Ossu!!! Blogging again, Live at Jurong West Library!!!
Was applying for a job at IRAS but the page loads so so slow.... wanna die sia.... sianz~ shld I give up? shld I give up?
And so, I sent out some resumes, enough to comfort my conscience for the moment. Am hungry and I wonder if he is hungry too.....
Sonja~ Bye bee~
Explodreamer blogged at 1:31 PM
Blogging live at Jurong West Library!!! Damn! I have to work harder to try and find a job. My dad's frightening me with the information that his factory might be closing down in both March and May. Ie probably 2 mths with no income at all.... So I MUST FIND A JOB BY FEB!!!!
Die sia... really Die sia...
Pls... anyone with any crap lobang, pls throw to me! Thanks in advance!
So now, I'm at the library trying to find a job and do my pre-course assignment. It asks abt information on a different country and its culture! Of course I'm gonna do on JAPAN!!! Ta-daaa!!! But writing abt Japan on a Biz point a view... chotto... muzukashii na... datte... doesnt all those freaky stories in the workplace originate from Japan??? Ie bad employee benefits and u slog to death literally.... hmm, hope this time my research may bring a hopeful light on my impression. Kyahaha
Plans, plans...
Tmw, MIGHT be gg to SOYA. I'm not gg to cosplay without PQ sia... and sadly, she injured her thigh and might not be able to cosplay. Then Teck Yang (I can do that now liao right? Feels weird though) says that he has urgent duties to attend to in school and so yea, we can't visit him for the new year. So instead, Liyana suggested to meet outside for our own activities. Hmm, didn't reply her email. See how first bah...
My plans to cosplay as Paako is gone cos, well the ponytails didn't work out fine. Became silver instead of white. But I kinda liked the silver. Sianz~ dun get to use my wig yet... Haha... So PQ and I decided that we shld do both Kestuno and Hanano announcers :D But then again, its tentative cos we have to see how PQ's feeling.
Not such a great week cos June's facing some negative news in her family, hope she feels well and all...
Looking forward to see Kai in his cosplay. He looks decently good from his MSN DP. And curious to take a look at WS ver of Marisa. Kyaaaaa~ Finally I can recognise some characters from Touhou! Hahaha... so jia lat sia... me....
This Sun gg to CS with Kai, WS (I assume so) and June. Too bad we got the older machine... but as long as can sing, I'm happy liao :D Need to borrow money from Kai-sama, if not... I'd be so broke till I eat my own fingers liao.
Have an interview next Tuesday at UOB. I SERIOUSLY HOPE I CAN GET IT! It has the ideal work time that I want and I dun mind working halfday on sat! Heck care abt it being customer service la... as long as i can get some income.
Currently at the library with Aaron. Seriously, it happened pretty funnily. Last nite he msned me for the first time since... a year ago? Then we chit chat rather briefly. I mentioned abt visiting a manga rental shop to read manga and he says 'what time u gg?' And so we have it. Two sleepy idiots sitting on the floor at the Jurong West library. One of them reading '''Garfield and the other blogging. Later I'll have to call the rental shop to ensure it's still open and then in the noon, we're gg there... kyahaha.... GINTAMA, HERE I COME!
Explodreamer blogged at 10:34 AM
Monday, January 26, 2009
Shucks... lost the motivation to blog due to some reasons and 'truths'. It's kinda sad and frustrating when things dun go the way I expect it to and I hate it when I'm being manipulated without my knowledge. That's one more critical hit sia... I so hate myself for not being a total bastard. I seriously need a super villian to supervise me during my evil activities. Where the hell is Magus when I need him?!
Anyways, happy CNY!
And so...... I spent the eve night watching anime. Well, to be exact, Macademi Wasshoi and To aru majutsu no index. Macademi wasshoi was, IMO, a typical harem, ecchi anime with the main male being victimised every other ep... I still think Maburaho is better......... cos well, at least the main male in Maburaho is really dubbed by a male seiyuu - Sakaguchi Daisuke.
To aru majutsu no index rox! It's about a Sister who memorised grimoires in her brain and was somehow on the run from a certain evil organisation. She accidentally falls onto a dormitory balcony and the student who lived there found her. Now, this anime involves both magic and esper powers! Two favorites in one well done anime! It was good to see how magic is defined to be an artificial imitation of esper powers but I'm not gg into details. There's no super bishonen or bishoujo in the anime, but I found the action to be amazing... The plot twist seemed to be cliche at first until the main male loses his memory permanently! Now that's what I call originality.
Kai was nice to let me emo to him for a while... and so I've decided to HECK CARE AND IGNORE THE WORLD UNTIL NECESSARY.
