Degree Holder

Today i have this weird feeling and thoughts
i wonder wat to do with my cert and my future?
im joining a sales job soon and this is totally nt my interest

yesterday, i was talking bout advertisement in malaysia with Kinkin
v both noticed that i was so excited when it comes to advertising.
i used to tell ppl after grad i wanna join advertising agent
either b creating advertisement or doing something related to ad
but somehow, i ended up with sales bcoz of MONEY

he asked me, will i still chase for my interest after joining sales job
i said lets see hows my sales
if im doing good, den i will continue,
just gain some sales experience first

no one can help u to gain experience
no one can decide ur future
u make ur own future and decision
u go our own path

wat so proud bout holding a degree cert
does anyone care?
companies wanna know ur experience and ur skill
this is reality

so, tell myself WAKE UP!
u decide where to go and where u ended up
May God bless me and thank you for all the guidance.
Amen.

Before the end of November

这一篇 我是为了谢谢一个人而写的
这个人 是一个脾气比我还要臭 不会听人家讲 大男人 烂赌 烂烧 烂喝 不浪漫 不细心 没有耐心 优点也不多的 一个男生 =)
做工起来很忙就很少理我
跟朋友一起的时候就不会爹我

可是他是会发完脾气后打电话来哄回我
跟我在一起的时候就好象货将爹我
很爱看靓女可是对我专一

这个就是我的理想男生

他有一个32岁的身体
却有一个3岁的活泼

谢谢他 带我去吃我想吃的东西
McDonald, Korean烤肉，糖水， 千层糕，还有很多很多
在我生病的时候煲粥给我吃
忙上忙下的照顾我
他为我做的一切一切 我都很珍惜

我知道这一切不是理所当然的
对我好不是他应该做的
我夺去了很多很多他的时间
来换成我们之间的回忆，
来建立我们的感情

谢谢你 =)

This saturday is my convo!
All the money and time spent, is nt a waste
it worth something and this is all we are waiting for!
See u guys/gals there!!!
Make sure u ready to take tons of photos!!! =)
doing mask now, skin - make sure u r in the best condition!
yoooohooooo~~

November 2012

Long time never update my blog d...
the only reason is, Im lazy
but i prefer to say no time for it =D

Since i've submitted my resign letter,
i feel more relaxing on work
and i really like my colleagues!
They are so nice and funny =)
but most of us are leaving...

Working Life

This is my 4th month working in World Comm
and today i have submitted my Resign Letter    0,o
well, so far HSBC has offered me as General Processing which need to speak cantonese and mandarin
Salary is only RM100 more than current job but the location is Cyber Jaya = Damn far
it is not worth but, no choice, i dn wn stay here to read newspaper
so Sorry to my boss n I duno wat should I say when he call me to his room! TT

Now, im waiting IBM to call n i wan go or the group discussion
hope they will take me n offer me higher salary n i could find frens carpool to go work! =D
God bless and wish everything goes well~ haha

My past; My heart's stories

Few days ago...

im having a hard time

i've been experienced a lot

but it is still painful

especially when the one said some crucial word to me

this is not the first time

but honestly, how to fix tis heart?

i've been trying to hide it and pretend lik nothing happen

but tis is not the solution

tis is not me

sorry for being so "childish" if u think i am

everyone has their past, 

stop saying u understand my feeling, u dont

i've thinking of givin up tis relationship for times

but failed,

i miss touching ur face, look into ur eyes and say "i love u"

things seems change

ppl change...

who knows wat happen in 2013 July?

im stil going Taiwan with them?

is 2012 dec end of the world?

no body know wat might happen

but i know, right now, my broken heart

make me so so down n couldn't find a solution

quit my job is the solution?

or it is not bout my working time anymore?

u say u nvr change,

all guys said the same! LOL! but they actually did!

stop lying to me when i already know the truth

stop make fun in front of me when im damn serious bout our relationship!

stop ur fucking childish act wen im having a heartache time!

got it?!

My 22nd Birthday - The Pil

23 September 2012

Happy Belated Birthday to myself
hey, sexy lady~ u enjoy ur birthday so much huh?

let's start my story^^
22 September 2012
i hang out wit all my lovely college frens after work
in the office was reli reli busy,
so wen i came out frm toilet, someone pressed the doorbell
a lady holding a bouquet o.O
i was so surprise n excited, my first time receiving a bouquet weii!
(but a bit disappointed wen i know he used to bought one for my fren too)
 after work, William (my driver) came n fetch me wit my old fren (fer haru)
after all the misunderstanding v headed a place tat i would like to go

Ficelle Boulangerie Patisserie

im so surprise tat they actually organized it there

after a lunch with bunch of frenssss

v had second round at a cake shop

awesome cakes as dessert~ yummy!!!!

 

after tat, v planned to have dinner at (Snowy beer) 2008 Snow located near pantai cheras hospital, behind the may bank

some of them couldn't find the place again

(I wonder y all the places v organized is hard to be found)

the dinner is reli nice and thanks to some 'talkactive' fella tat make it lively and fun

Thanks for the cake at last from RT Pastry

is't only me? but the cake is REAL NICE!!!

love it so much!!!

