Monday Blues... As usual I had Monday blues Feeling tired sleepy, restless and lazy No mood to do things...really...haiz Interview Had oral interview Kinda nervous initially I jus smiled at her which was y i was awarded bcos of my smile i guess...hehe it's jus dat I clitch at times(she told me) if not I might get a perfect score!!!hahaha kidding Jus hope wat she said jus now will come true in real life I was honoured wen she said that my CV is impressive...hopefully in real life :) Outfits done Now I'm worried... I'm worried abt my outfits even though its ready but the actual dun really look exactly like wat i've design now thinking how to enhance it confirmed dat i'm gg to put the button studs (but duno how) looked so complicated but i'll try and the swarovski studs also hope with these 2 things it'll look better my mom said it looked fine... wed gg to put on the mannequin and take picture den from there i can see rite? ;)

Tiring week... Indeed a tiring week had 2 travel here and there for 3 days consecutively Legs aching, headache(thanks to the blazing hot weather!) but at least I've meet my target My outfit is finally done!!!jus hav to collect it tml from Jewel Wat is she up to? Talking about her she is being an irresponsible contractor Laichan was rite though...haiz on fri she called me to collect it I went all the way to her place (Plaza Parkroyal) yesterday I called her but she nv picked up the phone called her upteen times I guess Not dat i was desperate or sumthing i hate waiting and I was rushing 4 time!!! Her shop was closed! that's really a pissed off for me!!!! thinking that she might go for her lunch or sumthing... I wait for 1 1/2 hrs within dat time i can finish my sewing for my mock up alrdy!!!! damn...make sure i collect it tml i hav no choice but to still take her cos i cant simply find another contractor in such a short time besides she charge me an affordable price compared to others... watever...still feeling pissed imagine if I need my stuffs on the 11th hr I'll be in deep shit if she does this again!!!!! Meeting with the chicks It was an unplanned meeting cos initially I had to stayed back to help out with Thomas' Peranakan Show but I backed off anyway we had dinner at food court den Pau and wanseen went to catch a movie while I had to rush hm to do my stuffs didnt do much cos I was feeling tired and as usual I had my weekly dose of Stephen Chow's movie 'God of Cookery', to sumhow relax and unwind...hehe;) Pobre Diabla... The story is alrdy very complicated with scandals and rivalry Yest Sandra died in a hit and run accident cos this was Rebecca doing... luckily Pichon found out the truth abt Sandra on her deathbed but still den he was still angry wif Andres...haiz now its even more complicated since Sandra is dead cos every1 is eyeing of the wealth since most of it belongs to Andres and Fiorella This story is also full of good-looking cast from Peru especially Andres Mejia Guzman aka Salvador del Solar and Luis Alberto Miller aka Julian Legazpi More cast u can look at this webbie http://www.serials.ru/overview/en/diabla.html haha..these days I have a really good dose of good programmes on tv esp on wed i hav more den 6 hrs of good programme continuously...wahahah isnt dat great? 2100- CSI 2200- 1st dose of 3rd watch 2300- 2nd dose of 3rd watch 0030- My wife and kids 0200-Bewitched classic 0230- Pobre Diala 0400- Sleeping time lah!!!

Feeling so tired dat I slept throughout till 6.30pm Den realised I had to call many ppl regarding my work and my stuffs and dey ended up calling me instead... since I've jus woke up...looks like I hav 2 catch up on things I was supposed to do jus now... and of course burn midnite oil...

Supposed to meet up wif the chicks but we had sumthing on..sorry... Bz working out on the 2nd and 3rd designs... Looking at the calendar jus realised it's gg Feb is ending soon which means ders Critical development..haiz Angelynn gave a timeline sheet and indicated that 1) 6 actual outfits to be completed on 26th Feb...~STRESS~ 2) 2 sets of outfits between 7th-11th Mar for photoshoot..(still have not source for accessories yet) and 7 others that she mention which i've not done yet except for the CD-ROM haiz...looks like March is gg to be a damn bz mth for Erwina...I've looked at my PDA liao Still not yet month of March and all the days are being booked.... When can I be free to relax and free my mind? Not for the next 2 mths!!!!Wahhhh!!!!!!

