Half a dozen things are true

"Clever" is the word that perhaps describes ENTPs best. The professor who juggles half a dozen ideas for research papers and grant proposals in his mind while giving a highly entertaining lecture on an abstruse subject is a classic example of the type. So is the stand-up comedian whose lampoons are not only funny, but incisively accurate.
ENTPs are usually verbally as well as cerebrally quick, and generally love to argue--both for its own sake, and to show off their often-impressive skills. They tend to have a perverse sense of humor as well, and enjoy playing devil's advocate. They sometimes confuse, even inadvertently hurt, those who don't understand or accept the concept of argument as a sport.
ENTPs are as innovative and ingenious at problem-solving as they are at verbal gymnastics; on occasion, however, they manage to outsmart themselves. This can take the form of getting found out at "sharp practice"--ENTPs have been known to cut corners without regard to the rules if it's expedient -- or simply in the collapse of an over-ambitious juggling act. Both at work and at home, ENTPs are very fond of "toys"--physical or intellectual, the more sophisticated the better. They tend to tire of these quickly, however, and move on to new ones.
ENTPs are basically optimists, but in spite of this (perhaps because of it?), they tend to become extremely petulant about small setbacks and inconveniences. (Major setbacks they tend to regard as challenges, and tackle with determin- ation.) ENTPs have little patience with those they consider wrongheaded or unintelligent, and show little restraint in demonstrating this. However, they do tend to be extremely genial, if not charming, when not being harassed by life in general.
In terms of their relationships with others, ENTPs are capable of bonding very closely and, initially, suddenly, with their loved ones. Some appear to be deceptively offhand with their nearest and dearest; others are so demonstrative that they succeed in shocking co-workers who've only seen their professional side. ENTPs are also good at acquiring friends who are as clever and entertaining as they are. Aside from those two areas, ENTPs tend to be oblivious of the rest of humanity, except as an audience -- good, bad, or potential.
Some Famous ENTPs:Alexander the GreatConfederate General J. E. B. StuartSir Walter Raleigh

F_L_A_T

finally done the rebonding. Must say it was quite a hard decision to make but now that its done.. well its done. My crowning glory is now gloriously flat. Hoping it poufs up abit ( never thought i'd ever say this). So moving on...

Christmas.. I've never really thought about how I feel about the season. heh. Usually just went wherever I was invited or stayed home to watch cartoons. Now, having been away and all that, I'm starting to appreciate the getting-together mood that's associated with xmas. unfortunately, it seems like the more you try to pull people together, the more things fall apart. maybe i'm feeling abit bitchy but well. grow up. Maybe i'm just getting old and can't deal with change anymore.

So there. I'll go where I'm wanted. Otherwise I'll be visiting with Dexter, Scooby and Courage.

Catching up

Aaah.. Its been quite a nice weekend with shopping, nice tea and dinner on saturday and a great lax sunday. Didn't start off too well when i got grumpy with everyone for waking me up for b'fast. then spent there rest of the morning and afternoon reading fics... new ones and revisiting old ones.. like savouring memories.. haha. also managed to catch up with a couple of friends.. finally having proper conversations without having to rush off somewhere else.

The best part of it though, was dinner. Headed off to my aunt's and met up with chicken rendang, durian, grandma, uncles and aunts. Dinner was fun but the after-dinner conversation with my uncle and his wife topped it. It was a good opportunity, I guess, to round off my weekend of reflection and put my thoughts together. and I'm grateful for the very refreshing perspectives they have about life, education and living, basically.

Moment to remember - when they said that they were proud of who i've become. Nice to hear it, especially when I'm not particularly close to them. Makes me realise how much I appreciate these little compliments and i'll definitely make an effort to do this for others as well.

Yeah.. so I'm looking forward to drinks again.. hehe with the cuzzies and uncles. moms and dads have been officially banned so i think it'll be interesting. eheh

Can this be true?

I'm about to head home!!! haha. so excited that I'm gonna blog about it even before it happens! Gonna meet the family for dinner at DTF later.. hopefully i'll make it on time. Will then head home to crash. YES... crash. despite my resolution to go out and get pissed, I have decided that i wont waste the weekend nursing a hangover. will do that next weekend.

hehe

Bummed

Why doesn't Don's open til late? ... Comfort food....

Whats the point?

So I've got a huge ego. Don't need to remind me perpetually of my faults. I know them

Shut the fuck up.

Don't need to take this shit, this condescending, self-fucking-righteous attitude of yours. Like you're fucking queen. My ass

Why should I obey your every order? What you say shouldnt even matter to me.

Piss off.

Why do I even come home?

Trends

heyhey,

Is everyone following my lead and not updating their blogs or have they all changed blogs?! so much for keeping in touch.. humph.

But anyways, yeah.. back from Phuket. Been a looong stay there from set up for conference til teardown. Managed to sneak myself some tan time.. hehe.. thus look lobsterish now.

