NOT SO EMO
erh..ya
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Monday, October 20, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
no posts and all.
by aint gna post aniting in this blog soon.
cos this place is just...
EMO.
and im (:
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Monday, October 06, 2008
Inspired Inventor
Your IQ Score is: 122
You have an unusually strong balance between verbal and mathematical skills combined with a strength in the visual realm. Your most enduring talent, however, is that your idea center never shuts down. That's what makes you an Inspired Inventor. You come up with insights that surprise even yourself, and that's because you might not always be aware when your brain is working on the next great idea. Most of the time, Inspired Inventors such as yourself have a plan brewing in their heads — even if they don't know it at the time. You are particularly adept at brainstorming, and coming up with multiple solutions for any problem because your brain never switches into the "off" position. You're like Sir Isaac Newton in this way — even commonplace events like an apple falling from a tree can be worked into the ever-present concepts that are formulating in your mind. This is the reason people flock to you for fresh ideas, advice, and insight. Your keen ability to process new information, makes you an indispensable team thinker. If, for example, you and your friends were stranded on a desert island, you would be able to figure out how to live in an unfamiliar landscape. Despite the newness of the situation, you would be in your element, generating ideas and potential solutions. You have a unique way of solving problems. So trust yourself, and take every chance you can to share your insightful ideas with others.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
i rejected it though.
if only i was a person as much as i was a dancer.
life would be easier.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
lemme see.
erh.
frankly i aint know wad to type fo now.
nothing really... interesting nor... though-provoking to write about.
oh right.
hush puppies are super nice to dance in.
those vintage ones made of suede,
and have man-made soles that are sponge-like material thats super smooth.
and..
Ben found the guy who makes Damoxy shoes... also nice dance shoes..
i presume many ppl reading this dun understand me. lol.
and for those who are wondering.
Yes.
There's a girl in my life now:D
Monday, September 15, 2008
every day is dancing.
not that its bad.
in fact it rocks. lol
and yeah.
i have a source of happiness now:D
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Saturday, September 06, 2008
After 5 long months, finally won KOnight.
5d4n to tokyo.....
yeah.
to see Acky and Hilty&Bosch in person.
i cant ask for more.
to see simplicity of expression and feelings with movements that speak loud volumes.
re-learn and improve wad i have and wad i dont have.
its an honour to meet em.
BIG TIME honour.
to think of it,
its been 2 years since i started dancing.
went to Oschool. 2006 september.
2008 september is KOnight finals.
managed to meet the legend Acky himself.
pretty nice 2year anniversary with dance for me.
and yea.
something bout staying up late.
like... 530am now?
really attracts me,
compared to staying awake in the day.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
a post long overdue
long overdue indeeed
lemme see... cut things short here... quite a number.
EXAMS are over... huge burden lifted off my shoulders.
finally can get back my sleep.
LIME dance comp.. the 1k prize?didnt make it. no worries, nothing taken to heart.
KO NIGHT FINALS.
now THIS is big shit goin down next week.
7 days away.
not even 7 days of practice left.
oh yea.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
filled with mind of others.
untrue?
untrue when... postive??
i feel. empty. even after change.
a different feeling.
no sadness.
but... lack of inner power.
unable to draw out the fuel that drove me.
without reliance of the darkness.
of the cold and unfeeling.
weak is what i feel, somehow.
a wanting to be the past of darkness.
in this time of, external peace.
unrecognisable i will be.
unknown and unliked i would be.
the question still presses on.
meaning of existence.
meaning of life.
meaning of all the suffering all goes through till death.
the wind blows on.
the man searched this answer.
with no avail.
but life continues nevertheless
Friday, August 08, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Rules : Blogger that has been tag has to post 10 random facts or habit about themselves. And at the end of it, blogger has to tag ten peeps to do this quiz :) and of course tell them they have been tagged.
1)IM NOT EMO.
2)i have stuff toys on my bed.
3)i'd say im kinda tidy for a guy.
4)can cry when watching touching movies.
5)would love to have a real 1on1 bare fist fight on day
6)loves general knowledge. from science. to space. to sex. yea
7)pities people who have the ability to do more but chooses a path in life that leads nowhere
8)adheres to the saying 'mind over matter'....
9)follows half logic and half feelings when doing anything
10) this is to xiaomei: yes i do this kinda stuff. HAHA
and no. im lazy to tink of 10 ppl to tag.
figured this would take up some space here.
so yea.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
change happened though.
carrying not just the man of the wind, but something more with it too.
something the man is unsure of and unfamiliar.
yet warmth resides within in.
the man learnt some things when blown over new land.
he lost some too, but for the better i presume.
he feels that he has to let others live life,
and live his own, all alone again, but differently in a sense.
the wind welcomes more in its path now.
a stronger yet... comforting wind blows and lifts the man into his life.
the man of the undying wind of wandering lives on...
differently.
not very happily.
but more comfortably than before.
alot more i must say... alot more...
though the man must remember not to dwell into matters not of his,
and to just tend to matters of his.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
aint gonne step back after moving forward.
TIME TO REST!
i'll still be around to help no matter what.
have no worries, for it takes more for pain to come.
i'll still be myself.
not me of the past...more of me right now...
and thats a good thing people.
yeahhh
Friday, July 11, 2008
letting others see feelings.
through movements not words.
unification of music, heart, soul, mind, body
freedom of movement. carefree inhibitions let loose
every twitch speaks volumes.
each bit of steps tells emotions unbound of fear.
DANCE.
expression through movements.
one step closer?
soon to know.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
reside within the darkness.
letting in the cold.
creep up the heart.
stinging chills from the touch of ice.
encroaching tentacles of nothingness binds me.
mind.body.soul.
i find myself back in familiar ground.
back where i belong?
i presume so.
Monday, July 07, 2008
school work.
has definitely.
been always.
the number one bitch.
no doubt.
AND I FUCKING NEED SLEEP.
WHICH IS WHY SCHOOLWORK'S A BITCH.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
when there's nowhere to turn to.
pain is part and parcel of life.
shall the darkness reign once more.
i ask myself.
Saturday, July 05, 2008
first time posting full lyrics on my blog.
but hey. nice song. nice feel. able to relate to it. why not?
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And know I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
Thursday, July 03, 2008
i am not at most happy.
neither am i at most sad.
disappoint, considerably,
suicidal, definitely not.
now..
PLAY ME SOME FUNKY BASS
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
music brings me my life.
Comparison of the feel and lyrics of songs,
and with that of my life,
allows me to go into my thoughts with greater depth.
i'm waiting.
even though i think i already know.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
it is constantly on the go.
on the move.
never stagnant.
to be ahead, is to ride the wind.
even though engaging in self-hate.
am i worth what i want.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
what goes through me head, is but just one.
a tinge.
a feeling.
enters me.
taken over.
emptiness becomes occupied with it.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
let the frost shield me from harm's way.
i'll pull through, reliving the old days.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
i need to feel.
express.
the music.
my soul, my body. my mind. my heart.
movements from my feelings. not thought up.
freedom to move away from control.
clarity of my soul to all.
to impress
is to
express.
