no more 1.40am movies for me if im working the next day.
and wad's with all this upgrading your blog by combining with google thing? just like flickr n yahoo. the font looks weird. oh wait. does it mean i can change my font?
let's try.
oh yes it works. =) comfort.
oh no it doesnt. i think the style sheet overwrites it. damn.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Friday, December 1, 2006
read!
after a blood test today, i declare that im fit for blood donation - there's no pain involved and hey. blood comes out! ive always feared oil'll flow out. well of cos the nurse has to poke the needle into the vein and not just below my skin.
i thot this alphabet thing is fun - gives u a topic and yet the freedom to go ahead.. and crap. here goes. Ten things i love beginning with the letter 'n'. wow. sounds like the pyramid game. half of me feels like describing what i like that starts with 'n' and let u guess. but i think noone will. so. rah.
one
NANA. i love you! the balance between me n yz, the giver who doesnt mind my taking (or at least has the decency to keep it to herself), the gof who let me squat for a sem, the listener to all my jokes which turn out unfunny.
two
need. it's always the ends of the spectrum when it comes to need and me. it's always either someone needs me so much i can't take it or i need someone so much it hurts. and now i need a balance.
three
nothing. i believe in nothing. that nothing's real, that nothing's forever, that nothing is important. that nothing's deliberate. that nothing's subconscious. and nothing's the truth. i'm scared of nothing. that nothing's gonna be the outcome of my whole life. and yet i believe in it.
four
new. just like the vague positioning of the new mall, i'm lover of all things new. venturing into new things (and most of the time not completing them) is my biggest love.
five
never never land. i love peter pan. i love wendy. and most of all i love never never land. not just as a fairytale or bedtime story but it sets me thinking. go dwell.
six
nonsense. i think thats what im made of. and i love myself. =)
seven
nemories. does this work? okay i wont take the shortcut.
new media. i think this counts. i love how society reflects and influences. and theres nothing else that does this more than new media.
eight
i give up. next time.
nine
ten
i thot this alphabet thing is fun - gives u a topic and yet the freedom to go ahead.. and crap. here goes. Ten things i love beginning with the letter 'n'. wow. sounds like the pyramid game. half of me feels like describing what i like that starts with 'n' and let u guess. but i think noone will. so. rah.
one
NANA. i love you! the balance between me n yz, the giver who doesnt mind my taking (or at least has the decency to keep it to herself), the gof who let me squat for a sem, the listener to all my jokes which turn out unfunny.
two
need. it's always the ends of the spectrum when it comes to need and me. it's always either someone needs me so much i can't take it or i need someone so much it hurts. and now i need a balance.
three
nothing. i believe in nothing. that nothing's real, that nothing's forever, that nothing is important. that nothing's deliberate. that nothing's subconscious. and nothing's the truth. i'm scared of nothing. that nothing's gonna be the outcome of my whole life. and yet i believe in it.
four
new. just like the vague positioning of the new mall, i'm lover of all things new. venturing into new things (and most of the time not completing them) is my biggest love.
five
never never land. i love peter pan. i love wendy. and most of all i love never never land. not just as a fairytale or bedtime story but it sets me thinking. go dwell.
six
nonsense. i think thats what im made of. and i love myself. =)
seven
nemories. does this work? okay i wont take the shortcut.
new media. i think this counts. i love how society reflects and influences. and theres nothing else that does this more than new media.
eight
i give up. next time.
nine
ten
you tell me how true this is.
You have exaggerated demands on life but you are cautious enough to try to hide these beliefs from the outside world. You are covert enough to try to impress other people around you with your achievements and at the same time able to put on an act of pretending to be 'humble' - being the same as everyone else. It would appear, however, that whatever you are doing seems to be working out O.K.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.
You are fed up with other people trying to influence you and you also feel that it is necessary to protect yourself from the threat that your independence and freedom may be restricted. You would just like to be left alone.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.
You are fed up with other people trying to influence you and you also feel that it is necessary to protect yourself from the threat that your independence and freedom may be restricted. You would just like to be left alone.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
i dont want to listen
u can say all u want
i'll hear for i have no choice
but i'll try not to listen
to those evil words that spill from ur mouth
i'll try not to listen
to what you have to say w/o processing my actions
if only i cannot hear
the piercing things u say
then i wont have to listen.
i'll hear for i have no choice
but i'll try not to listen
to those evil words that spill from ur mouth
i'll try not to listen
to what you have to say w/o processing my actions
if only i cannot hear
the piercing things u say
then i wont have to listen.
Friday, November 24, 2006
the fullstop.
if you realise, sometimes i put fullstops to things that arent complete sentences and i leave them out for certain sentences. the full stop represents a certain kind of termination. that ive had enough, that i want it to end.
im suddenly reminded of a short story i read. can't remember the title. could be full stop. the grandma's letter with all the incorrect punctuation. certain stereotypes are understood and manipulated to make people think in a certain way.
ive been playing with this thought. that maybe im just a nicely waxed apple with a rotten core. and pple who think im nice are just seeing how i wax the apple. itd be scary wouldnt it? i think id shock myself to see the rotten bits.
im suddenly reminded of a short story i read. can't remember the title. could be full stop. the grandma's letter with all the incorrect punctuation. certain stereotypes are understood and manipulated to make people think in a certain way.
ive been playing with this thought. that maybe im just a nicely waxed apple with a rotten core. and pple who think im nice are just seeing how i wax the apple. itd be scary wouldnt it? i think id shock myself to see the rotten bits.
the sun.
You are The Sun
Happiness, Content, Joy.
The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.
Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.
The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.
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Monday, October 23, 2006
a new anew.
fresh faces, strange smells.
same food, same venue.
so i went back with audrey. to swaps agm. or psych agm.
swaps, like some say, is intangible. so it cant be gone.
but as a whole new world of possibilities unveils itself, the vibes seem to diffuse and trail behind the folks who are slowly disappearing into the distance.
q&a was a weird experience for me and through the emotions (or lack of them) i felt during the session, i realise how much my mentality has changed. no point asking, i said. for whatever you try to make them realise through the posing of real possible scenarios they wont learn and know how to react until they've come to it.
some stuff this guy who really reminds me of su teck n johnny said..
asymmetry of workload
some people seem to take on more than they should and others ride on the convenience of it in a group.
power struggle
i think im different. but i dont know how.
anyway, hari raya all -- esp to my dear ayda n fir. love!
ketupats i made for you but have no chance to give:
my lamb stew with nana n aud
our ABC fries!! =))
same food, same venue.
so i went back with audrey. to swaps agm. or psych agm.
swaps, like some say, is intangible. so it cant be gone.
but as a whole new world of possibilities unveils itself, the vibes seem to diffuse and trail behind the folks who are slowly disappearing into the distance.
q&a was a weird experience for me and through the emotions (or lack of them) i felt during the session, i realise how much my mentality has changed. no point asking, i said. for whatever you try to make them realise through the posing of real possible scenarios they wont learn and know how to react until they've come to it.
some stuff this guy who really reminds me of su teck n johnny said..
asymmetry of workload
some people seem to take on more than they should and others ride on the convenience of it in a group.
power struggle
i think im different. but i dont know how.
anyway, hari raya all -- esp to my dear ayda n fir. love!
ketupats i made for you but have no chance to give:
my lamb stew with nana n aud
our ABC fries!! =))
Sunday, October 15, 2006
rojak.
the translation of all our fears, hopes, frustration and joy into solid tangible structures, words and effects.
somehow along the way, i got lost. the comfort that's so familiar in these places got forgotten. the foxtrot the lights by woan wen n sam's shitlosophy.
im grappling in the dark. and she's right -- the deprivation of light harms.
somehow along the way, i got lost. the comfort that's so familiar in these places got forgotten. the foxtrot the lights by woan wen n sam's shitlosophy.
im grappling in the dark. and she's right -- the deprivation of light harms.
Sunday, October 8, 2006
cuci mata!
the proud peacock!
my pet lion and my lion at the zoo =))
my famous comfy donkey slippers in the office..
you bet i love eeyore! -- two of them from dy. =))
and for those who have missed me much..here's me!
my peacock.
omg help.
the many many trips to the toilet, the incessant want to look out the glass door. its getting obsessive.
i love this place.
the many many trips to the toilet, the incessant want to look out the glass door. its getting obsessive.
i love this place.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
we all change.
we all change -- and i do, too.
well. i hope i do.
since it's hard for me to update, i see no point in maintaining that blogskin. and i think this suits me just fine. i feel like a blank piece of paper right now. i have so much to offer, yet i have so much to learn. the simplest form expresses the most. and in so many ways this blogskin represents me right now.
been thinking alot, been quieting myself alot. so many things are debatable. so many things are contro. but i quote this new-found friend "是又怎样？说了有分别吗？" he said, as the third person to me, "if something needs to be screwed up, let it be."
al's a candle and bbear the matchstick. im like a lighter.. need some push to light up n provide energy -- and when the wind comes i need a hand to shield me. im trying to stand alone, i am. but im about to collapse.
i try to offer a smile to everyone. but ive stopped smiling at myself in the mirror every morning. tell me why.
well. i hope i do.
since it's hard for me to update, i see no point in maintaining that blogskin. and i think this suits me just fine. i feel like a blank piece of paper right now. i have so much to offer, yet i have so much to learn. the simplest form expresses the most. and in so many ways this blogskin represents me right now.
been thinking alot, been quieting myself alot. so many things are debatable. so many things are contro. but i quote this new-found friend "是又怎样？说了有分别吗？" he said, as the third person to me, "if something needs to be screwed up, let it be."
al's a candle and bbear the matchstick. im like a lighter.. need some push to light up n provide energy -- and when the wind comes i need a hand to shield me. im trying to stand alone, i am. but im about to collapse.
i try to offer a smile to everyone. but ive stopped smiling at myself in the mirror every morning. tell me why.
Friday, September 8, 2006
the right thing at the right time.
so many things to say
but don't know where to start.
like al n bbear would say
its just like my work.
so many things to do
dunno where to start.
so bro james posed the perfect solution!
all about ME!
7 random facts about me:
1) i cant stand not being the leader most of the times.
2) i need to be heard.
3) i am a survivor.
4) i am driven -- and with stamina.
5) i m black jack of all trades.
6) i shine when grouped with incompetent people.
7) i dont know a lot but i learn fast.
7 Favourite music at the moment:
1) cuppycake
2) uncle fucker
3) teochew
4) ah lam's char kway teow
5) bad boy
6) miracle
7) the tide is high
7 Things which i like most:
1) good food
2) rose tea
3) cuddling
4) intellectual conversations
5) analysing situations
6) coming up with ideas
7) earning my own keep.
7 things i say most
1) huh really?
2) mm.
3) okay
4) hmm?
5) pleaseeeeeeee?
6) thanks!
7) how ahhh.
7 lucky ppl to do this
same thing applies. WHO LOVES ME STILL BETTER DO!
i'll be watching u.
but don't know where to start.
like al n bbear would say
its just like my work.
so many things to do
dunno where to start.
so bro james posed the perfect solution!
all about ME!
7 random facts about me:
1) i cant stand not being the leader most of the times.
2) i need to be heard.
3) i am a survivor.
4) i am driven -- and with stamina.
5) i m black jack of all trades.
6) i shine when grouped with incompetent people.
7) i dont know a lot but i learn fast.
7 Favourite music at the moment:
1) cuppycake
2) uncle fucker
3) teochew
4) ah lam's char kway teow
5) bad boy
6) miracle
7) the tide is high
7 Things which i like most:
1) good food
2) rose tea
3) cuddling
4) intellectual conversations
5) analysing situations
6) coming up with ideas
7) earning my own keep.
7 things i say most
1) huh really?
2) mm.
3) okay
4) hmm?
5) pleaseeeeeeee?
6) thanks!
7) how ahhh.
7 lucky ppl to do this
same thing applies. WHO LOVES ME STILL BETTER DO!
i'll be watching u.
Saturday, September 2, 2006
maybe sticking to wad n who u are familiar with is the best way out.
and maybe everyone else's right.
i hate this situation that im in now and im not used to working with people like that. it sucks. i dont like the way things go and its nauseating almost. oh god. i need to pray.
frustrating shit. i cannot stand not understandin my situation cos i start to alienate in such situations.
finally i m staring at my keyboard and have no idea how to put anything into words. one step taken, one decision made, now.
and maybe everyone else's right.
i hate this situation that im in now and im not used to working with people like that. it sucks. i dont like the way things go and its nauseating almost. oh god. i need to pray.
frustrating shit. i cannot stand not understandin my situation cos i start to alienate in such situations.
finally i m staring at my keyboard and have no idea how to put anything into words. one step taken, one decision made, now.
Friday, August 18, 2006
the record holders!
the earliest true birthday sms:
jezamine tan on 14th august, thinking she was one day late. =)
the latest sms on 18th august:
paulyn
the most number of birthday wishes:
jack
the dead-on-balls accurate birthday present and hugest surprise makers:
programmers + aud + yz + swappies + si gee na
the one day late still pretend she remembered birthday wish:
leona hui
the most honest birthday wish:
meiyi which admitted she almost forgot
the most unexpected birthday sms:
frankie
no prizes though!
jezamine tan on 14th august, thinking she was one day late. =)
the latest sms on 18th august:
paulyn
the most number of birthday wishes:
jack
the dead-on-balls accurate birthday present and hugest surprise makers:
programmers + aud + yz + swappies + si gee na
the one day late still pretend she remembered birthday wish:
leona hui
the most honest birthday wish:
meiyi which admitted she almost forgot
the most unexpected birthday sms:
frankie
no prizes though!
ya kun.
ive been eating yakun for breakfast everyday since the first day i bought breakfast from them this week.
let's do a poll. one of the reasons below is correct:
1. nothing else's open at 8plus when i reach. =(
2. i absolutely absolutely adore yakun kaya toast!
3. there's this super cute guy who makes my day just by beaming at me.
4. all of the above.
okay please start polling!
let's do a poll. one of the reasons below is correct:
1. nothing else's open at 8plus when i reach. =(
2. i absolutely absolutely adore yakun kaya toast!
3. there's this super cute guy who makes my day just by beaming at me.
4. all of the above.
okay please start polling!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
fun! grabbed from firr.
try it!
i think im not so femme la. fuchsia would be a niceeee color.
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i think im not so femme la. fuchsia would be a niceeee color.
