这400天是你改变了我

劳，
因为你好赌 所以我们不能再一起了
不管我多爱你 我们在一起是多么的开心
是你一手灰了这一切

今天妈妈煲了薏米
想到了 我第一次煲薏米水 就是为了你

因为你我学会了很多 很多的第一次
第一次煮饭给你吃
第一次煲汤
第一次煲凉水给你喝
学吃猪肠
学吃马铃薯
学吃臭豆腐
学吃很多菜

这一年来是你陪我度过的每一天
习惯了睡前听听你的声音
习惯了每个早上打电话把你吵醒
[而且还要用充满活力的声音打给你，我要你也精神开心的起身]

Jeremy很乖，都会陪我
Mary有坏蛋吗？你有陪她聊天吗？又告诉她，我很想她吗?
Melody在车上，每天陪我上班，陪我下班，塞车也是她陪我
Jackie有陪你吗？他会帮你在你开车的时候提醒你小心，帮你顾车，所以你要多多疼他
Jacob已经被冷落了，因为你不喜欢他...

还有很多很多属于我们的东西
希望一切如常，
因为我对你的爱没有变过
希望你也一样
希望，你也一样想我

love u...

First 2013 post

It has been really long time
i have wonderful time in the past 5 months
because i have u in my life
bring me everywhere i wanna go
accompany me in most of the time
yes, sometime we fight sometime we argue
sometime we act like a kid
but yet, u make me believe u r the one i wan to spend the rest of my life with

0505
today is the GE13
my first ever contribution to Malaysia and i wish for a change this year
because, i believe 1990's babies can change the world
we are in between the 80's and 90's
we are the first and last for most of the thing
i leave it all to God to bless my lovely Malaysia

im getting 23 this year
after celebrated my best friends' birthday
(Mayi and Wan Yin)
i feel that life totally different with my past 22 years

i duno y, i feel lik having my own family
my own house
my own corner
also wana adopt a puppy
live my own life

you are suppose to b in the plan
but i guess i have to go on with the plan myself
since u have ur plan as well

i never give up loving u
maybe 0505 is really a time to change
me is not me anymore
stop being childish
had wat u wan, leave it and be strong !

Too bad my first 2013 post is such emo post
i have controlled myself for several times
but for this time, im gonna post it
then i will move on!

stay tune!

Degree Holder

Today i have this weird feeling and thoughts
i wonder wat to do with my cert and my future?
im joining a sales job soon and this is totally nt my interest

yesterday, i was talking bout advertisement in malaysia with Kinkin
v both noticed that i was so excited when it comes to advertising.
i used to tell ppl after grad i wanna join advertising agent
either b creating advertisement or doing something related to ad
but somehow, i ended up with sales bcoz of MONEY

he asked me, will i still chase for my interest after joining sales job
i said lets see hows my sales
if im doing good, den i will continue,
just gain some sales experience first

no one can help u to gain experience
no one can decide ur future
u make ur own future and decision
u go our own path

wat so proud bout holding a degree cert
does anyone care?
companies wanna know ur experience and ur skill
this is reality

so, tell myself WAKE UP!
u decide where to go and where u ended up
May God bless me and thank you for all the guidance.
Amen.

Before the end of November

这一篇 我是为了谢谢一个人而写的
这个人 是一个脾气比我还要臭 不会听人家讲 大男人 烂赌 烂烧 烂喝 不浪漫 不细心 没有耐心 优点也不多的 一个男生 =)
做工起来很忙就很少理我
跟朋友一起的时候就不会爹我

可是他是会发完脾气后打电话来哄回我
跟我在一起的时候就好象货将爹我
很爱看靓女可是对我专一

这个就是我的理想男生

他有一个32岁的身体
却有一个3岁的活泼

谢谢他 带我去吃我想吃的东西
McDonald, Korean烤肉，糖水， 千层糕，还有很多很多
在我生病的时候煲粥给我吃
忙上忙下的照顾我
他为我做的一切一切 我都很珍惜

我知道这一切不是理所当然的
对我好不是他应该做的
我夺去了很多很多他的时间
来换成我们之间的回忆，
来建立我们的感情

谢谢你 =)

This saturday is my convo!
All the money and time spent, is nt a waste
it worth something and this is all we are waiting for!
See u guys/gals there!!!
Make sure u ready to take tons of photos!!! =)
doing mask now, skin - make sure u r in the best condition!
yoooohooooo~~

November 2012

Long time never update my blog d...
the only reason is, Im lazy
but i prefer to say no time for it =D

Since i've submitted my resign letter,
i feel more relaxing on work
and i really like my colleagues!
They are so nice and funny =)
but most of us are leaving...

