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Thursday, July 31, 2008
only God knows how i feel inside...i just pray and hope everything gonna goes smoothly...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
10:25 PM
currently im sick..again..i have been endure since a couple of days...happen to be today is impt and tml..promotion day..but its okay...soon or later i got it...i have mixed emotion right now...sad,serba salah etc2..which i dun want to write it out..but somehow im already prepared this thing will happen...
Dalam kebisingan waktu
aku terpinggir dalam jiwa yang kaku
menghimpun rindu yang membelenggu
dalam sedar bersimpuh berteleku
mencari makna cinta tak bersatu...
Aku menyepikan diri
membelah hari-hari yang pergi
jauh dari rasa sunyi tapi bertemankan sepi
Apakah yang di hati akan terus bersembunyi
rasa yang kupendam mencakar sentuh sanubari
mencari erti kecewa ini
Aku tak tau melangkah
ke mana tuju arah
hilang kukuh hati berserah
di jiwa yang amat pasrah
dalam kata-kata yang hilang madah
akhirnya tersungkur berdarah
ditimpa perasaan duka yang marah
Aku yang terkaku
langkah berhenti membeku
menjerit suara memilu
pada jiwa yang masih terpaku...
Dalam kebisingan waktu
aku terpinggir dalam jiwa yang kaku
menghimpun rindu yang membelenggu
dalam sedar bersimpuh berteleku
mencari makna cinta tak bersatu...
Aku menyepikan diri
membelah hari-hari yang pergi
jauh dari rasa sunyi tapi bertemankan sepi
Apakah yang di hati akan terus bersembunyi
rasa yang kupendam mencakar sentuh sanubari
mencari erti kecewa ini
Aku tak tau melangkah
ke mana tuju arah
hilang kukuh hati berserah
di jiwa yang amat pasrah
dalam kata-kata yang hilang madah
akhirnya tersungkur berdarah
ditimpa perasaan duka yang marah
Aku yang terkaku
langkah berhenti membeku
menjerit suara memilu
pada jiwa yang masih terpaku...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
5:17 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
The thunder rumbles thru the night
sounds like the beating of my heart
I don't like being here without you
I feel so alone when we're apart
Lightning flashes and lights the room
memories flashing through my mind
of warmth and love I feel for you
and love we'll never leave behind
The gentle rain is tapping on my window
as I am safe and nestled in your embrace
for storms never last when you're near
this special bond you can't replace
sounds like the beating of my heart
I don't like being here without you
I feel so alone when we're apart
Lightning flashes and lights the room
memories flashing through my mind
of warmth and love I feel for you
and love we'll never leave behind
The gentle rain is tapping on my window
as I am safe and nestled in your embrace
for storms never last when you're near
this special bond you can't replace
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
10:41 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
to me,dis weekends is very boring...haha..dun ask me y...last fri night,went up to meet my fwens from my course in ns...able to chat but sadly for just for a short while..sat,i didnt do much..just went for massage...today,just rest and home and go for a jog...after abt 1 mth i didnt jog...it is quite tiring...haha....my parents just came back from johor,bought some vase la..fruits and etc...i find dat it is a waste of money...there are a few empty vase here..and it is just for decoration...i tld my mum,now decoration of the house is different already..not like last time...mana ada org kai pasu bunga etc...if u guys look at the magazine,da jarang pakai...den she didnt terima so just keep quiet then...if lets say she is lil bit tight,she will fall sick..mcm mana seh..haiz...
btw all the best in ur exam...u noe who...plz go for the polyclinics if can...
btw all the best in ur exam...u noe who...plz go for the polyclinics if can...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
9:11 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
cinta
..ku bisikkan dalam bahasa
yang sukar diterjemahkan
pada dada malam
seketika kau dan aku
hanyut ntah kemana
cinta..
sebagai mana tiada hentinya
darah yang mengalir
nafas yang berhembus
beralun bersama angin
yang memabukkan aku dalam kerinduan
cinta..
makin kental
rindu..
makin kuat
kulinangkan airmata
sendirian
tanpa kau melihatnya
cinta..
rebahlah dalam pelukku
meski angin bertiup kencang
satu nama
dicintai benar
mengendap di dasar hati
tak bakal terapung lagi..
cinta..
usah akhir disini..
Lately,i feel something is not right..i hope everything turn out well...
..ku bisikkan dalam bahasa
yang sukar diterjemahkan
pada dada malam
seketika kau dan aku
hanyut ntah kemana
cinta..
sebagai mana tiada hentinya
darah yang mengalir
nafas yang berhembus
beralun bersama angin
yang memabukkan aku dalam kerinduan
cinta..
makin kental
rindu..
makin kuat
kulinangkan airmata
sendirian
tanpa kau melihatnya
cinta..
rebahlah dalam pelukku
meski angin bertiup kencang
satu nama
dicintai benar
mengendap di dasar hati
tak bakal terapung lagi..
cinta..
usah akhir disini..
