Tuesday, October 28, 2008

RESTLESS = SICK
For the past 2 days I've been rotting myself on the bed and felt so lazy to go to work 2day and decided to get MC instead. When I went to the clinic, the doctor told me that I'm down with fever instead. I don't really have the signs of having fever! Oh well, good news is that I'll be back to work on Friday :). Bad news is that what am I going to do for the next 2 days then??? I don't really have plans. Maybe I need to plan something to kill time. Ain't wanna sleep anymore. Gives me bodyaching instead!!!
We shall see what I can do for the next 2 days...

Monday, October 27, 2008

NUMEROLOGY FOR MYSELF
Birth name:Nur Erwina Binte Mohamed Ismail
Date of birth: May 13, 1985
The best place to start is with one of the most basic calculations ... your "life path" -- based on your birth date of May 13, 1985 -- is 5.
You are about freedom, independence and the right to follow where your heart and gut-instincts lead you in life. You are an inquisitive soul with many questions that can only be answered through travel, exploration and experiencing a variety of life situations. For this reason you are likely to relocate to various cities or countries during your life and also entertain a number of life partners as opposed to just one soul mate.
You are best suited to freelance work or being your own boss as stuffy offices and rigid routines are deadly to your imagination and soul. You are a great lover of human nature as well as one of it's greatest observers, which is why you would make a good archaeologist, historian, writer, journalist, reporter or artist.
You are great at dealing with people and also do well in any "front line" occupation. For instance many crisis workers, emergency care workers and leaders of self- groups are fives. You need a job that allows you to meet a lot of people as well as brings you a variety of interesting experiences.
You also have quite a spiritual bent to your personality that may send you on many personal vision quests. It is not unusual for a 5 to also belong to many different religions during his or her life or suddenly in mid-life to drop everything in pursuit of a life-style that is the complete opposite of the former one.
One of your challenges is learning how to not waste time. Your perception of time is somewhat distorted which is why you are often late to meetings or sometimes unable to meet deadlines. Novelties and new ideas also easily distract you so sometimes it is difficult for you to choose a career or lifestyle and stick with it. As a result, others may also find you indecisive and frustrating to deal with.
Another challenge that you face on your life path is being overly irresponsible. Many 5's have a habit of taking off when the going gets rough. You tend be quite casual about your relationships and have a great deal of trouble managing any type of emotional crisis. You may even experience panic at the idea of commitment, as you don't like the idea of being responsible to another person. For this reason, many of you have a number of serial relationships rather than just one life long love.
If you are unable to physically escape circumstances that you can't emotionally handle or don't like, you are also prone to escaping through substance abuse. This is part of the unpleasant self-indulgent trait that is part of many number 5 personalities.
Finding one focus and sticking with it is definitely your biggest life challenge. Most 5's are multitalented but they never stay in one place long enough for one of their projects to grow and blossom. Seeing things through to completion is the best way to make sure that you don't suffer poverty or bitterness in your later years.
One of your greatest talents is the ability to communicate, either verbally or through the written word. Your expansive observations of life plus your ability to see all points of view makes you an excellent teacher. Most 5's end up teaching at one point in their life so others can benefit from the rich tapestry of their life experience.
You are also a daring spirit that has a love of adventure. You are usually very physically fit and enjoy good health for your entire life if you stay away from overindulging in drink and food.
Your Expression - which describes your potential natural talents and abilities - works out to be a 7.
You are a secret rebel and a loner preferring the company of your brilliant thoughts and fantastic daydreams to the company of other people. You are incredibly spiritually sophisticated and this creates an odd air of detachment to your personality.
You tend to express yourself in a very blunt manner to others simply because you are not a big believer in wasting time with niceties. You tend to not express yourself well through your facial expressions or body language although you can be quite eloquent with words. You do not say much but when you do say something it is usually acutely observant or very enlightening.
To you the ultimate expression of your higher self lies within the mysteries of science, nature and the occult. Most number 7s tend to be interested in all three topics. Many are mathematicians, naturalists, anthropologists, historians or priests.
The virtues of solitude appeal to you most as it allows you the peace and acres of time that you need to investigate your favorite subjects. Even if you have never gone to school you probably have the equivalent of a Ph.D in some kind of esoteric or scientific subject. An important part of your self-expression is the ability to be able to pass this knowledge onto a willing enthusiast or student one day.