 

last round, is chosen by mayi, ICB opposite leisuremall)

is a very good place for non-smokers to drink!

they hv non smokin drinkin area and v ordered 2 towers paid by me n my bii^^

v even count down from 2359-0000 (23 Sept 2012)

thank u so much everyone of u,

Wan Yin Mayi Fer Haru

William Anson Nyny Boon Kiat Cheetah Chee Leong Kenny 

 

 

on 23 September 2012

i noticed my leg allergic (since ytd) is getting worst

applied some cream n took a medicine n heading to church

(thank u my boy for following us to church tis week)

after the service i was damn sleepy coz of the medicine

i nvr know it was tis strong til i get frustrated n even scream at my boy in front of my brother

so sorry for tat!!==lll

 

v went kinkin ban mee for lunch den took a nap before heading dessert shop

had some dessert den my boy sent me to sis's house

family dinner time! all nice food n cost RM200++

omg!!!! daddy even bought me a birthday cake!

he called me to ask which one i like~

wat a nice dad!!! im so touch!!!

i love my family damn much!

after dinner go to my sis house again to cut the cake

on the way bac home im dead again bcoz of the medicine

the whole day i've been dying 

(other plan i force myself to keep awake, else i will shut down automatically)

thanks to the medicine on my birthday TT (#%*@%^$*@%@)

thank u for everything once again!

i reli love u all! muacks~~~

 

ps: my bii bought me a Fossil watch, bronze colour! DAMN LOVE IT!

 

Birthday Countdown

Hi people, Hi Blog
weird rite wen i actually talking to blog? LOL
i've started my workin life for 3rd months
the best thing of being a Media Monitoring Executive is
1- u gt ur gaji
2- u know everything on newspaper
3- will nt meet traffic jam
the bad thing bout tis job is
1-u need to wake up damn early (530am)
2- saturday need to work until 12pm
i guess, the only bad thing could cover all the goods for a youngster like me TT

back to my life,
so far so good, day by day, everyday repeat the same thing
after work (330pm) go home take a nap, dinner
sometime meet my boy for awhile
around 10+ is time for bed
time is never enough, not enough for my family or my boy neither
coz he is busy working, after his work basically is almost the time im off to bed
so, weekdays we hardly spend time tgt
wen v had wonderful time tgt, the next time im gonna b like a zombie
(nt enough sleep)

last time, i only drink teh wen i hv headache (nt enough sleep will cause headache)
but lately, i take 1 teh per day
imagine how tired my body is

weekend, is the only day i able to rest
only if he go bac hometown
if he is at KL, i will meet him for sure
Sunday-is Church day & family day
therefore, none of the day i can really sleep late or sleep tight
i miss HOLIDAY so much

in this 3 mths, thr r few holidays lik raya merdeka n hari msia
but, i will b either working o holiday wit my boy
(im sure some of u must b jealous =p)

honestly, this job doesnt suit me,
or maybe i hvt gt use to it yet
coz i dn reli talk much in the office
only wen im in super hyper mood
basically, i talk a lot wen i reach home o wen i gt to meet my frens
sorry for bein too talkactive wen i meet u guys,
according to a research, a women speaks 16000 words per day
i guess i collected a lot xD wakakakaka

i miss college life so damn much...
really~ so much!!!

recently colleague bought movies for us, i've watched a lot of movies during and after working hour
life is fragile, i always hv tis feelin tat sumtin bad gonna happen
btw, i just sign the organ donation, i wish someone can benefit tho i died
is't negative thinkin? or maybe v can say,
it makes me appreciate wat i have~

tat's all for today,
finally i hv the little time to blog
to express myself
to update my life to those who cares bout me
and, thank u for reading it

by: Asther Tan (my working name ^^)

End of July

after sometime, im bac to blog again...
Blog, used to be a place to hide my feeling
used to be a place to express my feeling
used to be a place I share about my college...studies...friends...
but now, im no longer a small girl, no longer a degree student...
i've completed my study...gt my result which is average around B
no more exams, no more assignments, no more attend classes, no more classmates
is totally a new life for me....[WORKING LIFE]

now i feel how adults felt...
v need vacation, v miss natural...which i duno how to appreciate b4
grrrr...i miss bukit bukit....beach....waterfall....everything
especially, Azalia, my fren....everything around me reminds me of our memories
whr v used to go, whr we've been, wat v did...the way v walk from car park to class
i miss coll life so damn much

===============================================

besides wat i miss so much
i've met the best guy i've ever met so far...
he is cute, caring, mature, someone i can rely on him
yet, he is hot temper just like me, notty lik a child sometime, selfish sometime
but, no one is perfect rite?
he will always b my mr.R!