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happy birthday to me.
a surprise song and two cakes and my favourite boardgame on tuesday, the opening of beanstalk. i love having tonnes of pple sing me my birthday song.
anyway the week flew by. literally. the min i sit down at my temp desk, it's lunchtime. im loving it. except of cos some stuff happened but as always, when bad things come u know good things will follow. yesterday was rotten. but nearer to midnight i just felt happier. and each sms and call that came in made the smile on my face steeper -- if u can put it that way.
so im glad and all, settling down on the new job, and like leona puts it -- the loved ones will be updated. hahaha. which by her standards would mean im the last to know.
oh something ive been meaning to blog down and i havent forgotten --
WHY ARE GUYS MORE HIGHLY PAID (in Singapore)?
no, really.
cut that two years of ns shit.
firstly, guys come out cuter -- which means they should pay for it.
secondly, guys' brains literally reduce in size, talking only abt NS all day -- which means society should make them pay for it.
and its not like they dont get paid for ns!
then,
lastly,
and most importantly,
why i believe girls should be more highly paid,
WE PAY FOR A LIFETIME SUPPLY OF TAMPONS, PADS and LINERS.
and our laundry costs double,
firstly because we are generally more hygienic, so we change more often.
secondly because we only wear our underwear the right side, not twice.
and i forgot my password to my blog for a day. i sent it to my email, only to find out i didnt use my most commonly used email address for the registration. means i cant retrieve it. then it came to me la.
a cab driver asked why so many girls say theyre not attached when there are so many singaporean bachelors. he sounded earnest in knowing why, and really puzzled. cos he's single at the age of 45. well, at least from wad i figure from the rearview mirror. but i couldnt break his heart. and i couldnt break mine. so ya.
the following camae across my mind though:
1. girls dont marry any available guy.
2. im lesbian!!! (which i decided against cos we were on the highway)
3. youre not my type.
i skipped lunch to blog. haha =)
okay thats all folks. who's reading still? i love you.
and i love me too. happy birthday =)).
anyway the week flew by. literally. the min i sit down at my temp desk, it's lunchtime. im loving it. except of cos some stuff happened but as always, when bad things come u know good things will follow. yesterday was rotten. but nearer to midnight i just felt happier. and each sms and call that came in made the smile on my face steeper -- if u can put it that way.
so im glad and all, settling down on the new job, and like leona puts it -- the loved ones will be updated. hahaha. which by her standards would mean im the last to know.
oh something ive been meaning to blog down and i havent forgotten --
WHY ARE GUYS MORE HIGHLY PAID (in Singapore)?
no, really.
cut that two years of ns shit.
firstly, guys come out cuter -- which means they should pay for it.
secondly, guys' brains literally reduce in size, talking only abt NS all day -- which means society should make them pay for it.
and its not like they dont get paid for ns!
then,
lastly,
and most importantly,
why i believe girls should be more highly paid,
WE PAY FOR A LIFETIME SUPPLY OF TAMPONS, PADS and LINERS.
and our laundry costs double,
firstly because we are generally more hygienic, so we change more often.
secondly because we only wear our underwear the right side, not twice.
and i forgot my password to my blog for a day. i sent it to my email, only to find out i didnt use my most commonly used email address for the registration. means i cant retrieve it. then it came to me la.
a cab driver asked why so many girls say theyre not attached when there are so many singaporean bachelors. he sounded earnest in knowing why, and really puzzled. cos he's single at the age of 45. well, at least from wad i figure from the rearview mirror. but i couldnt break his heart. and i couldnt break mine. so ya.
the following camae across my mind though:
1. girls dont marry any available guy.
2. im lesbian!!! (which i decided against cos we were on the highway)
3. youre not my type.
i skipped lunch to blog. haha =)
okay thats all folks. who's reading still? i love you.
and i love me too. happy birthday =)).
Friday, July 28, 2006
flooble!
ohhoho. i stole leona's flooblebox. but boxed it up cos i hate it taking the colors of my text. too pink. anyway since i got a tagboard up, start foobling! =)) please.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
some stay, some go, some return and some were never there.
i guess i got my fair share of that. and i probably know who the ones who'll stay are. but its a cannonball on my ego. the tiny pieces..i dont know how long it'll take for me to find them back or build new ones.
but thanks, for having been patronising and superficial. cos i love lookin like a fool.
how could i forget your famous lines?
but thanks, for having been patronising and superficial. cos i love lookin like a fool.
how could i forget your famous lines?
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
"the setup program is not compatible with this version of windows."
ive always been a bit backward in the arena of handphones. i carried my passed-down n3210 thru-out my jc life and upon graduation i reuqested for a n6510 when my bro asked. i believe in liking a phone..i didnt like any coloured polyphonic ones then. and i carried my first first-hand mobile thru-out my nus life. i wasnt ashamed of it! =)). it wasnt a 6110 mind you. it had BLUE backlight. haha. anyway upon graduation this time, i got a motorola v3x. my dream. =)
so now im only backward because. my phone cant be coordinated with my computer due to the said incompatibility. right. and i honestly thought there was something wrong with me.. and i just had to ask na.
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
hey
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
u think it's OCD?
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
the way i cant stop flippin open my phone n browsin thru my pictures
Nana says:
huh?
Nana says:
what is?
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
n end up takin more?
Nana says:
HAHAHHAHA
Nana says:
that's just
Nana says:
you
Nana says:
hahahahha
:$. its almost embarrassing how wearing shorts n a singlet to convo is me as much as using up two batteries a day taking photos of myself on my phone is. =
well, it's me.
---
p/s check out na's blog for her sleeping position! =))
so now im only backward because. my phone cant be coordinated with my computer due to the said incompatibility. right. and i honestly thought there was something wrong with me.. and i just had to ask na.
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
hey
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
u think it's OCD?
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
the way i cant stop flippin open my phone n browsin thru my pictures
Nana says:
huh?
Nana says:
what is?
so what if im using windows98? huh? says:
n end up takin more?
Nana says:
HAHAHHAHA
Nana says:
that's just
Nana says:
you
Nana says:
hahahahha
:$. its almost embarrassing how wearing shorts n a singlet to convo is me as much as using up two batteries a day taking photos of myself on my phone is. =
well, it's me.
---
p/s check out na's blog for her sleeping position! =))
Friday, July 21, 2006
revelation of the day.
some friends are so hard to keep.
anyway here goes me!
i really do sleep curled up eh. =)
some friends are so hard to keep.
anyway here goes me!
i really do sleep curled up eh. =)
Find your own pose!
Monday, July 10, 2006
jo's shorts n the shopaholic.
so robin was right..and seems like not only he noticed. i do wear shorts everywhere huh. almost as if i dont own any bottom past my knees. oh no. so um. i bought my convo gown but didnt try in front of the mirror at home or even iron it. i grabbed singlets n shorts n a pair of heels n off to the grand thing i went with my family. i mean. i honestly didnt know the rest of the world would turn up in white long sleeved stuff would i.
let me explain:
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
i just thot..
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
wear as little as possible wont go wrong
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
cos it'll all be hidden no?
Princess Karen says:
dats where u thought wrong i gues
Princess Karen says:
shaha
Princess Karen says:
kinda i guess
Princess Karen says:
except when it flaps
Princess Karen says:
n it flaps when u run
Princess Karen says:
n u ran
Princess Karen says:
so it flapped
so that was the situation. san made me feel better by saying this "its ok jo, u wear shorts everywhere u go..so it's just you." and i did feel better. i crawled across the stage n bowed demurely, hoping my flaps didnt open.
so anyway. i was how proud of myself today! the whole time before my turn, (except during e's turn i screamed my lungs out n the pple in front turned to stare at me) i was observing how the pple looked at the camera n when the camera people took the photos. and i caught the timing just now. i turned once for the handshake. n another for the scroll thing. except. i forgot to thank the old pro-chancellor. but i caught both timings! some pple just stood and waited for the flashes, but they already went. so i was awful glad.
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i blew 50 bucks at cold storage. on d24 durians and green seedless grapes (how yum la) and some stuff essential for the best dinner in a long time. yum.
i love life.
even though i blew 50 bucks. and hmm. got asked about wad i wore beneath my convo gown a few more times than comfortable. aiya but someone said i hid it well! so ya.
photos up soon. and i loveeeeee phototaking, family and friends.
so complete.
let me explain:
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
i just thot..
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
wear as little as possible wont go wrong
JO :: i just blew fifty bucks at cold storage. call me auntie. . :: says:
cos it'll all be hidden no?
Princess Karen says:
dats where u thought wrong i gues
Princess Karen says:
shaha
Princess Karen says:
kinda i guess
Princess Karen says:
except when it flaps
Princess Karen says:
n it flaps when u run
Princess Karen says:
n u ran
Princess Karen says:
so it flapped
so that was the situation. san made me feel better by saying this "its ok jo, u wear shorts everywhere u go..so it's just you." and i did feel better. i crawled across the stage n bowed demurely, hoping my flaps didnt open.
so anyway. i was how proud of myself today! the whole time before my turn, (except during e's turn i screamed my lungs out n the pple in front turned to stare at me) i was observing how the pple looked at the camera n when the camera people took the photos. and i caught the timing just now. i turned once for the handshake. n another for the scroll thing. except. i forgot to thank the old pro-chancellor. but i caught both timings! some pple just stood and waited for the flashes, but they already went. so i was awful glad.
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i blew 50 bucks at cold storage. on d24 durians and green seedless grapes (how yum la) and some stuff essential for the best dinner in a long time. yum.
i love life.
even though i blew 50 bucks. and hmm. got asked about wad i wore beneath my convo gown a few more times than comfortable. aiya but someone said i hid it well! so ya.
photos up soon. and i loveeeeee phototaking, family and friends.
so complete.
Monday, July 3, 2006
i cant believe my stupidity.
i cant believe it. i was..that stupid. but i like that everything's clear to me now. i like how i cope.
hahaa wad a joke ive been. thanks.
hahaa wad a joke ive been. thanks.
Sunday, July 2, 2006
gross.
i woke up after hearing the irritating alarm..beeped for thirty four minutes. im that bad leh. =\.
random, but nothing beats home-made french toast and milk tea for breakfast. yum. n thousand island sauce is orgasmic. =) just. i dont like to toss salad la. i threw the cheese that i sliced, the tomatoes that i diced, the cold roast chicken shreds, lettuce, those huge hotdogs sliced..n i cant remb wad. you will toss my salad for me -- i will find you.
ive always felt that my perfect match should be someone who enjoys certain similar stuff as me, those major stuff, but complements me in aspects i dislike. like i'll hang the clothes up to dry, my match would do the laundry (i even hate dumping stuff in the machine), i'll um. sit n watch tv while my match does all the housework. OH. i'll do the dishes. i dont mind that.
anyway. i had this very thing i wanted to blog about. which i forgot yesterday, and recalled last night before i slept. n trusted myself to remb. which of cos i didnt. damn.
|-) yawn.
random, but nothing beats home-made french toast and milk tea for breakfast. yum. n thousand island sauce is orgasmic. =) just. i dont like to toss salad la. i threw the cheese that i sliced, the tomatoes that i diced, the cold roast chicken shreds, lettuce, those huge hotdogs sliced..n i cant remb wad. you will toss my salad for me -- i will find you.
ive always felt that my perfect match should be someone who enjoys certain similar stuff as me, those major stuff, but complements me in aspects i dislike. like i'll hang the clothes up to dry, my match would do the laundry (i even hate dumping stuff in the machine), i'll um. sit n watch tv while my match does all the housework. OH. i'll do the dishes. i dont mind that.
anyway. i had this very thing i wanted to blog about. which i forgot yesterday, and recalled last night before i slept. n trusted myself to remb. which of cos i didnt. damn.
|-) yawn.
yikes.
went for this intro-ed kid's first lesson. supposed to teach english, but the same old question popped up, "'cher, u teach math as well?" "yeap. if uve got any question u could just ask me." "ive got two. my math tutor cant solve them." he procceeded to search for some book he called the "challenging problems". the first question was weird. u couldnt solve it from many different angles.. u could only try seeing it from one. the second was easy. after class, the sms came to hire me as a math tutor. poor guy..i dont mean to take ur job. sorry.
anyway it made me think. how many things in life can only be seen from that one angle? its pretty amazing to me. especially when it comes to math. maybe i just havent discovered that angle.
so anyway. one fact ive been trying to uncover for the past few months came unveiled over a phone conversation minutes ago. this huge like i have on this someone..hes taken. yikes. thanks darling for letting me in on it. well at least he's not gay for once. no hopes jo, no hopes. i really wonder why the guys i am able to talk to fall only into three categories: taken, chee-hong or gay. are all conversation-worthy guys like that? dont blame me for being single.
anyway it made me think. how many things in life can only be seen from that one angle? its pretty amazing to me. especially when it comes to math. maybe i just havent discovered that angle.
so anyway. one fact ive been trying to uncover for the past few months came unveiled over a phone conversation minutes ago. this huge like i have on this someone..hes taken. yikes. thanks darling for letting me in on it. well at least he's not gay for once. no hopes jo, no hopes. i really wonder why the guys i am able to talk to fall only into three categories: taken, chee-hong or gay. are all conversation-worthy guys like that? dont blame me for being single.
da da dum.
i have found out the cause n therefore the cure for my restlessness recently. i missed two episodes of er mo. and when i switched on the tv just now..gawd. i started smiling non-stop. i guess sometimes vicarious living is a joy.
and another issue that had been bothering for the past few days has been solved too! lack of honesty makes me an umcomfortable freak. heh so it's all cool. =)
and the arse is back. time for the once-a-year meetin!
and another issue that had been bothering for the past few days has been solved too! lack of honesty makes me an umcomfortable freak. heh so it's all cool. =)
and the arse is back. time for the once-a-year meetin!
