Goodbye August! Hello September and Bulan Ramadhan!!!:P

These pictures above was taken last week when I met up with Nafa pals for dinner at Far East Plaza for Jolyn and Liyan's birthday celebrations..

We are coming towards the end of the month and sadly to say my pay is not in yet(not sure why is there a delay???)and almost got stranded last night after attending Chika's birthday chalet at Downtown East. No pics yet because remember I don't have anymore digicam??So I'm waiting for some kind souls to tag the pics to me...the usual TD gang attended but I'm kinda disappointed that Adil and some others drank though they know that puasa is coming...that's them anyway, no comments!

Wanna know how I prepare for Raya this time around? I'll update u on this page. Usually every year I can't be bothered with all those preparations, but this year I'm going to put some efforts to it. :)

Till then...SELAMAT BERPUASA!!!

Mood: Mixed Feelings

I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way. Last nite I had a weird and funny dream which I don't think it'll be a reality. If it does, it's the 'end of the world'.haha

But seriously there are things I know I can't lie or hide but I guess my EGO is damn huge to hide the the real fact. I guess it'll still take forever for me to make any confessions here. Nvm no hurry...(pls lor!!!)Yeah rite???

hmm better not!

I have to control myself no matter wat happens.

P/s: I'm very jealous after browsing someone's pics!!!!

PICS OF KAYSAN & KAYDEN..ENJOY!!!

THE REAL TRUTH!

As predicted, it came back again and this time around, we found the real truth. Shocked? Nope as expected as actions speak louder than words. I know that they knew that we knew about this so all the more they go against us. It's ok. Truth will prevail one day. We lost faith & trust in them completely.But we have to do something to prevent them from hurting our love ones. Yes 'them' not only 1 person involved! So far only 1 person believe us.Never mind. We don't need people to believe what we know cos we always believe God will help us and punish the evils.

What goes around comes around and which is why they don't not live in peace!!!

P/s: I said all this out of anger and fustration. Please do not get offended.

Anyways I'm not going to think too much about this nonsense.I have better things to do now...

When I tell any truth, it is not for the sake of convincing those who do not know it, but for the sake of defending those that do. ~William Blake

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

I took half day again because I thought I lost my headset but it turned out that Bobby kept it for me. I was so careless. If I really lost it, there goes my $250...

Talking about money, I can't wait for the next pay. Next month I'm going to make my Braun Buffel specs as I've kept it for nearly a year. Since there will be a corporate discount, just make full use of it!!!;) I'm also going to survey some affordable digicam. I was just kidding the other day. I'm not going to ask my dad to pay a digicam for me right???

Since it's the weekend I have a mission to do...hehe :)

"Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars. " ~Les Brown

SLEEPLESS

My eyes are wide open now. Perhaps I've had my 'nap' for about 4 hrs in the afternoon. Took half day from work because I'm not in the mood. Instead I'm in the mood of watching Korean Drama. I always tell myself not to 'cheat' when the drama airs on TV but I ended up watching online instead and know the endings. I learnt something from this drama 'Couple or Trouble'.It doesn't mean if you are in a long-term relationship, you'll be happy.One can be happy with someone even for a short period of time or even change a person's life.That's amazing isn't it? Oh well no comment.It seems like a fantasy story but I don't think it'll happen in reality...if it does only a small percentage happens in real life...

It seemed that I have loads of questions in my mind that I've yet to know the answers.Do I really have to go with the flow or to really plan the next step so that I'll know where I'm heading to?

Yup I'm planning something but not sure if I'm going to make it through.But what stops me from doing so all these years is my self-confidence. I'm not sure how to get my confidence back and the old Erwina who is bold and not afraid to do anything she wants.I'll just try my best. Wish me all the best and I'll soon update what is the plan all about...

Family situation is not looking good.It's been going on for about 7 months and I predict the worst will come after reading all the forwarded sms from my mum's hp.I can only pray and hope it'll end peacefully...

Ok enough about that. I'm heading to sleep now.I'm off tomorrow. I'm not sure what to do...no plans...or to rot myself on the bed again???haha

P/s: After looking back, it's been so long I've been keeping this in my heart(not really). I can't deny I still have feelings for him(really??) After looking at his friendster profile and pics with gals(I think I'm so much better-looking than them!!Yeah right!),I got abit jealous.But come to think he's just friendly to everyone. That's his nature!!!He has changed alot.(Psst! He has lost weight!!!).But then...there are reasons why it has to be this way instead...but I'm sure I can find a better 'F' rite???;)Ok I guess I'm not being myself now...because I'm talking about this!!!

Here's my new hairdo...