You are also likely to choose a romantic partner that shares your intellectual passions. As you are so quirky it takes a very special person indeed to understand your complex body language and need for a lot of personal space. Usually when you do find a partner that understands you, you are so grateful, that you become loyal for life.
Although you make a great teacher, you do not necessarily make a good parent. This is because a child's curiosity often competes with your own child like need to be inquisitive and live in a fantasy world.
You are very logical and in terms of your personal tastes, believe that beauty is a matter of form following function. You are also a perfectionist so much of what you own will probably be the very best or state of the art. You should be well able to afford this as your deeply analytical and logical mind also often lends you a talent for investing money. Although you like owning the best on the market you are not the type to show off. You tend to hide your wealth from others as well as you hide your other secrets. This is partly an attempt on your part to see if an individual likes you for you.
You are very uncomfortable with expressions of emotion and often avoid "feeling your feelings." Many of you may equate relationships with the idea of pain or as an element that could potentially throw you off your balance or defocus you from your "real work." Sometimes your emotions are manifested through illness as you have a tendency to stash all of your feelings, especially the painful ones such as resentment, to the back of your subconcious where they fester for years.
You are also prone to obsession if you let your feelings somehow become the focus of your life. The challenge of some number sevens is to distinguish the difference between how they feel about a situation and the reality of it. Your reverence for the mysteries of the universe makes you an adamant seeker of truth. Your search for an ideal society or a spiritual epiphany makes you more vulnerable than other numbers to the influences of cults or religious leaders.
Your Soul Urge of 9 ...
What You Desire To Be, To Have, and To Do In Your Life
The highest expression of your soul's urge is to connect in a mystical way with others. Although your aspirations are lofty, you are also a humanitarian who is often gifted with a sharp intuition and keen analytical skills. Often you give up opportunities that should be yours, simply to help another. This is because your faith in yourself, god and the future is so strong that you live by your conviction that the universe is always unfolding as it should.
Others simply do not possess your spiritual sophistication and may be amused or repelled by what they see as your irrational talk or beliefs. You may be accused of being stupid or foolish simply because you won't take the bait (of a job or money) at the expense of your ethics. Compared to the other numbers, you excel at letting go of lovers or opportunities simply because you know you can't take emotions and material goods with you when you die.
As you are driven more by compassion than common sense, you are the first to fall on your sword for a worthy cause. You may often be broke because you see money only as a tool of change. You would much rather spend money on art, charity or a trip. In fact, ostentatious displays of wealth anger and disgust you because your ideal is a world where all humans are equal.
You might appear very eccentric to others who don't quite understand your fascination with the spiritual world or your insistence on being a seeker of truth. Furthermore nines tend to get carried away when it comes to trying to heal or connect to others. The biggest mistake you could make is to try and be an "agent of karma" by meddling or interfering in other people's affairs.
As you are so talented psychically, you often become a liability in business simply because people in authority resent your ability to perceive their secrets. You rarely rise very high on the corporate ladder simply because others see you as a threat to their cloak of political intrigue.
You have a soul that must be continually assured and fed with new sources of spiritual information. To stay healthy, your psyche may require that you make special trips to holy or mystical places. You may have to seek out special teaching to help you understand and cultivate your talents so that you are in control, as opposed to terrorized by them. Being able to foresee the future or see through other people is often painful, so some therapy might be required in your life to help you detach from your own sensitivity.
One of the sins you are most vulnerable to is spiritual pride. This can bring you situations that cause your faith to be seriously tested or where your pride can take a big fall. Many nines often find themselves subject to a lesson in becoming humble by the cosmos simply because they were too boastful of their talents. Making money off of your psychic talents may also cause you some problems, as part of your path is to heal without the expectation of reward. If you are working professionally as a psychic and are a nine, then remember to tithe at least one tenth of your earnings towards a worthy cause. However the highest calling of your soul urge is to share your intuitive talents for free.
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Sunday, October 26, 2008

OFFENDED
It's ridiculous to get offended at this time 0430hrs. I'm truly confused and helpless at this point of time. I was very shagged but now it becomes shagged+offended+hurt. I just slashed my words out after that someone offended me. I don't think I'm at fault. Situation is really getting out of hand . Instead I feel like a victim here...

