what a weekend! i did...absolutely nothing..homework wise. argg..i'm so disappointed in myself i know i can worker harder..but school's been pretty depressing lately! all this work is tiring me out..not gettin' enough sleep and have to wake up early in the morning..theres so much i wanna do but no time. i think theres a lesson here.i need to work hardER! gotta get disciplined...but i already have no life. grade 12 sux.
on the other hand...going to waterloo was probably the funnest thing i did all weekend...went to operation christmas child and saw tim there! he makes me feel even shorter than i already am!! ahh! next time i'l ltry to avoid standing right next to tim. a little distance is better. went to fairview park mall..got pants from jacob they're soo nice! then went to visit peopel at 'loo..had lunch with alison,laura,derek,keith,jackie..and then hung out w/kevin hehe...we went to see dinosaur and decided to act really crazy and take fob pictures with it.
hmm...i still wanna go to waterloo! even though its old and stinky

blah..gotta go now.
7 months w/chris in two days..*smiles*

me and allie 

jackie and i 

me and chris S2 

the "ladies man" HAHA 

the cool ones..plus sam! 

me and timmy! 

gracie and i 

me sammo and nat 

me warr and nat 

cookiemonster and elmo 

me and "l.l.cool-nick" 

inuksuk group 

me and minella 

the girls again 

mealtime 

walking "home" after low ropes 

cabins again 

at the cabins 

Came back from grade 12 retreat on friday and still super-duper tired.those were the longest two days ever. it was really good..got to get away and relax and spend time w/my closest school friends...i'm so thankful that theres peopel at school i can count as real friends.kinda got us all on an emotional high, but for a good reason.thinking about NOT being in highschool scares me, cuz for the past 3 years, i've gotta to know so many of them...many of them that i take for granted, but also i can't imagine not seeing them everyday in the halls anymore..the "warm-fuzzies" and "candle sharing" really encouraged and reminded me to make the best of my last year..to work hard and to show my friends how much they mean to me >.<
Memories i'll never forget from those two days: inuksuit building, night-time movies n' sleepovers, night-time hike &campfire, journaling, warm fuzzies, candle sharing, group sharing, ymca games, low-ropes, etc.

Wednesday, went to buy all the stuff with the girls for dy's baby shower...that was fun, and then i drove for the first time by myself!! muahhahaa..well..it always seems to rain whenever i have the car..soo today i went to visit dy at the hospital..stayed for 5 hours..lol.three of which we were doing cross-word puzzles..soo FRUSTRATING but FUN...hehe. it was fun anyway, her baby kept kicking me like crazy haha..anyway...life's not too busy right now..not getting REALLY stressed out which is good! Media is fun...its really a place i've foudn that i really like to serve in...its a really uplifting change from things i do every week and i look forward to it =) the leadership retreat is gonna be fun!

UGHHHHH!!!!! its so true that people blog more when they're upset or mad or have the need to SPAZ..out. today's been so frustrating...because of only one person...i don't know if i can LIVE like this anymore, it keeps happening, and then everything kinda goes back to normal but the tension is always there..its been there since grade 9...i really need someone ELSE that i can look up to; someone who i WANT to be like when i grow up...its really frustrating because everytime i decide to do something about it..i just can't do it. i'd move in with my dad..but..i don't want to bother him and his family...and..things would just be really weird..i can't live two lives...gotta keep up with school, plan things for media, try to have a social life..and just keep everything in balance!! its so HARD...grrrrrrrr...i wanna rip somthing!! *RIIIIIP*. if i was a guy..there'd probably be holes in my roomwalls...*sigh* i can't even believe i'm feeling like this. it only happens once ina while..most times..i'm the happiest person alive. i AM happy,i love my friends, chris, my sisters,etc..if only this one thing in my life would CHANGE. i don't know how long i can stand it for. at least university is less than a year away. can't wait to GET AWAY. *sigh*.........
why does life have to be so unfair? the world is living HELL....it always has been and always will, no matter how happy we think we are. nobody here is perfect, nothing here is perfect...the only thing that keeps us ALIVE is GOD...the only thing that keeps me going is HOPE..and faith.i guess we can all feel a bit of what hell will be like...it'll be...lonliness worse than anything we can imagine on earth. depression and more emptiness and eternity than humans can understand....that would be a SUPER-SUCKY place to be wouldn't it?

anyway..i guess through all this..i'm so glad that i have you there..thanks for being there for me even when i can be really difficult..and being so patient. i know now what i DO see in you. someone who DOES have a mature side..that's maybe more mature than i am. you're not only my b/f but a REAL BEST FRIEND...=) thx for bringing me back to reality. i love you >.<

tomorrow..is back to school..and its gonna be a busy week! monday-university presentations at milliken, tuesday-h/w day, wednesday-york presentation;missionsgroup;baby-shower shopping;visiting dy;half-day, thursday-gr12 retreat in bolton;friday-coming back from retreat;fellowship, saturday-mediapractice;going to waterloo till sunday (maybe) ...

Its about time to blog again...well, school's been great so far and i'm not stressing out so far which is a BIG accomplishment! HMM well, thanksgiving weekend was awesome..spent it in niagra falls with 14 other church families, at Sherkston Shores. IT was just great to get away from Toronto and RELAX. Saturday was our first day there, but we went to Buffalo for the day to go shopping. Went to WArden Galleria Mall but didn't find much there..bought some stuff from Aeropostale and some t-shirts from Abercrombie...then we went to Prime Outlets where ther ewas a HUGE aeropostale sale and i bought a winter jacket and some summer stuff for nex' year. After that, we went to Denny's for dinner and then went to tour aroudn Niagra falls to see the night view. It was beautiful but really cold. After the potluck dinner we went to Adrian's house for "homework", and thats when all the drama started. The whole night was jokes. ("z-yo-t z-mama-t"){z-orlando-t bloom}Luckily we stil were able to get SOME work down..i didn't get as much done as i planned to though. THe next day we had church serviec at Sherkston, and then biked around the resort to differen't ppl's houses. Before dinner, we watched the sunset...it was breathtaking like always...on monday we went to play mini-golf, and our team lost..but it was still tons of fun!

This week...hasn't been so great. Especially today. this morning my sister had to go to volleyball at 7am AGAIN...soo i had to get up at like 5:30 and leave the house by 6...*sigh* i hate getting so frustrated at little things, but it all adds up. yesterday was the saem. id dint' even eat breakfast...was super tired...and didn't get much h/w done the night before...i started getting frustrated atmy mom for no reason adn stuff...at school...it got better i guess..just concentrated on doing work. gotta keep my marks up this year and stop getting distracted. its hard NOT to be distracted though. It means less time with my family and especially Chris...haven't seen him in almost a week...hopefully it doesn't get to those once a week things cuz that would suck...i miss him alot..i spend so much more time with my mom and sister and school friends than with him...oh well. i guess we all hafta make sacrifices...the good thing about this week..is i'll be getting my g2 on friday!! (if i pass)..then i can go out more. it also means lots more responsiblity..

it's been a month since i last blogged...and i just realized i've only blogged once last month...so what's new? last month...i went to get my g2 and the brake lights on my car didn't work...so it's been rescheduled sometime in october...had my interview for tc media and made the team *yay*...we got a hype new FOG machine for drama at church which is the coolest thing ever, except that it kinda smells...spent some time with dy, getting baby stuff ready, and also had 2 girls cell group sleepovers which were fun!! doing our nails, having a tea party, making care packages for the frosh, and celebrating Holly and Cae's engagement..its really great to hanging out with them...and also getting to know the older university girls. speaking of which...i've finally decided where i wanna go next year ^.^ its still sinking in that i'll be going to university next year and reaching another milestone in life. its hard thinking about it, becuase for so many years i've been the one watching people leave home, saying goodbye and maybe never seeing or talking to them again. and when they DO come back, things won't be the same. hmm soo my top three choices for univeristies are waterloo, laurier, and utsc for accounting co-op. hopefully i'll get into waterloo or laurier though, so i can leave home. its not that i want to leave anyone or anything..its just the feeling of being independant and free to do whatever iwant...making my own choices and becoming more mature..hopefully. but for NOW..gotta pass grade 12. school hasnt' been too stressful so far...my plan is to work like its june..so in june..i won't be stressed out..and that's been my plan which hasn't worked for the past 2 years. gotta get motivated this year =P while trying to enjoy life and get enough sleep at the same time.

