What the hell is wrong with you? Are you simply desperate or you had lost the simpliest stage of humanity? How could be so cold and heartless?
We had been good, but don't take us for granted. We are not as simple as you think. I had been doing well in keeping my rage in control but I don't think I can do it any further. And I don't know what will I do to you if I lost control.
We are giving chances, take it for forever lost it. Our patience is giving up on you. What you'd done is unforgivable. Don't blame us, blame yourself.
Last word : Get the hell out of here, you're not welcome at all. Stop screwing with my life fucktards.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Was it... Dreaming?
It was the last Hong Kong film to be show in the Melbourne Film Festival yesterday. It was Ashes of Time Redeaux, I would say it's "Shoot Bird Hero Tale". It wasn't the best directing method but it seems to have one good story. Yet somehow I don't quite get it. Anyway screw it.
That's apparently not the point.
As known by many, Melbourne is kind of a really boring place so I saw another movie, The Bank Job this time. However was not as good as The Italian Job. The Italian Job had better story.
Then was a belated birthday dinner for someone I don't know, awkward yet I survive. 醉庸之意不在酒. Followed by some drinking event of us, a conversation came on. The topic was my past. As it goes on, I can feel I'm getting louder. Alcohol maybe. Not one of the best story out there but she is willing to hear it which is cool. Then at some point we're talking about the present.
It dragged for a few hours, after Cho Gao closed, "5 Question" game at station, and tram journey back and we are still talking about it. Until I was home, the truth flies around. Shocked, very shocked. Yet I feel like dreaming for not expecting it.
That's apparently not the point.
As known by many, Melbourne is kind of a really boring place so I saw another movie, The Bank Job this time. However was not as good as The Italian Job. The Italian Job had better story.
Then was a belated birthday dinner for someone I don't know, awkward yet I survive. 醉庸之意不在酒. Followed by some drinking event of us, a conversation came on. The topic was my past. As it goes on, I can feel I'm getting louder. Alcohol maybe. Not one of the best story out there but she is willing to hear it which is cool. Then at some point we're talking about the present.
It dragged for a few hours, after Cho Gao closed, "5 Question" game at station, and tram journey back and we are still talking about it. Until I was home, the truth flies around. Shocked, very shocked. Yet I feel like dreaming for not expecting it.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
What's Idiotic and Uncool?
Never understand why tvs ' are showing are showing dangerous stunt shows and yet dare to warn others not try it at home. Today I understand that reason, its because they want you to watch it, learn it and try it then you will fell hard and get injured.
LoL at me.. Tried out some stunts on my BM X-series and guess what? I Injured myself on my palm and feet. Pull back can lead to a flipping stun, pull front was not fun as well. Pretty much said, "What's Idiotic and Uncool?" it's me.
LoL at me.. Tried out some stunts on my BM X-series and guess what? I Injured myself on my palm and feet. Pull back can lead to a flipping stun, pull front was not fun as well. Pretty much said, "What's Idiotic and Uncool?" it's me.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Different Yet The Same...
It's been really long since I last enter this area. Been months. Things changed; Things been different. It's no longer "910/318 Little Lonsdale St", "I live in the city". It's "14 Horfield Ave" or "I live in Box Hill".
There's no more walking to distance to Safeway, Melbourne Central, KFC, McDonald, Dessert House, Ajisen Ramen and much much more. It's all about vehicles now, whether public transport, private transport or bicycle. No more supper as wish, latenight basketball and McD to 5 a.m. or meeting you at clock.
Other things changed too; I can't bum into in uni anymore, I can't ask you out after uni anymore.
Things might changed but some remains. I'm still me. You're still you. Perhaps the bond faded but it still exist.
Another 2 weeks is when a you joke about but it seems I took it sort of serious. It would really suprise me if you actually do it but in what position am I to be looking forward for it? It's not like it's anything to do with you. Anyhow, I saw an equipment today that I almost bought because of you but seems like it's going to be the right choice that I didn't buy it.
Looking forward but not putting in any hopes...
