你知道吗

爱情总是趁人没注意时闯进来
让我渐渐爱上了你
明知道大家是不可能的 但我选择继续
明知道永远不可信赖 但我选择相信
明知道终有一天会被伤害 但我无力阻止
明知道会带给我失望 但我心甘情愿
这你知道吗？ do you know that?
这是我非常爱你

This week diary

25th Jan

Today he fall sick he cant go out with me =( Yesterday was my last day working so i wish that today he can go out with me.I so miss him.At night we quarrel again.

26th Jan

A whole new day for me!!Though can forget him dowan to msg him.I cant control myself.I msg to him.Our relationship got turn better but he stil showing his moody msg.I got a new job as kindergarden teacher which i've been fail for 10+ times interview....Oh gosh finally i success.But i use the "lying" method to get that job.I told that boss i will work for long term.I know i'm lying but what to do...If i stil honest for this timei sure wont get employed...SORRY to that boss
I told him this good news but he seems like no response.Hiaz...

27th Jan

Today trying to msg him well but he still show his moody face.The whole afternoon i went to eat laksa and ice kacang(my favourite!!) with yong keong at sungai puyu.Unfortunately he saw his mum(his mum and dad separated) and grandama and 1 more unclei guess was his mum's hubby.Well i think about myself.Why a good marriage must come to "divorce"?why a good couple must come to"break"? Most of my ex also had the same case with is separated family or single parents...Next will it be my turn??choi!!touchwood!
Back home bored again..he stil sick....i chat with my hamster...

28th Jan

Finally come to thursday!! A week is gonna waste like that...monday will start working..hard to meet him lol =(
Today i called up him...he was in training.Does he recover??hohoho~i was a haapy in heart...But at the end we quarrel again.I ask for "breaking" for second time and he just said "ok go ahead".I cant believe this...i cry over again....

29th Jan

Today i called up him again.His tone has changed.He said to me no more religion talking.i guess i should know the result.Everthing will change start from this moment....HAIZ...everything back to the square.I made a big mistake...the story ending similar like my ex.I will made up my mind soon..i decided to go mmu study le...COZ here has nth can hold me down.Goodbye penang soon.

home alone~

“太好了，终于可以放假咯！”

今天是暑假前的最后一堂课。我从床上跳起来直接走进浴室梳洗，把衣着穿上，我就很快地吹着口哨往下楼去。

“奇怪，怎么连个人影都没有？”我犹豫了一会儿。

“今天是我上课的最后一天，老爸应该在家因为他必须载我去学校，老妈呢八点之后才去菜市场，而现在才七点而已叻！“我在一旁碎碎念。

我走进饭厅，桌上竟然完全没有食物，我就从冰箱掏出一杯牛奶来喝然后打算去郊外散个步。

“咔嚓”

门却从外反锁，之后我就往后门打开看看，结果也是一样。我的心跳像火车飞奔那样快，我感到无奈就只好拨个电话给爸妈，没想到电话竟然没有按盘。

“算了，我还是上楼回房休息”心里想着

“气死人,他们竟然把我反锁在家！太过份！”我破口大骂

突然，感觉好像有东西在敲我门，我走出去看，奇怪，没东西啊。我把门关上就回床休息。不久我听到浴室仿佛传来歌声，我颤抖了一会儿，决定拿出勇气走去浴室瞧一瞧。

我看到。。。一个人和我长得一模一样，站在浴室门旁对着我微笑。我吓得屁滚尿流地往楼下冲。然后，我。。。我见到一对双手飘浮在空中正往着我方向飘来。我立即跑进厨房拿出一把刀自我防卫。过了一阵子，似乎没事情发生的，我松了一口气，弯着腰把刀放好。

当我把头抬起来时，我见到一位很年轻的女主人，她的头发长到手腕，看起来很斯文高雅。可惜，最可怕的是她。。。她是没有双脚的！而且还露出尖牙！我失去理智地大步跑进大厅，就在这时刻，我见到一个小女孩坐在我旁边玩着洋娃娃。最恐怖的是。。。她。。。她没有头！！！太荒唐了！我承受不住晕倒了。之后发生什么事我不太清楚。当我醒来时，我就在床上，老爸老妈很担心地陪伴着我。