Thursday, October 23, 2008

HOME ALONE...(I LIKE!!! :P)
Not really...I'm with Bobo at home.Only the '2 of us', at last(finally!!!). As usual, my parents are working and the 'other family' went out. I treat myself to good food. Had fried chicken wings and wasabi shaker fries in the morning for breakfast and cook some satay and oat fish with rice for lunch. Shared my food with Bobo...haha
My lunch(it's damn delicious)Bobo agrees as well!!!
Peaceful and wonderful feeling. I can clean the house at my own pace and do my own stuffs. Download songs online, blasting off the music in the living room and no hurry to wash the dishes...:P but I know this feeling will end soon in few hours time...make full use of it :D
CHARACTERISTICS OF A TAUREAN
Taurus isn't necessarily like a Bull in a ring with a toreador. You could be more like peace-loving Ferdinand, seeking the gentle meadows filled with flowers, sunshine and natural beauty. It's only Taurus stubbornness that can make you angry enough to charge at someone who is disturbing your peace.Taurus are noted for your determination. You get to where you are going, not because you are exceptionally fast or clever, but because Taurus will not be distracted from your goals. Your need for stability and simplicity can motivate Taurus to create a life for yourself that is quite functional, though it might seem boring to someone else. But Taurus aren't interested in taking unnecessary risks that can put your solid footing in jeopardy.
Taurus motto might be "Take care of the senses and everything else will take care of itself." It may be that your attraction to material things is less about the objects themselves than it is about the pleasure they bring to your senses. Comfortable living and working space is important to Taurus, along with nice linens, clothing, food and music. And, as one of the most practical signs, Taurus outlook on life is usually quite sensible. As Taurus plod along in life, getting what you need in order to survive, don't forget to look at the beauty that is beyond the material world of material possessions.
Element: Earth
Earth signs are naturally practical. In this lifetime we are bound to Earth. There is no escaping the reality around us. The Earth is about as real as it gets; it can be felt, weighed and it has substance. Accordingly, the earth signs base their life on what is real, not what is imagined. Sensation is valued over thoughts or feelings. Earth signs live with their feet on the ground. Others seek their advice because of their basic sensibility. For earth signs, seeing is believing.The earth of Taurus is simple and sensible. It's about getting back to basics. This is about working the earth in a garden or about having the tools that we need in order to build.
Second House: Possessions
The Second House symbolizes those things that are of value to us. Personal possessions are within this domain, as is our money. Anything having personal value is associated with the Second House. It also represents those things we value that are not things. When you think about what is most important to you -- your own values -- you are indeed thinking about your Second House.Key Planet: VenusVenus is the planet of love and desire. She is in charge of romance and beauty. But Venus isn't only about physical love; she's also symbolic of the ideal love. When we see a beautiful painting or other work or art, Venus is present. She is the beauty of a rose as much as she is the attraction we have to someone we love. As the key planet of Taurus, Venus is sensual and simple. We fulfill the senses with beauty and life is good.
Taurus Greatest Strength: Your sensible outlook on life
Taurus Possible Weakness: Accepting less than you can achieve

Monday, October 20, 2008

NOVEMBER IS A GOOD MONTH TO...
  1. Prepare for D&D(to decide which type of dress I'm suited to wear!)
  2. Workout and have tone body(yeah right!!!)
  3. Do AHA peel again(this time reduce the percentage to 35% instead)
  4. Celebrate Wanseen's 23rd birthday
  5. Go for short break with colleagues to PJ(can visit Mummy!)
  6. Do charity work(will elaborate soon!)
  7. Invent new recipes
Update more when November comes...