Today went to watch movie with my mum.... we watched the Wedding game. I'd say it's worth a wkday ticket price and not the $10 per person price. I find the first half of the movie entertaining and then it slowly became a little boring after that cos mainly it was Christopher Lee telling the story from his POV. It's kinda irritating to the degree tat its similar to MikiShin's monologue in Shinyakan na Netsujou.
I had lots of stuff in my mind to do... one of them is attempting a good original fic tat i can post on FP.net. Then I'll have to complete Candyline and... haha, i have another sadistic idea for a fanfic featuring Sa-chan! I'm gonna have fun doing this... I did another chap for Gintama-Tsubasa xover, but didn't post it yet cos somehow I know something's lacking in it and yet i dunno wat it is. Then I still have my bl novel to finish, and twilight to finish and Infoquake to look for... It's not in the library... sianz~ I kinda like Infoquake cos the lingo's not tat bad and I found it easy to imagine the technology described in it. And talk about crazy evil anti-hero... that's fun! Ah, but I'm only at Chapter 4 of the book nia... haha.
Wanted to complete Fire Emblem initially, but couldn't find the motivation to do it. I digged out a pc game that I bought at Popular. Its called Vampire Hurts. It's about a young man who encounters a vampire (he doesn't know that initially). The vampire bit him after they had a little disagreement and he bit back the vampire in protest (they bit each other on their arms). So now u have 30 days to find a way to cure urself before u (the boy) turns into a vampire and the vampire turns into a human and dies off. It's ARPG and the only thing I'm not used to is that I can't save state (and cheat!). Saving is troublesome too cos I only have one place to save at. There's a lot of clicking involved too such as attacking and using magic. But all in all, I still find it a decent game when I need a no-brainer to occupy me.
All right, gonna stop bloggin here.. maybe I'll have some activities tmw bah....
Explodreamer blogged at 9:39 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Happy Chinese New Year!
Here's a greeting that I received from Michelle. It's made by her. Enjoy!
http://www.kokmi.com/blog/images/CNY%202009.swf
Explodreamer blogged at 11:53 AM
Friday, January 23, 2009
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
Warning: This is a rant. Yea~ so if you wanna gloat at someone's unhappiness, you've come to the right place. Pls allow me to scream SHIT, FUCK.
Right now, at this moment, I feel like Gintoki at the time when people suspected he had an affair and 'made' a baby from it. Nobody listened to him when he tried to explain.
NOBODY LISTENED. Well, at least, nobody he cares LISTENS. Nobody listens to MOI.
Ugh. I'm fine with not listening. But not at a time when I'm fretting and stressed. Like, could you listen to me for once? It frustrates me when you know it's a fucking damn habit that the person has for her whole life. Ie, you can't change it. Ie, she doesn't listen =.=
It's very irritating when you decide to do something, happily preparing for it. Then you happily tell the news about what you're gonna doing. It's very exciting. Of course you'd wanna spread the news. Then you get a negative response. That's all right. Not everyone has the same reaction to the 'good' news.
It irritates me when she says 'Don't do it.' or 'You can't do it.' or 'You're not allowed to do it.'
Why?
'It's a waste of time.'
I have time to waste. And it's not wasting anyways. I'm doing something for myself.
'Why don't you spend the time looking for a job?'
I did. How many more times do you need me to remind you? I FREAKING DID TRY TO FIND A JOB. NO ONE WANTS ME. THE PROBLEM'S FUCKING NOT WITH ME. And, I'm busy with my projects. I'm busy with my exams. Oi, listen to me before you walk off... I'm studying... hello???
'Why do you keep doing ur projects/studying exams so long? Last time during poly, you didn't study at all.'
Is that a compliment? Can I take that as a compliment? HOW THE HELL IS IT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO SCRAP A PASS WITHOUT STUDYING? In case you didn't realise, I study in school when I'm in poly. That's why you see me gaming when I'm home. Now, I have no proper school (cos it's too far) to study at, and so I'm doing it at home. Just. Stop. Saying it as if I'm doing something stupid. It's frustrating. And irritating.
'It's a waste of money.'
It's money I wanna spend on. That's not a waste. I'm thinking, even though I seem not to. How come you can't figure it out after 21 years? What the hell were you doing?
'You never think properly in advance. That's why you can't find a job and you don't have an income. You're lucky that you have someone supporting you.'