This will probably be my last update before school starts..then im' gonna have no life and no time to blog...aiiiiiiii.....well, the past two weeks have just been CRAZYYYY man...i feel like i haven't had much time to just sit down and reflect..sometimes life is so busy that we dont' realize what we're doing and what we're missing..i guess i kinda feel that way even though august has been super-awesome..i think this is the best summer i've had so far..well, after camp...my cousins came from Colorado with my aunt and uncle..and..we've pretty much had family dinners and such every night..went to Montreal/Quebec city with them for three days...chinese bus tours are actually FUN when you have lotsa people ther to talk to..well it was the four of us..my only real cousins in north america that are my age..so....it was really fun...we went to Mt.Tremblant the first day, and went luging where we raced down a mountain slide in these little go-carts..Well, that first day was relaxing..we walked around Mt.Tremblant.which is its own town on top of a mountain the size of Wonderland. At night it is beautiful..all the hotels and shopps are lit up and colourful..and you can just sit anywhere on the mountain and watch the sunset..God's creation is really amazing..its too bad humans have polluted and destroyed nature..and yet there are places that we haven't ruined, and he's made it so wonderful it takes your breath away. well anyway...got back from that..and thursday spent the day with my cousins and brought them to playdium.went shoppin gat square one but didn't buy anything (weird!)

Hosanna/Alethia Camp was on friday...i guess that was fun!! The best thing about it was that alethia and hosanna were together..we went to Edgewood Camp and slept in bug-less, cold-less cabins..soo NICE!! The most memorable thing at camp was drenching garry during the Water-hunt..whcih lasted for like 2 hours....it went prety good at the beginning..then alethia ganged up on us younguns...and we lost..then everyone just started drenching people for fun!!!! It was great...got to know alot of the younger Hosanna kisd better..but now that i'm leaving i'll miss watching them grow up!! *sigh* we all grew up so fast!

hmm..other stuff from last week..went to CNE with my cousin and sister...then on monday went out to Lobster Trap to celebrate my birhtday w/my family...then they left the next day. mmmmM that place has like 4lb labsters..they're crazy huge..and scary looknig...and avenue road and ellesmere is SCARRYY place to be..almost got our car window broken by some mad motorcyclist..so rude..anyways...so that's it..

Well, this weekend...i turned 17..and..it was an awesome weekned..spent most of it with my school friends, church friends, and chris...thanks everyone for makign it so fun! Friday was Alethia/Hosanna potluck and worship with SoleDrive band..then saturday was [dot]COM's first playoff game againt Dunamis! we won 9-6 and got to second round where we played Revelation and got beat....but itso kay..we kept our heads up and didn't beat ourselves up for losing..to me, and probably the rest of the team, our last playoff game was the Dunamis game...and it was a season ending in a victory..we played our hardest and had fun to the fullest..thanks TEAM for just being you, summer wouldn't be as exciting without you guys...hope to see you all next year! Then sunday, went to dinner @Milestones with Ward people..i'm glad i met these people..cuz alot of people i know..don't really make real friends at school..or they don't like them..but these are really genuine people, especially the girls, and they make school fun.at least as fun as school can be! I couldn't make it through last year or and this year without them..so thanks for being constant support for me guys =)

Monday...went fishing with Ryan,Ada, Chris,Wesley and some other people..it was fun..tried to tan but it didn't work...oh well, caught a few small fish..other people caught bass =( ah well..and yesterday was the last small groups..we talked about university and leaving home..the temptations that we face..and how important it is to stay in touch with your christian friends...its a scary thought, and i'm glad its not ahppenign to me tiill next year..ahhh so many typos..but yeah..gonna miss alot of people who are going to first year..and i wish the best of luck to them in uni..warren, derek, alison, jackie, amanda, josh, jimmy, caleb, esther, kevin, stella, samk, estherh, ryan, aubrey...etc

LAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! I LOVE LIFE!!!!!!!!
time passes by wayy too quickly!! i can't believe school is starting in a week! definitely going to make the rest of summer worth its while..do everything i can...this summer has abeen super-duper AWESOME!!! but of course i can't do EVERYTHING i want to..that will wait till next summER! anyway..i'll update on the past few weeks SOON...right now....i'm in the bestest moood ever..i love life..i love my family..i love my friends...i love chris...i love GOD..i thank him for making me such an optimistic person....i can't remember ever being unhappy for an entire day..or even more than an hour...cause theres so much to be happy about in life...i see everything like a new opportunity to make my life better =) and to make the most out of everything..even the bad things that happen make me stronger...Everything is bright and beautiful...hehe

Trail Mix/day camp IS the BOMB! every second with those kids was amazing and fun...hehe..i'm dead tired tho..and its only the first day..but its all worth it! hehe..$15 for lunch and dinner cooked by the prof. chef. EDward..soo GOOD. that's a dollar a meal including breakfast! muahahhaah living at church 5 days a week is pretty fun! Today we had small groups..i met me and nathan's group of 8 kids..tmw we're gonna have nine..we made cookies in the morning, ate lunch, went to the park and played soccer baseball, had snack, and practiced for the talent show...well, its a challenge cuz we have the oldest group, but they're still an amazing bunch of kids! and the little ones are soo ADORABLE (especially the really chubby ones, i just wanna hug and squeeze em') =) i want a kid..hehe. just joking. anyways, second day of camp, here i come!
Happy birthday to muh lesbo#1 Janzie! bbq on sat was fun, i haven't seen my school friends in so long...except for dy and janz occasionally..hmm well, painting the house is pretty stressful right now, therse alot to do and its a lot harder then i thought..helping my sister draw LINES in her room is even more nerve-wrecking..sometimes i wanna bite her head off...not seriously but UGHHHHHH......can't wait till paintint is done and we can go furniture shoppping! cousins are coming on thursday this week so gotta get ready for that..and then theres going to be lotsa family dinners, birthday dinners, road trips, wonderland stuff, bringing them around and stuff...hehe..its gonna be fun!!!! can't wait..kinda gets sad to see teh summer coming to an end though..feels like its just barely started..!
last but not least...its been 3 months for me and Chris...and its been great so far..we have our ups and downs..our arguments but not very often, and most times we're both just as stubborn so we understand each other...he's truly sent from God cuz this relationship feels really different from other ones..its God-centered and thats what brought us together =)
well, i guess that's it for now! Tomorrow there's small gruops again, and that's been really good too..learning more things about people..and getting to know some people better..i just realized that this summer i met at least like..30 new ppl through chris and softball and stuff whihc is cool =) i miss the Cousins+3 group from camp..we pretty much grew up together every summer..at the lumos/basic game on sat i talked to an old friend and realized how God really does bring people together...the world can see we're different because we act different and friends always still have something in common that we don't have with non-christian friends =) that's why i treasure my bro's and sis's in christ even more *smiles*
*deeeeeeepppppp breath*......
DONE!!!!!!!!!!! what a long blog..mannnnnn i must be really bored..tired but can't nap..hafta practice piano now toodles!

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SUMMER is the GREATEST!!!! weeeeeee!!! gonna try to update this more..hehe..this weekend is gonna be packed!! Lunch with Chris’s family friends on Saturday, then umping a double header, and dot-com barbeque afterward…and then hoping to watch bourne supremacy sometime during the week..and starting renovations to me and my sister’s room during long weekend…*yay* Went to visit Dyan today..*sniff* baby didn’t kick for me..well, I guess it doesn’t like me very much (but it will) hehe..saw the baby clothes and everything they were soooo cute!! I can’t wait..i’m soo gonna kidnap J.M. II. Anyway, then went to ikea to look at furniture with mom and sis..and as usual..we just LOOKED. We NEVER bought anything there ever during the 20billion times I’ve walked through that place…lol..except for the 50cent hotdogs..i had two today..yummmmm!