Presentation... Thinking that I'll do well in my presentation but I was wrong...damn wrong spent couple of days and nites doing it but William gave me dat shitty remarks Initially I was very angry but I managed to calm myself anyway the problem is dat he doesn't know what is my theme actually u noe he asked this stupid question: "Why is Alicia Key's music is R&B? It is supposed to be Pop music!!!" Nvm it's understood that those ppl jus noe nuts abt Black music... 2 roles in a day as a student and a Chairman... I ended up in the staffroom doing my role as a chairman during my break till I had to excused for the next class quite tiring though preparing schedules and writing of sponsorship letters What I've found now are not enough heard that I needed 30 more companies dat wud give me some more days to brainstorm which company to choose from... Weird... It was really weird for Thomas to compliment abt my designs as well as the fabrics I was so afraid to show him my mine cos I'm afraid I'll choose the wrong one again and my biggest mistake: I bought 3m of it!!!! to my surprised, he agreed wif my designs and my fabrics!!! wahahaha isn't dat great? I always feel so stressed out wenever I hav to see him abt my work but jus now it was ok... It's jus dat I need to change my open end zip to brass as well as the trimmings Gg to Arab St tml to get it... Big problem.... Everyone at hm is complaining abt my prob... and my sister had a new nick for me SMELLY FEET GAL!!! waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!:( Stinks big time man..gotta do sumthing jus not used to wearing slippers or sandles wen going out lah...haiz How????

Finally finally... Thomas FINALLY approved my designs. It took him quite sumtime to approve it as he told me "Wers yr consistancy?" Well kinda difficult to define his 'consistancy' cos we(my classmate) looked at one another's designs and commented on them... well took him abt half an hr to actually approved... now still sourcing for another fabric since i'm still sticking to the stretch denim and my task 4 the coming week is to source for more fabrics and accessories 4 the coming photoshoot in 2 weeks time Erwina finally plays her role as a chairman... I finally supervised those people who need to do their work so far we've collect the money by installment, got the addresses 4 the sponsorships send to braun buffel but no reply yet looks like Abg Izad is most prob gg to join in the negotiation if really no reply.. well wait till Wed and we'll see how... Spending 3 days doing the CD presentation Everyones wans to do their best in their work so do it which is why i work extra hard 4 it... to be due to Mon after dat den I'll den focus on my press kit looks kinda difficult after looking at Louis Vuiton press kit no worries i can do it ;) UK Funfair Went to the funfair jus now and we took 3 rides ferris wheel as 'warm up' but it was damn boring waste of my 3 tokens Next our 2nd ride... cant believe I was so ____ i always tot I'm the brave type but jus now i found out i'm not who i think actually the magadrop was so 'dangerous' until now i cud feel the fear i'm afraid i'll hav nitemare..wahhhh!!! last ride was the octopus with the kids...hahaha my 2nd time gg der i wen der wif my bro couple of nites ago we took rides upon rides wah we can tahan sia...hehe oklah will update again..gg to hav my supper

IT'S OFFICIAL: My show will be on the 26th May 2005 at the Mandarin Hotel Ballroom :) it's also confirmed dat it'll also be held at Zouk!!!! hurray!!!! but my assessment will be delayed till 2nd week of May... it's ok for me cos u noe many will not fully 100% prepared 4 aseessment if its in late April... der r also more competitions coming this year i tot of joining n Angelynn encouraged to join if i count der will be 1,2,3,4...4 big competitions ermm...mayb join some lah we'll see...hehe "open to all challenges" dats wud be my quote of the day... Ever felt unpretty b4? i always do I duno y... even wen yr frens give compliments abt yr looks... having low self-esteem i guess ders dis saying "it's ok to be ugly" so i'll jus be it... and today is simply not really my day woke up feeling very tired instead of feeling refreshed later recalled dat i actually cried in my dreams over silly things(like I fall down wen running...i noe it was crap but in my dream it hurts so bad) I cried dat bad... till i had chest pain... To be exact i hav only 81 days to do a good job for the show My cuz Abg Izad told me if his company(braun buffel) didnt approve the letter he'll join the negotiation i was touch by his words i guess he really want me to do a good job i will even if it means to sacrificed my slp!!! wahaha For now i'm working on my computerised design which means my work is all computer-related to be submitted this fri hope william will give me a gd grade cos been working kinda hard for it Wish me luck for tml cos finally i'll be meeting Thomas TO MAKE SURE HE APROVE MY DESIGNS!!!!!! been waiting 'patiently' for him... oklah gg to do my work... will update again... be prepared to hear my complains soon... chao!!!