================================================

recently im watching a drama "i need romance 2012"
very nice drama, is korean drama
bout the couple tgt for long long time n after broke up
she started a new life but the guy seems lik hidin somethin
somethin they said which is so true

这些事情我已经不是第一次做了
他应该也不是第一次
他应该也会想起之前的回忆
爱情故事就是这样的重叠着

but for me, i will try not to do wat i used to do wit other guys to the current bf
past is past...i wan create new memory for us...
i wan our memory replace my old memories...
coz, im in love wit the current US!

如果你有想过我的感受

世界上没有两全其美的方法
当你想要拥有平衡的生活
你就要牺牲与付出

一个礼拜你就喝酒了四天
从你第一次说你去喝酒我就没有说过"'不"
不敢发你脾气
所以多担心多不开心都不会阻止你去
我要的就是你的坦白
你愿意为我付出一点点时间
我很快就会被哄到了
有时候为了让双方好下台
也会想办法让我自己好受点，你也可以做你要的事情

爱情与自由，很难供存
我，不需要自由
因为我比任何人怕寂寞
对我来说，爱情就好像commitment
要有责任，照顾对方，爱着对方
我对感情很认真，也放很多心思,effort

我知道，
真正你委屈，你是说不出口的
如果真的委屈
你讲出来有用吗？
你讲出来是要人同情而已？还是要人知道你有几好？

所以，我都在学习忍耐
只是不喜欢在我流泪的时候
你不是搽我眼泪那个，是让我留泪那个

是你的就是你的-这句话真的可以增加我对我们感情的信任
哭过就好了
22岁了，还是那么爱哭
出世到现在，妈妈就说我爱哭
长大了，不要哭啦

Turning Point in my life

Hi, people
i've just started my holiday for....2 weeks?
spent my time with my bii go travel, i went hiking, movies, shopping, drinking
thank u all the friends around tat make my holiday so wonderful...

my working life begin next monday
another turning point in my life
enter the society
learn new stuff, new people, new environment,
no APIIT no classmates no cafeteria no aliah cafe

God bless my first career in my life...


thank u bii for making me so strong
not relying u tat much
u forced me to go with my frens more
u forced me to not get angry easily
[just because im afraid of losing u]
thank u for ur empty promises tat breaks my heart
so i can learn to be stronger
thank u for making me cry
so i learn to wipe my tears and put a smile on my face even my heart has broken

thank u for not caring me, so i can take care of myself
thank u for bein so cruel to me
thank u for the memories...i mean the good one

Who i used to be

i used to be get jealous easily
but right now, im gonna say
"if it is urs, it always urs, if it is not, den it will nvr be, no matter how hard u hv tried."
so...let it be, questioning doest prove anything
if he meant to lie to u, den u will gt the answer u wish to know
but it is actually not the truth
even if he tell u the truth, same goes to the ending of the story
so, if it is urs, it will always b urs
as long as u have tried ur best to keep tis relationship
and effort u put in this relationship

well, i feel tat im much more mature to talk bout tis right now
thanks to I.C. i guess... =)
i grow up from where i fall and learnt from those mistakes
good luck to myself...

*one more paper*

Suffocating

After exam, i feel like having a date
just someone who can bring me for nice food
maybe Melaka or KL
i wanna eat nice dessert, nice egg tart, nice chinese food

I've planned to go jogging every morning after my exam
make sure i gt enuf exercise that i missed for the past few months!

I will live my life on my way!
not for u, not for others,but for Myself, My Lord!

I duno how many times i have mentioned im gonna b strong
yet, im stil too weak and too naive
i wish, after i finish my degree
i can reli b a brand new me!
I me myself!

Hi, Blog

May coming to the end...
my degree gonna finish soon...
next week is my exam....
tis friday last assignment submission
recently, i cry easily...
one of the reason bcoz im leavin university
everything i used to hv in the past 4yrs
coming to END
my frens, wat i used to do, whr i used to go
everything gonna hv a big changes soon...
also my love life,
it is so different with others
i hv to admit im hot temper, get angry easily
but, now, i HAVE to control everything
i hv to hide my feelings from him

so....life is changing...
may God bless me and lead me on HIS way...

新的想法

原来每个人都是-个体

我们有属于自己的空间，自己的时间，自己的思想
过去，我总是想要掌控一个人的全部
我想要拥有，我觉得我自己懂得如何掌握

原来都不是，
不同的人有不同的思想

现在我在学习相信
相信一个人，让自己多一份安全感，多一点信心
这功课不容易，10年来都习惯这样的想法
现在努力学习改变
很希望这次的改变可以让这段感情变得更坚固一些

我真的很怕很怕失去
我要如何做个坚强的女生？

这样的一个人

我从没想过你会是这样一个人
原来我说的每样事情
你有去注意有在听
i care because u care
说不出的开心和惊喜

有时候我的举止
反映了你是怎样对我
你给到我安全感
我就可以给你自由
因为你的冷漠
所以我害怕

可能我很笨
打算再一次相信一个人了
因为你不一样

一切竟在不言中

很多的话，放在心里
慢慢就忘了
日记也不知道怎么写下去
小白是个怎样的人
有一个怎样的人生
我也不知道了

是时候套上新的面具
继续做人了

*2012* Who would knows

2012
Today, 23.4.2012
many things could happen
who would knows i will fall so deep in love with a guy
who would knows he will dumped me with tat reason
who would knows im getting in a complicated relationship right after i broke up
who would knows i fall sick so badly which never happen to me
[usually i will fall sick once a year and it will recover within few days not weeks]
who would knows final year could be so tough yet memorable
[when rushing for fyp *stress* yet fighting hard with classmates *memorable*]
who would knows my foot get fungal infections
who would knows my foot did not recover for almost 1month and getting serious
[which i duno wat infection is tat]
who would knows anything could just happen....
who knows....