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This summer is probably the BEST summer i`ve had so far...its AWESOME!!! im` still kinda sad i can`t go to montreal.but then im` going next week too haha..been pretty caught up in softball and church stuff, but now summer is really winding UP! august is always funn..and..20 days till i`m 17!! so scary...it seems so old.yet i still feel so YOUNG *sigh* i hate growing up...funny how we say that every year..but then..it has it`s up sides..like getting my G2!! yippeeeeeee!!!!!!!its sept 3..hopefullie i pass..pray for me pls..and make sure to stay off the roads that day juss` in case =)

+ summer school is officially OVER!!!!!!!! now i don't hafta think about school for anothe rmonth and a half! yessssssssssirrrreeee!!!!! soo excited..now summer vacation is actually starting for real..althoguh its already packed with stuff..its exciting! =) well, since stm was over, i've been working my butt off at school for a week and a half..pretty much..actually less only a week and monday, and finished accoutnign and english..and today i went to school and did my math exam which was fairly easy..pretty much a total copy of the review..lucky us..i guess htey just wanted us out of there as much as we wanted out..hmm then went to chris's house and at lunch and stuff then went to stc to watch i robot. GOOD MOVIE!!! it keeps u on the edge of yoru seat..but not a scary movie..and its only rated PG so its good for kids too..the robot faces are really freaky though..especially when they open their eyes really fast and look mad...*shudders* hmmm also watched dodgeball last week which was funny..but it coulda been better if it was less predictable...then yesterday was small groups, and it was a different experience for me becuase i dont' realy know the people there that well adn they're all really close..but i guess i'll get closer w/them in time. small gruops is really encourageing..the worship and stuff that we do. and just being able to debate about different stuff about our faith

+ anyways, that's the low-down for the past week and a half..just really really borign everyday, getting no sleep and stressing out like mad over homework! well, catching up with stm stuff has been pretty hard to do. i've been DYING to email the counsellours and practice the dances and stuff, but things have been busy..well, anyways, for the people who wanna know about stm, here are some edited excerpts from my journal:

June 29th
Woke up at 4am this mornign to get ready and go to the airport...mom made me breakfast!! =) we took a flight to chicago and then to nashville, and we ate dinner there. The counsellours Rebecca and B.O.D. (big ol' dork) drove us back. got to this town a bit north of nashville called adams, and then settled in and started meeting new people. Nighttime worship was AMAZING, and then we had a talk about purpose, proclamation, purity, and passion..pretty tired and ready to sleep 
 
June 30th
today was our first day of training on the base, and i met lotsa people today! everyone is mostly caucasian and have southern accents, which is realy cooll..i wonder how its gonnn abe like celebrating canada day with them...all the other teams' kids are a lot younger...(13,14,15) but its really encouraging to see their passion for God..at such as young age too. i guess one of my expectations is to try to be a better role model for them...especially the ones going to Atlanta

July 1st
Happy Canada Day!Today was an amazing day--so many things happened, so basically summarizing everything as i go along. Quiet times are a big part of each day, as well as a prayer walk..just enjoyign nature and praying for whatever is on your heart...i felt alot closer to God here with the trees and flowers and black mostquitoes than i usually do at home...The message tonight was about Jesus being passionate to be our bride..he's always waiting for us, so we have to wait for him as well..a Passion Play was put on..it was totally moving, adn i saw my sins written down on a piece of paper with a nail on it..and put ina  bag that was nailed to the cross with Christ...it really reminded just how much more his pain was..becuase of our sins..every single one of us
 
Theme Song: Every Nation
Every knee will bow
And every tongue confess,
That Jesus You are Lord
Every heart will seek
What your heart seeks
Every nation, will come to know you lord!

All the nations you have made
Will worship you oh lord
They'll bring Glory, glory to your name

just a quick update...
+ stm was the most amazing experience ever...when i have time i'm gonna write out my journal on blogger..sharing night is on July 30th around 7 at TJCAC
+ done accounting and english today! english was 11 pages long..but..i shouldn't complain...just glad that its over *sigh* now theres math to do..gonna be done that on wednesday then i'm FREEEEE!!!!!!!
 
coming up:
* finishing summer school
* girls day in unionville/sleepover at gee's?
* christian's pool party
* wonderland w/janz and hk friends
* CCSA softball mid-season mixer
* getting my G2
* shopping with girls/shopping with chris
* spending quality time w/chris
* eric's NINETEENTH birthday???
* painting/renovating me and hannah's rooms
* Trail Mix daycamp
* drama team production
* cousins coming from states
* the beach with EVERYONE!!!
* STM Sharing Night July 30 and Aug 1
* my birthday
* dy's birthday
* janette's birthday
* christian's birthday
* sammo's birthday
* andrea's birthday
 

What i can't live without for a day:
* God
* Chris
* Janette
* mom
* a warm bed
* home-cooked meals (including cup noodles)
* junkfood
* music
* sleep
* makeup (including lip balm)

What i'm not having for 10 days:
* Chris
* Janette
* a warm bed
* home-cooked meals
* junkfood
* music
* makeup
* TV
* internet/msn/aa/email
* family
* home sweet home
* sleep


hmmm.what can i say? i can't believe i'm going on a missions trip to Nashville/Atlanta tomorrow!!! its something i've wanted to do for a few years, and the perfect opportunity finally came this year. after months of preparation we're finally going!! time FLIES by...i don't know what to expect when we go and i don't wanna leave my friends and family..but it'll be a learning experience for me..hopefully i'll come back a little more mature *ha!* and a little more grown up *haha!*and a little closer to my best friend--Jesus! i'm feeling alot of things right now..mostly excited..i doubt i can sleep tonight..hafta wake up around 3:30am anyway..pick up cat, sharon, tim..and head to the airport to arrive by 5:45!!!! Nashville here i come!! be back in 10 days...
Chris: don't eat too much junkfood/fatstuff *its for your own good*. don't stay up too late (but don't sleep TOO much. clean your room and fold ur clothes the RIGHT way. don't worry about me. don't watch Dodgeball without me. drive safely. don't hurt yourself pleaseee. no drinking coke. don't miss me too much!!! *smiles* i love you!!

+ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEN!!!!!!! ( 12 days ago )
+ getting my G2 mid-July..yayy!!
+ started Accounting, Math, and English in Summer school today...gotta finish after my missions trip..wow...1.5 weeks to finish 3 courses! wooppeee
+ [dot]COM won our first CCSA softball game on sat...good job team!
+ Prom was really really fun!!! I forgot my camera...*arghhh* but took a few pictures which are on different' ppls cams...pix coming later...as well as end of year bbq and dragonboat pictures..!!! hmm...lets see if this one works
[ claud, me, shells at Centre Island ]

WOW! WHAT A WEEKEND! the word S-C-H-O-O-L is no longer a word in my vocab..at least for the past week and the next week or so...its amazing how fast time passes you by especially when you're having fun!! well..last week i went back to ward to make jewellery..and had some quality time to chat w/my art teacher..who got me all excited about next year!! can't wait..she's getting us a set of engraving stamps and all this cool stuff..and she's so inspiring..i wanna start my own business..and make jewellery part time when i grow up..haha i know i'm dreaming..but its soo fun!!! hmm thursday was the last dragonboat practice before the race on saturday, but it was really discouraging cuz it WAS our last practice and i did horrible. wasn't in the mood. well, got to see chris everyday last week which was a GOOD thing..and he came over for dinnner on thurs adn we made sushi!! hhehe still hafta make sushi for his parents for dinner before i leave =) 8 days until Atlanta! time is flying, and to be honest, i still don't feel like i'm ready..physically..cuz i hafta get in shape and go shopping for stuff..plus find time to pack and get some sleep! and spiritually..cuz i havetn' been doing my devos..having a prayer partner really helps, cuz he keeps me accountable and gives me something to do that isn't for myself..this week..i wanns spend more time with God and get prepared..cuz if we're not prepared..when the hard times come we can't overcome it. prayer isn't just for when we need something FROM God...we need him ALWAYS, and there isn't much we can GIVE him except to trust him. read his word. and share his LOVE with others. i pray that we'll go with open hearts and open minds..last year the mission team said that although they gave of themselves to the innercity kids..they brought back much more--LESSONS of LIFE that you can't learn and experience anywhere else but the missionfield..i don't know what to expect but i'm excited to find out!!!! =) 8 days!!!!!!

