a random thought:

not much interests holding me back, just fears. fears of what could have been, of what could be, of what is to be.

damn this is rather irritating. i can't for the life of me figure this out; it isn't something that can be solved by rational thought. pffft.

plus i do feel rather stretched. i haven't had the time to do anything for myself, not even *gasp* study (if anyone from my OG sees this... well now you know how much time i have for my books: not much). i need to hang on for just 3 more weeks. 3 more weeks and it can only go downhill from there...

and i am rather bugged by this whole mugger crap. i try to laugh it off as a joke or something but it's really not half possible for me to study even a quarter as much as you think. it's not that i don't think it's cool to be a mugger or what not. it's just that it merely serves to remind me of how little effort i actually put into studying. and believe you me: it's not a good feeling.

i really need to find a way to solve my discipline issues... i'd like to attribute it to my schedule but... it just isn't the case. rawrr

Of dogs, life and sacrifices

Man the past few weeks and the weeks to come have been and are going to be crazy busy. Sometimes I wonder why I allow myself to have so many commitments. Can't say I really enjoy it but well, guess that's how God shapes a person: thru an endless cycle of increasingly difficult trials..

If anything, I've learnt much over the past month about sacrifice. It's not rather pleasant I must admit, but for some reason I appear to be caught up in a love-hate relationship with it -- I drag my feet at the thought, yet I feel so empty without it. But if I can't take it now, what more the future? Especially in the profession I'm gonna be in, where sacrifice isn't an option; It's a given.

But well, came across this quote the other day:
"... where doing nothing was not boring -- it was peace."
I've said this before but I'll say it again for old time's sake: Give me a dog, some food and a place to sleep, and I'm a happy man.

But well, this feeling of melancholy isn't gonna stay for long; After all, every dog has his day.

Cheerio,
-bx

best friend

I've been feeling down and out these past few weeks;
Some thoughts I had:

"Where are you, Lord, in all this?"
"What can I do to help (your children)?"

And then He came... in a most wonderful and tangible way ever for the longest of times:

"The Word was the source of life, and this life brought light to the people. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has never put it out." John 1:4-5

All I ever wanted to know, all I ever needed to know. Words came to mind but before they could materialize I discovered that He had already accomplished his work.

What a joker you are Lord. Ever my best friend :)

I'm tired...











tired...











tired...

pwnz

heres a joke i saw somewhere that makes a lot of sense:





Announcing the new Built-in Orderly Organized Knowledge device, otherwise known as the BOOK.

It’s a revolutionary breakthrough in technology: no wires, no electric circuits, no batteries, nothing to be connected or switched on. It’s so easy to use even a child can operate it. Just lift its cover. Compact and portable, it can be used anywhere — even sitting in an armchair by the fire — yet it is powerful enough to hold ass much information as a CD-ROM disk.

Here’s how it works: each BOOK is constructed of sequentially numbered sheets of paper (recyclable), each capable of holding thousands of bits of information. These pages are locked together with a custom-fit device called a binder which keeps the sheets in their correct sequence. By using both sides of each sheet, manufacturers are able to cut costs in half.

Each sheet is scanned optically, registering information directly into your brain. A flick of the finger takes you to the next sheet. The BOOK may be taken up at any time and used by merely opening it. The “Browse” feature allows you to move instantly to any sheet, and move forward or backward as you wish. Most come with an “index” feature, which pinpoints the exact location of any selected information for instant retrieval.

An optional “BOOKmark” accessory allows you to open the BOOK to the exact place you left it in a previous session — even if the BOOK has been closed. BOOKmarks fit universal design standards; thus a single BOOKmark can be used in BOOKs by various manufacturers.

Portable, durable and affordable, the BOOK is the entertainment wave of the future, and many new titles are expected soon, due to the surge in popularity of its programming tool, the Portable Erasable-Nib Cryptic Intercommunication Language stylus (a.k.a PENCIL)

I see you baby, just kickin' her ass... just kickin' her ass...

Reality is a bitch. It bites. Srsly. BUT I'M A MILLION TIMES MORE POWERFUL.
Just that I don't bite. Only force-feed homemade cans of 100% whoop-ass =)

Haha

Advent of the Banana

I met this dude from Shanghai in a game and we struck up a conversation, one gamer to another. And then he asked if I had MSN. Which wasn't so much a problem as to whether or not I would add him, but moreso that I couldn't bear to tell the guy that despite being Chinese, my Mandarin sucks donkey balls.