Lately,i feel something is not right..i hope everything turn out well...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
8:49 PM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
ok im back from my course...got the cert already..so far so gd...my life is getting better and better each day....thnx to u noe who...just hope everything is getting bette...it has been months that i never had a dream...recently,there is one time i try to dream...out of sudden,there is like one flash of light from just enter to my dream,and it is gone...*everything was in the dream but i can sense it..*tml i start work back at hq...sianz...
During this course,i make alot of frens...a few of them are just like okay2 to me..coz they are like mats..just talk abit n dats all...most of them are close to me..probably coz im the senior over there..haha..some of them think quite matured and they treat me like their brother..discuss abt their problem..sharing ard...
After graduation,standard passing ard contact number..msn etc...but i just found 1 gd cool fwen in dis course..and we still close..there are 1 more who is used to be same secondary sch as me..and tml going to same hq..ahakz...
Setiap detik masa berlalu,
Setiap detik jantungku berdegup,
mengukir namamu di hatiku...
u noe who...
During this course,i make alot of frens...a few of them are just like okay2 to me..coz they are like mats..just talk abit n dats all...most of them are close to me..probably coz im the senior over there..haha..some of them think quite matured and they treat me like their brother..discuss abt their problem..sharing ard...
After graduation,standard passing ard contact number..msn etc...but i just found 1 gd cool fwen in dis course..and we still close..there are 1 more who is used to be same secondary sch as me..and tml going to same hq..ahakz...
Setiap detik masa berlalu,
Setiap detik jantungku berdegup,
mengukir namamu di hatiku...
u noe who...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
7:48 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Why so serious ?hahahaha...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
12:37 PM
Some memorable and favorite quotes that has meaning in me...
I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams.
Sometimes... to do what's right... we must be steady... and give up the things we desire the most... even our dreams
Endure. You can be the outcast. You can make the choice that no one else will face - the right choice.
You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain..(i think i did in da ring)
This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object
Yesterday,i woke half asleep,and my brother just entered the room,looking at my wardrobe searching for a shirt that he can borrow i guess...den i was like blur..i was shocked why i didnt go to work today...i look at the clock,it was 6 plus..i was like damn im late...i quickly went up n suddenly my bro says it is saturday..u still working is it ? i was wth....den just go to the toilet and sleep back...
im in a state where it is hard to describe...i just watched Batman,The Dark knight...there is part where the batman is falling in love wif his gf...and happen to be,she left a note to alfred..she tld him to pass the msg when the time is right...happen to be dat she loves another person...i noe how batman would feel coz i had tat too last time....it is horrible...
sometimes i just think dat is being too nice makes ppl runnning away from me....but den i didnt ask anything in return...sometimes,i get cheated easily...i dunno why...i always think dat all humans are honest as me..and it can be a big mistake...
Dear Allah,please show me the correct path and lead me the way...avoid anything dat wants to destroy me...
I believe there's a hero in all of us, that keeps us honest, gives us strength, makes us noble, and finally allows us to die with pride, even though sometimes we have to be steady, and give up the thing we want the most. Even our dreams.
Sometimes... to do what's right... we must be steady... and give up the things we desire the most... even our dreams
Endure. You can be the outcast. You can make the choice that no one else will face - the right choice.
You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain..(i think i did in da ring)
This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object
Yesterday,i woke half asleep,and my brother just entered the room,looking at my wardrobe searching for a shirt that he can borrow i guess...den i was like blur..i was shocked why i didnt go to work today...i look at the clock,it was 6 plus..i was like damn im late...i quickly went up n suddenly my bro says it is saturday..u still working is it ? i was wth....den just go to the toilet and sleep back...
im in a state where it is hard to describe...i just watched Batman,The Dark knight...there is part where the batman is falling in love wif his gf...and happen to be,she left a note to alfred..she tld him to pass the msg when the time is right...happen to be dat she loves another person...i noe how batman would feel coz i had tat too last time....it is horrible...
sometimes i just think dat is being too nice makes ppl runnning away from me....but den i didnt ask anything in return...sometimes,i get cheated easily...i dunno why...i always think dat all humans are honest as me..and it can be a big mistake...
Dear Allah,please show me the correct path and lead me the way...avoid anything dat wants to destroy me...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
12:28 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
Sayang..........