+ DRAGONBOAT season is finally OVER (not like i want it to be), but it is..and we had a HARD, EXHAUSTING, but AWESOME finish to the season by placing fourth at the Centre Island Races on Saturday! We definitely improved alot from Pickering, where we were a bunch of rookies who had never raced before. Centre Island was soo funn...got there at 8:30 in the morning..set up camp, and then spent some team time..slept, walked around the island, ate lunch, and prepped together for the races. Our first race we didn't do so good...but improved on the second one, and actually made it into DIVISIon A!!! that was a really big achievement..then A finals came..and we paddled our best..i believe that every single person there gave it their ALL...4/18 is pretty good..i remember our last race at pickering was 2:30 something...but we finished this one with 2:12:60!!!!!!!! can't wait to PARRRRRRRRTAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! race hard, party hard! Thanks for everyone who came out to support us and watch us race...*smiles*

Schedule for this week before Atlanta:
tuesday: go to chris's, fun d-boat practice, go shopping?, sew CCSA patch on my uniform
wednesday: help mike move to his new house, 6pm softball practice, 8pm drama team
thursday: Chris and janz coming over, getting ready for prom, PROM!!!
friday: chill with chris, go d/t with gen, 6pm softball practice, hosanna cell group
saturday: [dot]COM's double header 4pm adn 6pm, Gen's birthday dinner
sunday: dragonboat party?, dinner w/chris?, shopping?
monday: driving lessons, pack, chill, piano at 8
tuesday: leave for Atlanta: flight at 8:00am
*sigh* i'm gonna miss everybody!!!!!!!!!!

i guess its time to write a long long blog again! it's been sitting empty since i opened it on msn..talking on msn makes time pass so quickly cuz by the time i get to answer the next person it's been like 20 minutes! anyways..got to talk to esther..we haven't talked in sooooooo LONG...well it seems like a long time everytime i'm away from her *sigh* hehe..we realized how much alike we are AGAIN...i meann we know what each others is gonna say before we say it..or we say the same thing at the smae time..its so funniee!! we can have our own conversations w/out the other person. =) got some "big-sister" advice and stuff...i'm scared of afterparties now and definitely not going after prom...chris is gonna kill me anyways o.O hehehe well i'm really erally excited about prom still...hehe..i guess theres been a situation and i'm kinda helping out a friend by going too..and gona get to see all my friends who are graduating m'be some for the last time cuz we probably won't talk in the summer much =( i'll miss you guys!!! hmm anyways.update on the weekend....
+ saturday, went to Pickle Barrel for Pam's birthday..but then i started getting sick that morning so then i couldn't be as energetic as i could be..oh well.the food there was yummyyy.and it was funny watching josh and jimmy eat their monster sandwichess lol..i don't understand how the skinniest guys ever can fit so much in tehir stomachess!! and still never get FAT!!! on the other hand SOME GUYS...just get fat cuz they eat WAAAAAAAYYY TOOOOOOO MUCH!! *ahem* after that chilled at aaron's house and plyaed mahjong*whooohoo* i realize my cousin taught me how to play wrong..we used to play with cardsss in likee gr6 lol
+ sunday, went to church...it was really amazing to see so many peopel in teh eng congregation now..we had at least 80 people...which is really really GOOD for us!! the church is grownig so much...and Hosanna fellowship is growing so much as well..i dotn' wanna leave..i'll miss it..after so many years..even thoguh sometime i say that it's boring and i don't do much, i'l miss watching the kids grow up!! and they grow up FAST..i'll miss being "big sister" and then being the youngest in alethia..*sigh* time goes buy so fast...hm then after that me and adrian went to the BASIC softball practice..it was really fun!! got to practice muh second basing..and stuff..then all the NON-BASIC played against BASIC..hhahaa itw as all funn buhh i think we still kicked their butts! wel that was funn...and then i went home..and had the most emotional night ever...i dnot' know..i don't usually cry and it was really something that made me bring up the past, which is hard to talk about, because noone can understand what i've been through...but i was able to talk to him about it..a bit..*sigh* things ARE getting better..some because of him =) thanks for being there for me..you make it so much easier for me to go through LIFE in so many ways...things are gonna change for GOOD *smiles*
+ ahhh i think i'm not that sick anymore!! last night couldn't really sleeep kept waking up and coughing and stufff and i coudln't breathe..but i think people's prayers really helped =) on sunday, i prayed with one of my STM Team members and it was so comforting..to know that we can pray for each other as a team..and he was telling me a story about his two kids..how he doesn't think he spends enough time with them becuase he's a doctor and always away..and he just wants to be a good father and that children grow up so quickely..he doesn't want his kids to grow up not having spent time with their dad..and not knowing how much he loves them =) it made me wana cry!! hehe...aiii why am i so emotional lately?!?!

+ wow..i'm soo tired, and this day is only half over. This morning woke up at 8 to pack up stuff for Dyan's garage sale and get ready for the carnival..then went to drop off my stuff there, and went to Church. The carnival was sooo fun, but it was hot all day..lol. me and char went to art's office and hid behind the door and in the closet..then he came in and we scared him GOOD!!! it was sooo funny! carnival was wicked...it was mostly church people who came, but it was still a success!! got ERIC TWICE in a row in dunktank!!! hehehe =) hmm..then Chris came afterwards and we went to watch Shrek 2 --funniest movie EVER MADE!!! "weeeee i'm a real boy!!!" lol..then after that we went home and i got my new phone!! FINALLY!!!!! still using my old number, but my new phoen is soooo NICE!!! hehehehheeh i'm soo happy...no more getting made fun of for the ugly black non-colour fat peanut phone..*blech* gonna burn that thing ween i get all my numbers back.
+ hehee..thennn after that we went to Dyan's and picked up my leftover stuff from teh garage sale..made $32.50!!!! yayyyyyyyyy lol..then went with Chris to markville and spent $15 of it on three lipglosses..mangopeach, cranberry and another mango for my sis =) yhehehe then went to shoppers and got some make up *yay*
hmmm what else..now i'm at josh's house waiting tuh go to pam's b-day..and..i think he needs the comp soo i'm gone!!! *smiels*

thx jay, for these
Top ten signs that you're a Hardcore Dragon Boater:

10. After a meeting at work, you form a line outside the boardroom
and high-five everyone as they file out.

9. Brother's wedding or the Montreal Dragon Boat Festival? Why, that
practically answers itself.

8. When stopped at an intersection, you see a car creeping over the
solid white line and yell, "man in the red Ford…back it down or
you're disqualified!"

7. You have calluses on your ass and palms the size of quarters

6. When running with your friends to catch the last train home from
work, you yell "series in 5...4…3…2…1".

5. You are starting to resemble the body shape of a gorilla.

4. You know what a heart attack feels like already.

3. You argue with a 90 year old lady who is sitting in the middle of
the bus, claiming that you always sit in the 'engine room'.

2. After a bout of lovemaking with your significant other, you
say 'let it run'

1. You have finally found something that smells worse than your
hockey bag...PADDLING SHOES!

there is only one word to describe mary ward at this time of year: CHAOS!!!! in the halls you can hear a mix of emotions: giggly girls saying their last goodbyes, couples openly making out in hall corners, nines and tens rushing to finish units and some being disappointed in having to go to summer school, juniors debating with their teachers about passing courses and smacking themselves for not learning NOT to procrastinate..and finally the seniors who's biggest worries are graduation speeches and prom plans. for me, i'm just glad the hardest week in my ENTIRE school year is OVER!!!!!!!!! the last two weeks have been the most stressful ever, with dragonboat practices and a night school exam on top of 30 + units to finish...as well as getting NO SLEEP, no MSN, barely any PHONE (which i just can't live w/out!), waiting in line to write tests, etc. at times i wanted to cry...it was so frustrating..well, all i can say is..the all-nighters paid off, but procrastination didn't, and i learned something for next year..NO PROCRASTINATING!!! (funny how we say that EVERY year--and it never happens) *sigh* hmm soo now i'm taking accoutning,math,eng in summer school, and finishing law&rel next year..gotta work soo hard next year to get into uni..its not gonna be easy at ALL! hmm.a.nywas...'nuff about that!