I'm supposed to be lucky for that? Am I? Wait... I'm not allowed the fucking damn priviledge that other kids have?! Someone please teach me how to explain in layman's term what is burnt out. Cos she has no fucking idea how damn stressed I am from the previous job. It's almost a fucking trauma if I were to have given in to my emotions. And yes, even after three months, if I let down even one defense wall down out of my numerous firewalls, I freak out. I TRUST YOU to help me when I'm stuck. That's why I can decide to do things on my own pace. Sounds irreponsible, but it's not. Ugh... you have no idea how much fucking $%&*$&*^&*@#$ stuff I have to go through to let you know what I want.
I'M FUCKING WORRIED THAT I CAN'T MAKE IT WHERE I CAN PURSUE MY DREAMS AND COMPLETE THEM IN TIME. I only have five years to spare. And that's already stretching it. FUCK ME FOR BEING A BASTARD. I'M DAMNED FOR BEING WHO I AM.
And thank goodness for my pride that keeps me from cracking up. Else, you'd see me in IMH.
FUCK YOU, ALP =.=
Oh a lighter note, I found one side of my wig for quite a cheap price! Gonna experiment it this Sun. It's made of human hair, so I can curl and spray it. Hope it turns out well. And heard from Pearly that Akamaru Jump has a fake Gintama movie poster. Hoshii na~
Explodreamer blogged at 9:30 PM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Woo hoo~ Cleared HRM exams! Next sat is econs sia =.=
I GOT A SHOCK WHEN I SAW THE EXAM PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cos only 2 out of the 4 qns I picked out from past year paper came out @_@ yes, Ms ALP is lazy. Super lazy. So much so that she picked 5 qns to prepare. EVEN THE BACKUP QN DIDN'T WORK.
I studied on Job Analysis, HR planning, T&D and Global staffing. Ended up doing qns on Union (love my memory for remembering this. At last my brain worked for once!), Performance appraisal (thank goodness I read abt this during my project), T&D and Global staffing. Forced myself to write at least 1 page and a little out for all questions. I mean 25 marks leh.... I just simply can't believe writing 1 page will get me the marks and I have no faith in my quality of the answers... But should be able to pass bah~ DO OR DIE MUST PASS! Haha...
The first person left the room at ard 8.30pm. What the hell.... she finished it within 1hr 30min. This is gonna get unbelievable if she gets an A. The next few people all left around 9pm. I was in the third batch, leaving at around 9.30pm. It's a 3hr paper from 7-10pm.
I must say... cos invigilators have to speak quietly in the room, they tend to lean close to each other. BUT PLEASE LAR, NEXT TIME CAN ARRANGE A MALE-FEMALE PAIR OR NOT? Ppl like me get distracted VERY easily de le~ (zz... I nid to cure my BL poisoning soon)
Right, time for something fun. I'll talk about the videos I posted for the past few days.
Gyaku manga biyori. And the Gintama ver. The story goes like this:
It's the last day of humankind before some kind of asteriod smashes Earth into bits and pieces. And so, on this special last day, a Japan television did a program for this special day. The first (naked) guest is a Enka singer who says he hates enka to the degree of ice cream and sth disgusting (din catch that). The 2nd guest is a supposedly underaged pop singer with dead eyes, who admits she digs her nose at home, had an affair with her manager and is actually of legal age to smoke. It also turns out the enka singer was a fan. When she was requested to sing a song, she burped. The 3rd guest is a ventriloquist. He says that his best buddy is not the doll but (then signals with a seemingly OK sign with his hand) money. Then proceeds to hit his doll as his 'performance'. The last guest is a magician who claims he couldn't do magic at all but has supernatural powers. And how does he prove it? He decides to prevent the asteriod from crushing Earth. Now all the other guests panic cos they've done pretty bad damage to their image and well, the magician didn't listen and saved the Earth. Ouch. For the other guests. Esp the enka singer. No matter what, he can't save himself, as said by the host.
So then, it's funny when u see Shinpachi as the host, Kondo as the enka singer, Gin-san as the pop singer, Zura as the ventriloquist and Takasugi as the magician. Very peeeeerfect! XD
The most recent video song is a homemade ver of Wind waker's theme. Got it from June's blog. It's really wonderful and you can dl the mp3 if you want to. It's very beautiful so do check it out.
Well then, i go slp le... nitezz
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Friday, January 09, 2009
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Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Blogging.... a little thoughts and updates abt my life.
Been preparing for exams, writing notes for HRM which is this Sat. Then preparing for Econs next wk, which is on next sat. Tmw will be trying past yr paper to see if anything got into my brain; somehow it just feels empty.
