Finally a day w/o making a single mistake... 5:45am My dad started waking me up alrdy He's such an early bird...we hav to reach sch by 10am I wonder why i hav to get up so early... Reached sch ard 9 plus( We were kinda early) Waited for the rest of my classmates to get change tgr... as usual Angelynn sighed due to the no of turn ups who were on time..it's normal... I was kinda cool... didnt get excited at all or perhaps i hav no feelings..lol the ceremony was ok..got the scroll on stage but it was empty anyway after the ceremony den we got the actual cert. and today is also the day i get to noe my anonymous admirer who admires me since my 1st yr I didnt wan to meet him..mainly because I was not interested dat I jus turn him flatly..thru sms... yeah we contact tru sms(his fren approached me to ask 4 my no) and i onli noe his name until today den i get to see his real face... he went up the stage wearing his army uniform with his baret didnt really get to see his face during the ceremony onli get to see after dat I was speechless and shocked to see who he resembles..exactly the same: the eyes, the nose the way he potrayed himself and the best part, the way he talked.. wana noe who he resembles? Ans: Chester T. Ramos Do i need to say more? but i think he looks better den Chester...mayb becos he's fairer hehe watever... ok gg to take shower and pack my bag... and enjoy!!! P/s: janet told me dat I hav high chances I can get dat big project job.Insya-Allah.Amin The usual gals hanging out tgr... Janet & Me = Best routine kakis...lol Jolyn & Me Me & sis Dad & me Me finally graduate...

Full schedule... Dis week my schedule is tight bz wif stuffs but i like being bz den not doing anything managed to complete 50 styles in 2 days with Nadirah and Khadijah's help... Went 4 interview for a big production project on Thurs big project and big pay too.. Hope i'll get to the next round of interview... Tml morn is my concovation ceremony Hoping I'll b early...as i hav to be der by 9am...too early 4 me :X I have to make sure dat I WILL NOT SCREWED UP MY BIG DAY AGAIN!!! Tml I'm gg to take a short break wif my uncle...to relax and unwind and hopefully to hav fun...cos i dun remember wen was the last time i truly have fun...lol Gg to slp early..or perhaps pop my slping pill to make myself slpy...

No Pain No Gain indeed! I shudn't supposed to say dat I can finish my portfolio by today but i managed to complete it though..yup w/o enough of my slping beauty wen for my portfolio interview at 7.30pm( of all time) they complimented on my portfolio but dis time my job is not to design it's more like a merchandising job which is to go shopping and stuffs..sounds familiar?hehe dey gave me another round to go...to do extra portfolio..dis time with pics!!!in 4 days time!!!! Ok i'm giving myself a target...hmmm how many shud I do? Perhaps 30-40pics? yeah 10 each day..hehe We'll see the outcome ltr..dats wat a fashion stylist shud do...to find idea and creativity... Also called: Stylist Job Description: Fashion stylists are responsible for bringing to life a photographer or director’s vision for a fashion photo shoot, layout, music video, commercial, print advertisement, etc. Fashion stylists often scout locations, create the mood for the shoot by selecting and setting up the appropriate props, fashions, accessories, and even models to fit the theme of the shoot. Companies such as magazines, newspapers, retailers, advertising agencies, and music production companies often employ fashion stylists. Many stylists also choose to run their own businesses. Salary Range: $0 to $100,000+ Entry level pay may range from $150-$200/day Experienced pay may range from $500-$5,000/dayTop level stylists can earn up to $100,000 and more Outlook: Aspiring fashion stylists should expect to work their way to the top. The most successful fashion stylists have extensive networks of contacts within the fashion industry to get the job done quickly and on budget. In addition, clients usually hire stylists they have used in the past or those who have proven success in the business. Once established, stylists who maintain a good professional reputation can expect plenty of repeat business and often take advantage of this by setting up their own independent businesses. Ok another thing I wana announce..my 'intensive' training starts tml...wonder wat dat means? I'll tell u in a wk time...;) Go! Go! Go! Erwina...show to ppl dat u r no longer a Miss L.S.E!!!!! P/s: Pam gave her card to me but I FORGOT to put it in my folder!!! careless me!!!!!Urgh!!!!!!

Pissed! How can I not be pissed wen a stranger told me abt his assumption abt wat he thinks? I noe better so I noe wat is right and wrong I dun use the word "I think" before doin anything Instead I use "I noe" before doin anything... damn so pissed off by him...he's jus a sales assistant at Aibi..wat the heck! he cant even differenciate between 5 and 6! yeah i jus mention above..he jus make an assumption..he thinks he noes abt it...urgh... I have to finish up my portfolio by tml cos I need them to look at my portfolio by Mon..gd luck Erwina!!!

