After so long

I haven't written on my blog for so long, but here I am blogging once again. So here goes.. I guess I need to find something to do with my spare time, I need to stop wasting time in front of the computer, I've been spending my weekdays after work, just sitting in front of the computer, waiting for time to pass.. I really feel so useless doing that. I feel like I need a holiday, just to start over in life, my career is not going anywhere, my studies is not going anywhere. I don't even know what to blog about now, there's so much to say but it's so hard to say it all out. Behind every word, there's always consequences. I hope to spend more time with Alex, but I don't wanna push him, sometimes weekdays without him is just so hard to get by. He says I'll be fine, but sometimes it's just so hard. Last week I was out with the gang for 2 nights, it was fun, feel like we haven't been doing that for awhile.. Sigh. I feel so lost in life, so aimless but there are few things that I'm certain about, I need to keep studying, I know Alex means alot to me in my life, I know my friends means alot to me in my life as well. There are people that you know you would wanna have around in your life forever, I know who they are, but the problem is, will that always be the same? or will we be going our separate ways one days, and all we've been through together just being part of our memories? I don't wanna think about that, I just don't. And at work, I feel like I've been slacking alot, there are some things/work that I just don't wanna face, I feel so malas to layan. Life is full of problems, I just wish I could runaway from all of it. Perhaps I'm being naive, I hope my life would have a happy ending.

I know my blog might be all over the place, but I'm just saying what comes to my mind.