INFLUENZA AND HIGH FEVER

This week was supposed to be OJT(on job training)and last week of training and I was on MC the whole week due to high fever of 38.9 degrees Celsius and influenza. I also have to 'quarantine' at home and avoid people especially children so as not to spread the germs. Thank goodness it's not Influenza H1N1. So imagine on my birthday I spent the whole day for 5 days sleeping after eating the medication. Now it's Sunday and medication already finished and still not feeling better. I think I need to go to the doc again... I'm already 24 and growing a year older. As many have advice 'to go out' and see world and I keep on telling it's not the right time yet. If so, then when's the right time???*thinking to do*

It's wrong to do self-reflection???

I was rearranging the poker cards I played with my sis yesterday and didn't know playing cards can be so much 'fun' all thanks to Marinah because frankly speaking I'm not good in games as I was taught since young that it's not good to play games. May it be computer games or physical games like poker. Mum went to my room and make a big fuss about it. She even make it sound like it's polytheism. At the same time she saw my diary of events and my latest write up on my self relection and ask why am I doing this. Is it wrong to do so? Then there goes her 'lecture' that she was again dissappointed with me because I'm always in the room alone, can't be bothered with the things around me. Firstly I see no wrong in doing self reflection because I want to see my strength and weakness in me and what I believe in life and things I wanna improve. And it doesn't mean by playing poker or collecting tarot decks means I'm polytheist. Secondly if I were given a choice to seek counselling and doing self-reflection, I would rather choose the later because only I know myself well enough and rather let a stranger(counsellor) knows your problems. Lastly I just want to be alone. Isn't wrong?? Till now it's kinda hard to share my 'dark past' with even my own parents and till now going on 24 I'm still treated like a small kid!Nvm it's better to keep mum instead. Parents always thinks they know their children too well but I think for my case I doubt so. It's just that my Mum is a worrisome person and she has to stop worrying unneccessarily...

Major Changes... On the previous post I mentioned that we have to accept changes with open heart is because I can work and get along with Vincent. Yesterday I passed by BC to say hi and he said that GEMS will have a new TL. Latest info that most prob Adil will take over since Vincent will take over the DS team. I pretended to ask who is the next TL taking over the team with a 'smile' but to my shock Chris taking over instead. Now I can't accept that I have to work with that guy!!!Though BC looked cool about it but could see from his looks(and the way he packed his stuffs!) that he's kinda upset on the changes to go to lead a 'lame' team, and stuck at one corner in the night team room. No more 'flag raising' in the morning and his irritating moments. haiz...This info was not disseminated to the others, no email sent or whatsoever...some left and got terminated w/o knowing the real reasons. Too many changes I have encountered more than 2 years and still managed to keep cool about it...and changes they will have to accept is that I will definitely leave the company if anymore major changes.(did I mentioned this ever before in the past?) This so reminded me of a time when Amelia took over SA team after Fazee got terminated...

Changes again- As usual being ignorant about changes on the floor, I was told by Komal that GEMS will have a new TL, which means BC will not be there anymore wef next week. Vincent taking over the team. Many fro the team are not satisfied about it. What about me then? We have to accept changes though there are times I really find him irritating. Otherwise he's fine to work with. We'll see how GEMS reaction to their new TL as time goes along... Sometimes we have to accept changes with open heart. Now I don't really care about empowerment or status in the company already. All I care now is to save $$$. It's now the priority in my lists and so far so good...saving it well as I have some plans to work out pretty soon :) I'm turning 24 next week and growing older already but my parents still treat me like a small kid...haiz...nvm lah what to do since I'm the youngest in the family right? Well this year I'll make it low key. I can't take leave due to training and will be fasting on that day. Something that will make me feel contented spiritually :)

"The past is strapped to our backs. We do not have to see it; we can always feel it." ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

(Iris Cheryl and Shalini on their last day at TD)

Sometimes we need to look at our past in order to move on to our present life. Doing self-reflection is to look at our mistake and to learn the mistakes that we have done. I have done with my self reflection and all I need is to get rid of the 'fear' feeling in order for me to achieve my wishlists. At the same time, about many months/years later, I was told that he still can't forget me and still thinks of me and was not contented with his life without me. No wonder at times I dreamt of him...hmm

It's already May and 2 weeks more to go for the training. For the 2nd test I passed with 'flying colours' and will have 3rd test tomorrow. And I'm turning 24 soon...feel so 'mature' already. I'm just hoping things will go smoothly and to fulfill my dreams. I think I want to do something to my hair. Wanna trim again and have gold streaks on my fringe...what do you think? I finally bought myself a PDA. After surveying the price the best deal I could get at SGD229.00 at Best Denki. It's HP iPAQ. Light-weight and I'm happy!!!:P I also intended to renew my contact with StarHub Broadband. This time offer for 24-month contract for Premium Plus at $81.90 monthly, get Samsung 31-inch flat LCD TV and Starhub Voice line, both free of charge!!!Isn't that great? For my Starhub Mobile I will renew the contract that I will pay only $8.00 per month. Super savings right???