Monday, June 16, 2008
no. i'd still die.
can someone gimme a lead on something to do.
i'm down.
and out.
badly.
i need.
help?
just a direction would do, i expect.
or just something direct would do too.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
having succumbed to myself.
to have my heart.
be void.
to be strong.
i've come to a conclusion.
i'm pretty useless.
Friday, June 13, 2008
done
spare me.
suffering never ending.
pain comes fourth.
comfusion reigns.
When can it be clear.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
are but the truth.
the reality of what faces me.
take it or leave it.
i heed no ones' words.
my life, gotta live it my way.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
worthless.
nothing good come towards me.
i am but a bad omen to everything and everyone around me.
my presence is off no difference whether present or absent.
what's my worth in existence.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
wrong to begin with
i fell into the trap that i foresaw myself.
walking whilst blinded,
i feel deeper.
blinded by surfaces too bright to see with the naked eye,
i walked on thinking it was alright,
and till now. i walk onwards brightly. only in hope of the revealing
i lost the ability to see within.
i trusted my heart too much.
the light shrouded my vision of truth.
i fell. harder.
darkness reigns to prove light is forever distant,
for light covers the darkness too frequently,
for it to be seen and felt.
To use darkness, and be used by it,
are differences on two whole different levels.
to see the darkness, i must again.
to exploit the hidden, utilising truth and mind.
too easy, i fell this time.
to not fall again, i must ensure.
heart is but just a cover of the mind and soul.
it's the light that covers the hidden, within.
mind and soul are the basis of human nature.
falter in life when they do not abide truths of life.
hated already,
what more can hate bring?
nothing i guess.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Saturday, June 07, 2008
really not meant to be,
as said by ancient sentient beings?
guided by the never ending darkness out there.
can words be trusted just at the snap of a finger?
specially those that have been passed down for more than just 'many generations'.
and now with 96 hours and 19 hours of sleep.
430 am. damn.
Friday, June 06, 2008
total hours asleep= 13
total hours awake= 59
skool work and dance.
ah yes, busy life indeed.
my life expectancy has just decreased by an approximate of 5 years. lol
Seeing WCO rehearse is enlightening.
Seeing BS brothers, locking duo who are brothers aged 8 and 13(somewhere there) who dance like adults with no hints of childish acts.
jeah.
on a side track,
it aint true.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
the opportunity cost of staying the way i am is my studies.
wad next.
just let me die.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Sunday, June 01, 2008
yet you still do it?
i wonder why myself...
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
Thinking about how everyone behaves,
and how everyone talks,
and how they lead their lives,
sometimes,
you'll realise u actually fit nowhere.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
When More is Less.
When Backwards means Forwards.
When Forwards means Backwards.
When Silence is Golden, or When Noise is Healing.
When trying too hard leads to failure, When trying just enough leads to success.
When life contradicts.
What should I do?
Friday, May 02, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
poly life...
its been a hell long time since i updated.
SUPAR busy with schoolwork and dance stuff..
Lab reports, tutorials, studying...
KOnight... The Big Groove... Foreign bodies.. dance sessions.
FS0803, my new class.
hmm.. so far.. everything seems to be goin fine..
other than the large workload and not-used-to-it school hours...
should be able to survive it i think...
too much goddamn stuff to type for the past 3 weeks..
aint gna go to details.
on a side note..
i tink i'll grow fat in poly.
NOOOOOOOOOO
Friday, April 04, 2008
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Sunday, March 30, 2008
all i can hope,
is that my future won't forget even before it can even begin,
i guess.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
i dun go out at all.
(for recreational purposes like movies, chatter chatter chit chit, for meals and stuff)
other than for wushu and for dancing, i stay at home all the time.
pretty makes me wonder why no1 asks me out.
oh wait i asked b4.
hmm.
heck.
again.
lol.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
juz chill.
Studies driving u nuts?? chill off...
Friends driving u nuts?? chill off...
Family driving u nuts?? chill off...
Life driving u nuts?? chill off...
U driving urself nuts?? u RLY gotta chill now...
point is... many stuff usually take a turn for the worse at various spur of the moments... which can be prevented to further aggrevate ur situation right now...
EG.
U mad at ur mum.
ur mum mad at u.
shouting at each other day in, day out aint gna help yea.
a single person's decision to continue shouting at each other,
may end up at ties being severed(k maybe not tat bad).
but if one word less can patch things up,
i'd say, juz chill, and think.
and now to my fellow wushu ppl in cch and vjc..
thou i duno if u'll read this,
but hey.
juz relax for the coming comps.
CHILL~~~~
ya'll giving urself negative thoughts wont bring u all anywhere but to somewhere u all wont want...
its juz 1-3min total doin ur routines.
i dun want anyone feeling guilt or whatsoever,
cos ya'll have nothing to lose!!!
dun hold back.
C boys, C girls, B boys, B girls, A boys, and lastly, A girls, whom i must say im very impressed and proud, the most hardworking bunch.
ya'll can do it la ah..
dun slack anymore.
and juz pia la.
To those who are already taking things lightly as they should be, good for you.
to those who have not, try reconsidering. it works wonders.
much more to write now,
but blogging at 5am in the morn, isnt rly the optimum time for brain work..
Monday, March 17, 2008
but....
nothing rly interesting goin on..
and....
no vids up too...
no pics too....
slacking around as usual... at 6am... where ppl wake up..
and.... juz waitinf for skool to start and all...
Friday, March 07, 2008
my freestyle video....
the reason im pissed.
some asshole copied the video, did some editing and uploaded it onto youtube also...
as some kinda advert...
fucking kns ccb nnb...
wallop the fella hu did this if i ever meet him.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
wake up at 3,
eat.
play game till dinner.
then go dancing, if not,
cont playing game.
till morn.
sleep.
havent gone out in ages other than on weekends.
if theres wushu:
wake up at 1,
eat.
wushu.
come home.
eat.
go dancing, if not
play game.
till morn.
sleep.
machiam crazy alrdy.
Monday, March 03, 2008
sense of anticipation fills me even before i step into foreign land...
i'd say....
.wadde heck man.
heh
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
yet.
there's also no reason to live.
i live each day with passing emotions.
thoughts that flow by me.
and i know im not a good person.
yet when i want to die.
society doesn't accept it.
so tell me...
why live?
why die?
why do we humans strife so much to achieve in life,
be it in early or late stages, with deaths awaiting,
jaws wide open,
engulfing your soul within mere moments,
draining your glories,
to just happenings of the past.
even as we live,
we fall into this trap of life.
we where realise, our achievements does not equal to our dreams.
and many people still continue theirs lives..
be it in a positive or negative mindset.
our happiness, mostly taken away,
replaced by anger and sorrow.
hatred and revenge.
regret and longing of the past.
and many people,
walk alone in their road of life.
from start, till end.
never-ending.
they've been through ups and downs.
how bad, or how good it can get.
but humanity hurts us.
when we plunge ourselves.
into our dreams...
our lives.
sacrificing what are actually important till old age.
friends... family... money....
they all slowly just.. fall to a distance....
further and further away from you.
pursue your dreams, as the masses always say.
yet, no warning given,
to the dark depths of consequences.
you can lose your heart, your soul, your emotions.
your very sense of being, when you realise.
your dreams, near they may be,
but banished from LIFE...
unknown to all around you.