Friday, June 30, 2006
fuck cold turkey.
everything is good in moderation. never take too much. the chill that runs down both arms n the tendency to reach that object. i hope i havent been trying to convince myself but really saying what i mean. oh gracious. fuck cold turkey.
and the girl was so sad.
i came across this profile.. and it spoke of sadness. how one part of her has been torn away and ripped apart n missing. i know that feeling. somehow i think everyone does. that emptiness that we feel that only this particular object that has left can fill. n i remember that when i was in that period of time, when i actually couldnt wake up having forgotten all things sad cos i couldnt even sleep, it felt like i'll never ever get better. when the eyes get all puffy twenty four hours a day from the oceans of tears i cry and the nights spent staring into emptiness n holding on to the phone in case an sms comes in. the sms that will make everything better. i know it. you know it. we know it all too well.
but hey. we do get over those times dont we? the lemon twist flavoured memories may still be vivid to some, but these will stop haunting. our hearts are big. our worlds are huge and life is full of so much more. i just hope everyone will remember the joy that we've felt before n let the warmth engulf the coldness of the hurt when we get drawn into these dark periods..n smile.
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on a lighter note, im here to market...
TAMPAX PEARLS.
wahlau a gem of a find like i told ayda. DAMN GOOD LA. so if anyone wants the original tampax tampons i can give u la. im a convert. ive got quite alot of the old ones left though. but im not about to stick another dry wad of cotton in me. not after i discovered TAMPAX PEARLS. anyway. sometimes i believe tampons help to relief abit of the crazy pain we all feel during periods. so..just a wild thought. maybe sex with a well-hung guy will help. heh.
overshare? dont read la!
no la im kidding. i'll try to curb myself next time.
but hey. we do get over those times dont we? the lemon twist flavoured memories may still be vivid to some, but these will stop haunting. our hearts are big. our worlds are huge and life is full of so much more. i just hope everyone will remember the joy that we've felt before n let the warmth engulf the coldness of the hurt when we get drawn into these dark periods..n smile.
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on a lighter note, im here to market...
TAMPAX PEARLS.
wahlau a gem of a find like i told ayda. DAMN GOOD LA. so if anyone wants the original tampax tampons i can give u la. im a convert. ive got quite alot of the old ones left though. but im not about to stick another dry wad of cotton in me. not after i discovered TAMPAX PEARLS. anyway. sometimes i believe tampons help to relief abit of the crazy pain we all feel during periods. so..just a wild thought. maybe sex with a well-hung guy will help. heh.
overshare? dont read la!
no la im kidding. i'll try to curb myself next time.
happy happy. hop arounddd.
happy happy.
sometime in the middle of the night i felt a hand push me head off the pillow and then another hand joined in to push me to my side of the bed. if i belong to the bed at all. i dont know how i rolled til i slept horizontally on both pillows last night but i couldnt stop laughing at my stupidity. first simple joy.
the sun didnt hurt my eyes when i woke this morning..it was warm and welcoming. after the past few either too bright or too gloomy days. perfectt. second simple joy.
when u start ur day with two simple joys, how can u be upset? i beamed at myself in the mirror just like most mornings n i got happier. haha.
n it was shopppinnnn. aie! therapy. bliss. but karen didnt spend a single cent in mango. damn.
so dont worry. im happy again! wait. did u worry, or did u know? that id be happy again. haha. im so predictable i cant stand myself. and i talk so much to myself i cant stand that either.
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hop arounddd.
reflections these few days gave new meaning to my favourite tune during hip-hopera and many other occasions. ive been hoppin' around alot.
first hop around. ive been hoppin around and still circling the same spot.
second hop around. ive been hoppin around hoping to find what i already have. i thought i missed out on being taken care of. i thought i missed out on being treated like a girl. i thought i missed out on so much other girls have. i still think so, but at the same time i have so much more. all the love and all the happy friends with all the love. =) i never knew enough even though i thought i did. its time i know it. i have more than enough already. =)
but hey. its summer. no harm hoppin' around a bit eh? though i know i'll miss whatever new stuff i get. but missing's a good thing. u can't miss what u never had, aint it?
and that was a goal i hear.
i love every tiny detail of life.
and i love me. =)
sometime in the middle of the night i felt a hand push me head off the pillow and then another hand joined in to push me to my side of the bed. if i belong to the bed at all. i dont know how i rolled til i slept horizontally on both pillows last night but i couldnt stop laughing at my stupidity. first simple joy.
the sun didnt hurt my eyes when i woke this morning..it was warm and welcoming. after the past few either too bright or too gloomy days. perfectt. second simple joy.
when u start ur day with two simple joys, how can u be upset? i beamed at myself in the mirror just like most mornings n i got happier. haha.
n it was shopppinnnn. aie! therapy. bliss. but karen didnt spend a single cent in mango. damn.
so dont worry. im happy again! wait. did u worry, or did u know? that id be happy again. haha. im so predictable i cant stand myself. and i talk so much to myself i cant stand that either.
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hop arounddd.
reflections these few days gave new meaning to my favourite tune during hip-hopera and many other occasions. ive been hoppin' around alot.
first hop around. ive been hoppin around and still circling the same spot.
second hop around. ive been hoppin around hoping to find what i already have. i thought i missed out on being taken care of. i thought i missed out on being treated like a girl. i thought i missed out on so much other girls have. i still think so, but at the same time i have so much more. all the love and all the happy friends with all the love. =) i never knew enough even though i thought i did. its time i know it. i have more than enough already. =)
but hey. its summer. no harm hoppin' around a bit eh? though i know i'll miss whatever new stuff i get. but missing's a good thing. u can't miss what u never had, aint it?
and that was a goal i hear.
i love every tiny detail of life.
and i love me. =)
Thursday, June 29, 2006
surprise, surprise.
that maybe it was me. that it is me. not you. as much as i refuse to acknowledge it.
i. am. growing. teeth.
no lah not that. even though thats probably true cos i keep wanting to bite stuff.
truth is, i am a sucker for power. i hate not being in the know, i hate wondering and i hate hate hate whatever im feeling now! its like a replay of some sort and that dread just overwhelms me. im about to shut down. about to run away. except, of cos, i just read that running away doesnt just leave the bad stuff behind. but im not abt to weigh wad im gonna lose if im to stay this disgruntled for the next few days.
urghhh.
i. am. growing. teeth.
no lah not that. even though thats probably true cos i keep wanting to bite stuff.
truth is, i am a sucker for power. i hate not being in the know, i hate wondering and i hate hate hate whatever im feeling now! its like a replay of some sort and that dread just overwhelms me. im about to shut down. about to run away. except, of cos, i just read that running away doesnt just leave the bad stuff behind. but im not abt to weigh wad im gonna lose if im to stay this disgruntled for the next few days.
urghhh.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
the curb.
i dont think i ever told this to anyone. the first recollection of a created memory. when i was seven. or not even. a closure i either made for myself or he did. a nicely spun warm story that kept that then little heart of mine safe from harm. and as i related it as though it was real, a friend pointed out that it was not. i was surprised how he could have come to know a truth truer than mine. and it was only minutes later that i came to terms that he was probably right. i wasn't in the car.
yikes.
i am feeling absolutely restless and i have been for the past day at least. i had something i really wanted to blog about but i forgot it the moment i signed into blogger.
im all alone at home it's depressing. i thought the family was peacefully sleeping away for the house was dark. i crept in, not daring to light the living room but alas even my mom's not home. it's a wednesday! not a weekend. it seems im the only one without a life.
ive decided i do like disturbing people.
im all alone at home it's depressing. i thought the family was peacefully sleeping away for the house was dark. i crept in, not daring to light the living room but alas even my mom's not home. it's a wednesday! not a weekend. it seems im the only one without a life.
ive decided i do like disturbing people.
ive decided to update.
红色风暴 on channel 52 featured my fave 大柄 so i decided i would not channel surf. they got chinese opera singers to comment on his drag.
his response in my words: "well i guess we have very different concepts of my dragging act. the essence of dragging, to me, is in the knowledge that the performer on stage is a man." now guess why he's my fave.
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so ive been having a few days of nightmares. maybe a result of sleepin too much. but i had a sweet dream today. shoppin at this brand of a dept store called reher. weird. but nice stuff. hahaa with pple i kind of miss.
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i tried not to throw up. i did. but i really think you dont reflect. youre simply nauseating.
红色风暴 on channel 52 featured my fave 大柄 so i decided i would not channel surf. they got chinese opera singers to comment on his drag.
his response in my words: "well i guess we have very different concepts of my dragging act. the essence of dragging, to me, is in the knowledge that the performer on stage is a man." now guess why he's my fave.
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so ive been having a few days of nightmares. maybe a result of sleepin too much. but i had a sweet dream today. shoppin at this brand of a dept store called reher. weird. but nice stuff. hahaa with pple i kind of miss.
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i tried not to throw up. i did. but i really think you dont reflect. youre simply nauseating.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
of things lost and experiences gained.
with every failure comes a lesson learnt.
but to what extent should u let these lessons not be a hindrance n obstacle to your future?
but to what extent should u let these lessons not be a hindrance n obstacle to your future?
i feel horrible.
i am horrible.
i feel horrible.
ahhh. i just cancelled on someone last minute. i feel horrible. it's one of the few things that will haunt me for a long time to come. one of those things that dig a hole in ur heart n leave it empty. n u'll feel it everytime something similar comes along. one of those dreadful things that is as dreadful as wad i just did.
i feel horrible.
ahhh. i just cancelled on someone last minute. i feel horrible. it's one of the few things that will haunt me for a long time to come. one of those things that dig a hole in ur heart n leave it empty. n u'll feel it everytime something similar comes along. one of those dreadful things that is as dreadful as wad i just did.
Friday, June 23, 2006
yikes.
yikes. im getting the butterflies. got the butterflies yest and now im getting it. actually been having it for most of the day! tmr's a big day for me.
im happy. =)
im happy. =)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
a mixture of feelings.
i was actually sad when i filled in the knock-off time for the last session i met The Happy Puppetry Company. not because i'm officially jobless, but i just felt lost. we hung out so much everyday for so many days in a row, having all our meals together, gossiping, grumbling, toilet-ing even.. and just suddenly i have to make do without them.
the airport was the same when we reached to send them off. nothing looked different. except them. from strangers to acquaintances to friends. from the second i was told to recognise them by myself and i identified them correctly, went up to say hi and slowly broke the ice, it was time to send them off already. corny as it might sound, it really felt like yesterday i received them. and seconds ago when i sent them off.
小柯，小世，thanks for all the joy you've brought me over the past few days. im sure you've read what i wrote in the postcards!
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on another note, it's cool that even after analysing te situation im still able to live so simply. two more weeks it shall be.
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i felt like a good friend. =) not super close that i know all her friends, but good enough to be able to mingle fine between both groups and to help out. and be there for her, not for the sake of being there.
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im writing in chunks. so incoherent.
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well since jeza darling introed me to this chinese input website, im gonna type some chinese!
here goes.
回顾昨日爱亦深
心酸绕魂钻人泪
期盼明天情愈稠
美忆渗思给众乐
translation:
remembering the love of yesterday
the pains that recur bring tears.
hoping the friendship of tomorrow
the sweet memories that form will make us smile.
p/s:
written with an innocent heart
that sought to wrap up things nicely.
but i guess like ive said before,
times pass and people change.
things unravel themselves
and capture people unawares.
though it doesnt reflect the truth now
i guess i did write it before.
mention worthy.
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on a happier note, i cant be more contented with my present life.
it was a trip to the zoo with po after so many months of no zoo. or years. pics will only be up after old po gets the time to upload. no hurry though. and im not saying this because po's good with photoshop and can make me look horrendous before she sends the pictures over. anw my lions were feelin lazy so there werent good shots of them but we took tonnes of her white tigers.
then it was fir n ayda time!! after how long huh. but it was gooood. some stuff you're in danger of leakin leaks. and i dont have to safeguard certain stuff. n we talked of some people who intentionally leak stuff, to gain attention. sad case eh?
javen's birthday at sakae sushi! nice food great company. i really really have the sweetest friends i hope i deserve them. lin yen to pr javen, von to settle cake, zs n na to buy gifts. n when i felt so guilty i did nothing zs went "we know u were busy with arts fest." =)) where on earth do u find such friends?? it wasnt as if the rest were all free. i'll try to be a better friend! pics will be up after yen uploads too.
and really. a sunflower made my day. =) the friends i have make me smile every minute every second everyday.
the airport was the same when we reached to send them off. nothing looked different. except them. from strangers to acquaintances to friends. from the second i was told to recognise them by myself and i identified them correctly, went up to say hi and slowly broke the ice, it was time to send them off already. corny as it might sound, it really felt like yesterday i received them. and seconds ago when i sent them off.
小柯，小世，thanks for all the joy you've brought me over the past few days. im sure you've read what i wrote in the postcards!
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on another note, it's cool that even after analysing te situation im still able to live so simply. two more weeks it shall be.
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i felt like a good friend. =) not super close that i know all her friends, but good enough to be able to mingle fine between both groups and to help out. and be there for her, not for the sake of being there.
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im writing in chunks. so incoherent.
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well since jeza darling introed me to this chinese input website, im gonna type some chinese!
here goes.
回顾昨日爱亦深
心酸绕魂钻人泪
期盼明天情愈稠
美忆渗思给众乐
translation:
remembering the love of yesterday
the pains that recur bring tears.
hoping the friendship of tomorrow
the sweet memories that form will make us smile.
p/s:
written with an innocent heart
that sought to wrap up things nicely.
but i guess like ive said before,
times pass and people change.
things unravel themselves
and capture people unawares.
though it doesnt reflect the truth now
i guess i did write it before.
mention worthy.
---
on a happier note, i cant be more contented with my present life.
it was a trip to the zoo with po after so many months of no zoo. or years. pics will only be up after old po gets the time to upload. no hurry though. and im not saying this because po's good with photoshop and can make me look horrendous before she sends the pictures over. anw my lions were feelin lazy so there werent good shots of them but we took tonnes of her white tigers.
then it was fir n ayda time!! after how long huh. but it was gooood. some stuff you're in danger of leakin leaks. and i dont have to safeguard certain stuff. n we talked of some people who intentionally leak stuff, to gain attention. sad case eh?
javen's birthday at sakae sushi! nice food great company. i really really have the sweetest friends i hope i deserve them. lin yen to pr javen, von to settle cake, zs n na to buy gifts. n when i felt so guilty i did nothing zs went "we know u were busy with arts fest." =)) where on earth do u find such friends?? it wasnt as if the rest were all free. i'll try to be a better friend! pics will be up after yen uploads too.
and really. a sunflower made my day. =) the friends i have make me smile every minute every second everyday.
Friday, June 16, 2006
i live for adrenalin.
i was just thinkin'. :)
that maybe love is like sex.
sweet..
exciting..
makes you anticipate.
and you want so much to have it.
and it comes..
and it's good.
but it's draining.
and you're tired.
and then it's over.
and you need a break.
but you still pine for it after awhile.
