goal is to survive and improve the quality of life. Perhaps us humans are too engrossed in our own lil game of life and greed that our eyes seem to be blinded. Blinded that we can't even appreciate the lil good things in life right before our very eyes. Nevertheless, I am really disappointed by those 2 and their selfish acts. What's a comm if you dun consider urself part of it? There's no bonding but merely too much of individualism. Well, I guess I need people who are willing to speak and mix around, willing to treat the comm as a form of family, to workk and trust each other, aiding each other in times of need. My eyes are not blind. I know what is exactly going on, just that I choose to remain silent in this harsh world. Well, there's nothing much that can be done, except lament on the fact that I was partly blind. I guess if i can't be laxed, i would probably have to adopt an aggressive stance. They may be classmates, but there is a line to be drawn. If you no longer wish to contribute and would like to focus on ur own self, so be it.

This is probably the longest rant I have ever written as a blogger entry throughout my entire life. Well, we only had 6 ppl present today, 1/2 of the total comm size. Of which, 4 gave valid reasons, 2 simply ignored and ran away. Its like running away from ur people, disposing of their use when they no longer concern ur personal interest. Well, I will show them that they are extremely blind one day. This is my resolve.