when you turn back and catch up with times,
you may be early, you may be late,
but damage already done.
salvage as much as you can.
is what i have learnt.
lost touch of my feelings,
is a state i have fallen into.
angst filled heart.
guilt ridden mind.
i can't forgive myself
yet i can't forgive others.
i slowly crawl out of my hell hole.
only to confront myself in my life.
i can never truely feel like a human...
till i find back.. what it is to be one.
knowledge i may have.
heart, i have lost.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
W.T.F
like... at least 15 ppl i know are alrdy heading there.. god knows how many more...
and at NYP, im gna go head 1st straight into unknown lands..(not really.. been there a few times)....
and meet new ppl.
though i doubt i'll be seeing my secondary school friends anytime soon at all...
or in the long run. lol
Monday, February 18, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Saturday, February 16, 2008
need smth to hype my life.
frikkin.
frikkin.
frikkin.
bored.
comps, wadever.
still bored.
dang.
and while my skool peeps are more of less living life with their frens, goin out and stuff..
im stuck a nightbat(dancing, playing ps2)
and doin lil stuff in the day(wushu.. or waking at 3pm)
heh.
heck. used to it.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Friday, February 08, 2008
Monday, February 04, 2008
Friday, February 01, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
hmmm....
| Your Heart is Feeling Indifference |
 Your heart is pretty much on hiatus right now. You're not particularly interested in love, and you're cultivating a sort of romantic apathy. Whether you've been burned badly or you're just burned out, your heart is cold to passion. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: A bit of cold heartedness Your current outlook on love: Detached and stoic - you try to analyze love from a logical perspective Your love life will improve if you: Open up a little. Stepping back can help you find peace with your emotions, but it can also make you repress them. Watch out for: Too much cynicism. Indifference can lead you down a dark path. |
AHAHAH
| Your Native American Name Is... |
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Thursday, January 24, 2008
i have no future.
or rather.
a satisfactory future.
i have lost my direction in life
hitting straight head on into a barricade,
i ask myself, wad next?
only to come to the conclusion that theres actually nothing for me next.
if i force myself thru tat barricade,
i'd most probably be a living zombie.
(hell im alrdy am)
i have nowhere to go
nowhere to turn to.
i am not needed
why am i still here.
why am i still stuck in this... life of contradictions and ironies.
no support.
no reason.
if i were to disappeaer one day.
i can swear.
it will make no change to anyone's life.
as im too easy to forget,
much too difficult to remember.
looking at myself often thinking
'well... wad are you worth?'
and smartly reply
'nothing on this planet.'
'smart answer. now go live life.. and shld death come early, embrace it well'
Monday, January 21, 2008
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
i see no importance of my living..
its now..
'i dance to live...'
not,
'i live to dance...'
1st meaning, no dance, i'm dead.
2nd meaning, no dance,i'm still alive.
other than tat...
i dun see a reason to stay on.
so yea.
i dun even knw wad to do with myself in the future.
much less now.
fuck.
to hell with taxi's now..
one trip on one cab would let me take the mrt dozens of times
then again..
to hell wid mrt too...
frikkin adult fare now...
the pain juz sets in..
Sunday, January 06, 2008
You are The Hermit
Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.
The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.
The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.
The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
to be true, to be devoid of emotions. lose your feelings, and be human once more.
reign this world with no feelings.
re-learn to accept the facts
let all pass by as the blowing wind.
travel on with no heart nor soul
leaving behind what you have now,
living now what you left behind.
where the sadness turns true.
unleash your eyes to the real world.
take a close to view this life.
with this i follow.
a life devoid of feelings, emotions.
returning to the path of which i left.
returning to whom i should be.
not letting bygones be forgetten, but a memory of a hard-learned lesson.
the darkness in each keeps one safe.
bathe in the tranquil of the dark silence,
walking alone in a world of chaos.
banish ur heart.
ur soul.
because in this realm of contradiction and irony.
alone is better
drift through this world, as the wind would.
let none control you.
let nothing hold you.
let your mind guide ur body.
let ur mind guide ur heart and soul.
free youself from the drawbacks of emotions.
this lonesome path it may seem,
where the future seems bleak.
where the future seems weak.
where the future seems of death.
but i live this life, as empty it may seem.
because this is the future, that i must heed
where the reality comes hard.
its the only way to stay alive.
a new year it may be.
an old me shall reprise once more.
2007.
just another year that went by.
others see signifcance.
i choose ignorance.
cause as the saying goes,
'ignorance is bliss'
keep things within,
not letting any come fourth in the know of your own truth.
happenings come by as and when it could occur.
with this transition of the new year.
this realisation came to me.
that i strayed my path to success once more.
steering back again.
to the Man of the Wind.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
im with ppl...
yet im alone inside...
even with ppl,
i am still alone.
i have a problem.
big time.
Monday, December 24, 2007
yearning for ur voice.
ur thoughts.
yearning a piece of ur life...
TO BE a piece of ur life...
let me in on wad i dont know...
and tell me wad i need to know.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
the one?
how am i supposed to know?
where is she gna be, wad is she gna say?
i believe tat there is no way..
so wad if its gna be..
wad if she was the one.
cos let me tell u why.
it cant be real....
let u see, aint no way its made to be..
i'll let u see.
that ur the one.
let me feel, it feels right to me.
so i juz wanna take a ride,
in my mind.
in no time,
and i will find,
if i shld make her mine.
hmm.. sounds emo...
lol
and ppl...
I AM NOT EMO...
I AM EMOTIONAL...
i juz half suicidal. lol
Sunday, December 16, 2007
getting stupid.
working in a bakery that makes me do repeated shit all the time....
im like..
'ok......'
'ok......'
and the ppl there are ppl i duno at all.
so frikkin SIAN there...
if there wasnt money involved,
over my dead ass u wuld see me there.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Thursday, December 06, 2007
1:asking question about life,
and answering them urselves thru logical thinking..
realising that life is juz shit.
2:wanting the things u shldnt want..
3:being boring... when ur pretty much..'bland'... not very easy to talk yo..
gna be so lonely.... im mr lonely.... i am so lonely.. on my own.... own~~.
lawl
Saturday, December 01, 2007
tats wad my life is gna be about..
gna turn gay also.
gna have to reject girls
NO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
you're way to beautiful girl..
tats why it will never work..
Monday, November 26, 2007
Friday, November 23, 2007
the fool
i aint worth much.
i aint play no part,
in no1's lives.
i live alone,
in lonely life.
one tat i'd die to let it end.
i see around again and wonder.
am i rly tat a FOOL?
a lonesome fool?
not tat i wanna complain and stuff...
but i seriously look around... every1 hanging out with each other..
i'd say
"yea.. tats good man.. keep close to ur frenz and stuff.. tats good..."
i look at myself and say
''ur a fucked up asshole hu's gna spend his days rotting at home, and aint no1 gna care if u get sick,die,lose a limb.''
and i can vouch for tat fer'sure.
and i dare ANYONE, to say tat im not tat bad..
cos seriously...
im a fucked up person, living a fucked up life.
and i juz all fucking alone.
in this fucked up world.
'a friend in need is a friend indeed'?
bullshit.
