I love SNSD!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Ok.
Here was my art work on thurs.
Really random piece of work.
Couldn't think of anything.

Completed piece of work. But haven't shade.

50% complete. That is my pencil up there at the edge. You can buy the same one as me if you want. =D

Going crazy at...
16:14

ABC life.
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A
- Available: No. -.-
- Age: Turned 15,days ago.
- Annoyance: People who get on my nerves.
- Animal: Erm. I think the monkey?

B
- Beer: Is vodka a beer?
- Birthday: 16 Feb
- Best Friend: All my friends are my best friends. =D
- Body Part on opposite sex: Hands -.-
- Best feeling in the world: Being loved by the person you loved most.
- Blind or Deaf: Deaf.
- Best weather: Windy.
- Been in Love: Last time, and now..
- Been on stage : With Jazreel. To talk about NE.
- Believe in Magic: -.-
- Believe in Santa: Got tricked by my parents last time.

C
- Candy: Any will do.
- Color: White, black, red, pink and sometimes blue.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla. =p
- Chinese/Mexican Food: Chinese.
- Cake or pie: Cake.
- Continent to visit: Any would be good.
- Cheese: o.0

D
- Day or Night: Night. I feel more natural. I'm the night kind of person. =D
- Dancing in the rain: Wow. Never tried it before.

E
- Eyes: ???
- Everyone's got: A body. -.-
- Ever failed a class?: Yes.

F
- First thought waking up: .
- Food: The food i like to eat? LOTS.

G
- Greatest Fear: Erm. Being out of love?
- Goals: For now? Hmm, score well in exams and to be able to play guitar better.
- Gum: Hmm.. GumGum.
- Get along with your parents?: Sometimes we do clique. But mostly.. no.

H
- Hair Color: Brownish black.
- Height: 170cm? And still growing. =D
- Happy: NO.
- Holiday: Maybe. If i have things to do. Especially if i am able to go out with friends.
- How do you want to die: With her? Yea luh. Fat hope mans!

I
- Ice Cream: Chocolate/Vanilla/Cookie and cream/Strawberry.
- Instrument: GUITAARR!

J
- Jewelry: I am a guy.. Hello? But i do have a plain metallic ring. =o
- Job: STUDENT!

K
- Kids: Kids that are not irritating. CUTE CUTE DE >.<
- Kickboxing or karate: None. But if i got forced. Kickboxing.
- Keep a journal?: BLOG! And you're reading it!

L
- Love: her.
- Letter: K and W. Cos it spells my initials. -.-
- Laughed so hard you cried: Can't remember. Long time since i laughed like that already.

M
- Milk flavor: The plain low fat kind?
- Movies: Anything that is good. :)
- Motion sickness?: IDK.
- McD’s or BK: BK.

N
- Number: Anything is good. Cause they are all maths and digits.

O
- One wish: HER. -.-

P
- Perfect Pizza: Any pizza she eats.
- Pepsi/Coke: None. I don't like gassy stuff.

Q
- Quail: Erm. Don't touch.

R
- Reason to cry: BREAKUP? haha!
- Reality T.V.: Waste of time.
- Radio Station: 98.7 FM!
- Roll your tongue in a circle: Sure.
- Ring size: Idk. That metallic ring is people buy for me de?

S
- Song: Anything i can play? =D
- Shoe size: 8 to 9 on converse shoes.
- Salad Dressing: Plain.
- Sushi: Crabmeat.
- Skinny dipped?: ???
- In the shower?: Sing + daydream, think of things. I sort my thoughts out in there. =S
- Strawberries/Blueberries: STRAWBERRIES FOR THE WIN! =D

T
- Tattoos?: Nah.
- Time for bed: When i feel like it.
- Thunderstorms: Uh. Crash?

U
-unpredictable: Everythings possible.

V
- Vacation spot(s): Anywhere in this world or out with my loved one would be GREAT.

