Friday, January 19, 2007
Its already the end of the week. I haven't been doing much lately. Thats what I think. The past few days of school were the normal stuff. Sitting through lectures just for the sake of doing so and going for class for attendance. Attendance count in the overall grade of some modules. Its either 5% or 10%. Thats still quite a lot just for showing up. HAHA!
I haven't been getting much sleep lately. It started since Tuesday. As I have Wednesdays off, I usually tend to stay up till late. I ended up not sleeping in the end. Till now, I think I have only slept less than 5 hours. I spent the whole of Wednesday playing Dota with Ruz. Dan and March came to join us during the afternoon. We had dinner at S11 and later headed back to HT. After that, I still stayed up but slept a while. I woke up at 6.45am to get ready for school. I start early on Thursdays. Darn it!
I was almost late again. This particular lecturer of mine is very... petty and calculative. Only 5 mins grace... Its always because of some irritating people (girls especially) who walk super slowly on the walkway. Worse thing is they walk in 3s. Then you have to say "Excuse Me", but they still don't hear it because they are talking so much among each other and they can't hear you. Then you would have to raise your voice a little louder, but then everyone would just stare at you for being 'loud'.
Today was pretty uneventful. I went home straight after school as I was really tired and wanted to catch up on my sleep. However, I didn't. I played Dota with Dan for quite a while then watch American Idol. I had a good laugh =)
So now, its 1.30am, and I'm supposed to be sleeping but I'm STILL up. Not sleepy yet though, just a little tired only. SURPRISINGLY. Guess I better get to bed soon. Wouldnt want to collapsed from exhaustion. I keep dozing off in the bus. It sucks! I was afraid I would miss my stop or something. There was this one time, I think I haven't slept for 3 days. I was on my way to Toa Payoh on bus 88 from Bishan. I dozed off and slept through the whole journey. Luckily, my stop was the last stop. That wasn't the embarrassing part. When I reached the interchange, I didn't wake up. As it was a double decker(I was on the second deck), the bus driver had to come up to wake me up. He called out a few times before coming over to shake me. After a few hard shakes, I woke up. It was so embarrassing. Luckily no one was on the bus.
Funny story. Yes! It really happened!
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt.
You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.
You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.
You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going at it alone.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
I was curious to see if it really worked... To find out what kind of person I really am. Its a colorgenics test. Its only 80% true though. Thats good enough for me...
How do you expect someone to listen to you when you don't listen to that someone or other people? If you aren't able to do the things people want you to do, then you probably don't deserve to have people do things for you either. I believe in Karma. What goes around comes around. Luck plays a part in it too. I guess. I'm pretty lucky, maybe one of the very few people in the world that has luck to rely on as a backfall. I don't take adventage of it. Its more of a use-it-when-I-REALLY-NEED-it thing . I haven't been lately though. If I use it too often, I'll probably be pushing my luck, literally. HAHA!
I also realised I have quite a few choices in life, what I want to do, what I don't want to do, what I could do. If I ever wanted to go back in time to change something, it would be to go back to the end of my Secondary 3 life. I'll probably study harder and make the right decision in choosing the Right thing.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
The NEW YEAR has came! 2007! Finally!
A lil' late... but...
Its the start of a new year, a new beginning, a new something... HAHA! Many things have happened lately. Falling in and out of love. Getting scolding from my mom. Getting MORE scolding from my mom and aunt. Going out with the guys. Having overnight Dota sessions at my place and whipping up a snack for the guys. Watching movies. The normal 'Nigel' stuff. Just that I haven't went swimming for quite a while. Blame it on the weather. It was so bad, that at some places, the water went up to knee level(of an average height person)... Well, if I did go swimming, I would eventually get wet anyway, so I just saved the trouble of paying 50cents (Shhh! I pay the child fare) and just go take a nice hot bath. HAHAHAHA!!! OH! Theres also ice-skating! I missed ice-skating! A pity that whenever I want to or planned to go, I just didn't. Kuku skating buddy... You know who you are, so stop smiling and laughing away! You supposed to be skating with me!!!
Theres so many things going on in my mind. Too many restrictions, too many obligations. Theres just sooooo MANY things. I don't know where to start. Will it end at all?? Sometimes, saying things MIGHT help a little, BUT is there really any use at all? As the saying goes, 'Its easier said than done'. I really wonder to myself everytime, 'Am i too nice?'
I don't think its me. I think people are just taking my NICENESS granted. Or it could be that I just don't want to NOT do it. I'm starting to confuse myself here. Damn! I'm hungry! (Stomach GROWLLZ) So anyway, I really got to, have to, make sure, that I don't be SO nice anymore. Nice guys finish lasts. Yeah right... -.-
It all depends... I could be blabbering about my own nonsense. Probably... Well, I really do hope all this so-called 'things-going-on-in-my-mind' would all be okay. HOPE, that is!