The Balance within the world is simply too wide.

Well, havent been bloggin for quite some time.

On the previous sat, I went to the 'walk the success lane' seminar by microsoft which i signed up for alone... This seminar taught me a couple of things. Of which, I understand that I can't exactly expect to have people or friends by my side whom I can exactly call friends. No one bothers afterall...

Thanks to one of the presenters, witty Chewy Chong, he taught me that people suck. They really suck...

That, I truly agree as he gave us tips on how not to suck and to surround ourselves with people who don't suck. The details however, I won't reveal them at all... Call me selfish or so, but I truly am. And yes... I suck.

Overall, the seminar was a lil deviated to the point of promoting and advertising. Their focus? Basically on the products they have and what you can ever do with them. Oh... Not to mention the Imaginecup that leaves me green with envy and red with anger... I lack the skills.

Finally, we come to the lucky draw where there were only 3 prizes. 2 webcams and a keyboard/mouse set. Of which, I won one of the webcams which still remains unopened on my desk.



Sunday, nothing much in particular happened. Went for intensive training. Hardly got exposed to the fourth lock, thus defitin the purpose. Just one word to describe or summarise everything.

TIRING



somehow, I am lacking the confidence to pass my grading. in fact, I m losing confidence in life.



today, sch-wise, I wouldn't wanna talk abt it here. Had lunch with LY,YG and Justin. LY shared some interesting stuff on fortune reading based on human features. One point was indeed accurate. If there were many lines on your palm, that would mean you have lots of stuff within you and that you often contained them within you.



Well, tat's pretty true. From what you can see here is just a fragment of what's within me. Maybe someday, I will find someone whom I can pour out my thoughts to. However, that seems so far out of reach.



Hmm... I think I shall retire from gaming. Some cheating ass who definitely suck tenfolds used a code in the background to con my hard earned gold. S*rew him...



Till then, I am gonna alter my way of life. Afterall, its sucky... how else sucky can it get?

To end the post, here's a little something which I had before the seminar at the tcc within the same building. Presenting a cheesecake that has hints of passionfruit. Complimenting it in texture is some crisp on it. The not so sweet but however juicy strawberries balances the taste and providing the much needed moisture and juice. Next, we have the coffee mixed with a lil rose syrup known as 'perfect match'. Definitely had became one of my favourite coffee. It has rose petals sprinkled on it. Take a sip before stirring it. Try the coffee... Bitter isn't it?
After which, you mix it up nicely, then take another sip. A total new experience awaits you. WOW. Coffee that isn't as bitter bt has a lingering fragance in its aftertaste. This lil coffee set aint just so simple. It is complimented with ginger biscuits. So you get to taste everything except the salty part. All in just one lil cup...

After a long period of inactivity, I had decided to return to bloggin to deposit shards of my memory into this repository before I turn insane when my thoughts and feelings overflow.
Come to think of it... I always tend to blog whenever I am feeling down.

Looking right back to the past few months, I am kinda starting to hate myself and the lifestyle I m living...

i)my laziness seems to overwhelm my ambitions, I am starting to be easily deviated like Keroro

ii)my lack of information, information is always power... However, I can't seem to absorb them well

iii)cca clubs matters

iv)feeling hollow inside

v)keeping too much matters into my heart and refusing to bare them out, even up to this point

vi)my lack of materials
.need some new furniture for my room
.a desktop?
.xbox360 pls... wats e use of gettin a limited halo3 game with no console?!

vii)my lack of strength and stamina. practically too weak...

viii)feels unappreciated at times...
(come on, nid a lil pamperin once awhile, or perhaps a proof of existence and importance)

ix)angered when things don't go my way...

x)hates it when my principles in life dun work out...
-always have high self esteem
-aim higher, thus pushing urself more than normal
-u r what u want to shape urself into...

zzz... tats abt it... rather mentally unstable at tis point of time... although i did blog... i somehow stil have tat sinking feelin left within me...

