China, here I come again.

In another few hours, I will leave for the land of no Facebook. It is not the place I will want to go for a holiday, at least not at my current age. Perhaps I am unable to appreciate the country as much as I probably would, in future. It's my 2nd time there. First was Shanghai, now Shenyang. Chengdu will probably come, in time to come too. See you next week when I am back.

Yet, another miracle ~

To me, it is indeed "yet, another miracle". I am so glad that my prayers came true. My dad has recovered 60% from the epilepsy and mild stroke.

A lot of things can happen in 1.5 months, a very good example - my dad.

Very independent individual -> 2nd time stroke -> Epilepsy -> Bedridden & often in a confused state -> Slowly gaining back awareness & wheelchair bound -> Able to make small movements from bed to wheelchair and wheelchair to bed -> Walking with the help of walking aids -> walking like normal without the help of walking aids

Many people did not expect to see my dad fell ill just like that. They witnessed how independent he was, to being a wheelchair-bound person and now able to walk up and down independently again. I must also say I am pretty proud of my dad's strong will. It is his strong will that kept him going, of course with the support from family, it definitely helps.

Having more than a month of anxiety and what not, things are finally back on track. My dad is now able to take care of himself and even can cook simple stuff for meals. It is also time to re-think of my future. I had wanted to quit my job many times, but it has never been successful. People who know me would probably think - are you sure....its all talks and no actions. I had my reasons of course. First was because of my brother, and now because of my dad. It's time I need to sit down and think of my own future.

Points to ponder:
What do you think of an AM who asks for work to be split and done over the weekends for a presentation on Monday, 9 am, and ended up not coming to work on Monday because she claims to have a headache and she cannot produce the work done? I find it super irresponsible because people (me) have to cover her work by rushing it out before 9am on Monday morning when she informed at 7am.

It has been very tiring working here because of her. She is the most irresponsible AM I have ever seen. Many a times, I tried to be sympathetic keeping a positive mind that her actions is most probably because of her new born daughter. After some time, I get so tired hearing her excuses about her daughter, She has this topic on every single day and it kind of irritates me because she was practically using her daughter as an excuse for her irresponsible.

Hais. Life sucks sometimes right. One problem comes after another. Ok, I will update again,

2014 Happy (Not) Birthday

10 years ago, I didnt have a happy birthday. My dad fell very ill right before my birthday and even before I begin my polytechnic studies. He had stroke, but miraculously, my dad recovered 90%. This year, I hope miracle will happen again.

This year, 2 days before my birthday, my dad fell very ill again. He has been in and out of the hospital 3 times throughout these 3 weeks. The doctors did many tests, scans, etc on him but no report could give an answer on why my dad was often giddy & had seizures. I pray really hard for him to recover. It has been a tiring 3 weeks not just for him, but the whole family. When the phone rings in the middle of the night, I get very afraid that it is the hospital calling or my dad calling.

We've tried rushing down to the hospital in the middle of the night to check on my dad after getting the hospital's call, arriving at the hospital to see that my dad is being tied up because he was always trying to run out of the hospital or hearing him talk about many many weird things. It aches to see him like that and makes me feel so helpless about it.

Dad, please recover soon! I know you can do it with your strong will, to overcome this obstacle. 加油！

Lazy Sat Night

I havent on my laptop for the longest time - perhaps a good 8-9 months at least. I dont know why but it suddenly occur to me that perhaps its time to back up my photos from this laptop, in case it crashes without me knowing.

It has been almost 3hours and I am still sorting out my photos and trying to back them up in the external hard disk. I was looking through all my photos - it was really a "those were the days" moment. Pictures were dated back as early as 2008. My goodness, its almost 6 years already and yet they still seem fresh in my mind, like each event happened only recently.

I saw some of my friends from single to attached to married to having kids while some friends have either drifted apart or probably no longer even friends. It struck me a little. What happened to the friendship where we used to hang out together very closely in the past? I read an article, it says that if you have been friends for 7 years and more, chances are you will be friends forever. It's not true. There is no such thing as friends forever, at least that has not happened to me yet. It made me realise that friends come and go, friends changes their priority as they move onto different phases in life and you might not be a priority anymore even if you were once a priority.

Family seems to be a different thing. I once had very bad relationship with my family. No, I dont mean my parents, we have been perfectly fine. I meant my 2 brothers. We dont used to talk about our lives, but after so many things happened, we all changed our perception towards having a good family relationship. We try to make time for the family every weekend and on important occasions, making an effort to give one another some small gestures and wll wishes. Perhaps, our priorities have changed too.

Oh well, I guess that's life.