Updates...

I'M PRETTY DISAPPOINTED OVER WAT HAPPENED JUS NOW. WE HAD TO POSTPONED OUR LONG TIME PLANS FOR THE 3RD TIME...HAIZ..ALVIN & I WERE REALLY LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE DAY. I PURPOSELY TOOK FRIDAY OFF JUS BCOS OF THIS...LOOKS LIKE WE ARE NOT FATED TO GO DER DEN...ALL THANKS TO BETTY!!!!

SO ANOTHER ALTERNATIVE PLANS I WENT OUT WITH FAHMY & FIRDAUS FOR DINNER TO BREAK FAST. MET FAHMY 1ST TO PLAY KITE @ THE SPACIOUS FIELD NEAR ADMIRALTY AREA.OUR PLAN WAS TO VISIT FIRDAUS COS HE HURT HIS LEG WHEN PLAYING SOCCER. BUT UNFORTUNATELY HE WEN BAK TO WORK. SO WE MET UP LATE EVENING INSTEAD SINCE MY PLAN WITH ALVIN WAS POSTPONED.

WEN FAHMY WENT TO FETCH HIS GF BAK HM, FIRDAUS & I HAD A CASUAL TOK. SUDDENLY HE OPENED THIS TOPIC. HE SAID HE WANTED TO FIND A CHINESE GIRLFRIEND. DEN OUT OF A SUDDEN HE TOLD ME DAT I DUN FIT TO HAV A CHINESE BOYFRIEND. I TOLD HIM TO GIVE ME @ LEAST 5 REASONS WHY. THE REASONS WERE PRETTY LAME SO I ASKED FOR ANOTHER 5 REASONS TO MAKE IT 10 REASONS IN TOTAL.HEHE..DIS DUDE CAN REALLY GIVE ME THE REASONS MAN!!! I WAS ABIT OFFENDED AND DISAGREE WITH SOME OF THE REASONS HE MENTIONED.BUT I SHUD HAV KNOWN HIM. HE'S FULL OF JOKES... HEHE

WHY I'M OFFENDED??? COS I LIKE IS A CHINESE GUYS!!! ALAMAK!!!

ENOUGH ABOUT ME...

MY MOM WILL UNDERGO A MAJOR OPERATION TO REMOVE HER WOMB NEXT WEEK SINCE THAT'S THE BEST SOLUTION FOR HER CONDITION. LOOKS LIKE WE ARE NOT GG TO CELEBRATE HARI RAYA AS WE DON'T HAVE MAID @ THE MOMENT TO DO ALL THE CHORES AND MY MOM WILL SURELY NEED LOTS OF REST AFTER THE SURGERY. IT'S OK NOT TO CELEBRATE LAH..BESIDES EVERY YEAR WE STAYED @ HOME...AND MOST PROB I'LL BE THE LOCAL MAID FOR THE DAY!!! LOL

MY JOB...

AFTER THINKING THINGS TRU FOR LONG, I'M GOING TO LEAVE THE COMPANY BY END OF THE YEAR. ANGEL WAS OUT FROM THE TEAM. SO NOW LEFT ME & NORA IN THE TEAM...SIAN ALREADY...HAVE TO B FIRM ABT MY DECISIONS MADE...

OK ENOUGH FOR NOW...GG TO SLP NOW...CHEERS!!!

Going Crazy by Natalie

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold

My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo

When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you goI just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again

I would sacrifice

Cuz the feeling that I feel within

No other man would ever make me feel so rightIts nice to smile when I get your phone call at night

But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me

I miss the way you hold me tight[Bridge]

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so much

I gotta let you know I think that we are destinyFor you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything[Chorus 2x]

Thats right baby I'm going crazy

I need to be your ladyI've been thinking lately

That you and me, yes we can make itJust ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel

From the moment that I met you its been so damn real

My heart seems to skip another beatEvery time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak

Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me

And you love me I'm your lady

I'll be around waiting for you

I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you

I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?

It's true, no frontingIts you and no other i can no longer go on without you

I'll just break down (down) [Bridge]

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch

I never thought that I could ever love a man so muchI gotta let you know

I think that we are destiny

For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything[Chorus 2x]

Thats right baby I'm going crazyI need to be your lady

I've been thinking lately

That you and me, yes we can make it

Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Ohhh, ohhh....Crazy... lady..... lately.... Ohhh ohhh..... Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh Baby...

Confessions...