Ah well curse this land's language policy in education. Seems like English is increasingly becoming the language of the uneducated (cue my post about Bananas a year back).

tng lang buay hiao kong tng lang eh way, wa ga ki mah buay tahan

sigh i really worry for you my friend. and you. and you too. but i cant do anything except pray, and hope. Lord, be with them. and that shall suffice, for your grace and love are enough for us. i shall ask for nothing more. amen.

Mmm I think I need to get over this phase again where I feel the need to mock at everything in sight, including myself. Must be that time of the year again. Heh. But well what can I say, over compensation is a bitch.













Sometimes.













Cos at other times it can be quite fun to be an asshole, even to yourself. >)

Of how life sucks

If I had the means to produce my very own variety/talent show, I'd call it: "So you think you are fat."

And then if it were to be successful, I'd make another, called: "So you think your life sucks."

Oh how I mock at you, you people in the developed world wallowing in self pity about your emotional/psychological problems while the rest of the world struggles just to put food on the table. And about how school is such a bore and how that teacher or classmate hates you while other children don't even have the means of receiving some form of education. And about how your mum is a bitch and your dad a control freak while other kids don't even have whole families.

But pay no attention to what I've just said and forgive me -- I just need to let off some steam.

I swear those Eden and Hospi kids (yes that 1-2 years give me the right to use that term =D) are making me feel like an old man all of a sudden. And it's quite ironic since I thought I could be quite hyper already. LOL.

Best cover-up evar.

evar.

boy: do you like me?

girl: ......... uh sorry no...

boy: oh.. how about bee hoon?

LOLOLOLOL

Pride, Discipline and Honour

So my 6 weeks as a MP Specialist trainee have drawn to an end, as quickly as they began. And I have to admit that I have never found a military vocation that fits my character and beliefs as much as being a Provost. Even though I didn't finish the course and pass out, being in the MP family is an experience that will forever stay close to my heart...

I am a Military Policeman
In the Singapore Armed Forces
I serve my country with Pride, Discipline and Honour

With Pride,
I will always discharge my duties
Firmly, fairly, honestly
And without fear or favour.

With Discipline,
I will always strive for
The highest standards of soldiering.

With Honour,
I will always accomplish my missions
Courageously, loyally and decisively.

Pride, Discipline and Honour!!

One Church?

I happened to chance upon a video of praise and worship in Facebook which, rather ironically, sparked off a debate, or to be harsh, a petty argument about what was Catholic and what was Protestant. After reading several of the comments I couldn't help but feel somewhat sad of the reality of Christianity today -- We are far too divided. Divided not by differences made by God, but by differences made by men. Petty, foolish men.

Churches rise and grow. Some fall, others flourish. Yet even though more people convert to Christianity it seems like there is less tolerance, less acceptance and understanding, among denominations, each seeking to prove their superiority over others. And the irony is that this quest for supremacy -- All this began in the hands of men. Petty, foolish men.

So let's get things straight for once people. It's not about who's from what denomination. Let's not focus so much on the petty, minor differences, but instead on what makes us essentially the SAME. That is a love for Christ our Saviour and a desire to let his love be known throughout the world. A desire for us all to worship him as one united Church, free from the grasp of petty, man-made denominations, interpretations and such.

A world so small

I seriously find this hard to believe -- 1 from Bravo, 2 from SPEC II. People who are from the same parish as me, that is. Indeed the world is so much smaller than I thought it was... But well, haven't been to SFX for some time now... =P 

Side note: YISS was awesome! =)

Having endured army for rather long now makes me realise how much I miss hanging out with the Amplify people (especially the Logistics guys and girls). Damn were we a crazy bunch of people. But hey, YI is coming up and that means that the chaos is gonna start all over again.... Muahaha

A Word

Hope.

Ambition?

One thing I've rather disliked about our education system is how it breeds elitism so openly. All levels reek of a certain smell - a stench rather unbearable - it permeates, rather sadly, even the best of intentions. What do I mean? Ah well, I feel rather lazy so I'll just give an example.

I remember a question I was asked by some director during an interview when I remarked that I'd rather, if I were a principal, my students pass out with less perfect grades and a better character:

"Does that mean you do not want your students to be scholars?"

