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Thursday, March 26, 2009

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line.
Miles away from those I love.
Purpose hard to find.
While I recall all the words you spoke to me.
Can't help but wish that I was there.
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah.
Dear God the only thing I ask of you,
Is to hold her when I'm not around.
When I'm much too far away.
We all need that person who can be true to you.
But I left her when I found her.
And now I wish I'd stayed.
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.
I'm missing you again, oh no.
Once again.
There's nothing here for me on this barren road.
There's no one here while the city sleeps.
And all the shops are closed.
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you.
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah.
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is.
To hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away.
We all need that person who can be true to you.
I left her when I found her.
And now I wish I'd stayed.
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.
I'm missing you again oh no.
Once again.
Some search, never finding a way.
Before long, they waste away.
I found you, something told me to stay.
I gave in, to selfish ways.
And how I miss someone to hold.
When hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line.
Miles away from those I love.
Hope is hard to find.
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is.
To hold her when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away.
We all need the person who can be true to you.
I left her when I found her.
And now I wish I'd stayed.
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired.
I'm missing you again oh no.
Once again

Dear God,
Avenged Sevenfold.

I am dedicating this song to .
For why.
Please read the post before this.

Going crazy at...
17:48

Hais.
I don't feel like talking about my day today.
IT SUCKS.
I overheard my parents planning to go to china to live for awhile.
And that plan includes me.
They said that my chinese is real lousy so hopefully by bringing me there,
They hope to improve my chinese.
Just now.
They called me to inform me of this.
I don't want to go.
If i protest against them.
They will still force me to go and there will be extra punishment once i reach there.
Maybe i should just follow their wishes.
Besides.
They already packed my stuff and bought a plane ticket for the weekends.
Some words of farewell here before i leave.
I'M GONNA MISS ALL OF YOU.
ESPECIALLY .
I'm gonna miss my good friend, my friends, . and you.
I don't know when will i be able to see you all again.
When will i be able to see her mesmerizing face again.
Maybe when we all grow old?
My parents like china alot.
So there's no telling to what they might do.
They might plan to settle down there and i will have no choice but to too.
Thanks for all the good times.
Being there when i needed you the most.
It has been a good amount of time and i am more than happy to meet all of you.
If i have the chance to meet all of you all again, (Not saying i'm gonna die..)
I would want to meet all of you in my next life.
Once my friend, forever my friend.
This feelings very hard to verbalize.
It's like i'm getting choked. ='(
So farewell.
Let me bring away the memories of your smilling faces.
So smile. =)
Someday.
I hope you'd be the one who will help me build my fences and help me set restrictions.
Restrict me just to you and you alone.
Keep in contact on MSN ok?
I maybe gone,
But i left something with someone in Singapore.
And that is my heart.
I left it with .
Byebye.

Farewell,

I'll miss you.

I'm sick of these goodbyes.

Cause it tore us apart,

Right from the start.

I miss you.

Going crazy at...
17:27

Monday, March 23, 2009

Reliving the past.

