A quiet Sunday

It's been a long while since I updated this page. As usual I will say I'm bz with my life. So far 2010 has been a great year and going smoothly in terms of financial, relationship, family and carreer. Hope it'll be this way in the long run. At the same time I was reading my previous blog in Jan 2009 and I'm in the position right now. I've learnt alot that time when I was in that position when I was a TL in TD. Now I can't afford to make such mistakes anymore and have to prove that I can do it this time. All I need is support and time for me to get used to everything...

Relationship wise, as I've said previously, I'm contented. It feels like I'm 'just' attached and still in my 'honeymoon' period. I know it sounds weird but we did not even quarrel but we do have some disagreement over some issues but we make a point to talk things out and resolved at the end of the day. Seriously what will I get in return if I were to quarrel and argue over small little things???

Family, so far everything is alright for now. I'm concern about what's going to happen next year if my Dad decided not to work anymore. What's going to happen to the house? Will my sis & her family still stay together with my Mum? Who is paying for monthly morgage and bills if I'm not around? My mum did express her concern and her plans but I'm not sure if it's going to work. We'll just have to see...

Portfolio wise, this time I'm doing origami jewellery and have start off with earrings. So far so good and need more feedback to improve the quality of the earrings before proceeding with the next step. I also intend to take up a new hobby soon when I saw Ah Bee bought a nice cool camera, to learn how to take photo professionally so that I can take nice shots of my project.

How about myself then? After some thoughts, I want to wear braces. I know people will say I'm crazy when I have straight teeth but if you look closely, my teeth are slightly slanted and I'm being self-conscious! Joreen has some contacts to get cheaper rate of about $2000++ compared to normal rate of $3000+ and above.We'll talk about it only when I get my bonus in October 2010. I'm also trying hard to gain weight by eating weight gain pills and exercising to build muscle mass. Hope to see some difference for before Hari Raya. I'm growing my hair now but it feels like ages to wait till shoulder length. I feel like doing something already.Maybe before Hari Raya or before New Year?? haha :P

This week will be a bz and boring week but with a long weekend due to National Day. Till I update again.

Relaxing...(",)

It's the weekends again and kinda relaxing at home at my own pace in my bedroom with Bobo. He's recovering well(going to the vet cost me $105 mind you!!) and no more bad breath, which means all the more he can get 'closer' to me...hehe :)

Initially I planned to redo my hairstyle and after some thoughts I decided to change my style instead. I can tied up my hair already!!! So I'm going to have those bohemian relax style with hairbands and loose clothing from tomorrow onwards..for a try!

Looking forward to checkout the flea market @ The Arts House tomorrow, meet up with the Chicks after work on Monday, to Resort World and another Flea Market @ Jurong Safra on Saturday and Rifqah's birthday celebration @ East Coast on Sunday! Last but not least 1 day trip to Batam on Labour Day with ex-TD colleagues!!!

Will planned for more meet ups with the others soon..

ANOTHER NEW MEMBER IN THE FAMILY

As expected, my sister gave birth on 29/03/2010 to a 3.5kg healthy boy. His name is Kaysi Areez. He has the features of Kayden but he's darkest of the 3 boys. This time my mum is excited and and happy to welcome this baby that she smiles every single time she carries Kaysi. How about the Kaysan and Kayden then? We took turns to take care of them but for me since I'm 'sucks' in managing the kids, I handle the house chores instead! So far Bro's relatives did not come during the weekends as Ayu just give birth yesterday and all focus on the new baby in the hospital instead. So at least our weekend were not so tiring. I managed to shower Bobo, create new recipe, clean the house and start a new hobby; doing ORIGAMI!

About 2 weeks ago I bought a book on Origami and how to be creative to make the origami to origami jewellery, which not many do. I wanted to givw it a try to see how creative am I to make to earrings/brooches/necklaces. Will update you soon on the outcome. I'm yet to buy the materials at Textile Centre. Remember I used to hanged out there for hours to choose materials for my school project? That was like...hmmm 5 yrs ago! Time flies so fast! And yup I'm turning a quarter century old next month and have planned what to get for myself fo my 25th birthday.