+ this weekend was the Regatta (Dragonboat Race in Pickering). had a super-FUN day at a park where 2000+ people went to race. There were 104+teams with at least 20 team members plus family and friends..so it was pretty crowded! the best thing was...our WONDERFUL coach CHRIS TODD got mary ward the job of making sure the porta-potties never ran out of tissue for those two days...how sweet of him o.O well, this weekend was one of the best experiences ever..we experienced losing, being disppointed, getting excited, getting smelly and wet with lake water, winning, paddling till we're exhausted and barfing--as a TEAM!!!! we really bonded alot...and the stuff we did during free time (ultimate frisbee) was wicked!! hehe..all i gotta say is..."porta!porta!porta! potty!potty!potty! chicken!chicken!chicken! wing!wing!wing!" Wolverines = Division B High School Champions!!!!! hm..hopefullythere will be pix up soon from the races!

+ oh yeah..happy one month to my muffin =) time passed so fast..its actually been alot longer, but it seems like no time at all..time flies when you're having fun!! hmm..everything is going great right now, we've never had a single fight about ANYTHING (i'm kinda worried), we get along and have anything and everything i mean EVERYTHING in common--even to our parents and our marks haa 85 to 58 in physics?!?!? ur WACK!!!!!!!!!! *smiles* i'm glad we're getting closer everyday, and i'm learning somethign about u everyday =) 143 (i love u--got it?) ahhahahaaaaaaaaaa

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I'M DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow, its been a STRESSFUL week! but its all over, and now i'm getting ready for an even more stressful week. its pretty much the last week of normal school days at ward, but while people in every other school in Toronto is winding down on work and starting to study for exams, the workload at ward is reaching its MAX. last week was craaaazyyyy...all week was worrying about failing this couse and that..might still fail accounting if my teacher feels like failing me...but...she's already been so nice and i have a feeling God wants me to PASS...sooo plspls let me finish..*sigh* got like 10 tests to write this week..maybe more, but half of them are math tests for units that i didn't even do so i'll hafta study my BUTT OFF....eeekkkk..still gotta make it to summer school and carryover for law and religion..then after that, there's art and photography to finish until the middle of june..arghhhhhhhh....still gotta do lotsa prep for STM in Atlanta..gotta catch up on my prayer partner and stuff..been missing sunday school and stuff for the past few weeks cuz of CIA...ahh mann why is it so much work to take care of kids?? and i want like 6 of them, but hopefully..these ones can behave tomorrow and the last cia will be a blast!!! then after that..its just summer camp and TrailMix VBS camp...hmm forgot to hand in my application form for counselluoring..ahhhh oopsies.

anyways, since my last entry...i went to ottawa for the victoria day weekend with my dad, step-mom and 9-year old half-sis..she's soo ADORABLE! but very annoying and rebellious sometimes..reminds me so much of me..but i can't believe i was THAT bad..prolly not..she's such a tomboy , which weirdly attracts many young boys..well anyways, that weekend was fun! visited family friends, and went to dinner with this couples cell group thing..met some cool people there, and then on sunday we went to their church, OCAC, and i saw TIM my tc group! that was really cool cuz he came down to TO one day and ended up going to carrie's church who's also from our tc group..oooOoooOo ahhh wel, anyway, then went to see the tulip festival at dow's lake..saw some magic shows and stuff too, then drove home..it was fun! lotsa bondign time with family...i'm glad i went and got to spend time with them.

hmmm monday, went to dinner with Chris's family, and then went to his house and we watched My Sassy Girl...tuesday, i ate lunch with him and went to his house after school..wednesday, went to his house after school...thursday was the closing ceremony at school, so had free lunch and spent a period out in the warm sunshine on the hill...then went to chris's hosue after school and skippped d-boat and night school..sooo much work to do! friday.didn't have shcoool in teh mornign so went to chris's hosue again..hahhahh WE HAVE NO LIFE...spent like everysingle day with him this week!! i think i'm gonna go crazy..but in a good way =) afterschool, went to chris's house again, and ate a bit of dinner then went to softball practice. it was a pretty good practice, got to scrimmageand stuff. afterwards was Praise and Worship night for Hosanna/Alethia, then me, Chris, Janette, Eric, and Adrian went to Jack Astors for some snacks..it was OUR DINNER..eric is sooo funny!! the whole time was soo jokes lol *shake it up* and talked about softball and stuff, saw pat there..oh yeah adrian's letting me play SECOND BASE!!!!!!!1 YAYYYY!!!!!!!!! heehee..i wanna get over my fear of the ball..i'm not that scared, but it always always hits me even if i catch it and it bounces out of my glove...THAT hurts..kills ltosa barin cells too..oh well..its summer, who needs to think? oh yeah. my first time seeing road kill that night too!!!! saw this raccoon get killed TWICE on sheppard ave.when leaving church...it was sooo SAD..i wanted to cry!! it was so helpless cuz it got hit, and then so utterly STUPID cuz it got up..crawled a few steps and got hit again,and something flew off..*eeeewwww* guys are so HEARTLESS!! eric and adrian laughed so hard when we told them adrian started crying..geewhiz.they can't even feel sorry for the poor thing!
ahhh anyway, today went to dentist and then costco, then early YUM-CHA, then shopped for like 1 hour at markville..got new sunglasses from roots!! they'er sooo SEXYYYY!!!!! nice and dark..and makes me look like a hippie? but it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT had to get them....also got joe boxer stuff from la vie en rose was having a big sale. later on chris came over to help me with my homework..and now i'm here DOING HOMEWORK..ahhh gotta get back to that..

going to Ottawa for the weekend!!! gonna be back late sunday night..sorry for leaving you guys who are doing iron chef..i'm sure guys are gonna kick buTT! misss you allll!!! *especially the lil loser who's in macmaster =)* jk...

YESSSSS!!!!!!! finally, i'm kinda caught up on my work...this week can be considered pretty productive, compared to the past year haha, when i was REALLY REALLY LAZY! i'm still really really lazy..but..gotta sit myself down and finish this YEAR! if i don't, i KNOW i'm gonna be really dissappointed in myself and regret it for the rest of my life probably..i duno and dissapoint a lot of other people too..well, i guess that's the reason why im' gona finish! school is my number one priority now.till at least june..i'm not only doing it for myself..but i guess for the people who have been pushign me to finish school no matte rhow hard it is..and for the other people who care about me and don't care if i hate them for bugging me a billin times a day to do my work.....

hmm soooo past three days..have just been filled with school! except yesterday..started my long weekend at the hillsongs concert on thurs...gordon drove w/me and chris there..and it was jam-PACKED and the line up was mad long when we got there..but our "connections" got us in.fast enough to get ok spots..=) the concert was awesome..the group got split up, but it didn't matter where we sat or stood, all that mattered was the worship..that came from our hearts.the Hillsongs band is sooooooo GOOD!! never been more hyper at a worship concert than this..even more people theret than chris tomlin...the only bad thign was that it was sweaty and hot and the front section smelled like ppl's B.O! but it was all worth it! the people i stood around dint' smell THAT bad.except maybe chris o.O =) jk...and WOW...gordon can SING!! he's such a sweet guy and SMART!..hhee..meeting more and more new ppl lately..mostly chris's friends =)

well, not much else going on lately..today was fellowship cell groups..we basically played lotsa games..felt like a little kid again! well, i always feel like that when i go there...but its fun...i feel so old with them...hmm softball was great too..fianlly got to practice some batting!! heehe...its getting betterrr.!! m'be its just the pitchers or something, but i coudl actuallly hit past the gravel this time *yippeee* hmm and lets see..tmw..gotta go homework..lots of it!! i have like 15 units to do over the weekend..hmm might go watch 13 going on 30...or mean girls! Sunday is church, and then IRON CHEF!!! me and cat's cell groups are gonna make the coolest MEANEST prettiest YUMMIEST banana cream pie/crepes/shake/split/SOUP ever! *smiles* sooo excited....and monday chris is coming back...heehee..=) *smiles* i'm so thankful for someone like him...he's truly an angel from GOD..we're so alike so he understands me better than anyone else in the world...Chris..ur my motivation..my shoulder to cry on..the person who makes me laugh so much i spilled orange juice on carpet..and making me fall on the grass and get mud stains on my butt...even though ur slow, and lazy..i love you for who u are..and everything u've done for me is making my life so much better every day...i'm gonna u soo much when ur in macmaster!! =( CALL MEE or i'll be MAD..rememeber my last words to you today? lol..