Cuma satu yang ku tahu
Mencintai mu seumur hayat usia ku
Biar pun ditombak pangkal jiwa ku
Dipanah nyawa disiram pedih
Sekali pun tidak aku mengalah
Lantaran rasa hati bergumpal utuh
Tidak terungkai mahligai dan permata
akan ku terus mengucap salam
Pada bait-bait puitis
Agar sampai dilewat tidur mu
Bersama malam melarut mimpi
Membawa ke terbit fajar siddiq
Akan ku sujud berhajat pada Ilalhi
Memohon rintihan meruntun kasih
Pada yang ku sanjung seusia hari ku
Kau tetap ada disudut yang indah
Yang telah ku siapkan lama dulu
Dialas sulaman kecintaan
Yang dulunya hampir mati
Lantas kau suburkan dengan pengajaran
Mendidik aku erti kasih dan sayang
Satu masa dulu ku sebarkan tanpa erti
Kini menjadi tegukan kala kehausan sayang
Kau tetap dalam mahligai hati ku....
Untuk mu yang tercinta....
Ku abadikan untuk selamanya
Mengertilah.................
Cuma satu yang ku tahu
Mencintai mu seumur hayat usia ku
Biar pun ditombak pangkal jiwa ku
Dipanah nyawa disiram pedih
Sekali pun tidak aku mengalah
Lantaran rasa hati bergumpal utuh
Tidak terungkai mahligai dan permata
akan ku terus mengucap salam
Pada bait-bait puitis
Agar sampai dilewat tidur mu
Bersama malam melarut mimpi
Membawa ke terbit fajar siddiq
Akan ku sujud berhajat pada Ilalhi
Memohon rintihan meruntun kasih
Pada yang ku sanjung seusia hari ku
Kau tetap ada disudut yang indah
Yang telah ku siapkan lama dulu
Dialas sulaman kecintaan
Yang dulunya hampir mati
Lantas kau suburkan dengan pengajaran
Mendidik aku erti kasih dan sayang
Satu masa dulu ku sebarkan tanpa erti
Kini menjadi tegukan kala kehausan sayang
Kau tetap dalam mahligai hati ku....
Untuk mu yang tercinta....
Ku abadikan untuk selamanya
Mengertilah.................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
8:17 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
Di ruang rindu yang tercipta
Di situ ada hati teruja
ada hati tak pernah berkata
ruang himpun seribu makna
erti kesayuan sebuah 'cinta'
kasih tercipta.............
Di ruang sepi yang menggoda
Di sana ada rasa
jiwa dipukul kasih, genggam setia
ruang rindu luahan bicara
makna kehibaan sebuah 'cinta'
kasih tercipta..............
Walaupun tidak dilafazkan
di hati tersimpan segala kenangan
di sana masih terbentang jalan
kasih dan sayang kan terpahatkan
Buatmu yang tak pernah dilupakan
terima kasih atas segala pengalaman
yang terbina antara kita
Kasih tercipta.................
Di situ ada hati teruja
ada hati tak pernah berkata
ruang himpun seribu makna
erti kesayuan sebuah 'cinta'
kasih tercipta.............
Di ruang sepi yang menggoda
Di sana ada rasa
jiwa dipukul kasih, genggam setia
ruang rindu luahan bicara
makna kehibaan sebuah 'cinta'
kasih tercipta..............
Walaupun tidak dilafazkan
di hati tersimpan segala kenangan
di sana masih terbentang jalan
kasih dan sayang kan terpahatkan
Buatmu yang tak pernah dilupakan
terima kasih atas segala pengalaman
yang terbina antara kita
Kasih tercipta.................
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
9:59 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
every min i breathe...i will always remember abt u...trust me..
u noe who...
Do what you can, when you can, the best you can
u noe who...
Do what you can, when you can, the best you can
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
10:35 PM
yup thats the date...u noe i noe...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
7:38 PM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
tml im going to work..but i dun have to mood sia...coz my elder brother is off tml coz it is youth day...while my bro in law is working tonite...im thinknig to follow my bro in law working tonite but den tml im working...argh..sian sia...then i have to complete dis photoshop test...damn stress man...haiz...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
9:50 PM
Friday, July 4, 2008
hi...ok i just went back from eating out wif my nsf guys..of course la nsf all guys...went out to lepak and eat canadian pizza...we all came back from work....thnx guys...Thank you to those who wish me in term of sms and etc...thank you very much..to those who never wish also,it's okay to me...tk mengharapkan apa2...
i nearly get bdae sabo from my colleagues...although i was trapped..but luckily i was fast enough to escape..imagine abt 12 men covering at each end in a limited space...and it was in da office...wah piang eh...phew...luckily manage to escape...if not confem either kena beaten up,throw wif wet tissue paper..or get molest...gila sia..to them it is a tradition for bdae boy...wth...
i nearly get bdae sabo from my colleagues...although i was trapped..but luckily i was fast enough to escape..imagine abt 12 men covering at each end in a limited space...and it was in da office...wah piang eh...phew...luckily manage to escape...if not confem either kena beaten up,throw wif wet tissue paper..or get molest...gila sia..to them it is a tradition for bdae boy...wth...
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
10:02 PM
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I really nid a companion...i really do...hmm
LIVING.out.of.REALITY;
7:41 PM