W
- Weakness: If i tell you already. You sure target one. No..
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: I'm unique. And unpredictable. High and the next moment emo.
- Who makes you laugh the most: Erm. Everybody contributes luh.
- Worst feeling: D=
- Wanted to be a model: HELLO? FAT HOPE.
- Worst Weather?: Sunny and rain.

X
- X-Rays: In the hospitals.

Y
- Year it is now: 2009
- Yellow: Is a colour?

Z
- Zoo animal: MONKEY. Woo Woo.

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? - Is my bolster counted? Or maybe stitch?
2. You went to the mall with? - Yao Ren was the last. Vivo.
3. You went to dinner with? - Today's dinner haven't come yet lei!
4. You talked to on the phone? - Last person was her. Hardly call anybody.
5. Made you laugh? - JOE ANG JIA JUN YOU JOKER!
6. Hugged you? - I think it was back in 1999 or 2000? I can't remember who though.
7. Said they loved you? - Wa! Don't have luh. Used to be . .
8. Held your hand? - That feeling feels very distant.
9. You spoke with? - Erm. My grandma.
10. you cried over? - A girl.
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Today is cca day again.
Real boring.
March march and march.
Got screwed by CSM cause i tried to imitate somebody.
Haha.
And got pumped lots.
=S
My phone got scratchedd!
Sucks.
I'm LOVE MY GAY white bag!
WHOO~
This is retarded.
I WANT IT!
Haha!
Nothing much from me today.
Facebook is under maintenance.
My poor pet!
D=
LOL.
Got some new BFMV songs.
One word to describe: Hardcore.
=D

And that is me.

Going to take a nap now.

Good night and good bye~ =)

And so what if she is a nerd and is not so pretty?

Don't you know what is "beauty is in the eyes of it's beholder?"

Dam.

One day, we are all going to get old and withered.

Then all our good looks will disappear.

If it is like that.

How will you like her next time?

Then how?..

Pretty then pretty luh!

Very big deal meh?!

Going crazy at...
14:55

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Long time since i did a quiz!
Since Carol tagged me.
I shall do.
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Yesterday night. =(
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yea. But mummy says it is a tad bit too small.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Erm. Beef?
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
No! I'm not even married. =/
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yea.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Lot and lots. I'm sarcastic.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yup.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I would like to, but can't. =(
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Plain ones. But the sweet ones are nice too. =)
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yes.
What happned to 12?
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Strawberry, chocolate, vanillia and cookies and cream.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Usually looks and his or her heart.
15.RED OR PINK?
Blood red!!!!
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Erm. I am shy! No joke! I get tongue tied in front of the girl i like. =D
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
. (I want to say your name). =(
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Yea. Sure. Why not. =)
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Last one was my school uniform. Dark blue pants and white canvas shoes.
Where is 20?
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Hey Monday's Candles!
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Any colour that would please her, that she will like.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
The smell of her (.) and great food.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Oh. Haven't talk to anyone since her. (.)
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Okok luh. As a friend.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Basketball, badminton and swimming.
27. HAIR COLOR?
Natural brownish black.
28. EYE COLOR?
Brownish black too.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No.
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Her. Whatever she eats, i eat.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Depends on my mood. If i feel sadistic or sarcastic on that day, i would prefer scary movies.. BOO!~ Haha!
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Bed time stories.
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Now? I'm not wearing any shirt. Very hott man! Ok luh. I'm gonna put on my clothes now.
A white shirt.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Depends on my mood again. Summer when i'm happy and winter when i'm emo and i would to see snow. =D
35. HUGS OR KISSES?both!
Where is 36?
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Anybody.
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Anybody.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
The lovely bones.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
Nothing. I don't have a mouse pad.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Did not watch TV. -.-
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?
Her voice and laughter. If you heard it. You would know. Reminds me of a song! Thunder: Her voice was the soundtack of my summer, Do you know you're unlike any other. You'll aways be my thunder.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
None. Haha!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Is Shanghai further or Austrailia?
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Yea. Guitarrrisssttt!
46. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
All. Anybody.
47. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
I admit that i found her but she doesn't.. What can i do?