"Jesus...I love you more than life"

+ this weekend was really really tiring! but so far the BEST weekend so far..everyweekend is the best..cuz i get to spend it with him...but still.it was lots of fun! saturday morning..went to write the softball umping exam at 10..which was really really early for me considering the hour at which i went to sleep the previous night...hmm well, it wasn't that hard!! was soooo nervous though..i'd better get carded or i'll punch someone cuz i studieddd sooo hard..ahhh oh well...haha i htink i did bad on the video test..but everythign else was mostly okay, hey if adrian can PASS with an 88%, than anyone can..hahhaa...and he copied off MY test!! :P adrian stinks..man...him and byron were so lonely they had to go out on a date together!! HEEHEE..so funieee...after softball me and chris dropped them off somewhere and then went to eat dinner @my dad's place...watched Collateral Damage which is a really relaly GOOD movie!!! Schwarzzenager..(errr i can't spell) is really good in the movie..and he has a BOD!! ohmann!!! saw so many sexxy hot guys in movies this weekend! watched the last half of rundown on sunday, and that dude..something-something-JR. is really HOTttt!!! like wow!! u think he's got a nice bod..but wait till he takes off his SHIRT!! the brazillian tae-kwon-do guy..but he gets shot =( poor hot dude...*sigh* if only somebody could look good like that!!! heheeh JUST JOKING CHRIS =) hmm saturday was pretty fun! went for dim-sum wif my mommy and gramma before softball..and saw aaron there!! i miss that kid..SOMETIMES!!!! *sigh* sometimes i worry about him..i dunooo since lotsa things have changed..and so fast..i'm glad we still talk, and i think experienceing the past relationshp really let me grow..and learn for the better because people can change and feelings can change so quickly..u just can't take everyone for granted, especially those that you love the most :) hmm..i hope you be careful with ur choices in life, and take good care of urself...keep depending on GOD, don't let things pull you away from him..sometimes its so frustrating, when you see your friends going down a wrong path.but they won't listen no matter how hard u try to tell them, even if they know they're doing something wrong but still do it...o well..right now its so hard to keep up with everyone, even though iwanna help my friends...just no time now to talk to everyone and stuff..its hard..i miss people soooo much!!! stupid SCHOOl...mann me and chris say this like everyday..schools sucks! i still love going to school to do stuff, and have fun, and see my friends..but like..homework is a bite in the BUTT!!! well, anyways..what else..this weekend..dinner at my dad's was cool..Chris got to meet myfamily and stuff and i htink they loved him at first sight!!! =) cuz ur such a sweetie...helping carry furniture up and down the stairs and eveyrhting =) hehe...TEAMWORK baby! now my lil' sis has a tv in her room and she's NINE..*sigh* kids these days are so spoiled! hmm well, after that, went to chris's place and watched the friends finale..FINALLY!!!! the entire thing instead of bits and pieces of it!!! *grr* hehe...then chilled there until amanda came over and we played scrabble with her and chris and pam...me and chris kicked all their BUTTS!! (by 2 points) but STILL...showed them we're actualliee smart..or that chris is actually smart..but just so STINKIN' LAZY!!! WOOHOOO1! WE'RE UNBEATABLE..in Cranium and Scrabble..muahahhahhhahhahah...
sunday..went to church..went to worship, and heard an awesome sermon from Rev. Doug Weibe. he's kinda old, and has white hair, and has travelled almost everywhere in teh world including missions in china (so he can speak chinese..really really good...from 13 years of experience.haha almost better than me!) but yeah..he has this passion for God and teaching others about it...told us how to be ambassadors for Christ. An amazing story is of Raymond and Sherry Xiang, the parents of Cecilia Xiang, the abducted and murdered 9-year old from NOrth York. A pastor i htink his name was Daniel Lee or something, after hearing that her body was found, thought first of the parents, and thought of vistiing them..i mean..that is touching cuz no one would think of reading something in teh newspaper..but actually DOING something about it! that's the kind of people CHRIST calls us to be..people who ACT..and let HIm work MIRACLES in our lives..Raymond and Sherry became Christians the day Daniel visited them in their home...when they lost their daughter..they had nothing and no one to turn to except for God...he was their comfort in the hardest times..they got baptized last week at SCAC and further more, at Cecilia's funeral, Raymond shared about his new faith in Christ and shared about God'slove and peace to an entire crowd, an entire city, the government, and an entire NATION even...it's so amazing what a single person can do...being an ambassador doesn't mean u have to do something HUGE , but even a small thing...having compassion on people...helping someone who's hurt and needing his LOVE =) its the best thing anyone can receive *smiles*

+ hmm well, finally got something off my mind today...i'm so glad she talked to us...and although its gonna be hard..i hope she can get over it soon...and that we can be one big happiee family hahhaha (i know i sound gay) o well...i missed her so much, and it just sucks.that so many people WANT YOU CHRIS..*haha who are u kidding* =P ...we'll jsut hafta cut him into little pieces..so everyone can have a piece =) YUM...
+ ok. problaby not gona blog for the rest of this week..until the hillsongs conert is over and that is basically the start of my LONG WEEKEND!! early start too!! hehhee...probably not gona go to school friday cuz i won't get work done on thurs anywyas..unless i'm desperate..hm i duno. need some REST! need to practice my batting..its SUCKS CRAP right now..missed like every other pitch on sunday.*sigh* i need ivan's pitching!!! okieeeee well..guess that's it for now!!

+ just got home from fellowship...i'm so glad i went...it was fun!! I feel like i'm in CIA again sometimes, helping out with the little kids, but i guess it's pretty cool to see them growing up..to think that I WAS ONCE a gr7 or 8 is just scaryyy now!!! but anyways..a cool bunch to be with...and the old pioneers of HOsanna are now just waiting for the day when we get "promoted" haha..but yeah..everything is just great! today we talked about having compassion on people..and the difference between that and pity, is that having compassion is actually DOING. like Christ did...we have to show our love to people through our ACTIONS, not just by feeling sorry for them..people were moved by his love for the weak, poor, sick, lonely, and homeless...he challenges us to have this kind of heart because "the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.." hehe..today was just really encouraging! so many new faces..with so many old ones, just all coming together and growing together =) go W.E.E.D.! (worshipping ecstaticly every day) *errrrr* at least its more original than A&O!

School is just really stressing me out these days...everytime i go out or do anything fun its always on my mind!! i can't even sleep without feeling guilty that i didn't finish something..but ahhh..i can't push myself anymore, its just too much...two art courses took up like my entire YEAR!!! can't spend so much time in the basement next year or i'm gonna dieeeeee...!! (but since im' taking two again..mostlikely i'll spend even more time down there) aiiiii..well, this is my plan so far: summer school for enlish and math and carryover-accounting, carryover for law and possibly religion..yep..that basically sums it up for all my courses! gonna do TONS of work this weekend...no pain no gain..mann dats so true o.O
HMM well, what else..
highlight of my day was..
DRAGONBOAT!!! this was the best practice EVER!! did 30s pieces which was the most intense we've done so far, but it wasn't so bad! i think it was easier than the three minute pieces from last time..back is KILLING me...but not as bad as last time! it gets easier every time and more fun..did a bit of race starting today which was cool....everyone was just so energized today, and everyone was so unified and in sync with their paddling that it felt like we weren't doing any work...dragonboat is just a mind game...no matter how tired u are..u hafta tell urself to keep going or you'll let down yourself AND the TEAM...one little person may not seem significant..but 20 team members together is HUGEE...team cheer: MARY!MARY!MARY! WARD!WARD!WARD! MARY! WARD! MARY! WARD! oogaoogaoogaooga...? (we're so original aren't we?)