I only managed to have my latest pic taken after cutting my hair for about a week. What do you think of this new hairdo? Many complemented that this hair suits better than other hairstyles. Majority of the guys prefered me with dark or black hair. About 90 percent rated 4 out of 5 for this hairdo. Many said I look fresher and younger with this style. Thanks for the ratings and feedback...haha but frankly speaking, when I look at myself in the mirror. I look totally like my Mum(minus the specs!!). Haha to be precise, the younger version of my mum...hehe

Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon at Suntec with Fad, Aidah and Fiza. Well Fad just wanna make her 'announcements' of the 'future plannings'(if you get what I mean here). I'm happy for her but as long as she don't stress herself as days are drawing near...haha

While window shopping at Suntec City, I walked pass a boutique and I saw a familiar face. I think his name is Melvin and HE STILL STUCK THERE???? My goodness...that fella left that company(and even badmouth abt the management!) and then joined back for 'unsure' purposes. But anyway it's none of my business.No comment. As long as he's happy working there...

And yesterday I didn't spend much...I'm already 'broke' for the month.Next week I'm meeting up with Jolyn and the rest but sadly to say...my dearest digicam of 6 years already spoilt. That cam has so many memories and have shot abt more than 10,000pics to date...I know it's time to get a new one. While usually people said they'll wait for their bonus or their pay for the next month...I'll wait for my beloved father's big bonus and get me a digicam next month...haha how about that! ;)

Today I'm not going out. My room is a mess, my dad described my room as 'kandang babi'.I need to clear the mess, wash my 2 bags of laundries...and planned for another new makeover for my room for upcoming Hari Raya since I have the Ikea annual book 2009 for inspirations.

And today is Kaysan's 3rd birthday. Not much of a celebration today as he's celebrating his birthday in school tomorrow :)

P/s: Wanna hear sum stories? Last night I had this one weird and funny story. I dreamt that I won the 'Best female actress' buy not sure what kind of award was that.

And on Friday I dreamt of VCC and he mentioned about the 'F'. He told me if it's worth to be with an 'F' in a long run...he hinted me about the differences in me and an 'F'. Initially that wasn't really in my thoughts. That is there I realised our main differences can make a huge difference in our respective life...it's ok if you don't understand here...it's a 'F'oreign differences...haha

WEIRD!!!

Tell me if there's really something wrong with me.I've been munching alot for the past days. Even my meals, instead if a small bowl of rice, I eat on the bigger bowl(abot 1/2 time more than the small one) instead. I munch on cereals(though it's for breakfast for goodness sake!). Bro is cooking something in the kitchen(I can smell it!!!) but I know it's not for me. Oh well I just need to starve abit and wait for Mum to come back as she promises to buy 15 sticks of sotong heads from Old Chang Kee(they are having promotion at $1 each for all items till tomorrow!!!)

I'm so feeling lazy today so I've decided to cut my hair tomorrow instead! Yeah!!! And to buy some new blusher and some feedbacked that the blusher I wear is too pink. I think I should try something like brownish-pink tone. Hafidz was telling me all those 'tips' to' change' since I'm doing a mini makeover so that I'll look like Misha Omar and Huda was like...??? cos no point telling me that cos I dun even noe who is she...haha!!!

Looks like I'll rot myself on the bed the whole day!!!

Plannings...

I was surfing the net to look for a new hairdo and have found a hairstyle that I LOVE. It's Agyness Deyn hairdo(minus the bleach-blonde colour). Can you imagine my hairdo like the pic above...we shall see. I'm doing to have the haircut on Sunday(that's 4 days to go!!!). I can't wait :P

My first 2 days in GEMS(PPS team) were alright but not much of available time like I used to have back with the SPARTANS. Last night we had another team(with the Spartans) dinner at Tong Seng Coffeeshop and watched The Dark Knight. I'm not sure if I can really bond with the GEMS but I'll try my best.:) Things have changed as time goes by...I can feel it...

Ok enough about work, I have a mission to do...after 3 years I saw each of them in FaceBook. Some of them still remember me and I shall try my best to 'reunite' with my foreign friends.I hope SK still remembers me. I know I've change a lot physically that's why many had a hard time recognising me!Wish me all the best...

BTW is there really such a thing as we can get fairer and beautiful skin in just 7 days???

THANK YOU AND GOODBYE SPARTANS!!!

This is my team THE SPARTANS formally known as RS1. I was the one who named the team but the one leaving the team. It was a nice and memorable moments with them. They are totally crazy peeps('kecoh' in Malay term) compared to previous mates from the team. I'll be moving to PPS aka GEMS. It was a sudden move since the decision made by Gwen Sharma. One thing I don't like is that b4 I agree, emails were already disseminate to other TLs! Whatever it is, I need to move on after being in the team for 10 months. This is my forth reshuffling. Perhaps things might be easier in GEMS since Masachika's there? We shall see...

We had our team bonding at Royal Scotts on Plaza and the food was nice. I shall bring my family in future to have buffet. The pic above was taken b4 the rest came.

Before we had the scrumptious food...hehe

Me and Ziela

Me and Aidah

Initially the plan was to watch movie after that but ended up shopping instead.Oops...I did spend alot!!I loved the Nine West heels. It's so my style!!!And since I've spend alot on my 1st day of my pay, I shall postponed some of my plans... But changing my hairstyle is definitely on my list this month. I'm going to have a new hairdo. Watch for this space ok? Cheers! :P