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I'm goddamn glad I didn't go clubbing today cause I think I really can die from all those going out and lack of sleep especially since after working
But I ended up having sinful supper and not able to sleep now...
-.- ''' what the....

Though it happened 2 weeks ago, but it felt like forever
Maybe it's not so difficult after all...
I mean with busy schedule, work and stuff
It's even possible to forget your own surname (I kid you not)
So it's a special thanks to all my friends who asked me out, whether deliberately or accidentally, helping me to live life as it is

And so, I announce that I AM SINGLE once again!!
yeaps, and somehow I'm actually glad about it
Ya sure, the 1st 2,3 days was hard, even more so when the reason was breaking up was crappy
But now, when I reply to others saying I'm single, it actually doesn't feel 1/2 bad!

For all the kay-pohs who wanna know the reason, it's cause we didn't communicate at all for the 1st 5 weeks when LDR-ing
Like seriously, only I can call him and my phones got so high I'm pissed off now
And the bad news broke through when he FINALLY got his internet
The mutha*beeping* ironic huh?!
But because I got so used to life without his presence for a solid 1 month, I guess it's relatively easy to let go of things
My heartlessness helped nontheless =)

And it all started off (or so I THINK la) when I asked if he got a job already
I mean... 5 weeks already leh... even I can get a job within 5 days
Its just whether you wanna find and put in any effort to ask around or not
Then when he said no.... I swear I could had threw the laptop against the solid wall
What happened to "working his arse off so that he can save and come over to S'pore and M'sia"??
BIG FAT LIAR IDIOTIC MORON BASTARD!!

OK... so a couple of my friends are not helping when they think I could have better than him etc etc
They meant well for me and I tried defending that screwhead
So when he don't prove himself, he really can go screw himself
Not to mention I felt we got together waaaaaaaaaaay too easily
We only had 1 date before tgt cause I don't count the times we meet when in school or hall
Wtf right?
And well... the rest is history

Ask yourself people!! What kind of bf doesn't call, doesn't message AND doesn't buy flowers until the 3rd month the day before you're leaving the country for a whole 3months?! PLUS after nagging!!?
HUH?!
Then his excuse is wait wait wait... I nag already give will lose the meaning
F. U
If you did bother in the 1st place, I wouldn't have had to nag
And having no phone n internet connection for 5 weeks seemed like a shitty reason now
Top up the phone credit!! the next excuse of no money can be solved by working!!
Thus it all boils down to him not working

Then I looked around and noticed how others can survive the LDR for longer and more often or being tgt even shorter time etc...
Then I know... They communicate
It's not 1 sided, but both ways... writing slowpoke mails will help DRASTICALLY
I really wanna kill myself for being so stupid and accepting his reason when I see Amos calling Lynn during lunch all the way from Canberra...
He's working... sure not as the GM for KPMG, but also not as a sweeper
He earned his own keep and tried keeping in contact when he's free
When did my EX ever does that?
And v*** n s*****... they only together for 2 months but they talk online oh-so-often that even when dc, they never give up to reconnect again and again

The envy turned to jealousy, and the pinning evolved to anger
And I felt super insulted when he doesn't bother improving himself/ doing better
I wanted to slap him for watching youtube on the taiwan drama I recommended to him instead of calling me etc

We're still "friends" now
Albeit a little awkward
And if you even see me cry now, it's cause plucking eyebrow hurts =)