Working Life

This is my 4th month working in World Comm
and today i have submitted my Resign Letter    0,o
well, so far HSBC has offered me as General Processing which need to speak cantonese and mandarin
Salary is only RM100 more than current job but the location is Cyber Jaya = Damn far
it is not worth but, no choice, i dn wn stay here to read newspaper
so Sorry to my boss n I duno wat should I say when he call me to his room! TT

Now, im waiting IBM to call n i wan go or the group discussion
hope they will take me n offer me higher salary n i could find frens carpool to go work! =D
God bless and wish everything goes well~ haha

My past; My heart's stories

Few days ago...

im having a hard time

i've been experienced a lot

but it is still painful

especially when the one said some crucial word to me

this is not the first time

but honestly, how to fix tis heart?

i've been trying to hide it and pretend lik nothing happen

but tis is not the solution

tis is not me

sorry for being so "childish" if u think i am

everyone has their past, 

stop saying u understand my feeling, u dont

i've thinking of givin up tis relationship for times

but failed,

i miss touching ur face, look into ur eyes and say "i love u"

things seems change

ppl change...

who knows wat happen in 2013 July?

im stil going Taiwan with them?

is 2012 dec end of the world?

no body know wat might happen

but i know, right now, my broken heart

make me so so down n couldn't find a solution

quit my job is the solution?

or it is not bout my working time anymore?

u say u nvr change,

all guys said the same! LOL! but they actually did!

stop lying to me when i already know the truth

stop make fun in front of me when im damn serious bout our relationship!

stop ur fucking childish act wen im having a heartache time!

got it?!

My 22nd Birthday - The Pil

23 September 2012

Happy Belated Birthday to myself
hey, sexy lady~ u enjoy ur birthday so much huh?

let's start my story^^
22 September 2012
i hang out wit all my lovely college frens after work
in the office was reli reli busy,
so wen i came out frm toilet, someone pressed the doorbell
a lady holding a bouquet o.O
i was so surprise n excited, my first time receiving a bouquet weii!
(but a bit disappointed wen i know he used to bought one for my fren too)
 after work, William (my driver) came n fetch me wit my old fren (fer haru)
after all the misunderstanding v headed a place tat i would like to go

Ficelle Boulangerie Patisserie

im so surprise tat they actually organized it there

after a lunch with bunch of frenssss

v had second round at a cake shop

awesome cakes as dessert~ yummy!!!!

 

after tat, v planned to have dinner at (Snowy beer) 2008 Snow located near pantai cheras hospital, behind the may bank

some of them couldn't find the place again

(I wonder y all the places v organized is hard to be found)

the dinner is reli nice and thanks to some 'talkactive' fella tat make it lively and fun

Thanks for the cake at last from RT Pastry

is't only me? but the cake is REAL NICE!!!

love it so much!!!

 

last round, is chosen by mayi, ICB opposite leisuremall)

is a very good place for non-smokers to drink!

they hv non smokin drinkin area and v ordered 2 towers paid by me n my bii^^

v even count down from 2359-0000 (23 Sept 2012)

thank u so much everyone of u,

Wan Yin Mayi Fer Haru

William Anson Nyny Boon Kiat Cheetah Chee Leong Kenny 

 

 

on 23 September 2012

i noticed my leg allergic (since ytd) is getting worst

applied some cream n took a medicine n heading to church

(thank u my boy for following us to church tis week)

after the service i was damn sleepy coz of the medicine

i nvr know it was tis strong til i get frustrated n even scream at my boy in front of my brother

so sorry for tat!!==lll

 

v went kinkin ban mee for lunch den took a nap before heading dessert shop

had some dessert den my boy sent me to sis's house

family dinner time! all nice food n cost RM200++

omg!!!! daddy even bought me a birthday cake!

he called me to ask which one i like~

wat a nice dad!!! im so touch!!!

i love my family damn much!

after dinner go to my sis house again to cut the cake

on the way bac home im dead again bcoz of the medicine

the whole day i've been dying 

(other plan i force myself to keep awake, else i will shut down automatically)

thanks to the medicine on my birthday TT (#%*@%^$*@%@)

thank u for everything once again!

i reli love u all! muacks~~~

 

ps: my bii bought me a Fossil watch, bronze colour! DAMN LOVE IT!

