*no idea*

hmm.. merry xmas!!! haha,.. this xmas not tht enjoying.. but still ok, coz i got present!! a discman! did i say tht b4? nvm la.. i slept the whole day today.. and an earth quake happened in sumatra today,.. north sumatra i think.. it happen at 9 am like tht.. the quake could be felt until penang there.. btu not here in melaka.. ouch! i really wanna fel the quake lar.. should be a nice experience.. many ppl think i mad.. btu i am not la.. juz wanna experience it mar.. ahha.. anywy, i am so tired and sad.. BENDDJE neveer reply my sms.. so sad.. hope BENDDJE is ok.. =)

merry xmas.... hohohohoho...

merry xmas!!! so tired... just got back frm kl and then went to popo's house.. got a present frm ah mai chin!! its a discman!! yay!! ahah.. then ah chip bought for me chocolates.. and other than that.. i got nothing else for this xmas.. aww,.. so sad... anyway, merry xmas!! oh, and skool will b starting bout 1 week more.. and i havent done all the homework already!! shit! i think i dont even know how to count already!! better get movin..!!

fatty bom bom me

wawawawawwawa... i eat so much jz now....!! die lar!! so fat d!! i muz diet again ba.. so tiring u noe.. but lucky jz now i got go jog.. not tht bad la... ahahahhaa.. anyway, i jz hate maself larrrrR!R!!!! donno why.. coz i am fat i guess..!! FAT! FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT!!! argh!!AEGHHHHHHHHHH!!

sob sob

wahahaha... wanna cry!!!! no one cares bout me le!!!! oh.. and merry christmas.. too early.. but better than never wish at all ryte?? wanna cry! no one cares bout me!! well, like i say, life's like that!

it's ma life..

Artist : Avril Lavigne Song : (So Much For) My Happy Ending So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh, oh... Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did? Was it something You said? Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be CHORUS You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh Oh oh, oh oh You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they But they don't know me Do they even know you? All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be CHORUS It's nice to know that you were there Thanks for acting like you cared And making me feel like I was the only one It's nice to know we had it all Thanks for watching as I fall And letting me know we were done CHORUS X 2 oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh, oh oh, oh...

*cries* sob sob

isk.. so bored back here in melaka.. miss everyone.. =(.. nobody seems to vare bout me.. so bad wan they all.. wanna cry!! =( .. all so bad wan.. i hate guys who treat me like tht.. but ilike them also.. haiyoh.. wat to do?????????????????? now i understand.. what love is.. anyway, i so so so so so so so so so fat already!!! scared someone dowan me lar! and i also miss dickson.. and i also miss swimming the most!! =( .. also miss penang.. how i wish i can go for national swimming meets next year,,.. btui know.. i just can dream.. it'll never come true!! =( .. go to hell lar me..

to be lost..

currently listening to simple plan: welcome to my life.. anyway, i will be going back to melaka tonite.. 11.30 pm bus.. then we not going singapore d.. so sad.. so, i guess that's all for my holidays this year! so bored one.. and no one just wanna sms me back.. i feel hurt and lost.. exactly like the song welcome to my life.. no one just cares bout my feeling.. how am i supposed to carry on like this?? i just dont understand,! and it's gonna be a sad nite.. coz i will have to say buhbye to sam and jae mie and my csi!! =( ... welcome to my life do you ever fell like breaking down? do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow u just dont belong and no one understands you do u ver wanna run away? do you lock yourself in ur room with the radio turned up so loud so that no one hears you screaming * chorus no u dont know what its like when nothing feels alright no u dont know what its like to be like me to be hurt to feel lost to be left out in the dark to be kicked when ur down to feel like u've been pushed around to be on the edge of breaking down and no ones there to save you no u dont know what its like welcome to my life *chorus ends do u wanna be somebody else? are u sick of feeling so left out? r u desperate to find someth8inig more before ur life is over? r u stuck inside a world u hate? r u sick of everyone around? with the big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside u r bleeding *repeat chorus*

wanna cry..

hie.. it's 3.42 am now and i m in penang.. cant sleep.. donno why.. its just that i feel like all my frens are just not my frens anymore.. i am like a srtanger to them.. why? i really hate this situation u know.. being ignored.. very very irritating.. and some people just wont switch on their handphones.. which really pisses me off.. well, since they switch off their handphone, i also did the same.. and man!! i am so fat already!!

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wawawa!! so bored.. i also put on weight already!! i mean.. i ate so little yesterday.. plus i went jogging.. i put on 1 kg lar!! so sad lr.. stupid body of mine!!

wanna cry....

in penang now.. i mean in bukit mertajam.. will be here until december 6 like that.. i just checked out from gurney hotel this morning,.. so sad to check out. wanna knw why? coz the lift boy is so cute! ahaha.. luckily i got his number.. sms-ed each other yesterday.. very fun! but then when i sms-ed him this morning, he never reply until now- in the evening!! wa wa wa.. wanna cry lor!! but he's really really cute lor..

haiyah~

elo.. back here d! wow.. the trip was so nice! i am tired now.. but dont wanna sleep.. tomorrow have to travel again.. and i am very HUNGRY now!!

welcome to my life..

hiah~ just another day.. getting fatter and fatter.. but yay! i going for my school trip in about maybe 14 hours time? i can't wait lor! haha.. and i'll come back on 20th and on 21st i'll have to leave for KL and penang.. so, i think it means i'll not be online-ing for a long time?? maybe.. but.. i'll enjoy myslef there!! doing what i want.. ahah.. while all those dorks stay here.. -quit-

...... wat u think?...