There's no more walking to distance to Safeway, Melbourne Central, KFC, McDonald, Dessert House, Ajisen Ramen and much much more. It's all about vehicles now, whether public transport, private transport or bicycle. No more supper as wish, latenight basketball and McD to 5 a.m. or meeting you at clock.
Other things changed too; I can't bum into in uni anymore, I can't ask you out after uni anymore.
Things might changed but some remains. I'm still me. You're still you. Perhaps the bond faded but it still exist.
Another 2 weeks is when a you joke about but it seems I took it sort of serious. It would really suprise me if you actually do it but in what position am I to be looking forward for it? It's not like it's anything to do with you. Anyhow, I saw an equipment today that I almost bought because of you but seems like it's going to be the right choice that I didn't buy it.
Looking forward but not putting in any hopes...
Saturday, May 31, 2008
The Perfect Wonder....
It started as a service provider for a huge party where there are many many people. However, only one stood out among all the others. Although it was pretty annoying but it was nothing actually, just had some fools. Weeks later, was there again. Just that this was in the afternoon and there is 2 dozens less people. Seems embarassing and somehow rude, they connected thanks to one who are not allowed to live her own life now. She's bound to the ugly family tradition; pity.
Then it was a drink, that led to a promised undone. Later was a miscommunicated movie. Continue to a special day with plants involved. After that, there was a trip to the lair of wild beast, without taunting them, they survived. However that day seems different compare to others.
Later on they still hang out once a while but 1 thing different is that, he can't seems to understand. And this is the perfect wonder one could have.....
Then it was a drink, that led to a promised undone. Later was a miscommunicated movie. Continue to a special day with plants involved. After that, there was a trip to the lair of wild beast, without taunting them, they survived. However that day seems different compare to others.
Later on they still hang out once a while but 1 thing different is that, he can't seems to understand. And this is the perfect wonder one could have.....
Friday, May 23, 2008
Iron Chef... I Think...
A little experiment that I pulled off at home, Sushi Making. Fillings were Unagi, Cucumber, Avocado, Chicken Teriyaki. Hilariously, I actually learnt it from YouTube. Gosh if there's anything you don't know, I'll tell you either "wiki", "google" or "YouTube" it. Internet are so so helpful.
The taste was not bad but wasn't really good. Anyway have to give credit to myself since I didn't fail as hard as my stupid brother where his sushi roll are just too big that it can't even seal of; it keeps "exploding". This clearly teach us a life time lesson of being greedy is bad. Chicken Teriyaki was self made after researching much through the net and asking some opinion from colleague. Unagi was bought from Asian Grocery where practically it's not impossible for me to make myself and it's much easier to just spend $7 and get a tasty Unagi.
More experiment should be coming soon just waiting for time and ingredent to pull them of.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
There's Still Room For Improvements...
From Obese to Ideal in BMI (height divided by weight) perhaps there's still room for improvement by aiming and acting towards the Ideal of Ideal BMI which is 22. Weight losing was always a part of my daily routine like exercising, controlling diet and starve myself. But it seems like I doesn't want to just lose weight, but in fact I want to end up putting on weight but built of muscle not FATS. Wondering what would I looks like with body-full of bundle meats. Hmm...
Starting up regular training session for myself in order to improve myself, always aiming to be better, more steady, and higher. Somehow believed in practice makes perfect or hardwork does pay off. Quietly in the corner thinking analyzing tricks, skills and shortcuts for my self improvement. Just be patient where I aimed to overtake him.
Starting up regular training session for myself in order to improve myself, always aiming to be better, more steady, and higher. Somehow believed in practice makes perfect or hardwork does pay off. Quietly in the corner thinking analyzing tricks, skills and shortcuts for my self improvement. Just be patient where I aimed to overtake him.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Weekly Routine
Come to think of it, my life kinds of loops every week.
Monday : Work, then think of what to do after work.
Tuesday : Work for the whole day.
Wednesday : Class, then stay in library for a while and head home. Might basketball after that.
Thursday : Class, then stay in library again and head home.
Friday : Class, then think of what to do between free time and work.
Saturday : Work.
Sunday : Work then basketball.