On hindsight I should have given a more in-your-face answer to that. It is rather sad on where we place our priorities this days isn't it? My stand has always been that scholarship or whatever prestigious course should never be a primary aim of students. It should instead be driven by genuine interest in the subject and a genuine desire to help others. The scholarship/course is merely a by-product of that aim. Yet it seems that in our world, the opposite seems true, as students embark on attachment courses, OCIPs and what have you so as to get into their course/scholarship of choice (varsity squeeze, anyone?). The action of helping another must never be a by-product, a stepping stone used to attain personal ambition. This merely makes hollow the deed.

Check your motives, people...

in the early morning

Rest well my friend. You have lived a full life.

The hairs on my shirt are fur. Your's. Though physical presences fade away, the memories linger...

1 year ago I did something which, up till now, I can't believe I did. Damn was I dumb. LOL! =D

For you are God, and I am not.

sometimes i feel sad. sometimes i wonder about the 'what if's. yet sometimes it totally doesn't matter at all. how long more can i keep my hand extended? i wonder what's my breaking point. it's time -- the effort is no longer mine to make.

memories linger -- a haunted man i am, not quick to forget. but i thank those who have been there with me, for me. i'll be watching your backs; i know you'll be watching mine too.

a tribute to field camps -- where the true character of a person comes out into the open.

Faith (Part IV)

Of Love:

One of the things I've always disliked about the media and entertainment is how it has always stereotyped, heck even bastardized, love into something so lame. Something like an "oh-i-miss-u-so-much-u-are-the-only-thing-on-my-mind-gosh-it-hurts-so-bad-to-love-boo-hoo"-esque feeling. The fact remains that love isn't something that can ever be expressed on screen, or heck even through words. But still I'll try. =)

The Bible itself offers several definitions of love, and though all are good in their own right, the one that really stands out to me is this:

"Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." 1 John 4:8 (NIV)

And indeed God is a being composed of nothing but pure love. The Father's love for his children that he would part with his most beloved son to save us; The Son's love for the Father and his people that he would yield his life through a suffering of sufferings which he himself did not wish to face (cf. "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." Luke 22:4); and the selfless love of the Spirit for the Father and the Son that he would shine all his radiance on both rather than on himself. Indeed the Trinity, the three in one, ultimately embody what it means to love. I would elaborate but no words can express the true beauty of it, not now, not ever.

They always say that the sweetest love is young love, that romance between 2 young persons, uncertain yet passionate, a love that is new and flawless. But not to me. For as time passes by I've come to find that the only love on this earth that can ever draw some semblance to the Trinity is an old love, one that has survived the tides of time and trial in fire and ice, one that is understanding and patient, one willing to forgo oneself for the other. And that is the love I seek.. Not a Hollywood-style-make-me-emo-esque love, but a love that endures, a love that sacrifices. So maybe to me, just maybe, one word can after all express what it truly means to love:




Sacrifice.

Spotlight Ministry

Hmm this is something I wrote a while back but never got round to completing. So here it is in it's unfinished uh, glory...

***

We are a people of the night -- Unseen, unheard. Our's is a job of little recognition, little notice, yet it is a job we do with pride and which we do with all our heart. Our actions are not done for all to see -- Rather, they are done so that others in the spotlight and frontline may be able to carry out their roles smoothly.

***

Holy Spirit, be my guide and role model.

Faith (cotd. again)

Of Prayer:

Prayer is an integral aspect of Christian living, the staple of Christianity. Yet it is somewhat ironic that so many people do not really know how to pray. "Is it supposed to be long or brief? Is it something like a wishlist? Is it adoration and glorification? Is it repeating the same old fixed lines over and over again, or is it supposed to be spontaneous? Argh!" Haha

But we can turn to the Bible for guidance in our confusion and indeed it offers one of the simplest, yet most powerful prayers we can ever pray -- the Lord's Prayer. And in so succinct and wonderful a manner it summarizes the essence of true prayer.

"Our Father in Heaven, holy be Your name!"

So begins Jesus' prayer. And similarly, it is good to begin our prayer by praising and glorifying the Lord, remembering and thanking him for the good things he has bestowed upon us. What he has provided, we are grateful for.

"Your kingdom come, Your will be done on Earth as in Heaven."

We declare that we are servants of God and renew our desire and commitment to serve Him rather than ourselves. For if we would rather serve ourselves, who is God?

"Give us this day our daily bread"

We ask God to empower and enlighten us with his wisdom; Remember that "Man does not live on bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God."

"Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us."

With a contrite heart we confess that through our thoughts, words and deeds we have sinned against God and pledge our commitment to become better people, more Christ-like in character.