Latest update. In the process of creating a new cca. Its gonna be called Food Connoisseurs Club.
However, the name will be subjected to changes.

5th Oct, I went with Justin to see the SAS officer. Had a briefing on the procedures.
This coming week, we intend to get all the nitty gritty details done. At the same time, I think I have to assign some1 to handle the publicity work.

Managed to close in a deal with the gym club. Members who fail our basic fitness test will be required to join the gym.

Decided to drop archery, muay thai n sch's aikido. I am now undergoing for extra trainings since I now have a multi-dojo card.

Other than tat, I m busy juggling work, ccas and sch. I sense a flood coming soon. So now, I have to try and clear whatever work that is in my path.

Yep, Its a new term. I finally recovered from my illness and am now at the stage of recuperating my stamina and strength.

Today, class begun with a BANG, a bang tats so small that even Justin who usually pays attention in class could be caught playing with Paint right before my eyes. The first class was IDEAS, headed by mr discipline- ic ... Thank god he isn't tat $-faced at the moment, or else with one single strike, he could get a wad of $50 notes from the class.

Speaking abt class, Kalwin's transferred to 01 in order to cope with his forwarded Java module which he failed. N YongRong came to ours instead... Thanks to her, my previous index number that was a perfect 8 is seized and now, I have the number 9. Thankfully this isn't the espada in bleach...

After which, we underwent a couple more of really 'dry' lessons...

During break, a couple of us went to popular to get our database systems book. Speaking of which... I will have to visit there again to get my book on networking fundamentals and on how to repair and assemble a computer. So, my expected expenses on books will approx be 60plus...

I also went to take a look at the CCA drive. N nice... There is a new muay thai cca. I immediately signed up with Jin yong... CS is gonna join too... haha. Yep, this would mean sacrificing another cca's commitment... Bt dun wrry, I got it planned out, so gdbye to expensive cca knwn as archery... Hopefully the training date would be an ideal day per week.

Finally, I m awaiting the return of my asus laptop or probably a new prototype if tat laptop cannt be fixed. After which, I can get to buy my mini pc with the 1.6k budget tat my dad so-called promised me... WHEN CAN I GET A PROPER DESKTOP?!

oh well, tats all for now... n for tues and weds, I m probably gonna be spendin my after sch hours in a yukata in the cca drive... XP

Time sure trickles fast. In a couple more hours... Juz short hours... Its juz gonna end.
Its too fast... I wish I could stop it.
I havent done anythg much memorable today... I juz wan somthing tat I can rmb as a memory...

Well, guess my days in sec sch weren't tat productive. I finally understood who are the ppl who still recognises my existence. A small number of ppl wished me and I am indeed grateful they remembered or realised.

I have to grow up and stop acting spoilt. A birthday is not meant to be one where you have to celebrate or be the king of the day. Its not much of an excuse for one to get you something u always you wan. I appreciate the gifts I had gotten...

I guess its a matter of time or a point of growing up. In the past, when you r young, I guess most parents would try to make it memorable. Birthdays were then misinterpreted as a day for one to be exactly happy and tat its a day where you expect lots of ppl to wish you and give you presents. At least this year, I still have wishes and presents...

Looking into the bright side. Its a new experience to understand that one day, your birthday will juz pass as if its like every normal day. This will serve as a good lesson when I go to Aust alone in future to complete my degree.

Then again... its juz a day where you came to this world... Nothing much to celebrate about. Life goes on as usual. Last year was kinda unique as I was still schling then. I had frens arnd me then. Bt now, its e hols and a new environment... Not many ppl would give a damn... E cycle juz rotates. Worst of all, I am sick on this particular day. My plans for this hols had been shredded...

However, I am not gonna be feelin down and sry abt tis. I guess that I will juz have to put in more hard work. Hard work overcomes alot of things... Genius and luck...

Life goes on... As I silently await for this moment to leave me... Juz as if its any ordinary day...