'The only way to have a friend is to be one'
Tried and tested and FAILED.
screw this shit.
i done wad i could.
but all seems down.
all i can do is hope tat life ltr on MIGHT improve...
HOPEFULLY...
hopefully...
right now..
its lucky i got dance..
i can juz dance my life with no worries..
peace out
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
soona or ltr
i feel like my right knee is gna like..
break and then,
PIAK!
juz snap off like tat.
damn.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
yea im goin crazy~~~~~~~~
im goin crazy~~~~
just like you~~~~
well.. maybe not..
frikkin 5am and im awake....
Friday, November 16, 2007
wad next.
shall talk bout past 2 days...
or rather.. nights..(day is amost non-existent to me alrdy. damn)
hardcore dancing at O'school..
Ben back from japan..
dancing like crazy to abosorb as much as i can..
damn those crazy japs...lol..coming up with so much wacky ideas that never failt surprise me.
well anyway... tats pretty much for past 2 days
as for today.
woke up.. ate lunch...
go sku...
GRADUATION DAY~!~!~!~!
i duno bout others.. but hell.. i aint feeling no shit for this event..
juz.. feel like im wasting time there..
why?
number1:i dun like school.
number2:i dun like the principal
number3:it ate into my sleep...
number4:i'm not goin to first 3 weeks of JC anyways
number6:i dun tink any1 in my class will rmb me in 3weeks.. bettin on tat..
and lastly..
number6:its.. juz a plain waste of time as always..
then after tat.. had free reception(FOOOOOOOOOOOOOD)
then went over to O'sch again..
dance again.. never fail to cheer me up, relieve myself, and forget worldy worries...
before i end this...
a message dedicated to all dancers out there.
"The Dancer believes that his art has
something to say which cannot be
expressed in words or in any other way
than by dancing... there are times
when the simple dignity of movement
can fulfill the function of a volume
of words. There are movements which
impinge upon the nerves with a
strength that is incomparable, for
movement has power to stir the senses
and emotions, unique in itself. This
is the dancer's justification for
being, and his reason for searching
further for deeper aspects of his
art." ~Doris Humphrey, 1937
till next time.
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Friday, November 09, 2007
i figured.
i'd most prob be alone like usual again during the break.
work+dance..
not tat it sux..
juz... expecting tat i'd be forgotten again somehow..
this feeling... strange yet usual... as if im waiting for smth to happen..
yet the 'happening' wont happen in 1 go..
but thru a gradual course.
to damnation.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
music is emotion.
without music,
we are nothing,
for sound is the highest art form;
abstract yet straightforward.
music can make us laugh and cry,
music can make us experience euphoria visuals themselves can't
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Friday, October 05, 2007
I.S
I.N
S.H.O.C.K
frikkin crazy muggin over one week.
goin crazy.
duno why am i muggin also...
feel bored, and study stuff i wont use in future..
but oh well.. juz for the sake of it
Monday, October 01, 2007
Friday, September 28, 2007
The mass protests and killings have not just happened once nor twice.. but many times already...however with control over the people like that of a totalitarian, the government of Myanmar, the Junta, have pretty much caused their own troubles in the first place...
If u read the papers, a mass protest was staged by 3000students, in an attempt to overthrow, or improve the living conditions of the people in Myanmar. When did it happen u might ask.. well well.. it occured in 1988... but in order to maintain its rein over the land, the government kept this happening under cover.
I find it really hard to imagine the torture and pain the people have gone through..
just think, what was supposed to be the richest country in southeast asia after it's independence, it has now stooped to so low a level, transformin into one of the world's(tats right.. the WORLD) poorest country... Anyone would know the amont of resources the country has... Be it Human o Natural... how could the People of Burma(the name of Myanmar back then), be put under such physical and emotional stress, working their guts out all day long in the farms, plantations and so on, while the noblity live it up in their luxurious homes?
and if u tot the rising prices in singapore could kill... hear this... the price of chicken alone was raised by half within a span of one year... god knows how much other daily necessities cost.. Farmers continue to sweat under the sun to earn their keep, just to keep the family alive, with most profit going to, as expected, the Junta.
I quote from a woman in angst racing the riot police,' You eat our food, then kill us?'
the sheer imhumane act of killing those who actually feed you sends chills down my spine...
they even barge into temples to kill the monks... THE MONKS FOR GOODNESS SAKE..
wad wrong have they done for fighting for equal rights for humanity? the ones whom you seek for spiritual help, dying at ur own hands... have the police been brainwashed? have they no mind to act on their own will? have they become mindless fools tat act upon the beck and call of the junta?
HAVE THEY NO GUILT~?!
have the junta itself alone, posess a heart, posses the right mind,
to even rule a country?
i wrote to express my feelings on this hot topic goin around in the news.
Monks being bashed to death, while the junta lavish on life's pleasures... the thought itself irks me... my heart goes out to those who fight for what belongs to them and die in the process of doing so...I pray that theird death be not in vain...
I believe, justice will prevail, and reign over the land that have been ravished by cruel, greedy leaders that have lost their humanity, their conscience and their guilt.
Monday, September 24, 2007
juz kill me pls and spare me this suffering...
damn...
my future is wacked up in a hole alrdy.. wadever tat means.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
i still feel empty...
i still feel tat life has nothing in store for me
i wake up each day,
with no aim,nor goal.
each day juz passes by.
wasted.
i feel terribly lonely and suffering..
why im i doin stuff i dun want to?
my passion is blocked by reality..
soon enuf i'll have to let 1 go..
and either way... i'll suffer mentally or physically..
life sucks still..
when i face reality...
i cant get my head down to concentrate on tasks at hand..
and rather tink of irrelevant stuff..
like my passion.. or people...
when im doin stuff i like.. i can never be at ease...
knowing reality will come knocking at my door all too soon...
i look around me once more...
only to see tat...
im seriously alone...
rly rly alone...
my family,my home... juz a place to slp and eat..
friends... losing them slowly??
im... losing my humanity... and sanity..
my sanctuary is my mind and music...
to shut myself from wads happening around me..
and indulge in mental get-aways in my mind...
i though i was...
and then i thought i wasnt..
but then again... am i rly am??
fated to juz go with the flow of life??
with this suffering???
with feelings of none but emptiness?
i look back... with no joy.
i look forwards... with no hope.
i look presently... with no life..
damn.
Friday, August 10, 2007
there aint anything around tat i treasure.
nor anything treasure me either.
wads life.
i ask this once again..
each day passes on.
juz like it always does.
but they hold no meaning for me.
no reason.
just living.. for the sake of it.
as if there is smth to look forward to each day.
when there's actually nth.
i wonder really.
when i die.
wad happens.
in the nether world.. and mortal world.
who the hell will bother bout me?
i mean like.. im juz a person passing by in ur life..
i dare say i hold no special memories to anybody who knows me.
i have no special bond.
i shall be forgetten.
will be.
not that i want to.
but thats wad happening all the time.
my wake will be but juz nothing at all.
my funeral will be done myself.
i can picture tat all oh-so-clearly.
heck.. even down 6feet-under,
even ghosts wont bother they're fellow 'non-living, just arrived here dude'
no1 bothers.
no1 cares.
tink of it.
i dun need any.
im alrdy used to it.
the world is a better place without me. period.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
this week was pretty ok..
uneventful week.
boring.
not studyin when i am s'posed to.
fark.
and..
dancin.
yea.
and...
hmm...
duno wad to say.
borin life.
lol
Monday, July 09, 2007
back from the dead again.