*Update*
I remembered this.
I don't know why.
But you probably have forgotten clean about it.
It was our very first phone call after we _____.
You said,
Do you know something called Chip And Dale?
I said,
Yea. I do. Those 2 squirrels right?
You said,
Yea, they very cute right?
I said,
Yea, sure.
Then went on to talk about sothing else.
Very random. -.-
Then next up was number 2.
It happened very long ago too.
There was a time you, me and my father were in a lift together.
Yea.
Then i started to tease you cause you were cute. XD
You probably thought why my father was not laughing.
He was.
After we got out of the lift and when you were out of sight,
He was like,
Cute girl isn't she?
I said,
Yea..
Then he was like,
AH HA!
YOU LIKE HER IS IT?
I said,
Yea.. A bit slow yea you?..
Then was number 3.
There was period of time.
I don't know what happened to you?
You kept calling me those mushy names like DEAR AND HONEY! -.-
Some more is not every once in a while.
IT WAS IN ALL THE MSGS!
OHMYG!
And you said you didn't like mushy.
All this must have actually left a deep impression on my mind for me to remember.
LOL.
This is..
I don't know why i still have this in my inbox after all this time.
I was looking through the past messages.
The first time i asked you to _____ was on the 22nd of September 2005,
7.31pm.
It has already been imprinted firmly in the back of my mind.
Number 4.
There was a time,
In our class,
When the lights were out.
When we only sat a few seats away from each other.
I was in the last row and you were in the first.
I don't know why i started MSG-ing you.
Then you replied.
Then we started MSG-ing in class.
If i am not wrong..
You were still using the old nokia phone which was super bulky and had no colour.
I liked that phone.
First time my handphone bill burst.
Number 5,
I only sat beside you twice when i was there.
And now i really regret not seating beside you more often.
Once was in a normal lesson and i came in late cause of Brian. -.-
2nd time was during one of the holiday courses.
I still remember i beat you by a mark on the test! XD
There were also ice creams given out too yea..
You always took red bean or corn..
I didn't eat.
Partly cause i don't like those ice creams, i had sinus and watching you eat more or less made me full.
But i liked the sweets! =D
Especially fruit plus.
We were always made to memorise mindmaps then when we are supposed to draw it out,
Teacher Rebecca would turn off all the lights and go out of the classroom.
And play weird songs that make me can't concentrate.
WITCH DOCTOR! XD
There was only once that when she went out everyone started discussing cause it was too difficult.
Number 6,
This one..
I'm real sorry!
I WAS IN THE TOILET WHEN THEY PLANNED THIS!
It was the webcam surprise one.
I don't know what my friends were doing on my msn.
They were like lets pick a target to prank and sad to say.. You were online.
I was only told to shout hi to the camera after i came out from the toilet.
Truly,
I had no idea that it was a prank.
So sorry! >.<

I'm waiting around to see if this is real,

Cause i feel like i'm asleep.

I open up my eyes,

Cause you are the type.

A girl that makes me dream when i'm awake.