Firstly, a rather funny fact. My dad had celebrated his birthday wrongly for 49 years of his life.
He tot it was 13 Aug, where actually it is on the 13th Sep, one day before me.
So the Leo had changed into a Virgo too...
Well, at least he is now '1 month younger'.

It is still mins away to the 14th sep. However, it isn't much of a day I can look forward to. I had been sick for over a week and if I remain tat state tml, I am not gonna expect much of a day.
Unfortunately, I doubt there would be a celebration... Haha... I guess its time for me to grow up and accept the fact.

Well, the exams are over... so is the pc show.
I spent 10hrs a day standing during the show till my knees ache.
Commission wasn't as gd as compared to the 2nd day. E last day was worst... earned only peanuts.
Wanted to get an Acer desktop during the show. Bt that bloody idiot of a clueless salemans could not convinced my parents... He was like so DUMB... Didn't talk much. Juz gave the price.
So... In the end, not desktop thanks to mutemouth...
Thus, I had decided to custom make a desktop on my own. However, its gonna cost about 2k plus... Nid to find a freaking job for this holidays...
This coming wkends is aikido frenzy... gonna train abt 6 times a wk in order to qualify for my brown belt. Then tues to thurs will b gym time? lol
Till then... i can't rmb wad else i wanted to input.

Haha... Never expected myself to blog quite frequently as I used to for this month.
Guess I muz had alot of stuff to say at tis particular month.

Well, ever had the experience that you have some troubles that you fill like sharing with some1 else? However, those that you feel that you can talk with aren't there for u?
There are some grp of ppl whom u used to share your thoughts with, bt
In the end, you juz kept ur thoughts in you while swallowing the bitterness from the core...

Yesterday, I suffered from a lil blood sugar spike while exercising. Felt really nauseous n giddy. While, after that, I went back to grandpa's...
His sister had juz arrived from the airport. The moment she came in, she and her husband mistakened me as jiayi. I could tell from the dialect, although I hardly understood a word. Until grandpa n dad cleared the doubts.
She cried over the loss of grandma. which brought back some painful memories.
I could tell that there was some efx on dad too... from the look of his eyes that were somewhat red n a lil teary.

Sometimes, i really wish ppl could stop cryin as it would bring back memories, tearing up the wound into the already half-healed heart...

That night, I had a dream. Its seems so true. However, it brought back regrets. This also made me ponder over whether there is reincarnation.
Grandma appeared in my dream. The setting was realistic. A scene in the dining table at grandpa's house. It felt as though she was alive. It made me forget tat anythg happened to her at all. We talked and hugged. Of which, I asked her to please teach mum on how to make her fantastic rice dumplings. She juz smiled. After I hugged her, she said she would give me the number of her parents. From then, I was thinking,''Huh? Parents? Arent they like ancient?''
I somehow wrote down the numbers in a pad.

Somehow, after which, the dream juz faded off... I awoke at a odd timing in the morning as I saw dad entering my room to off the air-con.

Thus, I went back to slp. This time round. I got other types of dreams... until i got woken up by some1 frm ban leong who called me about the it show job.

After the call, I went to the living room and my usual daily activities went on.

A thought suddenly came to my mind. ''Imagination is always beautiful whereas reality is always harsh...'' I went into thoughtspace... Then i recalled the parents part of the dream. Could it be that grandma was being reborned and that was the number of her new parents...?

Oh well, I guessed I thought too much. Bt I do feel better after storing my memory here which I supposed few ppl would come over and view.
I guess this is the second alternative that I have besides sharing this wif others who aren't around. I sure felt like a wreckage.
I can't really share much with the usual ppl who r arnd on my messenger and of whom I don't have a close relationship with. Neither could I share this with my parents. My dad would sure make a mountain out of a molehill and make me tell this to all my relatives...

I guess that would be all for now. At least I have tis issue stored up, I will now proceed to fully concentratin on my final paper tml. Sometimes... I do wish that the people whom I can share my problems with would be around for me. I m gettin rather sick of listening to problems rather than letting others hear of mine.

