My past; My heart's stories

Few days ago...

im having a hard time

i've been experienced a lot

but it is still painful

especially when the one said some crucial word to me

this is not the first time

but honestly, how to fix tis heart?

i've been trying to hide it and pretend lik nothing happen

but tis is not the solution

tis is not me

sorry for being so "childish" if u think i am

everyone has their past, 

stop saying u understand my feeling, u dont

i've thinking of givin up tis relationship for times

but failed,

i miss touching ur face, look into ur eyes and say "i love u"

things seems change

ppl change...

who knows wat happen in 2013 July?

im stil going Taiwan with them?

is 2012 dec end of the world?

no body know wat might happen

but i know, right now, my broken heart

make me so so down n couldn't find a solution

quit my job is the solution?

or it is not bout my working time anymore?

u say u nvr change,

all guys said the same! LOL! but they actually did!

stop lying to me when i already know the truth

stop make fun in front of me when im damn serious bout our relationship!

stop ur fucking childish act wen im having a heartache time!

got it?!

My 22nd Birthday - The Pil

23 September 2012

Happy Belated Birthday to myself
hey, sexy lady~ u enjoy ur birthday so much huh?

let's start my story^^
22 September 2012
i hang out wit all my lovely college frens after work
in the office was reli reli busy,
so wen i came out frm toilet, someone pressed the doorbell
a lady holding a bouquet o.O
i was so surprise n excited, my first time receiving a bouquet weii!
(but a bit disappointed wen i know he used to bought one for my fren too)
 after work, William (my driver) came n fetch me wit my old fren (fer haru)
after all the misunderstanding v headed a place tat i would like to go

Ficelle Boulangerie Patisserie

im so surprise tat they actually organized it there

after a lunch with bunch of frenssss

v had second round at a cake shop

awesome cakes as dessert~ yummy!!!!

 

after tat, v planned to have dinner at (Snowy beer) 2008 Snow located near pantai cheras hospital, behind the may bank

some of them couldn't find the place again

(I wonder y all the places v organized is hard to be found)

the dinner is reli nice and thanks to some 'talkactive' fella tat make it lively and fun

Thanks for the cake at last from RT Pastry

is't only me? but the cake is REAL NICE!!!

love it so much!!!

 

last round, is chosen by mayi, ICB opposite leisuremall)

is a very good place for non-smokers to drink!

they hv non smokin drinkin area and v ordered 2 towers paid by me n my bii^^

v even count down from 2359-0000 (23 Sept 2012)

thank u so much everyone of u,

Wan Yin Mayi Fer Haru

William Anson Nyny Boon Kiat Cheetah Chee Leong Kenny 

 

 

on 23 September 2012

i noticed my leg allergic (since ytd) is getting worst

applied some cream n took a medicine n heading to church

(thank u my boy for following us to church tis week)

after the service i was damn sleepy coz of the medicine

i nvr know it was tis strong til i get frustrated n even scream at my boy in front of my brother

so sorry for tat!!==lll

 

v went kinkin ban mee for lunch den took a nap before heading dessert shop

had some dessert den my boy sent me to sis's house

family dinner time! all nice food n cost RM200++

omg!!!! daddy even bought me a birthday cake!

he called me to ask which one i like~

wat a nice dad!!! im so touch!!!

i love my family damn much!

after dinner go to my sis house again to cut the cake

on the way bac home im dead again bcoz of the medicine

the whole day i've been dying 

(other plan i force myself to keep awake, else i will shut down automatically)

thanks to the medicine on my birthday TT (#%*@%^$*@%@)

thank u for everything once again!

i reli love u all! muacks~~~

 

ps: my bii bought me a Fossil watch, bronze colour! DAMN LOVE IT!

 

Birthday Countdown

Hi people, Hi Blog
weird rite wen i actually talking to blog? LOL
i've started my workin life for 3rd months
the best thing of being a Media Monitoring Executive is
1- u gt ur gaji
2- u know everything on newspaper
3- will nt meet traffic jam
the bad thing bout tis job is
1-u need to wake up damn early (530am)
2- saturday need to work until 12pm
i guess, the only bad thing could cover all the goods for a youngster like me TT

back to my life,
so far so good, day by day, everyday repeat the same thing
after work (330pm) go home take a nap, dinner
sometime meet my boy for awhile
around 10+ is time for bed
time is never enough, not enough for my family or my boy neither
coz he is busy working, after his work basically is almost the time im off to bed
so, weekdays we hardly spend time tgt
wen v had wonderful time tgt, the next time im gonna b like a zombie
(nt enough sleep)

last time, i only drink teh wen i hv headache (nt enough sleep will cause headache)
but lately, i take 1 teh per day
imagine how tired my body is

weekend, is the only day i able to rest
only if he go bac hometown
if he is at KL, i will meet him for sure
Sunday-is Church day & family day
therefore, none of the day i can really sleep late or sleep tight
i miss HOLIDAY so much

in this 3 mths, thr r few holidays lik raya merdeka n hari msia
but, i will b either working o holiday wit my boy
(im sure some of u must b jealous =p)

honestly, this job doesnt suit me,
or maybe i hvt gt use to it yet
coz i dn reli talk much in the office
only wen im in super hyper mood
basically, i talk a lot wen i reach home o wen i gt to meet my frens
sorry for bein too talkactive wen i meet u guys,
according to a research, a women speaks 16000 words per day
i guess i collected a lot xD wakakakaka

i miss college life so damn much...
really~ so much!!!

recently colleague bought movies for us, i've watched a lot of movies during and after working hour
life is fragile, i always hv tis feelin tat sumtin bad gonna happen
btw, i just sign the organ donation, i wish someone can benefit tho i died
is't negative thinkin? or maybe v can say,
it makes me appreciate wat i have~

tat's all for today,
finally i hv the little time to blog
to express myself
to update my life to those who cares bout me
and, thank u for reading it

by: Asther Tan (my working name ^^)