hmm sooo going back to this week..thursday, went to the science centre for the Canadian High School Art/Multi-media show, watched films all day and looked at photography stuf..was pretty coool, and then ate at mcd's w/everyone..i also got my last physics test back todayyy..and did a lot worse than i thougth...81..but hopefulliee i can still finish w/a 90! my physics teacher is soo SMART..he's an actual PHYSICIST *i didn't even know those ppl were around anymore* but yeah..ahhhh scaryyy gotta actually do work to get marks, they dont' just give it to you like the teachers who are there for the money....darnnnnnn...

well, life is really good now...i can't be happier...i'm so thankful that i have HIM to support me...i don't know if i woudl be working as hard if he wasn't my constant motivation..we haven't even had a single fight yet..hehe..and he understands me..most of the time....even though he's really GAY sometimes...i dont' know what i would do w/out u =)

wow...time sure goes by quickly!! i swear i just updated this like.YESTERDAY...but the blogger says otherwise..ah well.lots is goin on lately..i can just feel the excitement in anticipation fo SUMMER..even the WEATHER is getting better which is a good sign! hehe..it was POURING when i got home..but he sun came out and dried up the roads so i could go do my driving lesson! isn't GOD AWESOME?? just how he makes everything work out for you...and now i'm startnig to notice the little things...i dont' think it was only coincidence today..but that was really cool..it woke me up so id din't fall asleep in the car, and the warm sunshine just makes me feel really happy! (although, i'm so happy right now i don't think anything can make me happier!) except if it was VACATION right NOW.anyways...right now i'm LOVING LIFE!!!! i'm loving GOD, and i'm loving my beautiful sexy girl--i mean, MAN friend =)

+ lets see..haven't blogged since tues, so heres a summary of my life since then! wednesday to friday last week i worked at the art show almost half of every day..the art show was a real big success..i even sold one of my jewellery pieces to my pregnant law teacher..she's so pretty and SWEET.and...offered to buy it for whatever price she wants..i mean WOW...i never expecte dthat....*smiles* well..i might just give it to her for the cost of materials...its her birthday and goodbye present..i'll miss her sooo much!! that woman made law class actually FUN ..hopefully i'm passing it though. ^.^ *errgG* KAY anyways. thursday..dragonboat was cancelled cuz of the lightening, so headed back with kevin's mom got dropped off at chris's house...then after sleeping in night school again, chris picked me up and went to his house for birthday cake =) mmmmmMm i forgot to eat some today. but some piggy who lives in his house probably ate it all..mmmMM chocolate, coffee mocha almond cake!

+ friday..chilled with chris after school, then went to fellowship for mother's day OASIS Café..wow.i think there was like 140 people there? it was so cool! the biggest thing Alethia/Hosanna has ever done wiht food..i think..after that, went for sundaes with chris and went home at 11. =) haha. my mom likes him too much. or she's jealous cuz i'm being taken away =) speaking of which...the only thing that is hard to think about right now is friendship w/a certain person...its dissapointing as well as saddening that she woudl think liek this...and not even try to talk to me or him..we deserve to hear it from her..instead i'm getting a less-friendly attitude and haering about stuff behind my back..*sigh* i really wanan resolve this but how can i do that..when they try to push it away and not face the facts....it doenst help anything

+ hm thn saturday acm along..went to Umpiring clinic in the morning, and then mike drove us to lunch at licks...then went to the park to see if anyone was gonna play softball but it started POURING so no on-field that day. oh well....i guess i'll just hafta study harder!!! better get carded or i'm gonna be so mad..even chris passed..if he can do it i can =) right chris...=) went to nat's house with nathan,nadine,mike,joe,and chris to watch The Last Samurai...i LOVE that movie..its one of my favourites now along with My sassy girl and titanic and walk to remember and triplex...after wards it was Chris's birthday dinner at Le Bifteck! we shared 32oz. steak..medium-rare! whaha i think i can handle rare next time then! =) it was fun..met all his friends..they seem to be pretty nice...and then went to marty's house to chill after...played cranium and we beat pam and kam!!! *giggles*

+ sunday was tc captain/counsellour meeting and lunch at church..warren came and we were chatting about stuff w/jan and jackie..got to see new york pix..and talk about some fellowship stuff w/arthur for father's day!! we're also planning to paint arthur's ceiling with a checker board..

+ last but not least...this weekend was one to remember..cuz we finally became official...and although things aren't much different..its great to know that he'll always be there...he's helped me through so much stuff...encouraged me in many ways, and gave me motivation to work hard haha =P THANKS CHRISSY aka. stinky aka. booger *muahs*

+ eunice can now do three-point turns all by herself!!! weeeeee!!!!! they're soooo fun. i coudl do them all day if my instructor woudl lemme...woww...i'm soo gonna miss driving lessons i only have 9 more left..but then..can't wait till G2 time cuz its gonna be even more fun!!! driving is the highlight of my week..yesterday had a wendy's/timmy's date w/janz (my #1 LESBO) and we got maple-walnut muffins!! MMmMmM soo GOOD!! i'm gonna get jm to steal the recipie for me and i'm gonan make some!! heheehe ok. you don't hafta eat them if you wanna live...but they might turn out good!

+ today was FUN again...went to his place for lunch...we made dumplings and siu-long-bau....*yummmy*and then went back after school and ate "dinner" heheheh ..watched "love and basketball' after schoool..buh didnt' get to finish it ..such a cute movie!!! =) not exactly a guy movie but not a chickflick either..i like!! hehee well, i dunno i guess people have been asking about what is going on between us.but its pretty obvious...*smiles* thanks for everything..you make my weeks so much fun..chilling after school, taking me out for lunch, visiting me *unexpectedly*, HOGGING up my fridays AND my saturdays!!!!!!!! but its still good!! i have my MOTIVATION to do good in school now..thank youuuuuuu for helping me through so much already =) gotta finish this year!! 90 avg!!!

+ Chris Tomlin concert was AMAZING!! There was just an awesome spirit yesterday at QueenswayCathedral...it was huge..the entire place was filled up including the side and the balconies...everyone was just praising GOD in their own way..and strangers were holding hands and worshipping together as brothers and sisters in Christ...it was HYPE!!!Chris tomlin's has HOT talent..wow..what a voice range he has like 2 full octaves or something...and Louie Giglio's message was really moving as well..he was talking about how the Passion Team really wanted to do a concert in Boston for free because of the need there adn so few Christians..and how Cities from all over America gave from their hearts..and made it possible for a free concert (which was the hugest in Boston's history) as well as left over for the ministries there!! it was touching....how BIG the hearts of people can be becuase of CHRIST's love...Toronto is changing too...its up to us to change the world guys...even the littlest thing you can do like giving your paycheck for the month..can reach so many more people..and even if you're young.."dont' let anyone look down on you becuase you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." hmm went to congee wong w/derrick, ros,joe and chris after...was so jokes...lol.chris and his mandarin.."ARRR"...lol...and joe and chris kept making fun of my chinese! not very nice people! =P its not THAT bad i bet its better than theirs at least....*grrrrrr*

+ ahhhhh!!!!!!!! wow..i'm LUCKy i slept in this morning...forgot all about CIA program todayyy and had to make lesson plan and everything this morning at 10! had like 15 minutes to do it...but turned out okay..i love the kids..i want lotsa kids when i grow up...at least 4....:) hmm gona try to get the chris tomlin video up! taped almost the entire Holy Is The Lord...hehehe he's sooo HOT!!!!! actually the electric guitar dude is CUTE!!! and the drummer was crazyyyyyy!!!!!! bass guy..has nice hair. really really curly hair and on white guys is so adorable...