"Do not bring us to the test"

This is where our prayer petitions come in, when we seek the Lord's help in dealing with whatever issues or problems we have in our life. Do however note the difference between a petition and making a wishlist!

"But deliver us from evil."


We express our desire to be free from the temptations of the Evil One, and devote ourselves fully to God.

"Amen."

Undoubtedly some might be surprised at this line, or rather, word, but it turns out to be just as important as all the previous lines! Why? Simply because it expresses our conviction that God will hear and answer us! A prayer spoken without conviction is an empty prayer and does not glorify God.

***

So there we have it, a simple yet powerful prayer which also teaches us how exactly to pray properly. Really pow-ka-leow in that few lines I must say. Haha. And regarding the length of prayer, one saint (I can't remember who) did indeed say that "I don't pray for more than 30 minutes, but I don't go for more than 30 minutes without prayer." Happy praying people! =D

Insert: I just discovered that yet another of my prayers was answered! Praise the Lord! =D

Another Closure, Another Beginning

Hey Lord,

Wow, this week has really felt like an eternity and has been a rollercoaster of stress, anxiety and ultimate shack-ness. I sure am glad that by your grace I survived it without much hitch, but I am, rather unfortunately, more than aware that things are going to get even tougher. I don't particularly look forward to it but I guess I'll never know my limits until I test them. Help me to rely more on your strength than on my own. Father, into your hands I commend my spirit. Take it and use it as you will -- I shall ask for nothing more.

Amen.

The proverbs of old say that there are 3 types of people, really. One of them is the Emo, another the Emo-Hater and the last, the people who fall in-between. And indeed the wise old sages are right, because I am... an Emo-Hater. I mock at you, Emo people. Yes, go cut yourselves, go! Haha maybe I tend to over-compensate at times eh? ^_^ >_> >_< <_< ^_^

Note: This post was created purely out of fun and should thus be taken lightly. If, in any event you do take offence, you may go cut yourself now, thanks. Just kidding =D

I just realized this song kinda describes Easter rather aptly...

THE GREATEST DAY IN HISTORY
Death is beaten, You have rescued me
Sing it out, Jesus is alive

The empty cross, the empty grave
Life eternal, You have won the day
Shout it out, Jesus is alive
He’s alive

Oh happy day, happy day
You washed my sin away
Oh happy day, happy day
I’ll never be the same
Forever I am changed

On the train home yesterday, I happened to witness several events which assured me that there is still some hope left for humanity... =) Which reminds me... Have I removed the log from my own eye yet? Heh.

Faith (cotd.)

My Easter Reflection

I guess many of my gripes are with the modern world at large. And I guess it is because of this that Easter is more or less relegated to being a second place, a season which everyone knows is important yet doesn't seem to be anything out of the ordinary, compared to say, Christmas. This is not to say that Christmas isn't important (it IS after all the birth of our saviour) but Easter -- it is a day which just simply isn't given the due justice.

So what then, is Easter, being the day of our Saviour's rebirth? The odd thing is that most people don't really comprehend the significance of this, which might have led to the current state of affairs. But taking a step back and really pondering upon the rebirth, it suddenly becomes so clear. See Christmas signified the beginning of a great man, a great prophet and miracle healer. But how does this seperate Christ from the great prophets of the past? All were extraordinary and even controversial leaders, and all left in their wake a great ministry and revival of worship. It really is in Easter, and in fact Holy Week, in the death and rebirth of Christ that we truly see the fulfilment of the prophesies, that by his resurrection we were redeemed.

Christmas was the beginning of a great man, the son of God. Yet it was through Easter that we saw a new beginning, the start of a new ministry on Earth -- the Church. Even the High Priests who put Christ to death saw this: "... even worse if his followers try to take his body after the third day and claim him as risen..." Christ's death and resurrection defined the very pinnacle of Christianity -- That the gift of eternal life be purchased for all men. And so the new beginning came to be...

I guess this day signifies much to me in this period of time... A new beginning in my army life, a new beginning (hopefully =D) in my spiritual life... Come what may, I'll hold this day close to my heart.

Something reminded me of an *gasp* emo moment in JC1...
Still not a word of 'thanks'.... LOL. Ah weelll people don't, or rather, didn't, change eh? HAHA

But hey, to all out there who have remained truthful, remained sincere to themselves, take comfort in this: "...and your Father who has seen all that is done in secret will reward you."

