The Balance within the world is simply too wide.

My life's probably in a wreckage right now.
I hate lots of things in life.
-Tkd, for some clown is deciding to stop teaching
-Myself, lacking the determination to train
-This filthy crap of a blogskin
-that darn club
-some people around me

If anyone of you is reading this right now, you are either the privileged ones who knows about this new address or either some clown who got 'unauthorised' access. I got a minor breach of privacy 1hour plus ago. I had thus neutralised the traces of the threat and changed the blog link.

I am gonna fade off. I will retire from that club which I created from my bare hands.

I did not inform some people of my new address because I do not want them to link me nor read my content, so please understand that. Of which, some I do not inform of as they would deem this as some pathetic scribblings and that I am of no significance but just a side contact that can be manipulated when needed in life. There is hardly any degree of trust of which I have with most people.

Time reveals the true colours of others.

For any members of tat accursed club of mine. Understand this, I will leave it. My replacement will be in office with effect once the new clubroom is done.

The day has finally arrived.
Sitting on my chair, as I type, I sip my cup of ice cold royal honey choya...
I wonder about my existence...
Every year, around this time, I would be expecting a flood of messages. However, this year is different. The numbers decline as each year follows. Somehow, I got none at the moment. Shows what type of a person I am. HAHAHA...
I got a rotten class this year. Of which, I found out that they would be happily eating mooncakes later, without calling me n 7 others. To heck with it... Not as if I will die without them.
I am still sober as I type. Or rather, I would say that I am drunk by my thoughts.
Yesterday, couple hours ago, I shared a cake along with my dad and god dad. That was a mild happy moment.
Now, I am feeling a bit of a wreck for hours later, I would be wasting a couple hours of my day, with no say as to how I wish to spend it.
I would like to thank the few people who made my day.
Family.
QP (for the early card and salty choc, thanks for the effort!)
Joyce
Hui Ning
Luqman
Ken
n then... no one else as of 1.26am.

My wish for this year? Some things to happen to give my life a lovely twist and a turning point whereby I can feel my worth. I will be placing my bets on hitb and mspp.

Till then... I am going to sip that strong cup of choya slowly till I feel weary.
Haha... My soul and spirit already feels weary enough.

People change... Over the sands of time. Let's put it this way, why do I not associate with that group of people? We are in different leagues now. They forced it upon me. Don't ever expect me to ever try my bend my head and attempt to blend in. My skin aint as thick to do so.

I am probably an old soul in a young body...
Who cares? Pains of youth...

Ignorance is sometimes best.

I hate Sundays...

Just a random thought after linking to a chain of events.
Are the people around me simply failing based on their own abilities or has it got to do with associating with me? Could I have possibly too much high hopes?

Back from camp ytd. Yep, I survived and probably seems as though I had not disappear for the past 4 days.
Well, who cares? The camp was quite a pain too. Don't wanna talk much about it into detail till I get my copy of pics.

What I realised about myself.
-I got a serious case of inferiority complex.
-I think too much and often depress myself.
-I don't have much close friends.
-I desire to crush the strong and arrogant.
-I keep things to myself.
-Am I behaving like my old self? Introverted?
-Maybe not... It just the after effects of speaking and not be heard.
-I hate writing too much for now.

Some1 asked me somehow about the ideal partner. Hmm. Really simple, I got high expectations.
However, 1 possibly almost impossible trait that I expect of is that it would be the first. Haha. Guess I really got wishful thinking. Starting off with one relationship and concluding it with that one.

Way too tired and can't be bothered to write further. I guess I will blog when I am in a better mood.

1wk, few hours left...

War begins in a few hours. I aint slpin as I am supposed to. Wonder if I can survive the next few days.

I am feeling quite empty right now. One may be surrounded by people, bt the heart ans soul is isolated.

Well, I am not gonna care. Gonna be out somewhere and out of communication till late afternoon on fri. My mood's pretty sour about some things...

Aint gonna bother much... Haha... Wonder what the possibilities can ever happen in life. Things should be fine so long as this is not my last post. Till then, I shall disappear from civilisation. SHall blog about what I am about to go through if I have enough materials or feel like it.