hey, it's me again! haha.. it's around 4.30 am in the morn and i am still awake!! haha.. i didnt sleep at all la actually.. was exercising downstairs.. and i made up my mind to not sleep the whole nite!! later around 7.30 like that i go jogging.. then go cut hair! yay! haha.. i so noti lar.. i think i must be good gal d.. must not online always and must stay healthy!! and u actually believe i am gonna do that?? haha.. anyway, chowz~

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arafat is dead!! OMG! i mean i am so sad.. seriously la.. arafat is cute.. dont u think? i think so.. i really appreciate what he did for his country.. i'll remember his cute face anyway.. ok, enough bout him! anyway, today i got no feeligs.. so, need to stop here... !!

shit lar!...

alamak!! i so extra fat oledi!!! i think i ut on about 10 kilos already.. and the weather is so... wet?? cant even go jogging lo.. see lar.. god also dowan help me la.. so sad.. this holidays sure i get fat wan.. eat already then go and sleep.. how not so fat?? and i am so so bored.. wanna karaoke.. but songs that i have all not nice wan.. i cannto reach the pitch.. haha.. it's very annoying waiting for my trip on 16 november! cant wait to get out of the house!! going out with friends, shopping, taking pictures, etc etc.. it's gonna be a long way counting to that day!!

aaarrggghhH!!!

i am so bored and so pissed ...!!! i donno how to explain how i feel now.. like, why is everyone treating me like i dont exist?? and i am so pissed!! i also donno what to say and what to do now!!!! go to hell lar!

i mean.. OMG! and WTF????

omg! so tired.. yesterday and today need to go koperasi and count stock.. so dirty and messy! yuck!!!! but i still have to do it becoz i am the juruaudit dalaman for the koperasi.. i have to count stock every end of the month! can u believe it?? i'll die once every month.. haha.. anyway, i am quite angry today.. people are just so............ i also donno how to describe la.. but people just dont care about my feelings already.. all the work i have to do in school.. DAMN!! f_uck them la!! and i so FAT already! these few days every evening rain.. how to go jog la? u see la, GOD also dowan help me la..!!

haha...

yes! again.. online in skool.. i just love it.. but i am so bored la.. coz yesterday nite just online only.. and now i so sad d.. coz i check my friendster and am dissapointed about something... y is the world so unfair to me?? i mean.... nothing is on my side now.. this happened last time.. but later, i got luck again.. and now, this stupid bad luck thingy is happening to me again... and again i would like to say this: I-A-M-S-O-P-I-S-S-E-D!!!!

yay!

yay! i now in skool online! teacher let us online in skooL!! i love my teacher muaks muaks!! hhahahaa... anyway, i am so tired and sleepy now.. last night sleep so late.. exercise and exercise.. but then i feel fatter after exercise.. haih~ now so sienz... nothing to do.. i just online yesterday only.... if i know then yesterday dowan online.. waste time and money nia..haiyah.. so bored... nvm la.. next day only i blog again.. now i wanna help my fren find something.. llike duh~ she's so irritating and lazy!! ahha..

WTF?????

WTF was i thinking when i ate just now??? i mean, OMG! i have been waiting for so long for it not to rain in da evening to go joggin... and i am so damn lucky just now never rain, so i went jogging lar.. btu then i screwed up at dinner.. i ate so much.. and now i cant even sit down.. i'm kneeling and typing this u noe.. I AM SO BLOATED!!!!!! tomorro i must go on strict diet d.. i will go on diet for like... FOREVER?? hmm.... maybe lar.. haha.... anyway, i WILL and i AM going to thin down!!!!

i FAT d!!

omg! i'm am so pissed! another fren of mine sucks!!!!!!!!!!! i mean, i'm fat already.. and i wan to go jog u noe.. to slim down.. but that day wednesday, after tuition about 6.30 like that, i wanted to cycle home quickly and go jogging before it gets dark.. it's my weekyl routine.. but then my stupid and annoying and disrespectful fren.. say i canot go home! coz seh wanna chat with me while waiting for her mom.. and her ask her mom to come late.. i mean HELLOOOOOOO!!!! i ahve a life too ok.. and now u see... i'm so fat already! i'm gonna kill that fren of mine if i get fatter!!!!!!!!!! AARARARARARRAGGGHHHHHHHHHHUHHHH!!!! she thinks she's my what?? even my mom is nto like that lar... she is a fucking bitch!!! and wateva bad words are meant for her! she's very lucky i never slap her that day.. she is so irritating!! i've never liked her from the moment i looked at her!!!!! she's very lucky i still fren her.. SHE"S ONE LUCKY BITCH!!!!!!

i hate myself

omg! i just hate myself and everyone in this world!~ my friend is so so so disrespectful to me.. i didnt let her see my pencil case coz of my private things.. and she just snatched my pencil case and look at my private thing!!!!!! i HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!! it gets very annoying u know.. i trust her.. and she does this to me.. !!! and i hate myself becoz i am so FAT!! i just dont know what to do now..... i wonder how i managed to slim down so much last time.. and now i cant do it.. why why why?????????????????????? i just dont know what to do now... I-A-M-A-P-I-S-S-E-D-L-O-S-E-R!!!!!!!!! <--- read that?? thats what i am now!!!

aaarrrggghhh!!

i just started this today.. i think i got an account in this blogger thingy before.. but cannot remember.. so it doesnt matter la.. today or yesterday ( 25 oct.2004) is the worst day of my life... this stupid teacher came into class and scolded me for no reason!! hey, it wasnt my fault ok, sir!! he just came in and scolded me.. he's C_R_A_Z_Y!! anyway, i'm so fat already.. didnt jog today.. so long d didnt go swimming, play badminton, squash, bowling, etc... miss playing those sports lar.. but then i fat d.. later wear swimming costume look very very ugly!! .. it'd time to slim down AGAIN!!.. its not easy u know...