Degree Life

having tis thought for few days
but no time for it...
so basically...i miss uni life
been joined APIIT UCTI for almost 4years
from the first year - foundation
used to be three of us , me wan yin n jen
i met a lot of new friends in foundation
especially my BEST FREN Kenny
oso a lot of interesting frens from Group 1 and Group 2
n i've met Him Cheetah during foundation as well

during foundation i only enter the class talk to wan yin play with frens and don even know wat lecturer said
i duno wat is assignments i duno wat is tutorial
when lecturer asked us to do sumtin, always Jen who tell us wat to do
i hv to admit my English is super BAD
so much 'complicated' story happen
END of foundation life

Continue with LEVEL 1
i chosen Media Informatics n i duno whether it is good onot
i leave it to God to guide me all the way
during Level 1,
we were 1 gang with Phoebe Sarah n Sherley
i feel so lost at the beginning becoz im no longer with my best fren
but, i learn a lot from here...
v go shisha with this crazy gang n some random fren from uni
is quite fun n memorable

Continue with LEVEL 2
tis is where azalia come in
i nvr thought i will met someone lik her
since she joined, me azalia n cheetah become a group which is crazy n fun all the time
i reli reli love LEVEL 2 life sooo sooo much
v joined a lot of competition bcoz of Azalia [she is so active]
without her, me n cheetah's dream will nvr achieve
also Shozab n Afey the foreigner frens which im proud of
LEVEL 2 is just prefect for me!!!
[even tho here the end of some love story]

Continue with Level 3
im so afraid of grad...
but im enuf wit study n exams n assignmentss
level 3 is stress bcoz of FYP
everyone working hard for it
same to me...>,<

im gonna miss those time we said:
"where to have lunch later?"
"cafeteria? don wan la~"
"lunch box?too far to walk thr la"
"deli? yuk~ the food suck"
"Aliah? okok, many people leh"
"shit, v hv x hr break on x day"
"hows ur assignment?"
"xxx said class cancel on x day! YEAY"
 after June, all those words will nvr repeat...
i miss my uni, my fren, my life....

Post - Grad

As im goin to graduate
plenty of works i need to complete in order to grad
so, this is y FYP comes in
people started it since last year
in my case
i just met my adviser few hours ago
n he told me i just have to change my literature review
which is the hardest part for me
OMG! submission date is 25.4.12
i hv another 12 more days ni....
everything he said just brin me down
(even he helped me a lot to understand wat im doing right now)
is not about time,
but about the topic i have chosen brin me to hell

no more entertainment no more life no more social
gonna F*ck my FYP nicely now.....
FYP, i love u and F*ck u!!!!

in the middle of the night

做每件事情前
我会先考虑你的感受
因为我不舍得你难过


because of him, i've changed
no, probably i should say im changing myself
to b a better me
im not just changing for him
but also change for myself
to b a better girl

在感情路上

跌跌撞撞了那么久

还是那么天真 那么傻
当你喜欢上了，就不管曾经多么的受伤
还是会盅个头下去

两个人在一起
好像就是把两个不同的背景，不同的回忆，不同的故事的世界
却因为爱两个连在一起
感情需要时间一点一点漫漫的把两个世界放在一起
有些人分开了
一个世界离开了另一个世界
留在原地的，只能看着那些曾经一起因为爱而改变的点滴

tis r my several thought of the year
sekali posted all together randomly...hohoho

April

Hi, April...i wish u will b a wonderful month
because i needa submit my final year project the end of the month
i cant imagine how happy i will be on next month
[coz i should have submitted by end of tis month]

recently, i cant do my work at home
especially when u r not working
all i wan is to spend time wit u
i like u bein around me even we do nothing
the oni time i can do my work is when u r working
den oni i can concentrate on my work
[not reli concentrate actually, see im blogging xD]

my faith to God seems weaken
but i know God never give up on me
i reli need God to strengthen me
GOD!! TT

tis fri gt a presentation
singing again o.O OMG!!!
gt a job offer RM12/hour but i hv no time for it
[Yi lou, i listen to u TT]

thank u for the surprise at the beach and ytd night recording
how sweeeeeet ^^ u always cheer me up!
sorry tat my word might just hurt others,
but i hv to express my happiness here! right now! to tell the world
"im glad to hv u"!