What to expect this month; wanna catch up with Nazar, Rani, Nadirah, Joreen, Pau and Wan Seen respectively. I would also want to check up some flea market at The Arts House and Jurong Safra so that I can know how to go about selling out my unused clothes and earn some extra cash. Last but not least, on the 24 Apr, for the first time I'm going to Universal Studio. Yup suaku and excited.

Soul searching & self reflection in progress...

It's almost a month since I updated my blog. Nothing much happening around me or I just can't be bothered with the things around me perhaps...I don't know actually. As far as I'm concern now, I'm doing some self-reflection and soul-searching this month and prefers to be alone as much as I can...

My sis going to give birth soon, most probably on the 29/03/2010. It could be earlier or later but now it seems that her stomach is going to burst anytime soon. So 'scary'... Not much of preparation since most of the things will be reused since it's going to be a boy again. At least for now the front room is more spacious now. The massage bed has been sold and replaced with the single bed I bought from Pau. I don't know if that room is still going to be a room or a 'large storeroom' we'll see as time goes by...

As far work is concern I'm doing good. Productivity at 94.8% and audit at 100% for month of Feb. Not bad for a staff who has been working for half a year. Keep it up Erwina! hehe :) And I'm the only survivor in my batch since Pow Sern's leaving end of the month..haiz. Nvm...people leaving for a reason...and people stay for a reason as well...

And yeah finally I did something to my hair. I curled it..Somehow similar curls I used to have back in 2008.Finally I look different. My mum cut her hair too...mullet style! No kidding and now she dislikes it! haha..

For the past week I've been doing soul-seaching and self-reflection and realised that I spent really little time for myself. I always put others first before myself and I find that by doing all this, I really neglected myself. My 'soul' is crying for attention..and yes I'll put myself 1st from now on...I know I sound very selfish but it's for my own good and my future as well. Maybe for this month (laughs).I also read my post since 2005 and have closed many chapters to those stories and it's good in a way that I can refresh my memories about things that happened to my life (knowing that I'm a forgetful person!)and finally understand why things happened(ref to year 2006)It's for my own good anyway.Anyway those were in the past, looking forward to the present...

Today I did some plannings for the next few weeks especially after Jinjin last paper. A way to treat him after study so hard for his exams :)

Quote of the moment: "You must motivate yourself EVERYDAY. "- Matthew Stasior

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2010

Long weekends but 1 day left...yesterday I went to Jinjin's house for CNY gathering. I wore this cute blue cheongsam top with jeans. Haha. It was a nice gathering though with lots of food but ate only few slices of pizza and a chicken drumstick...shy lah...hehe :P

Finally today I get to relax at home. How I define relax is when I'm able to do the chores and do my own things with peace! Enough abt getting beauty sleep. I'm not like that anymore.(yeah rite!).

I guess this month it's going to be relax at work due to CNY period and promised myself to take care of my health. No more MC already. My incentives got affected pretty bad due to my 1 week MC last month when I looked at my payslip for this month. haiz...but never mind, I can still save though. That's my top wishlist for 2010. Jinjin once told me this quote; 'It's not about how much you earn, it's about how much you save' and I truly agree 100%.

FEBRUARY 2010

Nizam finally got hitched during the weekend. It was Kayden's 3rd birthday as well. Though his wedding was kinda simple but overwhelming with so many guests that I stayed upstairs instead. It was also due to my menses cramps...it was unbearable. Unfortunately I didn't take pictures because I forgot to bring my digicam...

"The real test of true love is having all the things go wrong but there is always special way to love in spite of all the wrong things that may happen..."

Well the word 'marriage' is kinda subjective. It depends how people define it. Some get married because they love their partner while some others got hitched because of such circumstances their partner happens to be pregnant. Or some women wants to get married because they expect their partners to support them and etc. People get married for so many reasons. I brought up this topic because I guess many close people around me are getting hitched this year.

For Nizam I guess he's really fated to be with Siti despite him being a 'playboy'(I'm not kidding!). I guess that was in the past. He's happily married now. For Nadirah's issue, she went through lots of obsticles especially when it's close to her wedding which is like 4 mths from now. I think she need to plan for alternatives in order to really settle down with her partner.