Going crazy at...
19:52

Tues:
Yay!
Today PE was da BOMB!
Just exhausting.
Did chin-ups and 2.4km run.
Here was what happened in my 8 rounds around the field:
Round 1: Was doing fine. Pretty tired though..
Round 2: Wanted to give up but started singing a song. "Your tears don't fall, they crash around me~"
Round 3: Heart pain.. It happened once again.. D=
Round 4: Run, don't walk.
Round 5: A wave of nausea swept through me.
Round 6 and 7: Same same. Felt tired.
Round 8: Died. -.-
Finished with a whopping..
13 minutes 20 seconds!
Hoho.
Then ms sek was like.
Boys can't walk,
They walk,
They fail.
Then she was like,
You stop ah?
Like that you're a potential runner.
UH! -.-
No way!
Then had chem test right after that.
Can't concentrate.
Tired, tired and tired.
The rest of the day in school was boring.
I shan't bore you out with it.
After school went to Harris at Suntec City to buy some stationery.

Everyday's the same.

Without you.

Plain,old, boring day. D=

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Uh ok.

Harlo!

I need a new bag!

My bag spoil then using cousin's bag.

Dam gay.

Girl's bag. Full white.

Today was erm..

Same, old, boring day?

Without you again..

Nothing to say about school today.

After school went to get my guitar and then chiong to vivo with yao ren.

Ate super dog at vivo's basement.

We chiongs to my teacher studio.

I wanted to faint and almost did. =D

After doing nothing for awhile.

Wilson came and we slack slack slack all the way till 5.30 and my teacher came back.

Thanks to him, for lending us his studio.

Ok my verdict for us:

Me= Electric/Acoustic.

Yao Ren= Acoustic/Electric.

Wilson= Erm. Electric?

Seriously.

I think wilson is capable of much more.

Jia yous!

One day, I believe we all can play a great song together.

One day..

Seems so long.. And far away.

Tomorow is chinese common test.

And have lots of homework.

Gotta go. Byes. =)

To Wen Hui: You today see until me at the bus stop ontop never say hi! LOL. -.-

To Dong Hoon: Thanks for standing up for me.

You're the man! From Korea.

Everyday's a drag without you. D=

Going crazy at...
19:24

Monday, February 23, 2009

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chanceI know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me.

The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qF1wZQzpeKA
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I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold
It's making me insane
I've been waiting here so long
But now the moment seems to come,
I see the black clouds coming up again.
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,To the end of time,Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you
A half moon's fading from my sight
I see a vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name, I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I loose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Hey! Hey!
I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it send me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

Monsoon-Tokio Hotel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1BUFupWa52g (Just the song.)

You're breaking me down.

Bit by bit.

I have a feeling,

My apocalypse is coming soon.

Going crazy at...
16:37

Sunday:
I won't be updating my blog so often anymore.
Cos i have to study for the CAs which are coming up.
And there are also other responsibilties.
I've been seeing red marks on my test paper.
As in fail la.
I don't know what is happening to me.
I feel like i don't fit.
If i can't fit in HSS,
Where do i go?
A school where you can buy your way through education and certificates?..
Ok.
This is to clarify.
I highly believe what you had was not an "illusional love".
For example.
If you see a guy you don't know on the streets holding another girl's hands,
Would you get jealous?
No right..
If there is jealousy,
There is bound to be love.
You don't get jealous over someone you don't know.
Or at least someone you don't love.
Love is not smooth sailing.
There are obstacles till the finishing line.
That time during the begining of sec 1.
If just so happens you msged my old number and i sold it or deactivated it,
Would i receive that sms from you?
Something told me that i should keep that number and i did.
I gave it to my aunt.
So i can check for smses or calls.
But wasn't allowed to used.
And the more recent one.
If it just so happened at that time that you told me you liked me.
I could have said i have no more feelings for you and rejected.
And carried on with her instead of breaking up with her just to be with you.
But i didn't.
If you don't call this fate,
I don't know what fate is.
Or at least what you call it.
Nobody in this world is perfect.
Including you and me.
We all should be given chances.
Learn to accept him or her for they are.
Their good points and flaws.
And compare similarities instead of differences.
You cannot just go, "Hey. I feel insecure. Lets breakup."
Let him have some time to change.
Some things can be changed.
And it has only less than half a day of interaction.
How can you judge him like that?
How can you expect him to able to to get closer to a person who he has never met since tuition 2 years ago.
Bad news, i might be coming back.
Cos my mum said that i did good there.
But that time i was just.. Trying to impress you luh..
I wasn't doing it for my own sake.
Who will i impress now?
I don't know what will happen when i see your face..
Will i breakdown and cry? Learn to love..
Me..
Pls..
Ans to . tag.
I don't want to take care of my health.
I want you to take care of it for me.
Without you ,
My life isn't a life anymore.
I'm not feeling alive at all.
I know i'm selfish and all.
But thats just how love works.
I mean you wouldn't want to see your BF getting intimate with some other girl right?
Ok. People, enough is enough.
Stop spamming la.
Get a life and go study for your tests.
Idie said that 19.93% of my life is gone according to the clock it was at 11.43pm.
I don't have much time left.
Plus all the other crap,
35 to 40% of my life gone.
I just want to spend it with you.