'cos the feelin's good.
::yesterday::
im living the sweetest dreams.
another day in heaven. it's real. =) the simple joy and bliss that i am submerged in everyday. sometimes i wonder how i manage to live so many perfect one-days. and im grateful for all who has a part in making my perfect life so wonderful for me. and today it was xiao ke, xiao shi, ben, na, aud, wanfen, ali, po. and all the waitresses and taxi drivers and everyone.
the feeling of contentment is strange. its like you're full..and you dont need anymore. but more just come, and amazingly you're able to take it all in. i dont need more, but more's fine. i'm past that "if more means difference, i'm rejecting it" stage. =)=)
chilled out at mcCafe and the bridgers, please know youre missed. not really lepak session, but near enough. a conversation revealed that im not exactly the short n sweet person i thought i was. no, im still physically it, but not writing- and expression-wise. so many things affirmed my then belief..when people read my essays, when bro james said i could say all that's descriptive of lzr in one testimonial. but im not really that eh. how i take sentences n sentences and pictures n pictures to illustate wad im thinking. it's nothing to be ashamed of, of cos. it's just that i forgot everything's relative. in a world of intricate designs i am minimalist. but i could look a sculptor in a plasticine class.
and isnt it strange how we learn? how i, the IT idiot, have come to be able to tweak my blogskins, for example. starting out with the template, copying someone else's on blogskins.com, then editing, and finally creating my own language, differing from others' even in the simplest commands. is this a standard procedure?
::today::
woke up an hour after my alarm rang. but just three trips to and fro my mum's room and mine got me the clothes i wore to work. which was..a disgusting faded black polo tee. and the pro-camfis capris. forgot my cap so the hair was pokin in all directions. but anw i rushed to work and enjoyed myself tonnes. which made me wonder again abt my career path.
an sms came in last night from a fren who has trust enough in me to require my help for a show. and i agreed almost immediately. i hope the schedule and all fits. and im thinkin again. that maybe i would want to live the struggling artiste life. xiao ke and xiao shi were telling me what theyve been through and what others are going thru in their country. and i feel..it aint that bad after all. it's just relative. i dont know. i really miss that kinda life. the rushing for days on end not remembering why you're slogging but missing it for months afterwards.
oh. and i love life now. its really, really satisfying when you do just what you want to, and people recognise your efforts. and they feel you're capable and they want you to work on the next show. =) and they grumble to you how the rest are inefficient and incompetent. and you feel you've been through it before and those people dont know what the things they're not doing mean to you. because you just love what you're doing.
i love life.
and i love that tension in life.
the pushin of boundaries
the borderin on crossing
the anticipation
the triggers
the exciting
the wanting
to know.
the disappointment
the satisfaction
the want to impress
the thirst to progress
the pining
the thinking
of you.
quote of the day from the louser loved:
"since uve shown ur worst, theres only the better left."
that maybe love is like sex.
sweet..
exciting..
makes you anticipate.
and you want so much to have it.
and it comes..
and it's good.
but it's draining.
and you're tired.
and then it's over.
and you need a break.
but you still pine for it after awhile.
'cos the feelin's good.
::yesterday::
im living the sweetest dreams.
another day in heaven. it's real. =) the simple joy and bliss that i am submerged in everyday. sometimes i wonder how i manage to live so many perfect one-days. and im grateful for all who has a part in making my perfect life so wonderful for me. and today it was xiao ke, xiao shi, ben, na, aud, wanfen, ali, po. and all the waitresses and taxi drivers and everyone.
the feeling of contentment is strange. its like you're full..and you dont need anymore. but more just come, and amazingly you're able to take it all in. i dont need more, but more's fine. i'm past that "if more means difference, i'm rejecting it" stage. =)=)
chilled out at mcCafe and the bridgers, please know youre missed. not really lepak session, but near enough. a conversation revealed that im not exactly the short n sweet person i thought i was. no, im still physically it, but not writing- and expression-wise. so many things affirmed my then belief..when people read my essays, when bro james said i could say all that's descriptive of lzr in one testimonial. but im not really that eh. how i take sentences n sentences and pictures n pictures to illustate wad im thinking. it's nothing to be ashamed of, of cos. it's just that i forgot everything's relative. in a world of intricate designs i am minimalist. but i could look a sculptor in a plasticine class.
and isnt it strange how we learn? how i, the IT idiot, have come to be able to tweak my blogskins, for example. starting out with the template, copying someone else's on blogskins.com, then editing, and finally creating my own language, differing from others' even in the simplest commands. is this a standard procedure?
::today::
woke up an hour after my alarm rang. but just three trips to and fro my mum's room and mine got me the clothes i wore to work. which was..a disgusting faded black polo tee. and the pro-camfis capris. forgot my cap so the hair was pokin in all directions. but anw i rushed to work and enjoyed myself tonnes. which made me wonder again abt my career path.
an sms came in last night from a fren who has trust enough in me to require my help for a show. and i agreed almost immediately. i hope the schedule and all fits. and im thinkin again. that maybe i would want to live the struggling artiste life. xiao ke and xiao shi were telling me what theyve been through and what others are going thru in their country. and i feel..it aint that bad after all. it's just relative. i dont know. i really miss that kinda life. the rushing for days on end not remembering why you're slogging but missing it for months afterwards.
oh. and i love life now. its really, really satisfying when you do just what you want to, and people recognise your efforts. and they feel you're capable and they want you to work on the next show. =) and they grumble to you how the rest are inefficient and incompetent. and you feel you've been through it before and those people dont know what the things they're not doing mean to you. because you just love what you're doing.
i love life.
and i love that tension in life.
the pushin of boundaries
the borderin on crossing
the anticipation
the triggers
the exciting
the wanting
to know.
the disappointment
the satisfaction
the want to impress
the thirst to progress
the pining
the thinking
of you.
quote of the day from the louser loved:
"since uve shown ur worst, theres only the better left."
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
reluctance.
life felt like it had never been better. i was living in pure bliss and joy and simplicity everyday. even with the token bad incidents i felt i was living the perfect life. and im reluctant to say it's over. it's almost as if the magic would go away once i start feeling upset. i thought it did go away for two days when i felt rotten for those few moments. but i realised, just, that the happiness and contentment that i feel stem from the belief in those feelings. i dont feel a lack, i dont feel the need. i just feel that things are perfect as they are. for the past few days, i felt that i wanted them to stay. to not progress or deteriorate..to remain perfect. it was my reluctance to let go of this feeling. but just as im typing this, ive come to accept that this reluctance is indeed the very root of the destruction.
was walking towards the mrt station from tuition just now when i saw rozy. my goodness me. it was a surprise for both of us. i joined she n valane for dinner, and i hope i wasnt a nuisance. lane said something that might just be right. i havent thought abt things that way though. whether it's a form of recipocration. she didnt put it this way, but this is the gist. ive been feeling so happy the past few days and i attributed the feeling to you. and for a few moments i wanted the happiness that you feel to come from me. i dont know if it's just because i feel totally useless when i cant do anything for pple who have made me feel better, or whether i want to return the 'favour'. i dont even know if there's a difference between the two. but i figure that it doesnt matter. as long as you are happy. isnt it?
"the problem is not his. it is mine. i just have to get past myself first before i can do something."
was walking towards the mrt station from tuition just now when i saw rozy. my goodness me. it was a surprise for both of us. i joined she n valane for dinner, and i hope i wasnt a nuisance. lane said something that might just be right. i havent thought abt things that way though. whether it's a form of recipocration. she didnt put it this way, but this is the gist. ive been feeling so happy the past few days and i attributed the feeling to you. and for a few moments i wanted the happiness that you feel to come from me. i dont know if it's just because i feel totally useless when i cant do anything for pple who have made me feel better, or whether i want to return the 'favour'. i dont even know if there's a difference between the two. but i figure that it doesnt matter. as long as you are happy. isnt it?
"the problem is not his. it is mine. i just have to get past myself first before i can do something."
Friday, June 9, 2006
im elmo!
| You Are Elmo |
 Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!" |
i feel very happy.
despite the lack of sleep, i was in my best mood yesterday. all smiles and happy thoughts. woke up smiling, gave one fierce tuition n one happy one with a short walk afterwards with my fave student talking about comics and tenji.
got my haircut! i love having my hair cut. the miracle of seeing long strands of hair fallin off onto the strange ticklish thing hairdressers make u wear, not knowing u grew it out so long already. marvelling at how ur hair looks alive again with less weight and feeling all new n refreshed. would have procrastinated again if po didnt book the appointment, bring me down herself n sat there waiting. thanks po. plus the hairdresser was cute.
anyway. rushed to buy flowers n cabbed down to esplanade thinkin id treat po to a musical in which i know the director n most of the cast personally, i was to be disappointed by the full house notice. which is a good thing really. for the performers =). dinner at glutton square n saw a lovely shanghainese baby! if only i had a camera. those curious eyes and that innocent sincere smile. ayda n i sent po off n went shop-a-holing with ayda claiming three good buys. rushed back to give the dearies hugs and flowers - i know u did a good job guys! love. dwayne, e, fir, fads, lane, trey, anjana, shiying, ..!
matched the relaxing mood of chillin out at a coffee joint with the excitement of worldcup at bugis, makin silly bets with ayda and reading i.s. during halftime. i love my life.
but the throat gave a prob again, maybe like ayda said- it's the cold. but i couldnt utter a single word this morning n i threw a tantrum cos i was really scared. i made gurgling noises n signed frantically n went to see the doc. cute doc, expensive medicine with prescriptions i would have given myself. at least i know im not going mute.
all's good anyway and i love my life.
got my haircut! i love having my hair cut. the miracle of seeing long strands of hair fallin off onto the strange ticklish thing hairdressers make u wear, not knowing u grew it out so long already. marvelling at how ur hair looks alive again with less weight and feeling all new n refreshed. would have procrastinated again if po didnt book the appointment, bring me down herself n sat there waiting. thanks po. plus the hairdresser was cute.
anyway. rushed to buy flowers n cabbed down to esplanade thinkin id treat po to a musical in which i know the director n most of the cast personally, i was to be disappointed by the full house notice. which is a good thing really. for the performers =). dinner at glutton square n saw a lovely shanghainese baby! if only i had a camera. those curious eyes and that innocent sincere smile. ayda n i sent po off n went shop-a-holing with ayda claiming three good buys. rushed back to give the dearies hugs and flowers - i know u did a good job guys! love. dwayne, e, fir, fads, lane, trey, anjana, shiying, ..!
matched the relaxing mood of chillin out at a coffee joint with the excitement of worldcup at bugis, makin silly bets with ayda and reading i.s. during halftime. i love my life.
but the throat gave a prob again, maybe like ayda said- it's the cold. but i couldnt utter a single word this morning n i threw a tantrum cos i was really scared. i made gurgling noises n signed frantically n went to see the doc. cute doc, expensive medicine with prescriptions i would have given myself. at least i know im not going mute.
all's good anyway and i love my life.
Wednesday, June 7, 2006
i feel so unloved.
i had to cancel two tuition in the morning n while i waited to feel better, the two students with whom ive arrange tuition in the afternoon called to cancel. great! at least i dont have to feel worse about fallin sick.
but what's really, really, really bad is that i have to scream to make myself heard. and even then, people can my words dramatically wrong.
but what's really, really, really bad is that i have to scream to make myself heard. and even then, people can my words dramatically wrong.
Monday, June 5, 2006
i feel terrible.
slept around 1030pm last night..which is quite a record for me. my head was heavy and my world was spinning. yet i hung the clothes up to dry. woke up around 1230am cos i couldnt take the pain. got two tablets from my sis n downed it with water. woke up the whole night in intervals of two hours. and when i woke up this morning my fever went down by 1.2degrees. left with the slightest of fevers.
and i got the following ripped off from turqoise's blog.
the tarot card one is amazing! i doubted it cos it was just a name entering thing..but omg. it says exactly what ive been tattooing on myself. in order not to forget. cool.
and i got the following ripped off from turqoise's blog.
| Your Love Life Secrets Are |
 Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. |
| You Are The Hanging Man |
 You represent the seeking of enlightenment and spiritual clarity. You tend to confuse others, but your oddities seem deeply satisfying. Self sacrifice is easy for you, especially if it makes you a better person in the end. You are the type of person who is very in touch with your soul and inner spirit. Your fortune: Right now is a good time for reflection and meditation. You should stop resisting the problems in your life, and let yourself be vulnerable to them. You may need to sacrifice something important to you to move ahead in your life. Accept your destiny with courage, and learn to let go of what you think you need. |
the tarot card one is amazing! i doubted it cos it was just a name entering thing..but omg. it says exactly what ive been tattooing on myself. in order not to forget. cool.
Sunday, June 4, 2006
ive run out of ribena.
i sounded so evil in the prev post. but really. i might still be able to smile at you after you empty a bucket of shit over me but not when you do it to people i respect and/or love. especially when i think you're just a piece of what's in the bucket itself. now i sound bitchy.
I GOT BLAAZE'S AUTOGRAPH! hahah. my fave rapper. who doesnt cut albums n only does live concerts. but heard he did an mtv with coco lee. HE BEAMED AT ME!
anyway, i bumped into the barricade and got myself this portruding blueblack the size of a fist. the fist of a baby. i cant figure whether it's a good or a bad thing i dont own a camera. i would have taken a picture WITH Blaaze and one of the blueblack - which wouldnt exactly make me the most popular girl.
maybe ive been pre-menstrual thats why ive been experiencing bouts of reminiscence. but this sure doesnt feel like it. ive been happy for as long as i remember! no needy feeling. crushes are a given la.
i miss ayda and fir!
and ive run out of ribena.
I GOT BLAAZE'S AUTOGRAPH! hahah. my fave rapper. who doesnt cut albums n only does live concerts. but heard he did an mtv with coco lee. HE BEAMED AT ME!
anyway, i bumped into the barricade and got myself this portruding blueblack the size of a fist. the fist of a baby. i cant figure whether it's a good or a bad thing i dont own a camera. i would have taken a picture WITH Blaaze and one of the blueblack - which wouldnt exactly make me the most popular girl.
maybe ive been pre-menstrual thats why ive been experiencing bouts of reminiscence. but this sure doesnt feel like it. ive been happy for as long as i remember! no needy feeling. crushes are a given la.
i miss ayda and fir!
and ive run out of ribena.