1st week of sku over and alrdy half dead...
nth much happened tho..
well....
maybe a very happy birthday to this close dance fren of mine...
whose name is Xin Ying...
who turned 16 on 6-7-07..
and to my bro..
who turned 21 on.. 7-7-07..
and lastly to end this off..
im startin to feel empty..
and feelin alone..
with no sense of living perhaps?
Saturday, June 30, 2007
sorry ppl hu actually visited my dead blog
kinda busy doin stuff.. playing games.. dancing. chillin..
well anyway..
since its such a long time i updated.
i'll cut tings short
June holidays: The Big Groove a Big succes, Wreckin Crew OrChestra are damn good. had fun and learnt alot.
also... did many other stuff.. like homework.. homework.. and more homework..
and chillin at home. lol
1st week of school..
SLEEPY AH~!~!~!
na beh. slp slp slp still not enuf
muz wake up.. both in mentality and in class. lol
also.. i kena this
"According to the rules of this (so-called) game, people who are tagged should write 7 weird things about themselves as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 7 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read you blog."
ok then. here it goes(:
1) i. quite tidy for a guy
2) i dance. lol
3) i dance.. everywhere.
4) im not tat good a socialiser
5) the girl i like.. i tink shld be independant and fit.. and has her own charm. LOL
6) i dress differently from the majority i confess. the rest have no style at all anyway. such common dressin
7) lastly.. i..hmm... I KEEP STUFF TOY~!~!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
14days since i blogged..
and i using a sucky flexible keyboard... which kills my fingers cos i gota zham the damn keys...
anyway...
examz and debrief over..
got back results..
and a l1r5 of 32 is SERIOUSLY not very nice u knw..
adding in the fact tat i failed 4 subs...
lol..
bro and mama aint happy bout it either..
o-lvl chi this monday and i havent even study.. lol..
well.. back topic of today...
went to o'school today for lessons as usual.
however.. i finally had my own audience. haha.
michelle.. and unexpectedly, Kanglong also, came to watch me in my lesson...
ate my lunch and met up wid both of em at city hall 1st..
b4 bringing them to the cool O'school... where 'every1 so hip down here' (quote by kang long. lol)
anyway.. lesson started as per normal.. had fun in choreo also...
afta whch... my poppin crew went to get food as i showed both of em the bboying classes...
when my crew came back, kanglong and michelle left..
had dinner. talk cock.
then proceeded for rehearsal for the dance concert, 'The Big Groove 2007'
yes.. im perfoming in this huge event..
no idea how huge?
well.. we got best japan hip hop ppl comin to SG..
WRECKING CREW ORCHESTRA!!!!
damn.. they are dope shit.
check this.
& for detail on the concert, http://www.oschool.com.sg/tbg07.php
im in it.. for a very short while.. but hey.. smth btr than nth yea?
stage exp in dancin for the 1st time..
yet to try tat out...
so yea... support is appreciated.. lol..
anyway..
u got world best breakdancers and hip hop performers
One of the world class standard bboy crew in south east asia, ground scatter crew
and Wreckin crew orchestra..
a group of the finest hip hop dudes from different crews in japan..
Watch it..
and dun regret if u miss it..
Saturday, May 12, 2007
MYE's over.
pressure lifted of for a short while then..
anyway..
today was a good day..
afta stupid CIP in the morn,
went home, changed up, and went to eat lunch.. alone. lol
then went to o'School..
FINALLY.. i can go back now tat im not busy on weekends anymore..
went to open class as usual..
and Sifu's choreography for lesson was dope as usual..
dang..
afta that.. Me and fellow Bboy Zul, or Red,
sessioned like madness in the studio whhile the rest were watching sifu edit some dope videos also.
haha...
well the rest aint rly interesting so i aint gona say em out..
anyway..
WRECKING CREW ORCHESTRA IS COMING TO SINGAPORE~!
DOPEST CREW IN JAPAN~!~!
TICKECTS OUT SOON~!
CHECK IT OUT AT www.oschool.com.sg
Friday, May 04, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
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Friday, April 27, 2007
each time the feelin passes..
it comes back again..
and then i ask again..
wads the meaning of my existence?
wad good am i again?
though i asked myself these b4..
but i brushed them off..
and now i ask myself these very questions..
that i ponder over so hard...
wondering whether have any efforts i done for anything in life..
are they futile attempts to improve a life tat i have little feeling for?
now im juz tinkin wad a world it would be without me..
how different... how similar..
if i chose a different path.. would i be happier?
or walk through a road of despair and sadness?
and i continue wondering...
though my damn exams are coming up.
life juz cant get any worse.
and when its over, more will come..
parents 'understanding', prelims and shit...
so many tings, so lil time as they say..
when can i relax and juz.. attain the pleasure..
of tranquility of the heart..
with this facade of me in everyday activites.
and i swore off cursing in my blog...
.heh.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
MYE is so darn near...
and im still far away in knowing wad the PING is getting tested...
a math rly is half syllabus down the drain..
History's a goner..
SS is dead gone alive... cos i aint gna burn my holidays to mr soon *over my dead body man*
and sku days are boring.. as usual... argh... the agony..
and tada... Ah Biak.. i have updated my blog
Sunday, April 22, 2007
stress is piling up..
damnit man...
cant i juz let off..
some steam..
lie back & relax..
NO~~~~~~~
more stuff comes..
WACK.
right into my face..
mye coming up.
and i duno half of wad im tested on for almost everyting.
other than my sciences
murder me pls.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Congratz to CCHMS and VJC wushu team for taking over the wushu comp this year.
have fun celebrating~
though many of us feel tat we deserve it,
but i feel tat luck played a rather large role also,
(other than us working extremely hard)
the fact tat we had alot of ppl to take part and win many medals lower than gold
(that of cos..includes me.. a silver and a 4th only)
remain jolly while u can,
cause...
while not trying to be spoilsport,
but next year is very difficult to win again.
to those whom i knw reading this, sorry
but i juz have to state facts.
slam me if u must.
Friday, April 20, 2007
the problems juz stack dun they
one up and starting to fall down...
one BIG 1 comes up and fuk with me.
and another causes this... confusion.. uncertainty of my decisions..
damn.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
im full of doubt.
im losing my humanity?
i guess so.
human feelings seems to be distant from me.
a time of jolly and worry comes.
wads next?
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
the few words exchanged
comfirmed my doubts
fuck life
no1 knws me
no1 understands.
dun u come and dare to tink u knw me
NO ONE EVER DOES
fuck life again
i can die without regrets should the time come
Thursday, March 29, 2007
wad can i blog about??
lemme see..
this whole week a is dang boring week..
sittin in class rottin..
graspin like 50% of wadeva the teachers saying...
MYE comin up...
together with my competition.
and im getting RLY tired evryday.
damn..
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
today's tuesday~~
Romp Comp II~~
headed to st james afta resting up at home after wushu..
got in time for the comp to start, and the party as well..