+ okay gotta go work....THREE UNITS TO FINISH TODAY!!!! haha i have my motivation.......lunch or no lunch...=(

haah okayyyy so much for writing everyday...shhhhhhhh =) well, this week..to sum it up..i spent alot of time witha certain person!! so much i'm gonna be SICK...haahah lunchtime..after school tues &thurs hehe..friday lunch AND the rest of the day..wow..was gonna do an all-nighter...but i was soooo tired (sorrie) woulda fallen asleep on him anyways...=P well yesterday we had our first boat practice for d-boat!!! took the subway down to keele station and then took the bus to lakeshore for practice! it was soo awesome and fun! my muscles are tired and my back and shoulders are aching likee crazy from paddling...doing DIRTY DOZENS hurtssss..but yeah..i shouldn't complain cuz there were adults liek 50 year olds paddling as well which is so cool!! i wonder if i'l e able to do that when i'm 50! probly not...LOL..but yeah..after that..bused back w/some of the team..didn't get to go eat with them boooooo =( but yeah..that was really really cold..it was raining and my jacket was SOAKED from the lake water whcih was stinky..there was like POO in the water!!! disgusting..and to think our water comes from lake ontario? never drinking tap water again in my LIFE! ewwwwww not even water fountains!!! dirrrrrrrrtyyyyyyyyy....but yeah..went to kyrios afterward and then chiled w/those ppl after..hehe was a pretty fun day!
i guess today.my daddy's coming soon...gonna say hi..i miss him so much!!!! dont' really get to see him much anymore my saturdays are always so busy!! i feel bad...o well...hehe..i miss my mommy too..i don't realy get to talk to her much...and lately things have been getting a LOT better! we're both trying so hard to understand each other...i'm gona be a good girl!!! =) and yeah..now that my gramma's back...gotta take care of her too!

hmmm today is the chris tomlin concerT!! woohooooooo!!!!!!! going w/hosanna tuh Queensway...its gonna be wickeD!!! gonna watch kill bill 2 before that...and...pretty much that's it...spending the whole day w/him again....*smiles* ur right..everything DOES seem so PERFECT right now..its just one of those times when everything is so unsure...what people will think about you..what people will say..but like we learned at the workshop yesterday..everythign we do can be an act of worship..even our day-to-day relationships, work, school, chores, family....i can really feel GOD in this..in the center of everything...gotta just trust and see what happens =)
+done I Kissed Dating Goodbye!!!! heheeh took like two weeks..now reading Boy Meets Girl

art show is coming in 2 days!!!!!!!!! EVERYONE COME TO WARD FOR THE ART SHOW IT'S GONNA BE SUPER-DUPER AMAZING!! drop by anytime next week..even after school...i think its like $2-3...woww i'm sooo glad the interior model is finished!! stayed up till 5 finishing itt ahhhhh...now deadlines are coming!! 12 units for june2..i'm so DEAD....

i've decided to write in this everyday...i wonder if anyone reads it? hahaha wouldn't it be so sad if no one did. haha shuddudp chris i know what you're gona say......=P but i don't stalk you..its the other way around .....anyway..hmm today was pretty fun!! didn't go to art for even one full period..wow...amazing..that's liek the first time this year...mann it's so stinky down there! i'm surprised the art teachers dont' have poison in their blood cuz of the chemicals they're using...hmmm wrote my math test..whcih was really easy...haah i aced it!! *yaaaay*and yeah..after schoool had a nice talk w/janz...i realized how much i miss her :) we'd both been really missing out on each other since sept SINCE SHE'S MY LESBOOOOOO...lol!!

went home and then my driving instructor came. his name's andrew and he's such a joker!! he is the biggest, funniest, craziest, nicest black guy i've ever met...he reminds me of the jolly green giant and laughs even more than i do!!!! haahahhha in-car lessons make me so HYPERRRRRRRR mannn hehee....he lets me speed but tells my mom i'm an awesome driver...which i am hhaa =) can't wait till june to get muh g2 (the FIRST TIME)!~ ahhhhh!!!!!! gonna take the car out everysingle day muahhhaahhaaha

hjmmmmmm today..nothign much else except for piano....hmmm i'm bored now..gonan go do my law essay and crap =( boooo homework is stinky!!

wow......starting my very very first entry of my BLOG!!! lol..i always thought these things were so annoying cuz you hafta waste so much time writing and updating them and aa is bad enough :P hmm ahha well this time its REALLY me not the other guy who made the beautiful pink and blue background fer me!! (thanks chrissy!)

well, what to say..right now its just a really stressful time for me..so much work to do with the art show coming up..doing lots of work at school in the BASEMENT inhaleing nasty toxic stuff from tech and art, and being holed up at home working on my interior model!! btw, if anyone wants to come..MaryWard's ART SHOW, ISM is opening its doors on May3rd, and is running all week i believe!! tickets are usualyl $2-3 pretty cheap for all the workt that is being put into it...its really worth checking out! the stuff is AMAZING =) ppl are so talented at my school...makes me look not-that-great cuz i'm not-that-talented ..hmmm anyways..deadlines for artshow stuff was friday, and i'm still not done! even went to school 9-3 on sat and finished a big portion but not enough..*sigh* and on top of THAT, summer school registration coming up...gotta get 10 units done for math and english (2 units since sept)...or i'm screwed!!! okay i'm already messed up for school!!! ahhhh! i told mysefl i woudn't procrastinate after what happened last year...thoguth i would learn..but old BAD habits are so hard to get rid of...somebody helllpppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!

okayyy school stinks like CRAP...well only the homework part...everythign else is soo fun!!!! i love my gurls..they've always been so supportive of me..make me laugh when i'm stressed out...listen to my useless blabber...let me borrow their stuff everyday :P heheeee.....just always there to talk to..we know how bad june-rush can be...but we somehow TRY to make time for girls dayss!!! we need more of those!!!!! we need to RELAXXXXX everyone's so stressed out...so many thigns are happening now..new things...good things *smiles* i've learned that no matter how much people talk about you....u can't worry too much about it...u can't do much about it..they can think so many thigns of you but u don't owe them an explanation for it..its your life and they shouldn't judge you. if you have something that you want to say to someone....tell them!! don't be scared to talk to them....you might just be judging for the wrong reasons and that can ruin a great friendship quicktime...

hmm what else!??!?! hahhaha i dunoo "i only remember important things".....well, i guess theres been many things on my mind lately! no need to say it on here...people who know me well will know everything anyways but gotta say..i'm MUCH MUCH happier now....theres nothing i regret in the past..i hope that right now i didn't hurt anyone..i mean..this girl is a really good friend of mine..i dont' mean to hurt you.....or take anything away from your friendships because nothing should come inbetween it...thanks for being so patient with me with everything and for understanding =) AND....i'm so happy. i guess i'm overwhelmed with happiness...everythign is jsut so GREAT!! THANKS GOD you're awesome...he knows exactly what i need....God is our ultimate provider..he gives us shelter, love of a family, friends, relationships to learn and grow from, our physical bodies, energy and hope to continue each day, and the beautiful sunshine and birds and stars..how can you not be happy and thank him everyday? he's so unbelievable!

haha okayyy now i'm hyper, never thought i'd write so much for one blog..this thing is so cool!! i' mgonna get addicted..its like smoking..but addicted in a GOOD way...smoking kills little children :( anyways, my gramma came back yesterday night..waited for sooo long at the airport cuz the ppl checked her luggage!! they took away the beef jerky that she brought..."for little kids to eat" meaning it was for meeeeee *sigh* my poor beef jerky..o well...hehehe she's crazy got some new clothes and a watch and a bilino new bags that are "cool" in hk...lolll and some fobby clothes buh actually kinda nice! got half my summer shopping done for me!!! =) my cousins are so cool!!!!!!!!!!!! my gramma is soo SWEET and CUTE! we talked about stuff..and i love it when she laughs..she just has this hyperness that makes me hyper...when she laughs, i laugh....when she does my laundry..i steal it from her and tell her not to do it...but she stays home everydya... no more chores for me!! that means ihafta find other ways to work out!! DRAGONBOATTTT!!!!!!!!!! hehhehehehe yayyyyyyyy awww i wonder how tryouts for the Junior Canada Team went at mowat...somebody tel meeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

alright this is too long!! gotta go help chris edit his essay....which will take me so long cuz its horrible =) i might as well write it alll over again eh =) jk jk chris...you're smart..but lazy like me which sux. don't you wish two lazy people make each other hard working? well no....i just means...two peopl who get even lazier!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) oh yeha...the park was soo funnnn went rollerblading on saturday..and played some softballl....and then watched kill bill ...soo bloodyyy but cool!!! i wanna see the second one!!!!!! NOW!!!!!!! *smiles* i'm out!

Since i'm here.. i'll post your first entry... =)... just testing it out... EUNICE IS WICKED!!