Why do you have to push me away?

When i haven't loved you enough.

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With every passing nightmare and sweet dreams,

The images of you in my mind grows more vivid,

By the passing seconds and minutes of the dream.

Today:

Ok. Today was just weird.

Chinese was funny.

3/4 of the class got sent out.

They never do homework. -.-

thanks Jue Ping for reminder.

Then english period got replace with maths common test.

Sad.

I think i'm gonna fail. I'm worried.

Whats wrong with me?
Then chem totally owned me?
I wrote linear inenqualities for answer to what is an atom, electron and neutron.
pp.
Then came photo taking.
Poh Kiat was like, "Hey, i'm the biceps man?"
LOL.
I just stoned through the photos.
Then was the change of seats.
I thought i sat with Jue Ping sia.
Wasted.
Nvm.
Sit with Jacklyn also can.
I just don't like Kuan Ting.
Small guy with a big head.
Sorta of like a bobblehead?
Ok.
Maths was just weird too?
Today mrs low said my english is good. -.-
First praise this year! =DD
She said she never noticed till i speak on stage about the NE thing.
She say very interesting.
MRS LOW LEI!
She was listening.
So ps.
I must show her that people who are good in english are good in maths too.
Could someone blow the candles out for me?
Or should it be,
Blow my candles out?
ARGH!
Wed going JAMMING! WOOHOO~
Gotta go.
I have a date with my buddy! =D
Bye~

The images of you in my my mind grow more vivid,

By the passing seconds of the day.

Going crazy at...
15:20

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Halo.
Replies to tags:
To whoever you ppl are(./,/...): I do not love either Jue ping or Candice.
You all don't siao siao.
They are my friends only.

To Jazreel: It's ok. You got impersonated is it?

To Wen Hui: Really? It was just the other day. See me in school never say hi. -.- So bad!

Ok.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Friday night:
Today i'm really confused.
I don't know who is lying to me and who is telling the truth.
The people involved are all the people i tryst.
And i wouldn't want to betray my trust to anyone of them.
But one has to be lying.
Unless.. Nvm.
Who should i believe?
Hmm.
So i heard Hey Monday and decided that it was a good change from the usual metal music.
The lead singer is pretty!
But i'm not interested.
I say pretty doesn't mean anything de.
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The power lines went out
And I am all alone
But I don't really care at all
Not answering my phone
All the games you played
The promises you made
Couldn't finish what you started
Only darkness still remains
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
Been black and blue before
There's no need to explain
I am not the jaded kind
Playback's such a waste
You're invisible
Invisible to me
My wish is coming true
Erase the memory of your face
Lost sight
Couldn't see
When it was you and me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright
One day
You will wake up
With nothing but "you're sorrys"And someday
You will get back
Everything you gave me
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