OVERVIEW: half fuck la~~
comp was good, my frenz were in the final battle, but Bboys and poppers dancing to 'Promiscuos' against 3 ragge/comtemp/jazz dancers?
PLS LA.. smth reasonable to dance with can...
and thus, my frenz got 2nd.
afta this was more fucked.
'dancefloor' opened, which was..
WADEVA WALKING AREA WE HAD, THE STUPID STAGE, AND 2 STUPID PODIUMS.
damnit lar
at 1st was of walkable state, then slowly it turn frikkin cramped till it took at least 5 min to get across the whole damn room.
ppl were squeezing here there..
STUPID lights flashing making me blind.
BASS was too loud. treble also.
me and fellow Bboy,Jonah, were finding a spot to dance.
then we saw one empty podium..
i went up to start the ball rollin and popped on it.
juz when jonah wanted to get up.
we kena cut queue by a grp of ppl
KNS.we damn sianz.
went outside to let my fren smoke.
went back in. even worse,
chicken macnugget lar~
took 10min to getto competitors resting area,
where we chilled,
and talked to st mag dancers.
lucky they were there to talk to us,
if not jonah and woulda slpt in there.
though em bboying. lolz
last fucked up part was: it was said to end at 4. it ended at 3 instead. WTF.
OHOHOHO..
did i say they played music from the 90's like 'Shaggy'.. and try dancing to 'This love' by maroon5.
TMD~?
stupid music.
stupid management for lousyy crowd control.
and no drinks.. water cost 7bucks~~!?
nbr goin to underage party unless got a dancefloor confirmed, and enuf ppl to start a frikkin circle for a cypher.
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR~~
though i aint experiencing any festive joy..
but the ang baos keep me happy man.
HAHA.
ok tat was crap.
anyway,
yea.. feelin the joy of this festive season cos theres holidays..
woohoo~~
but i havent done any homework at all..
FARK~?!
Friday, February 16, 2007
Wednesday- Love is the air.. now that today is Valentines day..
many peepz came to school with gifts in hand.
from itsy sweet or roccher(yumz~).... to stuff like..
Roses.. romantic..
Godiva.. passionate stuff aye...
and stuff toys.. mostly small... but some rather large ones indeed.. pretty brave and sweet for the guys who actually dared to do this..
and for an asshole like me. i bought nothing. haha..
but i unexpectedly got 3 vday gifts.. simple ones.. but i appreciate them alot.
cos i simply aint expecting any at all.
though their sweets.. but i tink their the most useful. and tasty.lol.
friday- CNY celebrations.
i have to say.. this is the best celebration so far.
cos i did sai gang..
and managed to escape almost half of the whole damn stupid performance.
YEA~~~
not only tat.. was slacking at canteen also..
all too good~~
afta tat.. met up wushu seniors and juniors and we all went marina square.. played and stoned around... talk cock and walk walk... a total of almost 7 generations of cchms wushu was there.
anyway... we went to marina bay to have steamboat.. 12 bucks for all u can eat..
OO LALA~~
an offer i could never resist at all.
meat galore man...
and i cut the crabs... with a hell lot of trouble.. and help from experienced crab killers. hahah.
went to the arcade again.. and played hyper bishi bashi. haha. my fav.
happy day for me all in all..
juz tat im frikkin tired to type in details now.
poppin class tml. gota rest.
till next time.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
why am i trying to stay happy.
when im pissed off constantly and not done aniting.
among frenz.. i dun really have a real stand also.. if every1 were to go with their own cliques and stuff.. u'll see me alone right smack in the middle of nowhere.
so why am i trying to happy.
when im juz alone all over?
and smiling fakely.
why is my life meant to be alone?
i rly do wonder.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
k~~!!
birthday juz over...
aint had much happenings.
sku as usual
training as usual...
had an awkward dinner with bro together with dad... heck tat
came home...
celebrated with my mum and bro and my bro's frenz.. and one of em also same b day.. so...
might as well. haha
had a bottle of booze.. then went to slp
this morning.. woke up.. went to O'sch..
saw two black guys at counter.
*shocked*
Ben told me one of em guest teacher.. from aussie man
class start..
jaw dropping demo from the dude teaching us
my jolly goodness.. he's tha dopest shit man..
like seeing the professionals in vids.. now in real life
taught us some tricks...
then cont with ben's choreo.
afta which... was play time.. freestyling baby..
and as usual.. Ben was dope shiet.. but black dude... *waves hand in up-down motion*
i went to top up card and pay for class.. went back studio.. kena jio to freestyle..
heng heng i listen to song a few times b4.. manage to catch beats
but was kinda nervous and song was quite fast.. end up repeat some moves and didnt did tat well.
oh well..
freestylin over.. chilled out at studio for a while. then go eat dinner then session baby~
practiced more and more.. trying to not repeat.. dang...
sweat alot also.. good exercise. haha
then had supper.. then went home at 12~~
Sunday, January 21, 2007
juz here to update my blog of some stuff since i havent done so afta christmas.
sku opened.. tings goin smooth SO FAR.. avoiding possible conflicts etc..
life... boring... not tat interesting still.. busy yes. tiring... duh.
poppin.. making some improvements here and there.. slowly gettin my style and stuff.. but LONG WAY TO GO.
wushu.. comp's coming up in mid april. trainings underway as usual.. 3-4times a week.
well.. as long im alive..tings goin smooth.. no1 pissed me off YET~~~
till then ciaoz.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Sunday, December 17, 2006
6 days ago was the start of wushu camp.
damn it was a killa..
but hell yea it was fun..
got down to crazy training.. 3 each day.
the 3rd one at night was pretty slack.. but still.. afta 2 trainings in the days... 'nuf to make u shakced out.
talked alot of crap in the crap days.. with juniors and seniors etc.. and with the ppl hu came back from the china trip which i wanted to go but had no $$$.. zzz
settled some competition stuff too.. needed to solve tings b4 next year.. big rush man..wushu comp.. in like march/april.. damn.. and then O lvls (holy f**k)
and here i am.. staying up late slacking round.
sheesh. aint even completed mua holiday homework..
gettin it done soon.. or so i hope.. startin tml.. or shld i say today.
and jolly good
Christmas
is here..
the festive season of givin and shopping...
where discounts for shopping centres and etc still means big profit all over...
where adults spend money buying toys for children/nephew/neices/grandchilds etc wadeva
all of cos
where every1 gathers round on this special day
to enjoy a day of jolly good'ol fun.
chattin away and havin meals as a big group or family..
and does Santa exist?
lolz... aint care
till then.. ciaoz
Friday, December 08, 2006
this morning.. met cs and rong at bus interchange at headed down to pp kbox to meet see ann, soon yang and zhi yu... to sing.. of cos.
had a jolly good time there.. croakin all the way thru.. and having k-lunch.. which isnt tat good.. but edible still.. aint makin me puke wadeva so yea..
went bugis for window shopping afta tat.. and yang bought a polo-T and a pair-o Jeans costing a total of 70bucks+.. quite cheap i gota say.. afta tat... we went to the arcade... not to play.. but to look at the pros play.. gosh.. wonder how the hell they actually managed to combo in 'king of fighters'... and the game 'Drum Mania/Freak'.. damnit.. the guy was fast man... judging by the speed of his play.. one wack from his drumstick can kill i gues.. haha..
afta tat.. went home to change outta my very small t-shirt... and got dressed btr for Singapore Poly dance concert..