Saturday, June 3, 2006
happenings.
started 'work' last evening, and this interesting episode happened:
to stall time while the band gets ready for the next number, the lead singer entertained the crowd. without thinking, he said, "come back again tomorrow, i'll give you one of the girls (meaning one of the dancers)." and the crowd cheered. the dancers were stretching by the side of the stage (full dress rehearsal) and didnt respond to the announcement. i thought the patriarchial element was rooted in their culture.. but minutes later, i witnessed the confrontation between a dancer n another guy, furiously pointing to the stage and the crowd, muttering angry words albeit softly offstage. and the message was conveyed to the lead singer, who apologised furiously to the crowd for what he said before.
i guess these slighting comments never apply to guys because they're not so wanted. or, so not wanted.
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so many events of the past have come back to me recently. its amazing how things change, how feelings change. what does "the one" mean to you? have you found a concretization for it? what does rejection mean to you? how do you reject someone - by assuming you know whats good for the person? i find certain things amusing simply cos ive been through it and the actions so obviously convey your intentions. and i find myself amusing cos i used to keep falling for the same old traditional tricks - those that make use of people's trust in you. and i know a master of such tricks. let me recall some of the tricks.
crash course to trickery 1101.
1. establish yourself as putting up a strong front - and make it obvious that it is just a front.
2. appear to have been through turmoils in life, such that you are jaded and weak from the inside.
3. inform the victim that you have been most fortunate you feel most fortunate to have her/him.
4. begin to monopolise your right over victim, occasionally bringing jealousy into the pic.
5. act nonchalant at times so that it washes over the jealousy, making you look like you're trying not to care.
and there. you have succeeded in portraying yourself as a weak being trying to put on a brave front so noone sees it, struggling and needing your victim. this effectively creates a void in said victim, and arouses the innate want to care and look after people, at the same time feeding the need to feel needed. perfect.
oh and of course, the prerequisites for the course.
1. a poker face
2. a theatre company within yourself so you can act, set the mise-en-scene, control technical effects, stage manage and most importantly, direct your victim.
to stall time while the band gets ready for the next number, the lead singer entertained the crowd. without thinking, he said, "come back again tomorrow, i'll give you one of the girls (meaning one of the dancers)." and the crowd cheered. the dancers were stretching by the side of the stage (full dress rehearsal) and didnt respond to the announcement. i thought the patriarchial element was rooted in their culture.. but minutes later, i witnessed the confrontation between a dancer n another guy, furiously pointing to the stage and the crowd, muttering angry words albeit softly offstage. and the message was conveyed to the lead singer, who apologised furiously to the crowd for what he said before.
i guess these slighting comments never apply to guys because they're not so wanted. or, so not wanted.
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so many events of the past have come back to me recently. its amazing how things change, how feelings change. what does "the one" mean to you? have you found a concretization for it? what does rejection mean to you? how do you reject someone - by assuming you know whats good for the person? i find certain things amusing simply cos ive been through it and the actions so obviously convey your intentions. and i find myself amusing cos i used to keep falling for the same old traditional tricks - those that make use of people's trust in you. and i know a master of such tricks. let me recall some of the tricks.
crash course to trickery 1101.
1. establish yourself as putting up a strong front - and make it obvious that it is just a front.
2. appear to have been through turmoils in life, such that you are jaded and weak from the inside.
3. inform the victim that you have been most fortunate you feel most fortunate to have her/him.
4. begin to monopolise your right over victim, occasionally bringing jealousy into the pic.
5. act nonchalant at times so that it washes over the jealousy, making you look like you're trying not to care.
and there. you have succeeded in portraying yourself as a weak being trying to put on a brave front so noone sees it, struggling and needing your victim. this effectively creates a void in said victim, and arouses the innate want to care and look after people, at the same time feeding the need to feel needed. perfect.
oh and of course, the prerequisites for the course.
1. a poker face
2. a theatre company within yourself so you can act, set the mise-en-scene, control technical effects, stage manage and most importantly, direct your victim.
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
ashamed.
rather than say im inspired to change my blog layout, im ashamed. of the cobwebbed layout. and it's really out of sight out of mind when it comes to you, but gawd trust me its that bad when u come into sight! ur literary fluency and creativity. and the pangs of 'aieya wasted' that course thru my body when i recall how we parted years ago.
ahhhhhhh!
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oh ya. of cos. i came to say im updating my blog layout! =)=)=)
ahhhhhhh!
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oh ya. of cos. i came to say im updating my blog layout! =)=)=)
let go. of needing.. jo.
it's so easy to do what i do -- but so tough to accept my actions. just as how it's so easy to say i'll let go of needing you but so difficult to remember it.
jo, stop obsessing over the tiniest addition to the profile -- well it aint that small an addition actually. maybe im masochistic in nature. "let go of needing. let go of needin."
woke up with a grunt n a bloated face, which gradually took the shape of a smile when there was a good morning message. i love a morning message - it gets my teeth ready for brushing. acts as a reminder that im waking up to yet another day filled with love for me, love abundant as the air we breathe in.
pack up yesterday's memories and lock them in your heart. create prettier ones for today and let not history stop you from living the future.
tried to see him in my fellows and well, i sure did better than i did before =). reacted to a challenge diplomatically -- no spite, no want. stoned and spaced out abit due to the lack of sleep, and tried to drink tonnes of water to refresh my system. a good scrub at the end of the day proved most efficient, with a nice body bath to soothe.
"are there not twelve hours in the day? if anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world."
im incoherent again. just as i saw heels i liked but bought sweets.
goodnight world. =)
tomorrow.
jo, stop obsessing over the tiniest addition to the profile -- well it aint that small an addition actually. maybe im masochistic in nature. "let go of needing. let go of needin."
woke up with a grunt n a bloated face, which gradually took the shape of a smile when there was a good morning message. i love a morning message - it gets my teeth ready for brushing. acts as a reminder that im waking up to yet another day filled with love for me, love abundant as the air we breathe in.
pack up yesterday's memories and lock them in your heart. create prettier ones for today and let not history stop you from living the future.
tried to see him in my fellows and well, i sure did better than i did before =). reacted to a challenge diplomatically -- no spite, no want. stoned and spaced out abit due to the lack of sleep, and tried to drink tonnes of water to refresh my system. a good scrub at the end of the day proved most efficient, with a nice body bath to soothe.
"are there not twelve hours in the day? if anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world."
im incoherent again. just as i saw heels i liked but bought sweets.
goodnight world. =)
tomorrow.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
oh help.
argh i got myself into this mess.
yan. ur fault!
kris. helppp.
whined and pined almost the whole day today,
had tuition, and went out!
met kris finally since a few weeks ago
and andru! and her cousin n fren.
then these three teenagers joined us
and i just felt young all over again.
kris n i were the oldest there
and it feels strange not to be the youngest.
was whining double when i checked my hp
and recalled the schedule i lined up for myself tmr.
no time to do wad i wanna do.
but He saved me from that sorrow.
He sent her to me. =)
yan. ur fault!
kris. helppp.
whined and pined almost the whole day today,
had tuition, and went out!
met kris finally since a few weeks ago
and andru! and her cousin n fren.
then these three teenagers joined us
and i just felt young all over again.
kris n i were the oldest there
and it feels strange not to be the youngest.
was whining double when i checked my hp
and recalled the schedule i lined up for myself tmr.
no time to do wad i wanna do.
but He saved me from that sorrow.
He sent her to me. =)
Monday, May 29, 2006
the lack of words.
i feel like shakespeare in Shakespeare in Love. i have no muse at all..and maybe i just need a summer romance.
i decided to pack my room - which has bags and luggages strewn all over the floor, bed, table and chair. and i started with my wardrobe! so i can close the doors of my wardrobe properly now. plus it's all clean, neat and user-friendly. in the process of packing, i recovered a few pieces of missing clothes and pretty tops and skirts that i forgot i owned. but i still havent found the top i suspect my mom threw away cos it was too lowcut.
but i still have no space for the hanging chair i bought from ikea at a steal last year. and no nice cabinet to stuff my bags and the bedsheets and blankets and pillows i bought for hallstay. but at least i did something.
for one and a half weeks, i went back to the unhealthy life of a coward - i skipped gym. i put on 2kg, feel obese, and yet i had the cheek to stuff myself with homemade macaroni and cheese. what in my hen pen happened to the jogging routines i promised myself? and it was not until i saw this fridae profile of a girl made pretty purely by her self-discipline to keep herself slim that i recalled the blubber i wear over my skeleton.
self-discipline please, you sloth of a jo.
i decided to pack my room - which has bags and luggages strewn all over the floor, bed, table and chair. and i started with my wardrobe! so i can close the doors of my wardrobe properly now. plus it's all clean, neat and user-friendly. in the process of packing, i recovered a few pieces of missing clothes and pretty tops and skirts that i forgot i owned. but i still havent found the top i suspect my mom threw away cos it was too lowcut.
but i still have no space for the hanging chair i bought from ikea at a steal last year. and no nice cabinet to stuff my bags and the bedsheets and blankets and pillows i bought for hallstay. but at least i did something.
for one and a half weeks, i went back to the unhealthy life of a coward - i skipped gym. i put on 2kg, feel obese, and yet i had the cheek to stuff myself with homemade macaroni and cheese. what in my hen pen happened to the jogging routines i promised myself? and it was not until i saw this fridae profile of a girl made pretty purely by her self-discipline to keep herself slim that i recalled the blubber i wear over my skeleton.
self-discipline please, you sloth of a jo.
Saturday, May 27, 2006
oh wow.
this describes me the way i feel.
im not that sociable, see?
this describes me the way i feel.
| You Are 65% Addicted to Love |
 Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love. But you're not really getting the deep love you seek. Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style. Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want. |
| Your Hidden Talent |
 You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there. |
im not that sociable, see?
| Your Extroversion Profile: |
| Assertiveness: Very High |
| Cheerfulness: Very High |
| Activity Level: High |
| Excitement Seeking: High |
| Friendliness: High |
| Sociability: Medium |
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
im alive again!
after sleepless nights tossing in the bed,
books and doses of jamie oliver,
ive got my comp back.
and of course the hero's the same one again. =)
i love him.
watched da vinci code today,
and unlike my prev movie review shits,
today's review is cowstool.
total cowstool.
cos i felt the urge to pee real bad
after halfway thru.
and im too overwhelmed by the sudden technology in my life.
wait a minute..
is anyone still readin? =)
books and doses of jamie oliver,
ive got my comp back.
and of course the hero's the same one again. =)
i love him.
watched da vinci code today,
and unlike my prev movie review shits,
today's review is cowstool.
total cowstool.
cos i felt the urge to pee real bad
after halfway thru.
and im too overwhelmed by the sudden technology in my life.
wait a minute..
is anyone still readin? =)
Monday, May 22, 2006
a lil' low on tolerance level
was tellin fir n ayda the other day
that ive been running low on tolerance level.
and..i cant be bothered to pretend much.
even though after a bit of training from j n e,
i dont suck at it much anymore.
a conversation that illustrates my point.
after hearing some negative grumbling n a bit of a confession,
me: what's wrong with you? on depressants or what?
him: no im not on anything, not even alcohol. i think my fren is though.
me: uh. thats not what i meant. get over it already. im turning in.
him: dont worry, ive managed to curb my feelings for you.
and i didnt even bother to reply.
omg help.
the epitome of communication breakdown.
wait. not even.
two pple of different wavelengths pretending to talk to each other.
thats it.
that ive been running low on tolerance level.
and..i cant be bothered to pretend much.
even though after a bit of training from j n e,
i dont suck at it much anymore.
a conversation that illustrates my point.
after hearing some negative grumbling n a bit of a confession,
me: what's wrong with you? on depressants or what?
him: no im not on anything, not even alcohol. i think my fren is though.
me: uh. thats not what i meant. get over it already. im turning in.
him: dont worry, ive managed to curb my feelings for you.
and i didnt even bother to reply.
omg help.
the epitome of communication breakdown.
wait. not even.
two pple of different wavelengths pretending to talk to each other.
thats it.
Thursday, May 11, 2006
um.
someone ask me why.
why its been so long since i got my freedom
yet i havent been online much
i havent changed my blog skin
i havent switched to livejournal
i havent started sleeping in the wee hours of the morning.
MY COMPUTER'S DOWN.
it cant be on-ed.
that's the problem.
and i dont know why i cant solve such a simple problem.
and i feel lazy.
i dont want to learn puerto rico.
so im typing away at zs's computer
while the rest of the beloved crowd around the bed.
to play the game la.
and when i finally get to use the internet,
nothing seems to be fun leh.
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now for the real updates.
ive had SOOOO MUCH FUN!
been hanging out with kris
during the exams.
celebrated her birthday at the red club
and i honestly felt it.
im straight.
from, i quote feng,
the top of my scalp to the tip of my toes.
it was a monks remake
and of course i saw the unwanted people.
but most of the time,
i just sipped at the drinks i ordered at the bar,
smsing for help.
but it was monksy.
madmonksy.
had a ball of a time at thumpers with kimmy n lynn.
danced til i rained.
and if u club with me u know how little i usually dance.
did supper with eleine fir issy audrey n yirang.
oh man. it was just coffee.
or iced water actually.
and it was sweet.
im lookin forward to high tea.
came out with yz aud na n zs.
damn nice catching up.
n the programmers.
=) theyre the pride of my life.
the best thing i ever got.
and when i contrast that with this particular friendship,
i um. feel fake.
fir knows how i feel. help.
ive become so good at it i feel like that person.
i need to jog.
well..im having fun!!
why its been so long since i got my freedom
yet i havent been online much
i havent changed my blog skin
i havent switched to livejournal
i havent started sleeping in the wee hours of the morning.
MY COMPUTER'S DOWN.
it cant be on-ed.
that's the problem.
and i dont know why i cant solve such a simple problem.
and i feel lazy.
i dont want to learn puerto rico.
so im typing away at zs's computer
while the rest of the beloved crowd around the bed.
to play the game la.
and when i finally get to use the internet,
nothing seems to be fun leh.