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Thinking of nothing???
It's a lazy Sunday. Been rotting on the bed the whole day.Maybe because it's raining. I was updating my facebook nick and put "Erwina is thinking of nothing" and Nick asked me how I can simply think of nothing...
Well there are still so many things on my mind and thinking of solutions but yet I ended up having a mind blank instead. I'm not helping to solve the issue.In fact I think we needed help here but I refused of seek any help yet unless I really need to...
And at the same time I don't wanna think about it..cos I think by thinking to much I might ended up going crazy instead!!!
My 42nd week
It the 5 days straight 11am shift and off on the weekends together with Andy and Huda. Then off a sudden Andy wants to go for a 2 day trip to PJ. I WANNA GO!!!! But I need to apply leave on those days.Not sure if it can get approve cos Fizah already applied on those days.Haiz...But if I'm not able to go to PJ, I'll be attending Aziz wedding and planned to bring Yani along.Is it a good option to bring her along?I did showed the card to her. She looked alright but sound disappointed.We'll see.
I don't know why but on that one day I was sub-conciously thinking of someone. I was in a hurry but I didn't take the bus I was supposed to take. I took my time instead to wait for another bus and saw him(such a coincidence!!!). We talked for a while and asked how's he doing. I realized that he kept on looking down instead while I kept on looking at him while we were talking. Is he 'paiseh' to talk to me??? Then after a short 5 min talk he had to rush because he was late for work. I understand that...oh well it's such a coincidence that I thought of him and appear b4 my eyes in less than 10mins!!! Is it amazing or wat or 'Yuan Fen'??? haha...watever!!! Then few days ago I was on my way to work, I walked all the way to Woodlands MRT Station and then a lady was kept on saying 'excuse me'. I thought I was blocking her way so I slowed down and showed my body language to let her walk in front of me but then she did not. Instead she was at my back instead. Then she said something to me; but seriously it sounds embarrassing but I don't feel ashamed at all cos I know I'm always as clumsy & careless as ever!!!Haha "Excuse me! I wana tell you something hor.(then whisper in my ear) Your skirt got one big hole and can see yr butt ah! You got safety pin or not? If not better buy later people can see yr butt leh!" I laughed instead! I wonder how she can see my butt when I'm wearing black skirt and black undies...hmmm but true enough it was indeed a big hole!!! LOL
Last night I attended Fadhillah's engagement ceremony and also such a coincidence that we wore the same coloured traditional baju.It's a simple traditional ceremony and I'm the only friend invited last night. Wanted to upload more pics but due to server problems I can only upload 2 of them...
Fad and me...and hey she was supposed to be sitted on the chair not me!!!But who cares??? After the ceremony, she decided to wear her specs cos she can't see clearly. After wearing those specs she looked like 'Mak Bedah' haha but a cute pic though! :P
D & D coming soon on the 5 Dec 08. This time the theme is Glitter & Glamour. So not me!!!:( More information when they 'reveal' the details soon... Cheers!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Untitled(I can't think of any...)
With my cousin Taken with Pau and my BoBo 3 of us at my house Oh so cute!!! Another cutie
I'll update the pictures 1st as above. Pau and Wanseen came over for lunch at my house and update about ourselves. After their exams we'll meet up again to celebrate WanSeen's 23rd birthday. With so many things that happpen to our lives especially my own, we still need to keep up with the fast pace. While doing mini spring cleaning in my room, I saw my 2001 jounal I wrote about my life and my plans to achieve in time to come, 7 years on and realised that I did not really fulfill them. In another words I left about 1 and a half years to achieve them when I'm 25 years old. Can I really fulfill them?? Will update when I'm a quarter century old ok???
This month there's nothing much of plans and updates that I wana talk about as it's personal issues. I can cope with it but I'm not sure what will lies ahead and the outcome. It's not really affecting me but it does affect the surroundings which I think it's not healthy. Oh well if there's a will there's a way rite?
Later...