Enough? I guess it's enough alrdy... now it's time to get serious wif life... enough 4 my '2 mths' of 'break' didn't really do much cos so many things happening ard me...tell me how to enjoy my 'break' as i've mentioned b4? July is ending soon... Concovation ceremony is next week I muz prepare my portfolio by end of July... and start cracking soon! My gum still swollen due to the surgery I went to extract my 3rd wisdom tooth and it doesn't get me any wiser....haiz mayb i was jus thinking too much abt something dats bothering me for yrs...yeah years!!! told my best fren abt it...i hav to face the consequences but i'm scared...urgh!!! still cant believe dat it's been 8 yrs alrdy...wow and I can still 'tahan'..."congrats" 2 myself for being so patient!!!!

Erwina saluted her Captain cuz... 17 July 2005 I attended one of my cuz wedding... I came also on behalf of my sis, who is hiding away from ppl due to her 'ugly' body..hehe it's normal rite? but guess it's not normal cos another cuz of mine, who is also pregnant and ard same mths as her and she looked fabulous. She dun look fat...she was nv fat b4...haha Initially uncomfortable cos i was nv close or even tok to my own cuz let alone noe their names...but i jus said hi to of of dem...she's cool n frenly but the other...nah...long face throughout...chatted wif the Aniqahs and thank gdness Ain also came so it's not a really boring outing...hehe 10 mths alrdy...

Wonder wat was I counting? It's been 10 mths since my grandpa passed away and sad to say dat we hav not done anything to his graveyard since he was buried..my uncle said it's onli a wood with a plot no..not even his name...so my mom decided to make a nice 1 for him...the person who does these things came to our house and we chose the best for him...and it's onli my mom who paid everything...she dun wan to make any burden to any of her sibllings since others hav their own prob...hmm watever it is...well i believe in this quote "kindness begets kindness"...

Luck... "The golden opportunity you are seeking is in yourself. It is not in your environment; it is not in luck or chance, or the help of others; it is in yourself alone" -Orison Swett Marden.

Photoshoot... Went bak to Duxton Rd with Diana and Cao Ling to take studio pics with the gown and the motar board..have seen mine on the cameraman's digicam..quite cool but the screen was small though so cudn'e see properly. I can collect the pics wen I return my gown after the concovation...it's 2 wks from now...hehe Pau came by to my hse for dinner. Chatted wif her cos didnt see her for quite sometime(even tough it's jus 2 wks!?)haha. Made her try my cinnamon doughnut...and we chatted alot...it's the 3 of us actually..my sis was an extra! Talk abt being an Aunt...yeah I'm becoming soon.... in perhaps a mth from now..dats pretty fast!!!!Wow! Time really flies...abt our 'tsunami aftermath', maids and general things...yeah did talk abt the creole things too... Ok gtgn think i'm falling sick..sore throat and flu...it's ok to be sick at this time since no sideline projects at the moment except my portfolio( can take my time)..haha update again wen ders things to blog...chao! P/S: I realised dat I've not been really toking to my bro for quite sumtime...cos he's always been working wen i'm ard n slping wen i'm at hm...today heard from sis dat he's working full shift for 24 hrs...think den he got hm he'll Zzz immediately...hehe

The feeling of wearing the graduation gown... Diana and I went to Duxton Rd to rent the graduation gown and it was heavy though but looks cool on me and diana..hehe It's our once in our lifetime to wear this gown and mom bought me a set of new clothes from U2 for my grad day...not so formal though...i wud say it's casual smart..hehe. i'll look very mature if i wear formal outfits or ppl wud say i'm older den my sis...lol Tml Diana and I will go bak to the place to take our studio pics..hehe i wonder how i look like in pics with the gown and the motar board...~wondering~ Upgrade my Starhub line and get new hp...cos my previous phone was faulty..always hang... but I have a prob..either wif the SIM card or the phone (most prob the Starhub service). Cant seem to SMS out to anybody...very annoying...u noe!!!! Got to really do sumthing tml...easy..hehe i'll jus handle this matter to my dearest sister..lol...she's great with this thing...gd luck ppl!!!! My new hp...not really latest but at least it's working w/o using handsfree!!! hehe ;)

This wk I really hope to finish up my portfolio...I duno why i did dat for..but wat i noe it's gd to hav a portfolio wen we r looking 4 jobs..hehe Tml i'm gg out wif Diana to Duxton Rd to rent the gown for dat day...wonder y we need dat for... Dat 'Cheater' asked me to give her grace till end of July to pay me back..dat wud be the last chance i'm gg to give her..she's full of crap!!!!! "Yes I've just received my pay but is it possible for the instalmants to start end of July onwards? Cos I only worked for a couple of days in June so my salary is very tight" Nonsense...I'm really not gd in being a loanshark...haiz Watever it is jus hoping most my prob will be solved soon...so dat I be as light as a feather...no such things as all prob will be solved rite? jus some will do...:) Took Erikah's pics wen she came jus now..isn't she cute!!! All kids r cute..lol Playing with my giant Pooh...

