Yeah!!! the day has come?

Ok I'll make a quick update b4 I head to sleep. Been working non-stop 4 the last few weeks. Don't mind reporting early tml as after that going to hav some fun..lol. But still have not recharge my energy yet..in few minutes time. I went to retouch my roots and I think I look better..haha

All because of tml..yup I need to look good when I'm going to have reunion with those peeps...Ok will update soon after the things happen ya? ;)

P/s: Btw Mr Near Yet So Far dropped by to bid goodbye to me..Hahaha funny rite? And as usual 'bragging' about his upcoming job...u know what Angel commented? He wanna make me jealous...oh please!!!! Better be 'far' from me...Nitez :)

Patience is the ability to count down before you blast off..

Last nite I was kinda tired but somehow I switched on my lappy and went online to see who's available to chat wif...den chat wif Wendy and I'm shocked to hear the news but actually I cud sense it as action speaks louder than words. I cudn't slp after that..tossing and turning on my bed and think about it...

But watever it is...I'll be patience for another 7 months at most to wait and see but at the same I just want people to give me some moral support(wat rubbish!?%*&). No lah I just need people to listen to my crap for the next 7 months lah!!! Duh!!!

Waiting for 1 Apr..I know it's April Fools day but I have plans liao...to have gather wif my members at DXO(it's Shervin's bday) after work...and yup bringing Pau to join the fun...and going to overnight at her house after dat. Haha...you are rite...my off day falls on Sun..FINALLY!!!;)

Gommenasai...

I'm finally home with my pyjamas at this hour. I'm tired...of being 'triste'. Last night I had a long chat wif my da-jie and she asked me wat's my next plan..after talking to her and found out what the real cause of everything that has been happening. I didn't even want to think of my next plan or the plans that I've made earlier. This time no1 can help me except 4 myself. Either I live with it or change my fate...and how long will I be feeling like dis?

Perhaps the only way that cud make me feel better by dactylographiant une lettre à quelqu'un dehors là dans les états ? Wish me luck. Thank you...:)

KAYSAN IS 31 WEEKS OLD!!!!

He has grown up so fast and shows how time really flies...

Nothing has changed & nothing has been improved...

It's nearly six in the evening, locking myself in the room, listening to a song that brought some memories while updating my blog...

I have to admit that I'm still not being myself for months. I know I cannot follow my emotions too much but unfortunately I still can't find the many answers to my questions. Maybe there's no answer or perhaps truth may hurts...I really wish I cud turn back time and change the fate and the decisions I made now...whatever it is 'some1' told me that there is something going to happen to me. Good or bad, it's all up to me to judge and change the fate if I want to...wish me the best of luck...

Quand est-ce que je peux obtenir mon bonheur encore ?

The 2 days that changed my life...

These 2 days I didn't go to work as my 3rd uncle was my priority. I was there throughout the funeral. I was the only niece dat attended the burial ceremony. I watched the whole scenario. Nope it's not the burial ceremony. It's about being as 1 at the end of the day and how my cousins reactions towards their father though they hav been saperated for nearly a decade(for some personal reasons).That touches me the most.Then his 2nd wife told me how proud he was when I was doing well during that time. 'A beautiful and talented niece of mine' and praises about me. I guess I was the only one who still accepts him for who he was? It's a complicated family matters.But whatever it is, we move on with life and pray that his soul rest in peace. Amin.

The Truth...

I couldn't believe wat I did last nite out of desperation. But at least I know the truth and I had to do sumthing before it's too late...it's so much of a coincidence...

A NEW WEEK HAS COME???

I have to admit many things had happened last week and I learnt something.

It's good to treat yourself after a long day at work. I truly enjoyed Fort Minor Concert. It's the 1st time in many months that I really treat myself to make myself happy...

Initially I tot it would be nice to have a company for my daily breaks but I guess it's better to be alone. Trust me!!! I prefer to be alone these days..no I'm not a loner. I need peace. I hate people who toks alot. That's way freaking too much!!! Glad that person understand cos it didn't impressed me at all...too bad cos I'm hard to impress!!! Only someone can... ;)

I have to make a free time of at least 1 hr a day to practice français..haha mus master b4 moving on to the harder ones. But I'm more interested in Russe actually but that'll be in 3 months time hopefully...

I'm blogging while waiting for my maid to come out from the bathroom. Till den and hope tml a better day for me. I did badly at work today. Going to change my format of my statistics of my report ltr...

Cheers!!

Cute Kaysan though he wasn't in his good mood...

My Worthwhile Thursday...

Met up with Fad in Yishun. My purpose of going there was to have 'peace' at the reservoir near my former house and I felt 'abit relieved' after going there. The last time I went there was 2 yrs back with An-Nur!!!Dats freaking long!!! Oh well it was so cool to feel the breeze and looked up at the blue sky and the clouds moving...and took pics as well ;)

Drank my favourite Caramel Frappucino at Starbucks, letting off my thoughts to Fad and kept on asking why these things happening to me and her...no answers to my questions thou..haha

Just to update what hav I achieved for the past 2 mths..

Jan- Picking up responsibilities

Feb- Climbing to the top and fall drastically!!

March-Hmm ain't gg to tell..only Fad knows. Will tell if it's working for me...Just now it was quite difficult to choose between the 2 of the things. But I chose the 1 I planned.Haha

Enjoying the breeze at the 'Yishun Pond'...wish I cud sit and enjoy the peace everyday...Maybe once a week will do..if i'm not lazy..haha

Serious thoughts? Yeah I've made some decisions which I think might affected some of my love ones..it's too early too tell now. I'm giving myself another 8mths more to think and decide again...if I make the right choice...

Wanna update my work and den do something..shh!!!~zip mouth~Cheers!!!

FORT MINOR TRULY ROCKS!!!

After last min changes, me and bro went to the concert instead. I tot we'll gg to be late cos bro was still snoring on his bed at 6.45pm!!!

Reminded me of Linkin Park concert back in 2004. Those people were really talented. B4 the show started the DJ played some music...more of a hip hop songs like 50 cents, Usher etc and ard 8.20pm the real show began...

One of my fav songs 'Where you go' where there's a lady singing the chorus. They picked Singapore Idol finalist 04 Jessea Thydor to sing.

Overall it was an awesome concert to attend..Worth the money and the fun though I

was tired and 'stress' due to workload. Bad day to start at work yesterday.

At night I confided Nadirah abt what I felt for the past months. I fear to face everything dats happening to me(it's not just about work). I really feel like running away from it. Since when I become a coward? I don't know...I guess I am one already.But one thing she adviced me was to follow my heart...(oh it more sounded like I used to use that quote to her!)but I'm just afraid I might make another mistake again...~serious thoughts begins~

Fort Minor Where'd You Go Lyrics

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,'

Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,

Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,

Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,

But now, you only stop by every once in a while,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine,

I plan to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,

And I'll tell you,

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,

I guess I've had it with you and your career,

When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

Please come back home...

Please come back home...

Please come back home...

Please come back home...