我非常生气地把他们臭骂一顿因为无断断留我一个人在家，最可恶的是他们竟然把我反锁在家！老巴就很惊讶！

“我接到电话就赶去公司”老爸澄清地说

“我有留字条贴在冰箱给你啊，你没看见吗？”老妈很好奇地问

最奇怪的是，我老妈回家时门却没有被锁上，而且还看到我躺在客厅的地毯上。

之后我把刚才的故事告诉他们而他们却说这只是个幻觉。但是。。。我真的不能不相信啊！唉，也许这真是我的幻觉吧。。。

我把我桌灯打开，往天花板一看，一对尘染血的双眼凝视着我。。。

happy mothers day

Today is mother's day,well...i din celebrate with her cause she got work...haha...anyway,i got buy some food treat her eat...

But,happy mothers day had turned to a sour day cause i did quarrel with my fren(group members)...the story was started like this:

Teacher gave us economy project,there got 4 quest. My group members consist of 3 ppl including me.Another is A and B. Well,that time teacher gave us the quest, my members was absent, to avoid trouble,i did it first(cause teacher only give us 1 week time).My fren A which was absent had give me a call asking what she need to do and i told her to finish complete another 2 quest which i also duno to do. Because of this, C did nothing,bt nvm,teacher gave another kuantittatif quest so i asked C to do,then everyone is equal...fair...

When i asked C to do,i manage C could do al properly,typing ,print out and could give me on monday,cause tuesday must hand in le!!Because C had called me on before that the saturday,she told me her printer was spoil,i und,for me is ok,so i do finish it by myself...

Soon the project had settle and hand in to teacher...but came to presentation,B incharge of printing and i asked C to incharge of write it in mahjong paper. Actually i could do it all by using powerpoint, but i feel that C like doing nothing(not din do at all,she got do,i know her's effort,but she did just like do nothing) so i purposely asked her to write in mahjong paper,so it is fair....

next wed is our presentation le,C told me to bring all the things such as marker pen and documents to pa tuition on sunday,i brought it but she absent.So i ask her fren will she coming to sch on monday,and yet,her fren said "no"....well,that time i got a bit angry,y she so irresponsible...then i sms her asking her what she want,why she so irresponsible....in proper tone...and she replied in an angry tone.she scolded me i 'm the one who are irresponsible...never discuss with her what to do and how to do....AND said i so clever of coz can do all,but clever also must discuss with her!aCtually,not i dowan to discuss with her,sometime i came to sch she didnot and when i absent from sch she came to sch..how am i going to discuss with her in this situation(no faith at all)She also said that the quantitatif quest she got do and brin it on monday,i und,i not blaming her not do cause she said her printer spoil...tat why i did all myself.IN CONCLUSION,I JUST WANTHER TO WRITE IT IN MAHJONG PAPER,THAT ALL....

i dowan her to do last minute work and later cant finish it...tat why i got a bit angry...i hope she could und,i not scolding her for no reason...and i din discuss with her cause of that situation i mentioned above not i clever not need to discuss...i prefer easier work hate trouble...hope she could und...

Blood Donation Campaign in my school

Blood Donation Campaign was organised by Leo Club and Pasukan Pengakap Kelana at my school, Smk St.Mark at 18 April 2009 started from 8.00am to 2.00pm.

Well, i was the helper and also the donour too...started from 9am onward, quite a number of people were came including my friends too...Gui Ling,Meng Hui,Jia Lik and 1 unknown guy...Haha(paiseh, i dun really can remember his name) Besides, i was quite surprised when i saw Christine and Shee Yee volunteerly to donate blood. First of all,i would like to thank them for :

1.THEIR BRAVENESS SHOULD BE A MODEL TO EVERYONE

2. HELP US TO SUCCESS THIS CAMPAIGN

As i mention earlier that i was a donour too...However at the end it not comes up as i have been planned...sobs...why?guess everyone should know...i was 43kg but the min "kuota" to donate blood is 45kg. I damn despair with my weight(I unable to help needy people!!)

Next, donation of foodstuff and daily needs also been held on the same day. We managed to collect all the stuff which worth RM3000 and money RM450. Therefore,i very proud of myself and thank all my friends who got lending a helping hand in this event.

