End of July

after sometime, im bac to blog again...
Blog, used to be a place to hide my feeling
used to be a place to express my feeling
used to be a place I share about my college...studies...friends...
but now, im no longer a small girl, no longer a degree student...
i've completed my study...gt my result which is average around B
no more exams, no more assignments, no more attend classes, no more classmates
is totally a new life for me....[WORKING LIFE]

now i feel how adults felt...
v need vacation, v miss natural...which i duno how to appreciate b4
grrrr...i miss bukit bukit....beach....waterfall....everything
especially, Azalia, my fren....everything around me reminds me of our memories
whr v used to go, whr we've been, wat v did...the way v walk from car park to class
i miss coll life so damn much

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besides wat i miss so much
i've met the best guy i've ever met so far...
he is cute, caring, mature, someone i can rely on him
yet, he is hot temper just like me, notty lik a child sometime, selfish sometime
but, no one is perfect rite?
he will always b my mr.R!

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recently im watching a drama "i need romance 2012"
very nice drama, is korean drama
bout the couple tgt for long long time n after broke up
she started a new life but the guy seems lik hidin somethin
somethin they said which is so true

这些事情我已经不是第一次做了
他应该也不是第一次
他应该也会想起之前的回忆
爱情故事就是这样的重叠着

but for me, i will try not to do wat i used to do wit other guys to the current bf
past is past...i wan create new memory for us...
i wan our memory replace my old memories...
coz, im in love wit the current US!

如果你有想过我的感受

世界上没有两全其美的方法
当你想要拥有平衡的生活
你就要牺牲与付出

一个礼拜你就喝酒了四天
从你第一次说你去喝酒我就没有说过"'不"
不敢发你脾气
所以多担心多不开心都不会阻止你去
我要的就是你的坦白
你愿意为我付出一点点时间
我很快就会被哄到了
有时候为了让双方好下台
也会想办法让我自己好受点，你也可以做你要的事情

爱情与自由，很难供存
我，不需要自由
因为我比任何人怕寂寞
对我来说，爱情就好像commitment
要有责任，照顾对方，爱着对方
我对感情很认真，也放很多心思,effort

我知道，
真正你委屈，你是说不出口的
如果真的委屈
你讲出来有用吗？
你讲出来是要人同情而已？还是要人知道你有几好？

所以，我都在学习忍耐
只是不喜欢在我流泪的时候
你不是搽我眼泪那个，是让我留泪那个

是你的就是你的-这句话真的可以增加我对我们感情的信任
哭过就好了
22岁了，还是那么爱哭
出世到现在，妈妈就说我爱哭
长大了，不要哭啦