I believed in but realised;

Saturday, June 30, 2007

THE COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!

what a relief! and.. i'm moving, so check out the new site for updates instead. if possible, relink me!

http://simplyexclusive.blogspot.com/

on another note, joybites is also moving!

http://simplyjoybites.blogspot.com/

elaine ; always remembered
5:21 PM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

can someone save me here?

i'm dying.

not from some terminal disease, but the combination of stress and fear. the common tests are like ongoing and i just came to realise how unprepared i am. this feeling is really bad.

i blank out at every physics question and nothing is going right in my revisions. but what can i do now? nothing... everything is too late.

i fear of getting retained- this is the last thing i will ever hope for. seriously i know i'm gonna screw up this whole thing, i'm not trying to be pessismistic here but i know it for myself. and i hate to see how disappointed my parents would be. i just lack the self-discipline.

~~yes, elaine you suck.~~

now i finally see the light of my late grandfather's words... laziness is the killer. indeed, it is in the process of slowly taking my entire soul away. i'm like so fricking dead please.

no miracle can save me now.
all within me is just stressed...and fear, nothing else.

to add on, i'm terribly worried about my grandmother. she just did an operation to have a tumour on her thighs removed.. and now it takes 2 more weeks to determine her cancer condition. it really hurts me to see her in this state, having to suffer so much but still put on a brave front.

i love her alot and i would never want anything to happen to her... she's the best and most courageous grandmother ever. she has to be alrite, but will she?

and then there's daddy, i know he really loves me alot. He's the only one in the family who dotes on me; never bearing to scold me and always fulfilling all my wants.. but now i'm going to sadden him badly with my poor results. i can't take this anymore.

oh man i just feel super useless now.

elaine ; always remembered
8:29 AM

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Mugging is awful and i absolutely hate it! Just lemme get thru this exam week and i'll be the happiest soul i can ever be.. but i'm really sure no good results will come out of it.

I want some desperate change to this blog, arrgh. i'm gonna move out of fadedcraze soon, so be prepared for some new change! (:

Just one more week....

elaine ; always remembered
1:50 AM

Thursday, June 14, 2007

I was feeling absolutely down yesterday.

once again it was that sense of everything against me. and then i lost all mood to do anything, numbness surrounded. pretty scary actually, its been long since i emo-ed that badly.

it was after yesterday that i realised how fragile i was deep inside- not in the past, but now. root cause was probably the period when i almost thronged into ~~depression~~. maybe.. perhaps.. i really dunno.

but my therapy? sleep and gorge. i call it the piggification method.

this morning, woke and for a Mr Bean cheese pancake, a kaya mee chang kueh roll and chocolate milkshake then returned to bed till lunch time. took a slow stroll out to Upper Serangoon Road for a bowl of bah chor mee with extra meekia, char siew pao, egg tart, charsiew soh... and a deep-fried yam cake (i hate yam so i must be crazy).

yea madness indulge, but it actually works for me.

after all that, i'm back at home blogging here with the aircon at 17 degrees and fan blasting at full max. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. arrgh.

elaine ; always remembered
10:57 PM

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

finally a mahjong meet-up with my fellow taitais!

Gathered at Shilin's place once again for our usual mahjong game... but this time we actually planned a mini belated birthday "celebration" for Serene- all with a sweet lil cake from breadtalk.

hah, that's a surprise "pop-up.

Happy 17th Birthday, Serene!

a picture with the birthday girl.

self-timer group photo..

Special bdae privilege: cake-feeding!

and then came our luxury afternoon-tea...
An entire pint of Ben & Jerry's Pistachio Pistachio!

-with compliments from Mrs Seow, haha =p

dug in and ate straight with our spoons. we finished bout 3/4 of it?

dinner was at our usual Hong Kong Cafe- yet another high-class (*ahem) selection. now watch the hungry fellows eat..

one drink each.

followed by some yummy thick french toasts...

Super scrumptious, we all loved the banana one (:

Pouring the maple syrup over...

Arrival of the main courses;

HK Famous Beef Brisket Rice for Sarah

HK Fried Black Pepper Seafood Spaghetti for Serene

Szechuan Spicy Chicken Lamian for Shilin

and a Fish Fillet Rice with Garlic Sauce for me!

Tucking in...

mmmm, yummy!

so shilin gradually started on her slow-paced meal... and it went on even after all our plates were cleared, haha!

one scary shot;

more photos while we awaited for the slow-eater..

the double S duo.

check out sarah's new expression.

Finally! but with some gross remains. lol.

Proudly Presenting..