On Monday I had supper with Nora. I couldn't keep it anymore so I told her about it. Surprisingly she wasn't surprised about the things I mentioned. Cos it was so obvious about it even w/o me telling. After thinking things tru...it's a fair deal. Both of us did keep something from each other. Yeah I admit I did keep and did things which he dun like behind his back. I can understand how he feels if he found out the things I did, dat was wat I felt last Saturday wen I found out...nvm..

And yup after having a talk with Nora, it does makes sense why these things happened. It's all about endurance and a test about royalty and faithfulness with another party. Nora did tell and advice me things abt him. But bottomline is accept the person for who he is...:)

I'm meeting him on Sat(finally!!!) Guess we'll gg to have a long talk and spent time together after a week of not seeing each other...:)

Things That made me feel helpless...

1) I'm maidless now

2) My mum going for surgery on next Tuesday

3) He lied to me again

4) Wat Emily(my former manager) & Veron(former supervisor) said to Nora

1) Since I'm maidless I have to be truly independent by doing all the chores. Like my mom said be responsible in whatever you do...my maid wanted to go bak hm so my mom just release her. I realised something. All the maid who have worked with my family and @ the end of the day I always didnt get to see them wen they left..wonder why...hmm

2) My mom gg for surgery to remove her cysts again 4 the 3rd time. Hope this time it'll be the last surgery.

3) He lied to me for the 2nd time. I brought up a topic he mentioned on Wed. And then he kept quiet...I got pissed but somehow he really knows how to coax me..wah wonder wat he used to charmed me ah? hmm...I forgave him once again...~soft-hearted~

4) Nora told me sumthing abt wat Emily & Veron said...I'm gg to have a long thinking to do 4 the next few weeks....it's hard...u'll only know if u r in my shoes...

Wat am I gg to do? I'm going to sleep now to think wat m I gg to eat 4 breakfast tml...hehe cos ders no1 gg to serve me anymore!!!!LOL NITEZ!!!

P/s: It's Debs bday and I dun have any contact to contact her. Happy 41st birthday DEBS!!! I miss u... I dreamt of u the other day!!!!!hehe ;)

My MC is over...

7 days passed by so fast and didn't really make use of it...haiz but somehow I did lots of thinking to do and hope I'll make the right choices in life.

I have to admit that I didn't achieved much things dis year. I'm ashamed of that. But somehow I met couple of people who have change my life but I'm not to sure if it's for the better or not...

Decision made will be done by end of the year. Now is only 3/4 of the year...

I'll still take things slowly...dun wana rush things such as my hair...have wasted $105 over a lousy 'auntie' who have damaged my hair!!! Now treatment is all I need to tame my frizzy hair

Yesterday we planned to go to East Coast together but last min he had to cover up for dat fatso Jasmine!!! I ended up meeting Mean Pin instead.

And B4 he went to sleep he smsed me sumthing. I still wonder if he really meant wat he said...

She was indeed a funny gal. But I enjoyed the times we spent tgr as buddies. Talked abt secondary sch time and how I hav changed tremendously...

P/s: Sometimes I really wonder how my sister found out abt him thou I really keep mum...does she evesdropped or sumthing? Cos she made fun of it & she treatened me...oops better be nice to her!!!LOL

I should actually sit back, relax and enjoy while I can b4 I made up my final decision rite?;)

2nd day of MC...

Finally fixed my patchy hair...yesterday was a disaster. Went to the salon with Angel at Chong Pang. The 'Aunty' did a horrible job on my hair...

and as usual I was bored and he called me to say he missed me..yup 6 days alrdy we didnt meet each other...

My hair is better. I cut my fringe and bought new clothes for work. Met up with Fahmy for lunch and told him everything. He'll 'investigate' about it...den with Ain in the evening to do our hair. After dat met up with Zech for shopping. Asked him for recommendation and he kept on disagree on the clothes I chose. From Metro to G2000 to Hang Ten...Lol. He also told me sumthing as well and I'll soon made up my mind pretty soon(",)

It's sweet dat someone wrote 4 me a poem but i dun hav the feeling of 'I'm touch'!!! I guess I'm truly the unromantic type since last time!!!!! LOL

I hope I'll meet up with him soon. Ok Ok...I MISS HIM!!!! LOL

Finally I removed my last wisdom tooth!!! Completed dem in 2 years!!! (",)

I planned to hav my heavy breakfast in the morning but ended up waking @ 11.15am and my surgery was @ 12pm...only managed to eat abit and den head to the clinic...