Then one night, while chatting with Kai, he sort of reminded me of Fire Emblem. I dled it and played it again... this time it seemed to be better than before. The last time I tried, I didn't dare to play too much at the arena (cos if your char, he's gone foreve). This time, I trained almost everyone of them at the arena and earned loads of money to buy me wpns for the training at the Tower of Vali. Yes, this time I feel rich and powerful. All my chars are reaching level 20!!! (that's the limit)
And so, I realised I study for 2 hrs, play for 1 hr, study for 1 hr, play for 3 hrs, study for 1 hr then I go to slp at nite. Hmm.......... at least i'm making progress in my studies......... LOL~ But hope it doesnt get in my way for econs. I partly hope there won't be trouble when I'm revising for it. Mathematics really make me shiver. I'm just so afraid of economics.
Now for something fun.
A little warning, below content maybe 18+ depending on your own level of perverseness.
I realised sometimes 2D is so much better than 3D. It happens for me especially when it comes to BL. I really thank the mangakas for beautifying the male characters in their stories.
Yes, I started a bit of gay '16151814' (too embarrased to spell it out). Still.... i wish I get to see those kansai boys at it... they seem cuter....
So yes, after watching -bleep-, I lost all my inspiration for my bl fics. Damn adult world... I HATE YOU! XD And then I recovered again when I decided to listen to my bl drama cds in my mp4.
NAKAI KAZUYA! Lol~ Hijikata from Gintama. He's the seme, acting as a gangster, who's rather cute when he's embarrased and well, basically has sex with his uke every other day but somehow maintains a not overbearing dominating character.
KOUJI YUSA! Urataros from Kamen Rider Den-ou. At last I've heard one of his BL drama cd! LOl~ but as what had happened with Miki Shinichirou, my first time of he was him doing uke. Yes, he's Nakai's uke. An ane-san. Strong lawyer. Smexy lover. I love these experienced actors. They're just so good at MOANING.
So, the both of them are in this drama cd titled Kono Ai ni Hizamazuke. Nice title. And hot smex. And funny plot. It's funny when you hear men (the gangsters) crowd around Kouji and scream ANE-SAAAAAAAAAAN!
Then I moved on to another drama cd called Yuuzai. It's about this author who can't express his feelings well, thus going round in circles and his manager sorta of couldn't understand that he was being adored by the author. He thought they had smex just for the sake of giving the author inspiration for his next book and so, left his seme in midway when he realied he had fallen in love with the author. He then realised he was too in love with the author, broke off with his gf and lead a life of his own until one day, he was to collect the finished book from the author for publishing. It was then they confessed to each other (the author managed to get away without stating it specifically) and happily ever after... with smex, of course.
The seme is Midorikawa Hikaru (dunno if I got his name right). He has the kind of voice that makes women swoon over him. So deep and so ugh........ *faints* Right, how do I prove that? Because the girls who acted in the drama practically SQUEALED when he did his acting voice during the Free Talk. Evil man... he knows the girls love him.
I'm not sure who the uke for this drama is. But yes, he's the kind that can go super HIGH. He sounds EXACTLY like a girl when he moaned. Ah! Ah! Ah! Omg~ so feminine! But its not over so much that he sounds like shota. He's like Kamiyan power up version. Sugoi na~ And I realised.... I think there's smex in EVERY TRACK. Very good. Very very good. Did I mention about the smex? Hehe~
So yes, after listening to this 2 drama cds, I get my inspiration back. From now on, I shall devote all my perverseness on 2D nia!
Shall blog again.......... hehe
Explodreamer blogged at 9:34 PM
Sunday, January 04, 2009
I COMMAND YOU TO LAUGH! XD
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
Explodreamer blogged at 9:13 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
And blogging right after I spent the last day of 2008 with PQ, Shell and Pearly!
Hi there, 2009. YOU'D BETTER BRING ME THE CASH AND JOB I NEED YEA?!
Alright... seriously hoping 2009 will be a good year. May this year shows its goodness by giving me very very simple exam questions for my examinations.
Then good health for everyone. Yes, good health and mind is very important for you to achieve your goals, whatever it may be.
Next, I wish for SUZUMIYA HARUHI SECOND SEASON and GINTAMA TO CONTINUE AIRING IN JAPAN!!! Pls, whoever is at the top, please CHANGE YOUR MIND! 300 yen ageru kara!
It'll be great if I can start earning decent money and maybye go Japan this year, but I'll think abt it, since studies most impt. Currently, putting relief teaching and ntuc into my list of consideration, since both requires at most 5-8 hrs of my life every day without much responsibilites.
Then probably, I'll cosplay Paako if someone sponsors me. Well, will blog again when I'm thinking... again...
AKEMASHITE OMETETO!