How about me then? How I define the word 'marriage'? Though I think it's still a long way for me but sumhow I begin to understand a lil bit of it.(I guess?) Of course it all started when a man meets a woman and falls in love. Then they are in a relationship. Soon after they begin to understand each other and their differences and accept one another for who they are. Soon as the relationship blossomed they began to talk about going a step further: Planning for the future and what lies ahead of them. Then putting the plans into actions by settling down..THE END! I have to put a 'full stop' here otherwise the story will never end.. I guess I may only know the real meaning of 'marriage' only when time really comes. As of now it's about how I cherish my realtionship with my boyfriend and love him for who he is...as well as his family. A typical advice given by my mum; If you love someone, you'll have to love his family as well and vice versa...

"The purpose of relationship is not to have another who might complete you, but to have another with whom you might share your completeness."

1 week of MC...

Finally I was unable to access to this page these few days as I've actually forgotten my password. Gosh!! It's alright cos I remembered now..hehe

I'm on MC this whole week as I have HFMD. Yup that's Hand, Foot and Mouth Disease. Thanks to the boys at home. They got it first early of the month. I've been in the room since last Sat mainly surfing the net and read magazines and story books. Furthermore my sis cant move around that much and my mom's sick and as usual being ordered around. How I really wish I can go out and have a life. Yeah I will on Saturday. In the morning I'll have MOM team bonding at Fort Canning Park, then High Tea at Orchard and ard 7pm I have Makeover by L'oreal at Wisma Atria. For once I wanna see myself looking 'gorgeous'...hehe

Last Sat I attended Caca's wedding though I think I was already infected by HFMD that time, it was for a while. I went there at night and Anu was there. Not really close with her before in school but she asked me a lame stupid question:"What are you doing now?" and I replied "Working(fullstop)". That's all she wanted to know from people and nothing to be proud of at age 24 and taking Masters at NTU cos the has zero experience in working life. Yup no experience in working life.

For me it's not really about achieving one's desires. It's about how you feel when going through that phase of life and living moderately with contentment.

I emphasized on this because some people have been talking alot about 'the future' and the people are 'planning for them' and you know as usual 'bragging' about it which I think it's truly no big deal. But as for me I stick to my own thumb rule; being low profile at all times! But unfortunately being low profile, people also talk..I rather go to' outer space' lah! Help!!

It's going to be end of the month soon. Looking forward to Feb 2010; many events coming up!:P

GOOD MORNING

It’s quite early in the morning and glad I’m on leave today so that I can rest and relax more. I have completed my 1st part of the chores and will be doing more soon. I’m feeling much better after having low blood pressure during the weekend. I could hardly open my eyes and walk properly. I’m waiting for another result after taking some blood test. It cost me $120!!! But for my health sake I have to say it’s alright to fork out that much. I might have other illness as well. I guess it’s in heredity from my mum…

For the next 2 weeks I’ll be up for a challenge in order to save money as part of my New Year resolution. For a start, I will only bring $10 a week and to put my ATM cards at home unless I’m going for marketing and settling bills during the 1st few days when I get my pay. I don’t see a need to spend as I always pack food from home for my lunch at work I will updates if it works for me. I’ll only indulge on fast food perhaps only during the weekends as a treat at the end of the week.

I’m also planning another trip; to Hong Kong. I’m trying to get the best deals at a low cost. Bangkok trip was a success! We did not overspend. Instead we still left quite a lot of ‘baht’ at the end of the trip despite the taxi driver cheated on us. This time I’ll be in charge. Most probably I planned to go in July for sightseeing for 4 days 3 nights.

For my health sake, I’ve decided not to be a vegetarian already. I will eat more chicken, beef and mutton. Eat every 3-4 hrs. Drink lots of water and will start playing badminton and rollerblading soon. At home I’ll try to ride on the stationary bike for 5 minutes a day for the next 2 weeks. Have a good night sleep for at least 7 hrs a day.