It's been really sad living a life like this. Social life kinda abandoned me instead of I abandon it. Although we are living in a mordern world, slavery didn't quite end. I'm still a slave for cash. Pieces of paper can really drives me this far. Kinda missed the day in Think Asia where I only work for 20hours/week and having a lot of free time while I finish work at 6 instead of 10. Having plenty of time to socialize after work ; Movies, House Party, Dessert House (LoL), Drink etc.
Apart from work and classes, there isn't much left in my life. Basketball routine is not fixed, movies and the rest is slimmer than a toothpick. Gosh I need to GET A LIFE. Perhaps if everything goes right, July might be a new life. Departing from AR......
Monday : Work, then think of what to do after work.
Tuesday : Work for the whole day.
Wednesday : Class, then stay in library for a while and head home. Might basketball after that.
Thursday : Class, then stay in library again and head home.
Friday : Class, then think of what to do between free time and work.
Saturday : Work.
Sunday : Work then basketball.
It's been really sad living a life like this. Social life kinda abandoned me instead of I abandon it. Although we are living in a mordern world, slavery didn't quite end. I'm still a slave for cash. Pieces of paper can really drives me this far. Kinda missed the day in Think Asia where I only work for 20hours/week and having a lot of free time while I finish work at 6 instead of 10. Having plenty of time to socialize after work ; Movies, House Party, Dessert House (LoL), Drink etc.
Apart from work and classes, there isn't much left in my life. Basketball routine is not fixed, movies and the rest is slimmer than a toothpick. Gosh I need to GET A LIFE. Perhaps if everything goes right, July might be a new life. Departing from AR......
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Sad Case...
There's this special treat by JetStar where you can buy two air ticket by almost the fare of one and the closing is real close. After some calculation, trip to Japan doesn't even cost more than$700 a person. When I'm trying to think of just 1 person than might have the least possibility to go with me, I found none. Not to mention a trip to Japan, even a mere trip within Australia is a problem.
Seems like single life is almost equal to a lonely life to me. Although some friends are always there for you, but they are just ALWAYS not all the time. Furthermore, she is still with all the wrong guys at the moment, finding her way here.
After watching "P.S. I Love You" I actually learned how to choose a girlfriend, where 3 questions is important :
1) Are you single?
2)Are you gay/les?
3) Do you have a job?
The model answer would be Yes,No, Yes.
If she pass, kiss her, if her breathed stinks, she blews it.
p/s : She's just with all the wrong guys
Seems like single life is almost equal to a lonely life to me. Although some friends are always there for you, but they are just ALWAYS not all the time. Furthermore, she is still with all the wrong guys at the moment, finding her way here.
After watching "P.S. I Love You" I actually learned how to choose a girlfriend, where 3 questions is important :
1) Are you single?
2)Are you gay/les?
3) Do you have a job?
The model answer would be Yes,No, Yes.
If she pass, kiss her, if her breathed stinks, she blews it.
p/s : She's just with all the wrong guys
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Boss's Birthday
29th of March 2008, Eason Ng Chu Sing aka Boss's birthday party at Chi Lounge Room 6.
So many drunkies. Confirmed Drunkies are : Boss, Kevin, Cici, Fat Kun.
To Boss : Understand why I always puke in Chi? And you puke more than all the time added together that i puke in Chi.
To Kevin : I haven't get to drink with you and you're already drunk, what can I say? Bad luck LoL
To Cici : I don't mind letting you tie me up and dress me up as a nurse and covering me with chocolate, but I don't have a nurse outfit.
To Fat Kun : Brother... You're there not even 30minutes and you're down. Shame on you......
Though so many drunkies, not 1 is produced by me. So sad. Overall : Good Night, Bad singing by me as usual ( sorry guys ). Had fun ^^
So many drunkies. Confirmed Drunkies are : Boss, Kevin, Cici, Fat Kun.
To Boss : Understand why I always puke in Chi? And you puke more than all the time added together that i puke in Chi.
To Kevin : I haven't get to drink with you and you're already drunk, what can I say? Bad luck LoL
To Cici : I don't mind letting you tie me up and dress me up as a nurse and covering me with chocolate, but I don't have a nurse outfit.