1st time at a dance concert.. gotta say.. it was pretty good.. as i actually enjoyed modern and comtemp' dance... but of cos.. the Funk Styles still are my fav.. with Ian's crew boogy-ing down the house with his wicked locking.. and my poppin instructor... Ben aka Psyk... together with his bro, Bryant, blardy pro beat boxer, being the best performance of tha night
'though their onli guest performers, oh well. haha'
well.. afta tat.. had supper and talk alot of cock..
afta which.. had to take a cab home as it was damn late. haha
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
pia-ing to watch finish an old sku anime
"Flame of Recca"
and now its 415am.
well anyway
im back.
this blog seems dead now huh
aint rly had much to blog bout past few weeks anyway
all i can say is.
juz gaming,
wushu,
homework,
and poppin
thats been goin on since the holidays
even if i did go out or wad-so-eva
aint nth much to write bout also.
so yea
till i have smth to write bout again
tata~~
Sunday, November 19, 2006
drastically
emotionally
mentally
physically
more childish
more dis-liked
more introverted
juz by lookin thru my testimo's since sec1
reminds me of myself.
wad have i done.
if i was hu i were...
would i be happier?
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
TUITION AT MAX'S PLACE WITH XIN YING~!~!
PRODUCTIVITY----------------30%....
1st ting reach there stare at com. haha
then afta 1hr.. went to max's room..*aka gaming room.. PS2 and Xbox inside.. lolz*
so... max taught me Emath*good ting*.
while xin ying made max play resident evil*bad ting*
i finished my Emath ws. hoora.. while xinying juz watched max play..and didnt get any tuition at all..
(the 'I have arrived' is shit.. tat aint count if ur reading xinying.haha)
well anyway..
Max is a dope gamer... Marvel Vs Capcom.. street fighter.. every shit la.. pro man.. haha
had a good time with xinying as we watched Max played resident evil... wooosaaaa..
then afta tat.. called Pizza.. yumzzz.. then headed of to O'school afta sianing at the com.
At O'school
xinying took out her chem book...
Ben came by...
me and her asked him if he had any idea of wad is chemistry..
and he asked us to ask him a ques..
so xinying asked him this.
'wads a valence electron'
....
wad the hell is tat~?!~?!
...
lolz...
then from where he was sitting.. he asked every1...
the bboys..
poppers..
hip hoppers..
all forget liaoz..
'buay hiao'
'simi lai eh'
'huh?'
si beh ho cio.. haha..
well afta tat.. marc came.. and managed to teach xinying abit of chem.. that went over to the counter to talk to ben.. then he started talking bout playing with music.
wlao.. dope shit man.. hella moves up his sleeves..
*in the meantime... zc and max were having their locking lesson*
so afta max and zc came out.. melvin also came over.. then like got 2 sifu.. both talking diff but good stuff.. wa... dope dope.. haha
afta that.. came home.. and here i am.. gna slp soon.
got ehist remmedial arranged by my mum 1on1 with teacher..
!&*)$^IV&^$8327684V&HN*&%V463*&N $VWI)~!~!~!~!
sian ah.. hope that it'll be fast..
DREAD HISTORY MAN.
Sunday, November 12, 2006
well..
lemme see..
HOLIDAYS BEGIN~!~!
OLA~!~!(wadeva tat means)
okay~!~! time for fun..
wait... wushu and revision and homework...wa sian.
nvm.. poppin sessions to come~!
so.. yea..
slow suicide by means of many activities in the day and lil slp at night..
so yea..
Peace Out.
Monday, November 06, 2006
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
why am i here.
wad do i do.
wads my reason.
wads the use of my existence.
am i even of any use at all.
shld i juz be gone and end the misery.
both for myself.
and every1 around.
why am i here.
wad do i do.
wads my reason.
wads the use of my existence.
am i even of any use at all.
shld i juz be gone and end the misery.
both for myself.
and every1 around.
my life is fucked up.
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here at all
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up.
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here at all
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up.
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here at all
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up.
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here at all
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up.
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here.
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here.
fucked up life.
my life is a shit hole.
my life is fucked up why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i even needed?
wad reason is it that im here.
fucked up life.
my life is fucked up
why am i here.
wad am i s'posed to do.
why do i exist?
wad do i do?
am i of any use?
am i needed?
fucked up life.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
so i shall talk bout ytd's session...
woke up in the morn.. and rushed down to city hall to meet tyde,henry,jason,marcus and... Poppin instructor BEN (OMIGOSH).. yea.. surprised he came.. rly honoured..
well anyway..
headed on down to SMU underground to start sessioning at bout.. 11+am..
where shortly afta, xinying and louisa(name correct?) came on down to join us.. practice fer em also..
yea.. so we pretty much popped non stop.. we were the 1st to came.. foloed by hip hoppers.. then bboys.. then the hip hoppers left.. then the bboys left.. then it was still us there.. woah. haha.. all the way till 6 plus.. tirin man..
afta which, we started cheorography.
had abit of fun tinkin of moves and trying to peice em together...
and taped it down.. kinda shitty. but yea.. accomplished somethin..
well yea.. tats bout it.. pretty much shagged out myself from such long hours of popping. haha
Thursday, October 12, 2006
First up.
EXAMZ ARE DONE. TO HELL WITH IT AND ENJOY MYSELF.
results back next week.. btr enjoy myself these 4 days. haha
now tats done.. i shall write bout today... my best day eva... most productive and fun eva.
1st up.. went to meet max and tyde.. mua poppin frenz.. for lunch at j8.. max was late for half hour. haha.. used to waiting for ppl so nvm.. then me and him had lunch 1st since tyde lived in clementi. haha..
then afta that.. went to raffles city to walk walk... here there everywhere.. talk cock also.. then headed down to SMU underpass for sessioning.. for those hu do not knw wad sessioning is.. its the same as.. those breakdancers at esplanade practicing? ya that sessioning.. but im doin poppin. so yea.. hhaha.
well then.. we got there immediately start liao.. tyde started with his glide.. holy shieeeetttt man.. his glide is gay.. like not even touching floor.. omfg omfg.. gotta learn it man.. tyde u dope shit.. haha... then max and i started hitting and waving.. freestyling etc.. then discussed moves and stuff.. then i started doin poppin power moves..(e.g Elsewhere's drop to floor and back up standing,knee glide.. knee waves, balancing shits..)..yea.. juz as difficult as breakdance i gotta say.. and maybe more difficult.. cos breakdance.. all power moves pure strength shld be able to get it done.. in popping.. strength is secondary factor.. cos style and technique plays the bigger part in power moves.. yea.. challenge..
afta that.. i juz did some bboying.. hahaha.. fun fun.. but went back to poppin again. lawl..started discussing more moves.. and glides... improved some stuff.. and my glide.. my god.. one session can do so many tings.. shld have more... gota make a name fer meself. haha...
afta sessioning.. went to eat dinner.. then headed to O'school(my dance studio) with max to hang out.. and check out my Sensei's course lessons.. juz stayed there and watched... and relax.. and check tings out on a weekday night.. haha..kinda fun.. then managed to practice abit in studio.. big help since theres a mirror.. yea hooo... then... but alrdy dman shacked from the afternoon sessioning.. haha...
afta that.. went home..
aint writing much since.. its a tiring day.. aint nth much to describe since words cant do much man.. hardly any1 knws wad i typed up there anyway.. hahaahah...