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So here it is.
Friday:
Alright.
Was real bored at home.
So i went out early and had no place to go.
So i rang up Yao Ren and went to his house.
At Tiong Bahru MRT,
I saw Laura.
LOL.
She drink bubble tea then make me soo thirsty.
Never share! JKJK!
At first i couldn't tell who she was..
Until she waved at me and said hi.
Walked with her till i had to cross the road later.
Went up to the wrong block.
When i reached Yao Ren's house,
I witness how chaotic he and Huai Le played WOW.
Vulgarities flew all around.
Is there anyone who doesn't know how to cycle at this age?
Yup. That would be me! LOL.
Can someone teach me?
Today's BBQ was a success.
They bought too much food and drinks though. =/
Let's see.
The people present were Jeremy, Geoffry, JiaYang, Marcus, SingWai, HuiQi, JiaXi, Adeline,
Patty, ShuTing, JuePing, TanLing, Janica, Nina, Jacklyn, Nelly, Dorothy, JiaYu, YaoRen,
JenHow, HuaiLe, WenJie, PohKiat, Daniel, BoRui and yours truly,
ME!
Sorry if i missed or spelt any one's names wrongly.
The others in my clique all went to ride bike.
So i stoned there and emo-ed.
I GOT MOLESTED! LOL!
No laaa!
People say my shirt graphics very nice then want to touch.
If i'm not wrong.
Those ppl should be *****,******,*******,*****.
LOL.
Forget already la.
Breezer makes me HIGH!
I wasn't drunk!
I was just HIGH!
Drank almost 2 full bottles.
My throat yearned for more as it burned.
Sort of like a thirst.
JIA YU DRINK MY BREEZER!
CAPO SIA!
Then slack slack slack.
The other guys went to return their bikes.
And since Jiayu and Jacklyn want to go arcade,
I might as well accompany them as i had nothing to do.
DID NOTHING WRONG THERE!
IN CASE THE GUYS IN MY CLASS ARE THINKING WRONGLY. -.-
JIA YU SACRED OF FROGS! -.-
One frog jumped in front of us and she scream like what.
Arcade wasn't really good. Guitar and drum mania were out of order.
Waste time inside there.
Then they all suddenly disappear.
So i went back to the pit myself.
BBQ-ed for around 30 minutes more before starting to pack up.
After that went to the bus stop together with the rest.
My legs and feet were aching from walking to and fro, to and fro.
YaoRen, HuaiLe, ShuTing and HuiQi boarded 16 which came first.
After awhile,
196 arrived.
Boarded the bus and headed straight for the last seat at the top deck.
Talk talk and talk about music.
BoRui was the first to alight,
Followed by WenJie, JenHow.
Then Daniel.
Then reach commonwealth already.
So i alighted with JuePing And TanLing.
PohKiat was last to alight at dover.
It was in the dead of night!
And there were no buses and trains so dialed my fathers number and he came to fetch me.
What will i do without him?
Homed at around 1am in the morning.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Saturday:
Started reading Low Kay Hwa's Destiny Cries and You are here.
Destiny cries ended with a sacrifice.
Just because the virus got transefererred over from the guy to the girl.
And now that he was the key,
He had to end his own life.
To prevent the destruction of earth.
Yea.
So that is the power of love.
Even if it means sacrificing his or her own life.
Then the guy fufiled the girl's wish before he died.
He tied his letter to a balloon and hope that it will somehow find it's way to her.
~~3. A letter faling from the sky specially for me.~~
You are here was even worst.
This girl had a guy when they were in secondary school.
Then this guy had a change of heart. (HOW COULD HE?!)
In the future he had another girlfriend.
But he met his ex and were still on talking terms.
So they decided to try again.
His ex then came down with a high fever.
This has caused some of her brain cells to die off.
After she recovered.
She got a rude shock when this guy's current slapped her.
When he was asked to choose.
He chose his ex.
His ex went into a traumatized state.
This girl,
She loved him so deeply,
That she could not take the blow.
So she dissociated into another person.
Her mindset begins to shrink by a year every 2 weeks.
She was trying to escape reality,
This guy.
Trying to relive her past.
When she was still a teenager and when she loved him and he loved her.
So her mind became that of a 17 years old and it carried on till it reached 10 years old.
When there seemed to be a shimmer of hope of recovery.
She got into a car accident and died.
They knew each other for very long lei!
15 YEARS!
ARGH!
This book has her name in it. Pg122.
I hope i don't end up like this girl.
I liked her for not a very short time either.
p5, p6, sec1, sec2, sec3 and until now.
I still love her..
5 YEARS LEI!
If i play play one i would have given up long ago.
You think very easy to like a person for so long?
You go try la!
Concealed with this comes pain.
Pain that can't be verbalized.
During sec 1,
I had to like her when she had another guy.
And now.
Loving her when i know it won't be returned.
I never really believed a girl could do this to me up till now.
To make me miss her so much.
To make me tongue tied and to make my heart skip a beat when i see her.
Maybe now i believe.
Believe in love.
Maybe i can only blame it on myself.
For making her wait too long.
For wasting her time.
For hurting her.
For tainting her pure heart.
And causing her pain that would never have had been there if i never went to that tuition.
Never asked her for _____.
But i did not regret knowing her.
And i don't whether i should be sad or happy about this.
Knowing you were once mine,
Is more than enough.
Actually i think i should be sad about it.
I wish to relive those moments someday.
That was too little.
The time we had together was so little.
Seeing you laugh.
Was the greatest joy of my life.
Seeing you sad.
Was the greatest pain.
I have never stopped liking and now loving her from the moment i knew her.
Even if i told myself..
No.
I cannot like her.
Subconsciously,
It's always there no matter how hard i try to deny it.
But up to till now.
I'm still puzzled over something.
Why did she even like me in the first place?...
Looks like this question is for me to know and for you to find out.

What can i do?

To (stay) ToGetHer?

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Sunday:

As usual i had tuition in the morning.

After that headed to cathay to meet my family.

It is my father's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIM! =D

Cousin's family came too.

Yup.

I finally got my present.

You can go my facebook and see.

Didn't talk much as i was mentaly exhausted.

Had black pepper fish.

Went to cathay to catch a movie after that.

Wached dragonball evolution while the rest watched race to witch mountain.

I wanna watch detroit metal city!

It looks intersting. o.0

Went back to grandma's house to take some stuff and homed straight after.

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Today:

Nothing to post about.

Haha!

What actually may seem the truth about me,

Is never the truth.

Underneath the happy go lucky me,

Lies a lonely soul.

I experienced as a kid what an adult should have.