Candles, Hey Monday.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1vPBluieS6w
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You're the direction i follow to get home
When i feel like i can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like i can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if i get weak in the knees'
cause you have that effect on me, you do
Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, i can't think straight
But i'm okay
And i can't think of anybody else
Who i hate to miss as much as i hate missing you
Months going strong now, and no goodbye
Unconditional, unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me, i love you harder so
Everything you say
Everytime we kiss, i can't think straight
But i'm okayAnd i can't think of anybody else
Who i hate to miss as much as i hate missing you
So please, give me your hands
So please, give me a lesson on how to steal, steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine, as you stole mine
Oh and everything you say
Everytime we kiss, i can't think straight
But i'm okay
And i can't think of anybody else
Who i hate to miss as much as i hate missing you
So please, give me your hands
So please, just take my hand.

6 Months, Hey Monday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfKe2JxGoQo

This is what i feel about you,

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Weekends:

Ok.

So, the weekends weren't very excitng at all.

In fact,

It was just downright plain boring.

Spent most of time studying for maths common test.

Been seeing red marks on papers.

Skipped lunch and dinner as wasn't hungry.

I had chinese tuition on saturday afternoon.

My tuition teacher is a "Mr Bean".

At approximately 12.45 am in the morning,

Had gastric.

Wasn't really painful,

As another part of me was hurting more.

Running low on sugar too.

Even though i have a sweet tooth.
Felt dizzy and my head weighed a ton this morning while i walked downstairs to buy breakfast.

Sucks to the max.

Luckily parents are still in the dark.

Had maths/ science tuition the following day.

Bag spoiled so i using my cousin's bag temporarily.

Nike air de leis!

Met JACK NEO!

OHMY GOSH!

Pic is below.

And my hair is getting pretty thick.

Gotta go cut it soon.

Probably after class photo.

Later the barber cut until very ugly.

This hair style was recommended to me by .

Short and not so thick hair looks good on me?

Idk.

Many people say.

I look like a kuku in the yearbook.

Hair so thick.

Very ugly can.

You want to see you go 08'2E2.

Now that the shining star in my life is gone.

I lost my direction in life.

I seriously have no idea what to do next or with myself.

Why am i like that?

I hate myself for putting a 101% of love inside every relationship that starts.

Hoping that she might be the one.

But you know what people say.

The higher the hopes,

The greater the fall..

I'm at the end of my tethers,

Desperate to find a way out of this pain and misery.

From the departure of my loved one(s),

One after another.

Going crazy at...
16:52

Friday, February 20, 2009

Halo!
Sat with Patty in the bus this morning.
She said that she swallowed pills that were powder-ish in solid form.
Since when did tablets become pills?
LOL luh.
Today is cca day.
Had rehearsel as usual for speech day.
I sick lei!
Still make me march.
The heat is coming up already.
After that was very very funny.
Had a combined dimissal with the NCC.
LOL.
Mr Kek was like,
"NCC and BB, Bersu Rai."
Then they did their stuff. And we did ours.
And we were like,
Turn check,
Bang check,
Up check,
Down check,
1,
2,
3,
BB!
LOL.
Ok.
Homed straight after that,
I wanna play my guitar tonight.
Practice my 2 songs. =)
Ok.
Nothing much to post about today.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Have tuition at clementi later at night.
I lazy go sia.
My father not coming to fetch.
And shaun!
You'd better come clean with me about who is Amanda Poon or..
Haha.
Thats for you to know and for me to find out.
See ya people.

One blow after another,

Xin ru dao ge.

The pain is getting stronger,

Like an open wound without the gauze.

Burn baby burn,

Revealing my hearts affection.

It hurts,

Wounds so sore,

Now i'm torn.

Going crazy at...
16:20

Doesn't the last 2 photos look familiar to you?

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Can't you see that i need you?

Everyday feels like a millenium without you.

And although Singapore is so small,

I feel like a million light years away from you.

From now on i will refer you as .

The roses that were meant for you on valentines..

They died..

Cos i don't have the chance to give it to you.