---
now for the real updates.
ive had SOOOO MUCH FUN!
been hanging out with kris
during the exams.
celebrated her birthday at the red club
and i honestly felt it.
im straight.
from, i quote feng,
the top of my scalp to the tip of my toes.
it was a monks remake
and of course i saw the unwanted people.
but most of the time,
i just sipped at the drinks i ordered at the bar,
smsing for help.
but it was monksy.
madmonksy.
had a ball of a time at thumpers with kimmy n lynn.
danced til i rained.
and if u club with me u know how little i usually dance.
did supper with eleine fir issy audrey n yirang.
oh man. it was just coffee.
or iced water actually.
and it was sweet.
im lookin forward to high tea.
came out with yz aud na n zs.
damn nice catching up.
n the programmers.
=) theyre the pride of my life.
the best thing i ever got.
and when i contrast that with this particular friendship,
i um. feel fake.
fir knows how i feel. help.
ive become so good at it i feel like that person.
i need to jog.
well..im having fun!!
Wednesday, May 3, 2006
love is in the air
early mornin n im soaked in bliss.
happiness felt for my friends!!
awwww.
my monkey of a friend in kl now
and jeza&ellen!!
saw ellen's photo with jeza on fridae
n read her diary thingy.
how schweet la! =)
and the monkey of a fren..
im sooo happy for your simple love.
my next relationship will be simple n fun too!
the world's in love!
i love this feeling.
happiness felt for my friends!!
awwww.
my monkey of a friend in kl now
and jeza&ellen!!
saw ellen's photo with jeza on fridae
n read her diary thingy.
how schweet la! =)
and the monkey of a fren..
im sooo happy for your simple love.
my next relationship will be simple n fun too!
the world's in love!
i love this feeling.
Tuesday, May 2, 2006
fun!
maybe it was the alcohol
maybe it was the music
maybe it was who was there
or maybe,
um, well, just a possibility,
it might have been the company =)
let's do it again!
even though we're old and useless
and spent more time at supper than in the club.
and someone opened a bottle of vodka outside 7e
but didnt drink a sip.
and i refused to finish my free housepour.
we are old.
the tide is high but im holdin' on..
im gonna be your number one.
im not the kinda girl
who gives up just like that..
oh no!
::edit::
and by order of the empress herself
ive updated yan's blog link!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
from jezamine
Ten Top Trivia Tips about Shiyun!
- Shiyun is often used in place of milk in food photography, because milk goes soggy more quickly than shiyun.
- Worldwide, shiyun is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects.
- The pupil of an octopus's eye is shaped like shiyun!
- Shiyun once came third in a Charlie Chaplin lookalike contest.
- Shiyun is the smallest of Jupiter's many moons.
- Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and shiyun has 7!
- It's bad luck to put shiyun on a bed!
- Shiyun will often glow under UV light!
- Half a cup of shiyun contains only seventeen calories.
- If you kiss shiyun for one minute you will burn six or seven calories!
kiss me! =)
the child and the merry-go-round
when i was little, i lived near an amusement park. as most children do, i had a particular station that i went to the most. every night after the amusement park is closed, i would sneak inside and run to the merry-go-round with all the pretty horses. even in the darkness, i wasn't scared beside the horses. weird, but i felt a kind of connection. i would tell the horses my deepest fear and darkest secrets.
my friends loved to go to the amusement park. almost every weekend, we would visit it once. i remember in the earlier visits, we would all ride on the horses together, but as we went more often, we grew out of it. and i dont ride on it either. "jamie, do you want to ride that horse? you could just go ahead." "no! i dont even like it. it's childish." i stopped going every night. there came a time i stopped going altogether. but i would always return after a short time.
once, my family decided to go to the amusement park together, with all my little cousins. "jamie jamie, is the merry-go-round fun?" little beatrice asked. "yes bea, it's loads of fun. just go ahead, i'll wait for you here." my mother smiled at me and said, "why don't you go on and ride the horses with beatrice? i've seen you looking at it. i know you're still a child at heart." "looking at it doesn't mean i like it ok? you can't just jump to conclusions like that. even if i do like it, it doesnt mean im childish. maybe i'll just go and sit and be a kid, whatever."
i stopped going to the horses again. for a week. the following week, the amusement park was closed down, and the notice indicated that it would be torn down. only then, i realised it had been a long time since i rode it while it could move in the day. and i won't have the chance again.
my friends loved to go to the amusement park. almost every weekend, we would visit it once. i remember in the earlier visits, we would all ride on the horses together, but as we went more often, we grew out of it. and i dont ride on it either. "jamie, do you want to ride that horse? you could just go ahead." "no! i dont even like it. it's childish." i stopped going every night. there came a time i stopped going altogether. but i would always return after a short time.
once, my family decided to go to the amusement park together, with all my little cousins. "jamie jamie, is the merry-go-round fun?" little beatrice asked. "yes bea, it's loads of fun. just go ahead, i'll wait for you here." my mother smiled at me and said, "why don't you go on and ride the horses with beatrice? i've seen you looking at it. i know you're still a child at heart." "looking at it doesn't mean i like it ok? you can't just jump to conclusions like that. even if i do like it, it doesnt mean im childish. maybe i'll just go and sit and be a kid, whatever."
i stopped going to the horses again. for a week. the following week, the amusement park was closed down, and the notice indicated that it would be torn down. only then, i realised it had been a long time since i rode it while it could move in the day. and i won't have the chance again.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Your test results indicate that the way you process information makes you an Intuitive Interpreter.
You are a highly conceptual thinker. This means that you like to seek the underlying meaning rather than get mired in the facts and figures. Because of your approach, you're more inclined to get a broad understanding of what's going on, enabling you to make connections between something you learned three weeks ago, and something you are learning today. While other people may need those types of connections to be pointed out for them you just naturally make them.
You do not need to analyze all the details of any given situation because your ability to see the 'big picture' gives you all the information you'd ever want. You are less inclined to walk through something step by step to get the logic or the meaning behind it — the gist of it is probably already clear to you without the in-depth examination. You'd rather not get bogged down in numbers or the particulars of how something is worded as the details seem meaningless to you.
Here's an example of your Intuitive Interpreter thinking skills at work in a real-life situation:
You are with a friend who is shopping for a car. The salesperson is presenting facts and figures and your friend is buying it hook, line, and sinker. You are noticing, however, the things that the salesperson isn't saying. Intuitively, you know that one of the biggest overall concerns when buying a car is safety and in your opinion this salesperson seems to be going out of his way to avoid talking about it. You take your friend aside and point out your concerns, and when your friend asks about the safety of the car, the salesperson again deftly avoids the subject. You later look up the car in Consumer Reports and find that, indeed, the car has poor safety ratings. Your friend is grateful you went with him on his car-shopping venture.
which i feel is quite true cos i think all the stuff i learn is connected =\.
u mean its just the way i process things??
wad a dissapointment.
You are a highly conceptual thinker. This means that you like to seek the underlying meaning rather than get mired in the facts and figures. Because of your approach, you're more inclined to get a broad understanding of what's going on, enabling you to make connections between something you learned three weeks ago, and something you are learning today. While other people may need those types of connections to be pointed out for them you just naturally make them.
You do not need to analyze all the details of any given situation because your ability to see the 'big picture' gives you all the information you'd ever want. You are less inclined to walk through something step by step to get the logic or the meaning behind it — the gist of it is probably already clear to you without the in-depth examination. You'd rather not get bogged down in numbers or the particulars of how something is worded as the details seem meaningless to you.
Here's an example of your Intuitive Interpreter thinking skills at work in a real-life situation:
You are with a friend who is shopping for a car. The salesperson is presenting facts and figures and your friend is buying it hook, line, and sinker. You are noticing, however, the things that the salesperson isn't saying. Intuitively, you know that one of the biggest overall concerns when buying a car is safety and in your opinion this salesperson seems to be going out of his way to avoid talking about it. You take your friend aside and point out your concerns, and when your friend asks about the safety of the car, the salesperson again deftly avoids the subject. You later look up the car in Consumer Reports and find that, indeed, the car has poor safety ratings. Your friend is grateful you went with him on his car-shopping venture.
which i feel is quite true cos i think all the stuff i learn is connected =\.
u mean its just the way i process things??
wad a dissapointment.
another tag thing.
got this from shuhui n just wanna do it for fun!
finished my first paper le ma.
here goes!
Bold for true statements, italics for things that u wish for
i miss somebody right now.
i don’t watch tv these days.
i own lots of books.
i wear glasses or contact lenses.
i love to play video games.
i’ve tried marijuana.
i have been in a threesome.
i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
i believe honesty is usually the best policy.
i curse sometimes.
i have changed mentally a lot over the last year.
i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
i’m TOTALLY smart.
i’ve broken someone’s bones.
i’m paranoid sometimes.
i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
i need money right now.
i love sushi.
i talk really, really fast.
i have long hair.
i have lost money in Las Vegas.
i have at least one sibling.
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn’t survive without caller id.
i like the way i look.
i am usually pessimistic.
i have a lot of mood swings.
i have a hidden talent.
i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
i have a lot of friends.
i am currently single!
i have pecked someone of the same sex.
i enjoy talking on the phone.
i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
i love to shop.
i enjoy window shopping.
i would rather shop than eat.
i don’t hate anyone. i dislike them.
i’m a pretty good dancer.
i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
i have a cell phone.
i believe in God.
i watch mtv on a daily basis.
i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
i’ve rejected someone before.
i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
i want to have children in the future.
i have changed a diaper before.
i’ve called the cops on a friend before.
i’m not allergic to anything.
i have a lot to learn.
i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
i am shy around the opposite sex.
i have tried alcohol before.
i have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
i own the “South Park” movie.
i would die for my best friends.
i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
i have dated a close friend’s ex.
i am happy at this moment!
i’m obsessed withguys the whole world.
Democrat.
i am punk rockish.
i am preppy.
i study for tests most of the time.
i tie my shoelaces differently from anyone else i’ve ever met.
i can work on a car.
i love my job.
i am comfortable with who i am right now.
i have more than just my ears pierced.
i walk barefoot whenever i can.
i have jumped off a bridge.
i love sea turtles.
i spend ridiculous money on makeup.
i plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
i’m proficient in a musical instrument.
i worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
i hate office jobs.
i love sci-fi movies.
i think water rules!!
i went college out of state.
i like sausages.
i love kisses.
i fall for the worst people.
i adore bright colours.
i can’t live without black eyeliner.
i don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
i usually like covers better than originals.
i can pick things up with my toes.
i can’t whistle.
i can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
i have ridden/owned a horse.
i still have every journal i’ve ever written in.
i can’t stick to a diet.
i talk in my sleep.
i try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
i have jazz in my blood.
i wear a toe ring.
i have a tattoo.
i can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
i am a caffeine junkie.
i cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
i have been to over 15 conventions.
i will collect anything, the more nonsensical, the better.
i’m an (struggling) artist(e).
i only clean my room when necessary.
i like a person of the same sex.
i love being happy.
i am an adrenaline junkie.
finished my first paper le ma.
here goes!
Bold for true statements, italics for things that u wish for
i miss somebody right now.
i don’t watch tv these days.
i own lots of books.
i wear glasses or contact lenses.
i love to play video games.
i’ve tried marijuana.
i have been in a threesome.
i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
i believe honesty is usually the best policy.
i curse sometimes.
i have changed mentally a lot over the last year.
i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
i’m TOTALLY smart.
i’ve broken someone’s bones.
i’m paranoid sometimes.
i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
i need money right now.
i love sushi.
i talk really, really fast.
i have long hair.
i have lost money in Las Vegas.
i have at least one sibling.
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn’t survive without caller id.
i like the way i look.
i am usually pessimistic.
i have a lot of mood swings.
i have a hidden talent.
i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
i have a lot of friends.
i am currently single!
i have pecked someone of the same sex.
i enjoy talking on the phone.
i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
i love to shop.
i enjoy window shopping.
i would rather shop than eat.
i don’t hate anyone. i dislike them.
i’m a pretty good dancer.
i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
i have a cell phone.
i believe in God.
i watch mtv on a daily basis.
i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
i’ve rejected someone before.
i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
i want to have children in the future.
i have changed a diaper before.
i’ve called the cops on a friend before.
i’m not allergic to anything.
i have a lot to learn.
i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
i am shy around the opposite sex.
i have tried alcohol before.
i have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
i own the “South Park” movie.
i would die for my best friends.
i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
i have dated a close friend’s ex.
i am happy at this moment!
i’m obsessed with
Democrat.
i am punk rockish.
i am preppy.
i study for tests most of the time.
i tie my shoelaces differently from anyone else i’ve ever met.
i can work on a car.
i love my job.
i am comfortable with who i am right now.
i have more than just my ears pierced.
i walk barefoot whenever i can.
i have jumped off a bridge.
i love sea turtles.
i spend ridiculous money on makeup.
i plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
i’m proficient in a musical instrument.
i worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
i hate office jobs.
i love sci-fi movies.
i think water rules!!
i went college out of state.
i like sausages.
i love kisses.
i fall for the worst people.
i adore bright colours.
i can’t live without black eyeliner.
i don’t know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
i usually like covers better than originals.
i can pick things up with my toes.
i can’t whistle.
i can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
i have ridden/owned a horse.
i still have every journal i’ve ever written in.
i can’t stick to a diet.
i talk in my sleep.
i try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
i have jazz in my blood.
i wear a toe ring.
i have a tattoo.
i can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
i am a caffeine junkie.
i cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
i have been to over 15 conventions.
i will collect anything, the more nonsensical, the better.
i’m a
i only clean my room when necessary.
i like a person of the same sex.
i love being happy.
i am an adrenaline junkie.
i love results!
i always get a rush when im gonna get results.
not too bad for a four-hour effort on you-know-who's paper!
and average for a two-hour effort on another.
anddd. heh.
i just found out two pple linked me,
and im linkin them back - jc frens! =)
anddd.
someone searched "chinawoman" and came to my blog.
i ever blogged abt it?
andddddddd.
someone searched for "dwayne lau" and came to my blog.
hahahhaaaa.
not too bad for a four-hour effort on you-know-who's paper!
and average for a two-hour effort on another.
anddd. heh.
i just found out two pple linked me,
and im linkin them back - jc frens! =)
anddd.
someone searched "chinawoman" and came to my blog.
i ever blogged abt it?
andddddddd.
someone searched for "dwayne lau" and came to my blog.
hahahhaaaa.
love, love... it's all around you!
The Five Love Languages
My primary love language is probablyPhysical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.