FML

seriously, i wanna shout out "F*CK MY LIFE*
wats wrong oooooo
love life sooooo complicated
body having some pain at tis moment
assignments due date comin soon
less than a month need to submit my FYP
##%@*#(%&#*&%#(*%_!%!_*

HOW?!

Relationship

after few days of consideration
i hv decided that not getting into a new relationship until i graduate
unless u willing to wait...
getting into relationship is not only about u LOVING someone
relationship needed communication and understand each other
if u r not mature enuf, don fall into relationship
realtionship is not a game tat u can sign up n quit just lik tat
every relationship give u a memory
v learn frm each other, understand human being
v gt hurt, n v gt up
im tired of it... =)
jz wanna b peace...
look at couples....fight...lovin each other...and so on
pointless dramas.....hahaha....

we all are one and only...
v dont belong to anyone
i am myself
i hv my own frens, family, bro n sis...
tat will nvr b urs
i don wan people interrupt wat IN me n who i AM
i love GOD will nvr chg....

tis is not an emo post....jz a random post regarding my recent feeling

Dating

thing goes so complicated...

i hv no idea wat i really wan...

past 2 days working at Pavilion Caring,

nt reli happy working thr,

is reli reli BORING!

i guess im not going to work as part time promoter anymore

even the salary is 'quite' Good,

but, the job doest worth the salary,

i will prefer to spend my time nicely

and...2days thr, i learned something

do not easily trust people

v duno wat others think,

even without advantage/benefit,

they will just wan to 'harm' u...

tis is 'society'

End the stupid story thr

i hv a date today,

God bless today will be a nice day and memorable day for us

*HOT AIR BALLOON*

Things could just happen

is mid March

Next week is mid sem break

and i hvt do my FYP [sh*t]

a lot of assignments i need to finish during this break

but, wat im looking forward is Langkawi!!!

haha..going Langkawi again~

but.....thr is 'complication' happens

tat makes me dunno how im going to face it

i know im making everyone suffering

but, i hv no idea wat should i do....

i jz don wan any changes....

^^ stay strong and stay cool

to my dear Azalia who having someting even more complicate

i wish she can move on too!

to Kenny, sakit hah...i cant help much, pray for u, so tat u can recover soon

is reli suffer when u cant sleep for 2days rite?

to Cheetah [who wil nt read tis blog]

I REALLY HATE THE WAY U TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW

but i understand u for being so childish

to myself, all the best

March

March - tis month will b much better than last month

1 month ago, i was in a heart broken situation
1 month later, i was in a complicated relationship status

so much story wanna tell
yet, duno where to start
but the ending is predictable...
none of them i will choose..

wat a lucky girl
tat so much ppl sayang...=)
appreciate everything God given to me...
i know im not the best, but i tried my best to b who i am
i am stronger than ytd.

好男人

今天是全年最好的一天
四年一次的2月29
虽然没什么特别
可是，我却经历了很难忘的一天

凌晨3点，突然发烧
很辛苦，很不舒服
发冷，喉咙很痛
心想“我终于生病了”

早上的可没有去
中午，这个男的在我去学校
因为他也很累，没有去做工

这个男的
会缝手工给我
会煲粥给我吃
会特地载我
somehow he reminds me of IC
maybe bcoz they stay at the same house
they r best fren
but....i can feel secure and comfortable when im with him
i duno y, but i trust him...
i know he might not be as good as v think...
but...he is nt as bad as they said i think...

maybe they both are almost the same
reli reli good to me
i feel like same thing will repeat again...
i hate tis feeling
i tried not to mention IC in front of him
but, the way they talk the way they act is the same!

grrrrr......wish i can find someone out of tis gang pls...
but he is reli reli nice guy....
might nt b tgt, but, can b reli close fren
maybe like me n gemini used to be?

I love my life

previously, i wast so active on blog
coz i finally broke up with I.C.
was having a Bad period of time
but, now i get through tis oledi
actually was't so bad...
shouldt b sad bcoz of tis idiot

some good news are
after broke up a lot of people cares about me
[except my family]
n my admires are....LOL...xD
make me so damn happy
i wast lonely anymore
frenssss r around....

created so much NEWS recently
reli happy....n hang out with frenssss almost everyday~
hahaha....is so much fun...
i guess i wouldt hv tis much fun if im stil with I.C.
LOL....

thank u for everything God
i know i dint spend much time wit u recently
but, u always in my heart...
sorry for wat i've done....
I SWEAR THR WIL B AN END

sekian terima kasih

Wonderful Valentines

Thank God, i celebrated Valentines 2012

even though my bf jz broke up wit me 2 weeks b4 valentines
but, i hv frens who celebrated with me tis yr
which make tis yr valentine so meaningful...