But i'm not sure whether you will even want it.

If it was on valentines..

No matter what the ocassion is,

I will thick skined go there and give you the flowers.

Even if i had the strongest feeling you won't want it.

Going crazy at...
14:58

Thursday, February 19, 2009

After school,
Had guitar lesson and my teacher tabbed out 2 songs.
Could sing while i played.
Improvement.
The screaming din't go well.
Stupid soar throat and fever.
Had to sing it instead.. -.-
Ok.
Today i'm quite happy.
1.I found out who . is. (And it's not Jia Yang.)
2.I think i might have read some false information,
Which got me real pissed.
Hey Monday is a great band.
Like Paramore.
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Lyrics:

Once more I'll say goodbye to you
Things happen,
but we don't really know why
if it's supposed to be like this
why do most of us ignore the chance to miss
oh yeah
Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before i snap
Once more you tell those lies to me
Why can't you just be straight up with honesty (honesty,honesty)
When you say those things in my ear
Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear (wana hear,wanna hear)
oh yeah (yeah!)
Wear your heart on your sleeve make things hard to believe
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like
Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around
me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see!
(me)Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap
Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears
I'm not feeling the situation
Run away try to find that safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like me(it's the best place to be when you're!)
Me! (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
All these things I hate revolve around me (Me)
Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see
(Me)Me! (Me)
All these things I hate revolve around me
(Me)Yeah! (Yeah)
Just back off before I snap.

All these things i hate.
Bullet For My Valentine.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBDAeO7_XTc
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lets go
with blood shot eyes i watch you sleeping
the warmth i feel beside me is slowly fading
would she hear me if i called her name
would she hold me, if she knew my shame
theres always something different going wrong
the path i walk is in the wrong direction
there's always someone f****** hanging on
can anybody help me make things better
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home
the moments died, i hear no screaming
the visions left inside me are slowly fading
would she hear me if i called her name
would she hold me if she knew my shame
theres always something different going wrong
the path i walk is in the wrong direction
there's always someone f******* hanging on
can anybody help me make things better
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home
this battered room i've seen before
the broken bones they heal no more, no more
with my last breath i'm choking
will this ever end i'm hoping
my world is over one more time
lets go
would she hear me if i called her name
would she hold me, if she knew my shame
theres always something different going wrong
the path i walk is in the wrong direction
there's always someone f***** hanging on
can anybody help me make things better
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home
your tears don't fall they crash around me
her concious calls the guilty to come home

Tears don't fall
Bullet for my valentine.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7m_MJX58qk8
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I did this 2 songs acoustic plus vocals and recorded them.
I want to post credits to those who helped.
Nigel Tan, For helping me with the acoustic parts and being a good teacher.
Composers, For composing the great songs.
And BFMV, For making it a great song!

Ok.
So today's school was a real drag.
Except for maths.
I need to pay more attention.
First i had english and chinese.
Nothing much to post about those.
Then came geography and maths after recess.
We finally completed a topic in geog! -.-
Rivers.
After school had elective and it was a photography trip.

Went with Tessa And Kelston and met Jia Yang and Marcus.
Was slacking all the way.
But still got do ok.
The pictures are uploaded some here and in facebook.

To sleep every night,

It's a torture to me.

When i turn in for the night and close my eyes,

You appear in my head.

You ARE pretty.

But it is just too much.

It keeps appearing in my mind over and over again.

It is breaking me down slowly.

As we speak.

Going crazy at...
20:06

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Senseless blabbering. The last phrase doesn't apply to anyone.

You can run,
But you can't hide.

To be or not to be,
No that is the question.

It's such a beautiful lie,
It's such a perfect denial.
such a beautiful lie to believe in.
A beautiful beautiful lie,
But,
It is just a game.

You might think that the war is over,
But,
I'm just about to show you the tip of the iceberg.

When i see YOUR face,
My heart bursts into fire.

Going crazy at...
16:55

So today's school wasn't all that good.

I was kinda pissed.

But better than yesterday.

In order.