Dude..... I have a name yo. ahaha

Here I am Lord; is it I Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night;
I will go Lord; If you lead me;
I will hold your people in my heart

Going back to camp in a few hours time... Oddly enough I don't dread the coming events.. Perhaps 4 years of scouting dirt and grime have desensitized me, or maybe I just like the outdoors; Who knows? I kinda look forward to it... Sounds fairly fun to me. =P

So much has happened in the past 4-5 days; I feel like my understanding of my faith has grown rather significantly. I have so much to write about but I just don't have the mood/unable to find the right words to express myself. Ah well I guess that shall have to wait...

Amplify Logistics has a new member! And a girl too! She's quite nice and friendly but don't worry... We're gonna make her crazy just like us... muahahaha. lol whatever goes. Some time back I asked God, "How can I serve you best?" And I received a reply, "Serve my people." I guess the reason why I like being in Logistics is that we're the unseen, the ninjas of ministry. Haha. But even being unseen, we lay the foundations for the more grandiose, the more breathtaking. And I'm really glad to be a part of this family -- Truly it is in giving that you receive, through service that you grow the most -- what we sow in sweat and blood we reap in much joy and happiness; I've really been blessed. And I thank you for it Lord, Amen.

Faith (Part I)

Of Conviction:

About 2 weeks ago, we, being the Christians in Section 4, prayed for the friend of our section mate who was involved in a severe accident and pronounced brain dead.

"You must believe for it to happen," said one of my friends, who was leading the prayer. That line just struck me there and then. Such simple words, yet such a profound meaning. All too often, I fall for the trap of walking in the shadow of doubt. I say prayers and make petitions without conviction, without much belief -- a non expectant faith. Yet increasingly, I find this a burden and to be honest, a prayer without conviction is not much more than a wishlist. Let me give an example:

During the first week of my NS, I was afflicted by a rather severe abrasion which hindered my movement. So in my free time, I thought to myself, "Why not claim the gift of healing?" And so I began praying over my wound. Yet all this while I was thinking in my mind, "What if nothing happens? Am I capable?" And so I chickened out. Out of fear I asked for the injury to heal faster rather than heal completely. Lo and behold, the pain disappeared almost immediately and the swelling reduced somewhat. But the abrasion still remained. What could have been a complete recovery turned out instead to be a temporary respite. And all because of a minute of doubt. 

In the Gospels, Jesus cured many a people of their ailments. But the central theme of these miracles has always revolved around one thing -- "Get up, your faith has saved you." 

If we are to claim the promises of our God, the very core of our faith must be a sturdy, rock-hard conviction... It is that belief that God will hear and answer your prayer -- that steady belief will bring you through the greatest of trials, speaking of which I will attempt to discuss the next time I blog, hopefully tomorrow.. =)

And if you are curious, I prayed over the wound a second time the next day... And true enough it did heal completely, instantly. Personally speaking I'm fairly bowled over; I can't even believe it myself =P. But praise GOD for it anyways! =D

Current mood: supremely pissed at the army for taking away what little piano skills I had. I can't even play simple arpeggios!!??! WTF!!!!!

Worthiness of the Eucharist - A Reflection

"Lord, I am not worthy to receive you, but only say the word and I shall be healed."

This line is said so often, every mass, yet how many times do we take a step back to ponder over its meaning? One observation which I've noticed over the past few years or so is that some Catholics don't go for Holy Communion because they don't feel worthy. Usually this is the result of committing some form of sin. Yet is this really necessary? Unless it is mortal sin, which I don't believe many have the chance or intent of committing, I’m sure it isn't.

"I am not worthy to receive you"

True enough, as in my previous reflection about the Eucharist, it is good to go for regular confession (the analogy of the heart being a seat for Christ) before communion. However, it is important to note one thing -- We do not have to go for confession for God to forgive us; He already has forgiven us even as we sin! Hence the question is not really about whether or not God would forgive us, but about whether we would forgive ourselves. Because there really isn’t anything we could do to make Him love us any less. On a side note, it is still important that we do not use this as an excuse to sin blatantly. Let us thus reflect over this notion of un/worthiness of Christ. Who really is worthy of Christ? A person so pure that he does not sin? Or one who truly lives the Christian life? If so, none of us are worthy of Christ.