To Fat Kun : Brother... You're there not even 30minutes and you're down. Shame on you......
Though so many drunkies, not 1 is produced by me. So sad. Overall : Good Night, Bad singing by me as usual ( sorry guys ). Had fun ^^
Day Trip @ Werribee
27-3-08 ; A day to be remembered. The first real trip I went for after the third year being stuck in Melbourne. Although it's my second choice compare to a day trip to Sydney but was glad that I chose Werribee.
Before this, so many problem came up. I even thought of sleeping in for the day, though she got if off and yes we have a trip. Have been craving for a short trip for a long time but never seems to got the chance due to heavy work load and study load. Took 2 day off this Easter Break and this is what I got.
It took around 1.5 hours to just get there from City by train and bus. With the limited bus and train, it took even longer. Arrived at Werribee station around 1:30pm and we missed the shuttle and hence needed to wait for 1 hour for the next shuttle. SUX. Went for shopping in the nearby Safeway. Wasted 50cents to tryout our curiousity, but was fun though and embarassing. For the first time, I tried Allen's Fantales. Like it. Mostly $2 shop was funny, so many junks in there.
It's sad since we departed late and can't go to Werribee Park as well. In addition, the shuttle from and to Werribee Zoo is really really limited, if you missed 1, you're gonna get trapped. Really curious on the Scotland mansion and the rose garden. Also, have been cheated by every single weather forecast, "Mostly Sunny" but rained the whole day in the City but luckily Werribee stopped.
Aiven on the train on the way back
Before this, so many problem came up. I even thought of sleeping in for the day, though she got if off and yes we have a trip. Have been craving for a short trip for a long time but never seems to got the chance due to heavy work load and study load. Took 2 day off this Easter Break and this is what I got.
It took around 1.5 hours to just get there from City by train and bus. With the limited bus and train, it took even longer. Arrived at Werribee station around 1:30pm and we missed the shuttle and hence needed to wait for 1 hour for the next shuttle. SUX. Went for shopping in the nearby Safeway. Wasted 50cents to tryout our curiousity, but was fun though and embarassing. For the first time, I tried Allen's Fantales. Like it. Mostly $2 shop was funny, so many junks in there.
It's sad since we departed late and can't go to Werribee Park as well. In addition, the shuttle from and to Werribee Zoo is really really limited, if you missed 1, you're gonna get trapped. Really curious on the Scotland mansion and the rose garden. Also, have been cheated by every single weather forecast, "Mostly Sunny" but rained the whole day in the City but luckily Werribee stopped.
Pictures I felt best :
Aiven on the train on the way backAiven waiting for bus at Werribee Zoo bus stop.
Werribee Zoo's bus stop
Aiven & Steph waiting for bus to Zoo~
The tired Sleeping Beauty
The Victorous Sign when Steph conquered The Safari Bus
Overall it was a great trip, so so so wish to freeze some moments, but I ain't no god. Guess it'll just stay in my memory for the time being.
p/s : The right hand overwhelmed the left.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Truth and Jerks
人不可貌相。。
Some people might seems perfect from outside, he might be the nicest person you ever met. But on the other side, he might be just another jerk.
Why do people like to keep their true self to theirselves? Why do they want to live in lies? What's the point of living such lies? Continuosly telling the same lie over and over again, running the same play over and over again, the worst part is, it's going around in the same social circle. Everyone knows each other, and some are even twins. Why are you so wrecked? Telling things that are inconsistent with what you told others, using the same tactic over and over again, even the places and conversations are the same. Should I praise you or think that you are stupid?
Seriously, after knowing the truth, I somehow hated you, feeling you're just another disgrace. Disappointed.
Maybe you didn's know that the truth is already known... Almost everyone knew about it, the truth is really ugly at my point of view. You know what I mean if you read this, it really shows that you're just another jerk. Pay respect to others, maybe you're mentally unstable, but please go see a shrink. You needed one, real bad.
I don't understand why are you looping this, over and over again. The sadness you showed is just another play or you're hurt. If you are why are you doing it again? Repeat the same procedure again and again..
Please think of a new strategy or at least use it only on someone in another social circle.