Being absent-minded oh well like i've mention days ago dat i dun hav things to do but i was wrong... damn wrong... felt sumthing is missing...yeah indeed!!! didn't check my PDA for days wen i checked...i hav many pending work to do... and upcoming things to do.. gg to do it soon...haiz...:S

Realised dat I've been updating my blog... haha cos i hav nothing to do lah Public holiday... watch movie in the evening wif Pau not dat horror though so tot of watching Omen soon haha hope I dun get broke... Jus now was seaching of old skool songs I looked at the list of 1995 top 100 hits and saw Jeremy Jordan song in the list I rem dat his song was popular bak den so went to download all his song since sum of the songs cant be downloaded den one of his song was downloaded putting the title 'jeremy' instead of the song title so i played it... and I loved it but it was only sample does not sound like Jeremy Jordan then I check under song title and was sung by Jeremy Camp... Nv heard of him b4 so I went to his webbie to take a look at this' annonymous' artist Man I love his songs.... If u like Jars of Clay and 6pence none the richer u wud like this http://www.jeremycamp.com/tunes.html Enjoy...hehe he may not be famous but his songs are bloody nice man!!! ;)

Strong Enough God, I feel like hell tonight Tears of rage I cannot fight I'd be the last to help you understand Are you strong enough to be my man? Nothing's true and nothing's right So let me be alone tonight Cause you can't change the way I am Are you strong enough to be my man? Lie to meI promise I'll believe Lie to me But please don't leave I have a face I cannot show I make the rules up as I go Lets try and love me if you can Are you strong enough to be my man? When I've shown you that I just don't care When I'm throwing punches in the air When I'm broken down and I can't stand Will you be strong enough to be my man? Lie to me I promise I'll believe Lie to me But please don't leave....

Been alone in my room to have sum peace had fever and bones aching in the aftern it's not so bad 4 now... Not gg to think too much abt my committee group cos I really duno wat r they up to... as a chairman I didnt do much really... having this post to do nothing? not used to do nothing but really... I'm really doing nothing i cant continue my designs development wen its not approved by Thomas Can't believe I'm living in this 'boring' life!!! At least I made sum plans tml gg to watch movie wif Pau Tagalog movie 'Feng Shui' On Thu I'll be gg out wif Caixia On Fri I wana go fun fair??? jus my plans lah... Jus now I spent couple of hours doin a customised photo frame 4 Caixia I'm really 'broke'... the $$$ is saved 4 my upcoming long trip... I'm sleepy...maybe drink camomile tea to hav a nice sleep... Chao 4 now...

Week 6

I spent the whole nite doing my dissertation but ended up telling William I have not finish my work besides he also wanted me to add things here and there... In my holiday mood liao... dun really care abt other things wat m i gg to do during the holidays? well going to hav a 'crash' course of photoshop redo my dissertation perhaps redo my croqui... Jua wanna occupy my time... Teachers... Was walking back home Saw Mr Siva (yss PE teacher) We chatted 4 a while Glad he still remembers me despite my blonde hair...hehe I still remember when he drove me hm during sch hours and most gals gav dat look on their face mayb they were jealous... of course lah during dat time I 'ya-ya papaya' standing and walking very close wif him and sit at the front wif him... isn't dat 'great' he even waited patiently 4 me wen i took my old sweet time packing my stuffs cos i was really not keen on gg to OBS but it was a nice trip though in YSS i dun really hav a fav teacher though but i like Mr Henry Low (EM & AM teacher), Mrs Simmi & Mrs Tan... Lucky Star loves Mr David Lim for goodness sake but after she told me the reason y, i think its kinda 'unfortunate' to hav a form teacher like him hehe enough abt the past... look ahead.. he said YSS is finally renovated mayb looks better den b4 hav to look at it one fine day wen i'm free...

I'm supposed to be chatting wif Pau and wan seen but ended up chatting wif another person..haha I jus entertain him since he needed company kinda long time nv chat wif him since Mardelin's wedding Tml gg to follow Pau to her friend's birthday party I'm gg to hav a long day tml it's better den slacking... hahaha

Week 5

It's Feb and it's the 5th week alrdy... Life's been sian lately so I make it more interesting by buying the 1st season of CSI and watched the whole day I like the episode wer those 10 passenger mobbed the murderer ands they were let off jus like dat... And 1st time I saw Gil Grissom throw tantrums and shouted "son of a bitch!" I began to like him instead of Nick Stokes...haha

How to move on to next stage of my work when it is not been approve yet... it'll only be done this coming Sat wat am I going to do for the next few days? well slack and slack lah!!! hehe

I was told from Simon dat the other class had already engaged the models from M5 without discussing wif us? dats not fair dun u think so? I wud take for my group at least some well-known agency like Mannequin so dat they can wear our outfits nicely Seen the model's portfolio and quite impressive plus they are gorgeous too! then they also told me abt one of the local agency which is not good and they told me alot of negative things abt it man oh man...poor models who r with dat agency... but those are jus one side of the story i jus listen to it... Thomas said diff thing Angelynn said diff thing Shervin said another diff thing who to believe? I'm such a lousy leader...:S

And hey I hav a good news to tell but I'll tell u soon k...hehe so keep guessing ;)