Thursday, October 02, 2008

I'll stay home and get more sleep...
I enjoyed going visiting yesterday with the whole family of more than 60 of us...
It was fun meeting up with the rest of the relatives but also very tiring...glad I'm on leave till tomorrow.
We have a new member in the family. He's 2 months old and his name also starts with an 'E', Eden Adam. He look very much like his sis Eva. Didn't managed to take many pics yesterday though but will have more in time to come...
I managed to go to my foster grandparents house. I saw someone and thinking I might see her. I called her a 'psychic'. Only psychic will lock her daughter and herself in her room(that's not even a own house for goodness sake!) when people especially my family came over. I think it's better not to see a psychic if not...
Maybe perhaps many did not see me for very long time. When they saw me, they claimed I'm so pretty like a model(vomit!!).Hello? I have breakouts and still called me pretty?Hmm... Some even said "They saw me on TV" Hello again??? That was ages ago. Felt so paiseh you know...
But yesterday if you realised I did not wear any traditional baju. I wore a top and a long skirt instead. But strange enough they complimented on my outfit instead.Glad my parents never said anything. As for my hair, I think my hair is not what I expected. It didn't look 'blue'. It look jet black instead. Maybe as days goes by the 'black' will fade off???
Since I'm still on leave today and tomorrow, I'll need to do my pending task and more rest. Not sure what's the plan for tomorrow. The 2 teams are organizing a team dinner at Esplanade and after that they planned to go clubbing. The word 'clubbing' sounds not so me anymore. I think I'll give that a miss...
Here are some of the pics taken yesterday...
It's been ages since I took pic with her...but frankly speaking she still look chubby as ever...hahaha whatever she fat or ugly she's still my sis afterall...

Kaysan and Kayden. Ain't they cute???

With my cousins

Ukasyah watching Kaysan playing PSP

This mini video of Kayden faking it..that's his hobby....

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
It's the 10th month of the year. It's a new month in Muslim calender. The day we celebrate victory after fasting for a month. Alhamdullilah for the 1 st time in my life I fast for a full 1 month!
This year there is a slight change in the plan. We are going out for visiting instead of staying at home like we used to every year! Ain't that great? Hehe do I sound like a suaku gal? Yeah I think so...
I trimmed my hair short and somehow like Rihanna style and DIY colour in dark blue!!Later I'm going to wear a black outfit instead. I think the pink outfit that I've prepared might be too loud since my parents are wearing dark colours.
I bought a new digicam. It's Casio Ex-slim for $499. Hope it can last me like how that Sony digicam lasted me. There are the pics taken below from the new digicam...
We'll start with...(if the pics are to small to view pls click to enlarge!)
Taking a candid pic of Kaysan when he was sound asleep!!!
Next...took some pics of my living room... This is the area for guests to be seated. Bro bought a new carpet what compliment with the orange wall...hehe The dining area. Still remains unchanged except that unfortunately that room next to the kitchen has turn to a big storeroom ever since Rasimah went back to her hometown... The TV area where we chill and even sleep here...It's a spacious area that can fit for 4 adults to sleep! Dad placed his car miniature collections.Well it's not just ordinary car miniatures. It's only Peugeot, Ford and Land Rover cars!!!
Next...it's my bedroom...
This is the entrance of my room. You'll see the displays of my photos and other displays to 'attract attention'...

This is my daybed. I've positioned vertically instead. I removed the photoframes and placed with my late uncle's paintings and pasted star shapes on the wall instead.

The sidetable place with some displays and photoframes and what stands out especially at night is the lamp. It's a funky lamp and bought that at Ikea.

So with that red display rack it's somehow gives a partition and also to cover the daybed for privacy.

More pictures later. Pause for now. Before I leave I would like to wish all Muslim Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir & Batin. :)

P/s: It's fustrating when we are in a good mood for celebration shit happens again! Just because the 'evils are back' after Ramadhan???