It was a wonderful self-proclaimed "high-class" day, love you all!

ooh, and i also met up with xinya last saturday (:

we fulfilled yet another one of our multi-cuisine dinner sessions: chinese cuisine at citylink mall's Asian Kitchen. Filled ourselves with some quality lamian and meaty guo ties and then headed on for desserts at n.y.d.c *huge grin.

Hard to choose between their cheesecake or divine apple crumbles so we got both to share...

Ally's New York Cheesecake

My favourite wonderfully warm Apple Crumble with a scoop of french vanilla icecream. It was simply heavenly!!!

and we had much fun playing with those cuddly soft toys as well,haha.

ta-dah, so that was another lovely time spent with my darling sec school mate! more cuisines to come yea?

Sigh, if only the holidays had 48-hour days ):

elaine ; always remembered
9:38 PM

Thursday, June 07, 2007

My holidays so far... pretty happening i would say- but thats not good news. i swear no one can be as lagging behind in revision as me. oh man, i seriously need to settle down for some disciplined studying! someone save me.

on a lighter note, i finally met jessica today! whoa i sure missed her.

oh something was wrong at clarke quay station today. the linking shutters of exits near the Central were suddenly closed; and poor jess had to make a huge detour just to get out. while i was waiting at the busstop, a fire engine arrived and a group of fire fighters cooly rushed into the blocked-out area.

so what exactly happened? we seriously have no idea =p

all we care about is lunching at Fishermen's Wharf, heh. Just across Clarke Quay station is a laid-back and casual restaurant specialising in Fish & Chips with all kinds of fish. No airconditioning and ordering is self-service. both of us went for the cheapest cream dory fillet.

cream dory fillet, $6.50

there was an interesting choice of fries or chips and we couldn't quite figure out what exactly was the difference. jess stuck to the safe fries while i adventurously chose the chips. okay, it turned out to be strips of soggy panfried potatoes. tartar sauce for dipping. their F&C was pretty impressive, it actually managed to meet my expectations. the first bite was heavens of fresh moist fish fillet in a light crisp batter but the coating subsequently got soggy as it cooled. must eat it hot!

after lunch was a mugging session over at the Mcdonald's in Funan IT Mall. had out softserve fix once again =p jess tried the new shrek lime sundae which came in a shocking luminous green, haha! and it tasted just like the solero icecream.

shy mugger

camwhoring..

note: she's got FRINGE!

Lunch session with shar yesterday- another well-missed girlfriend. we had a happy time pigging out at Vivo's Hog's Breath Cafe (: their set lunches are really worth it! i had a Dijonnaise Chicken Set with a mushroom soup and dessert at just $12.

Dijonnaise Chicken

Mississipi Mudcake with vanilla icecream

sirloin steak for her

the girl peppering from a corona bottle, cool.

good food, good service, good ambience- one fabulous meal.

we went shopping.... and i got my first item from the GSS. a fox sweater at a real steal. yays. she managed to get a tube dress from forever 21 and lingerine at La Senza.

oh, and here's a pretty zara top that i cant afford..

LOL.

Monday was yet another wonderful time spent with dear. we went to watch shrek 3, lol. it was pretty alrite, fits the bill of my preferred movie- short, simple, sweet & a happy ending (:

lunch was the Shrek meal at macs. yes, we are super shrek fans.

Chicken Teppanyaki burger (super salty!)

shakie shakie for seaweed fries

after the movie at GV Grand, we had some yummy cheesecakes at this new cafe. just look at those delectable cheesecakes smiling...

Say Cheezecake..

i had an excellent slice of blueberry cheesecake.

his was a cookie monster (cheese, brownie, mousse).

-we're loving it.

drove over to vivo for dinner. settled with the HK Kim Gary Restaurant; both of us had a drink & a rice each plus a french toast for sharing. yum.

my fish-wrapped egg with shanghai style rice. not too bad.

oh yes, not forgetting my trip to Batam.

the view from the ferry.

my mummy & me; love her loads.

i finally had my A&W!!! i was so INTO it that i stuffed myself with a waffle and rootbeer just before dinner, and sacrificed an authentic indonesian meal just to have another fish burger there. LOL.

the lovely waffle with icecream and strawberry syrup (before)

and after, haha!

i love A&W.

bought half a dozen of donuts from their well-known J.CO Donuts cafe..

thats mummy enjoying the hotel breakfast.

BFC=Best Fried Chicken?

my companions during the trip- granduncle henry, grandauntie josie & mum.

terribly tired people.

Overall, the whole trip was rather pleasant with lots of good & cheap food there! People there were generally nice and friendly. Was a short but enjoyable trip (:

*yawns. time for bed soon. updates again!

elaine ; always remembered
6:51 AM