I should be working on my "homework", but ehh, useless. I'm coughing a lot lately, and it's not really fun, especially when it's a running day. Oh, but I felt proud, I got 8:26 on the mile run today ~ I improved by one whole minute, ^ ^. I become agitated so easily now-a-days... I feel as if I'm letting everything slip away, but... I want that don't I? I don't know.... I'm lost in my own thoughts, etc. Maybe that's why I'm such a horrible blogger, I'm not good with words or anything, or speaking... I just feel so alone.... even if there is people around me to talk to me. I still feel it, it's still there, no matter how big the crowd is. Most of the time, I do enjoy being alone though, haha, more..."peaceful" and "relaxed", nothing to worry about. Being around people makes me feel uncomfortable anyways... But I feel so isolated from everything. Just pondering about things~ Eh, life is hard, especially when I know what I'm capable of reaching to... My life seems like it has a limit placed on me, and I despite that. If I worked really hard, would you guarantee to show me some positive results? Well, I should shower, homework, and sleep...get ready for the new day that awaits me...

Staying with one thing/object/etc for too long can really bore me,
letting things go, seems to be no problem for me anymore.

Face the world, and what it brings to you.

April insisted I draw her one too :D

I'm afraid that I've fallen for you, or you can say...attracted.
Even if it's in the distant, I don't mind.
I'll still be able to see you, and for me, it's okay.

To be able to reach it, I need to grasp it with all my might...
before it fly's away and I'll have to start fresh once again.

Drawing what I wish to see each day.

Random scenery has been going through my mind each time I look out my window and see how to weather is like. Well, I'm thinking about drawing each day at least one picture where I would wish to be that day. Just something to keep my occupied, haha!~ I'll see, let's see how tomorrow will turn out like.

When I was taking a nap this evening, I had a dream... hmmm... it was taken place in the previous place where I used to live. Awkward. It had some kind of suspense, fear. Don't really want to think about it, so.... I don't feel accomplish at all today... I don't think I did anything to be proud about today, agh, that's a bad sign. Well, tomorrow is a new day, looking forward to it ~ I just want to explore explore explore!

Fahrenheit - 一个人流浪

Because no one understands me, so I chose to separate myself from this world
I’m feeling a little tired, my belief is broken now
My white sneakers, can’t bring me back to the bustling seaside again
The light of the moon, brightens up a lot of smiles
The crazy pictures stop in front of me, but our mutual understandings have gone far from us
The future that we promised to endeavor together, now it is me alone who is walking towards it


I roam among the crowded past, reminisce the free summer I’ve gone through
Sitting alone beside the merry road, the beer did not turn sweet, but I lost the silly but serious ambition
I roam along the lonely border, missing the days I laughed happily
Listening to the familiar music, but the piano melody is no longer there
I hope I could go back to the day that the misunderstanding happened
And had a chance to apologize

Seeeing what is in front of me

I feel much more relaxed today somehow...haha. Thanks, whatever the reason is.

You know what I can't stand? People, in general, who are inconsiderate, self-pitying, and ______. They get upset when you do something they have been doing millions of time. What the heck. Why should I keep repeating the same things I do then? I'm not appreciated for it, instead, it's the other way around. What do you expect me to do? Just take in everything they throw at me? I'm not going to be used up for such an idiotic reason. I'm not born to satisfy you in any way, I see no point now. Do you NOT see anything at all?????? You bring up all these excuses to make me feel like I'm such a terrible person. What about you? Do you even have the SLIGHTEST feeling of regret? No. I'm guessing no on how you behave. I sometimes can't stand you, I, have things to worry about and take care of, I don't need more silly things. I don't want to just give in. Do I seem so free to you?? Is it because I don't express my problems? My worries? Do you really want me to brag to you about my life to make you understand? You never supported me in any way. This is pathetic. You always notice the bad things I've done, but never the good. This won't do me any good anyways.

If you're going to be such an bother, I can be the same.

I wonder why some of our hard efforts never pay off in anything, it becomes worse.

GReeeeN - 愛唄

“To you, my love” Listen to this and don’t laugh
“I love you” is so cheesy
But I can’t think of any other way to say it
See! You laughed at me again

Is this road, this life you’ve chosen good enough for you?
I don’t know, but…

Just standing by your side
On these days we spend laughing and crying
Is the meaning of my life
And I sing this love song for you

“Hey, what did we talk about then?”
The day we first met we were so formal with each other
Since then so many things have happened, we’ve even fought
And spent time together getting to understand each other

We met under this wide sky of ours and fell in love, forever

Just standing by your side
On these days we spend laughing and crying
Is the meaning of the life I spend with you
And I sing this love song for you

Sorry for causing you trouble all the time
The time we’ve spent together has been packed full of events, hasn’t it?
We spend day after day
And the love we’ve created grows
I’ll send this crap song to you
I’ll swear to God, “I’m crazy about you!”
I’ll keep holding your hand

As long as my voice goes on
I’ll keep singing by your side
When I get old and lose my voice, I’ll keep holding your hand

Thank you isn’t enough to say this
Let’s share our tearful smiles and sadness and happiness for the rest of our lives
Night after night
I’ll sing about my love with you

It just irritates me so much when I feel as if there isn't enough time anymore. I'm so determined to accomplish many things, and at the same time, I'm creating more new goals... I'll never be able to complete one if I just keep piling more and more... but that's where I'm in thought about a lot, there's too many things to do, and I feel overwhelmed by these feelings. I'll even shut the doors. --I didn't manage to accomplish much these past few months, so I'll begin now, and every other day that comes. I just want to explore, explore explore, and not allow the heavy burden fall upon me, I can let go of these emotions and lift myself back up. If you're just going to push me back, I'm no longer going to try to push myself back up just for you.