dear friends,
i would like to sincerely apologise for ditching you guys some times, i know i've been doing that a lot lately. i'm sorry. i won't say anything to make me seem less of a bad friend because it's just gonna be bullshit if i do. i just feel like i dont have enough time to use, working and studying is kinda tiring. i know that, when i have spare time, i've been spending most of it with alex. i really dont mean to ditch you guys, i will try to come out to meet you guys more. :)
ps : alex, dont say anything about this post.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
19th September 2011
i felt so tired of everything today, and also slightly lonely i guess. partly because i was so busy with work today, i just felt like talking to someone but yeah.. my phone was so quiet today, i barely had any text.
when he came to pick me up just now, i wanted to spend more time with him but i just didnt tell him and it was just a simple drive home. so here i am, 40 minutes after i got home, sitting in front of my computer blogging.
when he came to pick me up just now, i wanted to spend more time with him but i just didnt tell him and it was just a simple drive home. so here i am, 40 minutes after i got home, sitting in front of my computer blogging.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
First Relationship
being in a relationship with someone else is something i've kinda always wanted, and now it did, but i didnt expect it to happen, i didnt expect myself to really be in a relationship with someone else. not that i'm complaining or anything, it's just that i cant believe this is real. i've always been the sucky lovey dovey type, i've always had this "ideal relationship" playing in my head such as boyfriend pick up after work, head over to his place, he cooks dinner, spend the night at his place. the ironic part of that is.. it's actually happening. it's no longer a fantasy, it's now reality.
i enjoy spending time with him, but the problem is i dont wanna be too clingy with him. i've done that before, it doesnt end well, thats for one, and the other reason is because it's like being someone else. i want me to be the rational self rather than the love stuck clingy casey. he keeps telling me he doesnt mind me being clingy, in fact he likes me being clingy but i really dont wanna be that casey. but now, i just feel so love stuck. i used to be emotional because i want to be with that special someone, but now it's still i want to be with that special someone just that it's in a different way. ahhh~ the irony of everything..
it's hard to tell if a relationship will go or not, but i hope this one does. he keeps saying it's my first relationship and i'm just exploring and such. yes, that may be true, it's my first relationship but i feel like he's everything i wanted. but in the end, nothing is certain, we'll see how it goes.
i enjoy spending time with him, but the problem is i dont wanna be too clingy with him. i've done that before, it doesnt end well, thats for one, and the other reason is because it's like being someone else. i want me to be the rational self rather than the love stuck clingy casey. he keeps telling me he doesnt mind me being clingy, in fact he likes me being clingy but i really dont wanna be that casey. but now, i just feel so love stuck. i used to be emotional because i want to be with that special someone, but now it's still i want to be with that special someone just that it's in a different way. ahhh~ the irony of everything..
it's hard to tell if a relationship will go or not, but i hope this one does. he keeps saying it's my first relationship and i'm just exploring and such. yes, that may be true, it's my first relationship but i feel like he's everything i wanted. but in the end, nothing is certain, we'll see how it goes.
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