first of all
is the roses i received frm a fren first time meeting him
v went for steak n he bought me roses....
hahaha...tats my first valentine gift of the yr
[even though he don mean to buy me as valentines gift]
LOL

secondly
i've made some stars to ppl i care n as present as well
1- Loh, his bday is on 16Feb, so i made 100 stars for him as valentines+bday present
2- Abby, my best fren~ to appreciate tis fren
3- Cheetah, my ex, someone who reli closed to me n know me well
4- Azalia, my best fren in coll, best classmate, to appreciate how much she cared bout me
5- Kenny, my BFF!! he is the most special fren i ever had...
6- Fer, thank u for accompany me all tis while...

thirdly
is the jelly i made, peach n lychee flavors...
oni Banker frens n cheetah azalia tried it...lol
coz kind of failed product...hahaha

den,
is my first cooking for a fren
the lucky guy -KENNY YONG-
rice, sausage, vege n egg
very simple cook, which done within one hour
so far, the comments are positive
hahahaha....
i guess i pass my cooking skill....hehehe

tat's all how i celebrated my valentines 2012
best ever....even without a lover...
i think, with a lover u wil nvr enjoy tis much
coz u don expect anything n u can enjoy to max

thanks for the paper rose~Yi lou^^ hehehe...

ps: to yin, tis yr no present sorry a...wil ganti balik on ur bday gift, i promise..
hehehehe....
sekian terima kasih

Joke about valentine

****
this come a cross my mind when people start asking me

Valentine's day
Couple: u can only celebrate with ur bf/gf
Single: u hv to choose who to celebrate wit, coz everyone start taking tis opportunity to date u
Conclusion: is better to b in a relationship, so u don hv to think who to celebrate with..
ahahahahahah...xD
****

Officially back to coll life

things doest goes well in February
he broke up with me on the 2nd of Feb
best part is, Saturday saw him at Genting
the awkward moment make me suffer

come bac frm Genting
v had OUR LAST DAY
which is Monday 6th Feb
i will never forget he said "XXX love u"
it means a lot to me

i guess i know the reason y v break up...
since the story ended...
i should settle down everything
calm down my mood
tell myself "Welcome back to Coll life"

during tis holiday,
i hv been spending most of the time with the group of working people
topic they discuss, the way they talk, everything bout the society
i learn so much things frm them

now, im back to coll, with my classmates
with ppl i used to spend my time wit
wit the students who jz like me
bac to the old me

i hv to admit i love the time spending wit that gang
but, truth is, im a student, i don belongs to thm
nvm, i will get bac my own life....
is like a puppy walked into wolfs group
now going bac to my own type....
hmmmmm....the feeling is sumtin lik tis....
my mood stil with the wolfs.....


i can b strong...i can b tough....
TIME can heal my wound....i will b ok after sometimes.... =)
cheer

Bye Jan, Hi Feb

January 2012
reli a bad n insecure month of the year
hopefully February will be a better month

none of the day in Jan i can sleep well without tears
because of u
u bring me too much happiness 1mth ago
and after tat leave me thr alone

thank God, i still manage to survive until now
and glad tat i met some of thm who can reli cheer me up
January had teach me a lot
Now, WELCOME feb,
hopefully will be a better month

Next 3months gonna b really really busy
5 assignments 5 exams and 1 FYP
hv to stop being so emotional and so on
wish i can put all my heart on my study
for my last sem! ^^

Good luck!

我爱的是谁啊

昨天晚上跟你朋友谈起你
感觉可以爱你真的很幸福
还对着你朋友晒命
真真的虽然好像不是这样
可是可以大声对你朋友说我很爱这个男人
自己就觉得很幸福

早上看见你
却是那么没有安全感
对这个人很陌生
连说话都怕会让你不开心
很舍不得你，却不能把你留下

好不容易熬过了一天
打了个电话给你朋友
又谈起你，朋友说了很多鼓励的话
很有信心，觉得这样爱你就对了
幸福的感觉又回来了

五点半
打了电话给你，你没有接
六点半
又打给你，你说忙，等下打给我
七点半了
没有你的电话

你说今晚去朋友家
你没叫我，我不好意思跟
打给你朋友，他问我有一起吗你们现在去吃
我说没有，没关系

如果不是你朋友告诉我
我也不知道你们去云顶
你没问我，你是不希望跟我去吗？
还是你觉得我会跟你们去所以没有问我先？

对，我们需要新的方式
可是你有没有发现
你都没有关心过我了
我吃了吗？还有不舒服吗？跟谁出去阿？今晚做什么啊？
对！我长大了，会照顾自己
可是简单的问候，你做不到吗？