I’ll also monitor the expenses at home. I found that we have overspent many ‘wants’ instead of ‘needs’. At least if we cut down all the unnecessary things, it’ll help my parents a lot and to ensure my mum will not spend 'generously'. It’s quite difficult to talk to her about it as she may get offended. I’m not going to pin point if it’s my sis or my mum fault. I’ll try to be fair and square if possible.

Happy New Year

Finally a new year has begun and welcoming more new chapters in time to come. Looking back at 2009 many things happened both good and bad and learnt a lot from there.

Beginning of 2009, there’s where I thought I want to move on with my life by quitting TD but Gwen gave me a chance to be a TL. I did not take the advantage of the time idling since TL has the privilege to so. I spent more than 12 hrs each working day and even off days to cope with so many things alone but in the end my efforts go to waste. Someone got that permanent post despite her numerous/uncountable MCs in a month!!! Yeah I know she feels guilty about it but I decided to move on. I tendered on 28 May 2009 along with other TL coincidently.

For once in my life during my notice period I took MC like no body’s business. I broke my own record by taking 14 MC in 6 months. I know it’s not a lot compared to others who has their own nicks such is MC Kings/Queens. But who cares about that right? After leaving TD after 30 months made me realized that one must not be too attached with her job just because there are good companies of colleagues. People moved on. I moved on though I feel sad that I’m leaving my good buddies there. Did anybody care after that? Not at all!!! Now I’m with MOMCC and coping well and managed to have time for myself and others and learning not to be attached too much. I also learnt to appreciate weekends. For 30 months, working on shift work, I do not know the meaning of Public Holidays and weekends. Imagine if I’m still working with TD, I’ll be like a fool as an agent, working on a New Year and answer ‘stupid’ calls. Why I define ‘stupid’? It’s because all those things are ‘wants’ of people. It’s not really a need…especially that membership thingy.

Another highlight of the year, after 30 months of being ‘single’, I’m finally attached. As usual my taste is weird so now I’m with someone different from others. Mixed race (Indian and Chinese) and rhymes with my name. I realized that we do not have a lot of things in common. It’s our respective differences that brought us together. That’s where all the more we learn things from each other. So far so good, though we have been together for quite sometime, it still feels like honeymoon period. Does that that mean I’m ‘crazy in love’? Perhaps…

About myself, I still think I’m not the Erwina I used to be. Sometimes I wonder where can I get my confidence level back and be the Exquisite Erwina people used to know. Now I’m still low profile, plain looking already, goes to work without wearing makeup and my hair is short and black and super skinny at 41kg!! I guess I really need to turn my own life around…another makeover for myself. This time I will give myself till my next birthday. Gosh I’ll be a quarter century already!!! Top 5 things to do…

• Gain back my baby fats to my original weight at 46kg

• Exercise or play sports at least 3x a week to be active

• Keep my hair long then later will decide to either curl or rebond it

• Monthly Microdermabration at dermatologist

• Get toned body by doing workouts and play sports

My family, so far it’s alright. My mum turns 56 today and till going strong. My dad still working despite his age at 60 where many retires. As usual my dad is a workaholic and hope he’ll retire soon without thinking so much about his financial status. I understand where he is coming from. I guess we have broken record. 7 of us staying under one roof and imagine on monthly basis our marketing and the bills would cost? My mum always said its fine which I think in time to come actions must be taken definitely. Nothing comes for free!!!

Quote of the day: “Do not believe that a high income and a big house can bring peace. It can never be so. Nothing can bring you peace but yourself”

Selamat Hari Raya 2009

Finally it's Syawal. This year instead of staying home we went out to go visiting.As usual I felt like vomiting and headache. But 'glad' I'm not the only one experience it. People will conclude that my sis will have those sign but it's the other way round. hehe...majority were there except Uncle Rasit and family and some others. Just hope that things will be alright. It's Syawal...the time for you to seek for forgiveness. My family wore gold and got my baju on the eve of Hari Raya at the bazaar! We did enjoyed ourself despite being very drowsy(cos I took medication for my headache!).Just look at the pic above..hehe:) As for my work, I'm having intensive training for 4 weeks. Today I wana do revision to prepare for tomorrow. It's definitely not easy though. There's this saying 'susah sekarang, senang kemudian'...