Still, it was good experience.. learnt alot now.. and about to embark on my next reg project. Don't know what I'm feeling about it.. there's a little fatigue.. duno if i'll get sick looking at the db again but I sure look forward to doing a better job this time.

So there. Nice long weekend with one more day to go. Think I'll be starting on some work first..

Second thoughts

well well, guess what. Miss Gungho here is getting the jitters the day before. No more walking down hallways with books in arm with friends... no more talking nonsense in class.. no more just being passive. Do I really want to get going with work -Definitely yes.. but giving up being carefree? Can I still be carefree in this new life I've got?

Why is the grass always greener on the other side?

I don't want to lose it. I don't want to grow up! NOOOOOO!

Talk

Talk might be cheap... a real cheap way to get that morale boost that you need. Quite cool how a long conversation can be so uplifting (and it wasn't a pep talk). Maybe that's how i think.. to rationalise things out loud and to have a sounding board to work with. makes things clearer and, of course, provide constant reassurance that I'm right. heh.

Monumental

Monumental

Right.. so FINALLY, I've got some time to sit down and reflect. First and foremost on my mind is the monumental decision that I really should have seen coming. Even after all said and done, the doubts are still there.. coming back even more strongly, like someone's trying to tell me something or, as I'd like to see it, whoever it is wants to see if I can stick with what I've decided. So.. that's one of life's deciding moments for me. It'll go.

The closest thing....

To an affordable yuppy lifestyle - Living at Holland V. Haha.... I rather fancy fixing up some old flat in the area into my own den. Not that I know that place well at all but well.. to have a cold storage that closes at 11pm sounds pretty much like what I envisioned my late 20s to be.

I dont know... today was quite a day. Started work at 6, ended at 930 then dinner at 11 plus conversation and drinks... in today's case - teh-O-peng. Maybe I can soon add the 645am jogs in... Not quite as cool as a midnight workout at california or planet (i omit the second parts purposefully) but still works.

Wonder how long I can last like this.....

worse

This thing is getting bad.. EVERYTHING gets to me.. esp little things. And I HATE IT when i get blamed for the slow internet.. at least tell me when you disable my net... and stop fucking complaining about it.. Its not like I'm not letting you stop my using the net... just shut yer yap already. Day in Day out whine whine whine, pissing me off only.

I forgot

Hey hey hey....

I'm actually quite glad that I'd forgotten my blog username over the weekend.. I think its right up there with all the other times in my life that I've royally screwed up and it'd have made this blog a really unpleasant one.

On hindsight....

I should really stop indulging in my weird imagination.. tends to psych myself in a really bad way...

I neeeeed to start exercising. There haven't been many times that I've felt so completely crap about my body. It probably had alot to do with the bloating and its gone down considerably now.. but still.. now that I know how vulnerable and frustrated I can be when I don't like the way I look. I mean.. it's one thing to not think that I've got a perfect bod and it's another when I come so close to hating it. Perhaps I'm one step closer to understanding why some people anorexic.

So now.. back to work. Things are going well I guess.. works starting to come in and I just hope I can keep up the enthusiasm I've had so far. Nah.. I can.

Its refreshing and comforting to know when these little thoughts come from the most unexpected people who go beyond what they need to do to help you :) Really reminds you to not judge people too soon. Now i feel all warm and fuzzy inside!!

the job.. the life

wow..its been a really rewarding few days on the job! Got to take part in brainstorms and site work.... looking and the overall scope of the job, I have little doubt that I won't like it!! haha.. which is a good thing I guess. Nothing can be worse than getting  stuck in a job that you don't even like. For the most part, though, I think that getting more comfortable with my colleagues /really/ helped ALOT.  It's alot less awkward for me now and not so terrifying to ask things or start conversations.

On the down side... there is a lack of a Life. And to be honest, it's not coz of the job. It's more like my lifestyle now is so different from everyone I know, save Daphne *precious* so it's really hard to meet up or do the things they do e.g. going clubbing on wed nites til really late. Somehow, with the job, I feel the obligation to ensure I get enough rest to perform at work. I don't resent it though, it is something that /I/ want to do for myself and I will do it. I figure when everyone gets to that working stage then we'll be thinking in a more similar way and we'll be able to fit into each others' schedules better.

So... all in all.. its going well for me! Hopefully it'll get even better when I get that haircut on saturday and a new blog skin!!

Ta~

drained.

From too much sorting.. brain dead....
 
From too much needing... Irritated...
 
Lack of Slack.
 
Good nite.
 

Is this a Dream.... or matter of fact?

Walking After You ~ Foo Fighters 

Tonight I'm tangled in my
Blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
 
Things just won't do without you
Matter of fact
I'm on your back
 
If you'd accept surrender
I'll give up some more
Weren't you adored?
 
I cannot be without you                   
Matter of fact
I'm on your back
 
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you                   
If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you
 
Another heart is cracked
In two
I'm on your back