"But only say the word and I shall be healed"

But that really is beside the point. Christ did not call the worthy, but instead he makes worthy the called. It doesn’t matter if we have sinned, it doesn’t matter if we aren’t perfect – so long as there is any shred of repentance in our heart, that is enough. For what is the purpose of the Eucharist? Is it an ID tag saying “This person personifies Christ”? NO! It is instead to free us from our sins, and bring us to life everlasting. “…Body… everlasting life… Blood… that sins may be forgiven…” Remember that Christ’s mission on earth was to save the sinners, such as the tax collectors and lepers. Such as us.

Christ’s death on the cross was not meant to create a club for the worthy, it was meant to bring salvation to the world. To cleanse our sins. So instead of allowing our sins to obstruct us from receiving Him in the Eucharist, let us instead make the Eucharist a sign of our renewed resolve to not commit the same sin again.

My Dream World

Anyone who has known me for long enough would probably know that I am by nature a loner. And indeed I enjoy the solitude. So oddly enough, as my social circle grows and I become more and more outgoing and outspoken as the weeks/months/years go by, one constant has always remained, in different variations - my dream world of just myself, a dog and a hammock/sofa/bed. It could be watching the sunset or even TV, but the aforementioned 3 are always there. Until now, by which I mean 2 weeks ago. YOU had to come and ruin it all, like that mosquito/fly buzzing in my ear. And in a split second, my dream world was shattered. Sianz.

My dream world lies over the ocean, my dream world lies over the sea.
My dream world lies over the ocean, oh bring back my dream world to me.

Ok I kid. Tekong isn't half that bad. But everyone gets this dumbshit ailment called the Tekong cough. And I got it too... NABEH!!!!

Time: 1745 HRS
Location: CLASSIFIED

Somewhere in Pulau Tekong -- A sharp, loud noise rings across the area. Recces are dispatched to investigate the commotion, which is narrowed to the Company Line of H Coy. IS IT THE ENEMY?! IS IT THE SOUND OF IMPENDING DOOM!? But the advance party is in for a surprise. That terrifying wall of noise, it is none other than the sound of mobs of adrenaline-drenched recruits screaming "Book OUT!" at the top of their lungs. Like a steamroller, the now ecstatic company rolls over the crack troops and charges toward the ferry terminal, where freedom is but a whif away...


we.. come from a company,
famous for *some random guy's name",
come from a very special company.
we hardly get saikang,
hardly kena tekan, because we are untouchable.
hawk coy! hawk coy! all the way!
we like it here we like it here we found ourselves a home! a home sweet home!

From the inside out LORD my soul cries out... That song, especially the chorus, has a habit of tugging at my heart strings. 

My heart and my soul,
I give you control,
Consume me from the inside out.

Let justice and praise,
Become my embrace,
To love you from the inside out...

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades,
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame,
And the cry of my heart,
Is to bring You praise,
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out...

A Thought Experiment

Don't you love rainy nights? Other than the fact that they're the perfect cliche emo setting *prepares to hide from legions of outraged emos and their pitchforks, paper cutters and wrist-slashers*, they're awesome for sleep, sleep and more sleep! And I dunno, singing in the rain or something. Sooo, here's a thought experiment which could possibly be substituted in place of one of the aforementioned activities.

Those who went for December YI would recall one of the quiet time stations (was it "Fear"? My memory phails.) stated something about "by drawing closer to God, the Devil would draw closer to us" or summat of that nature. And indeed I have heard it been said that the Devil oft tries to foil God's plans by making an unwelcome appearance at times where we carry out God's will. But consider this -- "Not so much as the devil drawing closer to us, but moreso that we become aware of his presence and his attempts to trip our faith."

I'll just give an example and let whoever reads this to go mull over it him/herself. Can't help it lah, rainy nights are too good for sleeping. Maybe in the past, we might have thought of calling someone names as ok and acceptable. But after experiencing a spiritual transformation, we come to realise that it is wrong. So, is it that the devil draws closer to us when we draw closer to God, or that our reaction and disgust at his acts becomes all the more stronger, making his presence more obvious and tangible? Think about it. =)

Death by laughter

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We tend to think of death as something bad, something to be afraid of. But really the only thing that is bad is about it is fear of death itself.

Some day I'll learn to laugh in the face of fear.
Some day I'll learn to laugh in the face of death.
Some day... With Christ in my vessel I'm not just gonna smile at the storm... I'll stare it right in the face and laugh at it, triumphantly.


"I can do all things through HIM who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
"Even though I walk  through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

It's gonna be a day of great throwings... har har. Happy new year ppl... It's arrived real quick eh?