Its been quite awhile since i last blogged.
Well, had been rather busy thanks to exams.
I am now at the 2nd week of exams. 2 more papers and wee... holiday....
Holiday=more [training(aikido+gym)+reading+job]
Well, tats a simple equation...

I muz admit that I havent been really studying thanks to anime addiction based on the animes I got frm Seth during our cultural exchange...

Well, at least I bother to study last min. Can't really expect good results though...

This Saturday, I will be going for natsu matsuri. Hopefully my yukata which I ordered will arrive in time.

On the 30th, I guess I will be working with WeiSinn at Comex. Selling speakers for Ban Leong...
Job courtesy thanks to my junior in aikido.

Speakin of aikido, I will be joinin the sch's aikido club as a white belt to train my basics. However, I was warned by a senior to join discreetly as it won't seem nice. Not that I m trying to cheat in there, bt I think tat since it is an another organisation wif new rules, then start from scratch. Dun wanna c dojos having blood spats, bt i think I think there shouldn't be a prob as long as it doesn't violate e founder's wishes.

Well, I think that would be all for now. Dust would b collecting on this page before I start off with my new post...

Been tempted to blog after some consideration.

Lately, my mood's changed... Probably after a round of blog surfing.
Looking into people's blogs allow you to understand more about their lives.
However, looking into it too much will result in some envious reactions.

It seems that others have some much to write about their lives.
Whereas for me, I had decided to close up part of my life in here, due to the fact that I want to keep a rather unknown identity. That's why I had refrained from putting too much of my own personal pics down here.

As some of you may had noticed, the tagbox's rather empty or inactive. Well, this blog is only restricted to a selected few and also to those that cracked my simple encryption technique in my old blog.

Had a rather nightmarish dream last night...
I was somehow in a rather huge house. Not exactly the size of a mansion bt its still big...
There were people that I knew in there. I remember knowing them. However, when I woke up, i can't recall any of them at all.
All of a sudden, the lights went off... Then there were some eerie happenings... I saw some guy taking pictures during the blackout. After which, the pics slowly developed as the lights went on.
The pictures revealed some strange figures... N slowly in the surroundings, those figures that were meant to be invisible slowly took form...
Next, my laptop starting acting weird. It had 2 screens...
(however, i muz admit that e dream made me thought of a possible way of making a new hybrid laptop) n also 2 keyboards, with two different Oses running on each side.
Some pop ups appeared... Some lame supernatural catching game appears... I wanted to off it.
However, some1 appeared and insisted that we do it and submit our marks to him...
(wth... this seems to be pretty related to sch)
I tried to alt+f4 , ctrl+alt+del, ctrl+alt+ins and none of it worked... Tried closing the screens and it lagged as more screens start popping up into an infinite cycle...

Then... i woke up... realising that it was 12pm... and I had slpt through my phone alarm...
Weird dream...

Here's a yummy n digusting update. had botak jones at clementi for 2 thursdays in a row.





Presenting the chilli dog on the 1st thursday. Super big portion. Ate till felt like puking.


After which, Kalwin, Justin, WeiSinn n JinYong tagged along on the 2nd wk.





FIsh n chips which WeiSinn n JinYong ate... $6 for tat huge portion despite tat it is reg size.







The Botak Burger which Justin n Kalwin ate. Also $6.

My CHeesy Botak burger... $7.

Next... we have the messy plate contest... in the next post!

After being asked by some ppl y i no longer blog...
i shall now reconsider...
well, for starters, i finally did e top banner...

zzz... done in 15mins... keke

Tis blog will be launched at most probably Sept.
(Not anymore... tis time, its goin to be open for a few ppl)
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Till then, I will be posting some updates on e progress of tis blog.
N of course, some special content!
(Forget it, i m writing officially!)
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Like e earthquake efx? haha