1. I read something i should not have yesterday night.

2.I still don't know who . is.

I could only make assumptions.

3. Might have to speak in front of school back.

So i had chinese lesson first.

As usual.

We all got scolded. -.-

Ok.

Then came eng.

The teacher today very pissed too.

I could tell.

Then was reading.

No scolding.

No nothing.

Recess.

Had fishballs noodles and iced mocha.

Bad combo.

Felt like puking after.

I had remember that i'm still sick. -.-

The pill was just digusting.

But fun to swallow.

The fever was coming up yesterday night.

Most likely caused i got freaking pissed.

Very Very hot!

I think it hit 38.5.

(I hope it is not dengue fever). D=

Had to sleep in air con.

Ok, where was i?

Hmm..

Ok.

After recess had physics.

As usual we got screamed at without fail.

Half the class never do home work.

LOL luh.

Then came SS.

Oh my god.

Boring stuff.

It is all common sense, and if you read the news,

You will be a high flyer.

School ended.

Met up with jazreel to go see MSG for some NE stuff.

Went home staight after that.

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Back to yesterdays.

Yesterday evening:

Was freaking freaking pissed and i started a rage,

Blasted my Marshall "baby" to the max.

For why: pls check ontop.

It sorta ignited the flame then i suprassed in my heart.

And my hearts burst into fire.

I felt like ripping someone's heart out.

I wanted to see blood flow.

I needed to release it fast.

Decided the right thing to do was to blast my guitar.

Hear the distortion distort my guitar.

Hear it screeeaaam!

Played songs with high gain output like My chemical romance's famous last words, I'm not okay (i promise).

False pretense, Face Down, The red jumpsuit apparatus.

Seize the day, Critical Acclaim, Avenged Sevenfold.

(Btw i screamed with them. FUN!)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

The flood, Escape the fate.

Waking the demon, hearts bursts into fire,

Tears don't fall, all these things that i hate (revolve around me),

Bullet for my valentine.

Added lots of distortion.

More then the necessary.And since my guitar was sorta distorted.

Had triple distortion.

Heavier than BFMV + A7X + RJA + MCR + ETF.

Why am i even telling you this?

No mood to post already.

So long.

Ps: The blogskin isn't good at showing lots of posts.

Scrollers are at the side and bottom.

Run baby run,

For the game has just begun.

STILL WANT TO THANK WEN HUI.

AND ALL THE OTHERS,

WHO HAVE WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

PIC OF WEN HUI'S BLOG IS BELOW. =D

Credits: Wen Hui. LOL. -.-

Going crazy at...
16:06

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Hello all.

So school was boring today.

The only thing i took in was during maths and chem.

I just stoned away the rest.

Yea.

Elective was slacky as the com lab and FSC rooms were taken up.

There is another art outing this week on thurs.

Um.

I'm proud to announnce that my art is not bad. =D

I got full marks.

Got evidence de ok?!

The pic is below.

Erm. Then after school went to KFC with wei chong, tecko, yu fei and chuchun.

Escaped from BB again. =D

Haha.

I'm so gonna get it.

Ok.

Thats just my day.

If you want to stop reading.

PLS STOP READING NOW.

COS NEXT PARTS GONNA ALL BE BLABBERING ON AND ON. =D

DON'T SAY I NEVER WARN.

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Ok.

I have a freaking confession to make.

I think..

Think la ok.

I love her more than my heart can ta han alrd. ta han= Take it.

This is the very very very very first time i felt this strong feeling in my life before.

There was once in sec 2.

But it wasn't so intense.

I don't know how much more i can take before my heart bursts into fire.

NONO.

I mean burst only.

No fire.

That was a song. =/

Haha.

Very random i know.

I didn't treasure her in p6.

And i freaking regretted it.
BIG BIG MISTAKE I REALLY REGRETTED -.-

I should have went ahead to use my parent's phone like nobody's business.

WhywhyWHY????????

Why are the feelings so strong this time?

Why couldn't it just be a rush?

I have no idea when this will wear off.