你可能很烦，我明白，我也不会添加你的烦恼
可是，请你明白我的需要
我很脆弱！我很努力配合你了
不要让我觉得我是一个人白白付出可以吗？

这段感情

谈了两天
最后的结论
是在这一段时间
我们用新的相处方式
如果还是很不开心才分开
可是不会再抱那么大的希望了

不管怎样，我们之间还是有一个问题的存在
现在我不想去想
只要还能跟你在一起就好了

你曾经答应过的
以前的那个男朋友
已经不一样了
虽然我很心痛，很怀念以前的你
可是，我不会放弃现在的我们

知道你或许很烦
可能真的不适合在一起
可是我尽量去配合
因为我很看重这段感情
其他的都不重要

还有12天
就会是我们一起两个月了
这段感情还有多久我不知道
我会珍惜每一天可以跟你一起的时间
用我们新的方式继续跟我爱的你在一起

心里话

最近心情反复不定
为感情烦了几个星期
学会了几样东西

-没有一个人是生来哄你开心，他也是人，也有情绪，他也会有脆弱的时候
-不要把他疼你当作理所当然，没有人会不断为你付出
-每个人有自己的生活，即使你们在一起，自己的空间是需要的
-你不能原谅他的错，那你做错的时候，他是不是也原谅你了呢？
-如果在一起不开心，就分开，不用一直跟朋友投诉，没什么值得骄傲的
-在朋友面前，总要留点面子
-过去了的事，就不要一直挂在嘴边，可以改变的是未来
-不要总是把问题放大，想想五年后，这个问题还重要吗？真的重要吗？
-有些人面对的问题比你严重，却比你坚强，为了一点点感情事，吵吵闹闹，值得吗？
-爱情只是人生一部分，不是全部

明白这些话过后，
应该就是人生又在长大一步的时候
小白，你大个女了

[我单身也可以很坚强]

大年初一

HAPPY CNY everyone~
CHO 1
Today went uncle's house for lunch
tis time oni 4 of us from my family
my sis n younger bro nt around
but at least i can feel CNY mood
was wearing a red polo tee
feel so CNY! hahaha...xD

after lunch go my dad's factory walk walk
go home take a nap
after dinner maybe go another uncle's house sit sit
last yr oni my parents go visit uncles
but tis yr, i feel lik wanna b good girl
spend more time with family
i talked to parents more tis yr =)

tomoro maybe go fren's house....maybe play cards...
hopefully i can spend tis CNY well
================================
he text-ed me....he called me.....
so happy~~~ hahahahahaha....
thanks to my adviser KENNY YONG again!
also thank u for accompany me all the time! =D

phone no credit soon...
chinese new year phone no credit like not so good ==
later maybe go supermarket with parents, TOP UP TOP UP

体谅地相信你只是爱累了 绝不是有别的人替代我了

今天终于看开多了
心情也好了很多
感情丰富的我
今天终于有胃口吃东西了
会想你，可是不会烦你

知道你跟家人吵架
我不能为你做什么
宝贝不开心可以跟我讲
我会乖乖听
不会对你发脾气
=)

答应我，你要坚强点

I will be brave I will not let anything take away What's standing in front of me

How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

i know he not gonna read tis
but i wanna tell the world,
ISSAC CHONG, XIAO BAI truly love u
no matter wat might happen when u back from CNY
i wish u can find ur happiness
u was a good bf, a good man tat touched my heart
I will be brave!!! like u...

Thank u so much...
u r the best bf so far...
my broken heart will be heal 1 day
when u can talk to me like how it was when u first know me
=) i hv loved u for a thousand years...

加油

比起他的伤心
我觉得我不应该那么脆弱
他很努力的坚强着
他没有放弃
我也不应该放弃
张顺凴我爱你！
你要加油
我也会加油
因为我爱你

那一个月

曾经有过那么一个月的时间
我是那么的幸福
每一天都以最灿烂的笑容起身
每一天都有最幸福的笑容结束一天
那个月里面
我看不见伤心，看不见生气，看不见心痛
我有想过，我这样的幸福会有一天停此吗？
可是每一天你都给我最美丽的希望
看见分手的人，我都想说，你们应该也有像我一样幸福过吧？
那为什么伤心呢？曾经拥有就很幸福了阿
人活着不就是为了经历这一切吗？

因为有了习惯
因为以为找到了人生的幸福
慢慢把所有事都看作理所当然
好像幸福是应该的

一个月
就那么一个月
我彻底的离开了一切灰暗

一个月后
所有的不开心，心痛，愤怒
全部一次过回来了

我不知道会维持多久
希望，幸福就在下一个转角

新年了
一点都不开心
但是我会好好过
不要留下遗憾
谢谢你

我受够了

再也没有比这个难过
这次真的很痛很痛
都是我的错
我该怎么办
谁来救救我

我不能了

A boy & A Girl

Thank God, i hv tis guy in my life
HE cares about me
HE know everything about me
HE can understand my every sadness and happy moment
HE willing to spend time listen to me
HE is someone more than a fren
HE will accompany me more than my boy fren do

WE trust each other
WE care bout each other
WE will cheer each other up
WE will always b fren
and never leave

Im so glad he is in my life
whenever i face any problem
he will be there for me
listen to me, tell me wat to do, teach me everything he know
n i will listen to him as well...