 

Birthday Countdown

Hi people, Hi Blog
weird rite wen i actually talking to blog? LOL
i've started my workin life for 3rd months
the best thing of being a Media Monitoring Executive is
1- u gt ur gaji
2- u know everything on newspaper
3- will nt meet traffic jam
the bad thing bout tis job is
1-u need to wake up damn early (530am)
2- saturday need to work until 12pm
i guess, the only bad thing could cover all the goods for a youngster like me TT

back to my life,
so far so good, day by day, everyday repeat the same thing
after work (330pm) go home take a nap, dinner
sometime meet my boy for awhile
around 10+ is time for bed
time is never enough, not enough for my family or my boy neither
coz he is busy working, after his work basically is almost the time im off to bed
so, weekdays we hardly spend time tgt
wen v had wonderful time tgt, the next time im gonna b like a zombie
(nt enough sleep)

last time, i only drink teh wen i hv headache (nt enough sleep will cause headache)
but lately, i take 1 teh per day
imagine how tired my body is

weekend, is the only day i able to rest
only if he go bac hometown
if he is at KL, i will meet him for sure
Sunday-is Church day & family day
therefore, none of the day i can really sleep late or sleep tight
i miss HOLIDAY so much

in this 3 mths, thr r few holidays lik raya merdeka n hari msia
but, i will b either working o holiday wit my boy
(im sure some of u must b jealous =p)

honestly, this job doesnt suit me,
or maybe i hvt gt use to it yet
coz i dn reli talk much in the office
only wen im in super hyper mood
basically, i talk a lot wen i reach home o wen i gt to meet my frens
sorry for bein too talkactive wen i meet u guys,
according to a research, a women speaks 16000 words per day
i guess i collected a lot xD wakakakaka

i miss college life so damn much...
really~ so much!!!

recently colleague bought movies for us, i've watched a lot of movies during and after working hour
life is fragile, i always hv tis feelin tat sumtin bad gonna happen
btw, i just sign the organ donation, i wish someone can benefit tho i died
is't negative thinkin? or maybe v can say,
it makes me appreciate wat i have~

tat's all for today,
finally i hv the little time to blog
to express myself
to update my life to those who cares bout me
and, thank u for reading it

by: Asther Tan (my working name ^^)

End of July

after sometime, im bac to blog again...
Blog, used to be a place to hide my feeling
used to be a place to express my feeling
used to be a place I share about my college...studies...friends...
but now, im no longer a small girl, no longer a degree student...
i've completed my study...gt my result which is average around B
no more exams, no more assignments, no more attend classes, no more classmates
is totally a new life for me....[WORKING LIFE]

now i feel how adults felt...
v need vacation, v miss natural...which i duno how to appreciate b4
grrrr...i miss bukit bukit....beach....waterfall....everything
especially, Azalia, my fren....everything around me reminds me of our memories
whr v used to go, whr we've been, wat v did...the way v walk from car park to class
i miss coll life so damn much

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besides wat i miss so much
i've met the best guy i've ever met so far...
he is cute, caring, mature, someone i can rely on him
yet, he is hot temper just like me, notty lik a child sometime, selfish sometime
but, no one is perfect rite?
he will always b my mr.R!

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recently im watching a drama "i need romance 2012"
very nice drama, is korean drama
bout the couple tgt for long long time n after broke up
she started a new life but the guy seems lik hidin somethin
somethin they said which is so true

这些事情我已经不是第一次做了
他应该也不是第一次
他应该也会想起之前的回忆
爱情故事就是这样的重叠着

but for me, i will try not to do wat i used to do wit other guys to the current bf
past is past...i wan create new memory for us...
i wan our memory replace my old memories...
coz, im in love wit the current US!