All good things come to an end - Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me

I don't like realityIt's way too clear to me

But really life is daily

We are what we don't see

We missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end(come to an end, come to an end)

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

Travelling I always stop at exits

Wondering if I'll stay

Young and restless

Living this way I stress less

I want to pull away when the dream dies

The pain sets it and I don't cry

I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dustLovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dustLovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end(come to an end, come to an end)

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

The dogs were whistling a new tune

barking at the new moon

hoping it would come soon so that they could die

The dogs were whistling a new tune

barking at the new moon

hoping it would come soon so that they could die

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end(come to an end, come to an end)

Why do all good thins come to an end)x2

Well the dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away

And the sky was falling

And the clouds were dropping and the...

The rain forgot how to bring salvation

The dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

Sinful confessions...

Ever wonder wat is the 'sinful' confessions all about. Ain't going to elaborate much but after reading Sitti's blog about 'hating' sum1. But for me I just don't like her attitude towards me. But for now who cares? I still tok back @ her and fight for my right even though I maybe wrong at times. But like I've said I'm getting older and all I need is just a lil space and privacy for myself..dats all.. I never ask for anything else...but I know I wont be able to 'solve' this prob so soon. Especially when I'm having sum prob with another person..wat the heck...

Another confession: Yeah I do promised with Nadirah over sumthing. That was many yrs ago. But sumtimes we just cant help it but to break the promise. It's a pinoy guy again!!!! I remember that I swear not to meet anymore Pinoys after Ramos but here he is..but this time it's different. Six sense tells me he's a nice person. He's quite gd-looking but he has a great personality and smart. He's Paul Ligsay :)

Last nite I had dinner with Zech @ Delifrance. His life been pretty good and he's going to Bangkok next week. Good for him...

And I realised sumthing..ever since I started working, I really can't go out and meet friends after dat. It's just so exhausting. On Thu I wen out with Hamzah and den with Zech the next day. Wen I got home I just rot like a log on the bed!!!! hahaha

Today is the weekend. Planned to go out but the weather dun allow to do so. I'm basically @ hm and hoping to have a real private moment all by myself. Even if it means by breaking the house by 'locking' the door!!!! Gosh! wat a lame house rule I've GOT!!!!!

End of my confessions...

The rain finally stops...

I've been having weird dreams lately..maybe of the things that happened last week. U can say I'm still under 'trauma' but life still has to go on...later I'm meeting up with Zalina. Been a while since I met her and since I'll be @ town, I wana do something. Will tell you wen I'm done with it.

About my job...last nite I was on the phone wif him and discuss about my job. He still think that it's kinda not worth working cos it's not accessible(@ Chai Chee for goodness sake!!). I'll start work @ 8am and most prob I hav to prepare to get up by 5am???? So reminds me of secondary sch days. But watever it is I'll jus try cos if I nv try I'l never know if this job suits me onot rite???

I have to be strong and optimistic. God will always be there for me...

Rantings...

1stly I hate to rant but why do I wana rant on the blog??? I'm so fucked up with all the shits happening around me. Every1 has their own problems but I guess as we get older, the more complicated the problems can be. One thing about the major problem I encounter now is dat I'm still holding on to it knowing that it won't do me any good. I'm trying to be optimistic as possible. Yeah call me foolish & stupid if you want to but like I said I have my reasons. Only God knows the truth. I dun wish to get my family to get even know abt it knowing dat we also hav some domestic problems to deal with. I wana cry but I guess I dun have anymore tears already. I'm just afraid to let go...if i let go I'll be @ the losing end. Good Lord!!!!

What's on my mind now? Nothing but God. HE helps me to calm down for now...

The many chances given...

Ok I didn't listen to anybody's advice so I sticked to my own decision. Wrong move? I would say yes cos I risk my life & my future to this f*cking situation. But I hav my reasons why I want to hold on to dis. Perhaps it'll make me feel stronger to face future problems...yeah rite!!!But watever it is, I wana thank all the peeps who were der 4 me for the past few days. So it's playback time!!!No worries I know how to take care of myself. I'm working in 4 days time!!!2 mths break is over...*yawns*

Huh?

Call me crazy if u want to cos I have a designing qualification but ended up working with SIA instead. Yup I've got the job @ SIA KrisFlyer. Better pay and looks like design job I'm waiting could only be freelance then. Kinda glad dat I've got a job finally after 2 months..lol

Last nite I dream of sum1 with torn shirt and I covered and protect him. I asked my mum wat it meant wif that dream. She explained that dat person with torn shirt was caught in shame & I covered and helped him without feeling the shame. I'm still willing to help him.

I've gotta admit dat not all people can be virtue patient wen it comes to the prob I'm encountering now. Only God can give me the strength & the patience. Pls pray for me. Thank you.

And yup I'm gotta have a new man in my life next week...meanwhile happy guessing who's dat person k? Cheers!!!

Fated to meet again...

On Thu after meeting up with him, I saw Aishah Nyekngok when I was my way bak hm. Instead we ended up chatting and had our supper @ BK instead. She told me everything and I told her everything. Both of us are facing similar situations but i duno whose situation is worse. Me or her? But for now I knew dat my prob state is getting worse after I knew the real painful truth. But I guess I'm strong and still willing to hold on to this trials and tribulation and furthermore God saved me from all the evil things dat had happened around me. One mission I wana accomplish is to change the person for a better. I aint wana see victims ard anymore and I'm risking my life to this whole mission. I knoe I an't no Saint or Angel but @ least I wana see the person I love to change for their own sake n their future.