After back from the event, i went to pc fair with Lay Ern. The journey was quite bored, and unrealisingly, i became a "bulb light" between lay ern and HIM...coz her fren also going....But nvm, along the journey, i met my ns friend(I not bored this time) which i nearly forget his name le~ "WEI HAN=Hei Ren" He told me that i had changed a lot :





1.look very thin

2.tension
3.tired
4.less smiling

5.eyebag very deep

Wuwuwuw~ izzit true?

Mood Damn Horrible

Today my mood turn to sour again,because of my fucking ex stuff!!!!.Today i went to his blog, saja want to know wat had happened to him recently...maybe i got a bit worry him especially his exam.My fren told me that he had failed 3 papres and going to resit next monday.Those who had failed more than 5 papres,there are not allowed to procced to next year(or next sem)....haha,forget le~

Due to my kindness worried,i went to see his blog to check out...I realise that he kept bullied by his housemates.Got 1 time,as usual he back from class,he wanted to online,manatau he housemates purposely banned him not allow him online.Then he went to ask him housemates,and yet,their housemates showing their hao liao cool face kept saying dunno to him...He was foolish by their housemates,so i got a bit angry...and sympathy

After this i proceed to read his another section,when i read about the part that he wrote about me,at first i got a bit happy,cant believe he wil write about me...as i continue to read,all he wrote is talking my bad words...I damn damn damn angry!!!!Hence, i straight pick up my phone and sms him scold him...all the words that came out is totally FUCK!!!....foul...rude...hao liao...think himself is fairy...shit la....so like to say my bad word,go and spread to whole world!!tell all the people you are fucking good and how worse or bad I am.


Now my mood is totally mess up with his stupid,noob and fucking foul words!!!Spoil my mood already...no mood to study..later somemore got economy tuition,still thinking whether i should go or not.Haiz...because of my idiot kindness,spoil my mood whole day...

But nvm la,today i also quite happy,coz yesterday i juz bought a 2nd hand sony ericsson Z610,to put in my maxis simcard....Actually this hp is my best best friend bought for me...haha,i cant tell who is him...is a secret maze that everyone dunno the answer...

Untitled heart-broken

Whenever i hear stpm this word i will feel scare.Today my pa teacher (pn.manjit) gave us an essay as an exam to test over our writing ability. After finish marking our essay she scolded us with disappointed:"kamu punya isi sangat lemah sangat childishnot mature as what a form 6 student should write.You all really no cure.never study.pity you all." I very sad with what she siad to us.I really got study but is other subject.I have no idea coz there are too many chapter waiting for me to read and somemore teacher alwz gv us a sudden exam.I going to crazy....

Besides this today i was scolded by my form teacher too.The reason is i din hand in the "kertas kedudukan kelas" to her on time.But overall is not my fault too...i duno why maybe she was scolded by hm too...when the time she gave me that "kertas" and asked every student to check for the marks.at the same time is economy period.the whole class will going to bilik multimedia.and yet that economy teacher oso quite a difficult-handle teacher.she dont allows us to do other thing in her class therefore the "kertas " i keep in my drawer and we plan to check it after her period.Due to this matter.igot scold by my form teacher.Coz she want to record down the marks in the record book and hand in to hm sign but i din gv her earlier then igot scold.Wat la that teacher...very irreasonble...economy teacher not allow we do other thing in class and she keep asking me be fast be fast...how can i be fast??She though that i'm a GOD izzit?I'm juz a NORMAL human ok?Not only thi.she somemore scolded me saying thay i not an effective person.PLEASE LA.

I'm not the only post for monitor ok.i oso a secretary for leo club and treasurer for pengakap kelana.everything i oso must be involved...there are still many thing for me to do.activities planning for blood donation will be held on 18april...taip letter..meet leo advisor..if not i wil get scold by tjem again..and pengakap kelana account oso not yet settle for feb and march due to stupid indian(alwz said 4got to brin yuran)...now account become negative and i got blamed adi!!!not only this.dinner payment for april is my turn to collect again...Can anyone und me??i got to collect everyday and yet why they cant pay me on time??i not very free wan ok!!!!If cant collect all on time then i wil get scold again....I want CRAZY ALREADY LA...If you are in my shoes...