Complete set of results
| Physical Touch: | 10 | |
| Words of Affirmation: | 7 | |
| Acts of Service: | 5 | |
| Quality Time: | 5 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 3 |
Information
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.Take the quiz
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
shiokness is...
shiokness is...
bakin in the sun til ur cheeks get pink
bathin in the sea til ur hands wrinkle up
rollin in the sand til it gets in ur pants
- the sun, the sand and the sea,
makes a very very happy me. =)
shiokness is...
having regrets of not having enough frens
who understand wad you love
and why ure busy as you are
all swept away!
when two people call u up during tuition
get the address of your kid
drive over
wait at the carpark for you to finish class
drive around the area to pick up
the rest of your favourite people
just for a chit chat over supper.
shiokness is...
one hour on the treadmill
a ten kil run.
shiokness is...
a fifteen minute nap that recharges you
like a two hour one would.
shiokness is...
stepping into an empty cabin on the train
and being able to fall soundly asleep easily
anytime.
shiokness is...
wakin up from your nap at the correct stop.
shiokness is...
feeling ur lousy creaky joints ache
from the wonderful workout
and knowing youre gonna torture yourself with more
tomorrow!
shiokness is... what ive been feeling now everyday.
and thanks babes for making it happen for me.
i love you!
bakin in the sun til ur cheeks get pink
bathin in the sea til ur hands wrinkle up
rollin in the sand til it gets in ur pants
- the sun, the sand and the sea,
makes a very very happy me. =)
shiokness is...
having regrets of not having enough frens
who understand wad you love
and why ure busy as you are
all swept away!
when two people call u up during tuition
get the address of your kid
drive over
wait at the carpark for you to finish class
drive around the area to pick up
the rest of your favourite people
just for a chit chat over supper.
shiokness is...
one hour on the treadmill
a ten kil run.
shiokness is...
a fifteen minute nap that recharges you
like a two hour one would.
shiokness is...
stepping into an empty cabin on the train
and being able to fall soundly asleep easily
anytime.
shiokness is...
wakin up from your nap at the correct stop.
shiokness is...
feeling ur lousy creaky joints ache
from the wonderful workout
and knowing youre gonna torture yourself with more
tomorrow!
shiokness is... what ive been feeling now everyday.
and thanks babes for making it happen for me.
i love you!
Monday, April 17, 2006
oh boy.
part of a conversation i had with this guy friend
who was askin me out for a drink.
JO :: evil devil evil devil evil :: says:
know anyone good my age?
Don says:
wat happened to the other one
Don says:
no guys at good at ur age
Don says:
they just want one thing
Don says:
older guys are the same but at least they hv more money to buy u dinner first
---
firstly, im too man for most guys.
secondly, there're limited guys out for love.
*sigh.
who was askin me out for a drink.
JO :: evil devil evil devil evil :: says:
know anyone good my age?
Don says:
wat happened to the other one
Don says:
no guys at good at ur age
Don says:
they just want one thing
Don says:
older guys are the same but at least they hv more money to buy u dinner first
---
firstly, im too man for most guys.
secondly, there're limited guys out for love.
*sigh.
greaseeeeeeeee.
only grease can make me dance in the middle of my living room.
*blushblush*
by now anyone who have been to the play prod post prod party
would know i can blush too.
omg.
i danced in the middle of my living room.
GREASE.
buy me the tickets to grease n i'll um.
do whatever u want me to.
that im willin to.
so long as its not paying u for the ticket.
its only just when i was thinkin of who to sms
to inform of the love of my life
(other than you-know-who)
on tv that i suddenly felt it all over again.
tonnes of frens!
but no soulmate.
who'll ever share all the peculiar loves i have?
who'll understand at a snap of my finger?
who'll know why i swoon at wad i swoon over?
its at times like this i feel alone.
kim
lets go hit the retro rock club ok?
decked in retro-y stuff
n equipped with retro-y dance moves!
i loveeeeeeee rock'n'roll.
n i wanna be sandra dee.
summerlove!
*blushblush*
by now anyone who have been to the play prod post prod party
would know i can blush too.
omg.
i danced in the middle of my living room.
GREASE.
buy me the tickets to grease n i'll um.
do whatever u want me to.
that im willin to.
so long as its not paying u for the ticket.
its only just when i was thinkin of who to sms
to inform of the love of my life
(other than you-know-who)
on tv that i suddenly felt it all over again.
tonnes of frens!
but no soulmate.
who'll ever share all the peculiar loves i have?
who'll understand at a snap of my finger?
who'll know why i swoon at wad i swoon over?
its at times like this i feel alone.
kim
lets go hit the retro rock club ok?
decked in retro-y stuff
n equipped with retro-y dance moves!
i loveeeeeeee rock'n'roll.
n i wanna be sandra dee.
summerlove!
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Use of Fear Appeal.
oooooooh im backkk.
have i been missed?
another round of essays, production, projects..n tuition.
was intrigued by some stuff i did for my marketing essay -
here's them.
Use of Fear Appeal to encourage
Taken from:
http://herworld.com/beauty_news.html
The fear in the advertisement comes from the 'new research' that shows that environmental, oxidative and emotional stress can turn up the volume of melanin production in our skins, which leads to more dark spots. Experts and professional research always have more impact on consumers who, in this age of advanced science and technology, look for facts and figures to support arguments. Also, the comparison of blackheads, which are significantly less obvious than pimples, with the latter strikes a chord within the women's hearts.
After establishing the fear in the women, the advertisement cleverly introduces their product and establishes how it can improve the condition. Again, the emphasis of scientific material used in the manufacturing of the product – the potent plan extracts, Yeast Extract, etc and how they work against the deterioration of the skin provides the readers with what seems like scientific proof. With the knowledge of what goes into the product, consumers are more assured of its origin (no pun intended) and cross the line from the status of a stranger to the product to one that is more familiar with it, being able to even introduce it to others if they remember the ingredients used.
Targeted especially at the female population (taken from the online herworld magazine), the advertisement seems to understand women’s problems and how the population view products. The early establishment of the fear, also the problem, convinces quite well with the scientific elements in the text. I feel that the understanding of the problem – what causes it, how serious it is – makes the problem more real. After this initial fear is set up, the clever introduction of the product in a similar manner to deal with the problem seems to offer the readers what seems like an effective solution to the problem. All in all, the advertisement uses fear appeal – though at a rather small scale, pretty effectively.
Use of Fear Appeal to discourage
without a condom, youre making love to AIDS.
Taken from:
http://www.commercialcloset.org/cgi-bin/iowa/portrayals.html?record=2626
I have chosen a different type of advertisement for the making use of fear appeal to discourage one from doing something.
The shocking graphic immediately strikes the reader as sexy yet dangerous – the exact message of the advertisement. What is distinct about the advertisement is that while it makes use of sex appeal, it merges this sex appeal with fear appeal, carrying the merger of dangerous sex directly and effectively across to the reader of the advertisement.
The caption on the website serves the purpose of illustrating further the point of the danger – that it comes in when you neglect the use of condom. That while fun, it is frightening if we take a step back and analyse the situation at hand.
This advertisement works effectively to attract an audience and then serves its purpose perfectly, directing the message efficiently across – with just aesthetics, and no text. Unlike the previous example, this advertisement does not make use of scientific analyses to convince the readers – we know enough about the dangers of sex without condoms and AIDS. The choice of putting the message across in the most graphic manner possible serves its purpose without coming across as too frivolous and superficial. The graphics bring out the essence of the fear and danger in the situation without reiterating – like what a lot of other advertisements do – yet again the scientific dangers of unprotected sex.
I would also like to bring in one example of a boring advertisement of a similar nature in its purpose, trying too hard to convince.
The use of the unattractive graphics do not entice people to read, unless they are already concerned about the issue – which means they are only bringing the message across to existing ‘market’ while the previous one would attract a significantly larger readership. While the following report features a lot of scientific facts not dissimilar to the first advertisement for Origins, the manner in which the facts are introduced are boring and dead-serious (no pun intended), not to mention the length of the article.
With or without comparison, I feel the previous advertisement on the dangers of unprotected sex works efficiently.
access the following link:
informative indirect discouragement
have i been missed?
another round of essays, production, projects..n tuition.
was intrigued by some stuff i did for my marketing essay -
here's them.
Use of Fear Appeal to encourage
Taken from:
http://herworld.com/beauty_news.html
The fear in the advertisement comes from the 'new research' that shows that environmental, oxidative and emotional stress can turn up the volume of melanin production in our skins, which leads to more dark spots. Experts and professional research always have more impact on consumers who, in this age of advanced science and technology, look for facts and figures to support arguments. Also, the comparison of blackheads, which are significantly less obvious than pimples, with the latter strikes a chord within the women's hearts.
After establishing the fear in the women, the advertisement cleverly introduces their product and establishes how it can improve the condition. Again, the emphasis of scientific material used in the manufacturing of the product – the potent plan extracts, Yeast Extract, etc and how they work against the deterioration of the skin provides the readers with what seems like scientific proof. With the knowledge of what goes into the product, consumers are more assured of its origin (no pun intended) and cross the line from the status of a stranger to the product to one that is more familiar with it, being able to even introduce it to others if they remember the ingredients used.
Targeted especially at the female population (taken from the online herworld magazine), the advertisement seems to understand women’s problems and how the population view products. The early establishment of the fear, also the problem, convinces quite well with the scientific elements in the text. I feel that the understanding of the problem – what causes it, how serious it is – makes the problem more real. After this initial fear is set up, the clever introduction of the product in a similar manner to deal with the problem seems to offer the readers what seems like an effective solution to the problem. All in all, the advertisement uses fear appeal – though at a rather small scale, pretty effectively.
Use of Fear Appeal to discourage
without a condom, youre making love to AIDS.
Taken from:
http://www.commercialcloset.org/cgi-bin/iowa/portrayals.html?record=2626
I have chosen a different type of advertisement for the making use of fear appeal to discourage one from doing something.
The shocking graphic immediately strikes the reader as sexy yet dangerous – the exact message of the advertisement. What is distinct about the advertisement is that while it makes use of sex appeal, it merges this sex appeal with fear appeal, carrying the merger of dangerous sex directly and effectively across to the reader of the advertisement.
The caption on the website serves the purpose of illustrating further the point of the danger – that it comes in when you neglect the use of condom. That while fun, it is frightening if we take a step back and analyse the situation at hand.
This advertisement works effectively to attract an audience and then serves its purpose perfectly, directing the message efficiently across – with just aesthetics, and no text. Unlike the previous example, this advertisement does not make use of scientific analyses to convince the readers – we know enough about the dangers of sex without condoms and AIDS. The choice of putting the message across in the most graphic manner possible serves its purpose without coming across as too frivolous and superficial. The graphics bring out the essence of the fear and danger in the situation without reiterating – like what a lot of other advertisements do – yet again the scientific dangers of unprotected sex.
I would also like to bring in one example of a boring advertisement of a similar nature in its purpose, trying too hard to convince.
The use of the unattractive graphics do not entice people to read, unless they are already concerned about the issue – which means they are only bringing the message across to existing ‘market’ while the previous one would attract a significantly larger readership. While the following report features a lot of scientific facts not dissimilar to the first advertisement for Origins, the manner in which the facts are introduced are boring and dead-serious (no pun intended), not to mention the length of the article.
With or without comparison, I feel the previous advertisement on the dangers of unprotected sex works efficiently.
access the following link:
informative indirect discouragement
Thursday, March 30, 2006
its that story again.
the followin story is one i read before
and i thought i would live by its morals.
but somewhere along my route to nowhere,
i lost the story.
by chance,
i stumbled across it on my fren's blog-
one i really seldom read.
well,
here it is.
A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy'shands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all. If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
forgiveness is greater than revenge.
but anyone who knows me knows this:
i dont forgive..i forget.
guess it serves its purpose as well.
and i thought i would live by its morals.
but somewhere along my route to nowhere,
i lost the story.
by chance,
i stumbled across it on my fren's blog-
one i really seldom read.
well,
here it is.
A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy'shands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all. If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
forgiveness is greater than revenge.
but anyone who knows me knows this:
i dont forgive..i forget.
guess it serves its purpose as well.
logic kills.
first some fun..
(how true do you think this is?)
---
then the logic..
solve this.
(there are no tricks, just pure logic, so don't give up.)
1. there are five houses, painted in five different colors.
2. in each house lives a person with a different nationality.
3. these five houses each drink a different beverage, eat a certain favourite dish keep a different pet.
hints:
1. The Brit lives in a red house.
2. The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The green house is on the left of the white house.
5. The owner of the green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who eats pork chops rears birds.
7. The owner of the yellow house eats fish and chips.
8. The man living in the centre house drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10.The man who eats beef steak lives next to the one who keeps cats.
11.The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who eats fish and chips.
12.The owner who eats grilled chicken drinks beer.
13.The German eats lamb chops.
14.The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15.The man who eats beef steak has a neighbour who drinks water.
the question is:
WHO KEEPS FISH?
enjoy.
(how true do you think this is?)
| You Are a Boston Creme Donut |
 You have a tough exterior. No one wants to mess with you. But on the inside, you're a total pushover and completely soft. You're a traditionalist, and you don't change easily. You're likely to eat the same doughnut every morning, and pout if it's sold out. |
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then the logic..
solve this.
(there are no tricks, just pure logic, so don't give up.)
1. there are five houses, painted in five different colors.
2. in each house lives a person with a different nationality.
3. these five houses each drink a different beverage, eat a certain favourite dish keep a different pet.
hints:
1. The Brit lives in a red house.
2. The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3. The Dane drinks tea.
4. The green house is on the left of the white house.
5. The owner of the green house drinks coffee.
6. The person who eats pork chops rears birds.
7. The owner of the yellow house eats fish and chips.
8. The man living in the centre house drinks milk.
9. The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10.The man who eats beef steak lives next to the one who keeps cats.
11.The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who eats fish and chips.
12.The owner who eats grilled chicken drinks beer.
13.The German eats lamb chops.