The heartbreak of losing my loved ones.

Watching them die in front of me,

One by one as i watched helplessly.

I am not as shallow as you think i am.

I am not what you think i am.

Every choice i make,

To love you,

Is correct.

Because in love,

There is no right or wrong.

KEWEI WANTS TO BE A PREFECT!

NOMINATE HIM PLS!

HE LOST HIS HOT PINK MATHS FILE! D=

Going crazy at...
15:44

Friday, March 20, 2009

Existing For You.

The withheld who called me today morning at 10.27am.
Please call me back.
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With every passing minute of the day,
We get older.
As we grow older,
We become more mature and are able to handle things that we weren't able to.
Things such as commitment to a relationship, Heavier work pile (Homework), arguments, etc.
Some of us also lose our impulsiveness.
Commitment to a relationship= To stay true to whoever our significant spouse is.
And if the relationship works out,
We get married.
There after,
We have babies and carry on our family lines.
And when we grow old and fulfilled our destinies, some of you might call it purpose,
Our lives come to a closing.
An end.
Which we can't escape from.
Then our time here is done.
We will then cease to exist.
We have very little time here on earth.
We are only young once.
So treasure our time and study hard before we live to regret it.
We only get to live once.
I'm not sure about afterlife but..
STOP WASTING TIME NOW and lets make things right.
We can only pick one partner to spend the other half of our lives with.
And there are alot of others things that you can only have once or one.
We do make mistakes.
What are we?
We are human beings.
And we are in existance.
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So why i write this?
I was watching National Geographic Channel yesterday.
And i happened to chance upon this show.
And i learnt lots on how is world, galaxy and universe is formed and how it is going to END.
No.
It's not going to be a crunch where we are all going to become a small dense particle of matter.
At the rate that the universe is expanding..
Everything is gonna come apart is 10 million years. (Providing we don't die of global warming and others first. =D)
All the stars and planets will be isolated.
Which means we will no longer be near the sun and will no longer receive heat from it.
Satrs will either end with a big bang or turn into a black hole.
But even the black holes will vapourise.
So what chance do we have?
We who can't even survive the black holes.
Final equation= 0.00% (3sf) of surviving.
Even protons, neutrons and electrons will split apart.
Ok.
Enough is enough.
I have to go out to get some things before going for the BBQ. =D
Will update about it tonight.
Bye~

Ohmyg!

We were so close yet so far.

I was watching ____ too.

On the same line of street too.

Was it the same day?

But i felt very very distsant from you.

Like you are in the milky way,

And i'm in some other galaxy far across,

In the other side of the universe.

Going crazy at...
11:51

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

*Update*
Today was FUN!
In the morning updated my blog and facebook and other crab.
To whoever you are:
If you think you are any better then me..
Just go to hell and shut your freaking mouth up k?
All you do is talk big BULLSHIT.
You are just saying all these crab to put me down..
To make you feel superior.
Anyway..
If you say me,
You're stooping down to a level lower than mine.
So what right do you have to comment on other people when your own life is messed up.
WHERE IS YOUR BIG MOUTH NOW?
HOPE YOU'RE ~~FCKING~~ PROUD.
Crab.
Don't talk about this anymore.
Making me angry.
Went out with ashley to redhill to drink soyabean.
After that met with clique at Dhoby Ghaut MRT.
Went to plaza singapura from there.
To be frank.
I felt left out AT FIRST. =/
It was like everyone else had something to talk about EXCEPT me.
They say the things i also don't know.
Then went to buy tickets to watch movie.
It was scheduled at 4pm.
Had nothing to do so we decided to go to the arcade.
There,
I felt more in sync with the rest.
YR explained why then SR, CA, AW assured me that everything would be fine.
And it did turn out fine. =)
Didn't talk to anyone till we went there.
No.
But i wasn't emo-ing.
I was kinda pre-ocuppied with something else.
SPENT LESS THAN $5 IN THE ARCADE!
But i still wished i hadn't went in.
TIME FOR THE MOVIE!
From the time i went into the cinema till i came out.
I gained nothing.
YR is a freaking sadist.
SO AM I. =D
We laughed like mad when the advertisement showing Jacky Chan almost getting killed. (Movie) PUSH IS RIDICULOUS!
But funny.
THE SHOUTERS WERE ROFL.
They have cat eyes.
Very hard to describe in words.
You must see it for yourself.
The last shouter committed suicide.
He shouted and the building collapsed on him. -.-
The entire movie is about this division hunting down several special powered people.
And the quest to recover the syringe inside the black suitcase.
At the end.
The guy did not inject himself with the poison but..
9 dragons brand soy sauce. -.-!
The movie ended with,
Put the gun in your mouth and fire.
LOL.
They should pay me for advertising since there ain't much advertisements for it.
Went to eat pasta mania after.
I'm loving pasta mania more and more.
Joked and slacked there for almost an hour half.
Decided to go to cathay's toilet as it as cleaner?
Then boarded the MRT at 10pm,
And homed at 10.50pm.