Ciaoz ppl
Peace out.
Rawk On.
enjoy life..
and quote from Max
"Live Life to the Max"
lawlz..
Monday, September 18, 2006
the last time was.. 2 days b4 i started my popping lessons.. aka... 4 weeks. fark tats long.
OK!!!!!!
lets get the ball rolling.
1st up.. i finally start popping lessons!!!!
made many frenz there.. both btr or same lvl poppers as me.. a fun bunch to be with also.. really gona improve if i go there.. haha. my instructor is DOPE also man.. his popping is TIGHT. specially his robot.. hitting.waves. nice..
and the other popping intructor's glides are wicked sick.. he literally floats on the ground man...and him with some of my course mates have some gay-shiet ankle turnouts.. ankle turn more than 180degrees.. phewt man!!
2nd ting. last week went to watch streetystlye slam.. hip hop comp. kinda amatuerish even though Ryan Conferido from the show 'So You Think You Can Dance' was the judge... but heck..still not that bad... performance by Ryan and Victor from his crew performing too.. too good man.. but then bboy yoshi was doin DJ.. so me and my frenz were like shouting.. 'YOSHI!!!! YOSHI!!!!' cos they had this open to any1 who wana come to stage and break session.. too bad yoshi aint really did much.. the ppl backstage aint knw how to mix music well. dang.. well tats bout it..
3rd ting..which was.. 2 days back on Sat.. went to o'school early.. self practiced... then afta 1 hours then lessons started.. learned chereo... that afta that was a jam session in studio also.. talked bout other dancers... discuss.. exchange points.. and did some sick moves also.. haha.. then slowly one by one went off till left me,marcus,danny,alvin,howie and max(all of them were older than me though.. 19 above.. im 15.. wtf.) watched Gin's hip hop lesson.. and they were practicing to the song sexyback!!! MAX'S FAVOURITE SONG!!! so he was like wad. hip thrusting right in front of the glass door and every1 in the studio could see him.. me and the rest were laughing our ass off at him.. but dang his hip thrusts are the.. the... Hard Gay pelvis shaking ting ya knw.. but ya.. he's good. haha.. and guess wad.. we asked our instructor to cheorograph a routine to the song sexyback.. so we can challenge the hip hop class next week!!! WOOHOO!!!
Popping VS HipHop battle!!
23rd September!!!
tats bout it yea. ciaoz next time in like.. 1 month.. hiatus..
pia liao la.. 1st half year study all the shit all tio blur and forgot alrdy.haha.. muz revise.. read. practise.. tinking of doin those alrdy makes me cry. *sobs*
Thursday, August 31, 2006
today is teachers day celebrations.
day aint started of THAT well.. say.. i overslept for like 1 hour and had to rush to school in a taxi.. thank god it was raining.. if not i would be darn late and banished to damnation... well tats exaggeration
well then the performances came on.. and prize giving for the various stuff that the teachers gain due to their attributes in personalities tat make students like em and learn alot more from em..
and in between the prize gving.. performances were put up for the teachers by both students and teachers. some were boring.. some totally sucked.. but best were those by.. 4 dl.. dance club. and the teachers emselves.. Hip Hop performances totally rawk... and the teachers sporty participation totally rawked.. and caused them to perform an encore.. haha..
well afta tat.. went to con course to meet wushu peepz to celebrate happy teachers day for our beloved wushu coaches!!! teaching us since sec1.. and teaching ME since primary4.. well tats a long way back..
celebration for coaches check... and headed off to pcps.. Pei Chun Public School..
reaching made me realise many tings that take too long to say.. for example..from seeing the ex-students tat went back.. u can really see the good, the bad, the ugly, the chiobu, the beng, the nerd etc..
3 years.. just 3 fine lil years... some say lil.. like tats wad i tink..'hey three years... not tat long.. still the same arent we?' i gladly take back that sentence i used to tink in my oh-so immature mindset. DAMN tings change DRASTICALLY in the mere 3 years... i shall take 3 examples of my primary 6 classmates and talk bout them without their names for their discretion... no offences to any1 who reads it, who is related to it.
One girl..back then.. she was the fattest p6 girl in school... if im not wrong.. well.. largest size back then in my class... now.. jolly-omfg!? shes like. wad.. half her size back then?! she's even thinner than those who were thinner than her back then.. my fren said she's quite pretty knw and SHE'S very jealous.. im like erh ok.. but juz kinda stunned that she slimmed down tat much.
2nd example... my class chiobu back then and still is now. haha.. back then, TALLEST in class.. like towering over every1..haha, basketball pro, class monitress. and still smart.. now.. shorter hair.. SHORTER stature.. she stopped growin in sec1 sadly... but then yea.. still pretty so aint matter.. haha. well now.. more nerdy look.. carrying books.. etc.. but not rly tat nerdy yet.. haha... and to tink many guys had a crush on her in p6...
3rd example.. biggest change man.. but kinda common to tink of it even if u say it isn't but reality stays this way... went back to school, my 1st image of him was. Pai kia.. long hair, pierced ear(though i pierced my ear but im not bad as this guy im talking bout)..... my class peepz met up.. talk talk.. and he kinda kept quiet thru out.. other than talking to some other dudes who were obviously.. not very good company thru society's eyes of a wad is good company... these guys.. one had piercing at lips.. both ears.. juz some street thug u would see in singapore ya....
well decided to go out afta tat. and just at the primary school entrance.. i asked wad sku was he in.. and he told me he quit sku.. shocked me abit when he told me tat but i was kinda anticipating it cos of who he knew... and then he took of a black cherry flavoured cigarette and started smoking.. i was fine wid it but all my frenz were like.. 'wth man..' to themselves.. and he left 1st to meet his other frenz.. wad kinda frenz i never knw..
just 3 years.. i have to say this.. but 3 years only..
have u ever wondered where the hell u change be it physically or mentally or ur character when people told u 'hey.. ur kinda different from b4..'? i have.. i tot i haven't change tat much... but then again...maybe i have... maybe become more stupid or clever.. look btr or uglier.. the true fact of life juz wacked me hard in the face...
The True Test of Time waits for No One.. Who you are will depends on how u tink and stuff..or rather.. What you are..
Even after being often shown the right way and route of life to succes.. yet others choose to pick the other way.. or commonly knwn as the 'wrong' way... which i will never knw..
ppl can do wadever they wan so long they set themselves to it... as wad ppl always say.. but then.. have they ever thought of the past.. the present.. the future? the ppl they will affect.. help.. hurt along the way?
i thus conclude this post with this.
"People change everyday. Changing.. like you.. like me..You got all the time in the world to do anting.. ur life as matter of fact. How u wana live ur life depends on how u Change urself everyday to fit into ur surroundings.. changing into society's unwanted people to be happy? or be a socially correct person who is lonely and sad. wad to do? u decide."