where to find another fren like u?
KENNY YONG

我要努力

现在什么都没有
做任何事都要经过人家的同意
很多东西都被人控制
没有权利做我想做的事

因为很爱一个人
所以连恋爱都要被人作主权
因为怕失去
所以忘记自己的需要
只为了不让另一半不开心

真的很想
离开这个地方
自己一个人冷静冷静
没有人约束
不需要满足别人
做一些自己喜欢做的事
学习独立
让自己坚强点

现在没有钱
等有一天，我有能力了
我不会再依赖人
我，就可以做回我自己了！

你是我的寄托

最近比较常写部落
因为自己还是看不开
不知道该如何表达
可是我相信，如果我们是相爱的
我们不会分开
只是看，我对你的信心有多强
每天告诉自己，
“重要咩？真的重要咩？”
那一切就可以看开多

好怀念热恋的那一个月
真的很幸福很幸福
我会为了这段感情努力
我不会放弃
我相信只要我不乱发脾气
他就不会离开我了
小白加油！坚强点！
除了自己，没有人可以帮你了
这个是自己需要突破的
新的一年，就让自己长大点咯！

我会学习一个人生活

小白要坚强

那天之后
他对我不再一样了
是我多心了？
还是我变了？
他的玩笑，我都看得很认真
因为'每个玩笑，都隐藏着真心话'

他开始需要自己的空间
他不再像以前那样
时时刻刻都想念我
就好像空荡的时间都是用来爱我
现在不一样了
他需要他的空间，他有他的自由
我知道我没有权力要他陪我
或许现在我假期，很得空，才会想那么多
希望我赶快习惯过来
不希望我们在吵架了

我明白，我没有怪他
可是我需要时间
来告诉自己，这个才是我们的相处方式

不应该那么爱你
我会学习爱自己多一点
小白加油！你可以坚强起来的！
不要再依赖人！

大声痛哭

部落格，幸好还有你，
唯一让我发泄的地方
今天晚上真的很脆弱
说好要坚强点，还是做不到
小白！你要坚强！
要相信你还有朋友关心你的

第一次-大声痛哭中，还可一写部落
我哭，为自己的性格而哭
我就是这样！
每次很爱一个人，就会让那个人透不过气

以为他会不一样
点知，他说了一样的话
“给一点自己的空间可以吗？”
你们真的很像 =)
原来真的是我的问题
是我太粘人，太过依赖你了

因为我很爱你
所以特别在意你
所以特别容易生气
错不在于你，是我错
不应该那么爱你

从此，我的人生座右铭多了一个
1）不可以相信人
2）世界上没有“永远”
现在，多了一个
3）不要太爱一个人，会跌得很伤的

他没有错，真的！真的没有怪他
要怪，就怪为什么世界那么残酷
爱一个人不容易，爱上后更不容易

我真的很怕
原来我什么都做不好

今天一直告诉自己
他的前女友是可爱型
我是成熟型的，不要那么自卑

现在觉得什么型都无所谓了
还是一样那么霸道，
每天在那里发烂炸
知道他没有错
可是就是生气
怪自己那么幼稚

****************************
当感情越来越好
原来相处方式也会不一样了
要慢慢习惯跟你的相处方式
应该不难，因为你跟他一样
只是，不知道结局一样没有？

keep fit

2012, i started my keep fit plan
i do exercise regularly...
i eat more vege and fruits
hopefully i can make it before my brother's wedding 18.02.2012
but so far i cant see any effect yet....

apple + lemon + soy protein
for my digestion
thanks to that, i can go toilet everyday~
[i had constipation problem for several years]

sits up doest seem enuf
i plan to buy the 'yoga mat' so i can do some exercise at home

lets see how the plan works... =)

新一年，新开始

2012 started about 10days
the 1st week of 2012 i spent it very well and joyful
i spent my last sec of 2011 with Issac and also begin my 2012 with Issac
im glad that i get to met this guy before 2011 end
and he is the first guy i met in 2012 too~
falling in love with this guy... hehe

2 Jan my little bro leaving to NS
at Sibu Sarawak...only can see him 1 month later on my bro's wedding
i watched a lot of movies recently
watched 23:59 S'pore movie, HK movie bout psychology, Sherlock homes and VD 9epi from Kenny
grrr...hows FYP and studies??? TT
is second week of 2012
i duno wat to do at home
watched another HK movie at home
typing blog
later update my diary
call my dear
clean my room
tat's all i will do in tis 1 month time
after tis, gonna busy wit studies, assignments, fyp
den grad..TT sob sob

sometime i stil regret tat i made the choice
but sometime im glad that i finally met the right guy
time has past, i cant change anything
leave it all to God and 2012, End of the world?

我的弟弟

冲凉房少了一支牙刷
毛巾少了一条
家里少了一个声音
我的弟弟，去了国民服务
今天是他离开第一天
我跟我妈妈都想他了

家里晚上只有我跟妈妈在家
没有人叫我打包宵夜
没有人讲故事给我听
没有人给我拿来出气
没有人陪我夜睡

才知道，家里的每一个人
即使他有多么多的缺点
少了他，就不像一个家了
两个月后就可以看到他了
希望他可以撑下去

现在唯一可以让我感到跟他联系的
就是靠着神
神，求你保守我弟弟
陪在他身边
因为我们都很爱他~