Where would we be now baby?
If we found each other first.
What would you do now darling?
If i said this simple words.
I'll wait.
I'll wait.
As long as you want.

Going crazy at...
10:58

Monday, March 16, 2009

GET WELL SOON WENHUI!
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF YEAH?
I saying other people when i'm sick too. -.-
Dam!
Down with throat infection, influenza and slight fever.
Okok.
CHANGED BLOGSKIN!

When all the world is gone and dead,

I'll still be the one to hold your hand.

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Saturday:
OK!
Today i'm stuck at a forked road.
To the right,
I have to love her.
To the left,
I have to love her too?
Isn't much of a choice is it?
-.-
I AM MISSING HER LIKE I HAVEN'T SEEN HER FOR LIFETIMES!
EVERY SECOND IS A DRAG WITHOUT HER.
HAHAHAHA!
I sound so pathetic yeah?
THIS FEELING IS SO EVERLASTING AND PROLONGED
LTC IS FINALLY OVER!
Spent like 9 hours sitting in the classroom listening to talks.
And it seems that i'm sick.
SIAN. -.-
Like that how to go tuition tomorow?..
I go rest le.

Byebye~

Homecoming,

I'm coming.

My sweet mistake.

Summer's over,

Hope its not too late.

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Sunday:

I AM FEELING BETTER!

Attended tuition.

Did some revision for ionic and convalent bonding.

After tuition,

Me and shaun headed to suntec city!

I WANT TO BUY A NEW LAPTOP!

But no money.. Hais..

There was sort of a jam at the escalators of the convention hall.

AND DAM!

It was packed with people!

I thought singapore facing recession too?

They spend like..

Buy computer,

Buy TV,

Buy this buy that.

Everything also want to buy. -.-

At least i'm better..

I only..

Bought new ear phones as my ipod ones are spoiling.

WA!

Then best luh.

JAM AT CITYLINK!

The cityhall mrt there.

15 minutes!

STUPID CROWD!

SIAN..

Feeling sick again.

Gotta go rest le.

AGAIN!

BYEBYE~

Dear God,

The only thing i ask of you,

Is to hold her when i'm not around,

When i'm much too far away.

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Today:

I'M SICK PLUS..

I'M NOT GOING OUT TODAY ANYMORE!

They all going tomorow but i have lectures.

STUDIES MORE IMPORTANT!

This weeks schedule is rather hectic.

Monday: Holiday homework.

Tuesday: Chemistry lecture.

Wednesday: Holiday homework.

Thursday: Chemistry lecture again.

Friday: WHOO~ Class gathering.

Nothing much to post about.

I go do my homework.

Bye~

I don't want to face reality,

Please don't wake me from this slumber.

I still want to be in a dream,

When there is still me and you.

If i could,

I would make this into reality.

Only then,

I would start to feel again.