Some people might seems perfect from outside, he might be the nicest person you ever met. But on the other side, he might be just another jerk.
Why do people like to keep their true self to theirselves? Why do they want to live in lies? What's the point of living such lies? Continuosly telling the same lie over and over again, running the same play over and over again, the worst part is, it's going around in the same social circle. Everyone knows each other, and some are even twins. Why are you so wrecked? Telling things that are inconsistent with what you told others, using the same tactic over and over again, even the places and conversations are the same. Should I praise you or think that you are stupid?
Seriously, after knowing the truth, I somehow hated you, feeling you're just another disgrace. Disappointed.
Maybe you didn's know that the truth is already known... Almost everyone knew about it, the truth is really ugly at my point of view. You know what I mean if you read this, it really shows that you're just another jerk. Pay respect to others, maybe you're mentally unstable, but please go see a shrink. You needed one, real bad.
I don't understand why are you looping this, over and over again. The sadness you showed is just another play or you're hurt. If you are why are you doing it again? Repeat the same procedure again and again..
Please think of a new strategy or at least use it only on someone in another social circle.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
Motor Show 2008
Motor Show 2008 in Melbourne, not as good as the one in 2007.. Only 3 cars caught my attention.. Disappointment on the new WRX... Kinda looks like shit...
As always, Gen-2 is still worth to look at :)
Skyline GT-R, Audi R8, and Toyota Concept Car
Thursday, February 14, 2008
It's Just Not Good Enough
It's always "You, didn't try, you're are not working hard enough." Ever had a thought that "he is just not this kind of person?" It's like i tried so so hard, yet it's still not good enough. Why?
It's not like I can't cope but it's just not good enough. Can anyone lead me? Or should I just stop right here right now
It's not like I can't cope but it's just not good enough. Can anyone lead me? Or should I just stop right here right now
Monday, February 11, 2008
A Change
Seems like 2008 wasn't too bad afterall, it's gonna be a slight different this time. Though my inexperience had became obstacle. What if, what if I screwed up? Just thinking about it is already scary enough. Trying the best for what I am capable of, steps by steps.
A soldier do not fight a losing war.
A soldier do not fight a losing war.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Not Giving Up...
Tried and Failed then Tried Again and Failed Again...
A rotation that had loop several times..A pattern repeated again and again.. Obstacles over obstacles.. Climbed over one after another, but seems like it's never ending.. I know humans are meant to get up after they fell, but how many times do they need to fall?
I really want it this time, but I think it's another fall.. Even though oppoturnity not given, but looking for a chance to strike is my game.. You just be carefull I'm going all out.. Your serenade might not last.. My ochestra is overwhelming..
A match between a pure serenade and a fierce ochestra..
A rotation that had loop several times..A pattern repeated again and again.. Obstacles over obstacles.. Climbed over one after another, but seems like it's never ending.. I know humans are meant to get up after they fell, but how many times do they need to fall?
I really want it this time, but I think it's another fall.. Even though oppoturnity not given, but looking for a chance to strike is my game.. You just be carefull I'm going all out.. Your serenade might not last.. My ochestra is overwhelming..
A match between a pure serenade and a fierce ochestra..
Monday, January 28, 2008
Valentine's Day
As everyone knows, this particular day, not even sure why it's named Valentine's day; why not Aiven's day? Faddy's Day? Which it sounds much better ; I think... It's a day where couples, couples to-be would celebrate..
The 2008's Valentine's day is so close now, most couple are planned on that day. Most girls have plans, even "not having a plan's plan" sounds like a plan. Looks like this is another lonely Valentine's day for me though. Not too much to put in. As every Feb 14th passed by, I said to myself "Next year would be different"; but it seems like I'm saying it every year and its like a tradition to me.
07's was a slight different but its still not different. Memorable but not to be proud of. 2 of us spend the night in front of Melbourne's state library. Yet would 08's be more different? Or back to 06's, 05's..........
The ironic thing is that, there's actually people who don't believe that I had never celebrated this event before. Do I look that experienced? Or do I look like those that would not ever allow myself to be alone on these days.