And finally my last wisdom tooth was removed and have collected 4 of them in just 2 years!!Yup i'm 'proud' of it!!! LOL

I slept the whole day as my gums were super painful and it looked as if I had mumps!!!

6 days of mc wef tml..wah super happy...;P

Yesterday as usual it was a pretty bz day @ work and wenever I hear phone call I fear Adel will call to ask how was everything. But some1 called me instead. He called me up to apologised which I think it's uneccessary...but he still insist...I tell you it was a lame conversation...which is why I dun really like talking to him on the phone!!!

Him: Wina I'm so sorry...

Me: Sori?? About?

Him: I'm so sorry dat i called u dat. I really didn't mean it. I truly regret calling you dat.

Me: (Laughs) huh? over dat? It's fine wif me. I'm ok and it's ok...

Him: But I really feel bad for insulting you..

Me:(Pissed) It's alright...it meant to be a joke rite? I dont take it seriously...

Ever wonder wat he actually called me? He called me a 'turtle' ~ faint~

Aiyah over dat also can argue...

And der I started to 'argue' wif him again over small stuffs. But since I was at work I made it short. Yeah he missed me...finally...('',) I mean I'm not angry wif him again but still have doubt of trusting...wat Fahmy said was totally different from wat Fad said to me. But whatever it is it's all up to me to make my choice...

I tell myself that every year I want my life to be different but more exciting as years to come. Last year around this time I was @ my happiest times of the year. How about this year? Will I be happier den last year? We shall see..;)

My week of Mc which means my week of relaxing!!!!

I'm going to have a mini makeover...to be a 'gorgeous babe'..lol like real!!!!

Meanwhile cheers for now!!!;)

It's September...Haiz

Been a long while since I blog...actually I have another blog about my complication abt my situations. After looking bak... yup I am naive I have to say...

I seriously dun like to end up locking myself in the room and cry over the things I've been tru over and over again. This time I cannot afford to make another mistake to have the regrets. Too many regrets are no good....

I remember I was told abt 7 mths ago, it's all abt trust. I have to learn to trust some1 which I think I've not for the past weeks.

Last night I was pretty 'upset' and of course jealous after wat had happened...did tok much at all even though we sat face to face and he kept on putting food on my plate and ended up not finishing it...in 'general' we were actually sad...over general stuffs.

Let's not tok abt the personal stuffs. After I got home. I badly want to cry but cant seem to cry. I asked my sis wat to do. She give me a stupid suggestion: 'GO TO SLP DUDE!!!'

So I just head her advice and went to bed at 1.30am but woke up @ 5.30am as I had a bad dream. I took a quick shower and had my morning prayers instead.

My wisdom tooth pain getting bad to worse. Worked morning shift but ended up going home slightly earlier cos it was so painful :'(

Saadiah is bak. Glad everything was bak to normal. She thanked me for helping her to get the job bak. Lets not talk about work!!! It sucks!!!! LOL

After work I met Fad for dinner. Actually I want to confide her abt the but I cant seem to. But she understands though. I only have watery eyes...yup I still cant cry it out.

I was on the phone wif Pau wen suddenly i had an incoming call. He called me. He told me dat I called him. I saw last call on my phone and I swear I didn't call him @ all!!! We 'argued' over dis things

Me: Since wen I called you?

Him: I swear to God that u called me!!!

Me: I did not!!!

Him: Yes u did..

Me: Whatever...

Him: Just admit that u miss me k?

Me: Y muz I miss you wen I just met u last nite?

Him: Dun deny it...

Me: Me missing u?.hahaha like real(in sarcastic way)

Him: Alamak just say dat you miss me ok cos I'm not der for you now...

Den we talked abt other things wen I suddenly brought up the topic...

Him: How do you know?

Me: U mentioned abt it last nite wat!!!

Him: Why are u so worried abt it?

Me:I did not!!!

Him: Jealous???

Me:Nope!!!

Him: C'on jus say dat u are indeed jealous ok!!!!!!

and hence we argued over small things again for the 2nd time

Him: Watever it is dear, I'll still love you k?

Me: haha like real!!!!

Perhaps he said dat to cool me down cos I raised my voice and perhaps I was pretty angry, sad, and jealous...

Peeps, you'll never know how it feels like unless u are really in my shoes. I an't gg to elaborate abt my personal stuffs...it's bad cos people will know!!! Haha

P/s: Fad, I'll do my best dat I can but hmm I duno wat to do leh..perhaps I need Fahmy for advices...

Next week I'm on mC!!!! Yipee!!!;)