Going crazy at...
09:16

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

LOL!
I'm free to blog now!
I actually typed this yesterday but no time to complete so i copy over. =)
Tag reply:
Wenhui:D : How come i didn't see you? Where were you?
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday:
I'm really really pissed today.
You bus third.
You did it today.
You hit that raw nerve.
So just get the hell out of my freaking life.
BREATHE IN BREATH OUT!
Gotta calm down.
Today can also be described in another word.
Tiring.
PE.
Had to run run run.
Worst than 2.4.
Ok.
Actually I'm not sure.
Then had to do monkey bars.
Then was the hurdles.
It's scary.
I scared trip then knock my head against the next.
Then the last part skipped all the way back to school.
Lalalaaaa~
I know this is pissing some people out.
After that was chem.
Learnt ionic bonding and covalent bonding.
Maths was the last lesson for this term.
I'm gonna miss my best friend and favourite maths teacher,
MRS LOW! =D
Then had elective.
Reading was bla bla.
Stayed back for speech day rehearsal.
Hot, sweaty and sticky.
Homed and checked my email.
Then i took a nap.
When i woke up..
Nobody was at home.
HAD TO EAT INSTANT NOODLES AGAIN! -.-
All go out never tell me de.
TOMOROW IS THE LEAD TEST!
PRAY HARD THAT I PASS.
YOU ALL OUT THERE HAVE TO GIVE ME YOR SUPPORT LEIS.
Later come out dragonforce how?
LOL.
Tell you people about it soon.
I dreamt of i don't want to say who again.
I don't think i want to try anymore.
It seems that the harder i try,
The harder it is for me to forget.
Ok.
Now i'm gonna be simen jr so bear with me.
Let me tell you a story my mum told me a few days back during the weekends.
She said:
Kw.
You know i have a friend whose son had a crush on in secondary school.
And though he let the girl know that he has feelings for her,
They remained as friends.. For now.
Though the girl expressed interest as well.
They made pact tthat once they past their Os,
They will get together.
The strived hard and they finally got together.
I want to update my previous post.
I will wait for you.
Lets just remain as friends for now k?
And strive hard for the Os k?
But i can't stand not talking to you.
Can we make the pact?
Pls?
Yes i know the Os pressure is here.
Here to stay.
It's hitting me hard too.
Even the mids and the end of years are tough.
The questions that run through my mind are,
Will i fail?
Will i graduate?
Will i go to the school of my choice after?
The pressure..
How much can that body of yours take?
I am more than willing to share it with you.
Everybody has their limits and are bound to breakdown one day.
Even superwoman..
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Today:
PISSED IS THE WORD!
First got caught for hair?
Mine so short?
I think this is a bit out of hand.
I just cut then catch me.
But the OMs said i was fine and sent me back to class. =)
Then had a mini quarrel with my english teacher.
This was what happened:
I was passing down the extra pieces of paper.
She came and ask what i was doing.
I said: Passing extra luh.
Teacher: You talk to me use LUH one ah? You think i your friend ah, i then don't want.
I said: ...
LOL. -.-
After recess was physics.
The Bo Rui..
Write what she wasting time..
Caused Mrs leong so angry,
In fact everyone did. Me too. But at least i don't do these kind of things.
She today really very angry.
You see luh,
Maybe she don't want teach us next term already.
She said might have relief teacher take over.
Lets not make her angry anymore k?
Our Os are at stake.
After that was SS.
Mrs pang told us about her "Playboy friend",
Who went around clubbing, drinking, sleeping around.
What a jerk.
After was supplementary class for physics caused wasted too much time.
She was like so happy teaching.
First time i see Mrs Leong not screaming and smiling like that.
JY MRS LEONG!
Ok.
Then was homed straight after.
Now going for my lead test.
WISH ME LUCK ALL!
I HOPE TO PASS.
I MUST PASS. =D
Bye all~

Thanks for the advice.

Appreciated.

And don't stress yourself out too much.

This is a problem between me and her.

Relax! =)

