Contentment

I was just thinking about "Contentment". Why is it so hard to be contented? How do we know that it's enough? It's always easy to say that I want to live a contented life, yet the things I do in my everyday life doesn't quite seem to be congruent with what I say. Yesterday, someone spoke about "self gratification" and all of a sudden, this idea swept me powerfully.

You see, I've been procrastinating much in life recently, almost in everything I do. I do get things done eventually, but the inertia seems too great to surmount each time I want to get down to doing something. I know it's my fault and I can't blame anyne for my lackadaisical attitude. Maybe I've been wanting to pursue the little self gratifications in life like "Let me watch this episode first, and I'll be motivated to start on the assignment" or "Let me take a nap first and I'll be recharged to do this" or "Let me do this first and I'll do that"etc. I can think of a million excuses not to do something and somehow I guess it really boils down to self gratification. Sure there's nothing wrong in doing what you like, but I guess there are some things in life we are responsible to finish up first before we enjoy other stuffs later. Maybe I've been indulging too much in self gratification that subconsciously makes me drift away from my responsibilities in life.

So what's wrong with self gratification? I think it somehow links to the idea of contentment. When one pursues self gratification, the person focuses on the short term, instantaneous pleasures and ignores the future consequences/repercussions. The idea that you want to satsify your immediate self satisfaction does reveal somewhat that you are not very contented. For if you are contented, then often you'll not find yourself in want.

Wow what have I done to myself?? O.o

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you"" -Hebrews 13:5