This was way worst then that time i secretly an lian 5 years de, SECRETLY HOR! -.-, like Perl and *****.

Censored to protect her.

Benn trying to avoid sleep cause of this.

Be it nightmare or sweet dreams.

It is all because everytime i close my eyes.

She appears.

It happens sub consciously yea.

I don't want to see this things.

It is hurting me.

Back to around a month ago:

That time i was kinda of nervous.

You know why i'm so scared that my friends follow?

(No, its not who you think it is. Don't suspect yourself. Even if you always disturb me de. =D)

Cos they disturb me.

And they don't go easy on the comments.

If they see you..

You'd wanted to be dead.

I wasn't being insercure.

I wanted to protect you.

Don't you get it?

How much you mean to me?

Do you think i like them to suan you?

They are not good people ok..

Enough is enough..

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Yesterday, 2 people smsed me.

It was unexpected mans!

They wished me happy birthday.

-.-

It was unbelievable.

I had to pinch myself twice to believe it. =/

I know you will laugh when you see this post. -.-

It was Cindy and _____ lei!

BTW.

How you know my URL ah?

I thought i changed it?

My posts got funny meh? -.-

I did not expect to receive from _____ even more cause.

I sent her the valentines greeting and she didn't reply.

But the msg she sent was just.

"Happy birthday."

Made me sort of sad.

I'm only left with 1 final wish to complete.

But its the most difficult.

Anyone has any idea how to go about doing it?

I missed valentines cos sick.

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Oh ya.
Cindy.

Thanks for the wish and forgiving and forgetting.

I today stand there help everyone i know jy 2.4 !

Not just you.

So no need ps. =D

I know you meant good but don't wish me sweet dreams yea?

Cos its the same as nightmares.

Cos i will think of _______.

THANKS WEN HUI FOR THE GIGANTIC WISH!

HAHA. =D

75/75 ok? LOL. Don't play play. =)

Going crazy at...
16:02

Monday, February 16, 2009

Sunday:
Ok shit.
There is something wrong with me.
The previous night,
I dreamt about *****.
Not the usual _____. Cos different person.
Ok so my father was pissed in the morning.
Scary.
I did not dare to talk to him.
Hmm.
I was sick but still attended 2 tuitions on that day.
Maths and Chinese.
Maths was gloomy.
No friends there.
So after that i went home for chinese.
LOL.
My tutor is a JOKER! -.-
She spent her valentines having lessons.
Ok.
So my flu kinda worsened and and i'm coughing my lungs out.
Seems like my family wants to go out to celebrate my birthday.
Went to suntec,
Change my bro's sleeping bag and then went to eat.
Went to eat tepanyaki!
Did i spell correctly?
NICEE!
Just the right size for me.
Total amount: $219. -,-
My bro and sis in law say its their gift to me.
Good people!
I wish them eternal bliss and happiness.
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Today:
Since it is my birthday today.
Erm, I would want 3 greedy wishes.
1.I want _____ back. (PRETTY FAT HOPE.)
2.For everyone to be happy and live in unison.
3.Stop global warming! Its getting hotter everyday in Singapore.
Wait.
Correction for 1.
Not a want but a need.
I mean come on man.
I never see her for 2 plus years already le.
Of course i will feel uneasy and nervous luh!
Thanks for all the well wishes!
Really appreicated.

Sorry guys! >.<

Make you all bring your stuff then i did not come

I did not mean it.

Gotta go rest now.

Byes~

She has become a necessity.
Not a want.
Just like the food, water and air.
Without anyone of them,
I will not be able to go on.
4 words.
She is my motivation.
And i noticed something i hate about myself.
I've got to change it or i will..
Um.
Havenoluckinmylovelife.
I wanted to say that fast.
And the problem is,
All this time i wasn't finding someone new.
I've been trying to find somebody with the exact same qualities as her.
To replace her.
Funny isn't it?
I sound pathetic.
Everyone is unique in their own way.
Thats when i realised that no one could ever replace her.

Going crazy at...
11:01