Going crazy at...
15:26

Monday, March 09, 2009

HELLO PEOPLE!
DID YOU MISS ME?
SAY YES!
Hahahaaaa.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Wednesday:
School was cool today.
3 teachers were absent.
Only reading and physics teacher came.
I seriously need help in physics or i'm gonna fail.
Maths too.
Had physics test today.
When i got the paper,
I totally went blank.
After school stayed back for 10 minutes to discuss about class gathering.
It's at ECP!
I might want to plan one for 6H 06'
WooHooo~
I'm sooo happy today!
I eat, eat and eat like never before.
Ate Magherittas pizza at pasta mania.
Then went to eat fried mars balls.
Last but not least,
First kiss strawberry snow ice.
All very nice food!
YUMMY! =P
The jump shot was really really WEIRD!
Haven't had such a good laugh since who knows when.
The people must be like,
"What are these 2 people doing?"
ROFL! -.-
Is it me or am i gaining weight?
Hopefully it will be acceptable soon. =D
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Thursday:
I PASSED MY CHINESE CA!
WHAT A MIRACLE!
I GOT FULL MARKS FOR MY ART CA!
Though i'm not very good. =D
I will try..
To forget you.
To forget your everything.
Nor will i ever shed another tear for you.
My wish is coming true,
Erase the memories of your face.
But i'm not going to try TOO HARD.
Just let nature takes its course.
If it fades,
It just means i don't love you enoguh and i can't wait.
But if it doesn't then..
HOHOHO!
But for now.
I'm going to think of nothing but my studies.
I DARE to say that ILY just as much as your parents does or maybe even more.
Need to seek solace in somebody before i suffocate and choke upon my words.

I messed it up,

I messed you up,

I miss you.

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Friday:

Saw the class photo and i looked weird again.

How come it seems that i never look good in them?

Don't tell me course i very ugly hor! -.-

Never get to sit beside that girl in tuition again.

Hais..

JK.

But she did reserve a seat for me lor.

Or at least i think its for me.

Got one space!

MY FRIENDS LOR!

Drag me sit behind. -.-

Drinks were banned .

Sian.

No more bubble tea. D=

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Saturday:

Sad to say that yesterday night wasn't very pleasant at all.

It was a sweet nightmare.

Dreamt of . again.

Hais..

It seems impossible to get her out of my mind.

I'm losing my tan!

ARGH!

Not say i very tanned luh but got a little mah.

Maybe i can go jump the diving board again.

Then can SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMM!

Then had tuition in the afternoon.

Ha.

Almost broke down in front of my tuition teacher when she asked me who is that girl.

Wasted like 20 minutes of tuition telling her.

No details were spared.

All the way from p5 to sec 2 to recently.

I really don't know what to do with myself.

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Sunday:

Ah yo,

I overslept.

Ended up late for physics tuition.

My father was kind of pissed that i keep dragging around in the house.

Early in the morning got screwed already. =/

PHYSICS tuition was a KILLER.

When i came out,

I felt drained of energy.

Then my brain sort of shut off.

Actually want to go to Diva at bugis de but..

Bought sparkling ribena for myself while going home.

It doesn't taste as good as the normal one.

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To my good friend:
I'm quite sure you will be reading this.
You can tell your cousin whatever i told you.
If she asks.
I don't mind.
I also never say anything bad.
And it is not that i hate IJ girls.
It's just that everytime i see them it reminds me of .
You know who.
And i so did not cry!
You also never say anything to make me sad.
But i almost wanted to.
Course,
I'm dying without her.
She is like the air i breathe you know?
And once a human lacks of air then he or she will die.
Does it mean i'm dead?
Cos i feel like i am.
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I loved you forever,
In lifetimes before.
With you by my side,
Forever has now begun.
Past, present and future.
Forever.
So pls.
Let me profess my love for you openly.
I don't even know why i'm trying to hide it.
But one thing's is for sure.
It's not working at all.
I still love you.
Are you hinting me or referring to me by any chance?
Am i hallucinating?
All i can do is hope.
Pls give me a sign.
HEY!
This reminds me of a song.
Ha.
But i know this crush ain't going
Awayyyyywayywayyyywayyyy!
Oh yea.
I still have something to admit.
I still have the couple tee.
I was just deceiving myself.
It's still waiting for its rightful owner to come and claim it.
I feel like scowling at someone.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today:
Hmm..
Was really really sleepy at school. =/
The weather was like.. So niceee.
Physics as usual was scream scream and more screaming.
Then after went to Wilson's house to help him re-string his guitar.
Then watched some videos.
Hmm..
Those videos really perked me up.
Very very funny videos.
If you are feeling bored.,
Consider watching.
Dragonforce is crap:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bblDQiGAni8&feature=related
Herman Li falls over:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUadFja3XKE&feature=related
Ok.
This is wayy cool!
I created this so you don't siao siao and copy.
I tell you,
I can sue the person for copyright.
MRS LEONG! ROFL.

My heart is beating in a lonely tempo,

And my pulse is almost zero.