14.The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15.The man who eats beef steak has a neighbour who drinks water.
the question is:
WHO KEEPS FISH?
enjoy.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
nothing beats simplicity.
took a break from work and redid the skin-
nothing beats simplicity.
some pretty faces for your viewing pleasure
me alvin karen
trying too hard to fit
nothing beats simplicity.
some pretty faces for your viewing pleasure
me alvin karen
trying too hard to fit
i hate draggin pple down with me.
i have the amazing ability to forget.
but when i get reminded,
i get reminded.
i remember i crawled thru first day of amazing race.
now im draggin innocent parties down..
because of what, i really dont understand.
it was not an attitude problem.
it was a problem of your fucking unforgiveness
and bloody narrow-mindedness.
mark me down, sure go ahead.
but dont fucking let that affect the rest.
but when i get reminded,
i get reminded.
i remember i crawled thru first day of amazing race.
now im draggin innocent parties down..
because of what, i really dont understand.
it was not an attitude problem.
it was a problem of your fucking unforgiveness
and bloody narrow-mindedness.
mark me down, sure go ahead.
but dont fucking let that affect the rest.
Monday, March 27, 2006
bloated.
Top Ten Reasons Why Jo is Bloated:
10. too much negativity
9. too much post-prod relief
8. too much pent up energy
7. too much things to swallow
6. too much wanting to make the whole world follow MY direction
5. too much inability to understand people, two in particular.
4. too much reality
3. too much news about an issue
2. too much to procrastinate
and the Number One Reason Why Jo is Bloated:
1. too much longan juice!
one and three-quarters way was what we decided upon,
with proof to back it up.
im one confused girl who needs to club
*stares at karen*
and who needs to pub. (someone convey to sheen)
important people who have been keepin me sane
and who totally deserve this acknowledgement:
(in no order of merit)
na! the unforgettable.
who else would turn up at the show ure publicising for
with a toy made out of the fur u used for publicity material!
and with a smile show all her support?
noone else but na!
mine hor.
and ok lah mr tall guy, i share half with you.
karen! the secret-sharer-gossip-monger-grumbly-whiner-altogether.
"where are you ah? hurry up come! no time already" calls n smses..
"omg just look at that!"
the bad times we endured
and the gossips we shared
the good times we planned
those that havent come yet!
pleaseee. lets make them happen!
the stayovers, the scolding me for my procrastination.
ure an angel!
the funny thomas way n my way!
alvin! the slasher.
"i'll cover ur ass if necessary."
"i know ure worked. but i know u can do it!"
the mr nice guy who sees the big picture
and who loves us all who work
and shows it the best possible way.
alvin i love you too! *blush blush*
jason! my rokok kaki.
who else will understand that i-cant-give-any-expression face of mine
but JASON NG JUNJIE!
just one. "ah jo, lets go"
and i know he knows.
zai zai sm.
VERY HIONG! i like.
family (incl. lola) of cos! the forever-theres.
what more should i say? =)
fir! the lets-talk-crap kaki.
chill out.
chill out.
more chill out.
nothing better than that.
except gym that we've forgone for sometime!
ayda! black humour lets whack the world.
saviour in times of black(face) out.
yes thanksss.
i wouldnt have survived without you guys.
acknowledgement to these people as well:
sheena,yoshie,sanchia. =)
10. too much negativity
9. too much post-prod relief
8. too much pent up energy
7. too much things to swallow
6. too much wanting to make the whole world follow MY direction
5. too much inability to understand people, two in particular.
4. too much reality
3. too much news about an issue
2. too much to procrastinate
and the Number One Reason Why Jo is Bloated:
1. too much longan juice!
one and three-quarters way was what we decided upon,
with proof to back it up.
im one confused girl who needs to club
*stares at karen*
and who needs to pub. (someone convey to sheen)
important people who have been keepin me sane
and who totally deserve this acknowledgement:
(in no order of merit)
na! the unforgettable.
who else would turn up at the show ure publicising for
with a toy made out of the fur u used for publicity material!
and with a smile show all her support?
noone else but na!
mine hor.
and ok lah mr tall guy, i share half with you.
karen! the secret-sharer-gossip-monger-grumbly-whiner-altogether.
"where are you ah? hurry up come! no time already" calls n smses..
"omg just look at that!"
the bad times we endured
and the gossips we shared
the good times we planned
those that havent come yet!
pleaseee. lets make them happen!
the stayovers, the scolding me for my procrastination.
ure an angel!
the funny thomas way n my way!
alvin! the slasher.
"i'll cover ur ass if necessary."
"i know ure worked. but i know u can do it!"
the mr nice guy who sees the big picture
and who loves us all who work
and shows it the best possible way.
alvin i love you too! *blush blush*
jason! my rokok kaki.
who else will understand that i-cant-give-any-expression face of mine
but JASON NG JUNJIE!
just one. "ah jo, lets go"
and i know he knows.
zai zai sm.
VERY HIONG! i like.
family (incl. lola) of cos! the forever-theres.
what more should i say? =)
fir! the lets-talk-crap kaki.
chill out.
chill out.
more chill out.
nothing better than that.
except gym that we've forgone for sometime!
ayda! black humour lets whack the world.
saviour in times of black(face) out.
yes thanksss.
i wouldnt have survived without you guys.
acknowledgement to these people as well:
sheena,yoshie,sanchia. =)
Saturday, March 25, 2006
life is a rush
"heard youve picked up workaholism from me"
maybe.
it's overr.
the rush from production to production
i cant remember how it felt.
---
why do i still like something i can see through?
it's insane.
karen offered the most possible explanation
for the situation im in
and maybe its just true.
we're just selfish with our toys.
---
something from valane:
1. the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2. need to mention the sex of the target
3. tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their comments. this is supposed to be a game. once you are tagged, you are supposed to answer these questions in your own blog.
brace yourself (not in meiyis definition though)
1. my lover! (ideal)
a) giving.
b) doting.
c) heck care about me (i know its a paradox but na will understand)
d) drives. (i never say must have car - we can work towards it)
e) speaks grammatically correct english
f) not tone-deaf but doesnt need to sing well
g) preferably worked with me before
h) able to click with my frens, ie sociable to a certain extent
2. sociologically maleee.
3. this feels like a chain letter. well, if you love me ud do this, so i dont have to name hor. if you dont do means you dont love me. and i'll know. hahaha.
maybe.
it's overr.
the rush from production to production
i cant remember how it felt.
---
why do i still like something i can see through?
it's insane.
karen offered the most possible explanation
for the situation im in
and maybe its just true.
we're just selfish with our toys.
---
something from valane:
1. the tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover
2. need to mention the sex of the target
3. tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their comments. this is supposed to be a game. once you are tagged, you are supposed to answer these questions in your own blog.
brace yourself (not in meiyis definition though)
1. my lover! (ideal)
a) giving.
b) doting.
c) heck care about me (i know its a paradox but na will understand)
d) drives. (i never say must have car - we can work towards it)
e) speaks grammatically correct english
f) not tone-deaf but doesnt need to sing well
g) preferably worked with me before
h) able to click with my frens, ie sociable to a certain extent
2. sociologically maleee.
3. this feels like a chain letter. well, if you love me ud do this, so i dont have to name hor. if you dont do means you dont love me. and i'll know. hahaha.
Friday, March 10, 2006
its been some time.
been some time since i last blogged properly.
really, i havent had the time.
to me, not having time is not an excuse-
its the cost of a choice.
choice of doing something else.
im past the time when i cant nap for fifteen minutes
without a phonecall or sms coming in.
well, almost.
busying with stuff made me choose.
i had no time for some friends
na, yz, zs, programmers, kimmy + wackys.
i always thot the friends who still stay with me
are those who understand my schedule
cos those who have left did not.
its not that i take it for granted,
i don't.
well, it's.. complicated.
but i must say i didnt expect this.
and im tired of explaining..
i think silence's the best way out.
was telling lane that ive become more cynical.
yet while being that, ive become more appreciative.
so i cant decide if im cynical or not.
thru'out tvm,
i was goddamn lucky i must say.
the people who stuck by me
who understood the situation
listened and appreciated.
i felt sooooo loved.
i feel that ive learnt more in those 2 weeks
than in three years of nus - theatre n eq wise.
seeing that many faces of human beings,
dealing with wad i thought was more than i can handle.
i treasure the lessons learnt.
that maintaining connections is an art.
and probably one i can't do so well.
one valuable thing i took back
is the change in me.
the im-leavin-this-n-learning-sth-else-cos-im-not-good-at-it
element in me is trying to sleep n die off.
i cant give up just cos i think
or sometimes other pple think i dont do it well.
cos the only way to change that sad fact
is to overcome it.
really, i havent had the time.
to me, not having time is not an excuse-
its the cost of a choice.
choice of doing something else.
im past the time when i cant nap for fifteen minutes
without a phonecall or sms coming in.
well, almost.
busying with stuff made me choose.
i had no time for some friends
na, yz, zs, programmers, kimmy + wackys.
i always thot the friends who still stay with me
are those who understand my schedule
cos those who have left did not.
its not that i take it for granted,
i don't.
well, it's.. complicated.
but i must say i didnt expect this.
and im tired of explaining..
i think silence's the best way out.
was telling lane that ive become more cynical.
yet while being that, ive become more appreciative.
so i cant decide if im cynical or not.
thru'out tvm,
i was goddamn lucky i must say.
the people who stuck by me
who understood the situation
listened and appreciated.
i felt sooooo loved.
i feel that ive learnt more in those 2 weeks
than in three years of nus - theatre n eq wise.
seeing that many faces of human beings,
dealing with wad i thought was more than i can handle.
i treasure the lessons learnt.
that maintaining connections is an art.
and probably one i can't do so well.
one valuable thing i took back
is the change in me.
the im-leavin-this-n-learning-sth-else-cos-im-not-good-at-it
element in me is trying to sleep n die off.
i cant give up just cos i think
or sometimes other pple think i dont do it well.
cos the only way to change that sad fact
is to overcome it.
Wednesday, March 1, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
i have been a bitch.
=karen says i should be more diplomatic.
i think so too.
ive been too filled with things to do
that ive been lazy to mitigate.
something that should never happen.
im glad that firs around.
fir fir thanksss.
n na n zs the pple who talk to me
and hear wad i say.
thanks to so many frens man.
im lovedd.
yan for the lessons
yirang for the lunches n dinners n the company
kim for being always physically there
and all those i want to!
wo yao shui jiao.
i miss home..!
i cant blog interestingly anymore!
i think so too.
ive been too filled with things to do
that ive been lazy to mitigate.
something that should never happen.
im glad that firs around.
fir fir thanksss.
n na n zs the pple who talk to me
and hear wad i say.
thanks to so many frens man.
im lovedd.
yan for the lessons
yirang for the lunches n dinners n the company
kim for being always physically there
and all those i want to!
wo yao shui jiao.
i miss home..!
i cant blog interestingly anymore!
Sunday, February 19, 2006
the skeptic.
its funny how ive meta-sized from an idealist to a skeptic.
not a realist. a skeptic.
i no longer believe everybody.
though i can still be quite naive.
listen to this:
she: "you know i think history is important,
cos when we go to a country which we know the history,
the place just comes alive,
we make sense of it better" (her poors english editeds.)
i: "you seem to have a strong teleological need"
she: "no, really. u know what happened there before
and u understand why the people behave the way they do!"
boy, does she even unds wad teleology means?
Miss Does-They-Knows?
she: "have u read T.C. Ong?"
he: "no i havent"
she: "u know he read the si4 shu1 (four classics)?"
he: "huh wad's that?"
she: "i dunno, it should be something the pple of last time read."
Miss Onlys-I-knows-it-All, please don't make me laugh.
2 years of history in JC does not make you a historian, girl.
and i respect analytical history MAJORS, not you, lady.
---
a about b, "oh i really hate her. just dont mention her name"
b about a, "she always smses me"
a about c, "he cooks up stories about me"
c about b, "she comes on to me"
a about d, "i told her straight in the face"
d about a, "i think i stand a chance"
a about a, "i dont flirt"
a about a, "i flirt with pple i dont like"
now, dont bother convincing me.
cos it doesnt matter.
i don't listen to anyone.
---
now for the funny stuff:
me: "have you guys taken hep b shots?"
x & y: "no"
x: "it's humful!"
y: look, there are ppl staring at the car wash!
me: omg. SO INTERESTING!! why ahh??
y: don't u realise they're not moving?
me: eh? no lah. they're reallll.
y: they're dcals (however u spell it).
--
me: hey x, look at those pple staring at the car wash!
x: OMG! WHY AH? should we go for the car wash??
y n me stay silent
x: i wan to go for a car wash!! it's damn excitinggg.
me: bwahahahahahaharr.
y: they're dcals.
x: ahhhh. were u suckered too?
and the dcals actually have faces!
---
wad a fun night out =)
not a realist. a skeptic.
i no longer believe everybody.
though i can still be quite naive.
listen to this:
she: "you know i think history is important,
cos when we go to a country which we know the history,
the place just comes alive,
we make sense of it better" (her poors english editeds.)
i: "you seem to have a strong teleological need"
she: "no, really. u know what happened there before
and u understand why the people behave the way they do!"
boy, does she even unds wad teleology means?
Miss Does-They-Knows?
she: "have u read T.C. Ong?"
he: "no i havent"
she: "u know he read the si4 shu1 (four classics)?"
he: "huh wad's that?"
she: "i dunno, it should be something the pple of last time read."
Miss Onlys-I-knows-it-All, please don't make me laugh.
2 years of history in JC does not make you a historian, girl.
and i respect analytical history MAJORS, not you, lady.
---
a about b, "oh i really hate her. just dont mention her name"
b about a, "she always smses me"
a about c, "he cooks up stories about me"
c about b, "she comes on to me"
a about d, "i told her straight in the face"
d about a, "i think i stand a chance"
a about a, "i dont flirt"
a about a, "i flirt with pple i dont like"
now, dont bother convincing me.
cos it doesnt matter.
i don't listen to anyone.
---
now for the funny stuff:
me: "have you guys taken hep b shots?"
x & y: "no"
x: "it's humful!"
y: look, there are ppl staring at the car wash!
me: omg. SO INTERESTING!! why ahh??
y: don't u realise they're not moving?
me: eh? no lah. they're reallll.
y: they're dcals (however u spell it).
--
me: hey x, look at those pple staring at the car wash!
x: OMG! WHY AH? should we go for the car wash??
y n me stay silent
x: i wan to go for a car wash!! it's damn excitinggg.
me: bwahahahahahaharr.
y: they're dcals.
x: ahhhh. were u suckered too?
and the dcals actually have faces!
---
wad a fun night out =)
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