Flawless perfecto? Couple of days ago I saw dis Malay gal in the train...she looked so perfect! Neither dark nor fair... Perfect shaped eye brows big eyes thick eyelashes cute button nose thick lips super straight teeth and very flawless skin... It was as though she jus had her extreme makeover..wah...i told my sis abt it...haha she'd full of comments..nvm..to me she looked so perfect...wish i cud be like her...can i? hehe P/S: Beauty is the eye of the beholder

My 2 happier days... Tired but happy... It's worth spending my 2 precious days wif the WildRice family working as part of the production team Lucky I wore black jacket..almost 4got dat wen u work backstage we hav to wear black..it's standard...i'm 4getful..hehe the kids (the chilli padi) were better den the previous ones i work wif...so cute and adorable and the 'best' part wen they called u 'Auntie' den i realised dat i'm alrady old to be an aunt... I also worked wif Kheng Hua(aka Mrs Phua Chu Beng) and her husband Yu Beng They are super frenly...~grins~ During dat time i was super tired and i told Janet to take 5..den i sat on the table and happened dat Yu Beng, KAy Siu were der so I joined them...we had a short conversation(me n Yu Beng) Yu Beng: I guess u really need dat break... Me: (Laugh) Yeah desperately Yu Beng: Wat's yr name? Me: Erwina Yu Beng: Hi Erwina I'm Yu Beng (exchange handshakes) Me: (Laugh) Yeah I jus watch u on TV last week..it wasTriple 9!!! Yu Beng: WAt! dat was 10 freaking yrs ago man!!! Me: haha because it was repeated telecast Yu Beng: Aiyah they cheapskate lah..i was 29 dat time...i was the hero u noe? (laugh) Me: How cum dey dun continue the season alrdy? Yu Beng: Many ppl have been asking me dat question...the producers lah Me: Icic (pretend to understand..lol) Me: So any other projects after dis? Yu Beng: Yeah quite plenty of dem...I'm still doin the tv progamme 40 on 40 and upcoming 5C. I also teach acting at LaSalle for 6 yrs Me: Wow! Cool..gtgn..still have endless things to do..Thanks 4 'dat thing' Yu Beng: You r welcome! After the show ended he n kheng hua looked 4 me n Janet jus to say bye! isn't dat sweet? and Ivan Heng, my director kept on saying 'Thank You' so many times...They jus made my day. also meet the cute Brendon Fernandez but didn't get to tok to him..hehe. Enlai was super funny..so 'hairy'..no wonder his role was Mariah Hairy..hahaha Hossan Leong was also another funny guy...he's talented...many others too were der and another Wild Rice director Glen Goei...he's charming with dat baju pengantin( with dat songket rented from a malay bridal boutique!)..yeah he's gd-looking..think he's a mixed-race... Yu Beng, Hossan Leong and Kay Siu Me and Pamela Oei after the show It was indeed very tiring..backaches and muscle pain..wah! think i'll still on my bed till evening ltr...lol P/S: No Pain No Gain...I gained happiness wen working wif dem even though it was very tiring...

I have plenty of things to say but duno wer to start and how to elaborate dem so i'll jus summarised dem.... My concovation ceremony is on the 30th July 2005. Everyday I remind myself not to make a fool of myself ever again... Read newspaper which featured Nas on the cover abt his mishaps. His 'new life' made me realised dat friendships are more treasured den personal relationships. Yup it's very true..u can see wif yr very own eyes.I see wif my very own eyes! But I noe wif his strong determination, he can move on and put his past behind him. Der will be a new member in the Satar family after my sis...indeed a gd and latest news! it's onli us in the hse who knew abt it..wow it's 'hot'...lol :) Will the name starts with an 'E' again? We'll see... I have more to say but lazy to type..gg to do my portfolio...will update again wen i'm not lazy ya:) P/S: Finally after a week suffering from bad hair days, i noe how to style up my hair alrdy..jus style the fringe and my hair will 'do the talking' ;)

Secrets safe? I realised sumtimes we really cant keep sumthings to yrself for a long time...perhaps yr darkest secrets? hehe As 4 me the person who noes everything abt me and my secrets is none other den my sister. I trust her though but as usual she loves to make fun of every single stuffs even some serious ones...hehe which sometimes i'm so freaking pissed of her!!! It all depends who can accept it or who can keep the secret. One of my aunt who came shared some secret of hers and vice versa..phew!! i'm relieved so is my another aunt...she came dis morn...actually to me it's no big deal if u r in our shoes... it all depends who u tell and whether if it's the rite time or not... P/S: I'm not wat u think by the way....hehe