And know it's emo.

I have to stay back for the rest of the days in the week.
Tuesday- Speech day rehearsal.
Wednesday- Physics supplementary.
Thursday- Speech day, 6pm then start leh! WTH. -.-
So i won't be blogging for the rest of this week.
Miss me.
Bye~

I am the protagonist of my own life,

I control fate,

And not let it control me.

Going crazy at...
17:30

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Hello!
Haven't updated for sometime.
Some stuff that happened over the past weekend
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Friday:
Tuition was a big JOKE.
First my seat got changed cause i kept joking and talking.
Sat in between 3 girls.
The ones on my right were quite pretty.
But not interested. -.-
The one on my left was.. UGH!
Continued to crack jokes to annoy the teacher.
Then those 2 girls keep giggling.
So cute. >.<
JKJK!
I want to get a haircut soon. =(
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Saturday:
Is it true? Is the pain finally coming?
After that will be the numbness..
The last time round it was like that.
Pain followed by madness and then numbness.
I HOPE!
All this pain but no one to share it with..
Actually got one luh but..
What can i do?
One day it will burst?..
I hope i don't harm anyone when that comes.
...
.,I was wrong in p6.
I just can't do it.
I should have gotten over you now but haven't.
That is when i realised i still..
ILY?
Still.
Sorry.
Have you every had the feeling that when you wake up one day,
You're gonna lose everything you've had yesterday?
Once felt so loved,
The next moment it's all taken away from me.
It happened so quickly.
Too quickly.
It feels so distant.
Now all that is left is emptyness and pain.
Without you,
This just isn't the same anymore..
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
Ok, so i was watching travel and living channel.
Something called super swank.
WTF man!
Is that how the rich people spend their money?
By living in some sort of hotel/crib that costs 14k US dollars per night?
That is the most ridiculous thing anyone should do.
Even if they are rich.
Squandering off their money like that.
Be a philanthropist and give some money to the poor and needy.
OHMYGOD!
I just realised i'm getting freaking fat. =/
Gotta go swim or work out soon.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sunday:
Flaws, flaws flaws!
Everyone is riddled with them but i have the most.
Every single part of me is flawed.
(Ok i know what you GUYS are thinking. I'm not defective in that way k?)
Sometimes i do question my existance here in this world.
What is my purpose here?
I'm not good in studies nor in anything i do.
Average in guitar and swimming only.
Neither do i have the looks like the guys in my class.
Unfriendly to those who i don't know well.
And lots more luh.
I AM A FREAKING EMO!
What to do?
Hais...
Mo mo ren told me that my only flaw was that i sometimes get very cold.
And nothing else?
How can that be man?
I think she was trying to cheer me up.
She also said that maybe . didn't know how to treasure my love for her?
And that i will find a better girl next time..
I WISH IT WOULD BE LIKE THAT!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Monday:
Nothing much to say about school today.
Hahaha Jia Yu!
Alife was weird?
No i didn't spell it wrongly.
Mr simen's talk had an impact on me! -.-
Like i was being woken up from my dream.
I realized i need to work hard to achieve!
I am determined to make up for lost time.
In all aspects.
Studies, guitar, swimming bla bla bla.
FULL SPEED AHEAD KEWEI!
Chiong maths and physics!
Marcus was quite the joker. -.-
Real funny guy! =P
Hais..
My life is filled with regrets.
Tsktsk.
The biggest one is the most horrible. =S
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Today:
Suck to the MAX!
Had an attire check again.
School nothing better to do sia!
Got cuaght for my fringe!!!!!!!!
AGAIN!
LAST YEAR ALREADY KENA BEFORE.
My hair got cut!!!!!!!!
Luckily the other time the attire problem not counted or i today get canned. -.-
HENG AH!
Nothing much to say about school.
Hmmm..
Going to cut my hair later.
Looking forward to tomorow! =D
Hoho.
Tkaress all.
Byebye~
PET SOCIETY IS UNDER MAINTAINANCE!
Don't put off what you can do today,
Don't wait till tomorow,
As there might be no tomorow.

When all hope begins to fade,

I will be there for you,

As i am your guardian angel,

Forever yours and yours only.

Going crazy at...
16:05