Why am I talking like this? Sumthing is wrong with me? I duno...and I think so...

Be myself...

After lots of thinking to, it's better to think about myself then thinking for others who dun even think abt themselves. Jus dun like ppl 'dun care' attidude...watever... 6 sense tells me dat I'm getting a job pretty soon.LOL. Jus need to go for interviews tomorrow afternoon. Todays' Straits Times Classified ad wasn't dat intersting thou..Haiz..

Not going to elaborate much things today. I'm gotta clean up my room b4 going out wif him in the evening. Tml I'm meeting Nora and the others..hopefully.

P/s: My photo frames dropped from the wall again. haiz....sian...

Better to blog den doing nothing...

I've been cooping myself in the room doing nothing but hey I felt 'safer' this way actually..hehe. Today I was supposed to meet up with my darling gals but Nora can't make it. So Angel cancelled it. Not sure if she meant by cancel and not having the outing again or postpone. U should know the way she uses her English language. That's how I like to make fun of her sometimes(yeah sometimes not all the time k!!!). Yeah as if my English is damn good...okok...

Contrary to fact I also really want to improve on my Malay language. I think the best is by hanging out wif Malay frens and join their conversations. Do I have many Malay frens? Hmm...susah juga eh? hehe :P But watever it is I'll improve wif the language...

I have DVDs with me now. After blogging, I'm going to watch 'A night @ the museum'. Been wanting to watch with Sitti on Fri but all seats had occupied. My plans for the week: I need to shower Bobo, Sat Fad coming over to my house to see Bobo(not me!!cheh!!!) Actually not sure lah...I'm hoping to get job asap. Did I mention this like upteen times? Yeah...

23 days alrdy I didn't meet him....*yawn*

Me & Sitti @ Vivo City!!!

New year 2007: Updates, Updates...

Yeah finally it's the new year and as usual I was home on new years eve. I'm a good gal rite? hehe..actually I was pretty tired and scared!lol I watched Ghost Game and real tru pontianak story and how they 'called' them...*goosebumps* I even had my lights on wen I went to slp. Wahaha. As far as my BF told me, he had seen them wen he was in NS. But the funny part was the ones that I watched looked so ugly and fake. Wonder if it's real onot...

Talking about BF we didn't really tok much these days. 6 sense tells me that something was amiss. He nv picked up my calls and nv reply my messages. When I visited him on Fri he didn't really talk much to me. On Sat nite he called me up and asked me 2 download 'don't go away' by Oasis. He also told me to read the lyrics as the song was dedicated to me from him...

"Don't go away" by Oasis

Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say

About the things caught in my mind

And as the day was dawning my plane flew away

With all the things caught in my mind I don't wanna be there when you're ...

Coming down

I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground So dont go away, say what you say

Say that you'll stay

Forever and a day ...

In the time of my life

Cos I need more time, yes I need more time just to make things right Damn my situation and the games I have to play

With all the things caught in my mind

Damn my education I can't find the words to say

With all the things caught in my mind Me and you whats going on?

All we seem to know is how to show

The feelings that are wrong

Guess wat I did after reading dis....I broke down!!! I knew something was wrong. I tried calling him but he never answer and wen I msg he still didn't reply..abit 'devastated' lah(partly because I have PMS!!). Fad even said if he'd meant 4 me he'll come bak while Nadirah said she'll be touched if her boyfriend dedicate this song to her.

Den in the afternoon I was on the phone wif Fad thinking of wat to do den my hp rang and it was him. He was @ work and asked me wat had happened(I msg him the other nite dat I hav urgent things to tell him). So I told him and he laughed. The best past was that we were talking like normal and laughing all the way. I did asked him wat was his purpose for him to dedicate dis sad song to me. He told me dat it's his favourite song and he wans me to memorize the lyrics so dat I can sing the song for him!!! Cheh!!!!! Wat abt the meanings to the song den? He replied that it's jus a nice song but didnt even bother to read the meaning of the lyrics..wahaha dat guy ah..really give me a heart attack. But think he knew abt it. After he hanged up the phone he msg me: "Dear...I LOVE YOU! =) u tkc orite?

I guess I think too much lah. Tell me how can I not think to much when there are many admirers giving him gifts 4 Xmas & new year?????One thing for sure I've gave him my trust and faith..dun need pressies for him...haha

On Fri I went out wif Sitti to watch movie @ Vivo City. But we didnt stay der for long cos my mind was @ town. Yup of course lah I miss him. We went to Robinson 1st but couldn't see Amanda so we went up to 4th floor instead. Den we went to Taka. I wanted my Golden Scissors bak but they still need it!!!haha

On Saturday Nadirah came over to my house for dinner and instead she spent most of the time talking to my mum instead. My mum gave her tips how to lose weight..lol I did alot of talking to her. About everything...cos it's been a long while since we meet up..

Ok pause here 4 now. But one think for sure is that 2007 is going to be a new year and a new challenge for me...and hopefully it wont be as sucky as last year! :P

CHEERS!!!!