Seems like minimal hope for minimal disappointment is the best for me again, but seriously, why would someone volunteer in Monash University's orientation on Valentine's Day. It's just inappropriate.
The 2008's Valentine's day is so close now, most couple are planned on that day. Most girls have plans, even "not having a plan's plan" sounds like a plan. Looks like this is another lonely Valentine's day for me though. Not too much to put in. As every Feb 14th passed by, I said to myself "Next year would be different"; but it seems like I'm saying it every year and its like a tradition to me.
07's was a slight different but its still not different. Memorable but not to be proud of. 2 of us spend the night in front of Melbourne's state library. Yet would 08's be more different? Or back to 06's, 05's..........
The ironic thing is that, there's actually people who don't believe that I had never celebrated this event before. Do I look that experienced? Or do I look like those that would not ever allow myself to be alone on these days.
Seems like minimal hope for minimal disappointment is the best for me again, but seriously, why would someone volunteer in Monash University's orientation on Valentine's Day. It's just inappropriate.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Confuse....
It's really hard to understand.. Why do god make human so hard to be understood? Why doesn't god like simplicity? Or is it just you?
Totally confuse.. What are you thinking? Why can't I understand?
Could you give me hint?
Totally confuse.. What are you thinking? Why can't I understand?
Could you give me hint?
Friday, January 18, 2008
Cheated
18/01/08 7:30p.m.(GMT+10), watched Clover Field.
Voted the worst movie with the best trailer by me...
Can't Fucking get what it means....
There's no ending .....!!
EVERYONE DIES.......!!!!!!!!!
Retarded director.... Makes you really dizzy by the way the film the movie...
Seriously... Did anyone watched it during the movie making and tell the director it sucks? There's no introduction and no ending...
WTF... Waste of time n Money
Voted the worst movie with the best trailer by me...
Can't Fucking get what it means....
There's no ending .....!!
EVERYONE DIES.......!!!!!!!!!
Retarded director.... Makes you really dizzy by the way the film the movie...
Seriously... Did anyone watched it during the movie making and tell the director it sucks? There's no introduction and no ending...
WTF... Waste of time n Money
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Past and Future Reference
"The past is my future reference..." a sentence I like to say.
If it's so, it's most like a new tormention might began... Seems like "it" is floating away.. Further and futher and futher and futher and further away.
A sense of cold haunching through my back bone..
Some said "this" and some says "that".. Who is right? Whi is wrong?
Tough.
As the way I see it, I think is low.. But the hopes i implied denies. Disappointment or Euphoria?
If it's so, it's most like a new tormention might began... Seems like "it" is floating away.. Further and futher and futher and futher and further away.
A sense of cold haunching through my back bone..
Some said "this" and some says "that".. Who is right? Whi is wrong?
Tough.
As the way I see it, I think is low.. But the hopes i implied denies. Disappointment or Euphoria?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
It's You...
Heartbeating in irregular rhythm... Accelerating, decelerating.. Symphony changes time to time.. As image flys through my mind, face blushes for no reason..
Was it triggered by you? Found myself unable to look you in the eyes.. As face to face, my eye dodges a direct line of sight.. What the hell is this? Expecting you day and nights.. Gotta hate it, haven't felt this way since a long time ago..
Love or Lust..? I wonders..
Could you be the one to free me from my tormention? Or are you another one to lead me into another tormention.
A Thursday in the near future, I'm open for you.. Will I get past it alone or with you? A mystery for now but soon to be revealed..
相识不过多少天，
5 + 3 p 1+1 an 1 3
Was it triggered by you? Found myself unable to look you in the eyes.. As face to face, my eye dodges a direct line of sight.. What the hell is this? Expecting you day and nights.. Gotta hate it, haven't felt this way since a long time ago..
Love or Lust..? I wonders..
Could you be the one to free me from my tormention? Or are you another one to lead me into another tormention.
A Thursday in the near future, I'm open for you.. Will I get past it alone or with you? A mystery for now but soon to be revealed..
相识不过多少天，
却对你念念不忘。
是何时被你侵略?
不知不觉不小心，
不安不稳不知何。
5 + 3 p 1+1 an 1 3
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